Sickening Off Days

dunno what to do.. nothing to do.. so blog ba... =/ then at night dont have to do so alreyad..

gosh.. since from the early morning me wakey, till now, night alreayd.. my nose still keep runny... haiz... i feel so sleepy and weak. so far haven gotten any good rest yet. =/

what to do.. tmr back to work already.. off gotta wait till next week then have.. o well..
no time to rest le.

sigh.. sooo irritating.. maybe becos me never slp well? dunno ba.. sianz.... i hate today.

o well.. what to do..
just hang on till slping time ba.
what an off day. =/

hm.. todya.. basically nothing much to do. just feeling sleepy and sick. weak. and yeah... hm. .dunno wanna make a trip to ntuc anot.. nothing to do.. feel so sianz... =/ haiz.........
o wel..

cya tmr.. haiz....... hope tmr will be a better day this time... =/
if not, i come back to complain k. o well..

mata.

New Team Members!

gosh.............. i am BEAT!!! omg.. im soooo sleepy............. huu.... im sooo gona slp nice and long tonight.. i hope so... cos. im so tired and sleepy.... =( i cant wait to sleep!!! shall see how ba. will sleep asap.. so yup.. better blog this first..

my eye is ok.. phew.. good thing ne.. wow.. i really gotta be more careful now...
erm.. so today me wore glasses to work just in case u know.. put lens.. then dunno whats gonna happen.. anyway, ha... my manager commented on me looking cute. twice on that!XD cos of the spec ar. hahah... hm.. perhaps next time i should wear more often ne.. my spec to workXD
not bad.. ha...

gosh.. the new team leader is coming to singapore already!!! next week!! O.O deng3*... then another sumtin manager from victoria(dunno from melbourne or sydney..) is coming to work with us for about.. a couple of weeks or sumtin!!! OMG....... such a important figure... i gotta work harder! erm.. at least yeah.. serve customers better XD haha.. gosh.. really need to buck up during this period.. hopefully they'll be nice ppl ne... cos ppl from there can be very work wise.. so yup.. hope not too strict ba..

aww... my current manager is leaving.. =/ so fast huh... haiz... we're thinking of getting or doing somethign for her before she's gone.. hmm... not sure what yet.. but kinda got the idea.. anyway, hope can hold a farewell thingy for her or sumtin. at least a proper goodbye? dunno ba. . what they wanna do. anyway, sabrina deserves it. she really do.

hm.. u know... realy.. i like the fact that sam is having holidays. .doesnt have to wakey early for school.. keep me company.. can spend time with me.. doesnt have to slp early.. feels relax and nice knowing he's on holiday.. =)
soon.. he;s going back to school again.. ha.. o well............
just hope.. his school end soon ba ne.. still years to go for it.. o well.
hope time flies....

zzzzzzzzzz gosh.. i really need to slp soon...
but first gotta settle my stuff.
gosh.. so glad tmr off.... me so tired.

mata ne.

Pinkeye (conjunctivitis)

this morning me wakey found out that i had Pinkeye (conjunctivitis) =(

i was so scared.. so worried.. so glad im off today. i cant imagine having to apply for leave so last min if i were to work today! gosh..

anyway, yeah.. one of my eye is all so red and swollen. then me checked up the website.. found out tht i had the pink eye.. sigh.. so scary.. cos im scared like my frens.. previously i heard of it.. like. .teh eyes wil lturn so swollen.. then cannot open up.. then put med very pain =/

so yeah.. i try to find out from the web how i can help myself.. without having to go see a doctor.. then yeah.. i gotta 'help' myself.. so.. the only tiing i can do.. is to use a small towel, at first i add warm water. .then compress it onto my eye.. then i changed to cold water.. yeah.. i keep going back and forth. to the kitchen and to my room. .keep applying it.. till finally.. about an hour later, my eye not red anymore .PHEW>......... then i went to slp.. while.. u know how those tv drama also show.. theres a tub.. then ppl get fever, and will keep changing the cloth.. dipping in water.. then put on forehead.. me the same. cept that im placing on my eye. so poor thing ne.. huu.. wish sammy is here.. =/ keep thinking of him.. but my lappy no sound coming in.. ..so yup.. finally me slp.. but still got the towel on my eye.. then didnt slp well.. cos gotta keep making sure its on my eye.. =/ then me wakey.. called mum.. ask her to buy eyemo.. its a eye drop.. then yeah.. tehn.. wondering.. why sam never online yet... thought.. first thing he;s gonna ask is about my well being.. he's always anxious mah. .so yeah.. but..

hmm.... the results.. ha.. totally different. he.. also online very late.. though i off today.. yet he know im waiting for him to online..
then.. he broke his promise.. he got angry u know.. i thought he'd forgotten about that.. but he didnt.. which is good.. but.. bad cos he'll be sad.. then yeah.. thoguht he changed. and didnt care for me alreayd like how he used to.. but yeah after talking.. i do understand.. perhaps.. u know.. he';s just tired.. and no desire to talk.. and.. o well... don wanna thinnk about this alreyad.. yeah. .let it pass by.. .. im sure tmr will get better ne..
actually now already good.. i think.. he should be fine now.. ...

erm.. so.. yeha.. it was really scary.. gosh.. inflammation of the membranes... and swollen membranes at that =( sigh.. disgusting.. frightening.. can u imagine how i felt? huuu =(
what a mornig.. then up till now, my eye stil abit uncomfy ba.. still can see abit swollen.. but.. yeah.. at least not itchy anymore.. nor its red.. i relaly hope by tmr wil be fine. good thing thurs off. so yeah.. can rest one more day.. hope more time for my eye to heal....

my parents say i lost weight already.. dunno ne.. if thast true.. =/ but.. o well..... tch.. should be fine for now ba..

oh.. me was going through checking phones... gosh... i have no idea when to get a phone.. plus.. what type of phone should i get.. i thoguht i knew.. then i saw another.. thenn now im confused.. =/ gosh.... but im sure the new one will be more expensive.. haiyo... .anyway very confusing ba.. cos.. i really don like the idea of using the same thing everybody is using. that sux. i know.. its just me.. i just dont like the idea of having something everyone wants, or alreayd have. its so.. argh.....

anywya.. shall see how then... o well...... better be worth my money.

redz worked in same shopping mall as me. so that day during break while waiting for bro, me go his shop.. then eveyrone like know me sia. O.O...'' dots... liek they are whispering oh your lil sis.. blah3.. i was like.. what the..... then one staff commented on my hair longer now huh.. i was like.. erm.. have i even met u?? lol.. then another was saying.. oh, u finally drop by here! so nice.. tehn i was like.. o..k... -_-''........ when did i even met u guys... dots... maybe through redz ba.. but.. it felt so weird. lol. .like as though they know me, seen me. while i never!

hm.. =/ feeling weak now.. perhaps.. not enough sleep or what.... ... geez.. thoguht i could have a nice long sleep.. who know.s. get to wkaey at 7.30am just to suffer all the wya.. =/ huu.

anyway.. still can feel my eye a lil uncomfy.. =/ just hope tmr wakey will be fine.. not red.. =/
if last min mc, wont be a good ting. haiz. so yeah.. praying for the best..

hmm....... so yeah.. thats my day.. oh.. helped my bro get through his game just now too... yeah.. at least someone in the house at night is good.... tv on.. theres sound.. someone to talk to..

just now redz was asking me to tilt the fan down.. till u can hear the fan go click sound. but wow.. i tried.. cannot!! after that incident, i got the phobia alreayd.. fan is still running.. and no way i could tilt it down.. =/ o well... weird phobia eh... .. ha. i used to be able to click here and there.
nvm ba.. just trouble abit, and off the fan first..

oh, another new place to explore in singapore! marina bay finaly opens today. =) shall explore it soon i hope.

k. .get well soon to me...

mata ne.

No One's Fault

i was.. abit disappointed. .cos.. tmr is my off day.. then bro say not coming back. =( sad.. cos me don like house quiet... ... like. .parents slping .then left me alone.. .. sigh.. bt yeah.. got sammy online. .still.. the house is quiet.. then me in my room.. ..
then.. somehow sammy cheer me up when we started with the msn.. trying to avoid this mosquito anime thingy... then.. i thought we were having fun.. then.. suddenly.. he changed his tone.. ask him if he's angry.. he deny it.. then.. i said something.. like. he reply me so short.. one word2.. i also can.. but i dunno.. maybe he mistook it for u know.. in the bad tone attitude tone? like.. 'i also can!' yeah.. i didnt sound like that at all. .i was jokingly typing that out.. wodering why he wanna sound so .. don wanna tlak to me like that.. then.. i think he mistook it.. and.. o well... he got pissed off or sumtin =(

this whole thing tonight.. ... makes me recall the first time we had a 'cold war'. i finished work.. he got off bus.. me happy to see hinm.. then he gib me the angry face.. i was so confused.. i didnt know what wrong i did.. to receive that kind of reaction from him.. ..
that was a deeep memory for me.. cos.. yeah. .first time. .somemore.. outta the blue i kena.. ..

tonight.. about the same ba.. happy.. then upset.. cos he's angry.
and i didnt know what wrong i done. then.. he finally admitted he's angry.. then think back.. i think.. maybe play too much ba.. have fun too much huh.. then.. irritated him with the mosquito kiss anime msn without me realising it.. =( plus that line.. he say he hate it when i think doing bad thigns same liek him will make thigns right. thats when i realized its that 'line' ba.. but... i never think that way... i didnt even think anything will made anything right.. so.. yeah.. i got kinda.. confused.. o well.. so i explained to hin.. i didnt mean anything at all outta that 'line'.
foolish ba.. its like.. im having so much fun.. yet.. didnt know that irritates my love one already... =/ baka ne..

sad ar.. very sad... but. .what to do. msn ar.. cant hear the tone.. nor do much.. so.. explain2...then just forget about the whole thing.. so.. yeah. .

thats right. after this blog, im gonna forget this.
yeah. .good thing we tlak again before he went off to bed....

well.. i guess.. i gotta be more careful then huh.. in future.. i dunno how.. but.. o well...... ...

just glad its over now.. just happy he's better now..

i was so sure i'd put a smile onto his face when the whole thing starts.. who knows.. it turned out the other way round..
me.. gotta watch it more ba..

no one's fault tonight.. just that.. if only i watch my behaviour.. if only i didnt keep playing with the anime thingy.. though.. i was just trying to play with him and make him laugh.. .. and.. if only he never deny he's angry.. baka me. .never see that coming.. but then again.. msging really is difficult to know how one is feeling.. cos.. all u can see is words. its hard to predict whats coming..
o well.. forget all this!! it shall be stored in this blog of mine.

i dont like this.. feeling.. of.. wondering why my love one can get angry at me for nothing.. tehn gotta think3 back.. what i done.. isit something seriously offense?
so yeah.. its a sad2 feeling.. and i dont want a 3rd time ever.. i hope not.. so.. yeah. .will watch it ne... .....
couples.. willl go through those ba.. just that.. ..i love those days when theres no anger nor cold wars at all.. jsut sweetness...
well, then again.. it gotta go through roller coaster.. not just a plain road with only one flav right.. ha.. i dunno. XD

so.. yeah..

no one's fault here.. i wont let him say sorry.. and.. he didtn want me say thta either.. haii... .. forget this whole matter.. i'll be careful from now on...


oh.. last night. .my colleague finished work. waiting for her bf.. then i waited for my bro.. then she met her bf first.. then first thing they do when meet, is to kiss.. long2 stick together kind of kiss.. like.. never separate liek that.. i lookey abit.. then was like.. awww.......
so sweet ne...

haiyo.. .. sam was saying he reading my blog just now. haiyo... hopefully he wont find again ne..
haha.otherwise me dunno how to blog alreyd. anyway my blogs all in frenster better. yeah.. sometimes lazy, then i wont blog here.. if too slpy that is. but frenster is a must. ha.
so yeha.. he read my blog.. and say don like the way my fren joke2 to me tell me get a partime bf.. i know.. me first heard tat, also taken aback., like.. how can someone joke about this.. im not that type of person. so straight away of course say no. i wont. then i walk away do other things. also don liek of course.. hope he wont put it to heart ne..

hm.. k.. im glad im feeling all better now.. sigh.. just wish.. i could see his face.. and kiss him gdnight. .so as to let him sleep even better....... =/
i hope he's feeling ok too..

kk! a;reayd my off day! brand new day..

tmr will blog happy stuff ne!

oh this morning soo sleepy!! in fact, whole day im so slpy.. huu... even now also.. me slpt in bus to.. cant control... gosh.. waited for bus 21mins.T_T sigh.. my colleagues ar.. intro one another.. till 7.45pm.. arghh...... cos couple of us already intro to the new manager this mrg meeting. yeha. .so far alrite. .he seems ok. hope to work along well.

yosh! mata ashita ne!!

''I dont drink''

oops.. oh yeah.. sorry.. last night was too in a rush to hit the sack.. erm. .so.. what happened was.. me watched a movie with sam via skype.. then for 6 hours! even now i wonder how did we stay on for so long.. hahaha... then.. i recalled also.. i was singing.. gosh.. i moved my mike away! i thought he coiuldnt hear me.. at the end, he say i sounded sweet while singing. =.= i was like. .ehh... i thought he said he couldnt hear?? anway.. omg.. yeha. .so paiseh.... haha.... to think i keep singing and singing... haiyo... he heard everyting alreayd.. =.='' gosh.. i f i know.. i should've sang properly. lol... anyway, o well.. its a ncie day.

tehn me just ended my skype with him. video one. aww... it was sweet. i dunno why. but.. since mrg wakey me miss him so much.. then really cant wait to get home and video skype with him!
then yay.. im home finally. glad he's not aslp. =) then waited for him to have his ice cream.. then yeah.. soon i asked him to skype with me. =) aw... hehe.. its a nice one. =)^^ sweet.

i was watching this drama 'house' .. then theres this part. .where the main character he's a doctor.. just got away(unlike his other colleague) and attend to a lil boy patient. then this woman asked him( '' weren't you at the party?'' the doctor replied '' I dont drink''. omg!!! he said it with a the coolest face and tone! i was like. .wow. .that is soooo cool!!! thats the coolest thign u can ever say to anyone =)
oh the story is like. .the woman is asking him if he's at the party. .cos she thought he must've drank some stuffs.. and so how could he still attend to the boy when he's not so sober. so yeha.. he replied 'i dont drink'. omg.. i tell u.. really cool.. i love that line! that part. haha. what a coolest reply look ever. lol.anyone can do tha too. =) who says one doesnt drink at a party cant party at all?? or who say one must drink in order to party. stupid right. =.=

anyway, yup.. just shared with u the nice part of the drama i like =)

aww.... =/ sam is going to ice skating thingy.. huu.. me always wanted to try out ice skating.. =( that time ne. .almost do it with sam.. but cos no one's on the floor.. plus its so wet.. and no one attend to us.. thus we din try it out.. =/ aw... i hope my first time wil be with him..
anyway.. yeah.. ..still trying to get used to him going out to those places i don really like.. but. .well... just tell myself to get used to it.. and.. u know... o well.. as long as he know how to tc himself.. and.. yeah.. don let other ppl affect him. .. he's sensible.smart man. he should know what to do.. so yeha.. just.. try not to worry so much.. thought still will. ha. cos.. yeah.. u never know wha will happen to those places.. thigns always happen as though.. ..so yeah... firghtening news i must say.. so.. uh huh.. just hope he's safe always..

today.. gosh.. sales sux.. my sales ok.. but the target.. wow. .cant hit for the day.. sunday is hard.. =/
and its abit boring? cos not so busy at all! ha..

..my close frens were like asking.. why dont i get a part time boyfren in sg.. (jk i think) or. .arent im afraid he's gonna cheat on me?.. these questions are common and yeha. .ppl will be interested to ask.. still.. don u ppl think.... ... uh huh.. thats human nature huh.. to ask those. .but still....... only me and him wil lbe the only ones to know each other and to trust. .is he trustworthy? only i will know. its pointless to explain these all i guess... cos.. they wouldnt relaly understand anyway.. so.. yeah.. i dont relay like tlaking about it too.

only we know. .whats right from wrong.. what should we do.. and stuff.... the hearts.. guides us... trust our hearts.. our hearts.. will guide us there.......... towards the path we dream..

-Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over.
just because somebody doesn't love you the way You Want them to, Doesn't mean they don't love you with All They Have.-

i really like the lines above. especially this.. 'just because somebody doesn't love you the way You Want them to, Doesn't mean they don't love you with All They Have.' yeah... this is something. .we all need to understand. .and really truly learn it by heart....
heart.. relaly tells it all.. i also.. ...wanna follow my heart..
i wanna love him.........
and i wanna remember the lines above... i believe.. he love me with all they have...

k.. gosh.. tmr gonna be slpy again.. only a couple of hours for me to slp. haha.. o well....... hope meeting is well. =)

oh.. sigh.. plans failed yet again.. good idea from m yfrens though.. but yeha.. stil not working.. kk gtg!!

mata!!!

Forgot about Dinner! XD

omg.. im just gonna type everything briefly and then im gonna slp!!

so tired and slpy!! lucky tmr aftnoon shift.. gosh..

erm.. i was basicxally waiting and watching tv.. online. .while waiting for sam to online.. so thast my first half.. then.. until late evening, we finally get to watch movie.. so yup.... and we skype for 6 hours!! i also forgot all about my dinenr! and the time!! gosh.. then by the time i wanna eat, alreyd about 2am.. my mum. .go and keep all rice and food. .so i ate hal a cup of instant noodle.. then gonna slp now. .yeah.. ate it like less than 15mins ago.. ha.

have to eat abit. .cos feeling kinda weak now.. ha. so slpy. .k..

so erm.. yeah.. nice o hear swtys laughter over skype tonight.. nice movie ..

hm.. k.. all the best for tmr.. gosh. .slpy!!

hope his tummy get well soon ne..

mata! gonna slp now! in a hurry to!

Happy Morning! =D

ah.. whole day feeling very slpy.. cnat wait for my hair to dry, then go slp!!

hm.. this morning ne.. was feeling abit.. u know.. i blogged it.. soemmore slpy.. then was wishing sam could online. and he did!!! much to my very surprised =D and he made my day. like magic=) lol.. i even almost wanna smile in the bus!! haha

we webcam for abit.. erm.. end up quite long? XD ha.. then i realised its getting late.. and i went 'ahhh~~!' then waved my hands around in the air.. XD he was laughing like.. omg... glad he din hear me say ahh.. otherwise sure laugh more. .or say kawaii9... XD hahahah.... he asked me whats the hang waving for... haha.. i say i was shouting ahh! then yeha.. natural reaction. XD

aw.. his smile and laughter.. so much.. oh! and i get to see his morning smile! and hear his mrg voice^^ awww..... one of my fav.. =)
he really turned my morning around.. into so much better one. and for that, my day gets on beter..
ha.. i really laughed alot.. and smile so much. so does he. =)
if only.. i coiuld wakey beside him every morning like that..

so slpy now. .erm. .wat else...

oh!! i found a special pressy.. then showed my bro.. he say something.. then i was like.. hm.. relaly?.. lol.. aw.. but.. but... im sure the contents is what most important right.. anyway... yeha... gonna take me a very long time to do this.. but.. im gonna try.. and see how...
double challenge this time!!! but will be worth it eh =3

so yup. today morning im at my happiest!

tmr.. dunno what time swty waking up. .i hope late abit ba.. so he get to rest...

hm... =.=... i think.. theres more things to type.. but.. im not so sure now....

forgot.. haha

hm. .dunno when to start,, o well.. see how ba.. but i couldnt do much.. till...... ha.. its a secret. not gonna say now^^ hope will be the best pressy ever

hm... tch... sometimes im scared....... i dunno... like... to focus on the most important thing..... ..o well...

anyway, k.. better stop now. think i wont wait for hair to dry.. im too slpy..

shoulder hurts abit. .dunno why..

sigh.. i wan sam back here with me.......... =/

mata

Found A Song To Sing

my day is kinda boring.. erm. .wakey.. go eat.. then.. feeling full.. but force and tell myself to eat.. cos seldom have the chance to have more than 1 meal a day.. .so yup.. eat.. then.. home. .then waiting for sam. . then he home. .then.. he found a movie.. then we wait. .then load.. then he wanna have dinner. .tehn wait again... so me rest.. then.. finally can watch.. we watched it via skype.. it turned out that the movie aint that good.. then.. movie's done. .silence fell in.. then.. sam say wanna go lie down and rest.. then.. i htought.. since so bored and nothing to do, mgiht as well have dinner. but i wasnt hungry one bit at all. didnt have the moood to eat=( not hungry of course.. .so. .again.. force myself to have dinner. .half way abit, i give up.. i tell myself to finish it later no matter what. cos its expensive. my mum bought wan. so yup.. anyway, it was a pathetic sight very pathetic . if u've seen me eatin just now..

was singing and singing repeatedly at a song i like since last night.. so.. yup.. not bad. .still singing now.. =/ o well.. i need something to destress i guess..

tmr. .working for one day only.. i know. .i noe day sounds funny huh.... ha.. ./monday our new manager gonna start his first day. then.. dunno when the melbourne new staff erm.. i think store manager?? yeha. .store manager. .dunno when will arrive. but definitely before sabrina leave. sigh. .she's leaiving around middle of may.. =( gosh. .i hope the store manager will be nicer than her.. or around her nice.. sabrina is too good already.. i hope yeah... ..o well.. hopefully ba.. ..

k.. gona sing more..

mata

Trip Or No Trip =/

ok.. so... hm.. u ppl know that i've been trying to save money right... hm.. then.. o wel..

oh, remember last night i mentioned about the plan thingy with sam?.. well.. apparently i was right ba.. ha.. well. .thought of.. why not if i save the money and let him come here instead... wouldnt that be cheaper? and.. well.. yeah.. maybe wont need to save that much.. but.. hm.. well. .lets just say there's issues around. .so.. like i said. i tried already. ha. better than no try ne.
then.. o well.. i have this feeling i wont be able to save enough.. =/ don think can make it there le... sigh............... i know.. very sad... but... =( what to do.... so.. road 1 gone. road 2 most likely may gone too. left with the last option. either he find job and save enuff, come back see me in feb or summer holiday.. or i'll be seeing him maybe a year and 3 months later. or more. if its 2 years, ha.. i might gone bonker already. o well.. shall see ..

today found out my colleague husband is half chinese and malay mixed. she's a malay. such coincidence.. anyway, she's been in a ldr for 4 years before she got married. they been together for 10 yrs already...
..wow.. i cant believe i know someone who's been through ldr. O.o my boss.. should also been through it ba. then now my manager gonna go through it.. then my fren.. already been through it as well...
weird... like so many of them suddenly XD ha..


hm.. today.. very busy.. think i'd made a mistake or 2... .. but nvm ba..
gosh.. im so tired... sleepy too... finally.. 6 working days are over.. thank god tmr no need...
hope i wont ever encounter a 7 days.. oops. .touch wood!!!

hm.. cant wait to have my dinner cum supper later.. ohh.. bought cute animal shapes pasta too. so cute.. haha. cant wait to cook them up. and chips. .and sauce spicy one.. gosh. .cant wait.. to cook. hm... yup.. i hope the salsa sauce will be very hot and nice. jalepeno desu =)

... sianz.. almost everyday been wearing black cos of work.. then now.. like. .=/ without sammy around.. dress nice also like.. haiz. .however.. still got the urge wanna dress up every now and then.. otherwise.. like.. weird ne.. everyday like. .dont feel that pretty... not say like that.. but yeah.. so.. haiz.. cant wait to find a day, dress up nice. .and.. lol. dunno do whatXD

hmm.... =/ sammy is telling me to eat healthy.. but.. sigh.......... with my schedule like this how to.. sometimes i try.. but.. money one thing. time another. sometimes don feel hungry alreydy. then sometimes too late to eat. need slp already.
=/ difficult to balance ne.. in the past i dun mind ba.. cos have sammy. ha.. he always hungry.. then will wanna eat.. so me eat tooXD ha.. i love suppers.. either the mee kua, or the fishball noodles at bedok.. i'll wanna eat the $5 bowl u know. lol. .but they dont have of courseXD
well, whenever theres chance to eat better, i will ba.. most of times i will .ha. like theres vegies.. then i'll take more. .always.. i like vegies. hee.
o well...........

hm... so............ yup.. .i also hope my health will be good.. .so.. yup.. ganbate ne... gosh .so sleepy.. haha.. nah.. gonna watch tv. .just relax my night.. 6 days u know!! like work3... gosh.... so glad to be at home.. being able to think... yay.. tmr i off!! haha...

haiyo!!! i forogt.. to continue readin gmy ingredient book! ah bish myself.. k.. gonan read it. maybe tmr or by tonight. . should put somewhere near me ne. .like beside my bed.. like that easier.. plus wont forget ne. .but. .ha. .no space for me... o well...

oh, my msg in th eshop website( mentioned this last night or.. i think couple of nights ago) got reply!! yay.. from the team.. hahah.. and i got to know the items i like are coming soon!! wee.. so exciting. i cant wait to see it. =) they reply me telling those. hehe.. so yup.. i might be the first few to know that its coming back to the shop!! heh. cant wait to get my hands on it.
cant wait to see them.
hm.. ok then.. glad i msg them well..

i hope tmr will be a good off. oh duh.. gonna be spending it with sam. yay.. great ^^

mata ne.

Plain Tuesday

hmm... weird.. today wokring. .very boring ne.. nothing happening.. nor.. o well... just still a lil irritated by the fact that im closing with the irritatin guy again -_- oh, apparently my fren is scared of him cos he say he will even fight a girl. if he ever punch me, ha... try me.
-_-

anyway, stupid thigns he said.. i don wanna mention here.. sianz....

erm.. yeah.. when sam asked me hows my day,.. ..gosh.. i realises its very boring indeed.. very plain actually... maybe cos its a boring quiet tues..
hm... tmr.. me will be working with a new partimer.. haiyo.. me gotta opening again.. meaning without any help. but well.. that time i did it.. this time. .should be fine ne... just hope the partimer will be alrite...

hm... today.. starting to feel sleepy abit already... tmr.. finally.. last day!!! yay. .then can go off... yay.. surprisinglu i lasted this long.. hahaha.. tmr mrg..day should be fast over..
gosh i cant wait.. then off day can spend wiht sam!! =D

aw.. even my manger also trying to spend lots of time with her partner chris.
she say so herself. .counting down.. she's leavin gsoon. .wanna spend lots of time wiht him. but a ppity he only get weekend off. o well.. i understand how she feel...

gosh.. i wish sam could really come back to sg for whatever 6months or so of doing attachments.... im praying for that to happen... pray to.. erm. .whoever.. i dunno.. all gods i guess?

wow. .my shop.. theres 2 staffs, chinese girls. bf malay. i was like. .wow.. such a coincidence eh? O.o hahaha.....
very.. =)

hm... was.. thinking of new idea of the trip thingy.. but. .i got a feeling.. it might be a flop. .don think sammy can comply to it.. =/ well.. will try to discuss first. .though.. better try than nothing eh.

gosh.. i miss his voice.... i miss him soooo much.................
im happey for him he got his holidays =) 2 weeks is nice. though.. he got his projects to do too. sstill, im glad he can stay home.. rest abit here and there.. thogh not enough for him yet.. i know.. still.. uh huh.. menaing i got time with him too. =) so cheers!

oops.. i forgot. .gonna slp already! tmr wakey early ne.. hair still abit wet though.. nvm.. ha.. k.. erm.. weird.. felt as htough i missed out on saying sumtin.. O.o

jaa mata!

Loving His Best(Everything)

ok.. so.. my day is actually quite fine.. not that bad.. had great sales. talking more with one of my colleague.. then stocks arrived.. theres alot of new items. wow.. very nice!! so excited to see them.. and me also first time try out the interact part. our shop website.. where everyone around the world working with us, can see , and reply and stuff. so.. me try it.. ha.. not bad.. i hope will have some positive feedbacks.. and they'll make an effort to do what i listed out and stuff.

oh. .so.. end of night.. me and one guy closing only. then. he pissed me off. by sayin gi never arrange stocks again.. vacumn not good.. sigh.. i tell u.. i was on the verge of.. ... anyway if not for the excitements in the afternoon. i might really lose it, and tell him off. no wait. .i'll wait till theres other staffs around too. then i will do it.
gosh.. he's getting on my nerves!!! theres too much about it.. =/ sigh.. its disgusting.. but i couldnt tell all in words.. ..just realised i should complain all these to sammy too.. but.. yeah.. details are so difficult to type out.

anyway... gosh.. tch.. whatever it is.. 2 days to go.. so gonna enjoy my off... haiz.
hm. .weird htough.. dunno why i still got the energy to wanna work.. O.o .. my 4th day already ne... .. hm.. could it be.. ..i like my job?.. or. .could it be.. i get to chill with my frens the other night?.. hm.. dunno.. just feel weird..

hm.. =/ gosh.. i think my period is late.. must be.. becos i never eat well... =(
haiyo.. but me don care.. first thing first.
im still trying to figure out if theres any ways to go sydney without having to strained my budget too much.. =/

oh.. last night. .sam was asking me.. whats the thing i lvoe most about him. gosh.. theres just so much to say!!
listen guys.. he's special. .a man.. i never seen anywhere.. his personality i love.. homebody.. no smoking.. no drinking.. positive.. wits.. down to earth... not afraid to be cute.. funny.. love his laughter... protecting of me.. love me so much...really alot.. his soft side. .his man side.. his good nature... the best is he love me so much.. since day 1.. more and more..
he have this such beautiful wonderful personality with soul which i love..
..huu...... T_T i love him...
just.. sigh.. cant wait for the waiting days to be over... so cant wait.. ..just wanna be with him again...
3 months... it'll be.. him leaving for a year already....

i have a fren whose birthday falls on the 21st july. a day earlier than mine. same year with me. but.. just talk2 only.. dunno should celebrate together anot.. hm.. my only special birthdays.. are with sam.. and when i was 5.. the others then,... just plain normal.. =/
nothing special for me. .sigh..
o well... dunno why. .this year birthday.. looking forward again.. perhaps... .. its becos last year sam is leaving ba.. thats why.. abit no mood to enjoy the month of july..

gosh.. i just though tof something. .and it brought me to tears... T_T.. just reminded.. of.. the day before sam is supposed to go off.. he suddenly pop by my house. .i was wishing to see him so much u know... then he suddenly appeared by surprise.. i burst into tears when i see him.... ...
/ha.. see.. all these memories still brought me to tears. .when..will it ever stop....
sigh.. .im longing for him....

his canoe thingy.. hm.. seems having some probs.. but.. well.. ..=/ dunno.. he. .doesnt seem interested now.. however... .. he changed so fast. .not sure if thats his true words.. or just fit of an anger words only.. but.. i.. ..me dont like the way his bro treated him ba.. plus.. sunday.. then no one bother to wakey him up =(
they should mah.. ..but then again.. im not there..me dunno 100% what really going on.. i dunno his family for years.. so i cant say for sure what happen.. but. .from my point of view now.. thats how i feel ba... =/
i wish.. theres more care and love for my swtheart..
anyway... me really so wish.. to love and care for him there now..
i will give him my all. all my love i could ever give..

im still praying.. htat he can find a job asap... really hope he can... it might takes time.. but yeah.. i hope soon.. very soon.. sooner i can see him then...
wont give up. never.. yes.. im sure he can find it.. sooner or later.. but i wish.. sooner...

mata ne....

Happy Chat =D

wow... today totally feel so different.. otaly the opposite of ytd...
as i was saying right.. i had a bad day.. very upset.. feeling super down.. then.. a pity sammy aint home.. at the thought of going home with a heavy heart, then.. somemore no one to talk this with,.. yeah.. ..very sad indeed... then... wow. .soon after, sam say he's on his way back. =) i thought he wouldnt! but he did. =) so yeah.. then.. we chatted.. till morning.. i had only hours of slp today.. very slpy.. i fell aslp in bus.. almost miss my stop if the person beside me never wakey me. so up.. phew.
miss swty sooo much ne....
as i was saying.. yeah.. so we talked about our days.. i really don wanna offline.. but no choice.. no time slp alreayd.. and somemore im too slpy.. =/ haiz.
so up.. he cheer me up. ahhh.. really so nice... yes.. there may be years to move forward to.. but.. i know.. he's definitely the one. and i will wait for him.
years time. .to get to my whole life happiness.. and i will cherish it be it now, and the future.

ha.. my fren.. just got back from genting.. same like me.. she say she had a totally different views of singapore now. XD sg is so much cleaner.. and stuff. just the right weather.
sometimes. ha. wow. .tonight cold ne. cool.. like that type of weather. =) cold, yet nice. haha.. just wish. .sam is here...
i wonde rif my wish would come true huh.. lol.. yeha.. my biggest wish..
who knows huh.. perhaps one miracle, allows sam's dad to find a 10times higher pay here in sg.XD wow .then imagine if they all come back.... ...huu.... gosh..... i'll faint the first thing if it ever happen. haha =) nice right^^. u never know when therell be a miracle ard to help out =)

my fren told me that night. .she's a lesbian. well, im ok with it. she's a human nonetheless still. so yup.. i wasnt shocked or anything. alil surprised. but im totally fine. just glad she could open up with me =)

sooo glad i went home straight after work..
=) yeah.. o well. .just so happy... like.. one night never online chat.. me feel so weird already.. ha. like feel so long.. wanna ask him so many things.. XD
anyway.. uh huh... =) love u sam.

today work.. better... and i think im the winner of this comp thingy.. of who sell more of this free gift thingy..
shall see how.. tmr i'll know my result. =)

mata

A Very Bad Day =(..........

..=( so sad.. such a bad day....... T_T heartpain evenmore when the person i need most isnt here with me... ='(
i really dread to say what happen today.. cos only to make me more angry, and sad... so.. i dont wanna tlak about it.. sorry.. =(
but.. yeah.. right from the beginning.. its a very sad sad angry day =( very very unhappy...

im like cursing alot today.. dont mind me please.. when im angry i cant control it..so.. sorry.. yeha.. let this blog be tainted abit.. =(

its like.. ha.. everything went fu*king wrong.. everything is all fuc*ed up=(
fuc*... ... i dont know what to say.. i know everyone can tell why im looking so fu*king angry. but only one colleague of mine ask me, and try to cheer me up wiht a note. .very swt... still... =( huu............
im just so *ucking sad when my love one isnt here with me.... i try not to think there... cos theres still years to go.. yearssssssssss..... very pain.. but.. i gotta .. gotta continue on.. tmr working still. .4 days to go...
huuuuuuuuu ='( i hate hate hate today.......................................
SUCKXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXxxxx

..u know.. my phone spoiled again... =/ sigh.. again.. ...i dunno what to do now.. to buy a new phone, or hang on till end of aug,then get. cos saving up for my trip.. sigh.. i really don know anymore..........................
what is worth it.. what is not?

=/ feel so helpless and lonely

..oh..surprisingly.. today purposely slacked at work.. yet.. time is super fast passed.. ... sigh.. bad staff i am today =(

sam said.. i dont talk about my probs.. ...i was wondering.. how to start it.. how to talk.. when its a very bad day.. and.. he's not here... i dunno.. like.. gosh.. its difficult to explain even here.... =(
..i... ..sigh.......... in anycase, be it the happy, or sad.. or angry.. the first i always wanna let know of is him.. but.. ..tonight is his happy night.. last night was his happy night too.. ..just let it be.. ... dont ruin it for him.. somemore he isnt here..

i'll talk more of what happened yesterday k.. tat is, if i can remember it still..

mata..

Wrong Choices

its not a good day for me.. seems like i keep making the wrong decisions... =/

hm.. firstly... was quite excited.. bro is in town.. so asked him help me get a international calling card.. (i'll cut the stories short cos im still kinda pissed at my day aites) then found out he bought wrong.. not his fault ba. its mine.. so.. i wasted money.. and i tell myself don look at the card for now. .thus.. whether i'll be using it or not is another question. so.. yeah.. shall see how..

erm.. ok.. my fren wanna meet up actually.. i actually say no.. becos i was thinking i need to rest and get prepared for this coming 6 full shifts to work on.. plus sam will be home early.. so.. i declined. 2 invitations actually. but then, ended up sam wasnt home till late. .so = to same if i wasnt at home today. o well.. think on the poisitive side, i tel myself.. ok.. i get rest only instead. so be it. i try not to think of what if i accompany my frens instead.. cos i rarely get a chance to spend time with them .. so.. o well.... that aside, no one's fault here.. so yup.. just that my decision is wrong.. i should've just.. stop thinking the same way..

erm.. today.. only nicer part is when its raining.. and i was watching my bro playing game. .helped him as usual.. like help in a way.. dunno how to explain.. anyway , yeah.. thats how i always do..

hm... so.. same thing i guess.. online.. watching tv.. fell aslp for a short while.. looking at phone.. missing sammy.. then.. just waiting.. then..... well.. night is here. .almost ending the day.. imma head for bed later.. and.. brand new day will cease. and.. i guess its time for me to have time for my own.
shall see what happen in the day then.. anyway wont be online with sam for a couple of days time.

,,,cant ppl just keep to their words?

mata

Just Rest!

hmm.. just sang a couple of jap songs.. had an urge to do it. .and yeah.. it helps to destress abit. i mean.. just sing it out. .let it out.. i don wanna lose touch with my singing..

today.. just rest.. online.. tv abit. .basically online.. and yeah.. jst sit. .and rest. .as much as i possible can.. cos im preparing for 6 days full shifts. .=/ i gotta chilled in between though.. will see how.. if not. .i dunno how can i get past 6 days of full with just wokr online and slp.. anyway , yeah.. shall see.. but i think yeah.. i should hang out with my frens for abit one of these days. .just talk and laugh or something.. oh well..

hm.. what else oh.. relly wanna cook somehting today. =/ but bro not home.. so yeah.. cant cook.. perhaps see tmr how huh.. o well..

erm.. oh.. theres this interesting thingy.. my workplace.. we have our own website.. shop website.. where. .like. staffs liek us, could online,. and read up posts.. and stuffs given by other staff around australia.. say.. my shop is all around in aussie.. so ard there i could read up on what they say about tips.. work.. and even got the shops info of each staffs! mine havne pop up cos im stil under probation. need to be 3 months first. then i read up on my frens info.. hahaha... like. .basic infos on them.. then some of my colleagues got post their pics too XD its cool! becos from aust, they might've never been to sg.. they can just read our infos, and know who's working here.. and we likewise. haha.. its cool... if im in aust again, i just cant wait to see the shop. perhaps might be able to say hi eh? lol. my colleague went to melb.. i think she went into the shop.. but didint get to meet the boss.. cos big boss is very busy! o well..
yup.. i hope my info file will get up there soon. and be part of their team. hope my probation all ends well.

hm........... if wanna say theres any downside for todya.. i would've say its.. sam told me his mum doesnt like him to stay up late chatting... at first i was upset.. but i know.. a son gotta listen to his mum if she's right... so.. i stand back.. sort of.. 'alone corner' is what i'll called it.. i knew it.. so i search for it.. yes.. htere... if my son is doing the same thing.. how would i react... then... yeha.. i knew my answer. .just wanna double confirm.. cos it was all too sudden. caught ,e a lil' off guard htere. and felt abit sad.. then.. yeah.. am ok now... i would've reacted the same way.. worry for his health and stuff.. i.. might've said the same thing to him too.. 'go slp.. its late.. u got school''... but.. =(... sigh.. i cant bring myself to use those words.. for its hurting me if i use it.. becos i don wan him to go.. i cant lie to myself and hurt myself.. so.. i dont ever tell him to slp.. unless its ridiculously late.. or.. he's really slpy.. and.. something like.. long story. anyway yeah... me huggie him in slp now.... huu....

hm.. wonder if i missed out on anything.. =/ o well..nights peeps! thx for reading up yo

mata ashita na!

Im On Fire!

yay... after receiving sam's msg, ha.. me fell aslp again.. then dreamt of him.. ^^ naw... me gib him his fav kissy look.. then he dun wan gib.. me that time felt like its cos ppl were around.. then he kissy.. then another kissy on my head.. XD naw!! surprise kissy desuuuu~! hehe.. i remember i was so happy. =) aw.... its so nice to kissy him.. hehe. ^^

wow.. finally the day is over.. its kidna fast.. i like it. today.. i dunno why.. but.. customers are willing to buy, and theres quite alot of them.. so yup.. very busy.. and din have much time to ponder about stuffs.. nor the time.
so yup.. good.

ha. sometimes i'll stare into space for a while. .then this couple me served just now, was like waving at me and saying goodbye to me.. then me didnt realized!XD cos was staring outta nowhere.. like freezed! haha.. then they were laughing.. so did I..XD its funny. ha...
i must've been looking like a statue huh.. XD

today.. sabrina say i was on fire. and hope to see me continue htat when i get back to work. lol. i dunno why.. hm.. i think ne.. maybe its becos.. one thing, theres alot of customers for e to do business wiht, interact with.. another, cos sabrina is there.. and she's the type of person who'll push for good sales.. so i feel at ease working with her.. unlike other stuffs. .just stand and not much talking.. =/ makes me feel 'down' too... so yup.. together, power.. yeah.. sales hit the target, and hit more extras too. =) haha. yeah.. my day improved today. =) perhaps thats why im feeling kidna relax now i guess... haha.

ohhhh just recalled.. my book!XD hm.. if theres a couple of mins left, i would love to read it later.. yup.. before i slp.. though slpy now.. but yeah..
jsut read ba. if not never finish. and im gonna make sure i memorise them
hm.. suddenly i feel like cooking.. well, cant wait for a new day.

mata!

Not A So Good Day

2nd day of working after off, ha. .very tired indeed.. hm.. not a good day for me.. =(
tch... sigh..

oh.. ytd theres this nice angmoh man.. we chatted abit while he's making his payment.. he bought a something.. then add another lvoe card. .said for his wife.. she should be happy when she's back from holiday. aww.. .so swt right.. ^^ then ask if this is my weekend job.. i say no. . then he say well, he's working on weekends too.. just to make me feel better. yea. he told me that. and taught me to look at it in a better way. .yes.. im standing and working on weekend.. but take it as like im saving money too.. instead of walking ard and spending it. then he walk off, and wink. lol. not bad huh. .so swt to his wife.

today, at night.. i noticed theres 2 man standing at the front of our shop.. erm.. how to say.. they're those ppl workign under the mall. and giving directions.. then they turn their heads ard, like looking in our shop direction. i dunno if thye're looking at me. so me look away just in case.
then me closing dorr time.. one of them came up to me and ask wha time shop close. i say about 10. but haven 10 yet.. so i was wondering.. gosh.. would it be ok?.. then he ask me.. am i local?? =.='''''' he say i don look like singaporean. ....... dots.............. what the.. why ppl keep saying that. =.= i dont look like one?? geez..........

hm.. so.. =/ well.. i got 6 full straight shifts to hold on to... gotta stand.. and.. yea.. wil lhang on as much as i can.. o well... ...haiz....................
=/

k then.. shall stop here.. just.. not my day today...

sometimes feels like.. as though my routine of life.. got stuck in a way.. was wondering if..i could add some nice new balance to it... otherwise its gonna stuck like this...and.. i dunno.. if thats a good thing.. well.. i do go out with my frens once in a while.. but.. not much time being spent with them though..

oh.. was thinking the other day... before i met sam, my life was in a mess. then.. .everything fall into place.. then he left.. then i guess i just realized that.. i think i was in abit of confused mess again.. kinda.. then.. i see him.. then.. i forgot.. was kinda on teh right tracks..? tehn.. now. ...hm.. no mess yet i think.. cant say for sure..

was reading this mag today.. where they teach u how to tell guys are cheating. then........... a couple of hte guys was saying they kiss another girl at a party, or they almost kiss another girl from workplace.. then thigns aint the same again with their gf.
i was like. .wth... like......... wthh??????
freaking jerks if u ask me!!!! they deserve to get dump.
but yeah.. its.. disturbing.. =/ and i wonder why all the guys have the same signs after they cheated. becos they're all male humans?

my stomach aint feeling good. .since last night. .think had a full tummy thats why.. forgot. .i shouldnt eat lots when slping.. =/
then mrg wakey.. also tummy not good.. =/

me slpt early. .feels so tired.. morning wakey also tired. .body like.. so weak or something..

now. .very tired too. .leg hurts.. slpy..

i think me got alot of aftnoon shifts cos my manager wanna train and make sure i know how to do closing... hte email boss and stuff.. o well.. sigh.. nvm ba.. just ganbate...

hm.... *pouts o well.. me try not to think of anything yet.. just concentrate on getting towards off day.. one day to go peeps.. huu...

hang on!!!

mata

Memory Photos

wow.. haha.. am i starting to get nervous? yeah.. im opening the shop with no one to help tmr.. gosh.. i can do this... gotta do a good job!! ok.. keeping my fingers crossed...

oh.. that day dunno what happen.. sam had a bad bad headache.. =( wow.. i can imagine that.. it sux to have a headache.. and cant do anything with it on.. glad he's fine now..

we talk late.. im glad we still get to talk with him.. last night and tonight.. yeah just skype with him..
it was nice=) and yeah at the same time i was going through the photos we took in sydney.. argh.. wishing if only we took more pics together!! if i ever see him again, i dont care how outsider think or look. im so gonna stop in the middle of street, or anywhere, and take pic with him. hmph.
then yeha.. was like.. aw.... so sweet.. the way we kissy each other, and say i love u.. its sooo affectionate.. =) i didnt know we look like that.. usually when i see couples behaving closely, i'll be like. .aww.. so sweet... so nice.. but i didnt realized i have the best ever partner with me...who always make others envy. yeah.. im pretty confident alot of ppl envy us.. ha. just like i did with other ppl.XD so yup... aww... just so sweet.. if only the video is in my phone.. aww.... ^^ we should really take more vids.. hee. i like the way we behave so affectionately and very happy. happiness is written all over our faces. =)

met a new colleague the other day.. she was telling me how sabrina is very lucky.. and got another job she dreamed of.. we were tlaking about how bubbly and happy she always seem.. then yeah.. she told me.. yes.. she found another new job.. at first she didnt know if she should go for it. .then my colleague tell her to go for it! and yeah.. she did.. she's gonna live in a small town. cos her fiance was from a small town in new zealand. so yeah.. its not a happening place.. yet i can tell.. its a small town with nice ppl .. peaceful.. and with a nice husband to be.. and with a brand new job she like.. its everything she wanted. yeah.. im happy for my manager.. seriously.. professional. i like the way she work. gosh.. gonna miss her when she's gone. but. she did say she'll be back in sg. so yeah. i hope so...
aww... envy her abit... ha.. with a husband.. new job, and living in a peaceful small town.. thats what i would like too.. instead of busy dangerous nightlife place.. no.. i'll rather choose a peaceful one. =)work, then home. .then cook.. and enjoy life with ur life partner. ^^ aww............ sweet. thats nice life =)
lucky her.. im glad thigns turn out the way it is for her... really. she deserve it.

hm. .morning.. me wakey early.. thought sam online already.. but haven.. so yeah.. hm.. went to have lunch outside.., walk ntuc abit.. then.. abit tired to cook.. cos me very slpy. been slping at 3plus. =/ last night.. also cant slp.. then watched videos of sam with me.. then got all eyes teary. ha. o well....
then found out he also lookey at our pics at night.. im glad i uses his phone to take pics of me.. i didnt do it cos i wanna look how pretty or how i dress.. its becos i knew i'll be gone.. then at night he's slping, he can always have a look at my pics.......... thats, my motive.
but.. liek i said.. haiyo.. i dont feel its enough... really regret man.. oh and some stuffs i never get in sydneyT_T i saw it, bt never get.. ha.. o well...

u know.. for july, i really wish to go.. i talked to my mum abou it.. i thought she'll say ok.. but like sam.. she said the same thing.. she tell me dont go.. if for 2 weeks at least still worth it. but for one week only, waste a few hundred bucks like.. yeah.. not worth it.. ask me to see him in webcam can alreayd.. i know.. i definitely know what they are tlaking about.
but.
sometimes.. its difficult to explain how i feel... yeah webcam.. still. .u'll yearn to feel the person in touch right?... and... sigh... i really wanna make more memories with him...
well.. we shall see how thigns go.. hopefully the natas fair will have something good too.. ..

ha.. like.. me feel like taking alot of pics now... cos just watched finish the movie shutter. by the hollywood version. theres this part.. the guy say.. ''forget about work.. i will quit this job. .and look for another one. I will Not RIsk you.'' as in not risk losing her. aww.... so sweet right.. =) thats the man.. the what i might called the perfect man.... =)

hm.. u know....... i really still prefer the old of of how u print out the photos... get the film, and print them out. hm.. well.. still can do it with digital cam.. ha. .but yeah.. feels alot different..

hm=/ i know how sam feel.. we both hope that he can find a job soon.. well.. he's doing his best.. now im just praying there's still chances alongside.. or his emails will get a reply.. but usually.. alot of ppl dont really bother to check their emails about job vacancy.. if me relaly want it, will go into the shop and ask for it. otehrwise.. yeah. .email lots also no harms.. well.. lets just hope he'll walk past shops who need ppl... isnt it great if he can get a job at the mall near his house.. around 5mins only.. wow.
well, so yup.. slowly.. and steady.. he can make it.. even redz also took such a long time to find a job. sam becos he still got alot of things to do.. cant search everyday..

gosh.. still slpy.. k.. imma get ready for bed in abit.. may god watch over my love..

mata

Druken call

weird.. very weird indeed.. as though its predestined.. ha.. i wakey early, get ready early.. yet didnt realised about it till i saw a miss call in my phone.. i call back my shop.. turns out that one staff last min mc.. so i gotta reach shop earlier. and turns out that.. when i was ready to head out, its the right timing for me to reach early on time. weird.. very bizzare indeed.. haha... as though.... yeah.. funny right. .so weird.. such a super right timing..

lol.. my cousin contacted the other day.. ask wanna go drink anot.. now.. my bro say cant.. then he msg.. how about next day.. then my bro dont dare to msg back.. lol. my bro ar.. hahaha... so afraid he'll call back.XD lol. well, weird.. he last year say wanna call and ask us out for a drink , but didnt.. then this time, suddenly pop outXD hahaha...... so yeah.. my bro is shocked. XD lol. but me ok ba.. come to thin of it, i think he's the cousin we're kinda closer to. as for hte other cousins, (as well as other relatives,) i dont give a da**. seriously. i dont. i dont care at all. not one bit. but at least this cousin still can always joke ard.. and yeah. .talk abit about anything.. so i don mind.

erm.. tonight.. i was closing alone as a fulltimer.. but theres a partimer who know how to close properly.. so yeha.. im glad.. kinda.. yeah.. did it. .ha. slow, but ok.. just need to get the hang of it..

ok... letting go is kinda easy.. just gotta convince myself.. so far alrite.. still will shed a tear or 2 sometiems.. but try to convince myself otherwise..

yeah. .feel more relax abit.. so. yeah.. i hope to keep it this way.............

hm.. waiting for my turn to bath.. cnat wait.. i need to chill......... just now chilled out abit .. so yeha.. not bad.. relax a lil........... phew..

hm.. me need to get to ps.. well.. not tmr i gues.. sam will be back home..

was telling my colleagues.. weird.. the earth nwadasy.. for sg, see. .its been so warm all of a sudden!! then suddely pour oiut a heavy rain. =.= gosh.. very nuts indeed... outside too.. earthquakes here and there.. sigh.......

hopefully this earth of ours will hang on for abit more longer..

mata

Good Day

hm.. slept for an hour and half.. gosh.. felt so weird waking up.. like.. gosh.. perhaps my slping position? anyway, it aint comfy at all. hm. .wonder if i can fall aslp later or not .. abit warm.. so.. yeah.. kinda uncomfy.. cant wait for the rain again.. will be so cool... very cooling.. especially in the night if u're walking outside..

hahaha.,.. today really been good. never been this good. feels good =)
perhaps of the morning blog i wrote this morning. i felt like.. yea.. that should be what i should doing. .and focusing on.. so.. let go of it.. lighter.. and. .ha.. theres a very good news. my gm got fired already =) i know.. i didnt mean to sound bad.. but! he uses my code to give discounts, then keep giving discounts to his frens... and yea... finally... my manager sabrina, fired him =) i never talk to him at all. perhaps its my 6th sense? anyway, glad he's gone. now the shop should be better. i hope. ha. yeah. its good. =) he even ask the partimers to lie for him! that they bought the items, and not his frens who did it.

another good news.. kinda. we have a new manager! after sabrina is gone,(she still got around 5 weeks left =/ ) theres this new manager will b joining us.. seems like he handled alot of big erm.. jobs before. ha.. like in new york.. hongkong.. i dunno.. but he's very nice. and very friendly. but. .abit worried though.. =/ im afraid he's too nice, nicer than sabrina. that he wouldnt dare to take any action if anything like what the gm did happened again. =/thats the thing im worried most. i hope he can be very professional.... so.. yeah...

ah.. another thing.. quite alrite.. =) erm. i feel like more of a fulltimer now. ha. cos i got my own shop keys!! and then i started to do opening shop. like todya, i do it all on my own.. though my manager is with me. but this sunday, i'll be opening alone!! with only a partimer. and im the only one who knows what to do in morning.. gosh. i hope nothing messed up.. keeping my fingers crossed! ha..

u know.. i;ve encountered quite a few of those. jesus followers ppl... who'll come into shop. .and tlak about it with u.. then asking u to join.. then.. today. i was greeting customers as usual.. theres this angmog red hair blue eyes guy.. very blue eyes.. liek. he's a student here or something.. i randomly say hi to whoever i haven greeted.. but i didnt look at him straight.. i think he look up at me for abit.. then i walk closer to the counter, he came up to me, and say hi , how are u... blah3... i asked back the same thing.. then i knew i must stop talking already. cos i saw his shirt, theres this badge which says jesus something... then i was like. .oh.. dont tell me he's gonna start the jesus talk!! XD haha.. but he didnt which is good. he was telling me he's waiting for his fren. and i dunno why so many angmoh asked if im from singapore. =.= anyway yeah.. i say yes... then phew.. his another angmoh fren arrived, and ta-da! they left. phew.... good thing never start all these talks.. but yeah.. good thing my job hav ealot of angmoh customers. its nice to chat with them.

oh! and theres this uncle i served today, another angmoh.. but he's working in indonesia.. i served him.. he's a nice man.. then when he's leaving ,he thank me for the service i gave him. aww.... thats what i called a job satisfaction. and, its great.. cos my company is all about giving the customers 'world wide first class service'. and to inspire them..and wow them over with our services. yea.. thats our motto.. ha.
which is cool. i wanna be someone whom they can say to other frens or ppl they know.. that i provided a great service there. =) isnt it nice? like say.. ''wow.. her service is very good. very nice''.

and so.. im gonna start do closing tmr night again.. hopefully i'll get the hang of it soon. then yeah.. can be a good fulltimer.. hm.. yeah. hopefully can do it professionally.. cos so far i did.. =) hm.. my fren good.. hm... other partimers.. they sometimes doesnt do so.. well, anyway sabrina gonna have a talk wiht them on sunday. see.. her off day u know.. thats why i say.. hopefully hte new manager will do it professionally like she does.. hope so..

Bubble Pops 2

oh.. i didnt mention huh.. this.. so.. tues night.. after work.. i went to slp first.. cos sammy was aslp alreayd.. so i left the comp on.. in my middle of the night, he online.. so.. chatted abit.. was slpy.. then.. he reminded me of the 2 days he supposed to head out..

then.. skip a part.. then.. me.. couldnt slp already.. was crying. i dunno.. perhaps im too sleepy that time or.. yeah.. not good. =/

u know... i dunno.. but perhaps im a girl who needs alot of love. and alot of care definitely. need alot of time with my partner. always hanging out with each other.. always in contact.

i felt as thought theres something i need to say.. but im not sure.. so .. bloggy abit now..
=/ abit not in the mood for work.. but i gotta pull it through and hang on til evening. so wanna get home..huu..

sigh.........

well2, trying to let it go. gotta have my own life now. perhaps i have not move on yet isit? i should learn now. situation i totally upside down now.. things wont go the same way..
its perhaps time for me to stop rejecting too. gotta have some fun eh

mata.

Bubble Pops!

i dont.. feel so well right now.. my nose.. giving me the trouble...

erm.. just to say.. well.. i wont be adding in so much of my emotion talk from now on.. i'll hold them back however i could.

well.. i get to sing today.. for abit.. so yeah.. i miss singing.. hm.. o well

erm.. so.. what happen todya.. erm.. wow. .on the phone with sam for quite long hours.. uh huh.. watched anime together.. talked about the july trip.. erm.. really never expect the ticketsd to be so expensive.. i was so lucky last time. .anywya.. yeah turn out the hotel is quite a good price.. so. yeah. didnt expect that.
erm.. not sur eif will really get to go.. but yeah..

erm

then sam was asking me what if i cant see him for the longest time. then he say i might not be able to see him in his summer holiday.
i know what that means already.
hm,.... =/ o well.. so if july couldnt make it there... it'll take me around more than 1yr and 6months time till i see him again huh. unless he found a job and save lots.. i dunno..
so.. i never get to reply his question.. what happen huh.. i think my answer will be.. of course it wont be happy right. ha. so ya....

whatever happen, happens.. anything and alot can happen in this long2 time.. just hope.. yeah.. i'll get to see him next year indeed ba.
and will love each other as much as possible as we do now..

o well... tough day for me..

erm.. tired and sleepy. .didnt sleep well.. hm.. yeah.. basically just not my day.. well, get to chat with sam.. so yeah.. good.. same off day..

erm.. so.. hm.. he's asking me to look at his fb in case i need to know anything of him.. so.. yeah.. wonder why not email. .but since he said so.. ya..

erm... so.. i hope tmr will get well..
hm. .yeah.. i relaly cant wait to get the day over with..
hm..
yeha..

so change of plans alreayd... i can even most likely go for my course this year.. see how..
hm.. yeah.. ust felt abit weird ba. like.. so sure of the plan.. then end up liek this.. but yeah. .all cool..
its not up for us to decide sometimes..

me.. dinner.. never take.. decided not to take.. very yeah.. =/
well.. at least i had half a bowl of noodles..
and abit of chips..
wont die eh.
hm..
yeah.. finally get to listen to my cd.. uh huh..

gosh. .suddenly my nose is killing me..

sigh.. =/ got a feeling i didnt make sammy very happy today..=/ tch.... ..


k.. signing off now. .hoping for a better day tmr if theres one.

mata

JOBSSS

wow.. this couple.. geez... i don wanna end like like htat wife of his!! i think they are husband and wife. quite obvious ba.. husband carrying a big bag of LV stuff. they werent smiling much.. nor appeared to be lovey dovey.. then she made payment.. then she walk aside!! i was like.. o..k......... i knew whats gonna happen. and i was right. lol. her husband come to the front, and collected the bag of stuff she just bought. like slave sia!!! gosh.. men aint supposed to do all those! anyway.. pity her husband =/ sigh.. get such a wife.. o well..

sigh....... =/ dunno what to say.. how to begin...

im just kinda afraid was being outcasted.. =/ tch.. u know.. sorry.. i dont think i feel like saying anything..=/ not my day to confide tonight. sorry..

so.... .... erm.. well.. today.. same as usual.. hm. .theres a staff there ok.. can talk to.. so not bad.. i guess slowly ba.. get used to the peeps there..

oh.. heard theres a angmoh man applying for our manager position.. but sabrina decided not to hire himXD lol. reason??? cos he was too strict!!!LOL!! what is she thinking!! hahaha... my fren and i were like.. strict.. is good! so there wont be any unfairness going on! haiz.... o well... just hope she'll find a nice manager who knows black and white soon.=/
we really wish they'll transferred someone from aussie or new zealand to sg like sabrina. at least they will know what they're supposed to do, and how to do. instead of getting someone from sg who knew nothing about our system.

..............

=/

sigh.. what to do...

oh.. my colleague, holds 3 jobs. lol. bt not what u think.. ha.. lazy to explain. then the other one. still schoooling. working 3 times a week here. always nightshift. then after work, at10.30pm,go off to work at zouk.
wow. gotta hang it to them.. my time.. wel.. not enough.. plus its really save up for sam. so yeah..
imagine if say.. tmr i off, tonight after work i go zouk and work, not bad eh. ha. but gonna be so dead tired. but anyway, sammy will kill me if i go work there eh. ha.
but theres extra cash.. wow.. come to think of it.. not a bad idea.. but.. =( really tiring. and i will have no free time already.. no time to cook, learn, and.. yeah.. wil lalways be slpy and tired. worse than now im sure. ha. sigh.. to give up which one.. u tell me...

poor sabrina.. her partner's health aint good at all when they went over to batam for few days of holiday.
wonder how they gonna enjoy all these.. anyway.. well.. i guess its good for her too nonetheless.. as she's heading back to new zealand on may.. then her partner will be staying here till september. lol. maybe will be the same case as my fren huh. imagine when he go back, see her, then say i love u to her. lol... guys... nah.. maybe he's a romantic at heart alreayd XD

=/ dunno should i slp or not.. outside.. no one... bro in his room.. stop playing game already... =/ u know.. i hate these kind of lonliness and quietness.. =( sux like mad.. would rather head out =(

my feet hurts.. =/

tmr.. o well......... tmr huh.............. ....

=/

mata ne

Remeber

i have this customer today.. when he's making payment today, he say to me.. ''dont u know that u have a killer smile? don (ever) use that.'' i was like.. ^^ haha.. kinda happy.lol!! cos i like the word 'killer'. lol... killer smile eh.. hahahahha....... so funnyXD i like that\. now2, don get th ewrong impression. he's a a angmoh living here for 6 years already in sg.. and has a 6yrs old cute daughter. he even showed me her pic. aww.... so yup.. ^^ nice man with a cute black daughter. yeah.. her daughter's black. =) erm.. or abit brown. yup..

today is sam's off.. i didnt know about that......... i was wondering. .how come i didnt know about that... then.... i try putting myself in his shoes..(i always does..) if i were to have a party going on.. and its about 2 in a week..., and.. i have fun at the parties.. i am sleepy... would i be able to tell my partner way before that? or in time...... well, i think.. i might've already know mon is my off by thurs or fri right..? so.. would i be able to let my partner know about this? well.. its a good thing. .and happpy ting. its holiday.. im off! so.. lets go back.. ah........... say.. lastest by fri... say.. i got to learned about it after school.. and i gotta run for the party.. would i have time to tell my partner about this?....
.......
u know... ya'll know me........ you should know my answer..
yeah.. thats my answer. im sure u guys know.

working.. yeah.. only nice part s the compliment from customer.. as i said.. i don care much about compliments.. but i do like the word 'killer smile.''. LOl.
hm. .nice chat with my fren.. i think we're closer now.. hm... tmr.. sigh.. closing with my manager.. ha. but. well, kinda miss her. XD
hm........ yeha. hope she had fun in batam with her partner =)
cant wait to hear it all from her.

sigh...... somethings.. still yet to be fulfilled..

ah.. guessi forgot to ask sammy how come theres no email today huh.. well. i guess its what he said in sms.. slp eat.. chat.. stuff like that huh.. we just chatted abit in sms only.. yeah.. my card running outta money again =( sigh............................ =(

so.. my night. .hm. .sam wasnt online no more when i got back.. then.. blah3.. got abit.. erm.. u knw what... then.. funny. chatted with my fren.. ok.. not bad.. then right after im done, another came on ..XD but i really gotta shower.. so.. yup.. off i go.. haha.. a pity i couldnt stay for long though. aw.. feeling alil bad.. =/for my fren.
but anyway, its a nice chat.. relax alil.. so yeah.. yay .
i hope i can keep on staying of the right track of thinkings..

aites.. feeling fuller now. .after a drink plus chips.. was so hungry when i got home. =/ mum no cook today.. so yeah.. gotta have abit of food .. which is chips. ha.

hm... was planning the cost about the trip today.. well. i cant do it now as i've not yet received the website from sam. but seem slike. the hotel rellay cost alot. .so.. yeah. .shall see how.. yay.. cant wait for tmr to be over..

mata ashita.

Questions Afraid To Ask

hmm...... well... today.. basically i am sooooooo sleepy.... very sleepy.. rest quite abit.. still.. not enough... gosh.. nights of slping late really took a toll on me.. zzzzzzzzzzz hopefully tmr can just pull through the day.... dreads it.. but yeah.. what to do....

=/ don u just.. u know.. sometimes have the feeling of wanna discuss something..but afraid to do so.. that sucks isn it... tch..like.. u wanna know some answer.. but.. afraid to know.. and afraid to ask.... cos u got this bad vibe about the answer.. yea... =/

haiyo.. just don feel like its my day.. im so sleepy.. no mood to talk =/ haiz

oh.. sam was saying he msg me alot.. but we both couldnt receive anything.. =/ dunn owhats the reason.. when i msg him at night, he still got it.. so.. yeah.. o well..

argh.. me still no read even a page of my book .grr... so gonna compromise my time!!

hm.. talked to sam about thinking of paying him a visit.. thought of even at least for a couple of days.. k,. see the good parts first.. erm.. he holiday.its my birthday month. we see each other in less than a year's time,which is a very good ting for ldr. plus.. say if cant make it.. i was wondering.. if im really to get a 3 weeks off on jan.. thats one thing.. another is.. after spending all my leave in jan 2011, i wouldn have any left. and its only at the beginning of the starting year. hm.. thats all so far.. so yeah.. i couldnt tell what is possible or not.. cos.. my managers they took their leave recently.. and.. its only about.. 4 days or so?
well, anyway... me just see how things go.. and what days sam is free.. after that. .gonna start to think or plan ba..

hm.. well.... gotta clear my head a lil i guess... cant wait to hit the sack.
=/ if u ask me if the weekend's good... i have to say.. im not sure.. its a different one..

mata

Think About What You've Lost

tired day.. chill out is good.. but not as good as the other night... anyway.. gosh. .im soooo tired... was waiting for my fren so long=( o well.. anyway... glad its over now.. glad tmr my off day..
never receive any msgs from sammy.. =( dunno.. could it be so called reception prob again or what. .haiz... o well...=/

hm.. -_- my eyes are gonna close soon.... gosh.. wow. .late already ne...
oh.. good thing me last min still able to get a pressy for my fren. haha..
she wanted an egg hunt for tmr. but. .ha.. i heard all the easter eggs sold outXD but she's checking out ntuc tmr or something.

haiz.... abit slpy ba.. plus tired... tmr can rest.. so yea.. good...

lets see... ...hmm... me and sam.. tonight no web movie date... but.. we gained something else.. by sacrificing that, we gained leisure from frens.
u get what i mean?
u always loses something when u gained something else. it happens all 24/7... its kinda amazing.. but.. yeah... well, i like to look at that point of view sometimes.. its kinda.. yeah.. good. ha. cos its true.
what have u lost by gaining something today?

i hope.. sam's tummy will be alrite.. especially in night or by morning tmr... yeah.. from the chocos he ate.. hope he's ok....

hm.. o well.. nothing much to talk about... i guess.. i'll talk tmr then... cant think much for now..

mata

My Part Of Life

sammy.. did talk more about his day now.. =) which is good.. i can imagine how his day is like..and stuff. but.. i just hope he's comfortable with talking about it.. otherwise.. yeah.. no use right...

sleepy... huu.. gosh.. so late=/ not gonna have much slp.. o well.. finally.. final day to go. hang on till evening!!

morning.. me wakey.. go work.. feeling energetic.. and relax abit.. thinking like. .wow.. how come energy so good. haha... then.... by late evening, =.= slpy already.lol. typicalXD
but anyway, its good to destress a lil.. o well...

last night.. met my frens.. long time no see also.. my birthday fren also know them. all knew each other. long story.. anyway, yeah.. but such a waste.. couldnt hang out together =/ cos already bought movie tickets.. haiz....

i believe sam.. so for certain matters.. i know that a girl may misinterpret it.. so me...always tries hard not to head for that.
and.. well.. i hope im doing a good job. ha..

gosh.. i miss him.. everything.. everything.. just WONT ever feel right without him around. even while watching a live band performing.. u know... =/ laughing is one matter.. missing something is another... it wont feel the same.. wont be so.. 'happy'. get what i mean?

he's a part of me.. of course naturally.. no matter what i do.. i';ll always feel.... yeah....
wont be complete.. or wont be completely happy.. that kinda thing.. but.. he's always in my heart no matter what i do, where i go.. every sec..

hay.. k.. i gtg.. hair haven dry.. but i think its so late.. tmr gonna be looking like a zombie. ha.

mata!

Happy Easter Day

ok. i shall make this a real quick and short one.

as i just got back, and drying my hair. otherwise don wanna blog..

erm.. so.. ytd.. movie date was canceled. so.. just chat alot ba..
erm.. today.. after work went out.. treat my fren dinner... cos yeah.. belated birthday. another coming up too.. erm.. what else.... ...hm............ oh yeah.. thought.. kinda like regretted to go out.. cos tired abit also.. but then.. me.. not used to the loneliness in the house when sammy aint home.. what if bro aint home too.. anyway.. whats done been done.. so... was out... and.. aint such a bad night. .still./. wishes sam is here... glad he's slping soundly now... and safe. =)
erm.. so yeah.. been so long never catch a midnight movie.. its good.. last time i watched was last year. if minus the australia trip.. so yeah..
hm.. headache all day ba... after shower felt better..

tmr.. haiz.. dread it. have 20% off.. plus! its public holiday...................... =.= gonna be so... BUSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! definitely3... sigh.. busy. =( somemore... me slpt late now.. plus.. yeah.. gonna be hell tmr. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz.... i thoguht start at 1pm. .to my dismay, its 12pm!! T_T
baka desu... haiz. .hang on!!! what to do... 2 dasy to go! yosh!!!

argh.. was sick of eating breads.. =( lunchtime also never finish it up..

mata