Flying Off Sydeny today

ok.. so.... im like really nervous now. i don feel normal. haha.
so weird. .such a weird ffeeling...
dizzy...

so.. i'll be leaving this house in like. .3hours time? yea abou thtere.. .
hm.. only pity thing is that. .this timing is wrong. though whats most important is i finally get to see him. whish is really great.

seem like i cant kis shim again. it happened again. i almost cant believe it. i relaly couldnt. like. .wow. thats like.. lottery. omg.
so weird.
and cny... oh well... cost us a coupld of hours apart =/.. .
which is like. ..yea. .ha.
totally sucks...
but what to do.
at least best part is i stil lget to se ehim for real.

hmm.... yea. and stomahc still feels so bloated =/ period like.. wana come, don wanna come. .so irritating!! if its not, then imma have a bloated stomach along with  irritating feeling along this week.
so full all the time. arhg..
o well...

just wanna get away from work, and enjoy some peaceful dasy in sydeny wiht him. i hope all;s well....
wish me luck ppl
haaiz,... this year.. didn get to go chinatown.. =/
but ow ell...
hmm.... k ba... just wanna happy happy for this week.... hope really veerythign will go well, fine.. peacefull and happy.

hmm... kk.. thats it then... ..wow... cant beleivee this time has come...
finally going back..
...yea...
=)
so great eh...

gosh.
mata ne

four days to go

=) yay.. sammy said july he reali wanna come back to sg. ^^ cos tickets cheaper too. anyway.... ...
yea.. am very happy to hear that.. i hope its true.. shall see how eh..

gosh.. abit nose not good.. maybe take med again later...
anyway..

omg.. someitmes still cna dream of work =.=
...
omg.. =X............. 5 more days to flying off.... omg.... =X....
jhow... ...wow.. so fast.. and period nt here yet=((
huu
hope its here before that =/
gosh.. at the thought of having a date with him again(in person).. wow.. that excites me. =)
though.. i miissed out on reunion dinner.. cny.. hong baos.. yu sheng with family... well.. no choice.. at least i get to spedn a joyos week with sam.

wow.. so fast. but i know.. .so fast.. meaning its great.. but at the same time, its gonna end fast too. thast why hope july will come dsoon...

me cold.. nose runing..

bro bought xbox.. ...=.= so exp.. nbut he got tons of vouchers form taka.. so yea.. even me also get abit. ha.
bought lingeriesXD i mena.. wha else could i get>???
lol
gosh.. so fast... but first i will have to get rhogh tough period of work... night shift. .then  at 6am. not 6.30n meeting. but earluier. 6am. imagine.. tired night shift.. slp less than 4hours.. then 6 am work......... ................. o well. just get though it.,. i jsut hope i get lots of rest though. .cos only wed do i get to pacik my stuff.. and get ready...
i'll try to slp early on wed ba.. see how..
but need sammy to rest more after his trip. otherwise he wont be able to wakey for breakfasdt, and eveb if he did, he'll get so slpy and no energy fast. wanna see him full of energy .. so yea.. ned ot remind him to slp and rest3........ =) get prepared.
i cant wait for july.. could he get back on tiem>? =) ^ i wish so..
yea indeed.. its chaper for him to coem here..

i guess.. when u get mature.,.. at certain age,.. the more u realised. how ppl can be..
only when u come across them,.. will u know twat type of ppl they are....

geezx.. even my bro's telling me to be careful(cos of he flood news in aussie again ju noe )
i was like. .why my frens, mum and bro kept telling e that XD lol.
but well.. i think shold be fine. ... ba.
hmmm... o well. yea. .hope so..>
nowadsay u just see alot of diasters around the world.. could be nothign to do with end of worl..d.. 2012.. but yea..
just let me peacefulyl get thorugh this weke of holida.y.. .
after work stresses...
a year and a half... he's been gone for one year plus...
fianlyll. one week. .no.. its less than a week of holiday... about 6 days of dates with him>? aroudn there.. anyway.. yea...
been long awaited fdates.. sich a long awaited one..
.... must cherish, treasure, ompromise, and be patient.. expect nothign less.. expect nothign wors.e..
be compromise..
yea.. ..wonde rif we could get to opera house(though rally. .tis nothign -_-) lol.
btu yea.. nonetheles.. regertted never get the bag from ther. LOL.
bt not important.. ha.. ..

wow. .its coming.. i cant belioeve this. .i'[ve been dreaming this for over  a year now.. and its comeing true =') ... wow...
im scared i'll regeret not doing something with him.. miss out something with him.. things lie that.. ...
but i learnt from the trip theother tiem.. . .its important to keep one other happy.. calm.. cpmpromise.. and take it east and slow....
tspeakr... and listen... keep calm and cool..
this if only about a couplde of days time.. ..
have to make things right.. o regrets..
yup

shoudl be fine eh... ...
just hate that if having my period, it might coause me uncomfortable.. =/
but yea.. nonehteles. .i told meuselfl.. u Gotta keep calm... relax... anything just talk nicely.. stop. explain.. seek for understandsin and etx.. watever that is..
yea.. wait.. ...>
23rd now.. ...
omg...... =X................ ..
4 dsays to flying off. .omh..................... how... .omg.... im so excited.. at the same time,... abit scared.. cos.. ...omg.. so long never see hinm.. ...
.. wow...
i miss him.. wish me luck guys..
=D
mata!!!

Nice Vocal

wow. there's this guy. .singing this song.. with such high pitch.. very3 impressive!! omg. then got to know form redz trhat that orginal singer is liek that too. wow . cool vocals for guys yea.

hmm... weell.. .stressful sitaution at work somethinmes.. but reminds myslef.. jsut focus on customer. .and i did.. and. yea. .turns out fie.. kinda.. ha..
just concentrate doing work. .don care .. hoping cna maintain this way..
tlak to custome,rs than to collegaus..
hm... well. .what else..
this year.. over hte working period.. i guess im kinda more confidant liao huh.. i duno.
but ppl changed ove rthe time.. you discover who u are. or who u wanna be..
sometims u dont.

hope to get to know more about sammy during this trip.. seems like.. so much i didnt know about him..jsyt yet. and that kinda felt distance soemtiems

today.. wkey so ealry automatically t. then play game. .then sammy fell aslp. .me then waited fo rmum come back home then head out. .watch movie. .free mah. enjoyable. cos its funny. mum like it too. so yea.. gd..
hm...
couldnt find the thing that i wanted.. have to do it naothe rday ba..
should have enoug time? .. ha. o well

hm.. tch. .tmr back to work.. gambate ba.. o well......
duno what to say about htat. .o welll......
look forward to 8 dyas ahead ba...
mata

we does not know how to read minds

so... i have this colleague... trouble love.. somehow she tol dme abouth how her bf.. been focusing on work. .neevr msg nor meet up with her for a month.
when she ask for a break, he don wan. sems like he's really in love wiht her.
then she said..
her fren.. tells her that.. her bf.. didnt explain anything to her.. never tekl her why he couldnt meet her up.. why he's so busy.. why never msgh... yea.why?????
answer? he rreplied.. ''..i never say anything. .then she should know what.. i have my own probs(financial probs)... thats why veyr busy working to earn money.. ''
LOL....... omg. did u hear that??? i mean read that??
she should know... becaus ei never say anyting. '' thats what he thought.OMG. hilarious!!!!
his fren was like. .what?? are u crazy!?? how do you expect her to know if you never say anything!? or even bother to explina?
this is what i mean... some ppl assumes... then end up.. hello????
we are not a crystal ball nor tarot cards here! we do not know! and we will not know. omg. her bf.. so weird..
lol.... i nver say nayting. she should know what(what happen)''...
lol.. he is so .. omg.. i duno what to say.. .=.='''''

anyway... gosh. today so slpy and tired. =/
not mch energy.>
somemore sammy sick.. huu.. i hoep he get well soon.. plus his comp coming.>

my mum and frens are worried about me going overseas. lol.
cos of the floo.d semes like its the highest worst case ever. even japan.. ice. like. .yea..ICE. i duno . worlds going bonker. its dying probabaly. anyway gdluck to all of us.Me just hope that. .pleasze.. for goodness sake.. do not flood all the way to nsw... huuu...I relaly wanna enjoy my holiday with himn..
please do not flood there =( OTUCH WOOD*
haiz.. .but news said that its head to the south. .even melbourne kena liao.. huu..
all the best ba.. keeping my fingers crossed.

my manager the other day.. before she heads off, she was telling me.. she's so tired. .been working ytd 6.30am meeting till 9pm. .then today work also
i was like.... yea... erm.. me? i kena aftnon shift. .so 6.30am till 1030pm.
so wanna tell her that. lol. but nah. i can understand she relaly deserve a good rest. gosh.. i hope she ownt ever faint again =/

sighes... ..no choice. clench my teeth and work hard.. ..
continue on.. ..=/
haiz...
the ppl working there.. cept for my melb manager. .the rest,.. .sighs.. ...i duno what to say.. they never follow much of our company rules. nor contract .. whatever...
i relaly couldnt care lessnow. =/
enough probs on my own.
the more i wanna make thigns right, the worse it gets. forgeti t..

ahh.. just a couple of things to settle fo rmy trip.. hoep i wont miss out on anything.. ...
yea....
left with .. hm.. yea. .4 off days.. wanna get them all done with before i head off. change money... blah3...
ha. maybe. .yea.. i should get a small luggage after all.
clothes. .then shoppings for stationary.. hmm....
see hwtas the price first ba..
yay.. pay coming soon. then can chance. .omg... 10 days to go.. omg....
so fast... come to think of it. .haiz.. only spending about 6 days with sammy. .7th day would be returning off aglrady ..=. ... but... yea.. even if i wanna stay, the hotel fare also... hm... ow ell...
jsut cherish the dasy we have with each other ba.
mata ne

Weird Ppl hateful day

....=( i was right... ...even today meeting manager was aiming at me. .my collegaue could tell too.. =(. . sighs...... duno hwats wrong ba. ...whatever.. good thing today busy enough to prevent me form getting too slpy and stuff.. .haiz..
.. o well... focus on work ba.. whtta to do..

my partimer say worried about me.. tell me no matter what have to 'keep' this job.. just gpotta be really careful of the ppl... sighs.... ..i duno whats going on.. =(
work still must be careful...>..
anywya.. yea.. she say duno why.. me get misunderstood by ppl so easily. see????? i told u right??? be it sammy.. or work... =/.. sighes.... duno ba...
just very depressing.. my words? or my actions? or whats wrong... sighs................its soi depressing when u yourself have nio idea whats the prob.. and why ppl are stabbing u cos of it. it slike u just  get push into this whilrpool.. and who did that? why? no idea.
i duno either.. .why so easily ppl misunderstoof me... ...haiz............ living is so difficult.. =(
anyway.. =/.. .sighs...
yea.. like that ba..

oh ytd played so long gaming wiht swtheart.. yea.. if only im seeing him tmr.. ha.. if only no dates been change.. o well.. anyway..
i cant wait for holida.. get waway from ppl who dislike me.. =(
moring also.. a bunch of malays.. sighs. .feel so lonely.. =/ like kena pick on... then manager stil lcna talk sacastically..
haiz.. os heartpiain..
o well.. ..
oh. .won 2 tickets today. movies. ha. cos of meeting about work stuff. i won. i asnwer most.
o well...
anyway.. ..

hm... yea.. haiz... ...hm.. oh. .after meeting. .went to eat. .after eat. .walk arounf with colleguaes.. then walk2... suddenly my colleague say to me. .i should;ve give that guy a nasty look. i was like.. huh? /who sia????? she say u never see? i say no. she say theres a bunch o fppl walking towards our direction.. (i know) but i didnt go lokey at them la.
then she say one of hte guy look at me like... stare and look until very.. ...omg.. i dun wanna know liao... i cant imagien a stranger looking at me like some.. eeew....... psycho! omg. scary.

oh.. mums knida worried though. .with the flood and all. .hm... .shoudl be fine ba..
.. i more worried about the night safety afyer i watched crime watch ytd.
this morning took cab for meeting.. then was like.. no chice.. gotta walk this dark scary road. OMG>..... freakilngly scary.. .omg... luckily only 2 black ppl there. phewwwww..... omg..
scared myself as though. ha..
then today.. a weird angmoh man... i was at the counter doing work.. then he suddenly pop out in front of me!! psycho sia!! omg. then talk so fast not cos of his slang.. but cos of his tone.. like psycho weir dtone.. lol.
then was like. .huh? he repeat himself.. ' just wanan tell you that you're very pretty. thats all.'. i was liek. ..eeerrrrr... thhaannskss...... =.=''''''' then he walk off. i think he's drunk ba, or crayz. or just a psycho.. omg...
today like. .ahiz. .so suey.
kana so many bad ppl =/
goodness.... i don wna to imagine man.. htat angmoh man is watching me from oiutside store... god kno0ws how long he looking at em. i hope not. brrrrr at the though tof that =,.=
..hm.. .... now feelign better abit. ...
wow.. .i reach work at 6am. ...yea.. o welll...
..now then im starting to feel very very tired... ...slpy liao.. so gona slp well..>>
..haiz.
ok. time to rest. .oh my eye.. ok.. gd..
hm.. zzzzzzzzz
k.. cant remember what else to say. .basically. .when things went wrong, its best to get buried under work...
focus on customers...
keep myself busy. .real busy...
otherwise. .heartache more..
=/mata

woman's pain

gosh. .feeling stoma ch so bloated now.. thanks to the coffee ba.. 2 cans somemore..
today whole day was playing game.. omg...
at one point, my eye irritates me agaib. all red = /
duno will heal anot..
haiz.. juts hope at night before slp can rememebr to take med ba.

ytd . .hahaha... so scary/ really close one.. was doing stocks. .cutting off paper with my penknife.. when i accidentally slash my thumb.. a fast hard one!!! i was like. .gasp!!! cos it was a slash mind u..
not cut . not light cut.. then .. eh.. why no blood. .only pain.. then touch the tip of my penknife.. lol. it wasnt sharp enough!! hahaha.. ended up with my thumb safe. phew.... .otherwise sure. .omg. .super deep cut now. so scary.. huu
i better don suggest them to change the blade. ha..

there's this china talent show.. omg. .so touching =( this old undle.. very old alreayd. .invented this lights. .peacock machine. .he wore it. .and dacnce move around like a peacock.. =/
so touching. .hwy he invented that???
because.. its all just to make his wife smile. his 3 yeas of bedridden wife. =/ so sad. .yet so touching. .the judges all cried. .the audiences all cried.. sobx... he did that all for his wife.. just to make her smile. he didn t care if he's stupid looking, or foolish, or crayz.. he just make that thing.. in order to see her smile =')
huu... so sad.. such lov eeh...
compared to those rich husband out there. some ppl wouldnt even careless or make any effort for their bedridden wife. somemore 3 years liao she like htat.. huu.. so sad.
haiz...
how many husbands..or couples out there.. wouild stil lremember to make their wife smile.. even at a situation like this..
such love.. so hard to come by..
lucky u..if you ever find one..
so rare.. and treasurable. .
hmm.........
so envious..
wonder if my future.. years down the road.. o well...
we shall see........

gosh my stomach.. so uncomfy =/ huu
k. .must rememeb to take med late.r. hope my eyey wil lbe ok..
yawn.. .
oh today wkaey.. nt bad. .feeling kinda energixzed..
ha. like rested enough desu.
hm...
o wel...

so missing all the hug given from my love one.. and his kisses..
soon.. will feel it again. . yay

geez.. he sems to;ve forgotten our first night . dots. .isnt that kind of night important? h,m. .maybe not memorable to him ba. anywya... thank god that kind of pain only lasted one night. and once a lifetime. maybe its gd that he couldnt recall i scream in pain.. yea. .kinda scary. hahha. phewwwwwwwww... being a woman is so hard eh.
theres another type of pain though. givining birth =.=;; but that doesnt last once a lifetime. cos if u have 2nd child in another years, that year shall be painful too. lol

mata

Art of Drawing

wow. .so gald.. today one customer is so happy wuth my service =) saying its really excellence.. and even told my colleguea that too. =) i am so glad.. job satisfaction. =) haha..

my thorat.. not good.. huu =/ coughing just now. .throat so itchy.. duno why suddenly like this..
o well..
i was drawing the other night. .yea i knwo.. been so long since i draw again.. tuired mah..
anyway.. yea.. i was drawing.. then whne im done, i look at it as i alwys dp.somethigns not right. i don see anything. theres no way i htought. cos i alwasy draws something outta whatever god knows what im drawing. so i started to turn around my oic.. nad yea. to my atonishments, hahah. upside down the drawing, is what brought my jaws down. wow. was like. .i couldnt believe this..
i like it. i do. i gues sothers might not be able to see it or somethign . .but im sure i can. plus my long time luth too.

huu.. my eye... so itchy and uncomfy =. now my\ throat. .and today.. at wokr is fnie.. but onmy way home, wow. .really slp.. .sooo tired. k.. think i'd better go brush first.. need to wash my eye too..

mata

need love

hmm..... haiz. very bored today.. though.. was out for shopping.. yea.. nothig pretty much to do  thats why.. .. today i was awoke early.. and this song was palying in my head... ''i'll be  waiting for u x2..'' korean drama song.. sianz.. duno why
tmr.. since sammy is ot.. thought of having a night out for myself. though tired.. but stilll...
beats better than waiting aside.
hm.. thinking, ,,of who to go with. or, just being alone again. yes alone.. that words. sounds so.. o well..
anyway..
..hm.. duno ba.. so tired and bored..
.. haiz.. ..
sometimes i don understand.. no i mena i cant.
why things are so complicated sometimes..

oh my foot.. that day kena hit by what forgot.. then bleed. just saw the blood then know. ha. took me so long. my finger is on its way to healing provcess.. .
haiz.. o well
today.. like.. i duno. i think its the first time i have such a huge favour to ask of sam.. but its so urgent thats why need his help..
gosh. .saw this item i really like. .but didnt get it on time.. cos was thiking should still have stiocks by the time im there. so as to save on the shipping fare.
but to my dismay, i couldnmtv been more wrong. dots.
item ran out. only left with limited stocks in store. haiz.
i hope still there though.. hopefully hte one sammy is going to will still have it.
yea. .keeping my fingers crossed.. ...
hm.. time to revamp abit of my wardrobe.. so many old clothes im not weating anymore..
and my style has changed too..
ppl elvoved.. i gess i am too.

sorry.. sometimes nowasdyas., when im too tired or even upset, i wouldnt blog.. cos uea.. i duno.
o well...
hm.. in anycase,, ..... yea. .lifes been busy still... kjinda.. bt slpy and tiring.. yea still tiring.. i guess what i need now is a proper rest. i wish i have 3 dasy of straight off.. to just rest it all out.. .... o well
hm..
i was asking sammy the other day..
asking.. does he believe in true love..
he didnt say no nor yes in excat.
i didnt ask again cos kinda was afraid will ge a disappointed answer..
but anywy.. i believe so too.
but then again.. true love. .it could be somethng liek this..
ONCE IT BRUSHED ITS SHOULDERS AGAINST YOU AND IF YOU DIDNT GRAB IT, IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN NOR PASS BY ITSELF AGAIN...
meaning............. once you missed it, it'll never happen again. you'll never have a true love in your life. becos u missed it. dont u ever wish you have a partner to spend the rest of your life with? even in your 70s.. 80s.. someone to hold your hand with to slp.. you know.. walk with u in the park..

..sometimes i wonder.. if i see love a a too important matter.. in face it is.. but somehow.. it could affect my well being. tears and sadness seem to ocurre more often than usuall..
and whta was that for. .

ah.. my nose.. glad to say that its been about a week? i think.. and so far its been fine.. gosh. .yay.. cheers to that.

wow.. look at the date.. .3 weeks to go.. ...suddenly.. nope. .not yet.. i think. the nerve wrecking part aint here yet.. but im sure its gonna be when its near.. ..
3 weeks to go. .. omg.. ..=/ how.. will i feel awkward?
i thinj i'll give him a tight hug.. oh no.. no.. im not gonna cry! when i see him at the airport. .nope. .hm.. i duno.. how woudl i be feeling by then... ..
i have no idea./..
mm....
o well.. shalol see how.. .. 3 weeks.. .then meet for one week... .....
hm.. ...
u know how many times i almsot get knock down if i wasnt lucky enough?
isnt t frightening.. to lose something u really love one day?
im glad im the one and not sammy.
no matter how hard i try.. it sems that i keep on .. u know. haivng frightening frights..
very not good.

 i feel stress lately... am i? i duno. perhaps to tired. but what can i do.. to ease these fatigue-ness.. .omg.. .
i don care.. i wanna go for my language lessons!!!!!!!!!!
so nmany thigns wanna learn.. but that is m passion the msot.. but how.. haiz.................. =/alrayd so tired.. .. ...how ne.. .. =/
argh.. o well
anyway hope tmr will have gd news from sam ba..

he's slping early again..

how i wish... he's not living ins ydney,,

mata

Forgotten Memories

wow.. my leg.. cant move.. very tired.. and hurts... omg... .
how did i end up liek this..

today had a nightmare.. of sort. me saving bro from dad. it was such a longggggggggggg dream. oimg. ...
=.,=;; hate it.
arhg.. anyway....

weird.. see. .i forgot of what to type againb.. haiyo.. alwyas liek this..>

hmm.... argh.. .suddenly mind is a total blank.. dots.. ..waht was it that i was gan blog about? /... ytd?.. i think so.. what happened ytd.. ...
... ...sighs. .forget . i cnat rememebr anything now. sianz..

oh yea.. last night.. was eating like i'd not eaten for sdayd... non stop. eat3... till chops finish. no. htat was hte night before? o well. today also feeling the dizziness.... i think not enough food or rest ba.. .
not dizzy.. but u just feel it.. like .. not gd.
anyway.. so slpy.. cant wait to slp.
so tired. i duno why.
too bbusy ba.

gosh. .so many things i wana do.. but yet im so tired.. to do. =/ jhow....

tmr.. o well. hoep movei will turn out firn ne.. ..
gosh. .so cold now.. huu...
haiz.. hate it.. just hate it. .when ppl look at me, or turn their heads and continmue to stare. omg.. bllody disgusting ne.
hm..... 
o well.. at least sammy has a gd start of a new year. my new year busted again. =.= ow ell. nvm ba. another plain day fo rme. tast all.
k ba. more to do for tmr. report starts again. o well.

jaa mate. zzzzzzzzzzzzz