happy new year to everyone =)

wow. my fren jsut got tattooed . though her bf of many years is a muslim. and hsi family pretty much a strict parents... typical type. muslims. so yea. maybe finally he didnt mind bah. but shes the one who agve me a very ncie perssy. during xmas. rlry so glad to know her. such a nice perosn. but yea.

after many years.. wonder if her bf parents finally meet her alrdy anot. .cos they dun ;liek chinese gf for their son. typical traditional parents bah. but i think shld be fine for htem ba. he even thinkits ok to live in australia. i was like .wow. wouldnt ur bf disagreed? she say well, he comes to realized that its ok. 

u know. thigns liek that. once you grow up, you have ur own thoughts, and yea. but so nice. glad she has the courage to do that. 

jsut a quote. to remind herself to be thaknful of life. 

anwyay, 

rushign through blog cos slpy n late liao

sad. =/ cos.. haiz. ppl go out celebrate.. even samy.. and my colleague bf meeting her go eat  later after her closing .if me, sure super happy n looking forward to it. 

soyea. .was feeling kinda down.. 

then sammy skype with me abit. .before... yea. cut off out of nowhere. 

his words were swt. din hear that from him ofte n mah so yea .

cept for the cut off part, yea. .well. its always nice to skype

aha. i knew this kind of videos. abt before n after dating. marriage. .etc

thats why in the laast few blogs, i blogged a long one. about how i want my partner to be nice and lovey dovey till the end. 

it wont work with one person. 

both mus thav the respect and similar htinkings in order to work. 

of course anyone wants a marriage like the honey period time. or a even better one. 

don wan hubby suddenly snap at me fore nothing. or little hting. then wanan cry, kena scold or what. .etc. 

rrly wish not. i need my marriage to be a lovey one. as though stil ldating, and getting better everyday. 

thast why i say.. never lose that feeling of love. 

dont take it for granted. msut treasure everyday you have each other.

so yea. as much as it may be rue to some ppl, i dont want that. i dont. 

the onsense past of marriage changes, is for couples who take each otehr for granted. but not me. i will eevr want or do that to my partner/marriage. 

even with a child. 

if u lvoe each other, respect and compromise, everythig will get better and happier. each day. be content. and thankful of what you have in ur life. 

instead of a wife cheating u of money etc.... u nver know right.

wow. samy leanred to get used to the taste of beer finally eh. i wonder if he still hate sit. or jsut drink. maybe he's ok with the taste now huih. some of my frens stil ldislike the taste thogh

kk. .gtg.

haiz. new year huh .

o wel.

mata

no festive mood =(

been a long day.no. been so many days? i dunno. time flies. before i know it, its almost new year .

my cny both days working. xmas busted. and now new year.. .mm.. o well
sianzzzzzzzzzzz =.=

but .. honestly. new year jsut. .feels liek the same. this year been crazily fast over. wow.
xmas more of a bigger thing ba. cos theres pressies exchange and all.
but.. new year. sighs. maybe cos  my years been pretty bad.. so. .yea. nothing to look forward to. =/
sadly.
o well
so yea. it kinda felt.. jsut u know. .ok. new year. cny diff. got money. sicneprobably im not going, maybe i wont get as much=/
xmas get pressy. new year. .get fireworks only ba. no. don think im watching,
oh man. if olnly someone will suddenly ask me out.
so nice. at least sammy can enjoy his new year with frens.
got companies. huu... my holiday season so not festive=((((

today. gosh so many happening customers.

got compliments la.. got new fren who even talked to  me abt her bf.. .
new fren from cust. as in my cust.then now to fren? geez i dunno. but nice to talk to la. jsut that. .abit awkward sometimes ha
like. .how she can actually open up so much abt her personal life to me. wow.
weird or what. not lthat i dislike her. but. .jsut. .dunno. maybe my guards just up too high ba
but at least someoen  to msg with when bored i guess. but creepy.. but.. o well. dunn ola. skali same stalker as that time =X omg....... haha. no way ba. ..erm..right..?


but why ppl countdown ar. mm...
just for fun i guess.

anyway, i had a custoemr who likes my fashion sense she said, i had a customer who gave me a $20 voucher. cos she likes me alot. tell me go church, be a nurse, study, talks abt her sons. my collegaue joked that she wan to take me out for lucnch to talk more abt her sons. and she gave me voucer so i can be her daughter in law. lol
faint*

but yea. its a good day bah. with nice custoemrs. but. .abit slow today the itme. maybe cos clearing stocks?

haiyo.........................
=((((((((((((((((((((((
why holidays im working. dunno when can i clear my off in lieus. shoudlnt they tel lme? not i ask them mah. too busy, forgot to tell me ar. huu
baka desu
=(

ppl celebrate , me stucked there.
 though still got time la. but.. dunno...

o well.

donthink think 2013 is a gd year either. more bad than good. it even ends in a ..not so good way, =/ huu

will 2014 be a good start? no cny though. oh man. i dunno la.

sighs

anyway, so much to type. but.. again, i forgot.
oh yea. collegue gave me a bottle . cheap one. cso i told her i like. .mm. .had i blogged htis before? anyway, i liek it sooooooooo much. cos its siompe and cheap, yet the sincerity is precious. uh huh.

been so sleepy. dunno isit cos of the new night multi vitamin that im taking.
or isit cos of work?
like. .im so sleepy. .jsut wanna slepe. can sleep right away.
yea ...mm... even last night knocked out inin sofa. for abit bah. here n there.
yea. rrly slpy... mm.. could be the vitamin eh..

kk. have a great new year everyone.
and may my 2014 be great please..
fo rmy birthday too.

2013 birthday i recalled its bad. but i dunno why. good that i dunno why bah. like my memory blocked from rememebring it. cos i was too upset.
maybe deepinside i didnt wanna recall.
oh isit the pics.. o well. forget it

nice. rgm bf is in sg liao. hope htey are having great times. spending new year together .awesome

ive always wante dto kiss under a mistletoe. hoepfully i can do it with sammy one day. ion shopping mall has them .a pity no samm here. o well

kk. gdnight.

...mata

dreams..almost real

ok! quick blog here.

soooo slpy. been slping late before off day. oh amn.

anyway,
was too tired to do anythign today. paretns can tell from the look of my face too.. that i was extremely tired. =/

anyway,
finally bought this nighties oin sale. hehe. been wanting it so long .but no buy cos no chance to wear mah. since on sale, then can buy and keep.. .maybe one day got chance to wear. sales.. cheap. so yea. its ok to keep
soooooooo exremely soft n smooth.. so silky.. omg.

oh yea. had a dream.. quite. .uncomfortable. my phone. .dropped inton bin. those big large big where u thiow everythign in.
then the ppl .. collected it .i panicked. i go find where they went.. omg. ..search here n there.. like in a maze ne. so.. .sad and worried. when i wokey, i thought for real u know=/ luckily.. i reazlied then. oh its a dream. PHEWWWWWWWWWWWWW
rrly. to have ur phone dropped into bin, the big bin, is no ojke.

kk.. gonna go slp bah.

gonna be busy
hopefully still got energy to type blog

mata

creepy night

soo late now

gosh. soooo scared when i walked to my house just now late night as tehres no more bus.
cat meow... dog barked.. graveyard looking. .creppy houses... no lights.. indian man talking to phoenm lying on floor.. .very.... omg. suey day ba

ytd alaso v bad sighs. first time in my life overslpt till like that=/

too tired. everyday abt 5hrs of slp. and at work so much tiredness.. .gosh.

im soooo slpy now. sorry jsut wanna type fast n slp

but yea. htough dislike xmas, yet rrly thankful have sammy by my mind to chit chat and all.
was like so stress till cry.. .haiz

gosh

i rrly nind to slp

dunno what else to type.

oh haha. bros reaction. he rrly like the xmas pressy tat i gave him =) uh huh.
took pics. but shouldsve taken down video. ha
first time saw him reacted that way. finally bought right pressy

gosh so lspy...
anyway, nelated merry xmas to all

may 2014 be better

my lie ..just work4.... and work3
no time for xmas mood either=/ o well

kk eyes shutting liao

mata

stressful xmas period ppl/work =(

so nice. heard my rgm bf is coming over this week look for her.
aww

anyway, ytd my sm just msg me say shes so tired and stress that she broke down and cried last week.
me too. i know how she feels.
cant hold back. jsut wanna cry out loud. sighs...

honestly, every single bloody year i hate xmas. i like . i jsut hate the atmosphere with xmas going on. the crows .stupid customers. the sales. the hours. the stress. ytd also only ate one meal . late home hurry drink water then go to bed. slpt five hrs.
now i start crying, i cant stop.
sighs

ok. stop abit liao.

haiz.
seriously... rrly bloody hate xmas. cant even have a proper one. sit down n enjoy etc. what to do. in sales liek that mah.

but i love to open up pressies.
liek today, my fren gave me the gift i wanted, but i couldnt bear to buy. i was so surprised.
so swt of her.

gotta calm down. cant let bro se eme cry. he's home. shoot

anyway, sighs
yea. jsut a few more nightmares, and xmas will be over. i like unwrapping pressy. so funn and nice .
but.. .seriously. to work during xmas in retail, is a lboody god damn nightmare.
SIGHSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSs
tch

rrly9 hate it

sighs

so stress with work=(
..wha tto do. cant destress. dunno how to. spend more money also not the only solution.
shoudlve cried in bathroom jsut now=/
sighs

will see how thigns go bah.
hoepfully this job is gonna be great. sighs

gota slp liao.

not enough slp again.

at least msging sammy can stop my tears for now. kk gtg

mata

sweet surprises!

soooo slpy!!!!!!!!!!!!! hit my head on the pole twice cos fallen aslp gosh

anyway, sooo crowded in stoer omg
thank god today no closing for me phew
but time rrly flies.

anyyway, only a quick blog here.
haha. got a compliment from customer todya. hair accessory. thenshe say if i wear will definitely look good on me. cos im very pretty. my hair very prety tooo
so shy. but yea. .my hair like i'd said. i nvr do anything special to it. so.. not sure why ne.
but anywya thats a good thing ba

ha. our rgm.. rrly very quiry n funny. can dance in store.

she say dont think shes going to get married anytim esoon. oh her bf still in syd. os yea they are having ldr at the moment. anyway, i was like jokin abt how maybe her bf will propose to her when she elast expect it.. romantically..on a beach.. candles.. lol. shes like. erm..
she say he did mentioned abt it. .maybe she'll suddenly get a phone calle of proposal or sumtin. i say what if he get her parents as witness. she say he's too shy. kinda scared of her dad. so dun think hewill do that. haha so funny. i wonder what kind of a person is he. to love our weird eccentric rgm XD
so funny la. she's v auntie sometimes. force ppl hold basket. lol
omg
power.
but yea.she said htis mrg. she said.. ''I dun wanna go back to australia'' she wanna stay here. so yea. .shall see what wil lher bf think. anyway maybe he wil lcome over to work in sg in march. hopefully bah.
but.. shes rrly special though. i don think he should let go of her jsut becos she wanna lives in sg. her personailty.. rlry too hilarious. but shes serious and scary in work sometimes ha. even customers liek her too i thik. sometimes they will ask if thats our boss
ha
she rrly talk like an auntie promotin promotions. omg

oh. just saw.. my previous colleague. 2yrs anniversary . her bf surprised ehr with this harbous bay hotel sumtin. wah.. theres even a gm signature from the hotel to qish them both happy anniversay
2nd year.
then bathtub got orchids... bed also..flowers. .then got made out words of happy 2nd anniversayry. .then got cake..candle..
romantic la. the effot 100 points.
but bath tub with afew orchids.. m.. not very .. erm.. well. rose still better hahah. but still, it sok. i bet she wouldnt mind either. cos its his efforts isnt it. thats what mattters most .v nice. i like ot joke with her alot. so yea. happy things are going so well for her now. =)
ha. so fast. .twop yrs liao.

he bought coupel rings. he purposely wanna look at her ring. and he ended up took it home with him. then she also forgot. so he uses the ring to go make her size of couple ring. aw.....
haha.
but yea. nice surprise eh

oh. .was like. .so afraid of being late, then end up.. im early. rgm din arrive at 7am. only half an hr later. then a girl late. another jus ton time. gosh. =.=
o well. its alwasy like that

kk. gtg slp

tmr niht not much slp huu

mata!

early night?

supposed to  be alsp by now. oh man. ... but still waitign fo rhair to dry. though off two days,  yet i did not slpt well. it slike. .u know you'll be ioff right. then end up slp late.. then dunno why jjsut auto wakey earlly, and cos happy its off, u wanna spend ur time wisely. so wanna get up asap..and use hte tiem wisely. so yea
v v slpy oh my god. and my eyes. .like stil lswollen..cos not enough slp n rrl treis to drink plenty of water

aw.. .so tempted to buy this soft toy name boo. apprantly its v v popular due to its cuteness. but i still don get what is its species

anyway, i din buy it. but... well, maybe i will huh.
haha. but so cute. cos same day, i watched that cute doggie video.. aww... those paws.. wanting for pats.. nawww ^^ so kawaii ne =3

oh man. i truly wonder if im able to slp htough =/
either not, or just wakey in middle of night. oh man.
but heard the sm say this shift is great cos itme passed fast, and soon can go home. yea end v early.i like too la. .

sleepy

kk. gtg

gonna listen to few more songs , then gonna slp.

mata

Love like there's no tomorrow

i am extremely sleepy.... rrly slpy. slpt late. n wokey early. u know those days when u feel like extra3.. .wanting ur partner badly? u nid them lots. and u wish to be u know.. doing all sorts of thigns with them. haha. gonna blush liao. anyway, yea. .o well. its ok. been years already. i can hold onto it
ha. its always so interesting how so long nvr see each other, and.. u know. .shyness will takeover.. and.. haha .blushing all over. .and the finger poking and finger twirling al lcomes out .lol. so anime XD but its true haha. then once u get used to the momentum, everthign will be back to normal. haha. so interesting.

oh man. so late again.

anyway, so nice. finally get to spedn time with bro. mumnot feelign that well. so me out with bro instead. been way tooooooooo long since i had a chance to go out with him. so was rrly excited n happy to do that. =) and been sooooooooooo long since i had the chance to doll myself up and wear niec dress. i did today ^^ hehe. cos i feel safe with him ard. probably ppl will think he's my bf. (almost all my frens thought that he is=.= cos we dont look alike .thats what they say) anyway, yea. i wont notice guys staring so much cos i'll be talking more to him than my mum. and im sure guys wont dare to approach or stare too long right .though i did caught afew. one of the guy was with his gf. immediately i saw him, he turned his head very fast in otehr direction. lol. argh. guys with gf.. .anyway,
oh yea. .speakin gof that. .sm say.. if women do that, guys wont be bothered. but if gusy do that, yea. .ofc we will be upset n jealous la. what to do.
ok anyway, thats why i feel safe to doll myself up. cos i wont have to worry or care abt other ppl.
but wanted to take pics with him... suddenly became so awkward. so i din take with him.
in fact, i secret took some pics. ahha. so paiseh la . cos maybe too long nvr go out together, nvr take pics together. its weird la. so yea.

ow ell.
anyway, took some pics for u know. memories. keepsake. remind myself of taht day.
but sad la. cos due to lack of slp, i look terrible i think =/ not my best bah. i look so .. puffy tired listless face. i tink so bah.
 haiyo....
but nvm. still had a good day ba
rrly great to finally go out with him.
cos he always went out wtu his frens. then me can only head out with mum
o well

anyway,
mm.. think im missing sumtin.. ...o wlle=.=
cant rememebr

ohh i cooked today!! hehe. bro say its ncie. lalalala. ^^
yea... sometimes i craved for spicy pasta. so i cooked mysefl lor. cooke dfor bro's shares too

thats abt it ba. gosh. so late. oh man.. gtg
rrly cant rememebr what else to type
mm

miss sammy very much.
lvoe my bf to bits.
rrly hope one day.. just one day in future(hopefully not too faraway) .. we'll get to go on a trip for holiday =)
always envy my fren and her bf posted pics when they went for holiday .her bf is v nice to her. and yea im happy for her too.
they went taiwan. then .. bali isit. cant remember.. but so nice ba. explore the place together. i think biggest dream huh... of that holiday trip thing. .
wow.. .if can go disneyland.. (yess disneyland. .my wish too) .. for fun. or jsut scenery... romantic places.. take pics.. lots of pics.. eat... street food also can...
ahh so nice... rrly so nice. =) cos its liek two ppl enjoying mah. then discover new thigns n memories together. havign fun and excitements together.
uh huh. soudns great eh.

another nice one.. this youtuber. gosh. her bf surprises her with hotel booking. and blah3.... then a v swweet romantic surprise! - bathtub, with rose petals, champange, wine glasses, and strawberries.. .dunno still got anything else anot. but literally thats his surprise for her too. imagine u walk in to find that. omg. that guy took time to do all that. and prevent her from finding out. so nice.
its like rrly. seriously a scene out from a movie.
haha. i was like. .whatttt.. omg... so niceeeeeeee
=)

which reminds me.. rrly... every married couple. no matter how long youve been married, shoudl always always forever find time to make do of such sweet lovely romantic gestures.. surprises...for ur own partner. even if there's 4 kids to raise, busy3... but still. its no excuse. i rrly wish. every couple.. will always be in love even after married for few years,decade,.. .etc. in love like the way u do for the first three months. or even nmore in love than those three months.
how ncie isnt it.
i wish everycouple wont forget that feeligns ... even though time passed., yet.. if u rrly awnt to, those feelins , love, wil lstill be as strong as ever before. or stronger.
i believe it exisits
yes.its true. u just gotta look around u sometimes.

but yea. even if you're married, pls do make time for such nice gestures for ur partner.
tiem alone. doesnt need to be extravagant. can be simple as.. making morning breakfast .place rose petals on the bed...floor.. .bathtub.. no champange? jsu tfruit juice with chocolate and strawberries.
but sorry la. if ur partner is the .. u know. want everythign to be expensive high class type,.. then yea. =.= gdluck.

like my ex colleague. i aske dher to place her step son in the hands of baby sitter. ) then she can go out with her fiance. then she say her fiance sister/family will call say. oh u don wan tc of ur father(her father in law)  isit. she  cant even shop properly at ease for more than an hour. =/
and its liek once in a logn while. somemore her fiance ask his sis wanna join honeymooon together anot=.= wth. omg.. .its two person trip. why ask ur sis to join. then nvr ask my fren. say to his sis.but scared she wont like. wah.. u tell that to ur sis abt ur fiance? oh man..=/
sighs

then sm also. got new borned baby. and young child one yrs old. then keep saying cannot la. no time for twosome get away. no time for twosome movie trip. babay sitter they dont liek will cry.. etc.
i was like... =.= ... oh man.. every couple shouldnt face that. .but sadly,. .guess no choice.
but.. sounds like.. its jsut laziness eh. excuses... imagine. if ur partner or if u know... ur partner will die next day, or next few days, will you still say the same thing?
oh cannot la. no time alone. cos need to do housework. cos need to tc of children. =.=
thats why.. sometiomes. .even afters years being together, or married fo rso long, they tend to FORGET. TAKE IT FOR GRANTED. that life is lie this. ohhhh wait till htey grow up then can go holiday la.. etc.
what if.. ur partner met with a mishap day after. or next year. etc. wil lu regret ?
if theres a will, theres a way.
especiall for things thats not so difficult. as in. not extremely difficult.
let baby sitter, or mother in law .or even frens, to help tc. if they cry, then train or talk to children abt it .resolved this prob. then go on a bloody nice swt romantic shopping/mpvie date with ur hubby.
isnt that nice?
no wonder.. ppl divorce .. .etc.
very sad.
haiz.
o well. dont regret before its too late

and theres this latest news. this fatehr ;eft his daughter in van go away for an hour to attned concert or something. then. this girl, kena led away by stranger, brutally rape and murdered.
=/
shes on ly 6 i think .yea. haiz...
but life is unpredictable. rrly. cos. .we all humans. tends to .. take it for granted. .oh its ok. half an hour wait here i'll be back. or u shouted at ur love one before walking away. then skali they kena mishap. car suddenly dashes into the store killing them. or like that case where stranger led her away. or even maybe van pulled up, and push u into the van. then disappeared into thin air.
brr.. .rrly scary. sounds too much right .but its not. its happeneing everyday all ard the world=/
mm.. suddenl thought of my frens case.. where her bf will say f*** you, and walk away,leave her there. luckily he ended up treating her better than before. anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyy
thats in my previous blog more of that.
but yea...
soemtimes when i walk alone, i also need ot be careful. cso now im wearing more.. skirts.. and u know. femine wears. so yea.
at night. .gotta be careful. especially my area, alwasy got innicents one. like ppl die.. murders alot u know. uh huh. =/
but.. well .u nvr know.
rrly.
scared, also must be careful n alert. but sometimes phone la. distractions hahahha. oops.

so yea. may all couples take time out .. .when is the last time youve done something nice for them? liek i'd said. no need to be expensive. jsut soemthign. that ur partner will like. and appreciates.
cook for her? help her do housework? help her/him massage? or special nighttime treatment? haha. or get her her favourite food? if wanna splurge, ofc that'll be nice. liek that hotel plan.. omg. haha.
or suddenly say. ok in two months time lets go japan. etc. wow. so nice. ha.
but yea. even take time to notice her hair, makeup, dress, etc.. .compliment her/him..
small gestures, rlry goes a long way.
ofc. htis cant be one way clap. two must make the efforts. its not hard. u jsut nid to stop finding excuse, and start on it. but learn to appreciate. even if ur guy or girl bought u wrong size. or wrong colours or bought wrong fav item, still. instead of shoutin gor thinking badly, appreciate it. appreciate her/him.

i wish thats how my love life is gonna be if i do get married one day, will be sad.. imagine if u keep making the efforts, yet somehow ur partner didnt seem to understand.. or notice the lil thigns that youve done.. well. thats when the 'talks' msut come in. ha. its ok to talk isnt it. as long as u respect, and listen . and compromise. but yea. .no heated arguments.
i wanna be like this old hollywood coupole. i dunno who is she. but question for herin a mag was.. how do u amtained such a long.. many years of marriage with ur husband. she say. oen of the rule. if anyting unhapy, they will talk abt it before bed. in bed. before slp time. talk it all out. ALL out, then slp. they never ever leave the problems hanging till next day. it will be settled before they slp. they dont carry it into the bedtime.
i dunno if that'll rlry work. but. well. .thats from many years abck when i read that. i wana rememebr it forever. and to use this mehtod with my future hubby.

im no expert. dunno why suddenly so much to type abt all that ha. jsut my own opnions. anwyay, gdnight.

so yea ^^ omg.. ..type so long. .again gonna slp at 3am T_T huu... tired face.

mata!!!!!

demanding job

mm.. forgot. .what i'd wanted to type.. like. .quite important ne. .somethign i saw from fb maybe?.. mm...
oh man. hate it when i cant rememebr =.=

anyway, sooo glad the day is over, and two off days are next.
uh huh. thats a relieved. jsut dun wanan think of going back to work yet ha.
so yea. gonna rest well these two days

wow .time flies. sammy passed his exams. rrly so happy for him =) thumbs up!

mm.. .what else..

o well.

mm.. ha. heard the other outlet staff say the carton is less than a carton. its liek half a carton. then our store i slike. .sometimes it can be 6 cartons. (compared to over hundred in xmas period at my previous workplace, thats a bless)
so yea. .though 6, or so, yea. .stil lbetter than more. thoug i wish if its only half carton ha. o well. townmah what to do

bros birthday over jsut like that.
hope he had a great dinenr with frens though .
mm... yea..
though it seesm liek he has nothign on for now
weird. i thought will be happening

oh yea. did i menionted. ? my sm passed by store. she said hi. hten rgm just stnad outside far away. looking at phone. nvr even say hi or ask how u doing. not that i want him to. but pls . if thats a gd caring rgm, or he want me back, he wouldve done that .
right?
incfact, its my founder/gm who asked me to return when the new store is oopen
.argh. who wanna work under him

though the sm quit after one week.. .heard she said its because this job is too demanding. (my now job)
but.. yea. maybe she snot used to it bah
and. .another staff who worked htere fo r6months, said somethimes she cant stand it anymore, and wnan go MIA. i dunno ba.. is it rrly that bad??? this company. or the ppl... mm... o well. .only time can tell
my 7am shifts will be startign this week. oh man. but.. o well. at least go back earlier bah. still, gonna be dang slpy.tdoay so slpy ne. huu

wow. suddenly recaleld so much abt those. maybe cos now im sitting down n relaxing.. quiet. no crowds ard me. .me n room only.. .peacefulness.. .uh huh..
soemtiems too tired, and just cant think ya know.

kk. better get a good rest. hope i'll have a great day ahead. =)

mm. .think im missing some thign to type.. o well

hopefully tmr can remember ba

mata

timings

omg so awesoem to finally find my fren!!!!!! one of my best fren bah. rrly3.. glad. due to his wife jealousy issue, so we cant keep in contact at all. so yea. so awesoem to see him work so near my place. =)
rrly glad somehow there's stil lchance to say hi and bye.

oh. was rrly surprsied that day i found out .my rgm say.. she din know anythign abt cashtill... and stuff .she didnt know anythign abt being a manager. cos she was not train for that. .meaning shes not a sm at all. O.o wow. i was rrly surprsied.
ok...
but i know she did say after uni she didnt wanna continue uni anymore for s o many years liek getting masters degree.. etc. so she went straight to start working.
interesting. mm... thought she will know better being a sm.. u knw. but its nice to see her help out.
of course stress abit .but still, yea. shes still nice bah

and so... im glad he fought for her real hard like a man. and willign to change for the better. obviously he took her for granted. handsome and rich doesnt mean my fren is gonna stay with him for life if he didnt treat her right. =.=
if she did, meaning what for u want a bit** h who sticks around for ur looks and family background.
i cant wait to meet up with her again. shes so nice la. very frenly. tats what she thought of me too ha.
a pity cant work with her at my this workplace cos shes unhappy and left. yes. she asked me join, then she left. =.= haha. o well
but shes happier there now. though longer hours, lesser pay. one off day. per week. but relaxing. and.. well, shes happy. ppl there all nice. no backstabbing.. etx.
i dunno how bad the ppl are over here. .and.. yea. o well. see how bah

haiyo.. my mrg shift.. he's slping. then today off. he got his own event thingy.. .
..ha. talk about good timing eh

cant wait to check out a shoe store. heard from a customer say its very comfy. but not cheap. but i think will be worthwhile. cos imma stand  5 days a week. about over 10 hrs a day. so yea.definitely need a pair of gd comfy shoes.
that can go well with dress, skirts, pants.. so yup. rrly cant wait to check it out

guess imma slp without him. still busy bah i think. event mah.

..kbah. gonna rest. cant wait to pass my bro his pressy in two days time. oh yea.

needed to add this on.. just read cesar's book.. he wrote.. theres pitbulls.. .they put them into illegal fights. and when one of it lsot its eye,m and the match, its owner abandon it. =( and another one. it lost the match, the owners set the dog on fire. those incidents causes the dogs to be agressive. but cesar nursed them back to regular dogs with leadership.
uh huh.
he's right .when they're bad dogs, its all because of humans who started and influence them. not becasue they ar born natural to wanna bite us or kill otehr dogs. sadly, not all dogs in this world cesar is able tohelp=/ unless he's a god or something right. sighs. .very sad to read that ..but so glad that the two of them are safe with cesar now =)

mata

fight for her. friend's story =)

ok. .lets see if i can rememerb my blog ..to kick off form last night..
tmr off so nvm ba.. .
late slp bah.. though tmr sure die. ;ha

anyway,
oh. so.. it slike.. soemtimes ppl say they like my hair. my custoemr did that day. i was like... huh? rrly? O.o but i done nothing. i din curl, i din putgel, styling products, etc.. .its totally just. . plain boring hair. with nothing on. jsut natural hair. i was rrly surprised. cos she had nice pretty curls whic she did herself.
so yea. was like. .wow. thanks.
so yea. that day i got that auntie complented me pretty ,(reminded me of that customer at my previous store.. .shes's with her daughter then suddenly commented i am very pretty.), ok.. so this woman ..with my hair ... she like, then i got compliemnts from my fren who told me i look rrly beatiful that day. cos i lookvery different from my previous black working outfit, compared to my own clothings.(my frens also said taht) .. well, guess one of the best thing abt this job, is definitely my own fashion that i get to wear
today also. she saw me again, and say i lok rrly pretty today haha .
though nice coplimetns, but i wont take it for granted.. thinking oh thats true..etc.. .blah.. im not a proud person so yea.
but rrly cherish these sort of comments

so.. the singing context alsmot coming to an end. im rooting for jeff gutt.
his voice is amazing. but most importantly, as you may have known me alrdy, i support the most humble, down to earth ppl. i don care if hes not handsome, but hes fighting hard for his son, his life, his dad, but mostly is his son. his voice is rrly awesome. rrly can sing like hell. hell great.
i rlry hope he can win and win it fo rhis son, and provide a better life for his son.

theres another contestant. .a couple. which i had mentioned long time before when the comp first started.
...i still ....mm..reluctant to watch them ba.. cos liek i'd said.. reminded me and sammy. ..so watching them on tv.. being so sweet.. ..rlry makes my heart sour. cos i wish sammy is with me now u know.
..so yea. reminded me of that. .
tat guy. .very swt.. .and lovey towards his gf.. and the girl. . alwasy seems to be like. .shy looking... but her bf very affectionate. .so yea. reminded me of us.
im the quiet shy one. .tehn sammy is the loveyprotective one ..uh huh=3
so eya.. .o well.
anyway, may the best person win.

so this girl.. .sort of a new frne. but nice pino. but pr here in sg. she's 23? getting married to her bf of 6 yrs... in three rs time.
yea. heard she say he's eurasian mized or what. v handsome. they're classmates.
her bf cheated on her. .and somehow shes sad, and she get to tell him all abt it. .and. .o well. yea.
but they broke off abit. then got back togeether. cos she cheatedon him for 7montsh. she say ONLY 7 months. lolllll omg.say what??? only??? anyway, because of some probs.he nvr celebrate their anniversay. and he also liek to say f*** you to her. and walk off and leave her alone there on the spot. even though she did told him of his probs, he stil lnvr change. so she eneded up with another guy, nice guy. so when she wanna break off, he cried. he waited for her down staris everyday, bought her her fav mickey mouse soft toy.. etc.
cried over the phoen.. write her letter.. .etc. .and finally they got back together. and after that, he finnaly cherish her, treat her very very well, he changed for the better, and he never say f*** off to her anymore. aww...
at least he learnt his lesson. and he fight for her. nvr give her even when she decided its time to end.
heard he's quite rich. but he don wan his parents money. he wan to be independant. he wanna use his own mone. she say he's a rrly good man. aww.. .so happy for her.
she snot .. sorryr to say .she snot that pretty. she snormal looking shorer than me .. pino.  v vflat chested, .. mm. .short hair.. rrly normal looking pino. btu gd for her. she get a handsomefiance, and gettign married soon. aww.. .so swt =)
rrly happy for her.
we din know each otehr long, btu some how we clicked, and she like me alot. she say im her best fren cos im such a nice person. hahaah XD uh uh .i was like..erm.. o..k.. .XD
ha.

anyway, at least he's a man to do taht for her bah. and he's willing to change for the better(finally!) afer not listening to her probs, abt him, must wait til lthe serious breakup, then he learn his lesson. but . better late than never eh. so yea. so.. now 6 yrs liao, he's her fiance hope they will live happily ever after =) cos hse seems so ncie too

2 yrs they din let their parents knwo they're together. cos her father v strict .finally after converting to christian., she decidede not to lie to her dad. and revealed to him. well, turns otthat her dad like her bf. his bf parents loves her! adn yea. all is well =) hehe.
good bah.  her dad say he's hadnsome. lol. maybe besides handsome, ... .probably he's family is quite rich, so of course which dad will say no right???

but yea... having said all taht, its jsut great that .. .this shows that he rrly lvoe her. and he's willing to change. and rlry did so much to win her back. good for him!
=)

sianz. .my fren cam einto the store.. .then rgm saw.. me talking. .oh man.. .asked if thats cust or fren. i say cust. .she's like. .rrly? oh man.. im sure she can telle =(( fdang... sighs. .
bad timing.. oh man....
makes me so down =( and disappoitned.

kk. ..gtg soon. fb abit more ba. .then will go layin bed.. online abit more..then slp

if i could be with him now, i wouldnt cry so much, and i wouldnt feel so..not happy bah.
but. thanks to snapchat. .watsapp,.. etc. these apps helllps and .. yea. happy to always keep in touch

so slpy and tired. thighs also. .cos counter so low. .must hunch. even customer was asking me... if iim ok with my back.. ha.
ask me to feedback. .counter too low XD
true la.. o well

kk. .gtg bah.
finally tmr off. need to treasure it

to finish early. but sammy slp liao .so.. yea.
hope he''ll have mor eergy bah. deinfinitely more than me for tmr . tahts for sure. oh man. imma be a zombie time

and at work. rrly .when im too extrely tired,  loses focus. i cant evenn.. .focus.. like. .approach colleaue give basket thought shes customer. rrly. .sometime.s. .its very jialat.

mm.. duno if im missing anythign else anot.

anyway, cant wait to give bro his pressy. coupel of days to go. yea. =)

=) mata

weird question

so much things. dunno can remember anot.

kk.. here goes..

so.. break. somehow same breaktime, so went with the other girl. then somehow her fren msg her. and they meet =.= and we ended up as threesome going for breka. awkward. somemore me dunno my colleague well enough .so yea. extra awkward. so... was heading down cos was waiting while she smookes.. yea. used to it. always stand next to them wait for them to smoke finish..though meaning wasting my time abit la.. cos notin to do

then they were talking behind me as we went down escaltor. she was speaking in malay to her frne. keep saying pretty. i know some malay words. but duno la. she referring to me or what. then when we rch, she say her fren also don believe my age. he say i look lik e16.she say i look like 20.
but whatever, it is compliments la.
so yea.
so awkward. so blah3... when he's gone, she salk me weird question. what do u think of him> ? i wa slike.. .erm........ ....what? =.=
then blah3.. .was asking her if her fiance wil lbe jealous of her close fren who's tht guy. shes talk abit. .hthen say bt anyway she got gf already. so im like. .why ask me for opnion of ur fren? so funny like. as long as don matchmake me can liao. geez

oops gotta hurry late liao.

then theres this customer auntie. she say to me.. im veyr pretty. i thank her. ..then shortly after, she pointed at my chest area say. very big. meaning you have a big heart.
i was like. .erm.. .thak u again..
dunn oshe s talking abt my boobs or my necklace. very weird.

geez. cahsierng.. very bad today

anyway,
sad that they don pay the extra mins u came in for work.
or end work.
geez.

very weird bah. o well
still pay higher right. o well

so slpy n tired.

guess i'll passed on certain things to write. cos too late.

mata

badluck day =.=

huu.. toes got blister....

ha. rgm so funny. asked if ive seen the new store of my previous company store revamp . she say who cares. whatever. we've got their best girl here. i never step into the store anymore.
haha .yea she said that .XD
i was like ..wow. thanks.
she told me she heard gd things abt me from sm and asm there. .(like the past.. my aust sm and rgm also give nice feedbacks of em. .then the aust rgm will tell me htey said gd thigns. .aww)
but so suey today .missed my bus. waited 20mins, then jam., then im late huuuuuuu =(((( at night kena stay back closing cos pl mc. the supposedly to be my sm in future, decided to quit after a week .and decided to mc today also. me learnt closing last min. handle so manhy customers.. do cashier alone since 830pm .the other person with me is new too k. same as me. i was like doing my best to work like mad.
anyway,

yea. rgm was worried so she had a tlak to me . shes sorry that i have to come in a tthe busiest time. like. .u know. as in. suddenly u ned to learn everything. no one is there to teac u properly freely cos its busy every sc .im not joking. every sec. its busy3.
worse thanmy previous store. but its not that bad though busy. as in. im stil lfeeling happy so far so good.
just love the fact that i dont have to go out chase after customers. .saing its mine. its urs. key ur code my ccode. .etc. argh

anyway, the store so big n complicated. my previous one. so glad im not there. phew

anyway, yea. so shes worried i might be having troubles coping and all.
and shs afraid me will think oh what went wrong. why that sm wanna quit only after a week. isit too hectic or what. heard she handled lasenza a few stores.. but well. lasezza is usually quiet relax type
im used to this craziness now probably due to my 4yrs expeerience at that previous store. whihc is well known to be the top store, aka busiest crazy crowds..

but true. the cstoerm in town very demanding. argh so irritating sometimes. and u know.
please put back the item to original palce!!! omg. face palms*
no common sense u know .they love to throw all the things ard. LAZY PPL!!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhh
...omg blood boil u know.

...wonder ikea how. so big the place. omg.

but anway, yea. if ikea i udnerstand la. such big place. human nature mah.. dun wan walk so far to put back thigns. but hello. our store small ne. medium. pls la. put back the htigns probably. omg. like 3 yrs old kif like that. v bAKA
-.-

baka3

kk .so late liao. another long day ahead .

damn. this time roubd don care liao. will spend money on cab if need to . stupid jam .stupid bus waiting sooo logn .and somemore rgm there u know. =( huu

sighs. ..dunno htey'l lthink badly of me anot. .=/

tonight get to msg sammy fo rabit. rrly treasure those mins of msging .just wanna know hows he doing .whatshis day is like. .then can picture it. .can feel closer to him also ..in a way ba
heh. yea. my only man.
love him to bits.

even if he's in perosn next to me, iwill still treasre him as always. or maybe mroe eh. heh

kk. omg late liao.

my poor legs...

kk. jaa mata

today so much cashiering. .something new bah. .wonder whats tmr going to bring me eh...

brand new day k

felt like a load off my shoulder when i wokey.. guess i jsut nee to vent it out somewhere thats all...
was quite serious last night eh.. yea. .really bad..
but its good. to just thrash out the nonsense into this blog.. like i'd said before.  like my bro, and i.. we dont talk abt person probs to each other.or to parnts.
yea. .so soemtimes. .its rrly difficult for me to release my frustraions /anger;/sadness/stress. .sighs
what to do
 owell
was lookign forward to work today though. so yea. wont focus tooo much on last night .
cried so much.. .kinda destress abit bah.. soemtiems too strong for too long... jsut needs to break down at one point...

anyway, forget about ytd ba. today is another brand new day
i am so beat up man. my legs. .oh my legs...... small store but aches more. i keep telling myself. more work=more pay. jsut focus on that.
need to tip toe la.. walk here n there every sec..  cos short mah. .so cannot rch high place items. huu
but yea.
so pain... so nice to sit down finally
whole day stand ... only makan time less than half hour i was sitting. the rest of day me jjst stand .
yea. if u wan me sit in my room whoel of my off day, its possible.
anyway, so happy to be sitting down.. shoeless now
phew
so shiock. nbut not enough

im like part time stylist ne. seriously. like. .part of my job is to style them up. help them match their items  dresses/ party themes. .etc. wow.
and im proud of myself. its like. .naturally i know what to do.
waht to say. though may not be the best, but yea. i did it.
though no experience in this line, but i did it. =) wow
so nice. nice feeling bah
and guess what. we have male custoemrs. like. 20s.. male customers. though very very few, but yes they do shop for themselves. O.O uh huh. i was like. ..whattttttt haha. but nothing wrong with guys buying accessory la.
but yea. rrly din expect the guys will buy also ha
but of course, also for their frens bah

mm.. yay .glad bro's pressy came in on time. then realized. .shoot .he already have the item .but different brand. yes. u guess it .LV. =.=
bt this brand he like also la so yeah. .
its ok. im sure he wont mind ba hah

sammy slp again liao. ..o well
sometimes .. nah .everydya.. i wishes he's right by my side. .=/
then maybe i also no nid to so sad liao
o well. good things hard to wait ba
eh . its .. meant to wait. ..erm whatever ba

anway.............
sianz. my dress arrived torned and ..all beat up =.=
dunno wanna make the trouble to mail back anot. arghhhhhhhhh
nvm la. maybe jsut sew or waht. ..haiyoooo why like that. ..rrly sometimes so suey u know.
like. .arghhhh
=.=
make me more frustrated only. sighs =/

break time i feel so diff. so lonely.
o well.
somewhere in the heart. .stil lwil lfeel sad bah..
waht to do

k. gotta catch up on my cesar book.

nowadasy ,im looking forward to my bedtime .ye. bed. slp. no reality. just slp. rest .shut the brain dead
i mean out
though... had a very weird quite disturbing dream . last night

dreamt of sammy the other day.. wasnt a nice one though... maybe its my fears..
tats why keep having similar dreams.. of that. .

haiz.
k.. .mata ne

pouring out woes

hey.. haiz. been so slpy to blog

last night slpt at abt 2:45am... due to finisheid work at 12am.. then yea..
slpt till 12 plus pm next day

even now me still tired
and v slpy

just feel so depressed today =(
sighs
.. really bad
very bad

didnt know what to do..
perhasp cos .. u know. new job to deal with.. eevrything.. etx
i dunno.
jsut so stressful.. coudlnt control my tears.
so weak.. yet telling myself to be strong. .nid to.. have to..
=/

didnt know what i was doing.
or what am i supposed to do
this isnt wat i wanna do, but.. u know. life. its all abt life.
but im starting to hate this life

it was nice.. watching this video abt this gay founder of too faced cosmetic comapny
.and he answered one of the question abt what inspired him.. and it brought me to tears.
ha.
u know. he said somehtign abt.. listen to ur gut feeling. ur heart. ur light .
do it fo rurself. not becos ur frens think its right. .ur paretns think its the safe path.. .society think its great. .etc. they may not evole yet to get to .. understadn. .where ur idea is about..
u know. but evantuall ythey will .thats why u should follow ur heart
.. sumtin liek that.
which is very tru eu know.
but.
=/ o well.
one thing for sure. right now, i dont.. i sitll dont feel liek im where im supposed to belong. =/
thsi isnt what i want
i dont like it
i hate it
i jsu tdunno how to get there
its so tough

i know. life's not easy. but.. yea.
im just stucked y aknow.
or maybe im not getting enough support.
i duno
=(

sighs
tough day.
maybe stress and everythign suddenly got me all thinking..

it just sucks. .
sighs. how i wish to have that big sum of money and get away to sydney now.

theres this quote or something ..
what. ..buy a ticket. .get awya.. fall in love, and never come back. something like that.
i want. course i want .
but.
$$$$$$$
or maybe go somewhere where theres no stupid irritating complicated visa requirements eh. ha

i jus tfeel that.. i am going crazy with days liek this.
and i cant see that theres anythign to change it

sighs. ..
better stop crying
later tmr eyes swollen
=/

i hate crying.. =/

sigsh

sad day

baka..

me still sniffing alot .dang those germs

sighs

mata

goodbye workplace

soooo slpy. strangely though. .mrg not tat slpy though only 5hrs of slp.
o well.. dreamt of working there alrdy.. uh huh.. stressful dream eh.

tmr gona start.
mm.. nervous bah.

=/

today so sad. cried abit also.
ha.
yea. .more or less still will have attachments towards that place mah..
abt 4years ne.
.. time flies huh..
its like. .rrly wow.
i still remember.. shortly after i visited sammy for the first time, then i got this job liao.
wow... no wonder. .we're abt 6 years together..
time. .rrly is a.. amazing thign huh.
u cant go back. but u look back, and theres all ur life.. ur memories out there.
lessons.. .etc.
tears.. joy.. it seems as htough so short.. but yet. .its been years.. ..wow.
how amazing is that. can tbelieve it. and see. its almost xmas. wth right.
shocking

anyway, point is. .yea. .sad =/
.. haiz.. wrote farewell email to the bopsses and gm.. also teary... o well..
duno bha.

was looking at my hand the other day. like. .eh. how come theres these scars around. then.. .saw on my previous photos.. i took. its fresh wounds that time,
cuts i mean.
then now i beliueve. ohhh its rrly jsut scratches n cuts.. etc. but now all became scars. ha
poor thing

gosh.. so slpy . .

tmr a long long day. .o well
wish me luck.
nervous but nothing could be done to help.
and sammys not here

eyes closing. k then

gdnight everyone

wish me luck.

mata

counting down..

mm... its a sad day..
anyway, tmr will have another goodbye session to go through bah .

extremely busy day.

just needed a quiet night i gues.s.
 =/

just thinking.. u know.. dont u have those moments there when u just hated urself
.
haiz =(
like. .waht couldve be doen to make it better.. or sometimes unsure....
mm.. dunno waht to say either.. or how to say it
sighs
things couldve be better. .its all abt choices

ha. asked sammy what shld i make him for breakfast in future.
he gave me a list. goood. but. soem tough ones haha.
wel, can always start with the basic mah right
isnt it the best feeling iafter the hardwork, and ur partner appreciates what u did, and u can get to sit down n company or watch him eat
so  ncie isnt it
its those lil bits of blissful moments that makes it so special everyday.
but it all comes down to appreciation.
some ppl.. take it for granted.. and. .yea.. thigns they do for their partner.s. didnt look so special anymore..

tmr my last day liao.
its been a long journey.
o well

..i think im enjoying this quiet night.
cant turn back time
i hope i'l lmake better decisons tmr onwards

still abit unwelll
o well =/
hopefully by mon will be fine bah

getting slpy after med..

mm.. so yea

sighs.. tmes like this .. when i needed a hug
a tight hug. that'll say everything is gonna be alright. .

no appettie either. only had sushi. fo rlunch. late lunch.
din eat anthign though..but still eat med. shld be fine ba
gosh. now im hungry
but gonna slp soon
mm..

cant one be jjust carefree.. and.. happ always? is it so difficult to achieve taht
haiz.
happiness so hard to come by
wouldnt u wanna cherish it too huh .
when its right in ur hands.
.dont let go

... haiz.
o k. hungry liao. gonn aslp it through bah
i like slpy med.. no need think so much

jaa mata

dogs = hopes

ok.
and so, one of this episode.. of dog whisperer, this bf of this dog owner, said soemthing very cruel. argh,
he can say it in front of cesar's face. '.. just put him down''. forgot whats the line. but yea. he said to just put him down. = to kill it. O.O
wth. omg. i cant beliveve this. in front of tv as well!
so inhumane. i rrly dislike that man. pfft. they are in their .. maybe fifties.. i think .fat , and yea. i seriously wish that woman will break off with him. hes in human!
theres why alot of dogs died becos of ppl like him!!
kena bite few times, then say no hope, ask the dog tobe put down.
wth
coward!!!!
argh

and then one of another episode, cesar says.. thats why he' loves animals. they can bring hope for people that  ahuman cant''.
i think thats rrly right.
sometiems u nid no doctor nor pills to help u get back on track again

so gald today mc. shoudlve been ytd. if only ytd mc, then ytd wont be so sick liao. liek wana die in store=/
but still. today better liao. but not fully=/
so yea. still nid more rest

sooooo slpy. even when bro playing dvd at night, me jsut dozed off bit by bit.. gosh.
and now so late liao. oh man.
my slping pattern ar. hiaz

oh mrg shiock. dark room, cool weather, hug my bloster .. naw. so comfy. rrly no wish to get up ha

wow. just abit to go.. and its coming to 6 yrs of me and sammy.. hwo time flies eh...
rlry cherish it..

kk

mata ne

sick again=/

omg. cant tahan. nid to slp asap!!!!
only had three hours of slp due to runny nose n coughs=(

rrly don wan take mc. but no choice. im too sick=(
rrl regretted today decided to work .
cos thought theres stocks. .and all..
but yea.
just rrly. ended up having one of those worse day at work cos too sick. my brians gonna explode, my eyes also. my thraot. .cough.. nose. .gosh. like.. u can chop my head off pls=.=

anyway, thats why decided to u know. no choice. jsut take mc ba

and so... there are thigns sm told me msut look out fo rthis n that. closing thingy. details. etc. this morning, .. uh huh. she made those 'mistakes
 but i din tell her la. duh
later sak for trouble isit

cant concentrate..
sorry three hours rrly... gosh
not enuff slp

i cant think

oh!!! yea. .ytd dad on leave. so boguht parents out to eat. hehe .brought dad to see dogs.
then from the haircut room, out came this jap spitz
its owner.. a woman. like. .pino bah
she din do a good job with the dog. the dog so hyper.
wanna jump on her. hands keep wanting to snatch away her plastic bag. maybe go tfood bah
then a few schiiol girls saw. one or two of them tried to touch the dog. goign excited la. oh.. .wow... so cute... etc
at one point it almost bit the girls hand bah. cos she was touching its nose aread. wah daring=.=
anyway, i immediately thoght of the calm assertive. no touch no eye contact ..etc
hahahha. learnt from cesar milan la. lol
yea. well. i ahve my own 'space'. my dad he's naturally calm wan. so yea haha. he was near to the dog too. the dog din come after us.
liek we're transparent.
but he jsut jump on his owner. and ofc.. the school girls so excited when near the dog. .the dog also excited..
keep pacing ard. omg.
i pity the dog. somemore the lady was giving him abit of affection when he's in that state of mind. which is over hyper liao. =.=
im not expert . but just saying.. if only thigns could get better with him. .with a better owner.. u know.
wah.. those school girls brave eh
anywhow touch.
but ofc. i also cant resist mah. especially when tehyr so near u

that time went to syd bsammys fren house. theres this cute black dog.
then at one point the dog was quite clsoe to me. and also wanna.. u know. make the dog sex move on my leg. lollll
sammy was liek.. hey get away. thaZts my girls! (haha i liek when he says that^^)
aw... wonde rhows that do gnow.. its pretty cute.
haha

yay. can wear nice clothes liao. soon. cos usually if saw nice clothes, wil ltell fre.. buy also no use. wear so nice, but bf not here  to go out on dates with. let who see. =/
then.. now. yay. can dress up nicely everyday liao.
se ehow ba.
everyday so dressy also sianz. me stil llike my shorts. ha. mini shorts n t shirt alone can be sexy u know. n niec. simple casual and comfy. but a pity no denim allowed.
but anyway, yea.. can dress up nice nice liao.. .

kk. .gotta catch up on my book

it was rrly nice. .to slp . .cold weather.. imagineing im in his arms. .jsut liek that. .falling aslp..zzz=)

mata

fragile lives

haiz... a good man is goen form the surface of the earth just liek that... =/
sighs
life. .so fragile. u may be eating. .and a car crashes into u .. or u may just be talking with colleague when the ceiling falls down on u... thats it. before u get to say gdbye tour love ones, youre gone.
dead. and theres no tiem for u to be prepared.
sad=( .. its scary huh.

for me, i dont think death is an issue. its more of the ppl i love being left behind.
perhaps they dunno how much u love them. or perhaps theyve yet to tell u how much they love u. or even to seek forgiveness, or clarify thigns. .
etc
haiz.
yea. thats the most regretful fearful part abt dying bah. no preparations. .no gdbye.. ppl don know how u feel yet. and. .yea. youre just gone.
=/
live life to the fullest.. sounds so easy huh. well u know. its easier said than done.
definitely
..i duno how to do that either

hoping i can slp early today. gosh. not enough slp cos slpt late last night=.=
oh man

and.. becps of him, i found out abt this dog movie. abt huskies ^^ hehe. wow. seems to be a great below. called eight below.
i heard of the true story before.
gosh. i cant wait to watch it!!!!!! =)

so remember that girl new staff i talked abt? the jap girl who commented her fren stupid.
well.... seem sliek shes quite ok u know.
i was surprised.
and yea. she lvoe singapore! shes heading to london for studies in a months time. shes nevous. she say she lie it here. its liek she didnt wanna go. but her parents alrdy paid fo rher school .over 60K .=.=....
uh huh... rich kid indeed. as in her family
anyway,
she and i shares the same views. abt how singaporeans are too well and safe that they didnt noticed how lucky they are. and keep talking bad stuffs, and trying to leave sg. i emna so be it if thats hte reason u wanna leave. so baka deshio =.=
what a reason.
anyway, yea. she was liek saying even in japan alot fo earthquake. i was liek queensland too alot of floods.. and all.
she lie that sg is safe without al lthose probs.
speaking of which. spoke with a csutomer that day who studied at scotland. she returned here for holiday.
was asking her stuffs and all.. (cos gm there also that day_) and she was like. .yea she rrly misses the food here. .the spicy food as well.. .and the weather. lol. cos its freezing over there.
i guess some ppl can take it. some cant bah
but they jus tshouldnt be saying bad thigns abt their own homeland..i think

gtg liao.
mm...
haiz. .life huh..
a live is lost just in a splict second..
...
its all up to u .. to live or to die. but sometimes. .u cant decide for urself. ..

mata

wise ppl

haiz.
need a dog . think that;kll rrly help me out to destress. no sammy. no doggie. nothing helps is u know.
sammy not here. doggie faraway dream=/ o well
 dunno why been so stress
yea.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

rrly doesnt feel liek blogging=/

but u know. theres this contestant. wow. he cried when he sees his dad. his dad said. .he may not be rich, have any money( as in his son) but he himself( the dad) didnt have money nor wealth either. but he feel the wealthiest when his son stands on stage and perform.
even simon htinks his dad seem sot eb a nice man.
rrly wow. they are poor . even his son at age 37 still struggle. but such a great voice he has. theres also a cute son tooo.
though life's hard nowadasy, but his dad, didnt mind. nvr look down on themselves . which i think its absolutely fantastic.
absolutely.
its the mindset thats important.
and. .yea. lucky him. such a great understanding father there fo rhim.
very nice indeed.
i hope his boy will grow up to be liek both his dad n granddad.
not say he must be poor, but to have backbone. not give up. and dont look down upon themselves.
theres soemthing htats more waelth than money. and for his dather , its to see his son up on the stage to perform .
duno he can win the comp anot. but rrly wish him luck

the other day mum said to me. .in chinese .. ''you shi kan ni heng xin ku''.
translate to.. somethign liek.. soemtimes i see you very feeling troubled ,or in pain.. or terrible.
like.. xin ku.. as in.. something like. .u feel terribel inside ur heart. if that makes sense.
so yea.
was surprised ba. din ..u know. expect she can tell .but.. also din know i've been showing that? whaen? duno also
maybe.. jus tnot happy enough. or learn how to be happier ba
haiz. o well

oh. saw redz working at nex mall the other day =.= arghhhhhhh
quickly pulled mum away. then io tell her. as ezpected. she say if she'd known she wouldve gone up say hi to him. we both ahev a feelign he saw both of us.
but yea. sorry. i still cant forgive a man who hurt me extremely the top. and hurt my bro and family trust.
though my parents still ok with him, but i cant. i cant forgive him .
thats one thign abt cancer horoscope. u dont wanna mess with their fammily. dont talk bad stuff abt their family. and nvr ever try to hurt them. nveer.
ok maybe not all cancerians. .but yea. lol
but yea. anywya he hurt me so deep. to deep .i dont think i can ever forgive him. i'll rather forget his existenec. but somehow. .his name. .his news.. his sight. .jsut appeared time to time. arghhh =.= sianz. everytiem go nex must avoid that store liao

yay... bought bro's pressy finally. but wil arrived late bah. but yay. sooo oglad to finally settled it!! =) im sure he;l lbe surprised. .adn he'll liek it ^^ alot. its from his fav brand hehhe. mm.. yea we shall see then ne ^^

spoke to my gm .. for the last itme in person,... so nice of her. though she's watching our performance on shop floor.. .
very intimatiing
but i was jsu tdoing my best. heard she corredeted. .gave feeback to new staff.
then heard fulltiemr say liek they not smiling on shop floor.
i totally agreed with gm .rrly. she's rrly good. she knows.
so.. eya. so far liek no prob abt me bah. cos i was smiling lotssss talk loud loud. adn no comments given to m,e. so i think ok bah .

was teary when i was thanking her. .for her help with visa info n all.... =/
rlry. liek wanna cry. aw... uh huh. =/
she say shes sure i'll be back. she say rgm say. .im sure pl will be back .
dunno a. but so swt of her. say if im back maybe i can handle my own store.
anyway yea.
if not for. .sm and rgm of sg. .maybe. ..i wouldve stay on..
but. .o well

huu.. .my left eye. shoudlve stop waering lens for abit bah. think somethigns not right .dang. lens.. =.= troubels sometimes. haiyo

mm.. so yea. hoep the redness will subside soon

mata

playboy lovey future

wow.. was watching cesar spcial epi..

quite interint.g.. discovering.. O.o
so.. these few young womens.. under this PLAYBOY mansion. they live ther. and the man who own the place is an old man with white hair, and looks like he's about to die. seriously. nojoke.
=/.=

sp yea. he helped the ladies there. couple of them.. were the .. so called.. 2010 or 211 something playboy of the month or something.
to my surprised, one of them married a regular looking police officer! she prettyp pretty
ha. but yea. BUT. he looked pretty regular. he's not handsome to the top, he din have a body to the top type,but yea. wow. a regular man, with a playboy woman!! he's jsut a regular average joe !=0

i dunno why and how the playbow girls can get married!

another one. she lives with the playboy photographer. guess what.
hes fat.( big size) . regualr looking man. not handsome.
im like. whoa. all these playboy ladies actually don mind???

honestly. those men are not the most gdlooking guys. they are so normal looking. body size fat and normal. so yea. i was liek wow.

maybe.. .as a playboy girl,... they rrly didnt mind as long as somebody love them eh? ..
but yea..

i wonder.... rrly wonder.. hows it feel like... to move into playboy mansion... u know..etc. huge house n all....
espeically since i don think they truly love htat old man.. =/
haiz... o well.

but yea. this provex that... overall.. not ever pretty women, will marry a man with gorgeous looks.
though having said  tat, im not srue la.. whether that phoptogrpaher and policeman is  liek very rich or what...
sp yea

they sure hav a gd life there eh .. ha.

but yea. even IF im a playboy girl who's living hter,... if one day i find someone i love.  no matter how many awards or magazines im in, i'll still get outta there and marry that man.
not becos theowner is an old man. but becos i don love him. if i love him, then its fine. but if not, must still get outta that mansion and u knwo. love another man., and have my own life.

so yea. quite an interesting episode.
also to think that playboy girls will fall in love married/ live with an average looking man . even the fat ones.
thats nice

huu my ifngers.. still the same =(((

mata

poor fingers =(

huu my poor fingers.. after using that clean solutions n lighter fluid to get rid of the sticky double sided tape, my fingers.. skins.. seems to've gotten destroyed too =( huu

so sad
somemroe today got sotkcs. .my fingers all the more dry.
the white outlines of myh finger prints can see clearly =(
huu. so dry n rough.
so uncomfy. v poor thing=( hopefully theres an improvement by tmr morning

its cnie to see my fren again instore. ha. so swt. she say her mum commented i am really pretty. XD aw.. .happy la. like i'd said. if a woman comment, then its like yea. not so awkward . and meaning they mean it.
if its a man, then its like =.= oh whatever. maybe just tryign to tackle u or what. but yea. very nice auntie =)
hehe .shes a lucky girl. shes adopted. but yea. such nice parents. v lucky indeed....

damn. slashed my hnand cos of a thick paper.. liek card material. =.=
when i was ognna push the rubbish in, and thats when i slashed myself.
 gosh. so scary. that feeling.. the paper.. cutting htrough.. brrrr

gosh so late liao. gonna slp soon. fell aslp on sofa jus tnow.
mm.. though still feeling a lil stress. but may i find a way to be happier each day

mata

witches laughter

my nail bed hurts sooo much due to scrapping off the thick black double sidedd tape sm had put up... =( very difficult to remove.took me an hours time. huu... now my nails pain from scrapping it off =/
huu

still sooo slpyyy not enough slp
wil ldo my best to slp early tonight

haha. finally! i think maybe shld be the same store i saw in syd broadway. got sg dollars. was wondering how come sg don have. see.. now its here. =) but.. disappointed. the clothes is quite the same. .liek normal.
but thhe one i saw at syd. .mm.. i thought it was pretty good. dunno ne.
then theres this cashier there working liek so high =./=
as he saw my company wallet, i say yea i worked there. he asked can give discount anot. if can he gib me too. =.= like. .erm.. who wanna get discountfrom there sia. the thigns so-so only
but hopefully in future the designs will get bettter
however, his service is good though. rather than the boring ones liek thank u hi bye

odya heard a laughter sooooo frightening and eerie liek a witch. is aw a teen, aiwth her frens. she was laughing soooooo loud. that after she walked past my store, her ugly laughter still cna be heard inside my store=.=

its soooooo .. im sorry. but her laughter is incredibly rude, weerie liek a witch, ugley,  scary, loud, horriifying.
imagine how a scary witch laugh. im serious. not kidding at all. =.=
omg. shes a girl for goodness sake!!! eerie is bad enough. but its super loudddddddddd
wow.
i was so shocked. stunned .thats the word
dunno how someone can laugh till like that. horrible.
rrly. for a girl to do that. omg. scacry

kk. gonna try slp fast after fb bah. by the time i slp shld be midnight? mm
o well

was still looking at the dress i tried on ytd at topshop. all my colleagues say nice. say im sexy la wearing that=.=...
all the more i think is houldnt buy eh. mm.. yea. anyway dont think i shld ba
design is palin. but i liek hte material. quite comfy.

mata

tearful goodbye pics =(

oh no late liao.. nid to catch up on my reading! but blog abit first bah

so sad. this dog and this man in army...
=( they have to be separated... after 2 yrs together.. .
cant that man try to do something abt it??? =(

that dog pulled his bag.. don let him leave.... as in using his mouth to bite n pull
then he ended up carrying his bag in his mouth and walk to the gate... =((((
shoot. .gonna cry liao. hten suddenly his man ;s army hat flew off ,he ran and fetch it back for him...=((( huuu teary eyes liao...
im rrly so touched....
then yea.. the dog still in army.. whilst the man gotta leave liao. my heart broke too for them. =((( 9the dog must've misses his man,... huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu im soooooo sad =((((((((((((((((((( cant stop crying.. sighs..... the pics.. rrly touching. i can picture in my head.. how he pull his bag.. run to fetch his hat.. n carry his bag... like their final moments=((((
sobz....................
rlry sad. .poor thing
sighs
rrly broke my heart.. .=( poor dog... huuuuu
hope it's doing well.... sighs...

..o well.. =/

oh yea. today my sm noticed too. thought it was my imaginetion. but yea. turned out that sm also say.. that guy keep looking at u.
yea!! a malay guy.
hello. his gf is there k. (shld be his gf)
i rrly dislike guys doing that whilst their gf is ard. though they say its men nature.. etc. but stilol,... argh. very irritating. be discreet la. control. respect his gf bah.
rrly.... omg. so oooooo irriating!!!
my fren agreed too. or mayb e one day all hte girls shld start doing the same huh. when bf not looking, then sneak peek at other guys.. .*rolled eyes
rrly hate that type of ppl . look3... look at their own gf la! =.=
geez... but guess that cant be help ba. cos they say its mens nature
=.=
so yea. dunno la.
but i believe not all men are liek that ba

kk. got some catchings up to do.

mata!! bedtime reading time

lack of sleep

extremely slpy todya. perhaops too nervous abt the meeting today. anyway,
three hrs of slp thats all ive got. =.= soooooo slpy now. luckily nvr missed my bus. almost. phew

watched boa's hollywood movie make you move.
so ncie .
very nice dance.
mm.. .yea. jsut so.. nice. .to see a couple fight it through.. and u know. end up together.
swt nice ending.... =) but yea.. hoshii...
yearnings..

mm..
gonna slp soon

soooo slpy

mm.. nothing else to blog liao huh. so weird

oh ytd.. huuu oly had old chang kee for lucnh. cos ppl forgot my order of noodle =(
sad.
somemore glulped down old changkee in abt 5mins
gosh
not nice

kk.gtg bah


too slpy..but stil lwanna msg sammy..

mata

sleepy mode

gosh.. borrowed soo many books. wanan do my best to read them all up on time
soooo slpy nearly fall aslp jsut now.
btu yea. knockout again in bus earlier on =.=
o well too slpy

gonna slp soon

wow. so difficult for me to slp early indeed. few asy back, i tried to slop at 10. ended up i tumble ard bed... cant slp. untill 1aam =.=
dots
ut was slpy..but.. i jsut cant rrly slp at 10pm ba.
very difficult.

cant wait to slp

oh yea. so was having lunch iwht my sm on monday. went to buy food.
then my sm say two malay guys checking me up and down .
=.= thats why i walk fast2. cos i don like ppl looking at me like that. somemore.. most of the times i din know=./=
til lsomeone tells me
anyway yea. so irritating! i can see la from the corner of my eyes.. like theirs eyes are on me.
argh... irritaing indeed.
wish my sm nvr tell me though ha.
awkward la.
somemore im only wearing spec.. like a normal girl u know.
mm.. did i blog this liao>? sorry rrly cant rememebr

sooo slpyyy
what else..mm.. o well.

kk. nid to hit the sack soon

mata!

cesar is still great

soooooooooooo slpyyyy
omg. fell aslp. hten wakey.. the watch little mermaid..
mm... actually.. lil meermaid.. isnt my fav princess show.
u know.. i love beauty n the beast the most.. cos i liek hwo hte fact taht this belle, is normal girl. loves reading, and fell inlove with a beast despite of his look.
thats why.. i go for the feel, and the way my man supposed to treat me. not how handsome he is.
did she inspired me? maybe.
but.. well, ive nvr been a girl to go after a super handsome guy or watsoever. its the way a man ..how they supposed to treat u. not their face or body.
face n body is great, doesnt mean they are true to u. doens tmean they love u deeply. htats why i find nerds are mroe atractive than some bloody super modedls...etc. though they wear thick glasses, buck tooth,(u knwo i have a thing for htat hahaha. i dunno whyXDexp the one from harry potter) ..
yea.
but that aside, i still find my bf the most attractive and lovey of all. so yea. ^^ dont get me wrong haha.
im faithful to him only. my samy darling=P
anywya, so yea. .i dun rlry liek that movei.. mermaid,. .cos..... ..well. .for one. her dada object.. ...the prince nearly amrried the evil witch..
..adn shes not gonna see her dad as often..
but yea. happy ending. .still makes me kinda sad. .cos.. i yearned fo rthat

huuu send a pic of me like. .pout wanna kissy look to sammy. but he say its duck lips T_T huuu
me failed. nv. treat it as a lesson. maybe i shoudlve look like htat whne i kiss him
but yea. .huu.. duck lips.. me dun like T_T
but its awesome. we skype today. his voice. .and the way he reacted.. .. uh huh.. everythign is in my head. i now exactly hwop his expressions are.. haha. so cute and kissable =3
expeciall the part where he say its been a whiel since he spoek to me over skpye. i was like.. a while??? (cos its more than a while duh... hah)
hes like.. 'fumbling wiht his words... and i know exactly his expressions when he does that^^
so miss it. rrly.


wounds on my nhand are healing.. but.. more stocks coming. .so .. ow ell

gosh. i mus tforce myself to read!!
cos i borrowed alot of cesar millan books XD
ohh almost forgot. .speaking of him,
.samy say soemthing abt some pl dislike his way of handling hte dogs.. he was busy so i din ask further. maybe its form news??
anyway,i know what he means. adn what the ppl are thinking.
cos.. displine. .and stuffs.. can be abit diff from what u see on tv.. or frens dogs.. they cuddles.. slp in same bed etc..
BUT. honestly. not 100% ppl are gonna think he's great.
eevry great ppl, normal ppl will bound to have some negative feedbacks.. eitherjealous, or lack of knowledge.. etc.
nobody is perfect. exp: i had some customers who like me alot, and hinted abt introdcuing heir childern to me.. but my bf parents disliek me. so yea.
u cant help that much.
nobody will be like100% by everyone.

potint is, i thoguht abt that before.
cos i wanna spoiled and cuddle my doggie if i have one one day. but .. i would rather \be prepared first. cos.. if i dont, theres a chance they might turn out to be tricky to handle.

now think .of how many dogs cesar had saved.
saved them from being put down by their owners.
thats somethign we cant deny abt.
without him, more humans wouldve givecn up on their dogs, and put them to sleep(= death)
his methods sure works with the problematic dogs(due to humans fauklts)
he saved them. so yea.
its ok.
just that vertain ppl cant see it ba.. and they think its being too straict' with the dogs..
o well
but still, he's a great man. a shame that his wife wanna leave himm.he almost commit scuicide when his wife filed fo rdivource and when is beloved dog daddy died. so poor thing. duno what happen .maybe no time for his wife? bad in bed? i dunno. bu well, its her lose ba?
anywa he got gf now. so yea.. thast great.

gosh. just realized.. not ussed to it. think im losing weight O.O
my legs.. was abit shocked.. then my arms..
dunno bah..
but.. yea.. not used to it.

was having lunch wiht sm on monday. (yea finnaly just recalled)
then thee two malay  guys.. like. checking me out. dunno ba.
from the corner of my eyes.. i sense not right. so i walked very fast as alwasy.. to excape guys. then sm say they were looking at me up and down checing me out.  which i did felt that . argh so irritating.
that same day la. where im wearing specs.. normal looking..
in my previosu post)
rrly dislike la.. that kind of attention =/

so yea. thast abt it. great that i skype with him finally.
and i need to rush through my books! =X
gosh

kk.. super slpyyyy

mata ne

trying to trick me? =.=

was thinking of what to blog..
accumulate first, then blog.

mm. .lets see if ill forget

so theres this new staff. half jap. eng accent.
very lucky young girl .
going to study in london in jan. study there for as long as she want.
her parents aint at home most of the time, so shes fine with jsut being therein london with parents.
yea typical rich kid
she sin international school now i think. shes quite alright. but .
for teenager.. theres always this childish side.. mm...
i kinda like talking to her. i do. but.. she revealed this side. .whihc i dun rrly like= /
she was talking abouther school..and how certain ppl stayed back twice. and she mentioend this girl. stayed back twice. i said it in a jk manner. maybe she liek that palce. amybe she liek a guy there.. so she wanna stay. she slike. no. she s just stupid. and she repeated that word Stupid a couple of times abt that girl. i was like.abit taken aback. O.o
...its mean. to say soemone stupid like that. but duno la. maybe shes a bitch or something? then shes angry and called her stupid to stay back for two yrs liao.
but ..i don think so. i think she just purely think that girl is indeed stupid enough to saty back two yrs=/
which isnt very ncie to say that of anyone.
sighs.
ut yea. gotta admit. envy lots.
ppl can just go anywhere to study. and she don have to work part tiem to support hersefl there. duh. rich parents

then seeing my fren got engaged... or those who're able to bring their paretns for travel..
yea.. sadden me quite abit i'll say.
ha
seven sins huh.. envyness.. it holds so much power within..
its scary. all i can do is try to avoid that other ppls path. and focus on mine ba

ha. i was jsut being normal today. u know. wearing spec. minimal makeup.
then need to wear xmas decor mah. i was wearing this horn headband .reindeer horns. btw 2 time salrdy. the angmohs will tease me about it. jokinlgy say oh i have horns! hahaha. v funny.
anyway, this rich looking auntie., looking for wine bag. as i showed her, i then turned my head, shes like ''oh you're so cute!''
XD! lollllll
duno she say omg or oh. but yea. she say youre so cute. hahhahaha
 i was like. oh thank u! =3 so shy.
maybe cos of my specs plus the horns... then yea. more innocent look bah>? lol
soemore i din wear liek fancy makeup or what. just like. .minimal school girl kinda look. the plus spec and reindeer horns, haha. = cute ar
wow

oh. during my last blog i got mentioned the weird man who said hello to me right. m.. yea think i did.

anyway,
oh bus interchange. nowadasy.. the teenager.s younger generations,. they don wait u konw. they will cut queue especially if they were the last to arrive. then they move to the middle. wth
ive seen a uncle scolded one guy before. now i know how he feel. and yes that guy deserves it.
seriously. yes the old ppl sometimes make the same mistakes. but even the younger generations too? omg. flabberghasted

mm waht else

oh .so. sm say.. you look say happy to leave this company. she said it in a ncie tone. not bad way.
so yea.
i was like. yea cos i still need to work mah
but yea. if i work sadly, later rgm will say.. oh too laidback cos no business here alrdy, can anyhow work.. wanna go away alrdy isit..
yes he will say that.
trust me
so of course i cant work liek im feelign down and sad.. etc

ohhhhhhh this girl. maybe about my age.??
in her 20s? she wore a decent.. liek office wear.. very normal. shes soooo normal decent  lookign girl. imagine me la.
liek u wont even think she will attempt to steal a $450 bag and a $223 compendium.

she even dare lied to me say she make hte payment alrdy with other girl .then i check. not right. sales sitll the same ne.
then my colleague say whilst i was away to toilet, she came back, and she put the bag into our paperbag herself. the paperbag is located at our counter area. cos busy. sowhen i was away to toiekt, that area is empty for a while, till my colleague came back, to see her does that .OMG.
if she din see, customer sure walk away daringly liao. then i check withj alll coleagues, nobody serve her. meaning no transacation gone through at all.
holy cow
she dare lie to me. crap.
then maybe she knew cant escape. so say.. help her put behind counter first cos its heavy. then blah3.. .skip forward ,her fren arrived, and when i ask her to pay , she sya will come back later.
wth.
obviously she kenw ba. cos even my sm was alerted. and shes out. and say she din serve her.

omg. this girl, rrly. her face and her look..what shes wearing, everything is so normal looking. like a normal person on break form ioffice job
u will nvr think she lied , and wanna steal
omg. so scary. luckily my ciollleague get ther ein time. jsut to witness she put the thing into paperbag. if not, she definitely dare to walk out liao. and luckily i got back from toilet on time too
phew
rrly. close call man
this woman... omg.. ..speechless
shameless to do such thing. lie somemore say her frens coming wanna see the iten. to share mone for for colleague.
wth
im not a mena person. if im mean. i couldve say in front of her fren. (one fren arrived only k. ) oh tot u say paid alrdy ? my collegues say u did not. and they see u putting the iteminto paperbag urself.
=.=

haiz. o well. disgustin gppl all exists. yes. this kind of ppl u wanna say stupid, go ahead.
=.=
i pity her. rrly =/
haiz. ...so blood boiling. hate ppl trying to trick me!

k bah. when i though tof anything else ot type will try to bah. getting late liao .
my hands.. as usuall... xmas.. more stocks, more cuts... huu

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right choice

so this episode of dog whisperer.. dog died.. the son took a liking to this dog (getting a new dog) tht looks liek hte one just died.
its also a dog companion for the dog that they had. an old builldog
theres another choice. chihuahua i think. mellow. swt. follow the boy. licking him. but the boy only has eyes have the other dog. which is a bad one. fierce one. they will need more time to train n teach him displin him if they wan the fiercer dog. whihch the boy like,.at one point cesar asked. the boy. u want (the old bulldog) to be challenged, or(something about relax). boy said.. well. .he can still be challenged... omg i wanted to slap the boy u know=/=
but in the end,(btw he's a celebrity's son)
he still deciced to choose the swt chi huahua. cos that other dog too difiult. and was fighting with the bulldog . pee to makrk his territory too. =/
so yea. was like. .phew...aww.. in the end he finally relented and choose the swt one

but i totally understand his position. if i am a child, like him, he's a child only. i wouldve choose ..wanted to choose a dog that looks nice. the type i want. but. the type i want, doesnt mean its good.
can. he can tech the bad doog to be gd and all. but how much time he hav? his family? his bulldog must suufer abit more.
so he cant u know. so he chose the right one the swt mellow faithful dog.
yea. phew. rlry happy. cos thta dog relaly swt

haha. a customer complimented my eyeshadow look very nice today .=) i blushes immediately^^ but so happy

so tired... gosh. wherer got put me and with two new stafs . =/ somemore the other staff so long nvr work
oh man

mountain of stocks

mm.. soyea.
dunno why im thinking of myself. .
like,..
despite being the 'good' dog.. yet. .ppl have to think before accepting me..
ppl wanan reject..thinking im not gd enough..
=/ o well
..how great it would be if they are able to accept me.. huh
sniif. hah

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stress now and then

i knew it. ha. he wont msg sometimes for a whoel day or more days. i'd experienced that before. not the first time.
ow ell
busy man .so mcuh to.. u kwno

ha. was suddenly thinking of.. back in he days.. we went for date.. adn after movie how i pulled him aside to kiss him.. at the risk of ppl might see us. haha.but i just rememebr that i rrly wanted to kiss him badly so yea.
but it was exciting. and so swt. and so... yea. ;) u knwo what i mean
. so tempting too

mm.  . so tired.
very slpy still

new job kinda stressed me out here and then. its jsut hte stress im putting on my lysefl i guess=/
too hard on myslef
i dunno
 =/
but yea.
soemtimes i worried too much. stresses too much
but then again.. .what to do. usually i dont share with much ppl. someitmes jus tto myself. i dont liek bringing negative to ppl
or if ppl cant open up to me
what for share then
not a big issue but.. yea .
jsut ..stil lcan be stressed out over this. or yea

im so slpy now. mrg rained.. but ive to work.
man.
mm..

oh ya. gd thgin didnt see that stalker today phew. =.=

mm...   3 weeks. to go.. oh man =/
..o well... just gotta look forward now..

so wanan slp asap
been loving to nap iwth my minion balloon. ha. i'll hold his hand and go lalaland sometimes...when im heading  for a nap. he cheered me up when i se ehis wide smiel face
yea..

hionestly, last month, and of course this early month, been really bad and stressful fo rme=(
sighs
v sressful
thast why shop to destress haiz.
if i have him here, wont need to shop, maybe can save more money

oh yea. .mm. did i mention?
my new workplace xcan wear mostly whatever i wan)
yay.
cos usually i wont buy anything cos im lie htinking. .wear so nice. .buuy so exp dress, no bf to wear for.. whaat ffor then. 5days a week im wearing black ne.
then now, .... yay. wow. can wear whatever i want liao. mostly like i'd said=)
hehe. so yea.. .
wee

and yea. so sa.d. dogs being put down cos. .u kwno =/
especially pit bull. i dun liek them before. but cxos of cesar, i find them to be so gentle and swt. well. they are not. not all of them. but they are good dogs if u rain them well.

i lov ethis line form cesar.. .he's telling one of the ppl.. ''cos you know htere's always this gd side(of the dog) , its NOT LIEK YOURE DEALING WIIH THE HUMAN''./
get it?
meaing dogs can always be good. but u cant deal or predit. notr change a human being.  oh he's so good =)


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coooolll

ohhh ha. last night? or last two nights? was at interchange. then all was walking towards bus. time to leave. this woman still looking at her phone. i was like. i also dunno hwy. i was feeling rrly tired. like. no feelings. .calm. more of very tired. cant be bother mood.
then after 2secs, i was like.. using two of my fingers, using swipe motion, from right to left. in between her phone and eyes. then when she sees it, i swipe' towards the further left side. to let her see everybody is moving away lial .all waitinf for her to budge.
she jus tsmile and apologise very politely. i said its ok. gave a faint smile. liek id said. was too tired.
two nights ago. yup i recalled liao.
i wa slike. wow. so cool.XD lolllllll haha
i dunno why i was so cool' that night lol.
weird. maybe too tired ba. well, soemtimes i surprised myself. even wit h funny acts

mm.. abit nervous abt starting in new place .u know. with new ppl and all... especially after hearing stufsf..
so yea. will se ehow thigns go ba. wish me luck

so tired today. my legs.. aching badly huuu =(

kk. gtg

mata ne.
so wanna slp soon.
been so slpy these days... gosh
lesg aching due to ytd ba. not enough rest ye tstil lwent out fo rthe induction. o well

nerve wrecking moments

was so nervous about the induction today. but, .o well .

anyway, theres always a first itme bah. .remidned me of when i first started at my current workplace

though i hear bad thigns about this outlet.. i still hope thign swill work out. but that girl's look on her face.. like.. telling me.. she dislike im the asm there.
liek shes in a shocked.
i duno. but yea.
nothign much to be done. wil ljsut do my best ba

mm.. more or less abit stress bah. maybe jsut giving myself stress without knowing=/
thankfully theres sammy there msging me swtly though he's studying.
otherwise think i wouldve feel even more stress throughout the day=/
it sjust tough u know
first step..its always tough

i misses him alot.,, wis to se ehim badly again. but. .yea.. haiz.. what to do , money is an issue
if not sure fly there every month eh. ha
..o well

mm...
k bah.. thats abt it..
stress btu life goes on
unless oen ends it

today been such a sleepy day for me. sooooo glad ive finally got more than 5or 6 hrs of slp. omg. . finally. but yea. thats why me still so tired even after wakey. glad its raining in mrg.
but no sammy
still, it was a  nice slp.
rrly tired throughotu the day

kk. .hoep to release myself of negative energy asap

cant wait to slp seriously

sad when u watch the vis.. and realise.. yea.. alot of tiems. .so many dogs get to put down or put to slp due to humans.
even a angmoh old lady say.. put them to slp.. put them down. was like. .wow. how could she said that. =/
huu... rrly not their fault mah. when owners do wrong thing, their dogs get put to sleep. wat the.. =/ thats too bad u know
rrly sad

kk gtg slp liao

mata ne

jobs

so late liao. extremely slpy. =/
just finished dvd in case youre wondering

anyway,
gtg slp asap

i knew it. everytime a staff wanna quit, he will htink of something to ruin' tat person reputation.
stupid.
pp make so many mistakes nvr   give warning, then ppl wanna leave, find faults here n there
wth
rrly .
my decision is right i think
even if u ask me to work for 1000 worht of pay now, i will still leave
i jsut cant stand them any longer.
dunno abt the new place.
heard thigns abt the sm there. but yea.
dunno how theyh work etc..
haven sign contract but wan me go induction n meeting liao O.o so weird ar
but anyway, we'll see hwo that place goes

jsut very nervous abt tmrs induction =/ wish me luck
kk. eyes closing. brain shutting down night

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idiotic ppl =.=

haiyo everytime say wanna slp early. .then .. yea=.= nvr

anyway, see. i knew another oen will come up very soon. diaster ... nature is crazy nowadasy. i wonder which place will be next .like i'd said earlier month back. i still remember.
mm.... i rrly wonde rne..
but yea. its sad news though. but what to do,. nowadasy.. the mother nature is going bonker. and. yea=/
many ppl dying.. places got destroyed.
o well
haiz. whats next. thunder?
thunder storm?
mm.. or raining pebbles?
duno ba. but im pretty sur ethis aint the end of it

oh man. always so many irritating customers. espeically those rich taitai. =.=
what for u wanna show off ur branded thigns to stranger? choos ehte ppl u talk with. then the low rank ppll u can bark on? oh pls
no wdoner teenagers young ppl nowadasy .. rrly. ill mannered.
=.=
irritating. rrly. man y ppl will agree. nowadays the ppl or those schooling ppl, very rude and proud .ill mannered

aww.... so swt. my childhood frem, well, we're not in contact. but i know her in school so yea
so on direct contact. but u knwo. fb
so yea. she got engaged!!! i think she's slightly shorter than me?
but her fiance veryyyyyy tall.
she's at his shoulder height. no wonder she's always wearing heels. from her pic, as well as ive seen her walked past my store before. hahaha
yea.i think im at ard sammys height too. but i cant wear high heels when i visit him=/
cos had experience before.. .painsssssss
haha .in the end wore one or two day tats it. haha .hurts liao. need slipper
thats why only wedges or slippers fo rme. luckily that time the wedges not painful.
so yea. sadly cant wear heels when i visit him.
but back to myh fren.' its nice to know la.. that u know. frens getting engaged and stuff. they been together for three years according to her fb posts. ha.
so yea
rrly glad for her. but at the same time a lil jealous. envy ba ....
so yea. o well

so yea. liek tat bah
lucky girl.

oh no midnight liao =((
huuu slpy in bus jus tnow.

kk gtg mata

what do they want?

and so its like... rgm is disappointed with my reaction??
i rrly dunno.. have no idea . shld i react by smiling? angry? or cry??
his words din even get through me. like abit insincere too. i dunno. sometimees im fed up with all these stupid huamns behaviours, words, nonsense. very onnsense
argh i dunno waht they want!!
its getting on my nerves. thogh i dont wish to. but.. its so.. arghhh say one thign do another. say team quote is no question is too silly, then say use common sense when i ask. wth
dunno what they wan la

anyway, haha .customer took a pic with me. form india. cos i let her use up all her conins. before she go back to india.
she say wanna tell everyone i very nice to let her do that. XD gosh. hope shes not serious abt doing it.

mm.. oh yea. induction coming up soon. im abit nervous ne...

and yea. these days im no getting enough slp. ay be ard 4-6 .
o well... tahan ba
haiz. jsut glad im finally getting outta there. .though dunno the ppl and sm are rrly as bad a what time girl tiold me, but even if it is, its ok ba. cos here, like i'd said. can no longer stay there. cos the ppl there.. i have no faith in them liao. =/
im tired. so much thignx t o do eetc
empty promises.. etc
im not happy laio.
so yea. anywya wish me luck

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