so freaking angry... since morning.. so many things happen.. argh.... sianz........... i was so super angry.. i blast the sound system.. and i was like. pushing the erm.. wood.. erm. .board or sumtin.. more of like. slamming it. and.. yeah.. it broke abit off the edge. omg.
was talking with chan lu.. then mention sumtin.. ...and... ...it brings back my memories.. i miss it when sammy called everynight before slp.. :( never really thought of that ya know.. ..but yeah... ... ..sigh. .a kind of miss feeling that cant be pen down...
despite knowing i'll cry. .still i yearned for his voice... ..i reach out for my phone. .playing the heartfelt msg from him.. ..it was.. a feeling that cant be tell..
gosh.... angry3........... i was cursing so much today. :( i find myself rude. but.. yeah.. once my anger been ignited, im not sensible anymore.
today supposed to be my mrg shift... ...but.. .sigh... became my full instead. cos ppl dun wanna come work no more. argh.... so.. tmr see whats the situation... im desperate in need of destress now. argh... so tired yet.... huu..
so many fullshifts.. yet other outlets get 2 off per week. :( im so sad. zuan decided to take mc in one of his 8 full. ..i think im gonna too. what if i take it on the hari raya. ha.. they'll kill me ne. argh... really so sianz... :(
october.. so wish to get leave.. huu....
see how bah
but first, this week, im gonna be working like mad. and freaking tired to the core. but when u gone mad, anything is possible already. -_- yes.. anything ..at first i thought heck care. but then.. realised nvm.. just do it. -_- sianz
ok.............. ...tmr.. i hope theres good news for me ne.
aint just me.. my frens all drn stress at this job. -_- its darn stress..
aww.. .im so sorry.. to curse in front of my frens today.. hate it.. using those words.. its not me.. but.. well.. the angry me i guess... huu.. so rude ne atashi..
but for them me used to it already.. but me think they are surprised to hear that outta me.
erm.. so.. yeah.. basically its like that.. haiyo
oh.. .cos its the so called seventh month ghost festival here.. ...zuan mentioned about the late gerick.. and erm.. ...yeah. .he say one of his fren already kena disturb by him.. jokingly ask me to be careful.. but i aint bother by it.. what im still thinking about is... ..
zuan still remember... he ask me today.. how ar.. if gerick that time never die. and he cast a spell for me to fall in lvove with him.. cos he was already planning to do that. ..yeah. .it's still creepy when i thought of that.. .. imagine loving someone not of one's will.. ... :( .. argh.. ..
...oh well....... nah.. i dun care about these things.. all i want is, for my 3 months to get done and over with. wahahahah... then i'll be relax everyday :) can do whatever i want. ha
hm............ ...well.. ..so far things are like this.. ... its been a very tiring and stressful day for me. .tot could go out.. huu.. then full again.. slpy too..
mata
31 August 2009
30 August 2009
Laughing Day
fell alsp in bus. .so cold.. hope tmr can go back early.. wont change. lets just say its ppl's fault bah..
gosh.. next month schedule.. 6 full shifts straight. then me voice it out. and get one aftnoon shift in between.
freaking tired.
what to do. just gotta bear bah.. oct busy.. sep busy.. nov busy.. xmas mah.. argh..
u know my fren who alwasy say im very good.. very faithful.. XD lol.. today he say im not easy.. lol i was laughing alllll the way!!! so nice to 'bully' him LOL XD!!! disturb him only..
hm... im looking forward to my day tmr.. i hope will go as plan..
i was waiting in front of zuan.. rubbie my eyes.. then he say wah. .sexy lips.. i was like what???!!! hello? i never do anything ok. just stand and rub my eyes. then he say he also have. then he go and purposely pout... XD!! wth.... omg.. so funny...
zuan look so surprised... again. erm.. blah3...at the front. then he was liek. hopw come the 3 of you all so stress and wanna relax. yes. he said it with such a look on his face. so rare.
ha
today mansoor ask me go work earlier. but.. only me does. zuan late -_-. its futile fo me to g early...argh. cos he wanna have a talk abt sumtin abt last night.. its their probs.. me just.. well.. nothing to do with me la.
i was confused.. about some stuffs.. but... i try to stay on the right track.. its easy for the mind to take a turn ya know.
gosh.. that guy ar... omg... my fren revealed me a shocking news... that person, actually can have a one night stand anytime. then next dy forget abut it. i was like.. omg.. cos he's like my first fren(not close) who's so super open. shocking...... XD and he's 20. so yup... dunno whats he doing.. that kind of person, in years time also cant find someone who truly loves him..
i ask my fren to teach him. cos they close. XD but he say cannot teach. he like that wan. lol.
and yup. thats the guy. im so not gonna bother abt him. he'd better forget it. -_-
mata
- When he say no, its a No. I Trust. -
gosh.. next month schedule.. 6 full shifts straight. then me voice it out. and get one aftnoon shift in between.
freaking tired.
what to do. just gotta bear bah.. oct busy.. sep busy.. nov busy.. xmas mah.. argh..
u know my fren who alwasy say im very good.. very faithful.. XD lol.. today he say im not easy.. lol i was laughing alllll the way!!! so nice to 'bully' him LOL XD!!! disturb him only..
hm... im looking forward to my day tmr.. i hope will go as plan..
i was waiting in front of zuan.. rubbie my eyes.. then he say wah. .sexy lips.. i was like what???!!! hello? i never do anything ok. just stand and rub my eyes. then he say he also have. then he go and purposely pout... XD!! wth.... omg.. so funny...
zuan look so surprised... again. erm.. blah3...at the front. then he was liek. hopw come the 3 of you all so stress and wanna relax. yes. he said it with such a look on his face. so rare.
ha
today mansoor ask me go work earlier. but.. only me does. zuan late -_-. its futile fo me to g early...argh. cos he wanna have a talk abt sumtin abt last night.. its their probs.. me just.. well.. nothing to do with me la.
i was confused.. about some stuffs.. but... i try to stay on the right track.. its easy for the mind to take a turn ya know.
gosh.. that guy ar... omg... my fren revealed me a shocking news... that person, actually can have a one night stand anytime. then next dy forget abut it. i was like.. omg.. cos he's like my first fren(not close) who's so super open. shocking...... XD and he's 20. so yup... dunno whats he doing.. that kind of person, in years time also cant find someone who truly loves him..
i ask my fren to teach him. cos they close. XD but he say cannot teach. he like that wan. lol.
and yup. thats the guy. im so not gonna bother abt him. he'd better forget it. -_-
mata
- When he say no, its a No. I Trust. -
29 August 2009
Travel Fair Settled! :)
im so tired.. dead beat... i wish.. oh i wish..... tmr.. please let me wake up late.. don wan auto wakey again early morning...
gosh. .super slpy and darn tired..... cant wait to have a nice slp....
hm... waiting for sammy's reply now..me rush home..
today on my way to the train.. this guy walk passed me, look and say in a american accent.. 'damn!'.. =.= he must be really crazy...
its such a longgggg day today... was nervous about today.. XD haha... cos gotta buy tickets... and yeah.. ha.. funny la.. feel so nervous.. XD then my fren helped me check out the web.. really if not for my fren, i wouldnt've known about this great offer...
erm.. so. .after work... me, bro and redz.. went to the nafa travel fair. managed to get my prob solved. and then we go get something to eat. cos ging to town later.. guess where did we eat? at changi airport... hahaha. and omg.. the manager or person in charge, pull out the chair, and when i wanna sit down, he push it in for me. omg.. so gentleman!!XD then when we go off, i tell my bro and redz.. u guys.. not gentlemans at all.. =.= never pull for me.. hahaha.. .XD jk..
yeah.. then oh wow.. so many nice fountains in changi airport... then again.. passed by the departure hall where i send him off tearfully... ...
and. yeah.. im like a tourist.. taking lots of photosXD hahaha... cos its so nice.. :) and the fountains.. wow3. :)
too tired to upload those pics.. haha.. but yeah.. about 18 pics or more that i took from the airport .
ytd... theres this lady.. she's wearing a black tight fitting dress.. low cut. .abit sexy.. long hair.. but.. -_- its nothing but an empty shell im afraid.
norman came to my shop.. asking if she's here just now.. he say. .just now that lady in black wanna buy a balloon.. those u know.. foil helium gas balloon... she ask.. then how am i suppose to carry this home? like this ar?? as in by hand carry. norman say no.. he can give her a big plastic bag.. she say don want.. how to carry home like that.. then she say wanna buy the balloon without pumping the gas in. norman tell her that it's gonna remine flat as it is. she asked.. then how is she gonna get it pumped in her house.. would we do that for her in her house?? -_-....... norman tell her straight NO. cannot. she ask can pump herself anot. he tell her no. it cant float up at all. unless use the gas.
after that, she loo up.. she asked him.. whats this? he say its pinata. she asked what u do with it.. he say.. u gotta use a stick and hit it open and let the sweets all drop out.. she ask.. 'are you serious??'=.= he reply... hahaha XD good one. he reply.. 'YES IM DAMN SERIOUS' XD!!
yeah.. sometimes this kind of ppl... irritating only.. knows nothing at all.. still wanna act all so proud and high class huh. ..tsk
body cant take it.. im so tiredddddddddd. ........ so gonna bath and slp. maybe dry hair i think.
hm.. so.. well.. so far. .today yup.. alot of erm.. ..well.. long time never get to like.. walk ard so many places.. and stuff..
glad sam say he get to relax after chatting with frens... yeah... he told me abt his 2 best frens before. so.. yeah... at least.. me glad he'll be happy there.. i hope his frens will be for him and teat him well.. always. me wish sam will always feel happy... and carefree.. then.. yeah.. me happy already..
seems like we both had a nice night huh.. hm.. ok for me.. but yeah. .at least its full of actions..
yay.. u know what? end of aug is coming to an end. .i can buy my stuffs again! useful ones that is. :) hehe. when me off bah.
and so.........
...yup.. glad he's bacl home safely.. and relax..happy.. me all the more happy.
as for his fren's one year LDS wel.. its a test i guess.. gonna make them stronger than ever before if they made it out of it after 1year. i wish them truly all the best from the bottom of my heart.
well... can made it ne... if strong enuff.. nothign is gonna break them apart..
oh... dots.. today at teh fair. .twice.. teh wedding overseas planner thingy.. the ppl approached me with teh broswers. -_- omg.. i ask redz when they approached me first time.. 'do i look like i wanna get married??' =.= thenj next sec i know, my bro beside me tell me' maybe u got the wanna get married look'. =.=... dots.. its like i ask redz, tehn my bro answer for him. but bro never hear me ask that. funny.. haha. or maybe.. ahhh :) i got the look of deeply in lovewith someone.... wohohoho ;)
haha.. but nah i think its just because any girls walk past them, they just wanna hand out teh browsers. haha
gosh.. tired.. k.. time for me to rest.. gonna bath..
mata!!
gosh. .super slpy and darn tired..... cant wait to have a nice slp....
hm... waiting for sammy's reply now..me rush home..
today on my way to the train.. this guy walk passed me, look and say in a american accent.. 'damn!'.. =.= he must be really crazy...
its such a longgggg day today... was nervous about today.. XD haha... cos gotta buy tickets... and yeah.. ha.. funny la.. feel so nervous.. XD then my fren helped me check out the web.. really if not for my fren, i wouldnt've known about this great offer...
erm.. so. .after work... me, bro and redz.. went to the nafa travel fair. managed to get my prob solved. and then we go get something to eat. cos ging to town later.. guess where did we eat? at changi airport... hahaha. and omg.. the manager or person in charge, pull out the chair, and when i wanna sit down, he push it in for me. omg.. so gentleman!!XD then when we go off, i tell my bro and redz.. u guys.. not gentlemans at all.. =.= never pull for me.. hahaha.. .XD jk..
yeah.. then oh wow.. so many nice fountains in changi airport... then again.. passed by the departure hall where i send him off tearfully... ...
and. yeah.. im like a tourist.. taking lots of photosXD hahaha... cos its so nice.. :) and the fountains.. wow3. :)
too tired to upload those pics.. haha.. but yeah.. about 18 pics or more that i took from the airport .
ytd... theres this lady.. she's wearing a black tight fitting dress.. low cut. .abit sexy.. long hair.. but.. -_- its nothing but an empty shell im afraid.
norman came to my shop.. asking if she's here just now.. he say. .just now that lady in black wanna buy a balloon.. those u know.. foil helium gas balloon... she ask.. then how am i suppose to carry this home? like this ar?? as in by hand carry. norman say no.. he can give her a big plastic bag.. she say don want.. how to carry home like that.. then she say wanna buy the balloon without pumping the gas in. norman tell her that it's gonna remine flat as it is. she asked.. then how is she gonna get it pumped in her house.. would we do that for her in her house?? -_-....... norman tell her straight NO. cannot. she ask can pump herself anot. he tell her no. it cant float up at all. unless use the gas.
after that, she loo up.. she asked him.. whats this? he say its pinata. she asked what u do with it.. he say.. u gotta use a stick and hit it open and let the sweets all drop out.. she ask.. 'are you serious??'=.= he reply... hahaha XD good one. he reply.. 'YES IM DAMN SERIOUS' XD!!
yeah.. sometimes this kind of ppl... irritating only.. knows nothing at all.. still wanna act all so proud and high class huh. ..tsk
body cant take it.. im so tiredddddddddd. ........ so gonna bath and slp. maybe dry hair i think.
hm.. so.. well.. so far. .today yup.. alot of erm.. ..well.. long time never get to like.. walk ard so many places.. and stuff..
glad sam say he get to relax after chatting with frens... yeah... he told me abt his 2 best frens before. so.. yeah... at least.. me glad he'll be happy there.. i hope his frens will be for him and teat him well.. always. me wish sam will always feel happy... and carefree.. then.. yeah.. me happy already..
seems like we both had a nice night huh.. hm.. ok for me.. but yeah. .at least its full of actions..
yay.. u know what? end of aug is coming to an end. .i can buy my stuffs again! useful ones that is. :) hehe. when me off bah.
and so.........
...yup.. glad he's bacl home safely.. and relax..happy.. me all the more happy.
as for his fren's one year LDS wel.. its a test i guess.. gonna make them stronger than ever before if they made it out of it after 1year. i wish them truly all the best from the bottom of my heart.
well... can made it ne... if strong enuff.. nothign is gonna break them apart..
oh... dots.. today at teh fair. .twice.. teh wedding overseas planner thingy.. the ppl approached me with teh broswers. -_- omg.. i ask redz when they approached me first time.. 'do i look like i wanna get married??' =.= thenj next sec i know, my bro beside me tell me' maybe u got the wanna get married look'. =.=... dots.. its like i ask redz, tehn my bro answer for him. but bro never hear me ask that. funny.. haha. or maybe.. ahhh :) i got the look of deeply in lovewith someone.... wohohoho ;)
haha.. but nah i think its just because any girls walk past them, they just wanna hand out teh browsers. haha
gosh.. tired.. k.. time for me to rest.. gonna bath..
mata!!
28 August 2009
Learned In A Night 's Time
so many things to note it down. .i do notknow where to begin...
morning.... i was rushing for work.. but suddenly i paused. stop at my step.. cos i saw.. ..my brown bag.. .. reminded me of how sam that time fixed the zip for me.. me given up already.. but he.. ...fixed it... place my bag on the counter.. and totally really fixed it for me..
... im so touched... he never give up..
my childhood fren.. haiz.. i hope she'll be alrite... she looks fins.. but i know its a serious matter to be dealed with.... we sang for abit. .me sang a few songs only. very little.. i hope she's more relax now.. she asked me to go back her home.. chat2.. stayover.. but.. me cant. gotta collect my passport for tmr usage.. plus wanna online badly.. he's waiting.. for so long.. im so.. touched yet again.. though he's gone by the time im back..
abit.. ..hm.... ..not used to haning around chinese fellows.. cos alot of my frens are malays.. so.. yeah.. me became very quiet.. but ok.. at least 3 person theres i know.
her cousin newly known bf..(yes she change2) is staying over at her place tonight.. he's also abit half arab chinese.. a instructor for gun shooting in police force.. so seeing them together.. its like.. ... yeah.. he really reminded me so much of sammy..
theres a cab fight outside.. im disgusted by it.. i hate dispute. but i kow.. those ppl were drunk. still i hated it.
...i dunno... ... sam's frens like always mentioning to go drink out there... i dun feel comfortable.. but.. if tats what he wanna do.. i cant really stop him. but im so worried and insecure. i just don feel comfortable at all... cos the ppl there are like.. .......... yeah.. ..
this guy there.. heard he got a f of long years. heard she's a slut. dump him for 4 times. yet he's still in love with her.. why....... .... how come guys are so.. faithful when u least expect it....
another.. finaly gonna be joining his gf in other country.. long disance relationship.. so yup.. happy for him.. though i heard.. he admitted yes he did get the thoughts of being unfaithful.. but in the end always never...
he's a very protective guy.. to all girls. haha. i can tell. love to act cool.. yet so.. faithlful somehow.. kinda.. but yeah.. he managed to stay that way... :)
sigh......................
oh at one point.. i was actually really cold throughout the way.. then i was fine.. till my fren suddenly hug me.. and she's sooo warm.. and.. i cried.. i was fine really.. din wanna think lots. but yeah.. cry a tiny3 bit only k. ha.
...tonight.. so much advices i got from ppl.. ..i....
i got so much to say to sammy now. i wish sammy online now.. but.. .too late...
ne.......... ...tmr how?................. ............
i feel so so lost..
i feel like.....
................
will... .....do separate ways huh..
i miss...............
...
why isnt he here... ...?
......mata
morning.... i was rushing for work.. but suddenly i paused. stop at my step.. cos i saw.. ..my brown bag.. .. reminded me of how sam that time fixed the zip for me.. me given up already.. but he.. ...fixed it... place my bag on the counter.. and totally really fixed it for me..
... im so touched... he never give up..
my childhood fren.. haiz.. i hope she'll be alrite... she looks fins.. but i know its a serious matter to be dealed with.... we sang for abit. .me sang a few songs only. very little.. i hope she's more relax now.. she asked me to go back her home.. chat2.. stayover.. but.. me cant. gotta collect my passport for tmr usage.. plus wanna online badly.. he's waiting.. for so long.. im so.. touched yet again.. though he's gone by the time im back..
abit.. ..hm.... ..not used to haning around chinese fellows.. cos alot of my frens are malays.. so.. yeah.. me became very quiet.. but ok.. at least 3 person theres i know.
her cousin newly known bf..(yes she change2) is staying over at her place tonight.. he's also abit half arab chinese.. a instructor for gun shooting in police force.. so seeing them together.. its like.. ... yeah.. he really reminded me so much of sammy..
theres a cab fight outside.. im disgusted by it.. i hate dispute. but i kow.. those ppl were drunk. still i hated it.
...i dunno... ... sam's frens like always mentioning to go drink out there... i dun feel comfortable.. but.. if tats what he wanna do.. i cant really stop him. but im so worried and insecure. i just don feel comfortable at all... cos the ppl there are like.. .......... yeah.. ..
this guy there.. heard he got a f of long years. heard she's a slut. dump him for 4 times. yet he's still in love with her.. why....... .... how come guys are so.. faithful when u least expect it....
another.. finaly gonna be joining his gf in other country.. long disance relationship.. so yup.. happy for him.. though i heard.. he admitted yes he did get the thoughts of being unfaithful.. but in the end always never...
he's a very protective guy.. to all girls. haha. i can tell. love to act cool.. yet so.. faithlful somehow.. kinda.. but yeah.. he managed to stay that way... :)
sigh......................
oh at one point.. i was actually really cold throughout the way.. then i was fine.. till my fren suddenly hug me.. and she's sooo warm.. and.. i cried.. i was fine really.. din wanna think lots. but yeah.. cry a tiny3 bit only k. ha.
...tonight.. so much advices i got from ppl.. ..i....
i got so much to say to sammy now. i wish sammy online now.. but.. .too late...
ne.......... ...tmr how?................. ............
i feel so so lost..
i feel like.....
................
will... .....do separate ways huh..
i miss...............
...
why isnt he here... ...?
......mata
27 August 2009
What A Weird Night Of Sleep...
ne..friendster blog revealed alot last night.. cos.. something happened.. check it out if ya like..
omg.. i did not sleep well at all... especially the last 2 hrs before i was to wake up. wow.. i keep waking up.. then the last hour.. omg.. worse.. about 6 or more times i woke up.. and keep having same dreams. its sam. over in msn saying very sweet things.. i was happy and relieved.. it repeated and repeated each time after i fall aslp again. same dream. same scene.. msn thing.. sam.. all there.. short2 seconds.. but yet. .that last hour really5 seems to me like 3hrs.. thats why today extra sleepy..
cant wait to slp now.. ha..
tmr.. finally my last fullshift of the month.. cant wait to get it over with.. ..then sat.. gotta buy tickets.. nervous.. cos my first time.. so.. yeah... hope things will go well huh.
today sales good. .no need to fret about it.. tmr friday.. .. o well... see how things go then...
-why so quiet..-
mata
omg.. i did not sleep well at all... especially the last 2 hrs before i was to wake up. wow.. i keep waking up.. then the last hour.. omg.. worse.. about 6 or more times i woke up.. and keep having same dreams. its sam. over in msn saying very sweet things.. i was happy and relieved.. it repeated and repeated each time after i fall aslp again. same dream. same scene.. msn thing.. sam.. all there.. short2 seconds.. but yet. .that last hour really5 seems to me like 3hrs.. thats why today extra sleepy..
cant wait to slp now.. ha..
tmr.. finally my last fullshift of the month.. cant wait to get it over with.. ..then sat.. gotta buy tickets.. nervous.. cos my first time.. so.. yeah... hope things will go well huh.
today sales good. .no need to fret about it.. tmr friday.. .. o well... see how things go then...
-why so quiet..-
mata
26 August 2009
Nice White
OMG im so tired... :( 2nd day.. 2 more to go.. i was like.. carrying my backpack.. so heavy.. its weighing me down.. haiz.. really so tired... gotta hang on lots....
today... received a bad news.. sigh... so many questions.. ... ... sigh. .i dunno.. me just feel sad.. like.. me easily absord other ppl's negative feelings.. it kinda leaves me shaken abit after that.. but im alrite.. ...just.. oh dear.. ..its in my mind.. she's a nice person.. erm.. talk alot.. only abit don like when she cant keep to her words.. but that aside,.. me just feel.. haiz.. ..me.. dunno.. ..dunno what to say.. just wonder.. .. ... ...
ne... isnt it so nice.. to get someone's assurance at night.. ^^ always remind me.. 'remember k.. i will always.. and.. only you.. no one.. but.. ...' its like wow.. ..its locking the heart ne.. pulling it closer..
and closer..
and always get closer..
its afew lines like this.. which gives me so much energy.. and lights. oh yes.. lights..
3 months to go... 2 months gonna be so tough. perhaps.. ..october me take leave? nah.. think get money better.. even for abit.. yup....
its fasting month time.. hari raya is coming.. me walked past those malay traditional baju.. erm. .kurong or sumtin.. XD dunno.. anyway yup.. those new year clothes for them. me just love the white one.. with the corset inside// look so.. wow.. like a wedding dress. :) so lovely.. but.. me never get a chance to try it out. ha.. then my frens were like. .walked past too. .and tell me. hey u should get this.. that.. i was like.. what? XD! im working on hari raya! hahah... where got chance to wear.. haiyo.. too bad. its interesting eh? try it for once good enuff ne? :) but. .well, we shall see if thats ever gonna happen. haha. ui was telling them. .yeah.. where am i supposed to wear? at work? wait all customers keep asking me if im muslim ar.. lol. omg.. imagine me wear that in shop.. XD wow.. happening sia. hahaha :)
ok.. think my energy is back alittle.. just a tiny bit..
everytime sales in that centre.. so worrying.. haiz.
stressful. hm.. my fren who quitted,.. finally found a new job.. but.. either work is tough, long hours, or pay is very low.
this job is actually quite fine had it not been for our bosses.. management.. and.. yeah.. o well...
gosh.. raz is so.. generous. super duper one i tell u. he's like treating everyone.. like.. dunno.. he's so.. haha... like don mind at all..
ok.. tmr 3rd full.. ... hang on pauline.. hang on..
hm. .sat is coming. .dunno how will it turn out. .will i be getting the tickets there?... ..oh my.. like so.. 'near'.. getting there all of a sudden.. ..
its already a month.. ..since. .one down.. more to go.. ..will wait.. ..
..i thought i'd listen enuff.. but.. .. din think.. one word would.. was typing away happily.. then.. me really shouldnt.. just a line.. make him mad.. i think he's really frustrated.. dunno how he looked just now... must be no smile on his face..
msn.. really cant.. express alot huh.. of how i feel,,,, or the way i talk..
.. :(
mata
- am i that useless to...-
today... received a bad news.. sigh... so many questions.. ... ... sigh. .i dunno.. me just feel sad.. like.. me easily absord other ppl's negative feelings.. it kinda leaves me shaken abit after that.. but im alrite.. ...just.. oh dear.. ..its in my mind.. she's a nice person.. erm.. talk alot.. only abit don like when she cant keep to her words.. but that aside,.. me just feel.. haiz.. ..me.. dunno.. ..dunno what to say.. just wonder.. .. ... ...
ne... isnt it so nice.. to get someone's assurance at night.. ^^ always remind me.. 'remember k.. i will always.. and.. only you.. no one.. but.. ...' its like wow.. ..its locking the heart ne.. pulling it closer..
and closer..
and always get closer..
its afew lines like this.. which gives me so much energy.. and lights. oh yes.. lights..
3 months to go... 2 months gonna be so tough. perhaps.. ..october me take leave? nah.. think get money better.. even for abit.. yup....
its fasting month time.. hari raya is coming.. me walked past those malay traditional baju.. erm. .kurong or sumtin.. XD dunno.. anyway yup.. those new year clothes for them. me just love the white one.. with the corset inside// look so.. wow.. like a wedding dress. :) so lovely.. but.. me never get a chance to try it out. ha.. then my frens were like. .walked past too. .and tell me. hey u should get this.. that.. i was like.. what? XD! im working on hari raya! hahah... where got chance to wear.. haiyo.. too bad. its interesting eh? try it for once good enuff ne? :) but. .well, we shall see if thats ever gonna happen. haha. ui was telling them. .yeah.. where am i supposed to wear? at work? wait all customers keep asking me if im muslim ar.. lol. omg.. imagine me wear that in shop.. XD wow.. happening sia. hahaha :)
ok.. think my energy is back alittle.. just a tiny bit..
everytime sales in that centre.. so worrying.. haiz.
stressful. hm.. my fren who quitted,.. finally found a new job.. but.. either work is tough, long hours, or pay is very low.
this job is actually quite fine had it not been for our bosses.. management.. and.. yeah.. o well...
gosh.. raz is so.. generous. super duper one i tell u. he's like treating everyone.. like.. dunno.. he's so.. haha... like don mind at all..
ok.. tmr 3rd full.. ... hang on pauline.. hang on..
hm. .sat is coming. .dunno how will it turn out. .will i be getting the tickets there?... ..oh my.. like so.. 'near'.. getting there all of a sudden.. ..
its already a month.. ..since. .one down.. more to go.. ..will wait.. ..
..i thought i'd listen enuff.. but.. .. din think.. one word would.. was typing away happily.. then.. me really shouldnt.. just a line.. make him mad.. i think he's really frustrated.. dunno how he looked just now... must be no smile on his face..
msn.. really cant.. express alot huh.. of how i feel,,,, or the way i talk..
.. :(
mata
- am i that useless to...-
25 August 2009
3 Months To end
i was thisssssssssssssss close to apply leave for next month.. but then.. i throw away the paper.. .. afew reasons as in why i did that.. but yeah. .sure its gonna get the life outta me.. :( today my first fullshift.. already tired like what. then i realised.. alot of of myfrens also. same reasons. especially thhe legs part. XD
omg. .tmr.. how am i gonna.. huu.. will do my best.. ..no other choice.. so.. .yup. feel like dying already from workXD
i wonder what happen to my childhood fren.. like.. got so much problems.. huu.. wish me can be of some help.. guess.. me waiting to lend a listening ear.
phone..... new phone coming out... and soon will be notified. ^^ cant wiat to see how it looks like. hm.... sliver look nice.. reed.. me always like red phone.. but.. somehow compared to sliver,.. hm... abit dark.. .. well, we shall see then. how in actual look its gonna be like.
today.. dunno why.. something wrong with the aircon?? i was freezing!! tmr sure again at that centre-_- argh.. me now also.. cold..
cant wait to rest and end my day...
next month.. 3 weeks of hell gonna begin.. ...sigh. alot of ppl have no wish to stay in this company any longer. i cant wait to celebrate once this is over.
body.. huu.. feeling so.. ..o well......
no choice but to hang on.. 3 months to go.. :(
mata
omg. .tmr.. how am i gonna.. huu.. will do my best.. ..no other choice.. so.. .yup. feel like dying already from workXD
i wonder what happen to my childhood fren.. like.. got so much problems.. huu.. wish me can be of some help.. guess.. me waiting to lend a listening ear.
phone..... new phone coming out... and soon will be notified. ^^ cant wiat to see how it looks like. hm.... sliver look nice.. reed.. me always like red phone.. but.. somehow compared to sliver,.. hm... abit dark.. .. well, we shall see then. how in actual look its gonna be like.
today.. dunno why.. something wrong with the aircon?? i was freezing!! tmr sure again at that centre-_- argh.. me now also.. cold..
cant wait to rest and end my day...
next month.. 3 weeks of hell gonna begin.. ...sigh. alot of ppl have no wish to stay in this company any longer. i cant wait to celebrate once this is over.
body.. huu.. feeling so.. ..o well......
no choice but to hang on.. 3 months to go.. :(
mata
24 August 2009
Weak~~
feeling weak now.. much3 better.. i guess.. .. still.. abit confused.. but. .yeah.. still stress.. but.. yeah..
i hope.. syahiir can come back to help out.. .. ... oh.. my left hand got this cute tattoo now. its given to me by sam before he's gone. free from 7-11. hehe. kawaii cute little bunny.. ^^ will take pic bah..
hm. so.. after taking med.. ..feel like slping already.. glad sam slping early tonight.. me wanna do that too.. its a great time to mc huh?.. but.. well.. as usual bah.. just go work. not like im gonna faint yet.
ah.... wish someone can massage my shoulders for me now..
wow.. was sooo ohappy when i heard that sam say maybe next year he also coming back to singapore. so.. well... praying hard.... it beats better than the lastest 2 yrs time he said.
im feeling so weak now.. just wanan slp and rest...
oh.. ytd.. omg. .was struggling. about whether wanna get donuts anot.. ha. then cant resist.. and bought it. yup.. out of budget.. huu. hope my prepaid card can last for awhile.. before i get my pay..
gosh. weak ne.. huu....
ne.... sam.. can actually fall aslp while thinking of me.. halfway through msn. he must be super tired huh.. ha.. interesting guy.. :) always so.. ..aww.... ^^
not feeling tired.. but weak.. hope tmr me get well ne..
mata
i hope.. syahiir can come back to help out.. .. ... oh.. my left hand got this cute tattoo now. its given to me by sam before he's gone. free from 7-11. hehe. kawaii cute little bunny.. ^^ will take pic bah..
hm. so.. after taking med.. ..feel like slping already.. glad sam slping early tonight.. me wanna do that too.. its a great time to mc huh?.. but.. well.. as usual bah.. just go work. not like im gonna faint yet.
ah.... wish someone can massage my shoulders for me now..
wow.. was sooo ohappy when i heard that sam say maybe next year he also coming back to singapore. so.. well... praying hard.... it beats better than the lastest 2 yrs time he said.
im feeling so weak now.. just wanan slp and rest...
oh.. ytd.. omg. .was struggling. about whether wanna get donuts anot.. ha. then cant resist.. and bought it. yup.. out of budget.. huu. hope my prepaid card can last for awhile.. before i get my pay..
gosh. weak ne.. huu....
ne.... sam.. can actually fall aslp while thinking of me.. halfway through msn. he must be super tired huh.. ha.. interesting guy.. :) always so.. ..aww.... ^^
not feeling tired.. but weak.. hope tmr me get well ne..
mata
Cleaning.. Very Free Day
yes.. finally got this chance to clean up my room....... ... today my off day.. never cook..
cleaning up soft toys area now.. .. listening to the cd he gib me.. .. just reminded me.. the very first soft toy he gave me.. a musical pooh bear.. i was holding it to my ear.. resting my head against it.. listening to the melody.. he commented to me.. 'so cute!'.. yes.. thats my first.. my very first soft toy he gib me.. by the catching toy machine...
.... im working hard.. dunno how things are gonna be like in the future.. but i know i gotta work hard.. its gonna be very3 tough u know.. gonna hang on. .cos i got my sammy piller with me. gonna hold on tight.. it svery stressful i know.. but there's someone waititng there for me. and i.. i got a few years to hit.. and.. ..and.. .. no matter what happen.. i'll always remember.. so.. i got these memories to oull me through.. dunno how its gonna work.. but. im striving me best.. and.. yes.. .. i shall see..
oh. hahahaa... song is playing 'one in a million' now.. nice song huh.. 'you're one in a million.. once in a lifetime....' erm.. anyway... hm.. ehh.. XD omg. .forgot what i wanna say.. ..
hm.. today very stress.. not just work.. some stuffs. are diffcult to figure out.. like i'd said.. if me find ppl to talk with.. i dunno. im alwasy scared.. they'll ignore me.. and just gib me a lame advice.. .. theres sammy though.. but.. ..i wish sammy's here..
life's gotten real tough without sammy.. with sammy ard.. life's always full of laughters everyday.. basically can see me smile always.. its totally different when me smile or laugh with my frens..
ne....................... ...........im hanging on ne... kurushii desu.. demo.. ...demo.... sammy chan wa.. watakushi wa kare to issho ni imashita.. zutto desu.. but now.. ...
'let it start from where it took off..'
...
...perhaps i might blog again. ...cos me now stress... thats why blog now..
..do u think he finds me a nuisance?.. ..:(
i wanna be by his side forever.. u know who that is?.. do u know what i mean? and whats my determination like?..
im giving my best to keep my promise alive.
me wakey so early today.. 8.30am.. omg. dunno why.. just cant slp back.. if theres sammy ard, sure can slp till late aftnoon i assured u.
i need so much strength right now.. till me tot my piller cant gib me enuff.. but then again.. thats where i get all my hopes and future from.. sure will work out. so.. next year.. ..
u know... ...theres alot fo things.. i know... i may seem blur.. and naive. but. .i know. i know alot. hardships.. future.. life.. death.. its either life or death for me. life thats alot to work hard for. death, its nothing but death. life... uncertainties.. but.. alot of lvoe waiting.. why give up? no reason to.
i know alot.. but becos of my blurness, alot of ppl often take me for.. u know.. someone whos super naive.. but... i know.. i'll let ppl say that of me if only im those typical girls out there. but im not. .. im not born with a golden spoon there.. my mum's great.. but theres only one person thats important in my Life. ..
beach.. sentosa.. fetching me from work.. buying breakfast.. eating together. .those lovey fries.. who can forget huh... ...
sorry.. when im stress, i tend to reveal alot... ...
and so.. ..........................
............
well.. .. this is my off day..
waititng for samy to reach home now..
why is the best thing life.. always so difficult to acheive... becos.. 'they' wanna see if we deserve it?.. ..
*shout...........................
i will feel better..... .. ..desu ne.. .
tot of paying dota whole aftnoon. but.. still abit of cleaing to do..
jaa..
mate ne.
- what is our purpose in life? there's a reason for your existence. he asked. she replied.. she was born to be together with him..-
cleaning up soft toys area now.. .. listening to the cd he gib me.. .. just reminded me.. the very first soft toy he gave me.. a musical pooh bear.. i was holding it to my ear.. resting my head against it.. listening to the melody.. he commented to me.. 'so cute!'.. yes.. thats my first.. my very first soft toy he gib me.. by the catching toy machine...
.... im working hard.. dunno how things are gonna be like in the future.. but i know i gotta work hard.. its gonna be very3 tough u know.. gonna hang on. .cos i got my sammy piller with me. gonna hold on tight.. it svery stressful i know.. but there's someone waititng there for me. and i.. i got a few years to hit.. and.. ..and.. .. no matter what happen.. i'll always remember.. so.. i got these memories to oull me through.. dunno how its gonna work.. but. im striving me best.. and.. yes.. .. i shall see..
oh. hahahaa... song is playing 'one in a million' now.. nice song huh.. 'you're one in a million.. once in a lifetime....' erm.. anyway... hm.. ehh.. XD omg. .forgot what i wanna say.. ..
hm.. today very stress.. not just work.. some stuffs. are diffcult to figure out.. like i'd said.. if me find ppl to talk with.. i dunno. im alwasy scared.. they'll ignore me.. and just gib me a lame advice.. .. theres sammy though.. but.. ..i wish sammy's here..
life's gotten real tough without sammy.. with sammy ard.. life's always full of laughters everyday.. basically can see me smile always.. its totally different when me smile or laugh with my frens..
ne....................... ...........im hanging on ne... kurushii desu.. demo.. ...demo.... sammy chan wa.. watakushi wa kare to issho ni imashita.. zutto desu.. but now.. ...
'let it start from where it took off..'
...
...perhaps i might blog again. ...cos me now stress... thats why blog now..
..do u think he finds me a nuisance?.. ..:(
i wanna be by his side forever.. u know who that is?.. do u know what i mean? and whats my determination like?..
im giving my best to keep my promise alive.
me wakey so early today.. 8.30am.. omg. dunno why.. just cant slp back.. if theres sammy ard, sure can slp till late aftnoon i assured u.
i need so much strength right now.. till me tot my piller cant gib me enuff.. but then again.. thats where i get all my hopes and future from.. sure will work out. so.. next year.. ..
u know... ...theres alot fo things.. i know... i may seem blur.. and naive. but. .i know. i know alot. hardships.. future.. life.. death.. its either life or death for me. life thats alot to work hard for. death, its nothing but death. life... uncertainties.. but.. alot of lvoe waiting.. why give up? no reason to.
i know alot.. but becos of my blurness, alot of ppl often take me for.. u know.. someone whos super naive.. but... i know.. i'll let ppl say that of me if only im those typical girls out there. but im not. .. im not born with a golden spoon there.. my mum's great.. but theres only one person thats important in my Life. ..
beach.. sentosa.. fetching me from work.. buying breakfast.. eating together. .those lovey fries.. who can forget huh... ...
sorry.. when im stress, i tend to reveal alot... ...
and so.. ..........................
............
well.. .. this is my off day..
waititng for samy to reach home now..
why is the best thing life.. always so difficult to acheive... becos.. 'they' wanna see if we deserve it?.. ..
*shout...........................
i will feel better..... .. ..desu ne.. .
tot of paying dota whole aftnoon. but.. still abit of cleaing to do..
jaa..
mate ne.
- what is our purpose in life? there's a reason for your existence. he asked. she replied.. she was born to be together with him..-
23 August 2009
Can't Stand Any Longer
oh god.. im so freaking itred... freaking9 tired.... sigh......... :( not in a good mood now. cos too tired. and when my mind is erupted, any little thing can pissed me off. and i mean it. when im too tired, i ant think. and thats when i cant understand what ppl is thinking .thus causing me to go mad. and right now im pissed off. about what? argh. forget it. not worth mentioning it. i might regret.
my legs.. shoot.. cant explain how terrible it is.. i cant stand any longer. yes.. thats how terrible it is. i cant even stand long without sitting,. i cant tahan no more.
thank goodness tmr my off day. otherwise.. omg... i cant imagine how im gonna stand..
:( im so tired for this month i swear..
next month.. .. nah.. don think me taking leave.. rather want them pay me for it.. then get money..
hm.. every other day i still shed my tears..whenever i thought of........
..u know something?.. i watched this show.. this man in the show once said.. 'do you know when does a woman look her best and Most Naturally BEAUTIFUL?'' 'its during the morning whne she just woke up.. WITHOUT any make up on of course.' i wonder if thats true huh.. well.. onnly the men will know eh?
mata
-don make me feel like games are more important than living beings-
my legs.. shoot.. cant explain how terrible it is.. i cant stand any longer. yes.. thats how terrible it is. i cant even stand long without sitting,. i cant tahan no more.
thank goodness tmr my off day. otherwise.. omg... i cant imagine how im gonna stand..
:( im so tired for this month i swear..
next month.. .. nah.. don think me taking leave.. rather want them pay me for it.. then get money..
hm.. every other day i still shed my tears..whenever i thought of........
..u know something?.. i watched this show.. this man in the show once said.. 'do you know when does a woman look her best and Most Naturally BEAUTIFUL?'' 'its during the morning whne she just woke up.. WITHOUT any make up on of course.' i wonder if thats true huh.. well.. onnly the men will know eh?
mata
-don make me feel like games are more important than living beings-
22 August 2009
TIRED!!!!!
omg.... sooo tired. even though today supposed to start work in late aftnoon, me auto wakey at 9.30am sumtin -_- now freaking tired. worse than ytd. so happy monday me off. cos tot i fullshift again. hm.. wodner if after mon. .they're gonna do anything about it not.. about my 4 straight fullshifts. sigh... tmr huh.. one day to go.. ..
hm... tmr.. sianz... long story dun wanna explain. ha. guess i wont be bored alone.
erm... hm.... today sales great.. ..hm....
time passed rather fast.. cos online.. ha.
sooo super glad this morning not me working... heard mansoor got slammed by hahn.. omg. he just lvoe to vent his anger on ppl eh? if me work morning,. .geez.. dunno what to do man.. so scary..
kk.. think me wanna rest asap. but so hungry... first and only meal is at 2pm.
hm... tmr.. sianz... long story dun wanna explain. ha. guess i wont be bored alone.
erm... hm.... today sales great.. ..hm....
time passed rather fast.. cos online.. ha.
sooo super glad this morning not me working... heard mansoor got slammed by hahn.. omg. he just lvoe to vent his anger on ppl eh? if me work morning,. .geez.. dunno what to do man.. so scary..
kk.. think me wanna rest asap. but so hungry... first and only meal is at 2pm.
21 August 2009
Norman Noman...
good things deosnt come easy u know.. you don own the best unless through much difficulties.. ..i know whats the best.. .. but yet.. .. wow..
today theres a new staff. name is norman(for short). =.= omg.. he's a very loquacious guy. somewhat like soul. but him,.. goodness gracious.. he can talk to me 25mins non stop. me having difficulty trying to say something. no chance for me to talk XD. yeah.. he was talking all the way.. so random.. and.. omg.. ok.. not abd. .at least betetr than to work with someone who doesnt talk at all right? so.. yup.. ..hm.. think.. he can work well.. ..
huu.. sammy.. got chicken pok.. haiyo.. so poor thing... hope will be alrite soon... dunno isit becos not enuff rest, or.. the sudden change of enviroment. :( anyway.. please get well soon....
mata..
- I dont care no one else but..... -
today theres a new staff. name is norman(for short). =.= omg.. he's a very loquacious guy. somewhat like soul. but him,.. goodness gracious.. he can talk to me 25mins non stop. me having difficulty trying to say something. no chance for me to talk XD. yeah.. he was talking all the way.. so random.. and.. omg.. ok.. not abd. .at least betetr than to work with someone who doesnt talk at all right? so.. yup.. ..hm.. think.. he can work well.. ..
huu.. sammy.. got chicken pok.. haiyo.. so poor thing... hope will be alrite soon... dunno isit becos not enuff rest, or.. the sudden change of enviroment. :( anyway.. please get well soon....
mata..
- I dont care no one else but..... -
20 August 2009
Photo Scenery
i am soooooooooooooo tired.... .-_-
hm.. today sales great. hit 1 k before i go. so. .yup. great. hm...
today took alot of pics.. went out with redz after work .cos he got nothign to do.. and wanna meet bro for dinner. so.. we walk ard ion for abit.. bought dunkin donuts.. the service sucks.... the girl's like serving redz.. saying. .then what? what else.. in a very rude way. wow. .i feel like me and izuan, raz..everyone, we're like so good..our sales. XD haha.. we assits them(customers) well. wee... :) so proud haha. oh that staff is a very2 typical malay girl. she heard him i think. when he say her service suckssss.
hm.. eat with bro.. at this thai place.. small place.. .hm.. okok the food. but very spicy. ha. then.. ..walked past.. saw this tall man.. look abit like sam.. me turned my head twice..just to confirm.. but silly me. .of course he aint here.. .. ..but.. he's abit taller than sam.. ..aint him.. but.. ..me.. ...missed sam's back.. .. sigh..... i cant tell u all.. how much my heart wishes so badly to be end of nov now.. redz say time passes very fast..(i was telling him about how last year blah3... feels like 6months ago) but.. its like months to go.. just gotta hang on..
but yes though.. see.. .. now aug is coming to an end.. sep,..then oct. .when oct end is here.. ..i shall tender.. ....
ha.. today controlled myself.. never buy anythign except food. so wanna buy. .then nvm. .keep thinking of my promise ..to buy nothing till pay comes. except for food.
hm.. kk.. gtg... ... haiz... wrong timing go out today.. why like that ne.. ..:(
mata
hm.. today sales great. hit 1 k before i go. so. .yup. great. hm...
today took alot of pics.. went out with redz after work .cos he got nothign to do.. and wanna meet bro for dinner. so.. we walk ard ion for abit.. bought dunkin donuts.. the service sucks.... the girl's like serving redz.. saying. .then what? what else.. in a very rude way. wow. .i feel like me and izuan, raz..everyone, we're like so good..our sales. XD haha.. we assits them(customers) well. wee... :) so proud haha. oh that staff is a very2 typical malay girl. she heard him i think. when he say her service suckssss.
hm.. eat with bro.. at this thai place.. small place.. .hm.. okok the food. but very spicy. ha. then.. ..walked past.. saw this tall man.. look abit like sam.. me turned my head twice..just to confirm.. but silly me. .of course he aint here.. .. ..but.. he's abit taller than sam.. ..aint him.. but.. ..me.. ...missed sam's back.. .. sigh..... i cant tell u all.. how much my heart wishes so badly to be end of nov now.. redz say time passes very fast..(i was telling him about how last year blah3... feels like 6months ago) but.. its like months to go.. just gotta hang on..
but yes though.. see.. .. now aug is coming to an end.. sep,..then oct. .when oct end is here.. ..i shall tender.. ....
ha.. today controlled myself.. never buy anythign except food. so wanna buy. .then nvm. .keep thinking of my promise ..to buy nothing till pay comes. except for food.
hm.. kk.. gtg... ... haiz... wrong timing go out today.. why like that ne.. ..:(
mata
19 August 2009
Stranger
this morning my dad called me. saying he's worried cos theres a person called him in the morning asking for me. addressing me in my chinese name. dad worried sumtin happen to me. he tot is my colleague. the Only person who'll address me by my chinese name, is my childhood fren. yup. the only person. so cant be cos my childhood fren got my number. what for that person ask for my number?? but.. i dunno.. i received a witheld call soon after my dad. ..and it rang for a few secs, and went dead. therefore i do not know if.. .. hm... nah.... wonder how those ppl got my chinese name and house number -_- argh.. freaky. is sumone stalking me? lol. hahaha nah.
ehh... i tot... its supposed to be another guy coming to work with. .thehn me heard the name changed. -_- to a guy name norman. i was like. .harvey norman??XD haha. cos.. seldom u'll get a staff name like that. unbless he's a foreigner. well anyway, whoever it is, me just wish that they;ll learn fast, and let me go home on time not missing my bus.
if you found a priceless needle in the sea, wouldn't u be keeping it tight? holding it dear to your heart.. i know i will.. for any stuff as hard(difficult) to find as such,i wanna keep it with me forever. wouldn't you treasure it too?
..i was erm... ..taking out my wallet. ..then.. sumtin drop out.. it was a piece of paper.. tehn i found another.. ..and i realised.. ....it was the receipts sam handed them to me when we went out with redz and bro that morning.. .. we shopped at levis..then.. yeah. .he bought a watch and belt.. and yeah. .those memmories instantly triggered back.. .and.. .. i felt my tears coming out.. .. that was.. . a week before he left.. and. ...i was enjoying so much with him as always.. one of the last date..shopping..Together. ..Together.. ... i missed that so much.. his happy face.. the smile on his face whenever he's with me. .he's always so happy.. so..relax.. i love to go out with him.. he's simply really the best. always makes my day.. ...
gosh.. .. now2... no crying garnet.. ...
mata....
ehh... i tot... its supposed to be another guy coming to work with. .thehn me heard the name changed. -_- to a guy name norman. i was like. .harvey norman??XD haha. cos.. seldom u'll get a staff name like that. unbless he's a foreigner. well anyway, whoever it is, me just wish that they;ll learn fast, and let me go home on time not missing my bus.
if you found a priceless needle in the sea, wouldn't u be keeping it tight? holding it dear to your heart.. i know i will.. for any stuff as hard(difficult) to find as such,i wanna keep it with me forever. wouldn't you treasure it too?
..i was erm... ..taking out my wallet. ..then.. sumtin drop out.. it was a piece of paper.. tehn i found another.. ..and i realised.. ....it was the receipts sam handed them to me when we went out with redz and bro that morning.. .. we shopped at levis..then.. yeah. .he bought a watch and belt.. and yeah. .those memmories instantly triggered back.. .and.. .. i felt my tears coming out.. .. that was.. . a week before he left.. and. ...i was enjoying so much with him as always.. one of the last date..shopping..Together. ..Together.. ... i missed that so much.. his happy face.. the smile on his face whenever he's with me. .he's always so happy.. so..relax.. i love to go out with him.. he's simply really the best. always makes my day.. ...
gosh.. .. now2... no crying garnet.. ...
mata....
18 August 2009
Man From AIA
besides safty, one of thing thing i think is best of singapore,.. is the weatherXDlol. dunno why.. but yeah.. hahaha... we as singaporeans, should be proud of that huh. XD no nid to suffer so much. hahaha. but.. would still lvoe to experince snow!XD lol
there are so many foreigners in singapore now. really2 alot workng here. omg. within years, im sure singapore's gonna becum another australia, canada.. u know.. like. .wow. haha. oh well... but its interesting. nice to have them ard though. talkign to customers of them are the best. love it. though.. when mean,. .ha.. oh dear.. they are ruthless.. -_- rude and totally.. argh. .arrogant. but well, all kidns o ppl ard. ne? hehe.
erm... lets see... ... just now. near closing,.. theres this man. .smile agt me, i smile back, he's still looking. .then ask me afew questions about toys.. then say he wanna hire me for a concultant. but i declined. see no point in working in a line or sumtin me dislike. wihtout any interest i mean. so. ... oh well.. .... now i know why he ask me those questions.
hmm... ... i dunno man. .something puts me down. .. i think i know what is.. .but.. ... hm... ... oh well.. lets hope tmr will be a better day huh.
me left arm still hurts. but willl be fine in no time. ne?
yes.. 10 days to go.. before me can loosen my budget again..
mata
there are so many foreigners in singapore now. really2 alot workng here. omg. within years, im sure singapore's gonna becum another australia, canada.. u know.. like. .wow. haha. oh well... but its interesting. nice to have them ard though. talkign to customers of them are the best. love it. though.. when mean,. .ha.. oh dear.. they are ruthless.. -_- rude and totally.. argh. .arrogant. but well, all kidns o ppl ard. ne? hehe.
erm... lets see... ... just now. near closing,.. theres this man. .smile agt me, i smile back, he's still looking. .then ask me afew questions about toys.. then say he wanna hire me for a concultant. but i declined. see no point in working in a line or sumtin me dislike. wihtout any interest i mean. so. ... oh well.. .... now i know why he ask me those questions.
hmm... ... i dunno man. .something puts me down. .. i think i know what is.. .but.. ... hm... ... oh well.. lets hope tmr will be a better day huh.
me left arm still hurts. but willl be fine in no time. ne?
yes.. 10 days to go.. before me can loosen my budget again..
mata
17 August 2009
Going Out Sucks now
hm.. today.. went to jp.. even though very2 tired.. but.. think its better for me to go out. .and bring mum out for a wlak. .ever since dad went back to work, she's all alone at home from aftnoon till night.. :( me know how boring that is.. oh my.. but anyway, glad my dad's doing alrite now.. i hope its gonna last.. he told me last night.. wow. .its so nice to work.. then reach home,.. haiz.. haha.. then me ask him hurry go bath and slp.. yeah.. at home.. quiet abit.. nothing much to do.. hm..
oh!! bought a cinnamoroll touch screen pen!! :D gonna use it after a year or so though.. huu.. but nvm. can wait. hahaha. cos me thinking.. it can be use for the future touch screen cybershot phone. so.. yup. bought it. so cute^^. and ope will get to use it ne. hehe:) cant wait.
hmm.... bought afew useful stuffs.. money is so 'small'.. ..oh! then after went jp, we head to town for a short while. so slpy now.. wish can slp..
missing him so much ne.. .. huu... extra2 lots.. especially inside the train.. omg.. so many u know who they are.. omg... huuuuuu
hmm.... me not so happy now.. when going out.. haiz... and me back to jp today.. cant belive.. its been months since i last picked him up from there.. it felt.. so.. unexplainable.. like.. he's just right there.. and he wont be anymore for the coming monthssss to come. heart hurts when the thoughts stands there.. but cant help it.. cant stop thinking too much. .trying my best to though.. but difficult.. well.. bright side is.. its keeping my memories fresh.. and thats what i;d like to have it. .. so.. ..yeah.... off day.. went out. .no one pick me up.. no one slpy in my room,. comfy with.. talk with.. laugh with.. then go out.. not just anyone u know.. so me went out.. it feels a total different day.. it aint that colourful anymore. and.. yeah... sucks.. ...haiz
i miss the sholder to let my head rest on.. in train.. in bus.. today me sat down on the chair.. feeling slpy,, yet did not really slp.. no one for to place my head on.. that hurts.. but good thing me never imagine he's there. .otherwise me sure would put my head to one side, and fall aslp. omg..
hm.. basically its a long day for me. .jus wanna bring mum out to enjoy.. and.. yeah.. .. ..hm.. i just doesnt like going out that much anymore.. especially alone. i think.. ..
smmy ar.. .... one action, one smile.. one dunno what.. always brings my smile back... just.. keep my mind away from the dark.. thats how i feel..
o well... muakz!!
mata ne!
oh!! bought a cinnamoroll touch screen pen!! :D gonna use it after a year or so though.. huu.. but nvm. can wait. hahaha. cos me thinking.. it can be use for the future touch screen cybershot phone. so.. yup. bought it. so cute^^. and ope will get to use it ne. hehe:) cant wait.
hmm.... bought afew useful stuffs.. money is so 'small'.. ..oh! then after went jp, we head to town for a short while. so slpy now.. wish can slp..
missing him so much ne.. .. huu... extra2 lots.. especially inside the train.. omg.. so many u know who they are.. omg... huuuuuu
hmm.... me not so happy now.. when going out.. haiz... and me back to jp today.. cant belive.. its been months since i last picked him up from there.. it felt.. so.. unexplainable.. like.. he's just right there.. and he wont be anymore for the coming monthssss to come. heart hurts when the thoughts stands there.. but cant help it.. cant stop thinking too much. .trying my best to though.. but difficult.. well.. bright side is.. its keeping my memories fresh.. and thats what i;d like to have it. .. so.. ..yeah.... off day.. went out. .no one pick me up.. no one slpy in my room,. comfy with.. talk with.. laugh with.. then go out.. not just anyone u know.. so me went out.. it feels a total different day.. it aint that colourful anymore. and.. yeah... sucks.. ...haiz
i miss the sholder to let my head rest on.. in train.. in bus.. today me sat down on the chair.. feeling slpy,, yet did not really slp.. no one for to place my head on.. that hurts.. but good thing me never imagine he's there. .otherwise me sure would put my head to one side, and fall aslp. omg..
hm.. basically its a long day for me. .jus wanna bring mum out to enjoy.. and.. yeah.. .. ..hm.. i just doesnt like going out that much anymore.. especially alone. i think.. ..
smmy ar.. .... one action, one smile.. one dunno what.. always brings my smile back... just.. keep my mind away from the dark.. thats how i feel..
o well... muakz!!
mata ne!
16 August 2009
Can't Lift My Arm
my arms.. omg.. muscle strain i think.. left arm cant lift up now.. huu.. what to do.. o well... but lucky its fast. .but alot of kg.. tehn they just tie a string, and me carry al the way from suntec to MW. the strigns are cutting through my fingers on both hands.. me don blame zuan.. he say he dun wanna go. so me no choice go alone .carry those last day toy fair stocks. left arm. .maybe by tmr should be fine.
saw chan at the fair clearing up just now. but din get to talk to him. this aftnoon we're talking about some matters.. erm. .his personal probs.. then he say 'wah.. u very good ar.. u very faithful'. im like. .omg. don praise me like that. me stil aint getting too use to that..
me just hope his probs will be over soon.. real over..
hate msn.. ytd after movie done, me msg, sammy say never receive.. haiz.. so irritating. .-_-stupid net. problematic.. keep mw waiting in vain. argh! but its great.. so nice to see sammy talk sso much after movie.. so happy. so energentic.. been waititng to see that side, and yup. .finally.. sammy keep typing away.. ^^ me just happy sitting there looking through. its a nice nite. :) after that we look thorugh some warhammers figurines.. haha.. cool. :) wish i got that kind of a artistic interest:Phm. .think singapore have. .but well, my ultimate interest still lies in languages.
morning me feel soooooooooooo down and unhappy. .i dunno why!!! very weird! tehn say dunno whats wrong with us ppl.. chan lu, me and raz.. all got probs liek that. .so stress.. ha. but me dunno whats wrong.. keep thinking of happy stuffs, also never manage to cheer me up. not one bit.
it lasted till late aftnoon.. then nite time me getting real slpy... till raz delivered me a piece of good news. about that auntie milo. hahah. then me wakey.. then slpy again... in bus slp abit oo.. haiyo..
me and raz decided to ahnd in our resignations letter together. i do not know f he's really be doing it for real.. but me, already made up my mind.
today theres this little boy.. aww.... he stand on the scooter, and say 'push.... push.....' soooooo cute!!! the tone and wow.. he said it soo.. in a very3 kawaii way, haha. tehn theres this little girl.. she running in front of her parents while holding a balloon. she run like a duck!!XD!! super cute. lol.
theres this fatehr. .me don like though. .boy hand took.. his dad outside standing.. mum say to boy.. okok.. will ask daddy to pay. .then dad walk away!!! then mum say nvm mummy buy for u.. then boy went out, mum never buy, point is, how could the fatehr leave a woman to like.. .get what im saying?? aargh.. what kind of a man is he??? argh.. i dislike man who aint a gentleman at all. man gotta know when and how to be a man to protect their woman.
hm.. left arm... haiyo..
oh! hope me can have another special movie date soon again.:) hehe.. wish me luck!
mata ne
saw chan at the fair clearing up just now. but din get to talk to him. this aftnoon we're talking about some matters.. erm. .his personal probs.. then he say 'wah.. u very good ar.. u very faithful'. im like. .omg. don praise me like that. me stil aint getting too use to that..
me just hope his probs will be over soon.. real over..
hate msn.. ytd after movie done, me msg, sammy say never receive.. haiz.. so irritating. .-_-stupid net. problematic.. keep mw waiting in vain. argh! but its great.. so nice to see sammy talk sso much after movie.. so happy. so energentic.. been waititng to see that side, and yup. .finally.. sammy keep typing away.. ^^ me just happy sitting there looking through. its a nice nite. :) after that we look thorugh some warhammers figurines.. haha.. cool. :) wish i got that kind of a artistic interest:Phm. .think singapore have. .but well, my ultimate interest still lies in languages.
morning me feel soooooooooooo down and unhappy. .i dunno why!!! very weird! tehn say dunno whats wrong with us ppl.. chan lu, me and raz.. all got probs liek that. .so stress.. ha. but me dunno whats wrong.. keep thinking of happy stuffs, also never manage to cheer me up. not one bit.
it lasted till late aftnoon.. then nite time me getting real slpy... till raz delivered me a piece of good news. about that auntie milo. hahah. then me wakey.. then slpy again... in bus slp abit oo.. haiyo..
me and raz decided to ahnd in our resignations letter together. i do not know f he's really be doing it for real.. but me, already made up my mind.
today theres this little boy.. aww.... he stand on the scooter, and say 'push.... push.....' soooooo cute!!! the tone and wow.. he said it soo.. in a very3 kawaii way, haha. tehn theres this little girl.. she running in front of her parents while holding a balloon. she run like a duck!!XD!! super cute. lol.
theres this fatehr. .me don like though. .boy hand took.. his dad outside standing.. mum say to boy.. okok.. will ask daddy to pay. .then dad walk away!!! then mum say nvm mummy buy for u.. then boy went out, mum never buy, point is, how could the fatehr leave a woman to like.. .get what im saying?? aargh.. what kind of a man is he??? argh.. i dislike man who aint a gentleman at all. man gotta know when and how to be a man to protect their woman.
hm.. left arm... haiyo..
oh! hope me can have another special movie date soon again.:) hehe.. wish me luck!
mata ne
15 August 2009
Special Movie ;)
slpy.. tired from work.. but been looking forward.. to a movie date.:) so... yup. hehe... happy desu. today no bring lappy.. its boring at my workplace.. but yet. .me do not know how i got through this.. its like. .bored.. but not that painful.. still cna managed.. haha. thinking about lots of things i guess..
including places i wanna go and do after i quit.. and.. hehe. wanna rest somemore to brush up my cooking^^ isnt that wonderful if i can cook dinner everynight?^^ me very confident. hehe. lol. XD
this customer.. say out loud to his mum.. 'so cheap!!! so cheap!!! $19.90 ONLY!!!' know whats so cheap to him? 3 little bakugans. cost $19.90. i dunno.. is that really cheap to him? i guess to him its like. .his parents paying 50cents for him. -_- irritating to see this kind of kids.
oh.. today.. 2 thai guys came into my shop. .ask me to help tehm answer one question about frenship. after much hesitations,.. i agree(as usual.-_-) . then the guy say great!but let them video me(think with their handphone) while i reply. i was like stunned.. what the.. .then good thing the security guard step in. .saying they cant do survey in this shopping centre. then tehy leave. but tehy.. duno.. like. .friendly2 type.. but yeah.. of course me wouldnt wanna get myself in their phone!! like. .omg. .so scary. dunno what they doing.
ah.. nowadays its so easy to tell which guy or girl is attached. like. .be it sales assistant, or just someone waiting for a train,.. u can tell from the ring they wear. its like. .these rings are so common now.. geez...
hm. .mansoor heard about what the boss said about our bonus... ..saying maybe in sep during promo period, will get to talk to him.. hope so.. but.. omg.. look at our bosses.. promises they aint keeping. tsk
hm.. me so slpy..... ha.. tmr.. pls.. hoping me wont have to stay back.. but.. i know i am. cos.. yes.. its the day of toys fair.. huuu . but good thung me off on monday.
kk.. .gtg now.. waing for my movie date.. :) a new type special one. anything will update more on frenster blog later..
mata ne!!
including places i wanna go and do after i quit.. and.. hehe. wanna rest somemore to brush up my cooking^^ isnt that wonderful if i can cook dinner everynight?^^ me very confident. hehe. lol. XD
this customer.. say out loud to his mum.. 'so cheap!!! so cheap!!! $19.90 ONLY!!!' know whats so cheap to him? 3 little bakugans. cost $19.90. i dunno.. is that really cheap to him? i guess to him its like. .his parents paying 50cents for him. -_- irritating to see this kind of kids.
oh.. today.. 2 thai guys came into my shop. .ask me to help tehm answer one question about frenship. after much hesitations,.. i agree(as usual.-_-) . then the guy say great!but let them video me(think with their handphone) while i reply. i was like stunned.. what the.. .then good thing the security guard step in. .saying they cant do survey in this shopping centre. then tehy leave. but tehy.. duno.. like. .friendly2 type.. but yeah.. of course me wouldnt wanna get myself in their phone!! like. .omg. .so scary. dunno what they doing.
ah.. nowadays its so easy to tell which guy or girl is attached. like. .be it sales assistant, or just someone waiting for a train,.. u can tell from the ring they wear. its like. .these rings are so common now.. geez...
hm. .mansoor heard about what the boss said about our bonus... ..saying maybe in sep during promo period, will get to talk to him.. hope so.. but.. omg.. look at our bosses.. promises they aint keeping. tsk
hm.. me so slpy..... ha.. tmr.. pls.. hoping me wont have to stay back.. but.. i know i am. cos.. yes.. its the day of toys fair.. huuu . but good thung me off on monday.
kk.. .gtg now.. waing for my movie date.. :) a new type special one. anything will update more on frenster blog later..
mata ne!!
14 August 2009
I Hit It! :)
ahhhhhh... so nervous just now.. huu... thank goodness me hit my sales target..phew... near closingthen hit. .then my boss like keep pressing me.. argh.... kinda stress.. .whers my holiday!! :(
ah.. over there at my boring workplace, alot of foreigners.. but alot more interesting than any other outlets. dunno how to explain also..
yay... tmr.. finally my morning shift.. looking forward to my special date :) hehe. thats why feel like as though tmr is my off. :) so all the more merrier. hehe
hm... today my fren's prob upsets me.. nothing to do with me.. but.. just that.. its kidna disturbing for me.. .. it always hapeen ard 6 to 8months.. almost 90%the girls started it first... i don get it.. cos of insecurity?.. man... ... im kinda scared... i cant wait for 8 or 10 months to pass.. .. i don like this feeling... ... its liike. deja vu again.. ..the whole process of sumtin new..
hm.. travel fair huh.. ... wanna go there.. but not sure.. cos.. what should i do when i reach there? i haven prepare anything yet.. nor confirm anything.. hm. .tmr ne.. see how. .must think.. decide anything.. ... haiyo.. abit confusing... but.. .. will see... ..
sunday.. oh.. please don let them ask me to stay back-_- monday... hm....... ...what should i be doing on that day... hm.. oh.. lets see... yay. finally.. half of august is gone.. me can get back on my track soon i hope.. then sep can ya.. buy stuffs. haha.. useful stuffs i mean ;)
ah.. cant wait ne..
hey. .i forgot what i'd wanted to say.. hmmm..... haiyo.. nvm.. if remember, will mention in frenster blog.
mata!
ah.. over there at my boring workplace, alot of foreigners.. but alot more interesting than any other outlets. dunno how to explain also..
yay... tmr.. finally my morning shift.. looking forward to my special date :) hehe. thats why feel like as though tmr is my off. :) so all the more merrier. hehe
hm... today my fren's prob upsets me.. nothing to do with me.. but.. just that.. its kidna disturbing for me.. .. it always hapeen ard 6 to 8months.. almost 90%the girls started it first... i don get it.. cos of insecurity?.. man... ... im kinda scared... i cant wait for 8 or 10 months to pass.. .. i don like this feeling... ... its liike. deja vu again.. ..the whole process of sumtin new..
hm.. travel fair huh.. ... wanna go there.. but not sure.. cos.. what should i do when i reach there? i haven prepare anything yet.. nor confirm anything.. hm. .tmr ne.. see how. .must think.. decide anything.. ... haiyo.. abit confusing... but.. .. will see... ..
sunday.. oh.. please don let them ask me to stay back-_- monday... hm....... ...what should i be doing on that day... hm.. oh.. lets see... yay. finally.. half of august is gone.. me can get back on my track soon i hope.. then sep can ya.. buy stuffs. haha.. useful stuffs i mean ;)
ah.. cant wait ne..
hey. .i forgot what i'd wanted to say.. hmmm..... haiyo.. nvm.. if remember, will mention in frenster blog.
mata!
13 August 2009
No2 Bonus -_-
dad found a new job.. yay... hmm.. did i mention that already?.. me cant remember.. memory been getting bad.. ha..
one could live for one's beloved.. its a very meaningful thing.. ..isnt it..
ehh.... i wonder why sam suddenly remind me that he's a arab again.. me know ar.. lol.. he din know i know? hmm... thats weird.. should i bish him? XD hahahah...
with somebody in your heart,.. you're not alone.. anywhere u go, he'll follow..
ytd night watched dvd with bro and redz... then too cold.. grab my blankie.. and imagine.. more of feeling.. what will happen if he's here right now with us... ..it feels good.. comfy.. kinda warm.. ..abit real somehow ne.. .. :)
ahh.. got one new local staff.. the name abit girlish.. but.. he's a guy. omg.. he's taking over party haus when my colleague going back to her country to give birth. and he don know a thing yet about here.. omg.. im so not gonna take full shifts again and again.. argh
they'd better let him work at party haus asap. argh
and bonus.. zuan talk to ross about it today. zuan ask he got bonus anot.. ross say business not good.. then zuan ask sumtin again about getting bonus anot. .then he keep quiet. omg.. angry.. its not our business if their business aint good. so what? they Must give us our bonus!! argh!
today... no bring lappy. .hahn in a good mood today.. drop a few secs.. -_- geez.. say oh he drop by here to see me, and to get some water. wth... who cares.. and so... .my day.. trying to keep myself busy by thinking and planning lots... what to do when i go for holiday.. what to bring, buy, etc.. blah3... just keeping thinking and noting them down to keep myself busy. boring abit ba... today really quiet.. everywhere sales aint good.. but mine,.. :) hehe.. managed to creat a miracle. ;) hehehe
ah... today... our slide playground moved to the front of our shop.. XD hahaha.. me go play and slide.. tehn when slide down,.. i go.. 'wee!~~' XD LOL zuan was like saying he dunno me. .sad sia he lost a fren.. XD hahahahah..... me played 2 times.. dun care ppl.. just play.. hahaha... slide twice.
..man.. .. the bonus matter really boiling my blood..
o well.. cant wait for tmr to come to an end.. cos me cant wait for sat.. :)
mata
one could live for one's beloved.. its a very meaningful thing.. ..isnt it..
ehh.... i wonder why sam suddenly remind me that he's a arab again.. me know ar.. lol.. he din know i know? hmm... thats weird.. should i bish him? XD hahahah...
with somebody in your heart,.. you're not alone.. anywhere u go, he'll follow..
ytd night watched dvd with bro and redz... then too cold.. grab my blankie.. and imagine.. more of feeling.. what will happen if he's here right now with us... ..it feels good.. comfy.. kinda warm.. ..abit real somehow ne.. .. :)
ahh.. got one new local staff.. the name abit girlish.. but.. he's a guy. omg.. he's taking over party haus when my colleague going back to her country to give birth. and he don know a thing yet about here.. omg.. im so not gonna take full shifts again and again.. argh
they'd better let him work at party haus asap. argh
and bonus.. zuan talk to ross about it today. zuan ask he got bonus anot.. ross say business not good.. then zuan ask sumtin again about getting bonus anot. .then he keep quiet. omg.. angry.. its not our business if their business aint good. so what? they Must give us our bonus!! argh!
today... no bring lappy. .hahn in a good mood today.. drop a few secs.. -_- geez.. say oh he drop by here to see me, and to get some water. wth... who cares.. and so... .my day.. trying to keep myself busy by thinking and planning lots... what to do when i go for holiday.. what to bring, buy, etc.. blah3... just keeping thinking and noting them down to keep myself busy. boring abit ba... today really quiet.. everywhere sales aint good.. but mine,.. :) hehe.. managed to creat a miracle. ;) hehehe
ah... today... our slide playground moved to the front of our shop.. XD hahaha.. me go play and slide.. tehn when slide down,.. i go.. 'wee!~~' XD LOL zuan was like saying he dunno me. .sad sia he lost a fren.. XD hahahahah..... me played 2 times.. dun care ppl.. just play.. hahaha... slide twice.
..man.. .. the bonus matter really boiling my blood..
o well.. cant wait for tmr to come to an end.. cos me cant wait for sat.. :)
mata
12 August 2009
His Ex Story
when me still haven get to know redz,.. this fren of mine who likes me told me about a story about him.. and say that he's devoted... redz and i were in the bus.. me been wondering if that story is true for years.. and finally. .me asked him out of the blue.. ..he say yes its true. ..wow.. .. he got this gf.. ex-gf.. been together for 2 years plus.. broken off for a month once.. cos usual couple's quarrels.. then talk things out,. they're back again. :) then one day.. she starts losing her hair lots.. then doesnt wanna go out that often anymore.. he have no idea whats happening.. ask her dad, also wownt tell. but she die2 not telling.. then she broke off with him.. he didnt know why she does that.. didnt suspect anything at all.. soon... she called him in hospital.. they talked for abit.. but he never expected that thats their last conversation.... :( .. dunno what they talked about.. then atlas.. she say to him.. she'll always love him forever no matter what happen.. then soon after he hang up the call,.. her parents called.. ..say that.. she's dying.. she got brain tumour... ....:( he went dirnking that night..very drunk.. he did not went home.. cos yeah.. after work need to destress.. the news u see.. ...too shocking.. and then.. yes.. u know. .. thats why she broke of with him. ..he say thats his first long relationship... her dad's a singaporean chinese..mum's a japanese.. i feel sad.. yeah. .took him a couple of months to get himself back together. ..sigh..... ... and to think.. .. the time when i met him.. stick to him. .yet. .me din know anything.. he say..(dunno meaning now alos anot..) after a couple of months.. yes.. gotta recover.. but. .sometimes when it cums to the still of lonely slient night,... ..the feeling.. is so........ ... well.. i get what he means.. pain.. sad.. .. sigh.. i hope.. ..in the future.. yeah.. .. then his bro too.. .. .. i hope he's not reading this.. but.. .. i really hope.. ppl who read this.. will really3 cherish the person u love ard u.. every min.. every second.. for u do not know when god or whoever decides to take your life away... away from u.. ..
after he told me its true,.. ok.. i wont ask further. .but.. he actually told me the whole story..
...me always treasure the ppl ard me. .holding them tight to me.. you wont lose somebody if you hold on to them.. but still.. me make mistake sumtimes.. and.. ...yeah.... i hope they wont lose me in anyway.. cos if they do,. .i wont ever get back to them.. yes.. if i treasure u, u hurt me, one time is enuff. and i wont ever hold u dear to my heart no longer. in anycase.. ..yeah.. ... sigh.. i hope reedz..his future will be better huh.. .. with me and bro with him.. yeah.. we'll make sure of that.. ..now i even mention my home as his home already hahaha. he coming home soon.. ..he called me just. but me already at home.. so.. yup. cant meet him up. haha
ah.. ytd night.. he said something about malay guy cant slp in a same room with a girl. unless they're married. i was like. ....omg.. me din know. .and to think i.. ..haiyo.. baka na atashi..
hm.. today.. me wakey.. at early morning. .10.30am.. feeling energenetic.. dunno why.. then.. hm ..bro went work.. erm... me settle lappy stuff.. and.. eat with redz.. mum bought food.. then.. we play... ..erm.. LOL.... barbie as a island princess game! XD omg..... then ..bath.. went out.. he meet his fren, while me meet my fren.. huu.. sad.. wanna bring my mum out.. but.. fren ask already.. so.. yeah.. :( feel bad she din go.. huuuu....
then at city hall... waiting for our own frens.. so walk ard raffles for abit.. searchign for his cap.. hm.. yeah.. then go our separate ways.. meet my fren.. walk2 ard... heard izuan kena scold by ross... haiz... he's so angry. erm.. yeah. .then walk2.. me cant find any warm gel packs,, the kawaii ones..me saw at JP. hm... then... yeah.. me bought this hello kitty dvd.. cos.. finally ofund it!! got one episode is about cinnamoroll!! ^^ yay! hehe. cant wait to watch.. tot can share it with sammy.. but.. .. dunno. ... :( got a feeling cant watch together. ..so sad. cant share it.. ..:( so.. see how.. me try my best see can anot..
hm... think its over sammy's parents budget.. for a house,.. ...hm. .wow.. the price.. dunno.. i hope things went well for them... ..dunno why... got this weird feeling about.. ..
oh2... then walk2.. finally get to luggage fair. over some thinkings,.. finally bought the big one. its huge. -_-.. omg.. i hope i have no problems lifting it up and down.. haiyo..... ...hope not so heavy bah.. really so big for me.. o well... see how bah... packing shld be at end of month.. hm..
wow.. so tired...fren treated me dessert.. cos me dun wan eat.. wanna save money go home eat.. hm... ...well... been out only for few hours.. really so tired.. huu
hm..... went to bodyshop.. checked out some travelling size shampoos and stuffs.. wow. .the auntie staff so friendly. :) very nice.
super duper tired.... -_- got a feeling tmr sure see bosses.. cos stoday they setting up and start the suntec exibitions already.. sianz..
hm.. k.. .just a few more days to hang on.. huu.... ..nov... when will u arrive....
mata
after he told me its true,.. ok.. i wont ask further. .but.. he actually told me the whole story..
...me always treasure the ppl ard me. .holding them tight to me.. you wont lose somebody if you hold on to them.. but still.. me make mistake sumtimes.. and.. ...yeah.... i hope they wont lose me in anyway.. cos if they do,. .i wont ever get back to them.. yes.. if i treasure u, u hurt me, one time is enuff. and i wont ever hold u dear to my heart no longer. in anycase.. ..yeah.. ... sigh.. i hope reedz..his future will be better huh.. .. with me and bro with him.. yeah.. we'll make sure of that.. ..now i even mention my home as his home already hahaha. he coming home soon.. ..he called me just. but me already at home.. so.. yup. cant meet him up. haha
ah.. ytd night.. he said something about malay guy cant slp in a same room with a girl. unless they're married. i was like. ....omg.. me din know. .and to think i.. ..haiyo.. baka na atashi..
hm.. today.. me wakey.. at early morning. .10.30am.. feeling energenetic.. dunno why.. then.. hm ..bro went work.. erm... me settle lappy stuff.. and.. eat with redz.. mum bought food.. then.. we play... ..erm.. LOL.... barbie as a island princess game! XD omg..... then ..bath.. went out.. he meet his fren, while me meet my fren.. huu.. sad.. wanna bring my mum out.. but.. fren ask already.. so.. yeah.. :( feel bad she din go.. huuuu....
then at city hall... waiting for our own frens.. so walk ard raffles for abit.. searchign for his cap.. hm.. yeah.. then go our separate ways.. meet my fren.. walk2 ard... heard izuan kena scold by ross... haiz... he's so angry. erm.. yeah. .then walk2.. me cant find any warm gel packs,, the kawaii ones..me saw at JP. hm... then... yeah.. me bought this hello kitty dvd.. cos.. finally ofund it!! got one episode is about cinnamoroll!! ^^ yay! hehe. cant wait to watch.. tot can share it with sammy.. but.. .. dunno. ... :( got a feeling cant watch together. ..so sad. cant share it.. ..:( so.. see how.. me try my best see can anot..
hm... think its over sammy's parents budget.. for a house,.. ...hm. .wow.. the price.. dunno.. i hope things went well for them... ..dunno why... got this weird feeling about.. ..
oh2... then walk2.. finally get to luggage fair. over some thinkings,.. finally bought the big one. its huge. -_-.. omg.. i hope i have no problems lifting it up and down.. haiyo..... ...hope not so heavy bah.. really so big for me.. o well... see how bah... packing shld be at end of month.. hm..
wow.. so tired...fren treated me dessert.. cos me dun wan eat.. wanna save money go home eat.. hm... ...well... been out only for few hours.. really so tired.. huu
hm..... went to bodyshop.. checked out some travelling size shampoos and stuffs.. wow. .the auntie staff so friendly. :) very nice.
super duper tired.... -_- got a feeling tmr sure see bosses.. cos stoday they setting up and start the suntec exibitions already.. sianz..
hm.. k.. .just a few more days to hang on.. huu.... ..nov... when will u arrive....
mata
11 August 2009
To Dos And Not To Do
now i know why... i keep wanting to shop.... because i wanna vent my stress on it. arrgh............... im sooooooooooo freaking tired.... tmr my off day, and yet they wanna touch it? forget it. don eve think about it. i rejected them without any 2nd thought.
oh gosh.. everyday like this... sigh..
oh good news! dad found a job. with his sis. tmr gonna start. its very3 near my workplace. and.. yup. i got a feeling this time its gonna workout. so.. yeah. .keeping my fingers crossed.
what happen today.. .. ...quite alot of chatting.. yes.. finding ppl to chat.. ppl finding me to chat..
-_- bored... used lappy on and off. cant live without it in my workplace. argh.. hm... risky. but its a risk i gotta take. its pretty boring today.. oh. .at the end of night, there's this very2 nice customer. i love chatting and recommend toys to this kind of ppl. super friendly. :) if only everyne is like that.. man.. i'll sure be super happy with my job.
i duno what zuan is talking about today. he gib me a missed call ytd. then today called, and i asked him abt ytd. cos me bz, so never dunno whaat is he talking.. i thiknk he's drunk.. hahaha. but yeah.. his words are so weird today.. =.=..
me just ate finished.. with bro and redz.. redz was drawing his money out when my bro suddenly ask redz if i'll convert to muslim. i was surprised.XD why he suddenly ask me that ar??? then he ask redz also.. do i have to? redz say ya.. then also must get a malay name. my bro..and zuan.. their words are so random.. hard to fathom.. XD
ah. .foudn so many travel agencies contacts... wohohoh,, :) through news oaoer.. so happy to come across it. :) then get to know there'll be a fair coming up.. so. .yup. hoping for the best.. :) may be there to aust for 3weeks.. really wish for that to happen now.. hee cant wait :) then sam was teaching me all teh stuffs need to know at airport.. what to bring. .uh huh... yup2.. me note it down.. theres a luggage fair. .me may be going to buy tmr. :) see how. cos after hearing what redz say about his $25 luggage, erm... me having 2nd tots.. hahahXD
so.. yup... may be getting a very2 big one.. sine goin for long. :) so.. uh huh.
hm.. yeah.. abit nervous more or less.. cos will be alone when the time comes.. but.. with the ppl ard there.. should be alrite i hope. ... anything me can just ask ard.. tehy sshould be friendly enuff to guide me along if theres anything.. yup.. ..
o well.. ant waiat for this end of month to arrive.. at least me settle the visa thingy today:) so simple.. now is the prices and stuffs..
well, tmr we shall see then:)
huu.. then after talking to sam about the airport to dos and not to do, me gtg eat. .haiyo miss him ar...
anyway. 3hrs of difference huh. ...:( dunno when its coming. .but. .me sure sad.. but.. its part of the deal to endure... everythign comes with a price..
ah.. was so disappointed when sammy say cant watch dvd together online.. tot can at first.. but then, me bought one, and gonna try. hope by sat night ne :) hee. sumtin new to try...
kk, me gotta agar2 figure out whats the size of my luggage gonna be..
mata ne!!
oh gosh.. everyday like this... sigh..
oh good news! dad found a job. with his sis. tmr gonna start. its very3 near my workplace. and.. yup. i got a feeling this time its gonna workout. so.. yeah. .keeping my fingers crossed.
what happen today.. .. ...quite alot of chatting.. yes.. finding ppl to chat.. ppl finding me to chat..
-_- bored... used lappy on and off. cant live without it in my workplace. argh.. hm... risky. but its a risk i gotta take. its pretty boring today.. oh. .at the end of night, there's this very2 nice customer. i love chatting and recommend toys to this kind of ppl. super friendly. :) if only everyne is like that.. man.. i'll sure be super happy with my job.
i duno what zuan is talking about today. he gib me a missed call ytd. then today called, and i asked him abt ytd. cos me bz, so never dunno whaat is he talking.. i thiknk he's drunk.. hahaha. but yeah.. his words are so weird today.. =.=..
me just ate finished.. with bro and redz.. redz was drawing his money out when my bro suddenly ask redz if i'll convert to muslim. i was surprised.XD why he suddenly ask me that ar??? then he ask redz also.. do i have to? redz say ya.. then also must get a malay name. my bro..and zuan.. their words are so random.. hard to fathom.. XD
ah. .foudn so many travel agencies contacts... wohohoh,, :) through news oaoer.. so happy to come across it. :) then get to know there'll be a fair coming up.. so. .yup. hoping for the best.. :) may be there to aust for 3weeks.. really wish for that to happen now.. hee cant wait :) then sam was teaching me all teh stuffs need to know at airport.. what to bring. .uh huh... yup2.. me note it down.. theres a luggage fair. .me may be going to buy tmr. :) see how. cos after hearing what redz say about his $25 luggage, erm... me having 2nd tots.. hahahXD
so.. yup... may be getting a very2 big one.. sine goin for long. :) so.. uh huh.
hm.. yeah.. abit nervous more or less.. cos will be alone when the time comes.. but.. with the ppl ard there.. should be alrite i hope. ... anything me can just ask ard.. tehy sshould be friendly enuff to guide me along if theres anything.. yup.. ..
o well.. ant waiat for this end of month to arrive.. at least me settle the visa thingy today:) so simple.. now is the prices and stuffs..
well, tmr we shall see then:)
huu.. then after talking to sam about the airport to dos and not to do, me gtg eat. .haiyo miss him ar...
anyway. 3hrs of difference huh. ...:( dunno when its coming. .but. .me sure sad.. but.. its part of the deal to endure... everythign comes with a price..
ah.. was so disappointed when sammy say cant watch dvd together online.. tot can at first.. but then, me bought one, and gonna try. hope by sat night ne :) hee. sumtin new to try...
kk, me gotta agar2 figure out whats the size of my luggage gonna be..
mata ne!!
10 August 2009
Caught On Cam
ah.. ytd forgot to mention this.. ne2.. deosnt just feel nice and sweet if someone u care about, drop u a msg out of the blue, saying miss u? ^^ hehe. ii na..
the tix me searhing for. me tot its consider cheap.. then my fren say its expensive. so.. yeahXD was surprised ne. haha. hm.. tmr.. gotta ake a call and find out something. .so... ..yup. .hope my plan works.
morning met sammy for abit in webby.. ha. .so nice.. very3 short while but enuff..
...actually.. ...tonight feeling down.. ...cos... sigh.. .boss found out me using lappy during work. he never made a big fuss and talk to me personally.. cos he's like that one. so.. yup.. ok.. then.. .. ha.. sigh...... dunno what to say bah.. ....
just aint feeling happy now:(.. ..
haiz... sianz.. so tired.. really... :( huu.. when is nov coming..
mata
the tix me searhing for. me tot its consider cheap.. then my fren say its expensive. so.. yeahXD was surprised ne. haha. hm.. tmr.. gotta ake a call and find out something. .so... ..yup. .hope my plan works.
morning met sammy for abit in webby.. ha. .so nice.. very3 short while but enuff..
...actually.. ...tonight feeling down.. ...cos... sigh.. .boss found out me using lappy during work. he never made a big fuss and talk to me personally.. cos he's like that one. so.. yup.. ok.. then.. .. ha.. sigh...... dunno what to say bah.. ....
just aint feeling happy now:(.. ..
haiz... sianz.. so tired.. really... :( huu.. when is nov coming..
mata
09 August 2009
It's Correct ne?
hm... lucky me never go to chan's b'day.. heard there're all guys left when the only one of ur gf is gone. -_- imagine if me go there.., ..erm.. .. sounds weird ne.. they all drink alot2. alot of them knock out.. -_- so.. yup. me glad never go. haha.. go there, food also all gone i heard from raz. poor him.. hm.. adilah. ... i hope her fiance is alrite.. ..feel sad for her.. :( me know how that feels.. sigh..
hm. .finally.. syah let me in on what happened.. to him and his ex.. ..dun wanna disclose too much here.. ..lets just say. ...hm.. ... i dunno.. i knew she's this type of person.. but.. well.. love is blind sometimes.. anyway, me sure he's gonna move on, and find a greater girl! yes.. his wish.. to gwet a chinese wife.. wohohoho gdluck syah!! ;)
wow... me came across this website. .teaches ya how to measure your correct bra size. out of curiosity, me took a try on it. hahaha. and to my amazement, wow! its correct!XD 'c' desu. :) so yup. next time can be more confident when searching for my size.. now that i ki.nda confirmXD haha. :)
haiyo. .so tired.... tired3....
ehh.... .... what did i wanna say.. hm... today national day.. nothing much ne.. bored.. also dunno how me get through those hours.. -_- ha.
mata
hm. .finally.. syah let me in on what happened.. to him and his ex.. ..dun wanna disclose too much here.. ..lets just say. ...hm.. ... i dunno.. i knew she's this type of person.. but.. well.. love is blind sometimes.. anyway, me sure he's gonna move on, and find a greater girl! yes.. his wish.. to gwet a chinese wife.. wohohoho gdluck syah!! ;)
wow... me came across this website. .teaches ya how to measure your correct bra size. out of curiosity, me took a try on it. hahaha. and to my amazement, wow! its correct!XD 'c' desu. :) so yup. next time can be more confident when searching for my size.. now that i ki.nda confirmXD haha. :)
haiyo. .so tired.... tired3....
ehh.... .... what did i wanna say.. hm... today national day.. nothing much ne.. bored.. also dunno how me get through those hours.. -_- ha.
mata
08 August 2009
Great Mother
Huu........ soooo shy... cos.. cos.. send some pics to sammy.. and like yeah.. then so shy.. super shy.. yeah.... but cos thinking.. its for sammy only.. so.. yup.. ..only one person to get.. so.. yeah.. *blush.... then in case miss me. ..yeah..
hmm.... today.. wakey.. very2 tired.. weak and slpy.. .tonight me staying at home. .isnt that so much better.. yes.. turned down my frens.. one person is more important than anything else.
todya a little boy ask me how much am i selling the skateboard. i say.. $49.90. then he shouted out in surprise.. 'wow so cheap!!' yeah i know.. not the first time me mention this here. .but still.. haha. .look at these children.. omg.. if me have any children in future, me sooo not gonna let them becum like this.-_- argh.... sickening.. oh.. speaking of which.. that other day, me saw this mother.. she got 3 children.. all girls. then the way she encourage her girl to get on the swaveboard,.. wow... aspiring.. then before they went off, she ask her children what they're supposed to say to me. .tehn they all say 'thank you!'.. then she also.. wow.. thats the kind of mother im gonna be if i have any children. calm, supportive, understanding, yet doesnt lose her erm.. gosh whats teh word.. ...her.. 'w' sumtin. .i cant rememebr now! haiyo.. .. ok lets just say her 'power'. haha. so. yup. knows when to show her stand, yet with such kindness.. ha. anyway yup. so far thats the kind of mum me like most:) she's really good. :)
hm.... today regreted not bringing any lappy to work.. huu.. so boring.. me tot boss so gonna cum down today.. hm. .tmr dunno how. .cos its national day.. ..so. ...yeah.. ..
but at night very crowded though.. for over an hour me stand to serve customers. tmr.. hm. .either very quiet, or crowded..
hm.. k.. tahts about it i guess?.. hm.. o well.. gotta get ready for my fullshifts.. huu...
mata.....
hmm.... today.. wakey.. very2 tired.. weak and slpy.. .tonight me staying at home. .isnt that so much better.. yes.. turned down my frens.. one person is more important than anything else.
todya a little boy ask me how much am i selling the skateboard. i say.. $49.90. then he shouted out in surprise.. 'wow so cheap!!' yeah i know.. not the first time me mention this here. .but still.. haha. .look at these children.. omg.. if me have any children in future, me sooo not gonna let them becum like this.-_- argh.... sickening.. oh.. speaking of which.. that other day, me saw this mother.. she got 3 children.. all girls. then the way she encourage her girl to get on the swaveboard,.. wow... aspiring.. then before they went off, she ask her children what they're supposed to say to me. .tehn they all say 'thank you!'.. then she also.. wow.. thats the kind of mother im gonna be if i have any children. calm, supportive, understanding, yet doesnt lose her erm.. gosh whats teh word.. ...her.. 'w' sumtin. .i cant rememebr now! haiyo.. .. ok lets just say her 'power'. haha. so. yup. knows when to show her stand, yet with such kindness.. ha. anyway yup. so far thats the kind of mum me like most:) she's really good. :)
hm.... today regreted not bringing any lappy to work.. huu.. so boring.. me tot boss so gonna cum down today.. hm. .tmr dunno how. .cos its national day.. ..so. ...yeah.. ..
but at night very crowded though.. for over an hour me stand to serve customers. tmr.. hm. .either very quiet, or crowded..
hm.. k.. tahts about it i guess?.. hm.. o well.. gotta get ready for my fullshifts.. huu...
mata.....
07 August 2009
Protect In My Own Way
ytd.. sam showed me some nice fountain pics.. yes. .so nice.. one of the pic, shoeed this hugeeee fountain! long wide.. wow.. i can swim, in there!XD hahaha. cool:)
so nice ne..^^
ytd night before i slp.. i was looking at my saved msgs of sam.. so many.. suddenly.. realised.. how amazing.. now right before me..beside me.., i got this man so close to me. more than my family. i never really tot of how close we are now.. but come to think of it,.. ..ya.. ..me happy... to find such a person...
I will protect him.. though im not a manand cant protect him the way he protected me.., but i'll do it in my own way. I wwanna make sure that he's happy,safe and sound always.. thats.. only the basic..
hm... -_- that last time i was gonna takeover shift with mansoor,.. i was right on time. mins before 4pm. then tmr me gona takeover again. and today he called me and say. '.tmr just make sure u come on time this time.' as in not a bad a bad kind of tone.. still ..the way he say, as if im late last time! cos i was already outside the building..making my way there..then he called me. but me arrived on time. .so why is he saying that today? implying im late the other time? -_- but me really not late. huu.... why is he like that.. then got one thing. .he say to test me alert enuff anot.. hello?? -_- why need to test me?? weird.. .
3 fullshifts coming up.. huu.. so dun wanna go tmr night to chan's b'day. :( my heart sure whole night would stay with sammy.. yearning for home now..in front of my lappy.. happily chatting away... so dun wish to stay away from him even for a night.. only make me feel super terrible.. :( really... i wish i don have to go.. ..
and so yup.. my blog diff sometimes from frenster hor.. let ya guys know again. .to god knows who reading this.. ha
mata ne..
so nice ne..^^
ytd night before i slp.. i was looking at my saved msgs of sam.. so many.. suddenly.. realised.. how amazing.. now right before me..beside me.., i got this man so close to me. more than my family. i never really tot of how close we are now.. but come to think of it,.. ..ya.. ..me happy... to find such a person...
I will protect him.. though im not a manand cant protect him the way he protected me.., but i'll do it in my own way. I wwanna make sure that he's happy,safe and sound always.. thats.. only the basic..
hm... -_- that last time i was gonna takeover shift with mansoor,.. i was right on time. mins before 4pm. then tmr me gona takeover again. and today he called me and say. '.tmr just make sure u come on time this time.' as in not a bad a bad kind of tone.. still ..the way he say, as if im late last time! cos i was already outside the building..making my way there..then he called me. but me arrived on time. .so why is he saying that today? implying im late the other time? -_- but me really not late. huu.... why is he like that.. then got one thing. .he say to test me alert enuff anot.. hello?? -_- why need to test me?? weird.. .
3 fullshifts coming up.. huu.. so dun wanna go tmr night to chan's b'day. :( my heart sure whole night would stay with sammy.. yearning for home now..in front of my lappy.. happily chatting away... so dun wish to stay away from him even for a night.. only make me feel super terrible.. :( really... i wish i don have to go.. ..
and so yup.. my blog diff sometimes from frenster hor.. let ya guys know again. .to god knows who reading this.. ha
mata ne..
06 August 2009
Stupid Msn Prob haiyo
tonight.. ...was especially looking forward to seeing him.. .. so many things wanna tell and ask.. but........ ...am i too tired from work?.. .. i dunno.. maybe huh.. .. msn went haywire.. .. msn kena stop.. .. then.. .. somehow sad.. .. cos no reply given. .was waiting and waiting infront of the screen.. .. o well... lets just say.. tonight.. isnt like those other nights.. its a quiet one..
he say im angry.. but me not.. just kinda frustrated at the thought that me so excited wanting to talk. .yet.. ..getting slow replies.. i wonder why.... msn will have prob... me.. just wish he wont misunderstood me.. over little things me angry?.. am i such a person?.. ..am i that bad ?.. ..not good enuff huh.. but no.. im not such a person.. i dun wanna get angry.. get angry is mean tfor work.. am i too stress there already?
so now ... its all silence.. .. of cos heartpain.. but.. yeah.. ...i hope he's not too sad.. ...cos i am.. .. me after work.. after a long hard day of work.. just wanna talk and see him.. thats all.. will cheer me up everytime..
now.. he's busy with some...things else.. so.. yeah.. cant concentrate on me ne.. ha. .thats why say its quiet tonight..
well.. . at least i still get to see him through cam huh.. ..
days been tough and tiring... me gotta.. .. gotta..... ...with family matters on my mind as well.. ...its difficult not to have a breakdown one day.. trying to smile more.. im trying to..
he say im angry.. but me not.. just kinda frustrated at the thought that me so excited wanting to talk. .yet.. ..getting slow replies.. i wonder why.... msn will have prob... me.. just wish he wont misunderstood me.. over little things me angry?.. am i such a person?.. ..am i that bad ?.. ..not good enuff huh.. but no.. im not such a person.. i dun wanna get angry.. get angry is mean tfor work.. am i too stress there already?
so now ... its all silence.. .. of cos heartpain.. but.. yeah.. ...i hope he's not too sad.. ...cos i am.. .. me after work.. after a long hard day of work.. just wanna talk and see him.. thats all.. will cheer me up everytime..
now.. he's busy with some...things else.. so.. yeah.. cant concentrate on me ne.. ha. .thats why say its quiet tonight..
well.. . at least i still get to see him through cam huh.. ..
days been tough and tiring... me gotta.. .. gotta..... ...with family matters on my mind as well.. ...its difficult not to have a breakdown one day.. trying to smile more.. im trying to..
Upside Down Style
huuu something aint right with my lifestyle right now u know.. me cum abck home.. always starving.. guru3 my stomach always goes. .then eat so late. .tehn slp. -_- its like so totally upside down now.. me abit faint.. very tired.. but hanging on. .the biggest reason i know why. internet. yes.. i think it really affected my health.. but. .somehow me too lazy to go out and geta glass of water. .after me done with net, then will eat. which is very3 late.. me don like of course.. but.. ni dunno man.. this isnt like me anymore..
redz just handed me my belated b'day pressy. appreciated.. ^^ thx redz.. haha. .bro hellped him out there for abit. :P
hm... tmr zuan changed shift with me.. when he talk about this with mansoor, he was like.. 'aiya, she sure ok one. now no boyfren here already. sure free wan' then zuan shoot him back saying 'she also got family u know.' then he keep quiet. ...so i was right huh. .no wonder 2 public holidays put me full shifts... :( me poor thing..
lately... ...i dunno man.. isit cos me not been eating well or has it gotta do with my lifestyle now..., my temper been really.. hm.. i dunno man.. i gotta tame my anger especially when it comes to... ... ...geez.. ..tch. .me dunno whats wrong either.. ..just wanna control my temper.. thinking everything will be alrite.. ....sigh. its like im extra sensitive now.. :( meaning easily to get hurt. more.. tch.. dunno ne.. .. i wish.. .end of yeara will come.. days.. will be gone........
so hungry now.. aftnoon, hahaha.. like so many times me work at the centre, my frens will always come isit me. XD yeah.. then me get to go out anad eat.. haha. raz dropped by today. for awhile. then yes. .me get to eat ban mian.. nice today. yummy.... usually me wont eat out mah..
ha. .sammy.. got alot of longgg dreams.. woo... :) hehe... happy for him.. aww... but din expect that kind of dreams to occure 2 nights straight.. wow.. power! then i was chompingon my chips..while reading through the words of dreams.. whoa.. haha.. really can imagine it into a movie..
me gonna eat redz father's dish..erm. .dunno what spicy chicken or sumtin later.. yummy!
hm................. .....from teh way im so sensitive now...,... ..sigh.. .. i dunno if thats a good thing. ..no. .sure aint good.. ..
..tch..
oh tmr.. ..hm.. after work. wonder gonna settle sumtin anot.. .. gotta see first..
VKG me gonna watch the last epi already.. wohohoho... so cool. been so liong since i watced a real cool anime. :) will keep finding..
mata
redz just handed me my belated b'day pressy. appreciated.. ^^ thx redz.. haha. .bro hellped him out there for abit. :P
hm... tmr zuan changed shift with me.. when he talk about this with mansoor, he was like.. 'aiya, she sure ok one. now no boyfren here already. sure free wan' then zuan shoot him back saying 'she also got family u know.' then he keep quiet. ...so i was right huh. .no wonder 2 public holidays put me full shifts... :( me poor thing..
lately... ...i dunno man.. isit cos me not been eating well or has it gotta do with my lifestyle now..., my temper been really.. hm.. i dunno man.. i gotta tame my anger especially when it comes to... ... ...geez.. ..tch. .me dunno whats wrong either.. ..just wanna control my temper.. thinking everything will be alrite.. ....sigh. its like im extra sensitive now.. :( meaning easily to get hurt. more.. tch.. dunno ne.. .. i wish.. .end of yeara will come.. days.. will be gone........
so hungry now.. aftnoon, hahaha.. like so many times me work at the centre, my frens will always come isit me. XD yeah.. then me get to go out anad eat.. haha. raz dropped by today. for awhile. then yes. .me get to eat ban mian.. nice today. yummy.... usually me wont eat out mah..
ha. .sammy.. got alot of longgg dreams.. woo... :) hehe... happy for him.. aww... but din expect that kind of dreams to occure 2 nights straight.. wow.. power! then i was chompingon my chips..while reading through the words of dreams.. whoa.. haha.. really can imagine it into a movie..
me gonna eat redz father's dish..erm. .dunno what spicy chicken or sumtin later.. yummy!
hm................. .....from teh way im so sensitive now...,... ..sigh.. .. i dunno if thats a good thing. ..no. .sure aint good.. ..
..tch..
oh tmr.. ..hm.. after work. wonder gonna settle sumtin anot.. .. gotta see first..
VKG me gonna watch the last epi already.. wohohoho... so cool. been so liong since i watced a real cool anime. :) will keep finding..
mata
05 August 2009
Quizzes!
hmm.. its kinda fast huh.. .. hm. .sort of.. .. sammy's been gone for almost 2 weeks now... .. ..just thought of it. ..never really counted the day.. ..but. ...yeah... ..
hm.. oh.. found a secret hideout for my lappy today at my shop. ^^ hehe happy! cos yup.. now the risk is low.. hm.. yeah.. but while charging,..still a big risk to take..
anyway.. tot of saving money right.. so today eat instand noodle.. but.. cant resist cravings too.. when zuan ask if wanna share money and buy donuts, me agree.-_- hee....o well... tmr then.. yeah..
so full.. and feel kinda sick.. hm.. maybe cos of the water from the kettle again.. something must be really wrong there... .. but nonetheless, me still gonna use that for my noodles.. just that me this time round wont drink any leftover bah.. huu.. terrible water.. -_-
haha.. was having so many quizzes.. XD so fun.. yeah.. with sammy on the line.. then got so many funny some even kinky type of quizzes.. haha.. yup.. night time is the best ne...
ah.. today so many angmoh customers.. in fact, these few days have alot.. then today, duno why got alot of black ppl. haha... yeah.. i really wonder why..
just now so full.. -_- now hungry already.. huu.. dunno wanna cook something later anot.. hm... but bro aint back.. haiyo. dislike to eat alone..
tired... tmr gotta wakey early.. but after finish work, will be free abit.. cos next day aftnoon shift.. cant wait for tmr to end seriously.. 8pm...
hm... slpy.. tmr will be a better day ne.. ..another day nearer.. ..for him to come back..
hm.. its full moon.. no wonder these few days is like... huu.. not really nice days for me. .hm. .how to say.. .. o well.. i really gotta remember.. certain things me told myself.. .. i'll feel easier if..yeah.. ..
mata
hm.. oh.. found a secret hideout for my lappy today at my shop. ^^ hehe happy! cos yup.. now the risk is low.. hm.. yeah.. but while charging,..still a big risk to take..
anyway.. tot of saving money right.. so today eat instand noodle.. but.. cant resist cravings too.. when zuan ask if wanna share money and buy donuts, me agree.-_- hee....o well... tmr then.. yeah..
so full.. and feel kinda sick.. hm.. maybe cos of the water from the kettle again.. something must be really wrong there... .. but nonetheless, me still gonna use that for my noodles.. just that me this time round wont drink any leftover bah.. huu.. terrible water.. -_-
haha.. was having so many quizzes.. XD so fun.. yeah.. with sammy on the line.. then got so many funny some even kinky type of quizzes.. haha.. yup.. night time is the best ne...
ah.. today so many angmoh customers.. in fact, these few days have alot.. then today, duno why got alot of black ppl. haha... yeah.. i really wonder why..
just now so full.. -_- now hungry already.. huu.. dunno wanna cook something later anot.. hm... but bro aint back.. haiyo. dislike to eat alone..
tired... tmr gotta wakey early.. but after finish work, will be free abit.. cos next day aftnoon shift.. cant wait for tmr to end seriously.. 8pm...
hm... slpy.. tmr will be a better day ne.. ..another day nearer.. ..for him to come back..
hm.. its full moon.. no wonder these few days is like... huu.. not really nice days for me. .hm. .how to say.. .. o well.. i really gotta remember.. certain things me told myself.. .. i'll feel easier if..yeah.. ..
mata
04 August 2009
Glad Thing are Fine Now. Phew
haven eat.. ..so tired... ...in the day.. dunno what overcomes me.. :( but tonight. .as usual. .alwayas the night.. its the best.. perhaps.. as they say.. save the best for last.. ..anyway.. forget whatever happen in the day.. im now... ...happy again.. another webby date passed.. i cant wait to see him.. i really2 couldnt waiat any longer.. checked my bank book.. last month indeed me went outta my budget.. but this month.. im gonna make sure im back on my tracks again..
his aloofness.. costs me my smile.. his smile makes me forget everything. u know who im talking about?.. he's someone really2 important in my life. .someone.. who's my pillar.. someone i cant imagine my life without.. yes.. he's that important.. above everything else..
to have a person like that.. to my heart.. its really precious.. i really.. ..really2...
finally.. at night.. he started talking to me normal again... otherwise.. me would feel still so sad.. :(
..... the feelings has gotten so much stronger than the last year.. when he's gone for 3weeks.. so much special now ne.. ..
im sooo hungry.. after finish msn then eat bah. .very slpy too.. keep yawning.. but.. dun wan eat just now.. cos otherwise would've missed out some precious time.. i hate that..
after eat will slp. no choice.. very tired already.. especially my legs.. i hope tmr will be a great day...
really gotta beat up the foolish me in the aftnoon argh..
mata ne..
his aloofness.. costs me my smile.. his smile makes me forget everything. u know who im talking about?.. he's someone really2 important in my life. .someone.. who's my pillar.. someone i cant imagine my life without.. yes.. he's that important.. above everything else..
to have a person like that.. to my heart.. its really precious.. i really.. ..really2...
finally.. at night.. he started talking to me normal again... otherwise.. me would feel still so sad.. :(
..... the feelings has gotten so much stronger than the last year.. when he's gone for 3weeks.. so much special now ne.. ..
im sooo hungry.. after finish msn then eat bah. .very slpy too.. keep yawning.. but.. dun wan eat just now.. cos otherwise would've missed out some precious time.. i hate that..
after eat will slp. no choice.. very tired already.. especially my legs.. i hope tmr will be a great day...
really gotta beat up the foolish me in the aftnoon argh..
mata ne..
I Hate Today's Off Day
todays my off day... been looking forward to my off.. cos been working real hard.. so... yeah.. very hard.. just wanna enjoy my off.. so.. yeah.. din had a nice slp.... keep wakey up then check my phone.. then.. yeah.. not a nice slp at all.. huu dunno why.. very3 uncomfy..
then online.. till mum got off from work..
checked my bank book.. thank goodness its fine. np.
oh ytd funny thing happened. theres this man.. came in my shop to browse ard.. before he left, he handed me this browser.. its those jesus christ thingy church.. dunno how many times i'd gotten that. anyway, he asked me to read it. its good for me.. then after closing, me take a peak at the paper.. and omg... -_- i saw something so amazing to me. lol.. theres thiss black and white photo behind the page. .and.. .its that guy who handed me the broswer!! XD hahaha.. so funny... its like.. seeing a ghost..
hmmm... ytd huh...... ....yeah.. still feeling terrible.. then i go my best med.. after chatting with sammy, me fine already. erm .. left 15% terrible only. ha. my miracle huh. ...sammy cured me..
as i was saying... ...oh.. after checking my bank book,
i joined mum in ntuc.. cos wanna get my grocery shopping done too. bought instant noodles.. come home if hungry can eat. .at work can eat also.. so.. yup.... can save alot of money..i think. ..
then had lunch... theres alot to share with sammy i thought....then... went back up to msn as usual... but... somethign really bad went wrong.. i took it as an offense.. long story.. dun wanna mention it.. both my mum and i thought wow.. dad finally gotten himself a job.. we're wondering hows he doing.. but... to our dismay,.. we received a call from him. .saying he's quitting.. cos dunno.. tough job, bz job.. blah3... then yeah.. of course me disappoited...
it aint my day today.. upset day... sammy nothing to talk to me either... im trying my best to say something... but... sigh...............
i wish................. theres another off for me tmr...
today bloggy so early.... cos feeling terrible.. ..sorry.. tonight maybe bloggy again. .hope i'll say something about.. wow.. how nice the night is.. ...but i doubt so..?.. .. cos half the day is gone. .and.. its bad.. :...(
mata
then online.. till mum got off from work..
checked my bank book.. thank goodness its fine. np.
oh ytd funny thing happened. theres this man.. came in my shop to browse ard.. before he left, he handed me this browser.. its those jesus christ thingy church.. dunno how many times i'd gotten that. anyway, he asked me to read it. its good for me.. then after closing, me take a peak at the paper.. and omg... -_- i saw something so amazing to me. lol.. theres thiss black and white photo behind the page. .and.. .its that guy who handed me the broswer!! XD hahaha.. so funny... its like.. seeing a ghost..
hmmm... ytd huh...... ....yeah.. still feeling terrible.. then i go my best med.. after chatting with sammy, me fine already. erm .. left 15% terrible only. ha. my miracle huh. ...sammy cured me..
as i was saying... ...oh.. after checking my bank book,
i joined mum in ntuc.. cos wanna get my grocery shopping done too. bought instant noodles.. come home if hungry can eat. .at work can eat also.. so.. yup.... can save alot of money..i think. ..
then had lunch... theres alot to share with sammy i thought....then... went back up to msn as usual... but... somethign really bad went wrong.. i took it as an offense.. long story.. dun wanna mention it.. both my mum and i thought wow.. dad finally gotten himself a job.. we're wondering hows he doing.. but... to our dismay,.. we received a call from him. .saying he's quitting.. cos dunno.. tough job, bz job.. blah3... then yeah.. of course me disappoited...
it aint my day today.. upset day... sammy nothing to talk to me either... im trying my best to say something... but... sigh...............
i wish................. theres another off for me tmr...
today bloggy so early.... cos feeling terrible.. ..sorry.. tonight maybe bloggy again. .hope i'll say something about.. wow.. how nice the night is.. ...but i doubt so..?.. .. cos half the day is gone. .and.. its bad.. :...(
mata
03 August 2009
Case Of Food Poisoning?
haiyo... .dunno me food poison or what... just feel terrible bah... huu
even also..
it happened after me done with stocks. shoot... feeling soooo super terrible... :(
stand.. walk.. band down.. sigh.. terrible..
today nothing much bah.. online.. work.. ah. then watch anime.. hehe. cool. finally got time to watch. my fav one. tch.. sucks.. me feel like wanna faint..
hmm..... then.. oh.. today was chatting with this customer.. nice person. been to germany.. next going to finland.. ha..finland.. he say its sooo clean there. hm.. hopefully ne.. one day will get to see it.
then he was oh im chinese ar!! -_- cos he say me speak like a malay.. -_- even till now so many ppl say that.. haiyo
...stomach growling now.. :( dunno got the energy to eat anot.. i hope my bro will cum back tonight.. though got a feeling he wouldnt.. me dislike to be left alone when me can slp late..
:( huuuu me feel so sick...
:( sigh
sux
cant concentrate on blogigng.. u know how bad my stomach is growling now?? me so tired and weak to cook...
huu is it becos of the plastic smelling kettle water?... or the food. .or ice coffee..
this morning.. dad's fren dropped by.. he's a very rude and untrustworthy man. i think he should be the man my mum mentioned not long ago. argh.. one look, and i know he's not a good guy.. not say one look but... haiyo.. its just those sixth snese of feeling.. called it my guts bah..
hm.. hopefully let my mum know later. argh.. actually forgot about it.
hm.. today at my shop.. i think my eyes are playing tricks on me.. even give me the goose bumps.. me dun like.. as if feeling some kind of death is near.. ..:(
eew.. me don like this feeling..
i cant smile much now,, me must be looking so fierce and bad now huh?.. no energy to smile...
mata
even also..
it happened after me done with stocks. shoot... feeling soooo super terrible... :(
stand.. walk.. band down.. sigh.. terrible..
today nothing much bah.. online.. work.. ah. then watch anime.. hehe. cool. finally got time to watch. my fav one. tch.. sucks.. me feel like wanna faint..
hmm..... then.. oh.. today was chatting with this customer.. nice person. been to germany.. next going to finland.. ha..finland.. he say its sooo clean there. hm.. hopefully ne.. one day will get to see it.
then he was oh im chinese ar!! -_- cos he say me speak like a malay.. -_- even till now so many ppl say that.. haiyo
...stomach growling now.. :( dunno got the energy to eat anot.. i hope my bro will cum back tonight.. though got a feeling he wouldnt.. me dislike to be left alone when me can slp late..
:( huuuu me feel so sick...
:( sigh
sux
cant concentrate on blogigng.. u know how bad my stomach is growling now?? me so tired and weak to cook...
huu is it becos of the plastic smelling kettle water?... or the food. .or ice coffee..
this morning.. dad's fren dropped by.. he's a very rude and untrustworthy man. i think he should be the man my mum mentioned not long ago. argh.. one look, and i know he's not a good guy.. not say one look but... haiyo.. its just those sixth snese of feeling.. called it my guts bah..
hm.. hopefully let my mum know later. argh.. actually forgot about it.
hm.. today at my shop.. i think my eyes are playing tricks on me.. even give me the goose bumps.. me dun like.. as if feeling some kind of death is near.. ..:(
eew.. me don like this feeling..
i cant smile much now,, me must be looking so fierce and bad now huh?.. no energy to smile...
mata
02 August 2009
Refer to my friendster blog please ^^
due to some problems occured, my blog for 2nd august 2009, please refer to my friendster blog. thanks... :)
01 August 2009
Wanna Rush home 2
sianz..................-_- so tired.... ...and then rush back to msn.. really cant wait. gosh.. a long2 day.. head out today.. cos was supposed to pass her her belated pressy.. but forgot to bring!! so paiseh!! omg.. then.. yeah.. cos sam say he'll be out whole day.. ..so me reakon must be like last time ne. .till 12 am pus then cum back.. so. .yeah. .went out.. then got to know he reach home already.. haiyo... then me worried.. so wanna get back asap.. my heart.. really yearning to get back.. so.. yes.. after dessert, me meet izuan and raz up.. cos they wanna pass me my b'day belated pressy.. then. .yeah. .zuan ask wanna watch movie and hang out anot. .a pity me cant.. i got someone most important to attend to. so.. yes.. .. just hate it when me cant get to spend time with him.. so.. yup. nearly wanna take cab again.. but lucky bus came.. and yes.. im home. .then we chatted. .played this bouncy game.. ha. was fun. laughing lots.. and suddenly im not alone in presense again. im just so glad happy feelings are back again.. the power of missing someone.. ...its alot... ...alot3... everywhere..
this morning.. bus passed by iluma.. thoughts of how he used to hold my hands.. walking together.. crossing the road just to get there.. it just came to me.. .. then theres this outside raffles place... first time meet, and go out together.. atlas.. sitting at this stone thingy.. was talking about how he used to watch, wait and slp n the car while his frens are in the club..(me so worried..:( for him) then he say.. smilingly.. now i know who to call everytime when im bored there. i say.. yeah. .tehn isnt thata expensive?.. his parents pay??!XD he replied.. yeah.. don care. ..that time ne.. .. we're still not familiar lots yet.. frens.. ..yet.. hm. .sumtin is coming.. ..yeah... those innocent smile and words... who could ever forget...?....
he even once said everyday will fly back..
..
bought the shorts.. finally got my size.. its kinda importaan to me. .cos the sshorts really comfy!! and also.. ..thats the shorts me and him trying to find.. but din get cos no stocks.. so.. yup.. glad me finally bought it.. lots of memories there.. ..from heeren to.. ..
zuan and raz bought me weird but difficult to find 'things'...=.= hahaha. but.. yeah.. appreciated.. :) thanks guys,, aand also luthfi.. he still keep to his promise this year ne.. :) gib me a belated b'day msg.. and yeah. .was sooo surprised.. haha. tot he'd forgotten.. so.. yup. :) thx luth..... wont forget yours either. :)
my fren... one of the twins.. wow.. she's getting engaged!! next year getting married!! she's my age u know!XD omg.. happy for her.. wow.. to think that time me still worked with her at p.p.... then always see her and her guy.. awww.. so sweet... :) congrats.. me wish her all the best.. :) so glad thigns went so well for them yay :) hehe
my fren like this guy.. he's attached.. gf in another place.. he's very devoted i heard. very sweet. then she met another one she took an interest on.:) in uni.. just broken up after about a month. gf ah lian type.. not super ah lian.. but the type who loves to play alot. so.. saw his pic.. yes.. pity him also.. a guy like him should be with someone like my fren. yup2.. ...well.. hope her love life will be great ne. gdluck.
public holiday i work.. ok. next day monday ppl off, i full again. both full. ONLY ME. im pissed off.. .but... ...sigh.. ..speechless... even zuan also dun get it.. heard sep gotta have 3 weeks of promo again. omg........... omg4... can die.. why cant they ahve it after i quit?:( ... gonna be so stress.. ... sigh.................... ...... ...i hope they wont ask the guy who wanna get to know me, to cum. shoot.. me hate promo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i miss.. him so much.. wonder hows he doing now.. his day is ok today.. with ice cream somemore.. ha.. ..let him enjoy abit bah.. .. if me today at home,.. he wont get any nice food nor ice cream..
and for that guy who keep saying what.. for his girl, she neednt need to reach out for her pocket.. what.. he'll reach into his.. omg... rich?? or just plain nonsense. -_- me don get this type of guy.
frenster blog.. ..hm. .so far same as here.. no changes so far i think hahah
jaa mata.
this morning.. bus passed by iluma.. thoughts of how he used to hold my hands.. walking together.. crossing the road just to get there.. it just came to me.. .. then theres this outside raffles place... first time meet, and go out together.. atlas.. sitting at this stone thingy.. was talking about how he used to watch, wait and slp n the car while his frens are in the club..(me so worried..:( for him) then he say.. smilingly.. now i know who to call everytime when im bored there. i say.. yeah. .tehn isnt thata expensive?.. his parents pay??!XD he replied.. yeah.. don care. ..that time ne.. .. we're still not familiar lots yet.. frens.. ..yet.. hm. .sumtin is coming.. ..yeah... those innocent smile and words... who could ever forget...?....
he even once said everyday will fly back..
..
bought the shorts.. finally got my size.. its kinda importaan to me. .cos the sshorts really comfy!! and also.. ..thats the shorts me and him trying to find.. but din get cos no stocks.. so.. yup.. glad me finally bought it.. lots of memories there.. ..from heeren to.. ..
zuan and raz bought me weird but difficult to find 'things'...=.= hahaha. but.. yeah.. appreciated.. :) thanks guys,, aand also luthfi.. he still keep to his promise this year ne.. :) gib me a belated b'day msg.. and yeah. .was sooo surprised.. haha. tot he'd forgotten.. so.. yup. :) thx luth..... wont forget yours either. :)
my fren... one of the twins.. wow.. she's getting engaged!! next year getting married!! she's my age u know!XD omg.. happy for her.. wow.. to think that time me still worked with her at p.p.... then always see her and her guy.. awww.. so sweet... :) congrats.. me wish her all the best.. :) so glad thigns went so well for them yay :) hehe
my fren like this guy.. he's attached.. gf in another place.. he's very devoted i heard. very sweet. then she met another one she took an interest on.:) in uni.. just broken up after about a month. gf ah lian type.. not super ah lian.. but the type who loves to play alot. so.. saw his pic.. yes.. pity him also.. a guy like him should be with someone like my fren. yup2.. ...well.. hope her love life will be great ne. gdluck.
public holiday i work.. ok. next day monday ppl off, i full again. both full. ONLY ME. im pissed off.. .but... ...sigh.. ..speechless... even zuan also dun get it.. heard sep gotta have 3 weeks of promo again. omg........... omg4... can die.. why cant they ahve it after i quit?:( ... gonna be so stress.. ... sigh.................... ...... ...i hope they wont ask the guy who wanna get to know me, to cum. shoot.. me hate promo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i miss.. him so much.. wonder hows he doing now.. his day is ok today.. with ice cream somemore.. ha.. ..let him enjoy abit bah.. .. if me today at home,.. he wont get any nice food nor ice cream..
and for that guy who keep saying what.. for his girl, she neednt need to reach out for her pocket.. what.. he'll reach into his.. omg... rich?? or just plain nonsense. -_- me don get this type of guy.
frenster blog.. ..hm. .so far same as here.. no changes so far i think hahah
jaa mata.
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