Cleaning.. Very Free Day

yes.. finally got this chance to clean up my room....... ... today my off day.. never cook..

cleaning up soft toys area now.. .. listening to the cd he gib me.. .. just reminded me.. the very first soft toy he gave me.. a musical pooh bear.. i was holding it to my ear.. resting my head against it.. listening to the melody.. he commented to me.. 'so cute!'.. yes.. thats my first.. my very first soft toy he gib me.. by the catching toy machine...

.... im working hard.. dunno how things are gonna be like in the future.. but i know i gotta work hard.. its gonna be very3 tough u know.. gonna hang on. .cos i got my sammy piller with me. gonna hold on tight.. it svery stressful i know.. but there's someone waititng there for me. and i.. i got a few years to hit.. and.. ..and.. .. no matter what happen.. i'll always remember.. so.. i got these memories to oull me through.. dunno how its gonna work.. but. im striving me best.. and.. yes.. .. i shall see..

oh. hahahaa... song is playing 'one in a million' now.. nice song huh.. 'you're one in a million.. once in a lifetime....' erm.. anyway... hm.. ehh.. XD omg. .forgot what i wanna say.. ..

hm.. today very stress.. not just work.. some stuffs. are diffcult to figure out.. like i'd said.. if me find ppl to talk with.. i dunno. im alwasy scared.. they'll ignore me.. and just gib me a lame advice.. .. theres sammy though.. but.. ..i wish sammy's here..

life's gotten real tough without sammy.. with sammy ard.. life's always full of laughters everyday.. basically can see me smile always.. its totally different when me smile or laugh with my frens..

ne....................... ...........im hanging on ne... kurushii desu.. demo.. ...demo.... sammy chan wa.. watakushi wa kare to issho ni imashita.. zutto desu.. but now.. ...

'let it start from where it took off..'

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...perhaps i might blog again. ...cos me now stress... thats why blog now..

..do u think he finds me a nuisance?.. ..:(

i wanna be by his side forever.. u know who that is?.. do u know what i mean? and whats my determination like?..

im giving my best to keep my promise alive.

me wakey so early today.. 8.30am.. omg. dunno why.. just cant slp back.. if theres sammy ard, sure can slp till late aftnoon i assured u.

i need so much strength right now.. till me tot my piller cant gib me enuff.. but then again.. thats where i get all my hopes and future from.. sure will work out. so.. next year.. ..

u know... ...theres alot fo things.. i know... i may seem blur.. and naive. but. .i know. i know alot. hardships.. future.. life.. death.. its either life or death for me. life thats alot to work hard for. death, its nothing but death. life... uncertainties.. but.. alot of lvoe waiting.. why give up? no reason to.
i know alot.. but becos of my blurness, alot of ppl often take me for.. u know.. someone whos super naive.. but... i know.. i'll let ppl say that of me if only im those typical girls out there. but im not. .. im not born with a golden spoon there.. my mum's great.. but theres only one person thats important in my Life. ..

beach.. sentosa.. fetching me from work.. buying breakfast.. eating together. .those lovey fries.. who can forget huh... ...

sorry.. when im stress, i tend to reveal alot... ...

and so.. ..........................

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well.. .. this is my off day..

waititng for samy to reach home now..

why is the best thing life.. always so difficult to acheive... becos.. 'they' wanna see if we deserve it?.. ..

*shout...........................

i will feel better..... .. ..desu ne.. .

tot of paying dota whole aftnoon. but.. still abit of cleaing to do..

jaa..
mate ne.

- what is our purpose in life? there's a reason for your existence. he asked. she replied.. she was born to be together with him..-