Why are they doing this? =/

wow... today found out from my new colleague.. that her father is indian, but christian.. pastor at that. omg. so super duper strict. only want his daughters to marry christians.. cant be muslim.. well, her sis used to have to bf for 3 years. then dad found out, and forced them apart. .however they continue another 2 more years secretly behind parents back.. but didnt work out cos bf studying in australia dating another girl behind her back. jerk eh... then.. theres this france angmoh guy. woo her. and they are now living together. she's 24 only. so yea. but i asked .. is their father ok with the france guy? well, yes she said. cos hes a catholic =.= ... dots. i dont get it. .why must religion be part of this relationship thing. its digusting. i mena.. what era are we in right now?? oh gosh -_- and poor my colleague.. haiz.. also secretly dating a muslim guy at the moment.. everytime go out on dates, have to choose fdar far away place. .i warned her of the pains in future to come though.. well, all the best to her ba... yea.. .
at least her sis found happiness with the french guy eh. so yea...
wahst wrong ith parents nowadasy.. even my colleagu also know... parents have no right sto force anyone apart. its too cruel to do such thigns to their own flesh and blood. well, her sis was very very mad at her parents for a very very long time she said...
weird eh.. seems as though these thigns thas happening to me, are happening around me too... she asked.. whether i'l lstil lcry if i tlak about him. well, u know.. paisn will always be there. .scars that could never be heal... and yea.. she understands too... the wound is still so fresh... of course .. o well..
i guess... certain guys just cant be trusted especially when they're overseas huh.. =/
another case... again. colleague of mine. omg. this is happening to al lof us.. =.=
her sis too... study in melboune. bf study in sydney for 2 years. after that, sis added 10 kg to her weight. then bf dumped her. wth? isnt that disgraceful> what a jerk. oh dear. =.= heard she used to be very hot and alot of guys like her... then after putting on weight, kena dump. such a bloody jerk eh. o well..
thats humans for you. ha
gosh i am so freaking tired. sleepy. but yet soooo tired =/
i have more to deal with in the next couple of days. imma be like busy non stop. i wouldnt have much rest nor life. just for a couple of days time. n i cant wait for all that to be over man . gosh... haiz...
=/ life sometimes.. its too difficult to be happy don u think...
o well..
anwyay, oh gosh. i just realsied that i have to renew my passport!!! and i heard it cost frggin 70 bucks!!!! arghhhhh pfft! if not for the jan holiday, i wouldnt even bother to trouble myself man. somemore wanna buy tix early =/ .. so  yea... relly need to get ready for passport now. haiz. so troublesome.. n expensive T_T ..huu...will try to do it asap ba=/ thc.. so troublesome... hopefully done before sep.gosh.. need to check out the cny date.. wonde rif jan 13 will be good.. mm.... anwyay yea. gosh my fren alreayd booked her auckland tix. huu. .so envious. nvm. soon my turn. 2 or 3 more months to go!!! hang on. huu...
mata 

After going through days of hell, yesterday was the best day yet

hi guys.. so much to blog. .but i think i've forgotten some alreyad.. .. anwyay... 

ytd was such aamazing day... i dunno... ok.. first we start off with a dream i had.. ytd.. i dreamt of flying all the way to sydney. .just to see him.. so me and him hang out... eat.. tlak..  very very casual.. like just hanging out as normal frineds.. no kissing.. no holding hands.. just frens kinda.. u know. outing.. =/ then wakey kindasad... sighs.. so yea.. throughout the way feelign down.. u know hows its like to miss someone.. ..so yea.. in bus suddenly thought of wiggling nose wiht him.. ha. .cry sia. lol. dunno ba. .ytd was such a weird day...
then nigh titme.. received msg form him.. its like. i was very surprised. its as though our hearts are connected. i dunno... but should be eh.. .thinking of each other the whole day.. and missing liek crazy.. just wanna meet him and go on dates or what.... haiz.. =/
so yea... amazingly enough, somehow ytd was just like that.. and yea... same feelings eh... tlak about being hearts conencted..and being as one eh... wonder if anything happen to me one day, he could felt it too huh. like movies eh. ha...

anwayy.. so suddenly he say gonna skype me. was like.. wow.O.o... and.. we did.. and before i speak, i t was a lil awkeward amd nervbous.. and.. yea.. just abit weird... cos dunno hwats gonna come outta my mouth.. then finally... we talked. after months of missing his voice. especially yesterday -_-..
but ye.a.. jsut talk.. u knw.. and forgot words he used to use.. and expression.. and there it is.. my fav puppy cutesy voice of his.. .ha.. yea.. i think he tlaks more than i do.. i was still kinda like too overwhelm by this call.. so many thigns to sya.. yet couldnt bring myself to... dunno where to start.. how to start.. but still so great to hear somebody says i love u.

..so yea.. that was such an amazing night.and i was supposed to be working on sat night. but cos colleague changed shifts with me, thus i didnt have to work for sat ngiht. which is great. if not for my colleague., i would've never get tht call.... .. so yea. o well...
cant explain.. just such a miraculous call... uh huh... .

the most important man in my life. isnt my father. he's someone else. but guess u all should know by now eh. =)

 a couple of new staffs... says im so young. like.. so young tehn be a asm alreayd. but u know. im not like my rsm. thinking only with great ages, u  can make do big things.  i hate those type of thingkins. whatever u can do, has nothign to do with ur age. if u are good, u are good. if u not, at 45 years old u still aint gonna be good enough. 

and u know. quite long ago, my customers were tlaking about paul n kristina. and complimenting how great paul is. to sell his house just to helf his love one. =) aww... i know . haha. somemore she know nothign about business. she knows nothign much about english language. cos shes from sweden. no money nothing. yet this is what tey acheived. =) veyr very well done. at first she find someone to make notebooks for them. but no. they say cant help them make 1000pcs or 6000... it has to be 10 000 or 100 000.. exact figure i cant rememebr.. but it was shcoking. imagine ne... if u were her, who wouldnt freak out. print so much books, need so much moneuy. in the end if no one buy how??? somemore using pauls money. wow. wha a couple eh. i relaly admire them. so strong. =) 

me will ahev a lot of things to settel and do... soon. very soon. tough, but well, lets jsut do it man. haiz...
glad training most of the staffs are over. phew...

memories stays with you for eternal lifetime...
 im grateful to've great memories for that past 3 years. how about u guys. any memories like that deep with emotions makes u wish to grab hold of what u want.. and wishing to go back to those awesome times? 

just remember time wont wait fo ru. pursue what or who u love.  because in the end, u'll know they will stay by ur side till the end of time.. 

mm.. well, i cant remember what else to blog... haiyo... only could remmeber ytd.. ha. so yea..
i even woke up a couple of itmes.. thinking.. hey wait.. just now that call, was it for real? was that just a dream again?? .. but glad to say.. yes, its real. i heard his voice. and that wasnt a dream after all =)

waiting for my dinner.. gosh. that day my lunch. such a huge plate of rice. omg. but i finish up everyting. lol. was so hungry. kinda thought i coulnt.. but i did ate it all up. haha. yea.. huge plate of rice. heh

haiz. hope the busy days will be over soon... =/

..jaa, mata

someone to..with

..sighs. it is so nice to receive email from my amanger. previous one. the melb one.
sighs.. =/ so much to say. but coldnt. so kept it under my heart.  so let it out to her. good thing she email. so yea... sighs..
now i feelt light.? ... yea.. .. sighs. just u know.. =/ .... sighs...................... =(

at least certain mattes about work i stil can talk to her. which i s good. but. o welll..

so much been giing on. no one to talk abou this to. hate complcations about work u see. sighs....

just feel like crying now. u know how it feels eh.. after takling. and letting oit all outm u sjut wana cry or do somethign to forget allt hese troubles. . so yea.. sighs...

at least she cares... i htink

mata

Grown

sighs/. just alot of things going on there....

busy and stuff.. o well
haiz. dunno what to say ba. jus feels liek i need to relax again.. =/ but yea ./o well... ...
haiz.

if only life doesnt have to be this way....
 ytd me stil lsounds pretyt good eh. .tlaking about my fetish n all..
haiz. .duno ne... perhapos just too tired ba..
but yea.. .
ne. sighs.. life without ur love one is so sick. so sianz.. =/
nothign to look forward to.
u forced to change. yet.. o well... haiz. nothing still change.
i duno
kinda

but overall. .compared to years before, i've grown. really grown. so  so much. thasnk to him mostly
k.. tlak soon ba. blog another day

jaa

Bras and boobs ;)

as expected.. well, i knew being a manager in store will receive all sorts of calls at work.. including in ur off dya. htough i aint a manager, still i rceived a couple of calles todya.. o well. .waht to do eh.
.... sighs.

anwayy,lets not talk about workl now shall we.

lol. was eating with paents.. then dad suddenluy say.. ive put on weight. was like. huh?? asked mum. mum so tired today.. =/ then she say yea.. face...
i was like.. wow.really? tats like wow. lol. so out of curiosyt, i wanted to know whats my weifght now. never weight myself at all. hate doing htat =.=
so was liek thinking.. ok. have i put on weight till 45 ? or more? then..... ...just 41kg. =.= ...''' dots. lightest i am was 39 i think>>> ??? yea. 41 is still too light! i eat whawtever i want at anytime. even midnight an hour be\fore slping, glopes down a huge bowl of pasta. dots. nonthelss, couldnt resist, so still wanna eat. ... ha.
but yea. maybe im having my period now? i think so ba... .anyway dunno. ha. my mum always sya.. girl.. gain more weight.. see.. u so skinnyno .w.w. that time u chuby, face round round. .so pretyt. .so ncie... now so skinny... lol.
o well, either way, its good for me ba i supposed =P heh
then... dad also asked me one thing. alwyas.. .omg. he said.. mum asked u have bf anot? got get new bf outside?> u still contact with sam ar? ...
mum said.. u wanna go for matchmaking?

...=.='''' i was like... omg... wth was that????? ... i never expected them to say such thigns. but then again u know.. their era.. somemore... maybe their afraid that after my first love failed,.. u know.. .. haiz... but so weird n funny. mum asked me go matchmake? over my dead body. not liek i nobody want sme. just that i dont want to accept them onlyu. lol. omg. please.. i wish they wont talked about htis matter no more =/
..haiz. so yea.. ..
ok. so.. recenly i learnt that. .women should changed their bras every 6 months. every 9 months get a new piece of bra. cos they loosen up and lose their elasticity.
ok. so grat. get to buy new bras.. change 3... =) but.. omg. money!! spend3... somemore imagine.. u bought a poiece of bra at 60 over dollars. throw it awya and throw it awya 6 months later?? wow.
not good. gosh.. so far. ...haiz. me wanna throw.. but.. liek cant bear to do so ne.. =/. but hten again.. well, i should... haiz...
u know. if i ever get married, i'll be spending heaps of money on lingeries fo rmy future hubby. lool. nightwears yo!! been waiting ,.. o well.. unfortunately, still waiting .. huu. cos cant wear with family around in house=/ what a pity. sihgs.
really ne.. so down man =/ ... at leats if live alone, or with bf, can wear all i want right? but with parents around =( sighs... how sia.... tch.. u guys know me.. haiz... just wanna buy them and wear it.. a pity theres no ways to.. unless i get married, or im staying alone.
i know. my mum sometimes said to me when i was little.. whats the use of buying so exp lingerires when ppl cant see>? u know. i cant agree with her. at leat when u are wearing it, u feel so much sexier, and confident!!! =) awesome feeling. hehe so yea.... it does make a difference.... and sadly to say, recently i found that my corset was liek small. too small. i dunno. i hoppe its cos im havingmy period. =/ my boobs are bigger now!! so corset cups,. gosh.. small i felt. and they aint cheap. =/ just hope its only cos of period. experts also say that.. u have to get urself measure veery 6 months.. (omg like eyesight sia=.=)  cos ur boobs changes from tiem to itme.. pms.. pregnant..weightloos.. etc
i don tlike being too skinny liek most of malay frens are. cos boobs are very4 small!! arms liek bones. eew.... i dont want. =/ so when even parents said i put on weight on my face, i was kinda relieves. phew. ..... yea. i want curves. not bones. how great eh. if after birth, u gained more curves. i craved and wishes for htat. .however not now.. =/ as .. o well.. u guys knw my situations... =/ so yea... hoepfully after im married, if i ever have a childm , i would go for htat killer curves ;) thta, is wat womes are meant to be.
even after birth, ha. she can be so much hotter. i donw ant to me those 2 of my school mates . after marriage.. work.. without life... ads stuff. i wana be a modern one. and be the best mum and sexist one ever alive. i will. trust me on that ;)
o well. thats all in the future.

anwyay so yea. ithink ne. i got good curves from my mum. good though. becaouse i don wish to be so fat. and yet so skinny like most malay girls are. i wanna be in the middle. =)
awesome eh. ha.yea.. at least i know who i want to be.but fututre.. seems so far and so.. unreachable.. i dunno when i can reach that. but vcertainly not through matchmake!!!!!!! -_-''

overall, no matter hwat size u are, just be confident. of who u are. wheere u came from. u know? feel sexy, and feel beautiul.. and when u do,(in the right way pls) u'l have the most satisfaction feeling ever in this world =)
the righ tway i meant. .was.. not to be overcon\fident. some ppl. . dnno wahtt hey thinking. .just wear bitches clotehs.. smoke.. dirnk. .tears... make out with strangers.. get what i mean>? thats not sexy . that spells bitch. =.=
so yea. please. don ever becoem or go for indecent women. those type of womne, are of disgrace of us all. well, u know what i mean.
 so yea....  o well.
k. have fun tonight. tmr., harder work with video shooting n rsm communications..


gusy. .tell me.. why am i working so hard towrads for? for future. what futurre??? whast in there?....


great. good to know im wearing more than a A cup size. much bigger thanz that. phew./awesome. hate to be one of those women whos wearing the wrong bra sixe =/
i wonder sometiems.. would u guys ever give up for somethign u relaly love and meant the most to u just becos of family?.; .what if they were wrongf n u are right. which side would u rather give up to?...if u have to..


mata

My 2nd trip to sydney

wow. alreayd published over 1400 blogs.... ha.. been so long eh...
gosh. hate watching gore movies at the wrong time. but what to do. bro and redz wanna watch. me nohinf to do. just watch lor =( really don wan ne. just dislike the feeling of watching a movie so stressful,upsetting, and puzzling. life and work alreayd so stressful. still watch this kind of movie. omg. i c ant take it =. so yea. just head butt watch through lor. sianzzzzzz wasted couple hours of my ;life span =.= grrr...
stresssssssssssssssss argh.. rather watch a comedy movide to destress=.=
sighs.. cant wait to destress myself. god knows how. =/ but haiz. .so impossible.
mm.. anytway. .. haiz. dunno how long imma carry this one manager in store position. like im working for free sia. wth. working for free manager post while wauting for new manager. better get one fast. otherwise expect me to work for both asm and sm posotions ?? if have more pay, im ok. but same pay, but do more job. grr... unfair.
but glad to say one thing though. the malay manager is gone. woots!!!!!!!!!!!! cheeres. he's bene cancelled off. becos my rsm need to call up his previous company and talk. but the malay manager don allow. so too bad. he cant take this job. boo yea!!! omg. when are they having any chinese managers?????? so far all managers, asm are malays!!!!!!! wtf. =.=
hopefully the next manager to join me is chinese... haiz...
see.. we watched hill have eyes 2. now make me so stress. -_-'' not happy at all. haiz... stressful movie to watch sia. though rather watch insidious again. ha
mmm... forgot what i have to blog. .gosh. .keep forgetting.
anyway, the video shooting will begin on wed. not 100% tht imma be in it. i rather wish they cut me off though. =.= omg. don wan my frens find out where im working sia. dots..... but anwyay, we shall see how then. hopefully i wont have to go through all those troubles. ..
mm... haiz.. yup. thats all folks. cant thinki of anythign righ tnow. haiz. just wish... i could go on a hooliday now..
away, regarding the tics,. now lazy again. ha. yea... what to do. tix price wanna rise somemore just let it be ba. sept then see how. yea.. lazy alreayd.. dunno when can buy or .. yea.. .o well =/ think ive alreayd had in mind which dates to go. but wish it wont fall on cny again!!!!! =.=
n no period at all when im having my one week or so holiday. pray hard man .
so yea...
oh, drank the very nice pearl milk tea with grass jelly. reminded me of being in syd drinking it wiht him,.. nice memories.. yea.. indeed so.... ... o well.......
ha. then open eyes, dots. its sg. XD not bad. but just wanna head overseas for holiday n shop n just relax. sometimes misses the cold breeze... but hate shops close so early!!! then nothign to do, noweher eto go. BORING.... =.= serisouly no wonder so many ppl nothing to do at night, but drink7..... drinking all day n night. ha. crazy. hate.. nah. nvm. anyway... yea. but definitely misses the sun!! hot bright sun. sometimes even hotter than sg. but i do like. same. but sometiems when cold wind blows, and its liek with a bloody hot sun up in the air, not nice. don really like. i dunno. wait. i forgot. do i liek that? ha.. dunno. but ove there, the sun is shining at u everywhere u go. theres no shlters nor shades.. nor underpass with aircon like singapore. so u get the sun everywhere u go. under the bright hot sun
sometiems i really like. but, when u sweat, oh bother. and have to walk so long road,... yea. their roads are longgggggggggg =.='' ha. i should just spend a good long day at the beach eh. doing nothing. but not during night time. still remember what my sg rsm said. kena robbed. ha. scary night place eh.
o well.. shall see how ba. this time i head htere, situations should be pretty different now... so yea... also dunno whats gonna happen.
haiz.. =/ duno why. just a feeling ba.. like.. dunno. nothing to look forward to my birthday. like.... ....dunno whats in front of me.
sometimes ppl say.. life is full of surprises.. .life is uncertainties. i go with the 2nd one.
he once asked me. i like those kind of future questions.
would u rather to have a pet first, or a baby first. hahaha. swt huh. interesting.
and the pictures of houses .. diff apartments type in syd he showed me... always wonder how does he realy feel or think when he showed me that.. u know. but not fully .so just curious. but anwyay, thats not happening now .. so.. questions will always.. be a questions..in my heart n thguohts. ... sobx.
tired. migraine at 530. couldnt slp =/ straight away just get up and walk whe its time to. =/ dizzy n weak. din ffeel well one bit. sighs. but yea. like i always said.. glad the day is over now. one down. another to come... ... but there isnt much of excitement. i dunno whats there to look forward to in the future. seesm so uncertain n blur.. u cant se.e.. cant tell.. it is unknown.. yet so.. frightening.. and .. i dunno... o well
i think. ... perhasp soon im ready to post out pics of me in syd.. but without..o well. .u know.. =/ just in case troubles again. ... but anway.. always nice to just look back of the opics i took in syd.
so diff i looked. or feel. i dunno. isit? not sure... but could be.. ?.. the girl in the pic who used to look so blissed and blessful is now gone. that smiel and face..   i wonder if all that aura are gone... ...
so weird how being heartbroken could cause someone to change drastically sometimes... ...perhaps just a failed attempt to pretend that everything is fine. or... tryig to lie to myself. to hide. not to face it. no one to face with anwayy.
..sighs.
k. tiem to rest more.
mata

Help Me Stay Put

this is so weird. thoguht i had somethign to blog so badfly =/ but cant remember nwo. weird. =(

anwyay.. mg. i ttok a photot of a bubble coming outta the tip of a beer. but then it was gone. today i look at the pic again, the pic was gone bizarre. ogm . im not joking. its lie .i remenber vivdly that.. i was looking at the pic even after i shot it. the bubble so nice n pretty. i smiled to it too .then todya when i went throught my gallery, it was gone. ... omg. wth??? it was scary. i ddunno hwy. but .. o well. whatever. as long as it wont kill me. ha
recent;y met up with my old mate. good. yea it was good. .... same thign. first thing he said to me was.. wow, u've really changed alot. like all my frens does. i still have no idea what changes are they talking about . bu/t. ... u know... ........ for some periods there, i felt i was so abandonedby someone so important to me. i still does infact. ... four months plus and so on. OMG. wtf. it is so short. suh a fuc*ing short itme. yet it felt liek ages. i cant believe his =( can u??? only 4 months or so passed.... ... sighs... am i dreaming>??????? =( wow. such a short perid of time. but to change a person, so fast. and so cruel. and yet felt so short. i thought its alreayd been a years time.
uits bloody cruel indeed....

oh. u guys might see me in a vieo soon. im not so sure of whats going of. but i vertainly wish i dont have to go through this. but if i sdo, omg...... .. omg ...so bloody omg.... i hope my frens wont recognize me. and i hoep it s not a poubnlic vidfeo htingy.



mata

insidiously good

hi guys.. been a stressful week ne... =/ o wel.... sad. but u know. just move on. haiz... anyway, guess the only nice thing that happened after so long, is that my ceo actually remember my name(but of course).. name its quite common actually.. but he remember wat i had said like sooo long ago! about a year ago or something? like wow. even my collegue was like. wow. he rememerb sia. haha.
erm yea. .its about my ldr... he was like out of the blue approached me and ask me hows thigns btween us... then well.. yea. i replied. he's like.. so any new bf? haha.really its my honour that he actually remmeber something so small out of me. =) and i think i only told him during the staff introductions or soemthing. either once or twice. like we only met 2 times throught the year. wow. he relaly have a good memory. hah. so yea. it is a really nice gesture coming from a ceo u know. imagine this company have about 55 outlets in this world. then we met only once or twice a year. din even talk much, only introduction. somemore how many employeees are there man??? of course heaps and heap s and heaps!! so yra. its really such a nice question to be asked by my ceo. but if only the question i could reply with a very postitve one .. .. haiz. so yea. 

haiz.. stress is pouring in man. not good. i wish the new malay manager will be awesome. wont be bitchy as a  man i hope. glad not woman. this comnpany sometiems the ppl here all too bitchy. =/rrly. sighs.

anyway, haiz.. like kena blame for nothing ... .. tch.. dunno la.. i really don liek the way my rm talk to stafffs. either very good, or very bad. sighs. nvm ba. just move on.. .yea= / thats life. sianz.... i hope the one year one time .. erm forgot hwats it called sufddenly. dots.. yea.. imma put my words clear across. and se if any miracles happen. my wish.

haiz. feel so heavy hearted righ tnow =( at least ytd i didnt think much of work ba. .o well....

wow. insidious is such an awesome movie. rarely does a movie keeps me in suspend liek this. but this one does. becos its very real, and it could happen. so u can really relate to that movie. its total awesome. but hey. i am serious. if u are even called as a so-so horro anti horror movie watcher cos u're scared, do not attempt to watch at all. its worse than paranormal activity. liek yrea. worse. that paranormal movie i watched deems ok by me. but this insidious, oh... hoho! cool man. ;) sooooo nice. ha. totally.
but should definitely watch in a cinema. sound effects so cool and great. it wont do any good to watch in living room. well, not if u have the right equipment, dim the lights, close the door, and watch it all by yourself. hehe. if u acieved htat, let me know. i'll give u a round of applauds. XD 

gosh.. my brain is so tired, i cant think of what ive been wanting to blog since i have free time to blog now. and in need to destress.... 

sighs.. have a feeling i cant take any leaves.. =/ but.. well, im still gonna give it a shot. and see if rm will say yes or no. haiz..... wonde rif staffs in aust also kena this workstress. not enough manpower, yet company still wanna cut cost. whats happening actually? i think they have too many students who cant commit. sianz. why hire students.. -.-

k ba. i really cant think of anythign else 

to blog. a part of my brain is dead right now i guess. 

jaa, mata

Hating rich people

wow. been reeally stressful the past couple of days. mm... yea..

oh.. seems like my new manager is gonna be a malay guy. sighs. i thgouth that couldve been a chinese =( ... but anyway, u know what.. ...i just hope he can be very very very goodat this job.. .sighs.
...but anwyay.. .haiz...........
mm.. i have many things to say but forgot ne. too tired and yea. =/
u know. the other day a  ustomer wanted to change somethign without a receiopt. which is against the law. then i was htinkgin not even for a sec. when this lady.. i duno.. she looks like malay idian mixed.. or malysian mixed. .anyway, she was liek impatient saying.. ''just give me a new one!!''. i was like. WTF????/ then i gib her new peice. wth?? so waht if she's a pretty dang rich lady???/ htat dont give her any righ tto be so rude and so fucking proud!!!!! I HATE AND DESPISED RICH PPL WITHOUT ANY PROPER UP BRINGING IN LIFE!!!!! so what if she's goo dlooking and rich???? i was so turn off by her attitude. dang bitc*. so fucking rude!!! pfft!!! omg. why not these rich ppl come have a taste in our shoes eh?? work here, then have ppl telling just give me a new one!'' to her face. omg. i hate her. that rrly sucks m,an.
i just really really dislike rich ppl. espeicially youngones. i mean , like, get a life!!! go work or somethign. ~~!!! dont count on ur parents to give u money or good life, good company. EARN IT YOUR OWN!!!  omg. i hate that bithc to the core. ... pfft. =/
thast so stupid.
born with golden spoon ppl. wtf. i hate them. like seriously. =/.= just.. get waway from parents rich shadow, and craved a nich for yourself!!! dont be such an asshole. her bf or husband was beside her that time. i was liek thinking. man,. i pity u dude. having this type of human as a wife. gdluck. and all the best man. =/ u wanna go for her beauty or money, or both, i dunno. but goodluck.
suey man.. to have such a woman as wife. omg. god bless that man.
haiz. at leats i get to vent it all out in this blog. thx gusy.

mata 

worn out

wow. its been really stressful i guess . especially ytd. dunno what came over me. was like slping while thinking of work, then trying to shift my thoughts on other matters.. then work again. omg. waking up and stop. repeatedly.. thinking of how to solve work issues. wow. stress day for ytd i have to say man. =/ 

ha. redz was azsking me how come my work always so early wan.. 800.. 830... lol.
yea. very early. till i wanna slp in the store liao. haiz...
so yea. totally crazily worn out day man. rrly in need of destressing now. dunno why also. maybe too much workload. but well, just hang in there ba.

wish me luck man.. hopefully to complete whatever thats need to be completed today

mata

sick to my stomach

gosh.. im really feeling unwell.. i got home.. feeling so tired and listless... now sick to my stomach. but perhaps just too tired and abit stress about work ba. so yea.
..haiz...
hate this sickening feeling.
oh.. one of my fav partimer last day is on wed. =/ so sad. sighs... such a good helper =( but going off now.. sighs. .such a loss to both me and this company =( ..
mm... yea. always joking around. .somemore can say why i look so demure.. lol. when taking pic or talking la. haha. haiz.. so gonna miss such a great helper =/
haiz
so yea.. more things to settle in... will do my best ba. perhaps should treat myself to erlax somehow. very tired desu. =/
mata 

What should i do? =/

mm… still stresses about work ne… especially when.. i duno man. .sighs.. =/

dunno if i should help out sometimes.. i dunno.. i mean… haiz.. i really wish theres a way to destress all these sometimes.. i really wish i could have him by my side.. sighs.. how life wouldve been so much wonderful huh…

o well.. i just need to risk a couple of things i supposed.. …. mm…

sighs.. stress, but maybe i might learn along the way too huh.. if only someone could teach me how..

tch.. o well.. i hope im able to slp well for tonight. .alot on my mind. sigs. but yes.. =/ just hpope i’ll clear my mind, and slp till late huh… … wish me luck…

just not in the happy mood to talk righ tnow.. hopefully what i chose to do.,… will be a right decision for tmr..

=/ bah… like that ba..

mata

Just dropping by zzz

wow… so sleepy.. dunno what to type. .my eyes are closing… been so tired these couple of days… zzzzzzz =/ so yea. hanging on man.. hanging on…

actually nothing much to say here… mm.. yea.. sorry. just couldnt think of anything right now.
theres too much to do at work.. and yea… nowadays doesnt feel like serving customers. not good eh. cos too busy. but yea.. haiz.

so be it ba.. kk.. imma really need some serious slp now!!!!

gdnight

mata