Anger Exploded

so freaking angry... since morning.. so many things happen.. argh.... sianz........... i was so super angry.. i blast the sound system.. and i was like. pushing the erm.. wood.. erm. .board or sumtin.. more of like. slamming it. and.. yeah.. it broke abit off the edge. omg.

was talking with chan lu.. then mention sumtin.. ...and... ...it brings back my memories.. i miss it when sammy called everynight before slp.. :( never really thought of that ya know.. ..but yeah... ... ..sigh. .a kind of miss feeling that cant be pen down...

despite knowing i'll cry. .still i yearned for his voice... ..i reach out for my phone. .playing the heartfelt msg from him.. ..it was.. a feeling that cant be tell..

gosh.... angry3........... i was cursing so much today. :( i find myself rude. but.. yeah.. once my anger been ignited, im not sensible anymore.

today supposed to be my mrg shift... ...but.. .sigh... became my full instead. cos ppl dun wanna come work no more. argh.... so.. tmr see whats the situation... im desperate in need of destress now. argh... so tired yet.... huu..

so many fullshifts.. yet other outlets get 2 off per week. :( im so sad. zuan decided to take mc in one of his 8 full. ..i think im gonna too. what if i take it on the hari raya. ha.. they'll kill me ne. argh... really so sianz... :(

october.. so wish to get leave.. huu....

see how bah

but first, this week, im gonna be working like mad. and freaking tired to the core. but when u gone mad, anything is possible already. -_- yes.. anything ..at first i thought heck care. but then.. realised nvm.. just do it. -_- sianz

ok.............. ...tmr.. i hope theres good news for me ne.

aint just me.. my frens all drn stress at this job. -_- its darn stress..

aww.. .im so sorry.. to curse in front of my frens today.. hate it.. using those words.. its not me.. but.. well.. the angry me i guess... huu.. so rude ne atashi..
but for them me used to it already.. but me think they are surprised to hear that outta me.

erm.. so.. yeah.. basically its like that.. haiyo

oh.. .cos its the so called seventh month ghost festival here.. ...zuan mentioned about the late gerick.. and erm.. ...yeah. .he say one of his fren already kena disturb by him.. jokingly ask me to be careful.. but i aint bother by it.. what im still thinking about is... ..
zuan still remember... he ask me today.. how ar.. if gerick that time never die. and he cast a spell for me to fall in lvove with him.. cos he was already planning to do that. ..yeah. .it's still creepy when i thought of that.. .. imagine loving someone not of one's will.. ... :( .. argh.. ..

...oh well....... nah.. i dun care about these things.. all i want is, for my 3 months to get done and over with. wahahahah... then i'll be relax everyday :) can do whatever i want. ha

hm............ ...well.. ..so far things are like this.. ... its been a very tiring and stressful day for me. .tot could go out.. huu.. then full again.. slpy too..

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