happy new year 2015

how shld i start this. ytd,, ok i try myy best blog more often

so ytd.
gosh last night had a wonderufl time playign msoothly game.. then when im in tummy ache. no choce but to abadon whole plan =.= gosh. pan dashed.

but anyway yea...

and.. oh. i was heading home eh.. and. .gosh. one of the most random thing.. .

i heard a person calling to me hi or something.. corner of my eye saw a person. i tot stranger? .. but then i decided to turned my head further cos maybe thats my fren.. cos that hi voice is like. .so frenly. then skali. .... it s aguy ...and his hand was liek ..'peace' sign.. .he has a baord in his hand maybbe that tointerview or sumtin? but yea. i could see thrat coupke of ppl turning heads to look at us. cos hello. hes the only one who said hi abit louudly in mrt underground. who cant hear him =.= i walked on still gosh. i do wanna another person to say.. 'give me bak my heart'. rememerb?

anyway,, so awkward

today.. new yr eve...

shocking. din realzied its 2015 till mrg..

how do u feel abt that.

theres..... more downs than ups in 2014 for me..
being unhealthy.. didnt know where im heading....

myy local was tlaking to me how aussie rm oi to a young lady ocs she cut quque in fron tof her in mrt. LOL .yes muy rm is daring=.= in case u din know haha.

she say its a lesson taught for her.

lool...
was like. .rrly curious how her bf can be her bf. u know. liek so .. .accepting how crazy she is.

rm is  sooooo impatience. .the aussie one.
my rm local one. say maybe her bf is a patience one.  cos my au rm sooo impatience. omg. i cant tell u ..

anwyay yyea.. true. if he's not aptience.. .then i cant imagine how they are together.
cos .. she the most impatience one... and if her bf also. how can things work out??
my locak rm say thast why her bf shld be the v patience one.

mm.. hls job bah hor. .cos he's photographer. .

nyway.

to my pleasent surprise, my rm todl me. .. me and my asm, is the most patience ppl. i was like. wow..?
i am? O.o
i dunno whyy she said that. .i didnt ask though curious. .butim flattered. cos patience is a viture. and.. for her to htink that i have patience, i am v glad .flattered desu =)

cos there's a troubled m fulltime coming to our storeT_T huuu... nda yea. she told her my store. .me and my asm are the most patience pp. so we can help her. gosh i hope she can wor=

anyway yea...

sammy is right alot of malays lazy.

long story short. ut yea. that fulltime is malay. another one at ps uotlt. .also. then yea. say previous workplace customr approach her. not she approach the, omg. wth

anway.. .etetc. gd tat my rm think i hav the best patience among all managers lol
in real life.. mmm actualy .. i think im gd ne.

depends bah. but .. .yea. i think preetty gd. Cept when hungry. Hungry us an angry person for me. If v v v v hungry ha.cos i like food n

mm... just abt 1mobth...and me and him.. .7 yrs...
crazy huh...
i wish i could be treated like.. as though i first met him. durng the 'honey moon period' ha. .o well. .

years passed... but. .. yea.

i still cherish thos emoments. and uh huh till this day

kne wabt news of the plane thingy again =/

rrly.. i wonder to myself. .next flight plane. i shld prepare a gdbye farewell letter in case i dind make it back alive. it sike wth? paranoid? no. its not. better to be safe than sorry.

i ratherwrt edown my last words than having regrets in plae when im dying

far too often.. pl duno when they are gonna die. like instantly and suddenly

so yea..

liek that sunday. ..last sun.

i almost involved in a bus crashed. this bus stopped voilently  ya knoowliek. .gosh worse one yet.

not the first time. but that was the orst i think

anyway. sg still safe enuff

mm....

so.. happoy new year everyone.. stay saef and healthy. dont lie. love ur love ones.

and yea.. do not regret not saying ur last words..

ja amata

dont derserve this

slpy.. so slpy.. just wanna slp away. al troubles will begine


wwwwwwglad xmmas is over. but due to sales period.. theres still heaps of cutomers and stufs..

there are thinh tat i dpn get it

words said that arent fulfilll..


o welll

in the end pining of his vpice over skpy and game turns out nothing.

looking forward to taht for what

ppl don cae anyway


jaa

sighs..bored

M EXTREMELY TIRED///

opps  cap

ighs..
 long day.. 11 hrs=(((

 home play gae.
he's sti llstirt as alwasy..

duno have i done somehtin gwrong.
=/

then he wtn to slp earl in my time..and now im so bored.... and. .ea. no nice show tonight=((( sighs. v boring . boring satsuh as alwasy

i can expect him to stay wakey long with me too cos i duno he nid to slp early or somethig. then yea.  rrl y want him sl on time. think he hav work or somehtin to so by 130.ofc i see theitme i nid to let him go early...

so bored though..

likeduno what to do net=.=


why life so ored eh

xmas no spend with him.. ..o well.. .moat of the tim wewotn

mata

nightmare before and after xmas

soooooooooooooo freaking tired and lack of slp. i had a very very boring xmas day=( but whats great was that when i got back home late from work.. i bath. and i opened up pressy... i love all of the presents so much. what a great pressy year it is=))
that makes my night much better. now. im ba ck to bored mode. .= arghhhhhhhhh

and sammy is busy away. anad im like. ok. so this is xma.s so slpy and dead tired body.
goshhhh was htinking of heading out. but... too tired man=/

tv is sooo odisappointing. theres no nice shows going on. what happen?????/ =(((
borrringgggggggggggg

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i still hate xmas after all. sighs

mata

new world

sick and tired of things happening... so sianz.. maybe its time to give it a rest..

today was so hungry .. .then.. byy the time i had my meal at 3pm... yea. that kept me so full till now.. ok abit hungry now bbut not soso bad. noodles turned soggy so had to throw it away.
meep

was like trying out new game event thingy in new map thingy.. was gd . something new. rather than getting stucked no lvl up and cant go anywherer ==
ut the way they run was so fast. not concentrating for a sec, and thats it. like. where the heck everyone gone. frustrating .
tch
o well
thaats just how it is. hope that didnt cause him to feel too upset. 3 ppl ..i know. no patience de.
uh huh .
haha. just realized that

haiz.
just wana slp it all off

i rrly dislike dec every year=/

sighs o well

mata

fav game part

Lights off typing in bed withbphone

U know how its like..i feel sumtin is diff.. but u ca0nt cgange it..
Gosh dozing off

So yea Frustrating it is..

Anyway.  .. played game..again

Still like tat swimmibg part the most.was so sutprised n scared as though i held my breath ha

But yea.  Its rather difficult to fight away n slow.... =_= so u nidto fight alobg dide ither team n yea..find events etc.
Theres one bloody hard event thouvb. Ha wonder if anyone succeesed

Eyes closing!jaa mata cant opeb liap 0gjaaaaaa

Sory i typed with slpymodse p

Mata.

rip

sighs.. once again.. something bad happened.. out of the blue.. u know. suddenly ppl died.. big news. yea. .rrly out of the blue.. random day.. anythign can happen..

pics of flowers on the floor mourning the deaths. .at syd martin's place. .

that image immediately lead me to recalled a smiliar news.. .not quite. but its the same.. ppl left flowers on the floor.. .et.. .big news. the melbourne rape /murder case.
that irish woman... mm.. im so curious abt the c ase. .i wonde rhows the murderer now.. .
later will go check again bah

anyway.. yea. =/ its liek a big news. .and. ..o well. something sad bah..
just hope. .mm...  they can prevent such cases. .and how the hell ppl stil ldie. i dunno. police too fast rushes in and started shooting?
id unno man.. too eager to end this thing? so.. started shooting?
but anwyay... no turning back now

ppl died. .and. .yea. just hope i wont be there to witness such a thing on my holiday .can u magine being there while youre enjoying yourself. like outta the blue=.=
gosh

terrible.

k,, jaa

u know. finally xmas is gonna be over. yayyyyyyyyyy

mata

worst day ever. sick =(

terrible day today... though not my asm fault.. yet its suchbad timing =(

sigsh .worst day ever=*(((

i was so sic. yet im working 11 and half hrs.
losing my voice. ..runny nose... body like so weak..
gosh. worst day ever so far. =(

somemore working with newbie and not enuff manpower. wth

now im looking foraward to a gdnight sl.

though late aalrdy.
but yea. so slpy mypoor nose and throat. i don feel like talking liao

gdnite everyone . .*yawns.. .hopefully tmr will be better

ceo visit definitely on the rong day. asm on al also on wrong day. me sick. also on wrong day. all in same day.. = worst day

mata

creepy day and night T_T

tot i was getting better. .but then.. today i got worse. feeling so terrible now with my dang throat and nose. throat worse. shoot. i cant afford to get sick in dec. i cant.

so i wa slike rrly wondering.. .ok. so a guy can ..say not reply to a girl's msg when gaming. even till game over and its time for bed.
forgettable huh .o well.
most guys like that?

last night was terriblee. so was this mrg.

last night? not. two night ago i think.

lonog astoryy. this painting right in front of me.bros painting. at the top hanging. dropped twice i believed in the past. hit my leg my toes. bloody painful. i recaleld it was middle of night. ard 3am ish

and iw as aginast mum putting back up again. she did. so .. quite long.. .duno how many days. this time round. brow ith me to. but lights off cos i nid to slp he wanna play game. so on the back light. living room two lights. anyway. abt 1210am ish. this bloody painting dropped virously. rolled down.. .all the way straight landed next to my head. i am not even exaggerating. not joking. IT WAS A SCENE RIGHT OUT FROM A HORROR MOVIE.
uh uh. no joke. the sound was loud. grumbling down next to me. previously time it droppped straight. landed straight onto my toes. this time, it rolled allthe way next to my heaad. holy cow.its made of bloody heavy wood. i couldntve been knoced out right there and then. i couldnt even react cos it was that one se so fast. i look at the painting... didnt move an inch. .my eyes followde it till next to me. .then i look at my bro =.=
omg

scary

then i wanted to snapchat.. .share it lol .i dunno bah. my eyes or what. this white .. .so difficult to explain.. .this white.. .erm.. thingy... flew past my eyes so fast. i captured it into my pic snapchat at the end corner.
as though a tissuse felw past

but yea. its rather weird.
brrr.. .scary
told my colleague next tday

and this morning.... omg.
this mrg 9am plus...
coincidence perhaps. the speaker of our store. .theres static sounds. i tot ok maybe its the mall's thingy prob. then. the cd player on the songs by itself. i was like.wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
still kinda creepy thinking abt it. gosh.

anywya... argh

tough luck. just so glad im not in hospital now. rrly.. if htat thing knock into my head. sure faint. the way it fell so hardcore peeps. gosh

so.... i wa slike. .talking to my collegaue.. then. .long story short. i was like storming away in a jk manner. like. .u know..stomp2... turned and stomp walk away... . at that moment. i wa slike. .hey it felt as though i was doing the same thing when back in sg sammy was saying i was so cute stomping off.. .across the road.. say will nvr forget it .
i wa slike. .whats so cute.
them.. the moment i tot of that.. .my cololegaue screamed out.. omg youre sooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=.=
uh huh. deja vu huh. i wa slike... .what did i do. then was like. .could it be the same way i walked away when i was with him. at bedok on the way to his house i rememebr.
mm.. so yea. i dunno. but.. .
yea. believe me i have no idea whtas that all abt.
but. .i take that a s a compliment bah. cos i didnt try or intent to do any of it. ..it just came naturally to me. so yea. .
i wouldve been sahamed if i were to act that out. =.=
well. nowadays alot of women like to act cute so yea. .. some gone overboard type ha. gosh

huuu so sick. cant wait to slp
gosh ceo coming tmr. hope he wont stay long. .mm.. wonder if theres a chance ..i wanna ask him abt the bra store opening in sg.. why so long. .due to se* toy shld be.. .haiz. =/
if only ..sg can make it happen. too strict bah.
read news before in aust that theres complain abt the toys..then got kids etc.
but in the end they still open alot of outlets mah. 36?
outlets i eman

anyway. hope for the best!!!
mm... think theres something i forgot to mention.. nvr not it down so forgot

btw this restaurant.. like. .sounded like cheap sg brand name or something . tomato soup. but hey. its good. jsut that meat is too well done=.= overcooked i mena.
the waiter is a nerdy2... abit ... i dunno. is he.. u know. something wrong or waht. but he's v v v nice. great service. and so kind. my colleague also like his service.
so polite somemore. and attentive. even apologie for letting me abit long.
how many waiter will apologixe for u cos of tht eh.
so yea. great service. great food cept for overcooked meat.
if only more guys are simple like him how nice would the world be.
wil ldefinitely go back there again .

oh my throat and voice. .somemore today train ppl.. talked alot. huu

glad i rememebr for now what to type. .though. .thin ki still missed out something. .mm

jaa mata

softer flowy hair =)

holy cow. my hair is soooooo softtttttttttttt

thanks to this s brand hairmask
my two other frens bought the same one. the other haven use. one of them used. she say it made her her so hard and rough. not gd. so asked me to hurry try. i kept putting it off cos was tired etc. .cso decided to try. .and hey.it worked rrly well for me.
duno .maybe the way she applied? O.o
i was abit worried. but now im gd. hehe =)

so funny. my fulltime say country manager asked her abt me and asm bf.how aere we doing etc.
she was like. .huh? is she supposed to know? then country manager laughed. i duno ne. maybe shes jsut concerned abt us.

mm.. yea. i liek her way better than aussie rm

mm. what else.. .

oh last week this aussie senior manager came by and visited alot of our stores. and eevryone was liek going gaga over him.say he look like the skiny version of huge jackman. the wolfverine.

but yea. they were al lraving abt how handsome he is. lol................
ok la. gdlooking. no wonder even sg rm was like. .hes so handsome right.. lol


omg. first week into dec alrdy. say whattttttttttttttttttt
on the other hand.. .just few more weeks and nightmare before xma swill finally be over.
and. .me and asm  cant wait for 2am shift to be ove T_T over. huuuuuuuuuuuuu
the worst is yet to come. ..

anyway.

so bored today.

mm.. me still dunno what to get for bro pressy. oh man=.=

tot of getting doctor who items.. but. none that i see he will rrly like or use.. haiyo

see how ba

rrly slpy. .ko in bus. gosh luckily woke up on time..

still rrly liek the pic he took... whilst i was at the escalator. i was so shy . i duno. im v shy when ppl tak epic of me. selfie ok la. but. .yea. haha

can see my tiny dimple there. ..  i rrly like that pc alot. mm.. if only i cna print it out ha.
frame it eh. chey XD lol


jaa mata

for ur love one move

i sm kind like tuked in my game somehow
stucked. yup.
ont been lvling up etc. .oh bother=.=

anywya... that aside.. mayb i'll find a way out somehow.. bubt yea..

erm.

m jus tbeen boring ocupe of  ydas. canu belivev it. its first week into month of dec wthhhhhhhhhh O.o

i cant wait. 19more days before xxma it s over

omg

and my 2am shift.. .boo huuT_T mayb the pain be over soon...........

sighs

anwyay. .my store.. .wow. for the first time ever, its ranked 18th. of all 2 hundred plus soters.or three.. .mm.. duno. or two hundreds. but yea.
i was like ..whoa.. .for real???????? 19th peeps ow3....
allthese tears and sweats peeps.. .been worth it... ayea. .its like. .rrly. tears and swetas for me heaps

i rrly  cant wai ttoget into hoiday mod for myself.. .rememebr what i'd said.. .in syd.. . abit lost. .and. .came across this restaurant. .and i went in. had a pink smoothie..and pasta. ..not teh best as alwasy.. but. .the feeling.... .is epic.

just me. relax. and.. .nothing of the work bothers me...

as mrg.. .even on off days.. work bothers us... uh huh.. .

i  can imagine being rgm too.. soehwo.. stil lwil lhave work msg to reply to..etc.

anyway. yea.

i ...rrly yearn for that time of year.. jsut .. .bbe it ith him or myself alone. .i want peacefule ness.
..serenity
just.. .time out for mylf to enjoy.

two yrs back ?

i rlry dislike how myself doing roster in a jap restaurant iwth sammy at night in syd
sghs

rrly. one must not let work takeover their life. nvr

oh did i mentioned last night ?

so.. my country mg .. u know her partner cant come ove.r and my aussie rgm.. so lucky. her bf is willing to come over to sg .. and they are living together now .. .
in sg.

it al come sdow to.. how much youre willign to give to be with the one u kove huh..

i dunno abt my country mrg... is his family that poor or what. .r is my c mrg that desperate...etv..c.. why cant they do something abt it..
whilst my rgm partner can.. .etc

u know. to eadch of his own....perhapsy due to ambition over lov.e or rrl its\ fnancial prob ...
idunno. but. .hoep all the best fo rmy c mrg.

i cantn find anyting for my bros pressyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy T_T
omg help

a guys pressy is as though as it gets. but this guy. he has everything he nids. then howwwwwwwwwwwww

huuuu

mata

'A' job?

hello...

been rrly busy for xmas period..

anyway..

myy country manager driped by the other day.. and yea. .etcetc. .then she was asking abt me and bf.. and she was like .she can feel me. .her bf in europe. and even though theyre both working adults,,.. apparantly he cant come over here. hes not willing to let go of his job in europe or somehting. so yea. .so wa slike. .hes not coming over fo ru? shes like no..

...sighs. i duno abt ehri situations. .but if rrly love another. .e will give up to be with her. thats what happened to my fren's fren. o well.. it all depends on the peeso themselves ba..

she say.. too many heartbreaks for this relationships to give up.

o well...

=/ i hope somehow they can wor it out together .. .i liek this country manager better than ausie rgm .though ive yet to sene the scary fierce side of her yet. ha. hope  wont ever.

but yea. .

haiz

erm.. .so ws watching this video.. and this hilarious coupe .well theyre frens not couple. this girl was saying. . eevry girl says oh they love blowjobs etc(sorta to impress their guys) but actually no. its liek bloody last hting on their list. lol .she uses the f word i uses the bloody word so yea.
she say.. blowjob is also called the A job.
mm.. menaing. .cos its v tough thats why its called A job> ?
mm.. interesting

but yea. anyway
then the guy was mumbing sumting abt  blowjob usually will take ard 25mins or so..
i was like. .mm. .yea abt there. .and i tot was long. so its normal ha.
but anyway. A job huh. haha. like so hard for the females as though. lol

dunno if thats true but yea. .anyway.

stiill coughing and voice bad.

not enough water

boo huu

jaa

quick blog again

hello jus a quickie here. .
soooooooooo slpy gosh

cant wait to slp as usual

my throat rrly took a turn for the worse. om. i cant . .no i dun wanna even speak now .nid to rest my throat. hu T_T i cant sick its xmas.. i cant sickkkkkk no mccccc

tonight gmae was boring for me. no lvl up=.= felt liek aday beenw asted haha.
next time perhaps bah.
wonde rif i shld go back hoem'

mm.. yea. if not stucked in weird places no monsters rrly boring .
waasting my time no lvl up though views is g

kk sooo slpy gtg

talk abt another stuffs next time when free nights

today ot a gd day. sighs. just not gd=( sad desu ... and im stil lstressed out . sighs

mata

perk me up mrg =)

it was such a .. .draggy mrg for me. .as i reluctantly get up for work.. =/ dragging my feet along..

then his msg perks me up. and makes me feel alil much better...
if not.. duno how imma get through this day.. .

its always nie to have someone msg u in mrg especially when youre feeling down eh..
it amkes the rest of day more bearable ne..

mm... anywya. working at 7am tmr. alrdy cant wait to hit the sack

oh what long day..
time flies.. .
i cant wait for april and feb

i look back at my pics where i had smoothie and pasta.. .i was alone. .wandering ard. .so hungry no breaky no lucnh. had late lunch. ..was shopping ard on my own. then finally found somepace where i could rest. ..so yea. .well. .syd nono have aloto of nice food places..affordable say hte least.. but yea. i like those moments. .alone me time. just ended up at a god knows where place. out of the blue. .uh huh. ..
so peaceful.. just sat down and eat on my own. .think that time sammy was slping whole day til late evening so yea. did alone shopping me time.

anywya yea. .was so frustarted couldnt rrly decide of where to eat. mm.. or did i msg him abt it. .i ant remeber liao.
anywya.. .yea. i rrly cant wait. apri.. .

k. gtg. check out abit of game n nid my slp. last night gosh... i couldnt slp well due to bro's dvd playing. .think tonight best that i slp in my room with cold floor. no lights. not much sound.

throat abit hurt... mm. .gotta drin more water ne. cant afford to be sick=/

jaa mata

stressful days lost my smile =(

hey... just feels like. .another day been wasted... =/

was so upset int he day. . cos pan runined. and.. yea.. in the end.. at night.. i compensate it. soyea..
though. ..

that didnt make me feel any better=/
sighs

im so upset and stress the whole of the day. ytd as well .
i feel like. i had no control over my lfe. im losing it.. and i didnt know how to steer the wheel anymore=/
that broke my heart
 just couldnt feel that im in control anymore. my life is in a mess  . sighs

trying jmy best nt to feel this way. but i cant help it =/

this mrg. it as dar and v cold. i was freezing.. .and it was 7a,. usually will be sunny. but liek i'd said its gloomy and dark. .raining.. .so nice to slp in. i wa sthinking to mysef. today i am grateful for... didnt have to wake up for work today. and just laze in  bed for this gloomy rain.

skype didnt go so well with him .. bad reception .alil difficult to understand whats he is saying. .then towards the end phone cut into silence. ..haiz

my throat a lil hurt today.. cant afford to be sick ya know

sighs...

oh yea. last night what i'd said i take it back. searched online. in the end the game girl will still die so yea. pointless for me trying to save her.
so i didnt feel so bad after that .

losing interest in everyting. sighs

i cant wait to slp .sad though .think nid to slp o n floor. in my room cos bro aint home yet .he needs to dine at living t=room as always. later liek that time . later he angry. we both upset .haiz

better i slp on cold floor right
then later i'll weep alone at night again =(

duno ba why i feel so extra down these days i cant even smile. im not happy.
perhaps work stresses me out too much. haiz.. .
o well.. .

jaa nights peepe..

wsh i have my smile back

mata

bad day. saved by game. regretted decision

there was a coupe of great fights tonight in my gameplay.
pretty exciting..
the storyline is getting interesting finally..

mm.. but. ..i duno why i nvr go with my hear.t like. .i was trying to mae a decision. to save viallage or the couple.
tch. now i regretted.
=(
i wonder hows it gonna be if i'd chose the coupe instead. but then more ppl wil die in the viallage. haiyoo... .duno la. but if turn back time. i think i will choose to hel him .
oh man ...
wish i could turn it back.. .

anywya, getting used to u know and stuffs. .. but luckily also theres sammy helping out. so yea.

so slpy todya. and.. .v bad mood.
feeling down cos stress abt bad sales and all . sighs.
=/
i duno what else ot do.

i feel liek ive lost control over my life. its not balance now.. .and.. yea. im kinda lsot here =/

at least duering game no nid think too much.. for now.

jaa mata. gonan slo soon

yet another stressful day/lecher

sighs. so stressed out yet again =( .. long story short. but pushing real hard for sales and the extraas... what couldve been done better? what ...
=/ i duno. m starting to feel negatve abt it.. .

sighs

was taking lift up .. waiting... this uncle was liek busy n his phone. then i walk.. he saw me he looked me up and down. =.= omg. we are n the same lift afterwards. from reflections ofdoors, and . omg i can see he's looking at me. wth.

my colleague say.. '' beware of ur cleveage i know u have big tits'
 i then realaized. gosh my dress got down so low. cos theme day by rm. so.. haiz. inthign to wear but that.. abti lowcut.

tats why that man look at me eh. omg .lecher!!!!
the length of dress v short. thats why i word a mini saffe shorts underneath it. but.. yea. ifthats why me din wea that dress for so long liao

eyes tired.

gtg.

glad off tmr.
finally...

how muuch more stress can i take ne.. =/

jaa mata

stressful day and kinda sad night

i am sad=((((
just found out the game i purchased recently,.... is now having a 50percent off deal. sobxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxT_T omgggggggggg whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy only few days apart sobssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

sighs. what to do. whats done been done. =((

had such a great pain on my left shoulder when i played last night. then using the phone when sammy called without earpice.. .is a bad idea. i have no idea wheres my ear piece.
i think its my position height of chair?
its bloody sore .cos. used to be my right. first time its on my left.
v v painful
anywaya. was shocked i played till so late.
and yea. .
unsure if its due to my normal mouse (not gaing mouse ) and no mousemat, i find it difficult to use the cam functon. anyway. will see how it goes. still need to gt used to it.
its like my first proper game throiugh lappy. allthis while ive been playing playstation

mm.. yea. so thats that.


today i was so stressed out i wanna cry. y team mates also pretty stress. i don wan them to know im stress. but. ..sighs. its jsut so obvious .
so rm wan avg above 35. by 6 we nid to call  her if we cant hit it.
then heard one asm in town area kena f by rm in mrg. cos sales aint that gd. that asm actulally open 30mins longer in orde rto hit abit more. but not up to her standard. so yea. i heard my asm told me.. she kena f. omg.
told u so. rm gets moody and mad, shes badass kicker.

then blah3... .thank god. when she called her mood changes for the better. always like that. lke another person sudddenly.
gosh .i was almost shaking when i spoke to her on the phone=/
and breaktime no appetite. was so stressed out i wanna cry.
sighs....
ppl quit... not just look at sm. u gotta look at ur rm too.

haiz. liek that ...

was tlaking abt having own business or somethnig with him the other day. then was like.. i dunno man. then .. end up... i was like. .maybe sell spicy food ?v v spicy type. ha. or with level type lol
but yea. he's liek will it sel...

well... .if youre talking abt aust.. .it might. cos. ..hello>?????/ where can u find spicy food u tell me =.=......... gosh i will definitely head to a place wherer they sell extremely spicy food.
or the authentic say.. spicy curry or spicy laksa.. .spicy fishballs... etc.
sambal sauce can be lvl for 1.
cos its.. .well.. .erm. for me aint spicy at all.
belachan higher levl abit. the mee soto type of chii. . .wooo my fav. even higher. i asked many ppl. many ppl gave me dif recipe and tips. dunno who to listen ne.
tried once myself though .

anyway.
ok thats that.

wish me luck tmr.
oh yea. on  a side note, me and colleague even spend money to hit 35 becos of rm. haiz

jaa mata

eat well

so slpy

gosh i realized nowadays i had my lucnh late aftnoon. and if im heading back for dinner, i wil lonly eat old chang kee for lunch. like just 2pcs.

ytd din had any breaks at all ocs it was hell bbusy man =/
its crazy sighs.

anyway. long story short.
i went back abit earlier due to no break. i din feel the hunger anynore. thankfully my collegue nice enough to get me a cuppa smoothie. aw

cant wait to slp more tonight.

tired3

my rm say theres alrdy 2 ppl resigned in her region. anow my fultimem also gona resign due to her knee injury. haiyo...
o well .soemtimes. .no choice ne. i shld visit my fulltim when she's in hospital. hoep her surgery wil lgo well

not sure anything else to add ne. .

jaa mata

slpy day

gosh.... todya.. whole day is a slpy day for me=(  its s o gloomy and dark cold day.. raininig3

omggggggggg

i cant wait to slp. i bath rrly quickly ya know. but cleaned through tuh

mrg.. .wakey early. .todl myself not to look at phoen for work msg.. but i sitll didi. ..stayed on till an hr.. then slp again before woken up by mums pohen acall=.=

gosh.


then online etc.. stomach rrly not gd last night.. .and.. yea.. .now much better than mrg

then late evening sighs. .a pity=

spoke to him on thephone abit.. before i ko.
from waiting so yea...

so wasted. its my off.
and.. from nap.. now im still slpy=.= \at the.. .

anyway... finay staredted a new game.. wow. cant wait. but.. .i still dunno how to play.
huu.

however.. .will try again ba

tonight rrly not enough time and energy to do it. wasted huu

wanted to blog somethign but forgot

anyway. wish me luck from rhe crazy csutoemr imma call tmr=/

haiz... .

so weird.. stil lcant belieev i spoke with him on the phone afteer so long. .liek so surreal... i asked him.. did i rrly spoke hwith him.. .

its liek a dream. .weird eh.. but gd dream in a way =)

tough luck

jaa amta

another tired day. massage no help

ytd.. .my team member suddenly wanna talk to me. i was shocked. tot she wanna quit.
but she actually wanna confide with me. telling me all her family probs etc...
both of us the same i realized.. .we don talk to anyone abtour probs. we knew its not healthy yet we cant help it.
i didnt tell her abt mine i just say personal prob.and she also didnt ask.
i listened to her. .and gave her my best advice...
the advice i gave her... ha. its simple. .and.. i rrly wish i could do it too myself. .but liek id'd said.. im better with advicing ppl...rather than myself. meep=.= ikr. haiz. .
its esay to advice other ppl.. but so difficult to do it yourself..to do it alone. .

such a tiriing day. i was thinking. .the massage power gone liao=.=
so freaking tired. sighs.
tmr gotta continue the work.. gotta find stuffs..etc..
and prepare for my team meeting. ..
sales... gosh. thank god i pusehd through the final 3 hrs. yet still ..so close=/

im so dehydrated.. each day... dunno. less than 5 or 4 cups of water.
cant drink too much alter eep going toilt is one hting. that aside. but biggest prob is. im alone. i cant close the dang store. so yea==
and yup. rgm don allow it either. uh huh. high pay? get on with it =.=

time passes so quickly...
and yea.. .

gosh.. i misses my longer hair. don worry. i learned my lesson. next time just an inch will do=.=
though... mm.. i... kinda like shorter abit too.. ha. still long la. but used to be V long
below my booobs
its... great that i cut away the u know. .abit split ends or dry ends...
hair.
and give it time to grow again. .
m..i think i miss more of playing with my hair..u know..twirl it ard with finger.. ha.
so shoick. bro in kl then to indo.. .
haiz. my holiday... .many months to go..


will do my best. xmas... 35 days(it hink) to go...
get the hell over with working till 2am and 12am shits etc.. .
i rrly3 cant wait for nightmare before mas ot be over....
=(
i keep telling myself. ..all these hardwork.. its becos of the pay...
so its worth it. .
thats what kept me going on.. .
luckily this sg rgm is way better to talk to than the aussie one. aussie one. .once bad mood, omg. gdluck.

kk. gtg. just got home and bath...
nid to slp in less than 2 hrs of rest+(

i wanted to slp early. but am so hungry now.
had my breakfast and lucnh combines at 5pm plus...
yea no breaky.only chicken essence.
then had satay bee hoon for my breaky /lunch/dinner combined.

gues snot filling enough. cos such small portion .=(

think imma eat maggie cup noodle again.

kk.. jaa mata ne
don think can slp that early liek i'd wanted to.. =/

u know. someitmes i cant wait to hit my 30s? lol .weird right.
thogh still theres few more yrs to go.
but i think that.. its the sexy age ya know .  like. abit yougner version of desperate housewife type. i dunno .theres something abt. .it. thats kinda special like. a total full woman with power now. hahha. =)

jaa


-go ahead and talk to all the girls. go ahead and tell each one you want them. continue to fool yourself. and in the middle of the night when u face reailty and you're done playing games, youll close your eyes and see who really matters. the memories will hurt you... you;; remember how much she cared... how much she kept holding on... and how she forgot about you just like you forgot about her. -

poor tired body

omg. past few days been wanting to blog. but rrly too tired and overworked. huuuu
i cant even spare 5mins typing here.

cos i need slppppppppp

so whats been happening. .
mm.. .yea. recently met up with my longggggg ago parttimer. when i was abt 20 i think? ard there. i met her. and suddenly she msg me. i can sense she needed somebody to be with maybe somehting is wrong. so she texxted me first. then blah2.. she say shld meet up one day.i say me free ...she say oh great she too etc

so yea. turned out that she just broken up. so yea..... i kne wit. there is something wrong. if not why ppl outta the blue text u.for  girl la. for guy usually is .. .u know=/=

so yea. ..
we were chatting. .and she say i look the same after all these years no change at all. and she complimneted me alot . ha. which is like in mrt. .and i was like. .err...thannk u.. like. .yea.rrly awkward.
i was looking away=.=
then she ask me whats my age. and she s liek whattt f***. no way etc. her fren happened to join us in  the middle. she asked her fren guess my age. =.= her fren guess is younger than her. she's 23. so what. im still 20 ar. vampire isit.
lol. .mm.. .i like that.. vampire!

erm. yea anyway.
at this bar. this waiter suddenly came up to me whilst we're chatting. he's like ..erm.. just wanna let u know. you're really beautiful. me and my fren were like.. .O.O... err... .i wa slike. .ok thanks....
then he took a few steps forward. then back again. say to my fren .. 'i mean you're beautiful too. '. he then say to me. .need to tel lur fren also later she catfight and scratch ur eyeballs or what.
haha'

...soo... i must thank him la save me from my fren =.=
omg. he then check out our table few times.
goodness

anyway, its gd though. glad im able to be by her side when she neede someone. her fren told me she couldnt company her. cos busy.so rrly glad i company (myfren).

i saw this lady next to us. with her partner.
shes'... she dressed up young. but her face features can tell shes mature. like. .35ish or so?
liek her makeup hair and dress liek v young but her face give her away.i think

then ...omg. LOL .she was taking a selfie... yes of herself.
and do the act cute innocent' face pout lip look. OMG................ inside a bar take selfie whilst her partner was away from table. sooooo ....omg. daring. but best part is. her face .. .so funny. i was gonna lol.
sorry to say this. i feel bad .but .. its like. ...she shouldnt do a cute' face. shes abit.. mature right .shld do a make sexy but noto too made up sexy lip natural look? if that make any sense at all.
if shes cute . .like certain staars still has a baby face even when 35. great exp : ch 8 actress fann wong.  .fann can do that la. but.. .not her la.. .omg.
i feel bad say ing this kind of things. .but. ..jsut wanna share thats all. like. .shes so daring man.if me sure v paiseh. somemore do till so obvious

went for a bloody painful massage again=.= omg....
my pain endurance is v good. but when i say pain. it rrly is dang pain. i straight away tel lthe guy. at this certain part of my knees...abit upwards..
he say my lower back at lot of wind=(
and my right feet big toe, v stiff. he ask i think alot isit. i say yes. haiz....
what to do. work3
i dreamt of work everydya=(((((((( today also sighs
oh yea. then the massager also get a shock of my age. he's like. maybe im small size thats why. ahh.. .oh i think gotta do with my genes ba. shld be right.

erm. did i mention this?

a guy came in looking fo rmy fren. hten send his regards and hi five me.
my fren say she dunn rrly know him. liek mysterious man. ask me why i anyhow hi five back. like. ..eh i think i talked abt this alrdy hor.
anyway. since type like. .yea. i wa slike. .paiseh la.. if i didnt he will be paiseh. like. .yea. dun wanna make ppl feel bad mah...
just so weird la. wanna a ct angmoh isit. that guy. weirdo

oh yea . then went trim my hair. .huuuu regret. next tie shld cut only one inch=.=
anwyay. this lady washing my hair and massage my neck .guess what. miss you're very tired ar?
even she can tel lfrom massaging my neck .=.=
see. tod u right. every massager always forever say the same thing to me. '' miss your body very tired'.
i knowww im tired. my body and mind ofc also tired.
=(
what to do.
sighs.

my fren the sm say she might quit next year look for better job. though her pay rrly is alot.
i dunno how much la.. but have a afeeling is over 4k.
cos if u went up...  Bplus store  shld be ard  3800 then town area she handled is aplus store.. .yea. u can calculate liao. wah.. liek that rgm job ...more pay la. siao liao. lol

anyway. noooo it came with a tired body.. .
yes.thats the rpice ba.
yea so sm say she's very tired. shes starting to feel draggy at work. .like not trrly looking forward to it. .
i understadn shes tired. cos rrly.. .its an insane job. pretty on the outside. but the truth is u gotta work ur ass off for this kind of pay.

it all comes down to.. health.. .passion.. worth it or not question. .or money 3.

k. .gtg.

gonna hol dmy first meeting this weekend. wish me luck

oh my poor body. .T_T

mata

dead tired again 12 hrs of work

so tired to my lmit..beyond limit=(
no energy to even smile or talk.
worked 7am till 8pm.
supposed to be 5. but then rgm gave me extra tasksand expect me to finish today=.=
so yea. ..
like as htough i can finish in an hour. came back from break was 4pm.
sigshs. .12 hrs of work... wanna die.

got home. .talking abt buying foodetc. .mum was like nvm can buy now. i was like no i dun wan now.
liek literally nearly lose my cool again was like. back facing them la. .. im very tired! worked ofrm 7-8 .am to pm btw.
so yea. i don wan eat now.
i cant man..
im so tired out and its not even bloody xmas yet=/

anyway thank god today is over. rrly. so glad. .

o well.

yea... this song.
'she's no you'  Jesse McCartney

this song  i totally forgot hw i used to liek it .i still does. was playing in my stores new cd haha.
first came across it  intro to me by him.
yea. it was a nice song. liek his voice too. and the lyrics.

then theres this song.

'steal my girl' by one direction. i like the lyrics. chrous
about.. .everybody wanna steal my girl
everybody wanna take her heart away
couple billion in the whole wide world
find another one cos she belongs to me

 i thinkthats pretty swt lyrics. for a bf to a gf.
aint it
haha

so yea. two nice songs in one cd. i rrly liek this month's cd.

jaa mata ne

busy wednesday. drop dead tired and slpy T_T

soooo slpy and tirred.

=.=

omg. my body is dead.
had a terrible slp.. kept dreamig of work. stressed and worries.. and waking up erly coulnt slp bac. gosh.. .it was terrible.
adn so much to do.
yea. .

it affected my dreams and slp.. i think.. .im rrly2 stressed ut. after tmr shld be fine ba?
but yea. im rrly looking forward to next week.

my colleague also kno wha. left a note for me ask me remember must eat.
i ended up eating at 4pm. just 2 old chang kee. so yea. cos dinner time alsmot. .if not later too full.
meep. so not gd
tmr shall aim to be healther .but... eh starting v early ne. haiyoo

no breakfast

my colleague funny la.
other let sm ask me if i know what that person always talk abt me when she's there.
she say she alwasy tell her(that sm) that my boobs v big. LOL. XD
omg. so paiseh lor. =.='' compliment la.. but. ..alamak. so funny she go and say that to other ppl ha.

theres this new features abt watsapp. the two blue arrows. meaning other party has read it.
some ppl dislike. cos they say alrdy watsapp is causing to break up some relationships. cos of the read signs .
like.. u read it. so why didnt u take that sec to reply  short one ya know. etc... so ppl don like.
or imagine even for work... yea.
its difficult to say cos maybe im in cinema. then i read it. see that not so imprt. then decided to reply back abit later.
mm..if that make sense. so yea. i understand
but.. .anyway. hard to say bah. some ppl always say busy. and tired. so yea. cannot msg.
most guys i think. even my fren's bf also same. more than one. =.=
o well. perhaps they dunno the meaning of using 5 secs to type a gdnight. or miss u but gonna slp cos blah2 just now.
i dunno. sometimes all it takes is one better than none msg.

so me and my colleagues were tlaking abt custores say look laike to certain celebrity. so she asked me. i say its her. this ch 8 actress.
then she's like .yea. from my nose up. my lips dont rrly look alike she say. its the upper part of face.
haha
 so funny

oh. i duno if thats a gd thig. but.. i was talking to my colleague. .and she's like. .you're so cute the way u tlak. == erm... o..k.. .what if im being serious. though that time not rrly la.
then that day meeting.. we all intro ourselves. i was shy ya knoow. and yea. .then after i sat down my aussie rgm was like haha. so cute. then ppl like giggling abit. ha. in a gd way la.
but i wanna be firmer leh.
haiyo.
mm... but i cant lose myself on the way uup..

anayway. im so dead tired an dslpy.
hopefully tmr wil llbe fine. the day i dread most is here =(
gosh.
wish me luck
whope wont kena scold for anything wrong. huu

jaa mata

meeting day

last night was a tough one. sighs. neede to slp early in living roo. bro needed to eat and watch tv,said he off ytd. so yea. tot of like. asking hi sit next to me by the tableand eat while i eat in the light duh. but blah3. maybe he's tired not in gd mood. blah..... 3 in the end he went into his room. play loud music. asked hi go out eat he didnt liek wan so i went into my room. with just my bloster. in the end he stil ldidnt stay i living tomm.
room

whatever. i made up my mind. i slpt on the narrow cold floor i had left with my rooom. on abit of aircon.. ..no blakie no nothing. no pillow. jsut cold floor and oh bloster.. and me. i felt so lonely =( was crying non stop

yea=/

i was crying.. .thinking of sad stuffs that'd happened.. .etc.. i was so upset abt everthing. i wishes to be living on my own.. i ended up slpt late and had sch a bad slp . cos no pillow and all so yea.

i edned up with only 4 hrs of slp prior to my big meeting==.

yea i think i performedvery well.

yup

i asnwered alot of questions

anyway

the nice ceo was there. .adn he shared wth us some stuffs.. .my sg rgm asked him. did he ever hav breakdowns. like cry throw things etc  due to stress...due to almost hitting the stores budgets but still didnt. . .he say no. he will only cry when theres something great happened. success.
he gone passed hte stage of breakadown.

he say nvr in his life had he come across a rgm who will nvr ry.

at least when they started, the first feww weeks they will cryat least once a week.

another questions posted. .what motivates him. he say... by the time u get to the top. its only urself who will motivtes u.
yea. .there's nobody else buturself.

i disagree. but...
yea. thats what he said. .

and the other the so  called fiercer abit ceo, heard he started fom scratch. and he's sm.. .then area manager. ..etc.. .then ceo sned him to london.. ten etc.. now he owns 15% of company shares. he's the ceo now.
yup. the so called 2nd ceo ? if that make sense.
no wonder he's fierce and strict. cos he did a great job in stores...and enables him to move up ... he's a sm at age 21? i think .
anwyay ua

wow

great journey

this kind ceo says.. .he like singapore alot. htats hwy he's living here. he's aussie vtw
he says maericans are even worse than aussies.
even if he's aussie, he don rrly care. he will say sg is great etc. and he can and will list out the bad stuffs abt aust ad its gov.. .u know what i mean...
so yea. but i was like .whoa. americans.. .worse? wow. he say he had frens americans frens. snobbish more than aussie. ..arrogant. ..etcetc

at one point hwe were tlaking abt some comp thingy. he wa slike. ''australia'' *pointed out his middle finger. hhaa. he was so called rooting us to win the comp.
i mena. yea. how cool is he. he don side with his own mates. u know.
like yea. he dislike them, he wil lsay it. wha the lieks abt sg. he will say it too.
like. ..yea. v ncie. for a aussie that its

i dunno why he described aussies as like.. not so nice ppl .like. .u know. americans are worse than aussies.. .but..

yea. oanyway.

he's sitl lso coll nontheless. honest . and yup.

gosh so hngry now. gonna hurry hit the sack. 4hrs of slp. and now 1plus.. .gosh. imma slp in.
stress is piling on peeps=/
stocktake coming up. .im.. .worried.sighs =( as though i ddint wanna go bcak to store... but.. i hae to. i must.

i.. .can only do my best and pray that i wont get soclded

jaa mata.

huu so hungry anad slpy

meeting coming up! grand place yay

hey all... disappeared for a few days again. huu.

was so stressed out that i even cried a lil in store. managed to get most things completed. then found out other scouple stores finished up faster cos they anyhow2.. alil incomplete here and there. =.=
and here i am stressing out to make it look good=_= anyway i rather have it look gd than have rgm ocming to ask me more questions

am excited for the big meeting tmr. at a hotel .and both ceo will be there. one abit mroe angel. the other abit ore devil. cos he's strict and fierce meep.
i like the yacht ceo better cos he's funnier and nicer. . friendly.

i cant wait for xmas to be over. this yr theres gonna be more pressies for em to get .gosh.
last yr just started so dunno anyone much. now.. yea. diff story.

gosh. the ost amount i gifts i need to prepare for xmas. but kinda fun too though. just. .need time. argh..
and money=.=

cant wait for my bonus. gonna pamper myself. i have my own shopping list for myself. .well. .sorta.

mm... yea. xmas is supposed to be a joyous occasion. but due to my job line, ... well. too bad i nvr get to enjoy it. =/ o well.

rrly slpy today. am hoping to slp early. but again... my bro yet to be home. bet he will on the lights later. haiz.

mm... yea.

just. ..rrly cant wait to get  this week over with.
nightmaere.. .

mm.. but wonder whats gonna happen at the meeeting though. .sure heaps of stuffs to cover and do. more stress coming eh
huu

haiz. k bah. jsut abt. .6 weeks pus to go?
uh huh.. .lets get it done and over with.
then jan. .shld be kinda busy too though i think .

an twait for hte day to be over tmr. after meeting. will be. ahhhhhh freedom

oh. yea. i mentioned right. john wick movie. yea i ddi. ha almost forgot. gosh cant wait to buy the dvd. today jsut bought cheap version of taken 2

mm.. .k. gtg.

jaa.

john wick. hell awesomely great! bravo =)

i couldnt feel the connection between me and my family sometimes... =/ i dunno. i... like being on my own more..
when can i live and love out on my own i wonder...

anyway ,

todya. lets talked abt keanu reeves. he was so big' in matrix. im not a huge fan. bro played his dvd i was like.. =.= meep...
whatever.

then. i started liking hi when i read news of his past. .his sad life. .his  sis.. .how he donated his earnings to blah3 cos of his sis.. . and his pregnant wife died in car crash i htink.. yea.. .he gave up his seats in mrt... omg. what a great star. u .. .don see that so often nowadasy. thats why i dont give a shi* abt justin bieber.
whatever hit sensation he is. not my type. stupid guy

anyway yea. kea is charming in his own ways. he's abt 50s?  i think  but he looks like 30 something so young. i rrly like his eyes . but anyway, main thing is his actions and his personaility.. .i am so sad for his past=(( but.. .yea.. .sighs. .i just hope he  can make it big in future....
cos his new movie, john wick, omg. rockssssss rocking my wolr d now. his timeslot sucks man... and locations sucks... so not available. .(((( so i woke up extra early just to determined i watch it . before its gone. so yea. though u know right. i had tough days at work.. and my body and min dsooooo tired. and. ..yea. yet i wake upself up...... for this. worth it? yes.

i was so slpy a d all u know how tired i am. but yea. i watched it. u know what. hell its worth it!!!!!

in fact, i managed to fin dit online wand watch the blurry version right now.
yea. first tie . i think. movie same twice a day

wow

so awesome

i like this movie alot cos.. .

no sex. no love. all abt actions . alabt faithfulness
and ofc his dog

sad that nice ppl are dead. but bad ppl died. he's alive. uh huh.

so im rrly happy with it =)))))

cant wait to get my hands on his dvd.

jsut so sad whythis movie not available island wide.. haizzzzzz =/

so limited.

oh man

anyway.

i cried... when his wife send hi his dog. and he cried..he kisses the last letter his wife send him... aw... =/
sobx...

and i cried also.. when i was in cinema... before movie started.

it was playing tis song.. 'feels like home'' (i think) by chantall soemthing. thte say her voice sounds like avrial lavineg

i hope the spelling is correct

her lyrics... brought me back..
and when i first played it... his eyes red... teary... we were in his room... ..i then hanged the topic by asking him which song in his phone cos i like.. .
anyway yea... i was sobbing pretty badly... few rows behind me was an.. uncle i htin. hope he din think im weir dlol

but yea... tiem flies.. secs passed... certain moments lives in ur heart forever... whilst others fades away... not becos u want to..b ut bec os.. perhaps too much busy life.. or too many nice memeories to recall....

that moment was special to me... and yes. i almost forgot abt it till today.. .
i wa slike. .hey.. that song soudns familiar!!

uh huh...

read this post once.. .this man wanna divource his wife  cos of another woman. .his woman then ask a favou. each till till before they sign contract(sumtin liek that) , he have to carry her to bed from living room or somehting . everynight night. thats what they did when they just got married.
he did that everyday without failed.. and he remembered how he loved his wife.. how he flet when they first got marreid.. .etc.. .
how he carried her to bedroom...

on the day..final day.. .he dtold his 'mistress' that hes not gonan divoure. she sla[ed him. he didnt car.e he ran home to tell his wife the gd news. but he found her dead. she commited sucide
she said ssomethign abt. ..why shee mad ehi does that. .cos.. dunno.. somehtin abt cos she wanna rememebr thhose moments with him. and relive it again .... its fb post perhaps u can find it.

but yea....

it was all too lat.e.

sighs

i was forcing myself not to touch on work topic topic today.. im getting pretty stressed out at the oment =(
i ind help.. =/

oh my new album is up yaya. finaly omg.
the uss 2014

next coming up is..... aquarium

heh



so yea. john wick. catch it whiel u  can. too bad the timeslot and cinema sucks. dunno why onoly gv and blah3 has it =(

the sotrline is what attracted me the most in the first palce.not the actor. though i know keanu is gret but yea...  the story line abt a devoted  assaasin .. .yea. .thtas whyat rrly attracted me to it.. and its so cool =) wow.. .such a grea t ovie. i know imma watch it for over 10 times soon. just like the same with ifndin gnemo... taken. .taken 2.. .etc.. uh huh ^^

such an awesome movie. reminded me of 'taken'

action packed john wick. pls be sure to watch it =)
he is so cool . i liek his personaility alot. on and off screen

a devoted cool killer loving his wife to the bones. and even gave up everything to be with her. and seekign revenge fr her. i mena. cmon. which girl wouldnt liek that

so yea definitely brok emy rcod by watching it twice =) yayyy worth it

jaa mata

endless of work

im so stressed out today. so freaking tired. =/ ... ytd worked 1PM till 215AM
i am dead tired. gosh. so much yet to be complleted.

thats 12 hrs of work in one day. wow. last night was crazy

my body aching. my sm in busy outlet. so she's liek till 3am. i was aso tempted u knoow. to stay till finish. but my rgm say i gotta leave. sighs

i woke up erly too. thinking abt how to complete my work

i dunno man. i wish HB will open in sg soon... i  dunno hows the pay like there.. but i rrly wanna work there ya know...

monday meeting i wnoder if theres any chance to ..mm.. perhaps ask abt this... bring this matter up to the ceo .. the nice one. hte one i met at the biggest ship in sg. haha. ya. he's very frenly nice humourous and charming
so yea very gald i get to see him again

but yea. just wondering.. if i shld pop the questiobn to him.. h,mm,.. he's over all.. the big boss ya know.. =/
wil lsee if i hav the chance ba..

and the theme is... lady in red=.=;.......
like. .say what. meeting also hav theme ar. at my previous palce theres sometimes colour themes.. but... this is .. what. lady in red.and meetin gin fancy grand hotel at clark quay.. gosh. other sm la.. came out with htis theme. .lady in red=.=
now im looking at hwat sort of red i could wear ...skalia got photot taking sessions again=.. =

my colleagues asked me am i losing weight.. .cos too busy in new store huh..
i dunno. i dunno if i am. i nvr weigh myself ya know.
so yea.

i dunno
im not the most healthiest perosn.. but.. .ya.. sad to say. sometimes i only had one meal a day.
so yea.. meep...

o well. .

dw.
tired as i am. dizzy as i am. at least im still standing now. i cant fall down in xmas time. no. not before hte nightmare of xmas. haha. i... alawasy say this line.. since my atz time..

so tired. .eyt im still awakse.. ..

jaa  mata ne..

mixed feelings

day before las tnight.. i slpt at 2am. was so tired. woked up from a call from mum. at 12pm. not enuff slp still. whole day feeling weird and slpy. 

 decided to slp at 830 at night. ard 9ko. then .. .yea. woeky abit. and tu,ble ard to slp.. .then al lthe way till today 720am... still feelig body tirednes.s.. and yea.. .just wann aslp on. 

now i wish im in ed. arldy 941. gotaa bath and all dry hair.. .wouldve been... abit near 11 perhaps. 

so slpy

ahh.. .finally got my pics uploaded to my comp. though... the random bits n picese yet to be sorted out. only sorted out the uss and sea auquarium plus sydney trip. recently .. .just ytd? posted the sydney trip album. the other two not yet. 

gosh .finaly after so long. wow. 

mm... so yea. 

guess im rrly tired and stressed out still. 

im working 1pm till 1Am tmr. uh uh. 1am. 

slpy 

but busy is gd in a way i guess... 

o well 

this teenager aske dme for advice on accessories to get her dress up for her prom next month. after i helped her. she say i shld rrly work for the fashion somethign2. lol. she asked me how old am i . then she was lie. wow i thought youre 23. i was like. .ha... blushing. what can i say. like. .still not v gd with compliments though i try to accept them . but. .yea. it does made my day better abit with compliments like that. ha. i shld work in fashion related job eh. lol. funny. i din even hav training. i just style ppl according to my intuition. wha tto do. but .. i still rlry wanan work at lingerine store= sm say took them v long cos it shld be hard as they do sell sex toy u see... haiz.... .so yea.. .hoepfully they'll managed to find a store to be open in sg ba... then don sell sex toy la.. haiyo.. .rlry cant wait to work there u know.. .

haha. dress up sexily everyday .. but in high heels=.=... ouch

anyway. 

she even join in my media social .she asked for it. haha. so funny 

my part timer. shes a very nice girl. always so smiley u know. found out she got enaged. her bf invited to dine in at restaurant. then before dessert arrive, he popped the question. so swt. was so happy and teary for her. =') 

kinda sad too.. .cos. .wish i was in her shoes. 

but yea. ..anyway. she derserves it. adn .. shes a lucky girl. rlry wish her al lthe best. must so ask her for her wedding date next time i see her 

...so lucky. so envy of her ya konow.. .o well 

thats abt it. 

like to slp

Ifiona once siad.. "..then where were u when i needed u" to shrek .
Id always like tat movie.. in fact the whole series i like it alot.

Tired n slpy.

i just wanna stop crying and head to bed now

i nid slp

today ne.i woke up hugging my bloster v tightly. Forgotten wat long dream its abt byt tat was intense..

bloster is my best fren now
i feel like doin notthing n just slp..

gdnight. Will blog soon. Theres ya. Next time type.in bed nights

jaa

miss.. misses... cares

told my fren aka the sm . that i was i was v pale ytd. hence didnt wanna go out tonight. she was shocked. ase dme why am i getting sick these days. i didnt mc at all la. but she sounded v worried and concerned. so yea..

i just wanna head to bed asap after facial mask. just few more mins. go wash face. and hurry to lalaland.

though bro playing gsaw again=.= o well

i don wanna cry. so i drove myself up to the v end..
and i think im now back to square one.
i dunno. im confused

great. rgm both told me that my store looks perfect. al lthose dizziness and hardwork pays off. phew. though i still think there's room for improvement. but yea. as long as they say look great. its great.

sighs. kk. knock me out pls.

gonna hit the sack

dw for me. i m still alive aand kicking.

oh. today this decent looking woman. stole. two bangles. stil la ct so frenl omg. yea. ikr
i cant believe it. she stil lcan ask me what time i open tmr .shes not getting it today cos she's unsure yet. =.=
gosh. i blieved her. baka desu

my pinoy colleague so swt. 2nd time she msg me alrdy outta the blue. say they all misses me.
aw... i was touched.
cos... its always so nice to have someone tell u that they misses u.
though u didnt get to talk alot nor msg. bt yea. the word miss... and a msg from her. rrly meant alot. i can feel that sincerity.
just asking me how im doing .. .
mm.. wonder if tmr night i shld pay them a visit.

jaa mata...

if onl i could slp on forever..

u wanna know me? =.=

i jusst posted a short blog. and then i dded some more sutffs in.

so yea. i deleted the previous one.. .and ..heres the latest blog for today
im... so sick.. tdya. i wasa dizzy and all... =/ and due to sotcks and stuffs... .i nid to climb onto the wobbly ladder.... andi was scared... yea.
but i gotta do it ya know.
so... yea.
at one point i almost fell cos of the wobbliness of hte ladder

so yea. when my colleguae came in. she slike. .you look so pale. she touches my neck. check to se eif im aving a high fever or something .adn yea. .even after my break shes still worried. if im gonna be laright.she say i look so pale.

i looked terrible peeps. i don feel good. i don htink i look good. ayea. .

=/

i dunno hwen i can get my legs back up again.. but. yea. .for now. .im so.. weak.

xmas is coming. ic ant afford myself to be sick ya know' /at no cost am i gonna be sick or mc.

u know... it is quite shocking... my best frens. aka the sm and asm .. they sned me a pic outta the blue . a handsome(? intheir eyes)  muscular hunk.
=.=''''''' my sm asked me is thats my cuppa tea. can intro me. i was like .no. thatss not my cuppa tea. i like love at first sight. and if you'd read my blog. IF any tv characters and such i like, its the nerdy ones. (cept for maybe josh harnett)  i was like. huh??? why are u all showin gme these=.=

apparantly he's their best friend's fren.  and through  that fren's link. linked to my fren.(asm) and link to  my pics. and he say wanna know me. i was like.whattttt=.=

i was like telling them,. for a guy who wanna know u due to ur pics, ... i mean.. i dunno. man
im not interested in 'matchmaking' u know. todl u guys before heaps of times

but they were saying how he's.. like. weekend will stay at home.
play game, aftnoon go gym
i was liek .. .erm ok... so?

i don get it mate. .=/ .
rrly?

i liek . rrly like simple life. no nid to be so forever rich. .but suct simple life.. loving each other...

i can. live in a farm yard. farm life. etc.as log ias im with the man of my love. i dun nic branded stuffsnor rich etc whatever. i just nid... the man i love and a simplest place to live. thats all...
no nid to be the most handsomeo due. or great body . i don care abt thatere. personaility is the most impt.  ..
im  v simple person


asm was like.. u know.. can always go out as frens etc.. doesnt mean antyhign. i was like. hello. now i know his intentions and how he feel,... aint that gonna be a prob?? =. =
kind aworried though.. next time we meet... will they ask him out without my knowledge  = X
=/
oh man... they did that cos .. i think they are worried my situation... so yea... o well.. but... i dunno. i don need help... i think. ..i dunno.

i dunno man. i just make it clear htat u know. match making aint the thing for me. nor is this whole. lookking at pic thing wanna know u.. .argh
and btw for the record, i NVR gone to  photoshop. i dunno how to or go to what whichever website. etc. i just don . the most is colour of the screen .which im so lazy to do so cos i se eno point.
choosing the fikkter is easier thna photo shop etc slim ur chin..waist.. .etc.. omg. thats .. .omg.
..

so yea. no photoshop plssss

though  i know alot of models and celebritits and women doing that nowadasy. including instaagram... or fb or whatever..twitter..lame ne

i dunno man. even if private or whatsoever.. ppl can still find a way to view ur pics and.. eya..like.. here. this situatipjs

omg. my sm rrly asked me out. .... mm.. wil lshe ask thatvguy out too... >_< .. gosh .. .wish me luck as in i hop enot (that  any guy will be there)






jaa... mata

true intentions

oh gosh. so sorry. ive been .. not myself of late. and. .yea. rrly dislike my blogs. i dunno whats overcome me.

its weird. trying to force tears outta ur eyes. as though too tired to do so anymore .or cried till theres no more tears left to flow

anyway.

i just find it so. i dunno .weird. its like. for a outta the blue a guy fren suddenly come along and msg u. so hows u and ur bf.
=..= ''....
like. what???
are u trying to find out if im single or waiting to hear news of us.
like. so weird. especially coming from a guy who used to like u.
thats double weird

pretty obvious whats his intentions i guess.
bt. .yea.... are al lguys like that.

i..stil lwanna force myself to cry out. cos... i cant cry right now ..and i know thats not healthy. cos im keeping it all inside of me.. .adn. .i didint talk. and.. yea. .i stil lhav to forced a smile for the customers.. .
i just... yea. .didnt know what to do.
i thought they say its gd to cry and relieve ur stress and probs out. im at a loss.. .

i love this vid.

gordon ramsay.
he was trying to help this restaurant owner. adn she was crying and saying she wish she could end this misery etc.. adn he looked at her and his voice. so sincere i tell u. so sincere. he siad.. 'im here. im here.''. (as in he's here to help
coming from a foul mouth like him. wow.   and his eyes. rrly sincere.  his voice as well. .u can tell genuinely he wants to help her. and yes. im touched by that .

nowadasy pl only say.. i wish i could help.. im here for u... etc etc... how may meant and stood by their words. how many. its jsut trying to make themselves feel gd and look gd as a kind hearted person.
=.= yea. lik duh

that tone of his voice and sincerity and his look ithrough his eyes.. those aint for show. u can tell he rrly wants to help her. and i think thats very impressive.

.. today im back to myself alil more for blogging.

gd

o well..

sighs

mata ne

to marry....

ha. so here i am again. sorry. cos i wasnt too sure abt last night. i tot.. i needed to getawy from Everything....
i still do.. and.. yea. but.. perhaps blog... they're part f my life for so long.. and.. .the place where only i can tell of my probs and                   share my happiness.. and.. yea. ths si the ..only place where i can talk abt my true feelings. not to frens. but only here. though.

im.. wea.k .physically... ever since yea...
and... even today.. .i felt as htough imma faint again. not that dizzy but ts there u know...
 ... i htink. no. i know. i worsen the case.
but... lsighs. i cant help it. =/

lasgt night. i couldnt finish up the rice. i duno. since ytd i forced myself to eat. i was hungry. guru2. but.. i forced myseld to eat.
cos i nid food to survive. i live for my team as well .to stay focus.
i aim for. within  2 yrs.become a regional manager.
if tat woman can do it, why cant i.

my team say ppl say im strict. my sm say. thatsgood.
my rgm cant believe it. as im alwyas the sso called u knwo.. sweet frenly spoken nice girl .
bbut im strict. hell i am.
anyway...
yea.

a brand new pave ahead of me.

pain is now.
i will try my best to erase them all...

i don share anythign to my frens. thast the problem.
... cos i cant open up.and let  them see me liek this..

my best fren... of many yrs.
phe recently commented on my pic in facebok.
he says... pauline u look different.

i am not that much of  asurprised at this comment. cos....
i Knew.

when i look back  at my pics...
i can tell the difference.

from long ago i knew

cos me...my face. .i changed quite... yea. hugely,
im not ashamed nor afraid to say. yes. i look better than i used to be. even compared to a year ago.
every year... i see something diff abt me. its better . much better not worse.
and i like that alot.
every single year is diff... and... yea... ist almost as if its magical
i dunno how to reply his comment. so i just.. well .liek his comment. thatsa it

*many years back. when i was working in at*... toy store,
this part timer is hte first who asked me.. will u marry me ' Lol.
yea. even beofre u knwo who. cos i met u know who after him.  i blogged abt this before.
sooo many yrs back
it was just.. before i met u know who.
ive been with u know for abt 6 years and 5months yea. (more than half a decade)
yea it was random. he the partimer suddnely ask me... will u marry me. and he said.. if down the road.. we are both single, (somehting like that) shall we get married in future.

yea. ikr. so weird.

and... why am i tlaking abt this? cos...

he just msg me in fb.
when are u getting married?

its pretty obvious. i replied him normally. but yea...

its weird how a person can still remember this after so long.,, i hava  strong feeling he rememebrs.
even if he dont doestn matter.

do u htin i will faint during xmas time/ cos... i dunno. i feel lik.e... im pushing myself harder than i thougt..

jaa mata

away now...

hey guys...

think i might.. just might.. be away for abit..
i dunno. not sure yet... but.. .yea...
just had some chocked and sutff. just somehting bad happened to me.. and yea. .
i was thiking of.. 'dissapearing' for abit u see... jus tbe alone for a while..
i dunno. but i loike to blog so we shall see..

i've been a fool all along. naive.
my fren is right all along. from a guys perspective adn point of view..
.. i couldnt believe how foolish i was.. how naive.. and how hopeful...


weeping all along now.. left me with nothing but scars..

so so oh so foolish girl... hwo can u be so stupid..

there is much to say but i'll rather leave it at that...

o well..

jus t need to clear my head out for abit.. i think once im done, i'll be changed a s a person. lost the used to be and ... yea.. i dunno who im gonna be.. but.. that is life isnt it. forces u to be evenn as a  person who u don even know who u are

things.and /or . events unfolds itself to change ur life and the person u are now.
regrets isfor life
things and ppl u didnt hold onto... the regrets and grey will hang along u to ur grave.

do u live for urself. or do u live for others. live for the sake of happiness for the others. and forskake ur lifelong worth of happiness years ahead

the damage cannot be undone.
scars will be left. blood will be shed .

nothing u do is gonna bring back the dead
 . nor will bring back the pure whom u first knew .

i need time. .


i dont need hurs which will make me cry. no. not tears again. no . pls don give me that again. oh no. pls don

husg from strangers. sympathy from strangers.. commenting how stronog u are from strangers.. thats.. the last thing..i'll ever need.

i think i shld stop now. hope to blog soon again...

u have no idea how much scars there is beneathe the so called strongest person u think he or she is.
..
perhaps i might blog again tmr. i duno. llll

hope to blog here soon..

my fren say.. her ex cheated on her after years of being together. .he wanted to come back but she wouldnt relent.
why does guys always take the stupid chance. . only asking ot come back late.r. aint that too late eh..
 when he's drunk he stil ltexts her...
is that true. .when youre drunk... u know how u feel the most...


jaa...
tc

fainting

had too uch blood flow going on here.. .maybe thats why im like more dizzy than ever.
last night and today. =/

though 3 days agao without time of month... me yet again felt dizzy at the counter. agan. deja vu. was ike hand on my head.. not as bad but almost aas the last time. tot i was gonna faint.
then  blood flow came last night. and dizzy...and today... dizzy worse.. yea.. =/

its terrible. feeling..

told my collegaue had heaps ofdreams. din slpt v well. she said it riaght away. youre too stressed. she said she had thta before. cos too stressed. and dreamt heaps..etc.
v uncomfy =/ .anad words.. are in my head. Loudly. like as though i was awake =/

just occured to me. .when aft shift.. my breaky sometimes might be like at 6 or so ish. menaing.. .yea. u know m e.  i din take no lunch. so yea. ..tats m first meal start of the day.
atook me abit to realized eh. im too engrossed in work
pi just.. didn trealizzed u know..

today whislt having my break i rrly tot i might faint. at one point i almost wanna call my team and tell her i might faint. ha. owell luckily i didnt

too focused on work man.. =/ i .. nid to. cos.  its for my reputations and future..and. .. yea..
if not

anyway... i jsut hoep that the bra store iwll open in sg soon. .cos.. tat store.. .sells se* toys... my colleague say thast why its not easy to find a location store for sg. ..sighs=( so sad.. ..
i rrly  wish and hop ethey do fin dit soon... im nottoo ssure yet. but.. i rrly hoep.. i;ll get to work there..
though iunknown abtthe pay and all..
 though... in au the team there. .do wear abit like yea... and the angmoh ladies are kind awild..they ...erm.. in tattoos...and... yea. leopard prints. not my style but...
yea. i woulndnt andsg store wont ..let us wear hald shirt to show our half bras ba. hahah.
but.. yea. im looking forawd to the store ooeing
hopefully soon..

my colleague tat pretty nice one. she say. .she's been crying(time ago) dunno how long ago...
.. cos one night herhubby say his ex in bed better. .. he's her first .. .u know... and .. he said somethign like that.. .how sad can she be =( such nice girl. and.. .sighs...
man...
ike comparing his exs to her.. -. =/ i feel sad for her oto. .and i know how she feels...
haiz..
stupid. so baka of men. wso insensitive.
=/
rrly

ivebeentryign to tape for my snapchat the resident evil show... omg. finally afetr the one past hr, i got gd shots=.=  like timing aint right ya know or shots aint gd enough etc. finally got some actions for it. gosh .dunno .but snapchat kinda.. fun in a way. i mean..o well
halfway watchign and blogging now... bored.


anyway.
i think tats abt it.

ptonight. .weir.d for s asat.. heaps of nice movies going on till v late night.. gosh. my slp.... T_T

mata

dizzy..back

dunno why same pace doing same thing doing cashiering.. then felt dizzy again. though not as bad as the other time i'd mentioned. but yea. was lie.. touching my head.. wonder why did i feel i out of the world dizzy for a sec there
too stressed, or overworked. i dunno . just weird sometimes

gosh late alryd. i cant wait to hit the pillow. soooo oslpy. my eyes half closed.. .

finally we're heading towards the nightmare before xmas month. .haizzzzz........... uh huh... bless me .
meep. its gonna be one hell of a ride. i catn wait to get over nov and dec!!!!!!!
omg. nightmare is coming... and.... yea. .im not sure if im ready... =/

two movies i rrly wanna watch this week and next. cant wait. when no movies to watch. theres none. when have, theres two  or three==. haiyo

kk gtg slpy like mad.

mata

my day oor week

brought work home for a lil.. so yea.. thoug i tried not to.. .but sometimes.. cant help it

today i found took out my bra padding. the bra i bought ofrm sydney.
was like. how cum uncmofy and as though theres space inbetween. though is the bra too big for me? then turned out... after i took it out, its perfect=.=
so comfy. no nid padding at all.
so yea.
gd thing i found out

they usually pt padding in ti os she said that brand f bra is design mostly for asians. ttas why alot of desigsn i cant fit cos too small for me =(
cos im not the usual flat chested type. so yea. sad i can tbuy my fav design

last week or so, i saw the actress who 'looked liek me ' said from my previous company lil fans. three girls. lol .i mentioned this before. anyway .
i saw her on tv and i really.. .see the resamblecne
. .lour cheek dimples' the way we smile .. yea. its especially when smiling.. thats the cheek dimples.. art. look most alike .
lol .
so weird. but im still me. one and only m e. no one can replace me ever.

haven eat. =/ gotta wakey early .haz. cant wait to slp soon ne

dunno when or how.. o yea. saw this gordan remsay book..
cook book.. then form thre. .watch his videos and get to know more abt him. he's so real and cool
yet kiind and swt.
like he love his wife alot. his daughters alot too.. .for a tough man liek him on tv, its always nice to see someone hwos not afraid to show some love on tv. and towards his mum. they had a comp. and he was kissing her head. and her lips too even though he found out he won.
like. in front of tv, a man in his prime age aint afraid of showing love. .wow. amazing.
especially for his tough fierce chef image. u know. yet he shows love towas his mumg

his book is exp.
in fact, i keep goig to bookstore jsut to touch and feel and looksat his cookbook... his ingredents v difficult and exp to buy... thats hwy i didnt wanna buy the cookbook. .os it slike. .buying it for what. .perhasp 10 out of200 recipes?
i dunno. .but.. im so tempted.. .wanna know hwat he's saying i his bookya know...
so curous. .. oh man.. ..=/ its like.. going into a store.. keep looking at something u wanna own.. i cna.. but i didnt want to ..yet. cos its not cheap.
o well...... liek a lil girl yearning for her lolly..

this noshup or something
restaurant in syd world square.
been following me ard or somehting liking my pics..
i know hwich store cos in chinatown i osw it always whenever i withdraw money over hte years there. its near the atm yellow balck machine

and.. i dunno i wa slike telling myself. i bett rstay away from there when im in world squaer. cos   i liek world sqaure i frequesnt htere whenever im in syd.
and. ..no knowing someone form there is looking at my pics and all. .commented once. .
but yea. .
i just.. .yea. abit freaky. i'll be careful when i walk past their store next time.

jaa mata

5mins bloggy

wanted to blog ytd but.. gforgot. just 5mins here... felt like wasted my ytd off.. .mm... o well

=/

i rrly didnt wanna get out of bed. im enoying slping so much
love to slp
just so nice to rest ur tired body . and slp away

had a long dream jusst now.. consists of quite a few ppl i think. but rrly ant remember much at all.. just felt that its a ncie long dream. not tat v v nice. but just. . ok. .

kk. gtg getting ready for another day. so fast days gone just like that. oh man

o well jaa

mc donald memories

so warm... though at night was raining i think

finally settled some work stuffs. .phew

i forgot how to be happy most of the time. bad huh
i bought the book but i nvr read it either. just a coupe of pages. =.= dang
i recalled i was laughing at a joke made mby my colleagues weeks ago. i said .. wow that feels gd. its i duno when i was happily laughing like that. . ever since that deathful' july month
..still feel like cryin gha. o well
especially when its near time of month ba. haiz.. .
but yea.. then my colleague say.. yea. cos you alwasy sad mah .
i keep quiet lor. spot on mah
but that was a gd feeling. though. .i kinda forgot how it felt... o well

talking abt itstill makes me sad. . teary liao ha

oh ya. mc donald. lets say it mc.
so i was cravin gfor fries with chili sauce. wanted to go to the mall's one. but my colleague say go to the quieter one. at princess there. i was like.. .eh.. sounds familair. like the movie there.. .then there i walk...by her instructions. .then i was like. ..erm..... o..k... thats the mc i used to frequent with him when i stayover at his place== ha
the place where he first drew my nickname owith chili sauce on the paperon the plate.
i was like. .o..k... thats...yea. .coincidence eh... ha.
so weird. so o well. jjust eat lor.
food at that area not bad.
can rrly explore. but dislike the way ppl look at me. jsut os im dressy. alrdy doin gmy best to dress down k.. haiz.

wanna talk more.. but... bored.

took some pics i rrly2 like at aquarium that day. ha.
selfie also. soyea. rrly like it XD
gosh. say wanna upload since before new lappy. now hav new lappy and haven upload anything=.=

ha

gdnight all
slptight and swtdreams.

im going to my lalaland in abit.. my fav lalaland to escape all worries and troubles.
but ...sometimes still bu,ped into it =.= exp alwasy dreamt that im working. haizzzzz

jaa mata

stressful day =/

omgggg gomen. =/ had wanted to blog ytd but so tired and slpy

huu.. been away for so long =//
haiz

over the wekeend spend time with family. cos long story. cos mum had some tickets from company.. but turned out to be... some boring place. so plan B yea

anyway, its abt once a year... so yea. i know. we hardly spend time together as a whole family

mm... sighs. so stress today=(
things to get complete today are loads. yet this t member say shes sick. so.. .i dunno why am i always the one rushing to get work complete ono time
am i rrly pushing myself too hard= /

sighs
then got home .saw bro having ice cream. straight away i took it too. chocolate flav. destress and to relieve tension
had a nice bowl of ramen today too. yummy soup.

sighs.. i rrly hope to get the work completed by tmr
=/
so tired out
cant wait for the weekend u know
 though busy, yet a good thing time passed faster

oh .haha. did i mentioned that few weeks back ktv session
this girl group. 4 girls i think? my fren say only one undergone sugergy (ubt she looks freaky. =( face too fake)
they are called korean's ugliest girl group. sad right=/
haizheard of their name before. but now i forget

then saw anothre group. tara or dunno which one. my fren was like saying.. they all look the same dunno who is who
XD
lol. told u right. i said the same thing longgg ago. haha. so im not the only one who realises that haha
maybe they go under company's same cosmetic surgery ba . one doc changes all korean artises. maybe

dunno what else to type..

just mind blank.

had the porridge at bedok recently.. the other day... brings backk memories... anyway. sadly its not as nice as i remember. not taht spicy though i added heaps of pepper. or is my spicy intake increases lots over the years ?
dunno bah. just find it abit bland. okok only. my block hawker is nicer. my hawker here rrly alot of nice food haha.

sometimes i wish to go  back being simple.. .and not stressing so much.. .

our job.. many ppl quit especially newbies. ha. mia or say mc sick ba c kache..etc
haiz
turnover v high

becos they all thought oh high pay. relax job. dress pretty2
=.=
gosh. they couldntve been more wrong
even rgm say she thinks so too. cos on the outside ppl see that we all everyday dress up pretty2. nice2. like glamarous, but actually tehres alot of hardwork. rgm said so herself ne... the angmoh one.
yeaaaa hardworkkkkkkkkk

kk gtg slp liao. bro say bedbug still at sofa. dunno ba. as long as it don crawl to my mat can liao

another battle dxay ahhead. i gotta stay strong
hate those words but o well

jaa mata

time out for my off

heyy... .its just been crazy... for work ya knw.. blah3. ..before i off after work, i visited my much love previosu team .. .it ws so great to see tham again they hugged me the moment they saw me..
yea... i wa reluctant t o leaave.. but what can i do =/ ...

anyayw, haiz. though tired, yet i had such a long day out with a rare triip with family .yea.  we head out.. like.. abt once a year as a family? something like thazt=.= ikr... pathetic. or rather..more than once a year. haiz.. anyway.  ., nonetheless, its great to hang out together... i do my best to forget aabt work. .to ignored the msgsof work.. .etc...

so tired. so slpy. btu i pulled on

gnna try slp in abit. super early to me. but yea.

 how i wish... to hav someone hug me to slp and tell me that  when i wake up, everthing is ognna be ok....

i think i might be getting alil emtional now as the time of month is closing in...

anywya...

mm.. yup.

jaa mata

just be yourself

mm...

glad another day is over..

its ok.. over fast is good.. busy is gd.. moving on...

wah. was so hungry guru2 till i couldnt take it no more .got up form my bed. hurrily ate abit of nuts and bar.. then quickly go back to slp. guess what. i stil lauto wakey at abt 840am =.= ....'' haiz.... shld i slp eary or not.
omg. wanna wakey late also cannot.
slpy. .dryin ghair now..

so nice. sunday my fren and her bf will go holiday in taiwan. she also like me la. bought sexy nighties. haha.

sighs

anyway. so nice. again this aussie youtuber her house. .wait had i mentioned this before?? ....
oh man i think i did. ..
mm.. .anyway well aa quick mention then. so yea. her house is small .but gd. narrow but u have everythng u nid

i mena i don nid two rooms or anything ya know.
but yea.. .hopefully one day.. can have my own place. or stay with someone

o well

lets not get there
 heart only aches

 mm.. nvr had picnic before. ha. he used to say ot gd. cos will hav ants and mosquitoe. but my frens still go .
duno. aybe diff areas ba.
dunno will i be going anot.. .so troublesome. think rather hea dout .dunno

so cool. when i watched boas performance and recalled. .
her fans commented that during rainey performance. .live conert. the other korean artiste .. girl groups etc. .didnt perform so well. they slipped, (cos raining and wet floor) and just bad performance. boa is the only standing one. think got one time she almost also? but she didnt in the end. hehe.
tats my idol =)
just so cool

like jsut find it irritating in the recent ending of sm entertainment ... convcert. they will alwasy sing ending saong.. same song.
then these 2 or 3 girls started dancing in their own group in circle like v v attention seeking=.= argh. then near them is boa. standin gn smiling. this last song no one nids to dance at all.
some guys also liek show off perform2 dance2=.=
omg. rrly.cannot tak eit. sianz. lol

she an be jus tstanding there. doing nothing much. (oh she took selfie of her gfrens )
no nid do so much purposely dance la. .etc.
 she can wear jsut a checked shirt n tshirt wiht shorts and perform... yea. she stands out jsut by being who she is.
like. who gets to wear so casually yet still look fabulous. sexy pretty and yea.

duno .jsut rrly feel irritated by attention seeking girls .laugh so loud .. .etc... especially in groups. and guys also =.=
i dun even bother to turn my head and look at them. =.= crazy.
talk n laugh so loud purposely for what. sometimes u can tell whether if its intentional or unintentional

mm.. abti hungry.. .
wokey early so get to eaat instant nooodle ..ate finished at abt almost 11am..
then dinner at almost 7... then yea.
thats it. abit hungry now. oh man

better hurry go slp before i get any more hungrier

jaa mata

hungry tired fatique huu

omg im dying.
as in.. dying of fatique

i auto wakey again. 430am. then tats it. cant slp back. head thinking of work here n there. and body too tired. ya kno how body too tired and its difficult to slp?
sighs.
5hrs of slp or less i had.
then meeting
then head out whole day.
been working so much lately that now. at night. im making it a point (though very tempting) not to online for my work. nope. not tonight. i had enough .
im going crazy. my body is going crazy.
i cant think anymore. not rrly
so yea
sighs



so freakin ghappy finally having my aftnoon shift soon omg
mm.. lhad long black coffee before meeting. but not bitter ne. ok i  can drink all. yup no sugar added baby

im abit hungry actually.. but o well

gotta slp and rest. but.. .too hungry also having prob to slp

been having trouble slping lately. not tat bad. just ot as fast as i used to .cos head is thinking abt work..what to do..etc=/

sighs

oh had a nightmare again the other day... house and ghostly thingy. smiliar to my previous one. but not as scary as that one. so ye.
but.. o well. no one to tell
hate this type of dreams

body still weak. din rest today so yea. too bad. nvm next week then rest ba
hoep i wont faint when im up at the ladder. dang aussie ladder so high light and shaky =.= couple of times i thought i was ognna fall .so does the other team memebers
my gosh
dangerous. yet they cant change it ==  .. whatever o well
anything happen... i dunno what to say

mm...
hungry. gosh. ancnot. i must try to slp

but hope wont be like last time hunger woke me up T_T supr early somemore. then i ate cup noodle.
shoot growling guru2 no.w. .=/

mm... dunno wha els eto say
forgot

so yea im rrly trying not tocheck work stuffs from home
T_T

haiz. kk.. gtg.
im so freaking tired.
poor bro
too bad hav to tahan my slping early patterns.
but i ask him to go ahead and play t or wahtver. i will o sl iwht lights on =/ what to do

dunno tmr if im eating late anot.. mm.. .
hopefully can finsih some stuffs up and quickly go makan

on time

hungry nowwww huu

jaa mata

hope i wont wakey for food
not 430 again at least huu

oh did i mentioned last night? I only had one meal ytd. For since such a ..quite a rather long time. Huu

jaa

fainting moment =/

life is worse when u realized that the everyday lil things u enjoyed ...ex msging. is gone.

.. i wa ssurprised today.
rrrly. i . mm.. as usual... mrg again.. i was sly and all... not enough slp even for 7 hrs
.. no breakyfast... usually my  lfirst meal at town area woudlve been  1pm
bubt now after changed, its 230 or 3 at my own accord. cos i wanna ge thigns done. ya konw
so yea,... todya i went break at 245. but.. at abt 240 i think.. .i nearly fainted.
=( yea. that was frightening. the first time i went all wobbly was so many years back ... long story . bubt yea. dad was with me luckily

anyway.
i was halfway doing cashiering when i went blank for a sec and i was like. .'oh!'.. then regain my senses and apologize to cust and tell my fren im dizzy.
she told me to go break fast. then halfway through break also felt so dizzy ...with my rgm in fron to fme..
looking at my rgm.. i wa slike. .i rrly can do this too...
the sg rgm... so yea. rrly hope in two years or so timei could get there too

anyway... so yea. even now im feelign kind aweak. i cant.. .i dunno .my heads in a mess...
ive been pushing myself far too hard. my previous store sm tell me to relax.. don so stress... eat med and rest...
but.. .i don nid med. its just that. .main thig is im mmmpushing myself too hard. trying to compete hepas of tasks.. .and.. u know... =/
ended up destroying my health..

not destroy but you know.. . damaging perhaps.
sighs.
just didn know this would happen.. shoudlve been more careful..
but. ..i cant. cos too much to settle. .
and. .eya. buried myself into work i gues.s.

i feel like. .i can faint anytime time. i wonder if i am bale to wake up for my meeting tmr ,, will ready more alarms i guess.. ...

sighs.

how i wish.. its feb now. . so i an rest...
o well.. .

today this customer... i was telling her our stores promo.. then shes liek okok.. oh this ar.. .okok... your butt very nice.

i was like stunned. O.O ...say whatttttttt
*blink2 my butt very piao liang?? lvery pretty?
 omg

why aunties always notice such thigns ar. like. .features i mean. .i was like. .huh? O.O
butt? ofc i didnt ask more as my rgm next to me
oh gsh

anyway. yea wil ltry to tc of myself bah. its gonna be a touch week ahead for me and my tea, this week. .but we willl pull it through. new role new challenge. .and.. .ofc. also a challenge to my health..
will do my best.

though.. in my heart i know.. .my body is crumbling...
its os difficult fo rme to relax. .even whe slping.. .
o well. .
wish me luck n gdhealth zzzz

i miss.. rrly niss those happy days...

mata