hmm... ok.. so.. did i blog ytd? o.O i duno. .got a feeling i din eh.. too lazy to check anyway.net so slow =/
so yea.. wow.. come to thin kof it.. last night. .i just walked around for abit with bro out at town.. but its lie. .wow.! come to thin kiof it, i relaly never been out window shopping ofr sooo long on a sat night!! omggg. hahaha... the most is just afterwork, go watch movie. but never reallky say.. go out. .walk ard town.. shooping centres.. hahaha...
htats so arare.. feel so erm. .refreshing? i duno. ha.
but yea.. it fels kinda nice. .ha. o well.. .then walked past the shops.. tch. .=/ yea .those that i';ve been with. wih sammy.. somerset 313.. when it just opened.. =/ the founatin. we sat on the sofas.. he play psp.. i watch fountains.. then he took pics of pretty fountain... ='/
...hhaiz.. .o well...
so yea.. but ytd was sooooo busy in store. omg. not enough manpower. after im gone, im prety sure htat they're wiped out man . what to do. not enough ppl. o well..
so slpy still. .slpt so late ytd. at hte striked of 4am.. sammy not up, plus me relaly liek. .gonna knoced out alreayd. .so just head to bed..
theres a halloween movei marathon. so yea slpy sia.. o well
boring to wach alone anyway =/
haiz
oh.. rememerb that red dress i was tlking about? nahhh forget it. took a 2nd look , and dedcidced that it doesnt suit me after all. lol .thank goodness never buy. its ok. will find anotherdress or sumtin for new yeat ba. uh huh. would be fine
hm.. november is here peeps.. 2 montsh to go through. .then yea... =/
i hope everyhing will be alrite..
trying to keep myself balance now.. =/ so yea.
keeping my fingers crossed.
questions i dare not to ask.. i hoppe someday in the future i will have a chance to openly talk abou tit..
hmm,....
watched a movie with mum todya. omg. i have no idea wth we are watching =.,=.......... omg... this is nuts. =.,= dotsssss
whatever. nothing to tlak about htat movie about. sukckxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
XD
hm.... i wonde rif i asked a wrong questions.. =/ this i sreally weird.. i don get it.
sighsssssssss... o well... what to do.. sometims its difficutlt to keep oneself on the sane level when one is too tire dhuh.
ah.. i cant wait to hit the sace. alreyad slpy now.. took a nap just now.. but yea.. hm. .nto enough as usual ha.
what place am i in
i wonder..
hm. .os yea.. =. again. this year.. halloween i din paly a part. haizzz...
hope nexct year i get to eh..>
haiyo. stomach so full.. hm.. but should be able to slp ba..
ha. .duno sicne when.. started to have this.. slping time. .hm.. . o well..
maybe sammys words helped me eh. ha. hm..
but even slping at this time me stil lslpy if mrg shift.
oh ,.that man was back int eh shop!!! i kept forgetting to blog this out! the man who gave me this 'love letter'. not love leter. duno what to called it .so used this term by \from my manager. but yea. omg. .. i was like. .duno how to face him.. then just oh hi, found ur item? ha.
omg! just recalled something again!! sorry.. myu memeory sucks sometimes.. =/
i was sooo touched. by a customers comment. she evev n tell my manager about my serviece! she was saying how good i am, my service.. blah3.. i din know a thing. but when she made payment , she told me about it, as well as saying she's the type of persno who pays attention to customer service. and so far, even my manager she thinks is good. but by far, she think im the best. omggggggggggggggg the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
wow... this is such an honour. i mena.. i keep having customers asked for my names. not all males k =.,= its truly cos of my good service ., omg. i am so touch. i just said tahnk you to her. i duno what else to say. i saiod i was touched by her words. wow. that is so wow. makes everything pays off. my job is worth it. suddenly. lol>
so yea... at first i thought i was mere concidence that custoomer skeep asking for my names before they left. then turns out.. it happens more frequesnt every.. almost every day. wow... i would love to keep this up.
hm.. though... my sg manager wont appreciate for sure..
but at least the melb could tell.. i htink. lol. so yea.. its good enough..
plus my previcous manager sabrina told my melb regional manager that i am very good.
hmm.. i duno. future is future.. ofr now.. i relaly need to work hard.. pay attention to destails..
yea.. come to htin of it.. lol. i had nooooo idea how big a character my rg manager was... htat time when she first met me.. then shewas saying. .oh heard sabrina told me u were a big seller. very good..(or something like that) i would expect to see mroe form u in the future then. bthen she laugh.. but no pressure on me she said.
i was like.. o..k.. im alreayd blushing... then sabrina just stand aside and smile. dotsss... sudeenly recaleld all these... wow. i didnt know shes such a big character back then.. and to have sabrina said that to her, wow. .its relaly something. =)
uh huh...... ...
..so yea.. wow.
i really.. yea. .sometimes it took me lomng enough to . .u knwo. find out the truth..' sometimes i mightv;e neglet whats the thruth lying before me. .but... usually. I WILL find out. it will sudenly occurred to me, and i'll realised something is wrong. and i find out the truth. somtiems.. .. no.. most of hte times are bad =( sadly.. yea...
cos i couldnt realised it earlier. .thought it was hte truth. .then realised. .ppl been lying to me baou tit...
no matter how small the matter is..
yea.. o well.. sometimes.. all the answees just come to me like.. sovling a long itme mizzing piece of puzzle..
it'll appeared outta nowhere. but i Will find it. i wil llearned abou tit. and i will know the truth which i did not previously. no matter how long it was ago.
hm... ok.. time to stop here...
back hurts.abit. .so yea..
throat. .dry.. need water now..
bah.. tmr cold be better huh>? ..
o well....
mata ........
31 October 2010
29 October 2010
Be Happy
ah.. finally.. these 2 nights i rememberd to take my med. .though. .thoraot still coughing here and there.. .o well
omg... =.= todya.. cos no one to lock the door. .then redz say wanna wait for him 5mins. then ended up he came outta toilet, still wnana go bath. i was .. yea.. angry. i don like. if gonna be more than 5mins, why ask me to wait????
thats is very wrong . i don like. but yea.. haiz. in the end i missed my bus, and i reched just on time. perhaps a couple of secs late. but my manager say i just mafe it. so yea. phewwwwwwwwwwwww omg. i hate this 12.30 aftnoon shifts=/
sianz
anyway... hm.. yea. haiz.. hate it.
hm...
well.. seems to me that.. our rm.. relaly not good ne.. =/ haiz. long story.. but yea.. i duno what to say...
haiz.. he's not cut out for htis com[pany. seriously. he's good at tlaking. but tats it. the way he handle stuffs, isnt what this company expects. i know. i could tell. haiz.. so wasted.. why sabrina picked him? =/
cos he;s so good with tlaking to ppl laugh2.. joke.2... then behinfs ppl bakc. .duno do what.
anyway. .enough of him.
hm.... yea. .hungry.. only had breads.. oh. .saw this dress... huuuuuu... yea. know me right. .fallen in 'love' at first sight.. then yea.. huu... i want!!!! but its abit expensive.. im trying to convince my bro. lol. get that for me as xmas present .lol. cos he owe me abit of money. lol.
huu... i really like it alot! but i think its the kind of dress i will only wear during chy, and to club. but if club. i don even dare to step outta the road!!! dots. anyway,, i rarely hardly ever have any night out. so nah. but even if for cny.. omg. wothr it i hope? ha. me no buy.. so never try that out.. .haiz.
i like thta alot ne.. .huu... wanna buy.. but yea.. cannot.. see how my bro's side first. .anywya still must get my money back. lol
so yea.
anwya.. yea.. see how ba. ah.. suitable to wear for xmas too eh. ha. .o well
hm. .seems liek tehre could be a delay.. ... maybe.. yea.. i might be workling with those ppl for another more weekssss to go. anwyay. im not afraid of them. i work as usual. talk only about work now. nothign else. whatever.
let them suffer coming to work like that too. i have a feeling. they alreayd knew. no. its confirmed. im sure they alreayd knew i know about htis fb thingy. but i got this feeling they know manager from melb who just returned to shop, alreyad heard about it from me.
ha. one of them even seems to wanna quit. whatever!!
what age alreayd. stil dare to do such evil thing to me. should it be my turn to say serves them right>? nope. i don wanan be part of them. argh.
anwayy, yea. whatever they wanna do. i don care.
me just work my own.busy is good liek i said. time pass, day flies. .soon.. please. .nov.. then dec.. let dec be over. .then i'll be yay..
wow.. really ne.. thexe couple of days been so happy. like. .so long never really felt this way. O.o duno ba..
anyway, just glad this stone been lifted off my chest.
hm.. and hopefully i'll stay this way for as long as possible. ...
hm. .yea....
cos its always difficult. .trying to be happy when the most important person isnt next to u everydya.....
ok. time to rest down!
ohhh. .i just recaleld something. =( huu... the other time, i think .. i duno... was it last year .. end of year before me go sydney? or what.. butim pretty sure it was a xmas season i saw.there was this black beautiful looking erm.. kinda like corset thing? i duno.. its pretty long. .looks like a corset. i forgot wjhat happen.. i think i mentioned to my female frne.. so pretty.. really so wanna buy it. .but wasted mnoey.. cos bf not around.. wear so nice. .no one can see also..
i think i said somethig liek that. so never buy...
but i recently just saw the pic on internet (i think) . omg. i relaly want it!! dots. it was gorgeous! and me no buy it. huu... i shouldve think this way.. nvm.. next time he can still see.. and i can wear good, feel good too.
XD ha/ but yea... aw.. so wasted..... =/ so nice sia..
o well...... what to do. ranges are like that one.. once gone, wont come back = / haiz. nvm ba..
hm. .slpy liao.. k..
hopefully sammy's side will go well. he must be playing hard. .and looking all dash andhot. ;) thats my man! lol
miss him.. =/ he'll think of me ne? uh huh.. going to dreamland.. perhaps could see him there. ok, well then.
final off for htis week...month i mena.. i gotta cherish it this weekend.
k, gambat!!!!
mata
omg... =.= todya.. cos no one to lock the door. .then redz say wanna wait for him 5mins. then ended up he came outta toilet, still wnana go bath. i was .. yea.. angry. i don like. if gonna be more than 5mins, why ask me to wait????
thats is very wrong . i don like. but yea.. haiz. in the end i missed my bus, and i reched just on time. perhaps a couple of secs late. but my manager say i just mafe it. so yea. phewwwwwwwwwwwww omg. i hate this 12.30 aftnoon shifts=/
sianz
anyway... hm.. yea. haiz.. hate it.
hm...
well.. seems to me that.. our rm.. relaly not good ne.. =/ haiz. long story.. but yea.. i duno what to say...
haiz.. he's not cut out for htis com[pany. seriously. he's good at tlaking. but tats it. the way he handle stuffs, isnt what this company expects. i know. i could tell. haiz.. so wasted.. why sabrina picked him? =/
cos he;s so good with tlaking to ppl laugh2.. joke.2... then behinfs ppl bakc. .duno do what.
anyway. .enough of him.
hm.... yea. .hungry.. only had breads.. oh. .saw this dress... huuuuuu... yea. know me right. .fallen in 'love' at first sight.. then yea.. huu... i want!!!! but its abit expensive.. im trying to convince my bro. lol. get that for me as xmas present .lol. cos he owe me abit of money. lol.
huu... i really like it alot! but i think its the kind of dress i will only wear during chy, and to club. but if club. i don even dare to step outta the road!!! dots. anyway,, i rarely hardly ever have any night out. so nah. but even if for cny.. omg. wothr it i hope? ha. me no buy.. so never try that out.. .haiz.
i like thta alot ne.. .huu... wanna buy.. but yea.. cannot.. see how my bro's side first. .anywya still must get my money back. lol
so yea.
anwya.. yea.. see how ba. ah.. suitable to wear for xmas too eh. ha. .o well
hm. .seems liek tehre could be a delay.. ... maybe.. yea.. i might be workling with those ppl for another more weekssss to go. anwyay. im not afraid of them. i work as usual. talk only about work now. nothign else. whatever.
let them suffer coming to work like that too. i have a feeling. they alreayd knew. no. its confirmed. im sure they alreayd knew i know about htis fb thingy. but i got this feeling they know manager from melb who just returned to shop, alreyad heard about it from me.
ha. one of them even seems to wanna quit. whatever!!
what age alreayd. stil dare to do such evil thing to me. should it be my turn to say serves them right>? nope. i don wanan be part of them. argh.
anwayy, yea. whatever they wanna do. i don care.
me just work my own.busy is good liek i said. time pass, day flies. .soon.. please. .nov.. then dec.. let dec be over. .then i'll be yay..
wow.. really ne.. thexe couple of days been so happy. like. .so long never really felt this way. O.o duno ba..
anyway, just glad this stone been lifted off my chest.
hm.. and hopefully i'll stay this way for as long as possible. ...
hm. .yea....
cos its always difficult. .trying to be happy when the most important person isnt next to u everydya.....
ok. time to rest down!
ohhh. .i just recaleld something. =( huu... the other time, i think .. i duno... was it last year .. end of year before me go sydney? or what.. butim pretty sure it was a xmas season i saw.there was this black beautiful looking erm.. kinda like corset thing? i duno.. its pretty long. .looks like a corset. i forgot wjhat happen.. i think i mentioned to my female frne.. so pretty.. really so wanna buy it. .but wasted mnoey.. cos bf not around.. wear so nice. .no one can see also..
i think i said somethig liek that. so never buy...
but i recently just saw the pic on internet (i think) . omg. i relaly want it!! dots. it was gorgeous! and me no buy it. huu... i shouldve think this way.. nvm.. next time he can still see.. and i can wear good, feel good too.
XD ha/ but yea... aw.. so wasted..... =/ so nice sia..
o well...... what to do. ranges are like that one.. once gone, wont come back = / haiz. nvm ba..
hm. .slpy liao.. k..
hopefully sammy's side will go well. he must be playing hard. .and looking all dash andhot. ;) thats my man! lol
miss him.. =/ he'll think of me ne? uh huh.. going to dreamland.. perhaps could see him there. ok, well then.
final off for htis week...month i mena.. i gotta cherish it this weekend.
k, gambat!!!!
mata
28 October 2010
Resting Day
wow.hm.. pretty warm now.. anyway...
todya.. basically just slpy.. and tired... cos last night knockout at 5 plus am? somewhere there.. yea..
so tired and slpy.. placed my phone besides.. then knockout.. couldn t hear anyting. wow.
hm.. so yea. .just rest my tired body.. peaceful off day normal one..
uh huh. .online. .nothing much to do.. all i want is to eat rest nap .lol>
so yea..
not enough slpo ba..
hm.. anyway yea.. i really cant wait for 2011! i know i know. .forgive me. .i said this sooo many times here. lol
but just wanna shared it here thats all.
im so looking forward to 2011.. the days im gonna see sammy again would be numberd.. yay.. i cant wait...
gona be great.
hm.. so yea. .nothignn prety much to sya here..
oih.. .and so.. the manager matter. ...o well.. we shal lsee how things go.. for now.. hm.. im just very glad my amnager is back.
wow.. i didnt know. .they relly taking it seriously about the contract matter..
if u break their standard code ,and u signed the contract, its relaly saying u Breached the contract. i was like. .whoa.. but yea. it certainly is good.
haiz. .. what to do. for now.. try not to think too much. .do my job as per normal. .if made mistakes, stand up again.. and so on..
huma n realationships are difficult to handle. cos u never know whos true to u , or just smile and stab behind ur back. liek my case. .what she did.. really4 caught me off my guard. i never predicted this could even happen.
innnoccent looking person.. ha. wow.. such a evil tone of scoldin gppl who's not even evil;.
o well. k.. betetr leave that aside. not worth getting my blood boiled agai n. .haiz,.
hm. .so yea.. so we just pretend nothgisn on. .and work as usual..
i wonder what they are saying now.. perhaps saying me so happy cos manager back, then i can boss them ard?
whatever. i bet they are saying that. but yea.. whatever. i cant stop them. narrow hearted ppl. oh dear. .how i hate them.
o wel.. .will do my bext to concentrate on whats need to be concentrate on.
hm.. .i woder,. i don think the idea would be able to work though. .sg heading to melbourne. .also expensive isnt it>?
but if to malaysia..
ahh...
i think this could wait abit longer for now.
kk. .lemme cehck if redz is outta bath. cos i cant wait to bath!!
mata
todya.. basically just slpy.. and tired... cos last night knockout at 5 plus am? somewhere there.. yea..
so tired and slpy.. placed my phone besides.. then knockout.. couldn t hear anyting. wow.
hm.. so yea. .just rest my tired body.. peaceful off day normal one..
uh huh. .online. .nothing much to do.. all i want is to eat rest nap .lol>
so yea..
not enough slpo ba..
hm.. anyway yea.. i really cant wait for 2011! i know i know. .forgive me. .i said this sooo many times here. lol
but just wanna shared it here thats all.
im so looking forward to 2011.. the days im gonna see sammy again would be numberd.. yay.. i cant wait...
gona be great.
hm.. so yea. .nothignn prety much to sya here..
oih.. .and so.. the manager matter. ...o well.. we shal lsee how things go.. for now.. hm.. im just very glad my amnager is back.
wow.. i didnt know. .they relly taking it seriously about the contract matter..
if u break their standard code ,and u signed the contract, its relaly saying u Breached the contract. i was like. .whoa.. but yea. it certainly is good.
haiz. .. what to do. for now.. try not to think too much. .do my job as per normal. .if made mistakes, stand up again.. and so on..
huma n realationships are difficult to handle. cos u never know whos true to u , or just smile and stab behind ur back. liek my case. .what she did.. really4 caught me off my guard. i never predicted this could even happen.
innnoccent looking person.. ha. wow.. such a evil tone of scoldin gppl who's not even evil;.
o well. k.. betetr leave that aside. not worth getting my blood boiled agai n. .haiz,.
hm. .so yea.. so we just pretend nothgisn on. .and work as usual..
i wonder what they are saying now.. perhaps saying me so happy cos manager back, then i can boss them ard?
whatever. i bet they are saying that. but yea.. whatever. i cant stop them. narrow hearted ppl. oh dear. .how i hate them.
o wel.. .will do my bext to concentrate on whats need to be concentrate on.
hm.. .i woder,. i don think the idea would be able to work though. .sg heading to melbourne. .also expensive isnt it>?
but if to malaysia..
ahh...
i think this could wait abit longer for now.
kk. .lemme cehck if redz is outta bath. cos i cant wait to bath!!
mata
26 October 2010
Be Happy
finally.. after so long since that incident... i feel much much happier now.. i duno.. perhasp that time of month is over.. perhaps im doing my best at work to shift my focus.. ignored them.. blah3.. but yea.. whatever it is... ... tmr.. shall be a brand new day for me to begin.. i duno what my manager would say or do.. but.. yea.. keeping my fingers crossed..
hope things will turn out right.. anyway.....
yea.. gonna slp soon.. ..
luckily still get to hear his voice for abit..
soon.. i'll be able to fill the void in his arms..
cant wait.....
hm. .yup..
ok.. i need to rush check some stuffs.. better to have an early night..
oh.. me full.. haiyo.. mum bought bro's dinenr. .turns out he not coming back. hten ask me eatT_T so full. .had 2 dinners.. omg..
so yea.. hopefully tmr will be even betetr than today!
and wishing.. jan i could see him.....
mata!
hope things will turn out right.. anyway.....
yea.. gonna slp soon.. ..
luckily still get to hear his voice for abit..
soon.. i'll be able to fill the void in his arms..
cant wait.....
hm. .yup..
ok.. i need to rush check some stuffs.. better to have an early night..
oh.. me full.. haiyo.. mum bought bro's dinenr. .turns out he not coming back. hten ask me eatT_T so full. .had 2 dinners.. omg..
so yea.. hopefully tmr will be even betetr than today!
and wishing.. jan i could see him.....
mata!
25 October 2010
Better?
hm.. suddenly runny nose again after i got home.. o well..
thoart still not good.. but.. at least work .. yea.. today work didnt feel so much pain.. ..so yea..
hm..
not bad.. in a betetr mood to work for today. basically just treat all those ppl like transpartne. tlak to only the ones who arent that bad..yet. i duno. at least for those whoom i know alreyad are bad, i just treat them as transparent ppl ..so yea.. htat kinda makes life easier. gosh.. gonna see my manager agaibn.. wonder how things will turn out. .=/ ..hm...
anywya,... o well...
bet they are posting and tlaking behind my back again. nvm ba. what to do.
and even for a partimer who work one day with me only, also backstab me. omg.. how childish can these ppl get. tlaking about htis ruins my day. nvm.. tmr will have a good rest..
been long since i let go of something in my heartt. so yea.. better just let it go..
o well..
haiz..
o well.. .
so yea.. hmm.......
o well.. ntohign much to be said..
basically just sick work and shop around. same thing alwyas. o welllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
boringgggggggggggggggggg
oh, hte other day, had nice dream though. was happy in dream.. long time.. never felt that way..
the kind of having fun outside.. and just truly enjoy.
mata
thoart still not good.. but.. at least work .. yea.. today work didnt feel so much pain.. ..so yea..
hm..
not bad.. in a betetr mood to work for today. basically just treat all those ppl like transpartne. tlak to only the ones who arent that bad..yet. i duno. at least for those whoom i know alreyad are bad, i just treat them as transparent ppl ..so yea.. htat kinda makes life easier. gosh.. gonna see my manager agaibn.. wonder how things will turn out. .=/ ..hm...
anywya,... o well...
bet they are posting and tlaking behind my back again. nvm ba. what to do.
and even for a partimer who work one day with me only, also backstab me. omg.. how childish can these ppl get. tlaking about htis ruins my day. nvm.. tmr will have a good rest..
been long since i let go of something in my heartt. so yea.. better just let it go..
o well..
haiz..
o well.. .
so yea.. hmm.......
o well.. ntohign much to be said..
basically just sick work and shop around. same thing alwyas. o welllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
boringgggggggggggggggggg
oh, hte other day, had nice dream though. was happy in dream.. long time.. never felt that way..
the kind of having fun outside.. and just truly enjoy.
mata
24 October 2010
Sick Day 2
hm.. this is weird.. my partimer. .suddenly ask me if those 2 bithes were the one who talk behind my back. well, one of them is right. .but the other name. .wth?? i only work with her for a day!!!! OMG... this is freaking weird..... haiz.. i hope its not true.. anyway.. hteres nothing to be done much now...
just do my work.. try to let this go.. oi have too too way too much things on my shoulder to carry.. .this certainly isnt one i would like to carry on.
today sick. =( really.. erally not feelign well =( then break time. .was so cold.. and runny nose starts agian.. =( sighs..
then at night. .suddenly aprtimer ask me if wan med.. i was like.. see again>>> ?? =.= its either i forgot to bring, eat or forgot to ask ppl. dotsssss
i don know man...
i don think im fit to work tmr.. but theres work to be done =/ i have to go no matter what.. .so yea...
o well...
but yes. .thank god theres the med.. otherwise.. tonight im a goner.. my nose stop runny.. after the med.. but still... avey uncomfy.=(( huu.. .sick!!! i hate it =/
sniff2..
i think im either having a fever, or slight fever. o well.....
i can pull through this. .one more night to go.. =/
yea.. hang on... alot of thigns need to be done. .somemore if not at wokr, gonna kena say me never do htis and that. o well....
nvm ba..
tch.....
o well... .... =/
i think.. i need to do something fun... somehting that'll get me laughing and smiling all the time.. not for hte sake of job like that. .but for the sake of becos im happy all the time..
i think i need something liek that...
could a class work? or... hmm.... i don know...
i'll have to see hwat next year brings me
ah.. now all hte shops.. are selling winter jackets.. lcothes. .blah3...
am thiking if i shold get them now.. O.o in case i'll have such difficult time trying to find one in next year.. hmm..... im not sure.. tmr.. might go have a lok.... hmm...
normal shold do eh.. hmm =.=/. ....
but. .huu.. cant wear pretty2 liao... T_T huuu.....
see. even the only time get to spend with swtheart.. also no chance to wear nice2.. pretty2... =(( huuuuu
sad... cant wear nice2 for him.. .bahhhhh.....
haiz
erm.. so yea...
ok.. betetr start taking note on the tickets for this couple of months.. the prices.. not much diff yet.. but.. hm....
o well.. even if can save 100, thats also a money for a day stay at hotel isnt it.
ok.. tmr.. gambate... will be working with a girl whos standing on my side. tmr night. cheres.
mata
just do my work.. try to let this go.. oi have too too way too much things on my shoulder to carry.. .this certainly isnt one i would like to carry on.
today sick. =( really.. erally not feelign well =( then break time. .was so cold.. and runny nose starts agian.. =( sighs..
then at night. .suddenly aprtimer ask me if wan med.. i was like.. see again>>> ?? =.= its either i forgot to bring, eat or forgot to ask ppl. dotsssss
i don know man...
i don think im fit to work tmr.. but theres work to be done =/ i have to go no matter what.. .so yea...
o well...
but yes. .thank god theres the med.. otherwise.. tonight im a goner.. my nose stop runny.. after the med.. but still... avey uncomfy.=(( huu.. .sick!!! i hate it =/
sniff2..
i think im either having a fever, or slight fever. o well.....
i can pull through this. .one more night to go.. =/
yea.. hang on... alot of thigns need to be done. .somemore if not at wokr, gonna kena say me never do htis and that. o well....
nvm ba..
tch.....
o well... .... =/
i think.. i need to do something fun... somehting that'll get me laughing and smiling all the time.. not for hte sake of job like that. .but for the sake of becos im happy all the time..
i think i need something liek that...
could a class work? or... hmm.... i don know...
i'll have to see hwat next year brings me
ah.. now all hte shops.. are selling winter jackets.. lcothes. .blah3...
am thiking if i shold get them now.. O.o in case i'll have such difficult time trying to find one in next year.. hmm..... im not sure.. tmr.. might go have a lok.... hmm...
normal shold do eh.. hmm =.=/. ....
but. .huu.. cant wear pretty2 liao... T_T huuu.....
see. even the only time get to spend with swtheart.. also no chance to wear nice2.. pretty2... =(( huuuuu
sad... cant wear nice2 for him.. .bahhhhh.....
haiz
erm.. so yea...
ok.. betetr start taking note on the tickets for this couple of months.. the prices.. not much diff yet.. but.. hm....
o well.. even if can save 100, thats also a money for a day stay at hotel isnt it.
ok.. tmr.. gambate... will be working with a girl whos standing on my side. tmr night. cheres.
mata
23 October 2010
SICK DAY
...really don feel well today.. last night had runny nose going on outta the blue. like so sudden.. then morning, sudden wakey early, then sick=(
sighs.... .
tmr really unfit for work.. but theres something i ned to settle for work.. so yea. .i gotta go.. otehrwise.. .o well.. yea..
tmr i hope i'll get better.,. at least by the end o fnight.. =/
haiz.
felt terrible man.. =(
so sick..
then today make sushi.. most of the time bedridden in bed needless to say.. just rest. .weak and slpy and tired.. .o well.. just sick feeling.. =/
o well..
what to do..
see hwo tmr ba..
,wanna die liao..
haiz
nothign much.. managed to read abit only.. better than nothing.. then just being sick and rest slp abit here and tehre.. and waiting as usual,,
then tv. .online.. youtube movie. .blah3..
tch... haiz..
argh.. doesnt feel like its a sat..
=/
what an weekend.. o well..
now back pain.. huu...
slight fever..
nose also.. throat also. evry prt kena at the same time.. -_- sianz.. .
if only tmr mc. .even if so, also rest at home. .don know do what.. boring .. i duno what to do.. =/
sit in front of lappy.. then what?
youtube again huh..
i think i know what to watch next at least. .. o well =/
anyway.. yea.. most important is.. i hope by tmr i'll be well.. if not, gonna be a tough long day ahead of me =/
somemore very difficult to find pl cover my shift...... =/
have faith. .beliefs...
ha. .had a dream of samy.. finally he'''s smiling.. i think wer'e working together at a supermarket.. giant look a like place.. he was mop[ing floor.. so happy.. tlaking and smiling.. .. ..o well..
then.. .. yea.. ... bah. .suddenly had an urge to just heck care.. jan go sydney straight for a couple of days.. .. sometmes so difficult to pull through the days. .i wonder .. yea..
so.. o well. .yea..
i'll never ever.. .never ever... wanna stay awya from him more than one year and a half evver again. never.
no matter what.. even as a holiday, i have to go awya from sg.. have some personal time. .away fro my room.. from work. .etc..
hopefully to se ehim ..
this year and a half.. is so .. bloody long and painful.
sorry.. not yet .. its only been.. erm.. 10months? so yea.. alreyad hating it. but what to do.. some thing needs to hang on for. .gotta remembr that. . it.. .would be worth it eh.. ..
k. .not gonan sit anymore. .spine hurts=(
jaa.. ..=(
sighs.... .
tmr really unfit for work.. but theres something i ned to settle for work.. so yea. .i gotta go.. otehrwise.. .o well.. yea..
tmr i hope i'll get better.,. at least by the end o fnight.. =/
haiz.
felt terrible man.. =(
so sick..
then today make sushi.. most of the time bedridden in bed needless to say.. just rest. .weak and slpy and tired.. .o well.. just sick feeling.. =/
o well..
what to do..
see hwo tmr ba..
,wanna die liao..
haiz
nothign much.. managed to read abit only.. better than nothing.. then just being sick and rest slp abit here and tehre.. and waiting as usual,,
then tv. .online.. youtube movie. .blah3..
tch... haiz..
argh.. doesnt feel like its a sat..
=/
what an weekend.. o well..
now back pain.. huu...
slight fever..
nose also.. throat also. evry prt kena at the same time.. -_- sianz.. .
if only tmr mc. .even if so, also rest at home. .don know do what.. boring .. i duno what to do.. =/
sit in front of lappy.. then what?
youtube again huh..
i think i know what to watch next at least. .. o well =/
anyway.. yea.. most important is.. i hope by tmr i'll be well.. if not, gonna be a tough long day ahead of me =/
somemore very difficult to find pl cover my shift...... =/
have faith. .beliefs...
ha. .had a dream of samy.. finally he'''s smiling.. i think wer'e working together at a supermarket.. giant look a like place.. he was mop[ing floor.. so happy.. tlaking and smiling.. .. ..o well..
then.. .. yea.. ... bah. .suddenly had an urge to just heck care.. jan go sydney straight for a couple of days.. .. sometmes so difficult to pull through the days. .i wonder .. yea..
so.. o well. .yea..
i'll never ever.. .never ever... wanna stay awya from him more than one year and a half evver again. never.
no matter what.. even as a holiday, i have to go awya from sg.. have some personal time. .away fro my room.. from work. .etc..
hopefully to se ehim ..
this year and a half.. is so .. bloody long and painful.
sorry.. not yet .. its only been.. erm.. 10months? so yea.. alreyad hating it. but what to do.. some thing needs to hang on for. .gotta remembr that. . it.. .would be worth it eh.. ..
k. .not gonan sit anymore. .spine hurts=(
jaa.. ..=(
SICK DAY
...really don feel well today.. last night had runny nose going on outta the blue. like so sudden.. then morning, sudden wakey early, then sick=(
sighs.... .
tmr really unfit for work.. but theres something i ned to settle for work.. so yea. .i gotta go.. otehrwise.. .o well.. yea..
tmr i hope i'll get better.,. at least by the end o fnight.. =/
haiz.
felt terrible man.. =(
so sick..
then today make sushi.. most of the time bedridden in bed needless to say.. just rest. .weak and slpy and tired.. .o well.. just sick feeling.. =/
o well..
what to do..
see hwo tmr ba..
,wanna die liao..
haiz
nothign much.. managed to read abit only.. better than nothing.. then just being sick and rest slp abit here and tehre.. and waiting as usual,,
then tv. .online.. youtube movie. .blah3..
tch... haiz..
argh.. doesnt feel like its a sat..
=/
what an weekend.. o well..
now back pain.. huu...
slight fever..
nose also.. throat also. evry prt kena at the same time.. -_- sianz.. .
if only tmr mc. .even if so, also rest at home. .don know do what.. boring .. i duno what to do.. =/
sit in front of lappy.. then what?
youtube again huh..
i think i know what to watch next at least. .. o well =/
anyway.. yea.. most important is.. i hope by tmr i'll be well.. if not, gonna be a tough long day ahead of me =/
somemore very difficult to find pl cover my shift...... =/
have faith. .beliefs...
ha. .had a dream of samy.. finally he'''s smiling.. i think wer'e working together at a supermarket.. giant look a like place.. he was mop[ing floor.. so happy.. tlaking and smiling.. .. ..o well..
then.. .. yea.. ... bah. .suddenly had an urge to just heck care.. jan go sydney straight for a couple of days.. .. sometmes so difficult to pull through the days. .i wonder .. yea..
so.. o well. .yea..
i'll never ever.. .never ever... wanna stay awya from him more than one year and a half evver again. never.
no matter what.. even as a holiday, i have to go awya from sg.. have some personal time. .away fro my room.. from work. .etc..
hopefully to se ehim ..
this year and a half.. is so .. bloody long and painful.
sorry.. not yet .. its only been.. erm.. 10months? so yea.. alreyad hating it. but what to do.. some thing needs to hang on for. .gotta remembr that. . it.. .would be worth it eh.. ..
k. .not gonan sit anymore. .spine hurts=(
jaa.. ..=(
sighs.... .
tmr really unfit for work.. but theres something i ned to settle for work.. so yea. .i gotta go.. otehrwise.. .o well.. yea..
tmr i hope i'll get better.,. at least by the end o fnight.. =/
haiz.
felt terrible man.. =(
so sick..
then today make sushi.. most of the time bedridden in bed needless to say.. just rest. .weak and slpy and tired.. .o well.. just sick feeling.. =/
o well..
what to do..
see hwo tmr ba..
,wanna die liao..
haiz
nothign much.. managed to read abit only.. better than nothing.. then just being sick and rest slp abit here and tehre.. and waiting as usual,,
then tv. .online.. youtube movie. .blah3..
tch... haiz..
argh.. doesnt feel like its a sat..
=/
what an weekend.. o well..
now back pain.. huu...
slight fever..
nose also.. throat also. evry prt kena at the same time.. -_- sianz.. .
if only tmr mc. .even if so, also rest at home. .don know do what.. boring .. i duno what to do.. =/
sit in front of lappy.. then what?
youtube again huh..
i think i know what to watch next at least. .. o well =/
anyway.. yea.. most important is.. i hope by tmr i'll be well.. if not, gonna be a tough long day ahead of me =/
somemore very difficult to find pl cover my shift...... =/
have faith. .beliefs...
ha. .had a dream of samy.. finally he'''s smiling.. i think wer'e working together at a supermarket.. giant look a like place.. he was mop[ing floor.. so happy.. tlaking and smiling.. .. ..o well..
then.. .. yea.. ... bah. .suddenly had an urge to just heck care.. jan go sydney straight for a couple of days.. .. sometmes so difficult to pull through the days. .i wonder .. yea..
so.. o well. .yea..
i'll never ever.. .never ever... wanna stay awya from him more than one year and a half evver again. never.
no matter what.. even as a holiday, i have to go awya from sg.. have some personal time. .away fro my room.. from work. .etc..
hopefully to se ehim ..
this year and a half.. is so .. bloody long and painful.
sorry.. not yet .. its only been.. erm.. 10months? so yea.. alreyad hating it. but what to do.. some thing needs to hang on for. .gotta remembr that. . it.. .would be worth it eh.. ..
k. .not gonan sit anymore. .spine hurts=(
jaa.. ..=(
22 October 2010
Help by 2 staffs
was really too tired and so slpy.. couldnt blog at all..
now also slpy.. but a least tmr me off.. so ok ba..
yay.. tmr gonna make sushi... ..haha. so yup.. hope will succeed. ! ^^
todya.. as predicted. .busy... alot of htings to settle.. sunday shall continue.. long day to go..but yea.. that bloody woman never talk to me much today. i also. .just ignored.. only if need to do work or what, then will ask something or tell somehtin.. but yea. .other than that. .uh huh.. .
o well..... .... anyway, me just wanna do my work.. and.. yea,.. hard ba.. but what to do.. rather do myself than depend on others. wait duno what they wanna say again. =/ haiz..
but good thing today theres a girl willing to help out. so yea.. me touched.
to think.. i used to wonder why she's so cold to me. but somehow bhetter alreyad.. hm.. ...
weird huh.. human relationships..
always changing. .but some wont.. ever =)
so yea.. rushed off to mbuy my sushi ingerditents.. tmr must go ntuc get again.. hm,..
yea.. been so long since i regainde back me.. as in.. yea.. been upset and upset. .finally me felt better niw..
what a week.. =/
haiz. .anyway.. .......
... o well.. .i still misses sabrina alot.. =/
at least.. she do her work properly.. and stuff.. argh... thats al lin the past now.. o well>
my throat still not good.. neither is my nose. .now abit runny =,=
haiyo.. ...
anyway, yea.. then another partimer came along. .and he help out too. really glad. .to have the 2 of them ard to help out.. otherwise.. ... =. / yea.. ....
o well
hm.. weird. .i think i have thigns to say.. bnut duno what.. ..
forgot eh..
ytd the nice customer from france(i think) is back to ask me about the stapler thingy.. aww... so nice. always nice to see them. but no. his wife not with him today.
but .. yea. .they seems erally3 super rich.. wow. but mosst importantly, they are such lovely couple =).. awww..... always holding hands... omg. .so sweet!!
i wish to be like them even at their age.. even till im 70s or 80s.. i wanna find a man like that to be my man in life. ^^
nowadyas.. cos of work. .children.. then never relaly spend itme together.. then stop geting all swt and cosy.. thtas not right.. ..must always .. always3.. reamemebr why int he first place and how u fell in love with your partner. am i wrong?
i think thast very important. never forget why in the first place you do what u did.
and how it all happen..
so yea..
cherish one another eh.. compromise.. believe..
gosh.. my nose =.=... haiyo.....
hope by tmr will be fine. otehrwise wanna cook also.. yea=/
o well. all the best
hm.. soould be nothing liao. ...
o well..
mata!!
now also slpy.. but a least tmr me off.. so ok ba..
yay.. tmr gonna make sushi... ..haha. so yup.. hope will succeed. ! ^^
todya.. as predicted. .busy... alot of htings to settle.. sunday shall continue.. long day to go..but yea.. that bloody woman never talk to me much today. i also. .just ignored.. only if need to do work or what, then will ask something or tell somehtin.. but yea. .other than that. .uh huh.. .
o well..... .... anyway, me just wanna do my work.. and.. yea,.. hard ba.. but what to do.. rather do myself than depend on others. wait duno what they wanna say again. =/ haiz..
but good thing today theres a girl willing to help out. so yea.. me touched.
to think.. i used to wonder why she's so cold to me. but somehow bhetter alreyad.. hm.. ...
weird huh.. human relationships..
always changing. .but some wont.. ever =)
so yea.. rushed off to mbuy my sushi ingerditents.. tmr must go ntuc get again.. hm,..
yea.. been so long since i regainde back me.. as in.. yea.. been upset and upset. .finally me felt better niw..
what a week.. =/
haiz. .anyway.. .......
... o well.. .i still misses sabrina alot.. =/
at least.. she do her work properly.. and stuff.. argh... thats al lin the past now.. o well>
my throat still not good.. neither is my nose. .now abit runny =,=
haiyo.. ...
anyway, yea.. then another partimer came along. .and he help out too. really glad. .to have the 2 of them ard to help out.. otherwise.. ... =. / yea.. ....
o well
hm.. weird. .i think i have thigns to say.. bnut duno what.. ..
forgot eh..
ytd the nice customer from france(i think) is back to ask me about the stapler thingy.. aww... so nice. always nice to see them. but no. his wife not with him today.
but .. yea. .they seems erally3 super rich.. wow. but mosst importantly, they are such lovely couple =).. awww..... always holding hands... omg. .so sweet!!
i wish to be like them even at their age.. even till im 70s or 80s.. i wanna find a man like that to be my man in life. ^^
nowadyas.. cos of work. .children.. then never relaly spend itme together.. then stop geting all swt and cosy.. thtas not right.. ..must always .. always3.. reamemebr why int he first place and how u fell in love with your partner. am i wrong?
i think thast very important. never forget why in the first place you do what u did.
and how it all happen..
so yea..
cherish one another eh.. compromise.. believe..
gosh.. my nose =.=... haiyo.....
hope by tmr will be fine. otehrwise wanna cook also.. yea=/
o well. all the best
hm.. soould be nothing liao. ...
o well..
mata!!
20 October 2010
Ignorance
haiz...........................
..tch. .sick of being unimportant
. what is going on eh. .
whatever..
used to it.
hm. .think my throat gonna get worse in the next few days. hopefully will be fine soon eh.
today another.. same.. bracing through a hard day of fakeness at work. haiz ..what to do. .when u;re working with the wrong type of ppl..
o well. anyway yea..
headache..
sometimes i wonder how things works... its like..
o well...
when it gets difficul to understand,.. i think sometimes its best to ignore it. the answer wil lfall into place somehow. i think.
oh yea. .good thing dad is back to work. .so yea.. hope he stays on..
o well..
how fast a day changed..
soyea.. work on the window thingy.. just do only.. ....
haiz.. ..
so long.. those thnigy took.. but good. .concentrate on busy work.. can ignore those ppl trying to hurt me..
another day tmr to brace through.. so yea. ..o well.. all the best. .
had tonight me gone to club with my fren, maybe.. ..o well
mata. ..
sianz...
..tch. .sick of being unimportant
. what is going on eh. .
whatever..
used to it.
hm. .think my throat gonna get worse in the next few days. hopefully will be fine soon eh.
today another.. same.. bracing through a hard day of fakeness at work. haiz ..what to do. .when u;re working with the wrong type of ppl..
o well. anyway yea..
headache..
sometimes i wonder how things works... its like..
o well...
when it gets difficul to understand,.. i think sometimes its best to ignore it. the answer wil lfall into place somehow. i think.
oh yea. .good thing dad is back to work. .so yea.. hope he stays on..
o well..
how fast a day changed..
soyea.. work on the window thingy.. just do only.. ....
haiz.. ..
so long.. those thnigy took.. but good. .concentrate on busy work.. can ignore those ppl trying to hurt me..
another day tmr to brace through.. so yea. ..o well.. all the best. .
had tonight me gone to club with my fren, maybe.. ..o well
mata. ..
sianz...
19 October 2010
3 months ready in action
my throat. .doesnt seem good.. hm... yea.. not working good... i can feel cough is coming.. i duno.. hope not. .
argh.. tmr back to work. .early in mrg with that bloody.. argh.. i tell myself to hang on. .its alrite.. hang on... o well.. haiz...
todya.. ppl so great at acting normal. o well. so be it. play along -_- sianz.
hm.. saw my fren's wedding pics..aww... so sweet.. both of htem lok so fine and happy...
my mum told me just now.. dad say me very ke lian. lol .as in pitiful. hahahah,,, cos yea.. my love is far away.
i understand why he says that. but yea.. he jsut saying only.. so no harm..
just saying as a father..
wow. .todya. .i duno.. perhaps after meeting, heavy heart replaced with a lighter one.. .. mrg greeted by manger with such evil nbalck face. haiz..... =(
i duno. .nah.. don wan tlak here.. sianz. made me htink back the time and sad only. don wan.. .
hjow i wish.. i needned to hide.. i could be shown.. broad and proud to.. .
..yea. o well... another long story.. o well.. .
today talked about travelling with sammy.. somehow from tix. .tohotels.. to thigns to bring. .as though im heading over in 3 months time or so. lol. its nice though...
yea.. hm.. im gonna see hows it like in feb... hopefully there'll be some good prices out there... ...
3months to go. .lets see hwo market wil lgo.. ..
so yea.. then so nice. he whisper.. wanna have breakfast with me evryday =D that makes me happy .^^ uh huh.. i cant wait... though the cold would probably kill me. lol. jk. but yea.. nice try.
hm.. .. so yea.. ..
situations happens.. and.. recently im questioning myself. .why. .. am i a terrible person> btu i have no clues. all i knwo is, im true to myself. i don do bad thigns, i don scol dppl and stuf. .blah3... mayeb its my luck? i duno..
..o well..
questioing oneself. .is a terrible thign to gone through... =/
all cos of otehrs. thats foolish of me. but yea.. i have to question.. .. just wondering why all these are happening. ..thast why..
anyway, will concentrate ba.. .. on what im supposed to do in months to come. .and get preapred to se ehim . the feeling of seeign him again would be so in heavenly bliss.
k. .betetr concentrate on the breakfast part. .that should cheer me up.. less than a year to go.. yesa.. wil lpass soon..
nov almost here .. yea.. keep on going... wow. .time really3 flies..
see how my manger.. about late april or may, she joined us. .alreyad telling me that oct she returing to her country to celebrate her bday and clear leave for 10 days. look hwhat happen now.. 6months gone, so fast!! now then it hits me. alreyad half gone year since she joined. and she's happily in melb now. so gret eh. .. so great.. .. of oucrse..
o well..
okok... its alrite,. my turn would be like that. soon. next year. .my turn . hm. .so gonna need winter clothes eh -_-
.. now sg winter time... erm. dots. .i duno. llol.
everywhere selling winter clotehsXD
o well.. k.. need to get ready for bed..
tmr. .argh.. o well
mata ne
argh.. tmr back to work. .early in mrg with that bloody.. argh.. i tell myself to hang on. .its alrite.. hang on... o well.. haiz...
todya.. ppl so great at acting normal. o well. so be it. play along -_- sianz.
hm.. saw my fren's wedding pics..aww... so sweet.. both of htem lok so fine and happy...
my mum told me just now.. dad say me very ke lian. lol .as in pitiful. hahahah,,, cos yea.. my love is far away.
i understand why he says that. but yea.. he jsut saying only.. so no harm..
just saying as a father..
wow. .todya. .i duno.. perhaps after meeting, heavy heart replaced with a lighter one.. .. mrg greeted by manger with such evil nbalck face. haiz..... =(
i duno. .nah.. don wan tlak here.. sianz. made me htink back the time and sad only. don wan.. .
hjow i wish.. i needned to hide.. i could be shown.. broad and proud to.. .
..yea. o well... another long story.. o well.. .
today talked about travelling with sammy.. somehow from tix. .tohotels.. to thigns to bring. .as though im heading over in 3 months time or so. lol. its nice though...
yea.. hm.. im gonna see hows it like in feb... hopefully there'll be some good prices out there... ...
3months to go. .lets see hwo market wil lgo.. ..
so yea.. then so nice. he whisper.. wanna have breakfast with me evryday =D that makes me happy .^^ uh huh.. i cant wait... though the cold would probably kill me. lol. jk. but yea.. nice try.
hm.. .. so yea.. ..
situations happens.. and.. recently im questioning myself. .why. .. am i a terrible person> btu i have no clues. all i knwo is, im true to myself. i don do bad thigns, i don scol dppl and stuf. .blah3... mayeb its my luck? i duno..
..o well..
questioing oneself. .is a terrible thign to gone through... =/
all cos of otehrs. thats foolish of me. but yea.. i have to question.. .. just wondering why all these are happening. ..thast why..
anyway, will concentrate ba.. .. on what im supposed to do in months to come. .and get preapred to se ehim . the feeling of seeign him again would be so in heavenly bliss.
k. .betetr concentrate on the breakfast part. .that should cheer me up.. less than a year to go.. yesa.. wil lpass soon..
nov almost here .. yea.. keep on going... wow. .time really3 flies..
see how my manger.. about late april or may, she joined us. .alreyad telling me that oct she returing to her country to celebrate her bday and clear leave for 10 days. look hwhat happen now.. 6months gone, so fast!! now then it hits me. alreyad half gone year since she joined. and she's happily in melb now. so gret eh. .. so great.. .. of oucrse..
o well..
okok... its alrite,. my turn would be like that. soon. next year. .my turn . hm. .so gonna need winter clothes eh -_-
.. now sg winter time... erm. dots. .i duno. llol.
everywhere selling winter clotehsXD
o well.. k.. need to get ready for bed..
tmr. .argh.. o well
mata ne
18 October 2010
Stresses
me woke up. .all ready to .. u know.. perpared to destress.. hten ,. .got the meeting matter.. steresses ma llto..
i duno hwat to say..
lwtting outhers causes me tears.. im sad...
uits stupid..
and other than tht. another matter bothers me.
oh, hten my fren today.. also tell me how they treated her at other outlet. it was shocking,. and words of me get to her side too., ..
what have i done wrong>???????
=(((
i duno... i make sure every step i take, i made it right. but why am i wrong>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>???????????????????????????????????/
=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((9
sighes................. i told myself. no thinking of work today. but ikept thinking of it. .... shi*... ...
prepared huh he said... am i supposed to be doing so too> i duno how or where to start preparing.... how could you starnt preparing to break a hart>? do u know>??.. ..
i duno. .never tried that before...
i duno how to get prepared.. his words frightened me.. as htough there could be a warning i should be aware of firsthand... ..
i duno.. shoulld i?..
tmr.. i think.. i need to.. just clear my head...
yea.. i don wanna think of anything at all. not at all.
and i wnna see.. what matters.. what is my concerns...
i wanna save and travel .i want to.
haiz. huamns.. suddenly.. making ... me.. thinking.. of . .how to.. u know. .how to deal with them and stuffs... its like.. all my life.. till now.. i didnt think that they could have the ability to hurt me so much.
and now that i have one so close to me.. .it svery frightening..
suddenly.. im afraid and .. kinda fear for hte future...
its scary.. making me wonder.. ...
when to stop. . or how to continue...
what is going on...
one adn the other.. afraid of the same matter...
.. haiz...
tch.. why...
i thought.. everything is nicely.. sweet.. .then.. .how come the reality always hurts...
being so hopeful about something.. would htat always bring harms along???
..
... ok. .not my night to talk.. im getting really confused about how the ways ppl are behaving.. i have no idea anymore...>>.
cuts...... ...are not meant to be heal anytime soon...
gosh.. peeps.. tell me.....
why cant u trust someone wholeheartedly????????
....
mate.. ....................
i duno hwat to say..
lwtting outhers causes me tears.. im sad...
uits stupid..
and other than tht. another matter bothers me.
oh, hten my fren today.. also tell me how they treated her at other outlet. it was shocking,. and words of me get to her side too., ..
what have i done wrong>???????
=(((
i duno... i make sure every step i take, i made it right. but why am i wrong>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>???????????????????????????????????/
=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((9
sighes................. i told myself. no thinking of work today. but ikept thinking of it. .... shi*... ...
prepared huh he said... am i supposed to be doing so too> i duno how or where to start preparing.... how could you starnt preparing to break a hart>? do u know>??.. ..
i duno. .never tried that before...
i duno how to get prepared.. his words frightened me.. as htough there could be a warning i should be aware of firsthand... ..
i duno.. shoulld i?..
tmr.. i think.. i need to.. just clear my head...
yea.. i don wanna think of anything at all. not at all.
and i wnna see.. what matters.. what is my concerns...
i wanna save and travel .i want to.
haiz. huamns.. suddenly.. making ... me.. thinking.. of . .how to.. u know. .how to deal with them and stuffs... its like.. all my life.. till now.. i didnt think that they could have the ability to hurt me so much.
and now that i have one so close to me.. .it svery frightening..
suddenly.. im afraid and .. kinda fear for hte future...
its scary.. making me wonder.. ...
when to stop. . or how to continue...
what is going on...
one adn the other.. afraid of the same matter...
.. haiz...
tch.. why...
i thought.. everything is nicely.. sweet.. .then.. .how come the reality always hurts...
being so hopeful about something.. would htat always bring harms along???
..
... ok. .not my night to talk.. im getting really confused about how the ways ppl are behaving.. i have no idea anymore...>>.
cuts...... ...are not meant to be heal anytime soon...
gosh.. peeps.. tell me.....
why cant u trust someone wholeheartedly????????
....
mate.. ....................
17 October 2010
Coldness Between Humans
haiz.. duno stomach how now.. had a bad tummyache in moring.. but not enough manpower.. plus theres alot of customers. .so couldnt go toilet.. huu... now abit weirdi hitnk.. not as bad.. but yea.. didnt go toilet.. so yea...
haiz..
today found out more bad news.. its RIDICULOUS!!! omg. it really is.. omg. .i duno .. i don wanna explain here.. i had a whole terrible day.. whole day like wanna cry.. then lucky stillgot sammy to tlak with and bring a smile to my face..
tch.. its .. very terrible ppl there... haiz. .what to do.. i se how ba.. after ppl move on, and whether i can be happier. today i tried. i did. to forget and be good'. but its useles.. only make me feel terrible. i dun care liao. i know what to do now.
howver, doessnt mean im feeling better. im better thanks alot to sammy dearie.. but.. still feeling terrible inside.
i officially dislike my reginonal manager now. haiz.. ...
i feel so poor thing =(((
like.. nothign been done wrong, then kena wrogned.
huuuuuu =((
..o well... tmr i jjust wana a good rest. good off. try not to think so much.
actually had wanted to go shopping and destress after work.. but thought of sammy.. then yea.. like. .alreyad no time to talk much.. might as well cherish the weekend.s..
then yea..
o well..
nvm.. shift to tmr ba..
hiaz.. i still feel down.. very. i really hope tmr i wont get runny nose, wont get too slpy nor tired, then have a good day. =/ tch..
sianz...
why must ppl be so complicated? ..haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz
so yea.. i feel stomach not good ne. . hm..
slpy alreayd.. would be slping soon ba...
haiz.. so fast.. 1.30 liao..
reallly wanna .. wish sam is here by my side. .at least liek the good old days. .after work, i know there;ll always be someone waiting for me.. to go home with.. smile with eat with.. T_T
now don havec.. only go home..
o well
thanks to the indo side, haiz.. the nights are warm. but tonight.. hm.. glad to say not so bad. kidna regained back alreayd .yay!
oh.. forgot about this.. ha. .the other time, dad was walking with me to eat.. then ask if bro have gf anot. .then suddenly also talk about me,.. say of all ppl to find, u go and find such a far one. as in bf far away from me. hahaha.. he say otherwise i can get married alreyad..
but he said it in a m. .relaxing way.. kinda.. not angry. not negative. but yea.. he's ok. just that i know.. i understand that u know. .usually parents would lvoe to watch their kids get married. .have children blah3... but yea..
sometimes. .well. .its just diff ba. .for each person'';s lfie..
hm... .. o well. thats about it.
heart. .stil lheavy .. and down.. but. .wil ltry to brace myself up.. uh huh...
very difficult. .as like. u know.. how u felt soooo wronged about something u never done??
or simply pl just wronged u, and keep telling others abou tit>? yea.. im sure almost all ppl went throug this..
haiz.. how i wanna meet new ppl through the jap course im yearning to go.. haiz. ..o well...
k. .nights ppeeps.
mata =/
-jia you pauline...-
haiz..
today found out more bad news.. its RIDICULOUS!!! omg. it really is.. omg. .i duno .. i don wanna explain here.. i had a whole terrible day.. whole day like wanna cry.. then lucky stillgot sammy to tlak with and bring a smile to my face..
tch.. its .. very terrible ppl there... haiz. .what to do.. i se how ba.. after ppl move on, and whether i can be happier. today i tried. i did. to forget and be good'. but its useles.. only make me feel terrible. i dun care liao. i know what to do now.
howver, doessnt mean im feeling better. im better thanks alot to sammy dearie.. but.. still feeling terrible inside.
i officially dislike my reginonal manager now. haiz.. ...
i feel so poor thing =(((
like.. nothign been done wrong, then kena wrogned.
huuuuuu =((
..o well... tmr i jjust wana a good rest. good off. try not to think so much.
actually had wanted to go shopping and destress after work.. but thought of sammy.. then yea.. like. .alreyad no time to talk much.. might as well cherish the weekend.s..
then yea..
o well..
nvm.. shift to tmr ba..
hiaz.. i still feel down.. very. i really hope tmr i wont get runny nose, wont get too slpy nor tired, then have a good day. =/ tch..
sianz...
why must ppl be so complicated? ..haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz
so yea.. i feel stomach not good ne. . hm..
slpy alreayd.. would be slping soon ba...
haiz.. so fast.. 1.30 liao..
reallly wanna .. wish sam is here by my side. .at least liek the good old days. .after work, i know there;ll always be someone waiting for me.. to go home with.. smile with eat with.. T_T
now don havec.. only go home..
o well
thanks to the indo side, haiz.. the nights are warm. but tonight.. hm.. glad to say not so bad. kidna regained back alreayd .yay!
oh.. forgot about this.. ha. .the other time, dad was walking with me to eat.. then ask if bro have gf anot. .then suddenly also talk about me,.. say of all ppl to find, u go and find such a far one. as in bf far away from me. hahaha.. he say otherwise i can get married alreyad..
but he said it in a m. .relaxing way.. kinda.. not angry. not negative. but yea.. he's ok. just that i know.. i understand that u know. .usually parents would lvoe to watch their kids get married. .have children blah3... but yea..
sometimes. .well. .its just diff ba. .for each person'';s lfie..
hm... .. o well. thats about it.
heart. .stil lheavy .. and down.. but. .wil ltry to brace myself up.. uh huh...
very difficult. .as like. u know.. how u felt soooo wronged about something u never done??
or simply pl just wronged u, and keep telling others abou tit>? yea.. im sure almost all ppl went throug this..
haiz.. how i wanna meet new ppl through the jap course im yearning to go.. haiz. ..o well...
k. .nights ppeeps.
mata =/
-jia you pauline...-
15 October 2010
Those days are back
sighs.. so nice.. how i wish i could see sammy.. and spedn my tiem with him on valentines day... .=/ o well...
suddenly time seems to stop...
its running slow again.... o well..
its not good to dwell on it too mcuh.. but.. o well..
bro not coming back tonight.. good thing i still have my tv on.. ..otherwise.. if no shows, i wouldnt know what to do now...
alreayd feeling lonely and upsetting enough...
today felt better after a talk with colleguae cum fren. so yea.. at least better.. abit on how to deal with tmr. .otherwise.. yea.. i really woke up.. feleing how.. ???
somehow manager no reply msg. i have no idea hows the situation now either. ..so yea.. ..
.... o well. i'll see whwat will become of me tmr. hatred still there.. but yea..
i'll make sure im the one whos fine tmr. i duno how to make ssure actually. but yea. .ha. ...o well...
i really need lots of care and concern right now.. . but i cant feel it.. and i couldnt tell my family. cos i know how mum will nag and talk useless thingy.. then bro.. forget it.. .
then sam.. iha. i duno.
anyway he knew alreyad. so yea. just talked bait ..thats it. .better thna nothign eh..
was feeling better ytd.. but now.. not so.. =/ i udno.. nothigns been good.. the only thinkg i thought could made me happy was by seeing sam.
but thats like of course way till next year.
and hotel fee seems so expensive.. unless its stay in at some backpack. .or whasoever... yea. .. ha. .o well.. so expensive to even stay 10 nights in a hotel there..
everything comes with a high price. .but yea..
tch.. =/ wonderwhat to hold on for now.
its like.. wanna go this way not right .that way also not right.. i don feel happy. at least not right now.
even if i do, i think im happy for hte max of.. i duno.. i duno how long. but that don exceeds one week ever.
o well.. trying to find my way.. i duno how. suddenly back to the days i felt before i met sam.
its back again.
o welll.. waht can i say..
all i need could be a simple dinner treat from someone right now.. i might feel better even for abit..
i duno what to do fo rthis weekend..
i duno what to do for most of my days..
ok.. its 10.. show starts.. ..
yea. .somehow.. abck to tv life. .ha. ..o well..
mata
suddenly time seems to stop...
its running slow again.... o well..
its not good to dwell on it too mcuh.. but.. o well..
bro not coming back tonight.. good thing i still have my tv on.. ..otherwise.. if no shows, i wouldnt know what to do now...
alreayd feeling lonely and upsetting enough...
today felt better after a talk with colleguae cum fren. so yea.. at least better.. abit on how to deal with tmr. .otherwise.. yea.. i really woke up.. feleing how.. ???
somehow manager no reply msg. i have no idea hows the situation now either. ..so yea.. ..
.... o well. i'll see whwat will become of me tmr. hatred still there.. but yea..
i'll make sure im the one whos fine tmr. i duno how to make ssure actually. but yea. .ha. ...o well...
i really need lots of care and concern right now.. . but i cant feel it.. and i couldnt tell my family. cos i know how mum will nag and talk useless thingy.. then bro.. forget it.. .
then sam.. iha. i duno.
anyway he knew alreyad. so yea. just talked bait ..thats it. .better thna nothign eh..
was feeling better ytd.. but now.. not so.. =/ i udno.. nothigns been good.. the only thinkg i thought could made me happy was by seeing sam.
but thats like of course way till next year.
and hotel fee seems so expensive.. unless its stay in at some backpack. .or whasoever... yea. .. ha. .o well.. so expensive to even stay 10 nights in a hotel there..
everything comes with a high price. .but yea..
tch.. =/ wonderwhat to hold on for now.
its like.. wanna go this way not right .that way also not right.. i don feel happy. at least not right now.
even if i do, i think im happy for hte max of.. i duno.. i duno how long. but that don exceeds one week ever.
o well.. trying to find my way.. i duno how. suddenly back to the days i felt before i met sam.
its back again.
o welll.. waht can i say..
all i need could be a simple dinner treat from someone right now.. i might feel better even for abit..
i duno what to do fo rthis weekend..
i duno what to do for most of my days..
ok.. its 10.. show starts.. ..
yea. .somehow.. abck to tv life. .ha. ..o well..
mata
14 October 2010
im hurt and in so much pains
i have never been so hurt my whole life before...
.. my heart is still tearing and hurting even as i speak.......
and think...
...i have never felt this sad for sooo long.. ='((
today was sick.. having my nose blown and blown away...
then waiting for samy to get home. .rest and rest .tehn still he's not home yet.. abit not feelign good.. tjsut then found out from fb.. a huge news . shocking ones. the ppl u don thin will hurt u the most, wil hurt u. they have the most innocent tone adn face. but they are wolfs in disguise. i tell u. pls.. don believe ur frens. none of them could be trusted.
when u least expected it, they will turn against u. even when u think now theres no probs at all, oh yes. .they ARE talking behind ur backs.
my bro.. i think he knew what happen knda.. he know ik sad.. yet. .he never ask.. i feel relaly neglated.. i don get much concerns ard anyore... feel so lonely and sad..
i know.. he didnt know how to ask or what ba.. but.. ... ..i just need some cares. .thats all....
but yea.... 3am now.. i have no idea what should i do. .slp and wake up to another hurting day?
i duno.. i tried hard not to hitnk. .but to no avail..
why... the point is.. why>>>>>>>>>>>>??????????????????
i don get this.. i treated everyone fair and square.. i don shout. i don act bossy. i swear i dont.
i talk nicely. .sa with a smile. .why.....
why innocent human could get hurt like that.??
i don mean anything.
i mean no harm. i don backstab anyone...
why me??? just becos im younrger htna them?
why>???
... its liek an innocent being throuwn into a jail just becos htey did nothing wrong...
so what now??? i treat evryone ard me nicely... does htat meam that eveyr one who are clsoe to me think liek thet did???
am i that bad>????
should i learn to be evi;?? if i want to, i can be a totally another person . i can. just a matter if i want to or not.
im on the lightside,. so i wont step into the dark.
but this matter really blew me away.
its so difficult being the nice girl...
sigshssssssssssssssssssssss
im starting to think.. whether i should become a murderer instead of a victim. i want to be , i could be a mean one. don forget. i have tons of personailiteis in me.
i just gotta release them.
thats all.
howveer.. my parents don bore me this way.. innocent as i might be.. i.. i wanna say i will do my best to watch bout now.. blah3.. but seriously im confused like hell. no idea what to do...
...
maybe u might even be thinking.. why am i saying myself innocent? i msut be a *itch.
im teeling u. i know who i am and how i treated ppl. i have never ever ill treated ppl in my lfie.
not to htem. ...sighs...
biggest question is.. how could an innocent looign person turn thei back and say such evil thigns a devil would said..
and why me of all ppl. cos im younger htan then> they jealous???
wth.. ..
=((
i done nothign nbad to them.. why pick on me. ...
must the innocents be suffering?..
talked with sammy for abit..
ims till confused as ever.. hurt as ever. .crying as ever...
wondeirn gif i should do htem in. i could if i want to kill htem all .
but .. no.. im not supposed to. thast not me...
do not ever step onto my tail.. never.
so yea..... .... lifes' at work gonna be even toiugh[er than now... ..im not lookign forward to working.. ... i don knwo wat to do..
but im doing my best now to clear all my thoughts.
will have to stand alone against them all. what shoudl i do.. .=(
see.. .angry till. .nose is cleaerd.. o well. .see tmr how eh.. ..hope i get bette.r. i need to destress ooo much
i cusrsde so mcuh today... cos of the.. .i never in my life ever done htat so much..
im so hurt..
but.. yea..
will do my best pull myself up. .i duno how.. but i have o..
now all im feeling is.. not so positive. sorry.. =/
its like. .all my lifes.. no matter big or small matters, they are all getting to me..
can i be hard hearted enough to ignore them all???
this challenge.. i have to overcome it.. .
how? i duno.. but im trying to figure out..
ha. .my eyes. .tmr gonna be so swollen after crying so much todya. o well.. =/
3.40am.. i dnt feel slpy...
when one part of body is too pain, u can t feel anything else....
my backs hurting abit. .... so yea. .perhasp i shoud slp now..
i duno if i couldl. .but yea.. se ehow.. ..
....ja.. ..mata.. ..
.. my heart is still tearing and hurting even as i speak.......
and think...
...i have never felt this sad for sooo long.. ='((
today was sick.. having my nose blown and blown away...
then waiting for samy to get home. .rest and rest .tehn still he's not home yet.. abit not feelign good.. tjsut then found out from fb.. a huge news . shocking ones. the ppl u don thin will hurt u the most, wil hurt u. they have the most innocent tone adn face. but they are wolfs in disguise. i tell u. pls.. don believe ur frens. none of them could be trusted.
when u least expected it, they will turn against u. even when u think now theres no probs at all, oh yes. .they ARE talking behind ur backs.
my bro.. i think he knew what happen knda.. he know ik sad.. yet. .he never ask.. i feel relaly neglated.. i don get much concerns ard anyore... feel so lonely and sad..
i know.. he didnt know how to ask or what ba.. but.. ... ..i just need some cares. .thats all....
but yea.... 3am now.. i have no idea what should i do. .slp and wake up to another hurting day?
i duno.. i tried hard not to hitnk. .but to no avail..
why... the point is.. why>>>>>>>>>>>>??????????????????
i don get this.. i treated everyone fair and square.. i don shout. i don act bossy. i swear i dont.
i talk nicely. .sa with a smile. .why.....
why innocent human could get hurt like that.??
i don mean anything.
i mean no harm. i don backstab anyone...
why me??? just becos im younrger htna them?
why>???
... its liek an innocent being throuwn into a jail just becos htey did nothing wrong...
so what now??? i treat evryone ard me nicely... does htat meam that eveyr one who are clsoe to me think liek thet did???
am i that bad>????
should i learn to be evi;?? if i want to, i can be a totally another person . i can. just a matter if i want to or not.
im on the lightside,. so i wont step into the dark.
but this matter really blew me away.
its so difficult being the nice girl...
sigshssssssssssssssssssssss
im starting to think.. whether i should become a murderer instead of a victim. i want to be , i could be a mean one. don forget. i have tons of personailiteis in me.
i just gotta release them.
thats all.
howveer.. my parents don bore me this way.. innocent as i might be.. i.. i wanna say i will do my best to watch bout now.. blah3.. but seriously im confused like hell. no idea what to do...
...
maybe u might even be thinking.. why am i saying myself innocent? i msut be a *itch.
im teeling u. i know who i am and how i treated ppl. i have never ever ill treated ppl in my lfie.
not to htem. ...sighs...
biggest question is.. how could an innocent looign person turn thei back and say such evil thigns a devil would said..
and why me of all ppl. cos im younger htan then> they jealous???
wth.. ..
=((
i done nothign nbad to them.. why pick on me. ...
must the innocents be suffering?..
talked with sammy for abit..
ims till confused as ever.. hurt as ever. .crying as ever...
wondeirn gif i should do htem in. i could if i want to kill htem all .
but .. no.. im not supposed to. thast not me...
do not ever step onto my tail.. never.
so yea..... .... lifes' at work gonna be even toiugh[er than now... ..im not lookign forward to working.. ... i don knwo wat to do..
but im doing my best now to clear all my thoughts.
will have to stand alone against them all. what shoudl i do.. .=(
see.. .angry till. .nose is cleaerd.. o well. .see tmr how eh.. ..hope i get bette.r. i need to destress ooo much
i cusrsde so mcuh today... cos of the.. .i never in my life ever done htat so much..
im so hurt..
but.. yea..
will do my best pull myself up. .i duno how.. but i have o..
now all im feeling is.. not so positive. sorry.. =/
its like. .all my lifes.. no matter big or small matters, they are all getting to me..
can i be hard hearted enough to ignore them all???
this challenge.. i have to overcome it.. .
how? i duno.. but im trying to figure out..
ha. .my eyes. .tmr gonna be so swollen after crying so much todya. o well.. =/
3.40am.. i dnt feel slpy...
when one part of body is too pain, u can t feel anything else....
my backs hurting abit. .... so yea. .perhasp i shoud slp now..
i duno if i couldl. .but yea.. se ehow.. ..
....ja.. ..mata.. ..
13 October 2010
need a hug
soory, i;ve been bloggni in frenste.r for abit.. not here. .sometimes cos internet too slow. .so yea.. while sometiems just wanan sgo to main mnother blogs. so never bvlog here. sorry.
hmm... o well. . wasnt feeling so well when i woke up thi morning. ..hm. .. haiz.. sianz.. duno what to sya also.. ha. ...o well
now nose.. abit runny again. so sudden. headache.. . think should be ok by now.. hope so..
now listening to songs.. singing alone abit. ...
haiz. .htinking abou tmy language lessons been wanting to take. .=/
o well..
hm.. i duno.. like.. wonderng if small matters shoudl be ignored.. ..
for my situation.. i htink i should not.. but. .sometimes.. im not the only one who has hte say in it. .
o well.. i duno..
and dad's not bene woring.. i duno wtf he's thinking.
ha.. ..\haiz. tch,... its vey very infuriating..
=( i duno what he want..
i think i just wan my life. and for this 2 years in. .i really need to enjoy and have my own life.. and i duno what. but i know i must try to be happy>
sighs.. but im not happy
..
oh kept forgetig about this=/
the other day was throwing this carton box.. then goinside hte u know shopping malll doors and stuff? then htis stupid malay.. man. he wanna go out alreyad.. then when i go in, he sudeenly stop. stand, lean against wall, and look a tme. wtf.
im so dam* pissed off. somemore its a small space u knwo. luckily im at theis crowded mall, not some geylang road. sh**head. [whats he looking at???!!! i hate it!!
then i just put away, and quickly walk and push door out. with him watching behind. shitt*guy. omg. .i hate him like mad.
o well. .
hm.. seems like i didnt made my words clear enough..tonight. o well.. .=/
oh.. got 2 hugs from manager. .aww... ha.. come to thin of it. .alreayd the 3rd time huh. but yea..
its my honour too. i mean yea.. i alwyas give ppl gifts or hwatso ever with the full otos of my sincerities.. aznd im glad it works.. so yea. she love the surprise, and the gifts. plus letter.. yea..
letter is good i think.. in my opinion.. cos ppl been using msn.. emails. .blah9.... een today.. a customer saw this letter set. .she like the deisign.. but say she wont buy. .cos. ''who now in this time still would write letters''??
i was like. .almost wanna tell her.. hello???? we do have alo tof customer shwo s finding and think that writing letters are way soooo much freakni gbetter than emails k!!!!!!!!! wtheck. =.=...
..ok cool..
anway yeah...
at least the hug was a truly heartfelt one.
gosh.. i hope i wont miss her or cry too mcuh if she's ever gone back to melb.. =/
gosh.. i don like hte feeling of partings.. .= ( its terrible. .like. .u'll never see each other again. ...haiz...
who knows.. if i ever have extra2 money, i might get to fly there and visit her eh. i hope so.
haha
hm.. so yea..
o well. .she's stressed alo tof stuff too .io mena for her work..
and NO... i do not want the sydney guys she say she's gonna bring back for me. LOL!! NO~~!!!! XD she's funny. lol.
htat time say french guys., now austrlia guys. OMG. no thank you lol.
ye ai guess she does ave a liot of guys frens eh. lol. wonde rhows shes gonna make her choice huh? for a bf that is.. hm....
lol. curious liao .ha. not easy to breaky with her 3 yrs bf u know ..o well...
but at least.. she should seme fine now.. but. .who knows..
its like.. i dun think they'll ever know behind those smiles and laughters i tried to have in the shop, behind, lies this ..ye.a.. i just wish dad wil go back work soon =/ ...
tch...
i duno wt els.e. i guess.. imstill learnign so much alnog hte way.. work lvoe life me famiily.. blah3..
will try not to think .. but. .i just wanna do whats the bet for us..
and.. o well. .there re alot of rocks ard eh.but thta sholdnt stop anyone form doing anything.
i shall tyr to do as how he thinks..
mata
hmm... o well. . wasnt feeling so well when i woke up thi morning. ..hm. .. haiz.. sianz.. duno what to sya also.. ha. ...o well
now nose.. abit runny again. so sudden. headache.. . think should be ok by now.. hope so..
now listening to songs.. singing alone abit. ...
haiz. .htinking abou tmy language lessons been wanting to take. .=/
o well..
hm.. i duno.. like.. wonderng if small matters shoudl be ignored.. ..
for my situation.. i htink i should not.. but. .sometimes.. im not the only one who has hte say in it. .
o well.. i duno..
and dad's not bene woring.. i duno wtf he's thinking.
ha.. ..\haiz. tch,... its vey very infuriating..
=( i duno what he want..
i think i just wan my life. and for this 2 years in. .i really need to enjoy and have my own life.. and i duno what. but i know i must try to be happy>
sighs.. but im not happy
..
oh kept forgetig about this=/
the other day was throwing this carton box.. then goinside hte u know shopping malll doors and stuff? then htis stupid malay.. man. he wanna go out alreyad.. then when i go in, he sudeenly stop. stand, lean against wall, and look a tme. wtf.
im so dam* pissed off. somemore its a small space u knwo. luckily im at theis crowded mall, not some geylang road. sh**head. [whats he looking at???!!! i hate it!!
then i just put away, and quickly walk and push door out. with him watching behind. shitt*guy. omg. .i hate him like mad.
o well. .
hm.. seems like i didnt made my words clear enough..tonight. o well.. .=/
oh.. got 2 hugs from manager. .aww... ha.. come to thin of it. .alreayd the 3rd time huh. but yea..
its my honour too. i mean yea.. i alwyas give ppl gifts or hwatso ever with the full otos of my sincerities.. aznd im glad it works.. so yea. she love the surprise, and the gifts. plus letter.. yea..
letter is good i think.. in my opinion.. cos ppl been using msn.. emails. .blah9.... een today.. a customer saw this letter set. .she like the deisign.. but say she wont buy. .cos. ''who now in this time still would write letters''??
i was like. .almost wanna tell her.. hello???? we do have alo tof customer shwo s finding and think that writing letters are way soooo much freakni gbetter than emails k!!!!!!!!! wtheck. =.=...
..ok cool..
anway yeah...
at least the hug was a truly heartfelt one.
gosh.. i hope i wont miss her or cry too mcuh if she's ever gone back to melb.. =/
gosh.. i don like hte feeling of partings.. .= ( its terrible. .like. .u'll never see each other again. ...haiz...
who knows.. if i ever have extra2 money, i might get to fly there and visit her eh. i hope so.
haha
hm.. so yea..
o well. .she's stressed alo tof stuff too .io mena for her work..
and NO... i do not want the sydney guys she say she's gonna bring back for me. LOL!! NO~~!!!! XD she's funny. lol.
htat time say french guys., now austrlia guys. OMG. no thank you lol.
ye ai guess she does ave a liot of guys frens eh. lol. wonde rhows shes gonna make her choice huh? for a bf that is.. hm....
lol. curious liao .ha. not easy to breaky with her 3 yrs bf u know ..o well...
but at least.. she should seme fine now.. but. .who knows..
its like.. i dun think they'll ever know behind those smiles and laughters i tried to have in the shop, behind, lies this ..ye.a.. i just wish dad wil go back work soon =/ ...
tch...
i duno wt els.e. i guess.. imstill learnign so much alnog hte way.. work lvoe life me famiily.. blah3..
will try not to think .. but. .i just wanna do whats the bet for us..
and.. o well. .there re alot of rocks ard eh.but thta sholdnt stop anyone form doing anything.
i shall tyr to do as how he thinks..
mata
10 October 2010
simple one day
hmm... late now.. o well.. it sok. .doesnt feel like slping just yet. ..
hm... .... haiz.. work thingy. .sztill kinda bothers me a lil.. but.. im trying my very best not to let it get to my head. =/
o well. ..i hope to have a good off resting day for tmr. i mean later. yea..
o well
ok. .so.. had a pasta at this nice restaurant with manger and that b*tch today. pasta tasted just alrite=.= but cost $22. dots.
anyway, hm.. yea.. just catch up on some work stuff. ... so yea.. ..
tmr will go through everythieng ba.. hm..
ok.. so.. what else.. nothing pretty much going on. =/ yea i know. .its always work and the same thieng happening.. nothing much exciting..
hm.. ..
o well..
weird.. i htought i was gonna say something. .maybe a fter a bath, me totally forgot. .cos slpy and comfy smooth. ha. yea..
i miss sammy.. =/ so wanna go over to see him both on jan and july... haiz..
..o well..
for now.. .life just gets a lil tougher each day cos.. the most important person isnt by ur side.. and wiht all these nonsense going on sometiems(at work.. etc) i duno. kinda difficult fo rme. .but doing my best still.. after a year.. still trying my best. .ha. yea. .but like what my collegaue said.. you can never get used to such things..
met her husband the other day when he passed by.
he's very tall. about 1.85? or 186. i duno. so yea. he have this very down to earth honest lok on him. hte look that says he's an upright man who wont cheat behind her.
ha.. i mentioned this to her.. and she was surprised. .she's like really ar? im ,like.. yea.. why so surprised? she said shes surprised that someone could actually tell that from the lok of his face.
ha.. yea.. but it was obvious to me whos the honest type. i have one right by my side everydya. none other than my brother. lol.
so yea. .i kinda feel and know.. from the look soemtimes.. who's sincere and honest, and down to earth.
then shes liek. .yea.. otherwise they would've gone so far as to 9 , 10 years being together.
the one i mentioned long ago? remember? ldr for four years.. 5 years together before that..
so yea.. its great. ha.. no wonder. im not surprisde that made it.
well, .. ha not relaly
picture this... with u and ur love one being together..
woman cooking dinner.. after dinner guy will help wash dishes..
then take a stroll outside.. perhaps to mall..
together shop for food ingredients.. or everyday's items..
guy push cart.. while woman fills the cart with items they need..
guy drive home.. while woman looking at receipt..(of things they just bought)
...me type doesnt sound nice eh> ha.. but i was watching this korea drama.. and the guy was saying this to the woman he loves.. the wword woman i used, referring to his love one's name.. the man,, menaing as himself.
he describe it till so nice.. i was picturing it along too. hahaha.. .. so ye...
so nice. .nice day.. nice night.. wonderful isnt it..
ok.. starting to yawn now.. so thirsty now..
k.. better hm.. yea. .get some rest for tmr.. chill.. relax...
mata
hm... .... haiz.. work thingy. .sztill kinda bothers me a lil.. but.. im trying my very best not to let it get to my head. =/
o well. ..i hope to have a good off resting day for tmr. i mean later. yea..
o well
ok. .so.. had a pasta at this nice restaurant with manger and that b*tch today. pasta tasted just alrite=.= but cost $22. dots.
anyway, hm.. yea.. just catch up on some work stuff. ... so yea.. ..
tmr will go through everythieng ba.. hm..
ok.. so.. what else.. nothing pretty much going on. =/ yea i know. .its always work and the same thieng happening.. nothing much exciting..
hm.. ..
o well..
weird.. i htought i was gonna say something. .maybe a fter a bath, me totally forgot. .cos slpy and comfy smooth. ha. yea..
i miss sammy.. =/ so wanna go over to see him both on jan and july... haiz..
..o well..
for now.. .life just gets a lil tougher each day cos.. the most important person isnt by ur side.. and wiht all these nonsense going on sometiems(at work.. etc) i duno. kinda difficult fo rme. .but doing my best still.. after a year.. still trying my best. .ha. yea. .but like what my collegaue said.. you can never get used to such things..
met her husband the other day when he passed by.
he's very tall. about 1.85? or 186. i duno. so yea. he have this very down to earth honest lok on him. hte look that says he's an upright man who wont cheat behind her.
ha.. i mentioned this to her.. and she was surprised. .she's like really ar? im ,like.. yea.. why so surprised? she said shes surprised that someone could actually tell that from the lok of his face.
ha.. yea.. but it was obvious to me whos the honest type. i have one right by my side everydya. none other than my brother. lol.
so yea. .i kinda feel and know.. from the look soemtimes.. who's sincere and honest, and down to earth.
then shes liek. .yea.. otherwise they would've gone so far as to 9 , 10 years being together.
the one i mentioned long ago? remember? ldr for four years.. 5 years together before that..
so yea.. its great. ha.. no wonder. im not surprisde that made it.
well, .. ha not relaly
picture this... with u and ur love one being together..
woman cooking dinner.. after dinner guy will help wash dishes..
then take a stroll outside.. perhaps to mall..
together shop for food ingredients.. or everyday's items..
guy push cart.. while woman fills the cart with items they need..
guy drive home.. while woman looking at receipt..(of things they just bought)
...me type doesnt sound nice eh> ha.. but i was watching this korea drama.. and the guy was saying this to the woman he loves.. the wword woman i used, referring to his love one's name.. the man,, menaing as himself.
he describe it till so nice.. i was picturing it along too. hahaha.. .. so ye...
so nice. .nice day.. nice night.. wonderful isnt it..
ok.. starting to yawn now.. so thirsty now..
k.. better hm.. yea. .get some rest for tmr.. chill.. relax...
mata
09 October 2010
Sentosa with parents
hm.. ok.. so.. im gonna slp soon.. asap.. wakey at 8am today ne.. then parents and me went out at 11 plus.. go around sentosa. gosh.. i was totally beat up. and i finally get some stuff pressy actually for my manager's birthdya.
then dad was like.. he's excited i think. he took so much photos. lol.
adn yea.. wiht mum of course. hahaha... hm.. yea. he say its his first time taking the train.. and yea.. never though tof heading over to the merlion area, but we happened to chance upon it, and dad wanna have a loook.. kinda. well, he never relaly been there, so just bring htem up.. then yea.. wow.. the fountians.. omg.... its amazing. it reminded me of the rows of indivuals fountains i saw while i was with sammy at syendy. we took pics.. its antique looking kinda.. then theres symbols of snakes and stuff.
what i saw today was some relaly colour happy sea creatures.. oh, i even get to walk ard the vivo water. at the 3rd floor. yea. .been so long huh.. stil lrememerb that night me went there with sam.. then i even took a video there..while walking. then he took pics of me. ...haiz.. i was in a pink dress. all doll up for him.. with hair curled.. . he was saying i look good with it.. and the dress on.. ...yea ..
haiz..
miss him so much..
then hte phone again.. i duno how it works anymore. doest seem like its working someitmes. i dun even know when could we receive any msg.. o well. .hat aside, .. yea.
tmr back to work.. feeling alil.. o well.. =/ yea. but will gambate.
stick together, hold on tight together. .i got 9months to go. not 12 anymore. i shall hang on.. totally.
haiz.. been so tough.. but yea.. .
and hope tmr meeting will be good.. ..
hm.. ..
so yea.. glad to see dad happy about a place like that. actuall ywanted to bring them closer in and walk all over =( but a pity.. it was hot, and i was really3 tired. .it was good to head out .i wasnt feeling very well.. like. .still feeling kinda overwhelmed with wat i heard these past days. .ya know with manager meeting and stuff. so yea.. .sighs.
jus need to get out of house. =/
so yea. .not too bad a trip. but could've been better. so.. yea..
glad they enjoy it eh.
hm.. yea. .hopefully next time will have more chance to take them there again, this time, shall let them exporre whole sentosa.
heard they are building up.. omg. i was like. .waht?? more is coming> ? o..k... wow. thats good though. more surprisess for us. ..ha. so yea. o wel
more thigns to do iat sentosa now.
yea.. me never seen those fountains.. was going woo!! haha.. cos like. .wow. .the splashing soudns. .so calming. .so.. refreshing ..so nature like. .its what i need to relax now.. best if i was with sam.
so yea..
hm... .. ok.. thats about it..
slpy.. time to slp.
yea. .at least .. smiles the widest when i tlaked with sam just now..
lookey back at the pics 9months ago, he was smiling soooo super happily. he got such huge smile on hiim.. i had it too.. we both did. .he hug me.. i hug him.. i was always looking at hime.. focus on him..
we were so happy.. then again, yea. like i said. i really lost weight from those pics 9months ago.. due to work? or life stress? i duno.. but yea..
then.. i got no such smiles nor laughers now. .. ha. ..o well.
haiz... ...thats why.. shoudl;ve taken more pics eh..
o well.. yea.. glad to see him so happy with me. ..
mata ne.. ..
then dad was like.. he's excited i think. he took so much photos. lol.
adn yea.. wiht mum of course. hahaha... hm.. yea. he say its his first time taking the train.. and yea.. never though tof heading over to the merlion area, but we happened to chance upon it, and dad wanna have a loook.. kinda. well, he never relaly been there, so just bring htem up.. then yea.. wow.. the fountians.. omg.... its amazing. it reminded me of the rows of indivuals fountains i saw while i was with sammy at syendy. we took pics.. its antique looking kinda.. then theres symbols of snakes and stuff.
what i saw today was some relaly colour happy sea creatures.. oh, i even get to walk ard the vivo water. at the 3rd floor. yea. .been so long huh.. stil lrememerb that night me went there with sam.. then i even took a video there..while walking. then he took pics of me. ...haiz.. i was in a pink dress. all doll up for him.. with hair curled.. . he was saying i look good with it.. and the dress on.. ...yea ..
haiz..
miss him so much..
then hte phone again.. i duno how it works anymore. doest seem like its working someitmes. i dun even know when could we receive any msg.. o well. .hat aside, .. yea.
tmr back to work.. feeling alil.. o well.. =/ yea. but will gambate.
stick together, hold on tight together. .i got 9months to go. not 12 anymore. i shall hang on.. totally.
haiz.. been so tough.. but yea.. .
and hope tmr meeting will be good.. ..
hm.. ..
so yea.. glad to see dad happy about a place like that. actuall ywanted to bring them closer in and walk all over =( but a pity.. it was hot, and i was really3 tired. .it was good to head out .i wasnt feeling very well.. like. .still feeling kinda overwhelmed with wat i heard these past days. .ya know with manager meeting and stuff. so yea.. .sighs.
jus need to get out of house. =/
so yea. .not too bad a trip. but could've been better. so.. yea..
glad they enjoy it eh.
hm.. yea. .hopefully next time will have more chance to take them there again, this time, shall let them exporre whole sentosa.
heard they are building up.. omg. i was like. .waht?? more is coming> ? o..k... wow. thats good though. more surprisess for us. ..ha. so yea. o wel
more thigns to do iat sentosa now.
yea.. me never seen those fountains.. was going woo!! haha.. cos like. .wow. .the splashing soudns. .so calming. .so.. refreshing ..so nature like. .its what i need to relax now.. best if i was with sam.
so yea..
hm... .. ok.. thats about it..
slpy.. time to slp.
yea. .at least .. smiles the widest when i tlaked with sam just now..
lookey back at the pics 9months ago, he was smiling soooo super happily. he got such huge smile on hiim.. i had it too.. we both did. .he hug me.. i hug him.. i was always looking at hime.. focus on him..
we were so happy.. then again, yea. like i said. i really lost weight from those pics 9months ago.. due to work? or life stress? i duno.. but yea..
then.. i got no such smiles nor laughers now. .. ha. ..o well.
haiz... ...thats why.. shoudl;ve taken more pics eh..
o well.. yea.. glad to see him so happy with me. ..
mata ne.. ..
08 October 2010
Mistakes
hmmm.... .. i duno where to begin..
start with nice news first?
was happy to meet a ex colleague back in shop today. she just passed by to say hi. omg.. my memory.. i nearly couldnt recognized her!! took me a couple of good secs then rememebr! =.= that goes the same for another colleague of mine the other day. dots.....
haiz..
anyway, ywa.. so great to see her again. happy person she is. ha
toda.. sick.. wakey, thne sick righ t awya.. didnt slpt well. .cos.. wasnt feeling good.
s o yea.. sick till late night.. then close. .then blah3.. home
i have to do htis. so i asked my colleagus anything not happy with me, or htink i should changte just let me knbiow. it can be hurtful trust me. but its a must thing to do. COMMUNICAte. no wodner ppl always say this is so important.. u know.. how actiosn that u done, and keep doing, u have no idea of.. thats a bad thing. u ddnt know. cos u didnt realized. no one tell u anything. so u keep doing. without realzinf that its a bad thing. and u didnt know u keep doing it. then no oine corrects u.
then yea. htats my point. there are no communication. if there is any, then of course. u'll reliazed the mistake, move on, and make ursrlf turn out to be a better man. change it over. listen to what ppl say. head for a good change. tough. but as long as its helpful. why not???
especially if its gonna aid u for life.
haiz. stress..
its like.. at work u gotta try and do every best.. give the best u got. smiles. jokes. talk. work. lead. everything. you laugh when u're feeling down. when theres still so much going on around in ur head.. u have to . =/
its a must. u musnt give anyone a chance to stab behind ya back again.
sommore.. ... u know.. i have so much high expoectations of myself at work. i wana and need to do my best. so i can keep on moving. i cant allow any rooms for mistakes. but soemtimes, mistakes let in, and i have to learn from them.
.haiz. never really talk about this.
yet.
just.. .. duno.. how.. i duno..
=/ o well..
..haiz...
so much .. to .. u know. just. .well. try to brush it off, move on.. work it out.. put on a mask or so.. even if it meant half a mask.. and just work the day through..
someitmes i dislike trying so hard to joke ard. but. .yea. .u gotta do somehting if u don wish to remain in the same posiiton fo rhte rest of ur life.
ah.. jus realised.. .its been a year arealyd.. he made this promise to come back 2 years later the most.
..but i doubt that could come true after all..
realized that. .thigns to look forward in doing wiht him seems so far far away now..
he cant come back here any time soon.. i cant go with him to uss anytime soon.. so much.. i cant do.
that cant be helped u know.
no one's fault.. just.. yea. .wron timing.
great griefs
me.. working so hard for my future now.. at the same time.. wont forget what i told myself.. before that year is here, just do whatever i like. i try to. but difficult. ha.
then when its all over, life will be save and save.. hard to hard. yea.. ..
haiz.. my jap lessons.. wonde rshould i start next year early. .or what =/
sighs...............i need to see how much money i;ve left after i bought the tics first. ..yea.. tics come first. the rest, the most i wait till come back from holiday then do.
so nice... just thought of.. .. the fact that my manager is headnig back to melb.. for 12 days. .haiz.. .super duper envious=((.. .i wish i could be the one to go..
o well..
don even know if the plan will fail.. but. .yea. .theres the max i cold hold on to.. its no good keep pushing he date further and further away.. it makes me .. yea. .go crazy. not good.. =/
o well.. after chinese new year ba. ..
o well..
hm. .so yea. .lesser hopes for today!!
care less, hurt less.
lower expecatations, less hurts.
o well.. may tmr be a peaceful day.. i just wanna be myself on m off.. not one to get all .. .smiling even when i don wan t to at work..
k. much to be learn.. just pull through this.. don give up. ...
mata
start with nice news first?
was happy to meet a ex colleague back in shop today. she just passed by to say hi. omg.. my memory.. i nearly couldnt recognized her!! took me a couple of good secs then rememebr! =.= that goes the same for another colleague of mine the other day. dots.....
haiz..
anyway, ywa.. so great to see her again. happy person she is. ha
toda.. sick.. wakey, thne sick righ t awya.. didnt slpt well. .cos.. wasnt feeling good.
s o yea.. sick till late night.. then close. .then blah3.. home
i have to do htis. so i asked my colleagus anything not happy with me, or htink i should changte just let me knbiow. it can be hurtful trust me. but its a must thing to do. COMMUNICAte. no wodner ppl always say this is so important.. u know.. how actiosn that u done, and keep doing, u have no idea of.. thats a bad thing. u ddnt know. cos u didnt realized. no one tell u anything. so u keep doing. without realzinf that its a bad thing. and u didnt know u keep doing it. then no oine corrects u.
then yea. htats my point. there are no communication. if there is any, then of course. u'll reliazed the mistake, move on, and make ursrlf turn out to be a better man. change it over. listen to what ppl say. head for a good change. tough. but as long as its helpful. why not???
especially if its gonna aid u for life.
haiz. stress..
its like.. at work u gotta try and do every best.. give the best u got. smiles. jokes. talk. work. lead. everything. you laugh when u're feeling down. when theres still so much going on around in ur head.. u have to . =/
its a must. u musnt give anyone a chance to stab behind ya back again.
sommore.. ... u know.. i have so much high expoectations of myself at work. i wana and need to do my best. so i can keep on moving. i cant allow any rooms for mistakes. but soemtimes, mistakes let in, and i have to learn from them.
.haiz. never really talk about this.
yet.
just.. .. duno.. how.. i duno..
=/ o well..
..haiz...
so much .. to .. u know. just. .well. try to brush it off, move on.. work it out.. put on a mask or so.. even if it meant half a mask.. and just work the day through..
someitmes i dislike trying so hard to joke ard. but. .yea. .u gotta do somehting if u don wish to remain in the same posiiton fo rhte rest of ur life.
ah.. jus realised.. .its been a year arealyd.. he made this promise to come back 2 years later the most.
..but i doubt that could come true after all..
realized that. .thigns to look forward in doing wiht him seems so far far away now..
he cant come back here any time soon.. i cant go with him to uss anytime soon.. so much.. i cant do.
that cant be helped u know.
no one's fault.. just.. yea. .wron timing.
great griefs
me.. working so hard for my future now.. at the same time.. wont forget what i told myself.. before that year is here, just do whatever i like. i try to. but difficult. ha.
then when its all over, life will be save and save.. hard to hard. yea.. ..
haiz.. my jap lessons.. wonde rshould i start next year early. .or what =/
sighs...............i need to see how much money i;ve left after i bought the tics first. ..yea.. tics come first. the rest, the most i wait till come back from holiday then do.
so nice... just thought of.. .. the fact that my manager is headnig back to melb.. for 12 days. .haiz.. .super duper envious=((.. .i wish i could be the one to go..
o well..
don even know if the plan will fail.. but. .yea. .theres the max i cold hold on to.. its no good keep pushing he date further and further away.. it makes me .. yea. .go crazy. not good.. =/
o well.. after chinese new year ba. ..
o well..
hm. .so yea. .lesser hopes for today!!
care less, hurt less.
lower expecatations, less hurts.
o well.. may tmr be a peaceful day.. i just wanna be myself on m off.. not one to get all .. .smiling even when i don wan t to at work..
k. much to be learn.. just pull through this.. don give up. ...
mata
07 October 2010
Disappoint day
..sighs.. didnt really wanan blog.. like. .tch.. i don feel good =/
its not a very good day for me.
o well..
hm.. ...alot of thingys couldnt be felt..
im gonna try to improve , and yea.. just force mysefl do whatever it takes, to win this battle.
tmr will work harder than ever before.
will make it i guess.
im so tired..
o well..
its just wasnt a fine day yea..
i couldnt resist feeling puzzled over what worng i've done. there wasnt any i could think of. really.
then somehow,. .was looking at my manager .then using a very sad.. puppy eyes naturally. asked. .im puzzled.. i don get the whole frenly thing.. i've always say hi and be frenly with my colleguas in mrg and stuff..
then manager gave me a hug.
that felt so much better. at least theres somoene else still believes in me. i could in those eyes.
i duno. better not take it seriously. in truth, anyone in this world could be out to get ya. its just a matter of time. ..so yea.. even the most impossible one. .could just said somethng so.. outrageous. ...ha. .o well. .i wanna forget this all..
theres littel concern to be felt today.. even my brother..
oo well.. wont forge ti guess.. just.. gonna remind myself.. work it out. .get better .show them. stumble them over.
i will stumble them over. make htem speechless. road aint smooht. but i shall bleed adn hurt and make sure i get up and walk with my own feet.
walk towards my goals.
its so blody difficult. but this could be the path i've chosen. so let it be hten..
what else could i do..
lifes.. already tough missing another part of ya..
nezxt july huh.. don even know whats gonna happen next ..ha .. makes no diff to the jan plan.. ex pklan.. o well.. i .. don wanna think so much now. 5 months time . just wanan settel everything.
find the time to smile becoming lesser by the days..
k.. time to get a good rest. rock it on sat shall we.
mata
its not a very good day for me.
o well..
hm.. ...alot of thingys couldnt be felt..
im gonna try to improve , and yea.. just force mysefl do whatever it takes, to win this battle.
tmr will work harder than ever before.
will make it i guess.
im so tired..
o well..
its just wasnt a fine day yea..
i couldnt resist feeling puzzled over what worng i've done. there wasnt any i could think of. really.
then somehow,. .was looking at my manager .then using a very sad.. puppy eyes naturally. asked. .im puzzled.. i don get the whole frenly thing.. i've always say hi and be frenly with my colleguas in mrg and stuff..
then manager gave me a hug.
that felt so much better. at least theres somoene else still believes in me. i could in those eyes.
i duno. better not take it seriously. in truth, anyone in this world could be out to get ya. its just a matter of time. ..so yea.. even the most impossible one. .could just said somethng so.. outrageous. ...ha. .o well. .i wanna forget this all..
theres littel concern to be felt today.. even my brother..
oo well.. wont forge ti guess.. just.. gonna remind myself.. work it out. .get better .show them. stumble them over.
i will stumble them over. make htem speechless. road aint smooht. but i shall bleed adn hurt and make sure i get up and walk with my own feet.
walk towards my goals.
its so blody difficult. but this could be the path i've chosen. so let it be hten..
what else could i do..
lifes.. already tough missing another part of ya..
nezxt july huh.. don even know whats gonna happen next ..ha .. makes no diff to the jan plan.. ex pklan.. o well.. i .. don wanna think so much now. 5 months time . just wanan settel everything.
find the time to smile becoming lesser by the days..
k.. time to get a good rest. rock it on sat shall we.
mata
06 October 2010
2 hours
hungry abit now.. but gonna slp asao. so yea. haiz.. .another long evening. i like it though. busy.. meaning, .. .hm.. yea. .good. .time pass faster.. .. and erm.. yea...
o well.
todya nearly late. so close to being late!! thanks to stupid slow driver.. omg.... bloody hell =.= drive so slow. late on his timing.. omg... i would so remind myslef to arrive at 12.10 instead of 12.29. im so gonabe super early rather than reach there on the spot. bloody heart attack ne. gosh..
sheesh..
hmm... ...haiz.. =/
i duno.. the days.. seem still so slow. .. kidna. ... its oct huh. .gosh.. kept thinking its sept =.=
anyway.. ..
yea. ... ...haiz. .im not even sure hwats gonna happen withhin the next couple of months.. just got a bad feeling about it. like. .sad. i duno.
like. .nothigns been planned. ..=/
tch. .o well..
been so long.. haiz. .now i understand.. why experts say for ldr couples, must see each other for like once a month at least. or once every few months if u wanna survive.
and some other reasosn. one of hte write or duno hwo wrote that. so yea.
but.. some couples don need that to survive. so yea..
but i understand what he;s trying to say now.. like totally. of course partners wanna see each other everyday.. .
sighs. .going crazy thinking of the days im missing out on doing with my partner=/
o well
beter cast some thoughts aside.. yea.. that should be better for me.
yea.. after 2 hours i came home, im heading for bed liao. i.. wonde rwhat my manager wanna talk to me about. should be about the shop and stuff since yea.. o well.
hm... so yea.. pretty much busy all the way till closing. haiz. .sianz.. o well.
nvm. tmr meet at starbuck. yay. .got free drink again. ha.. hope its nice news ba.. kk.
mata ne
o well.
todya nearly late. so close to being late!! thanks to stupid slow driver.. omg.... bloody hell =.= drive so slow. late on his timing.. omg... i would so remind myslef to arrive at 12.10 instead of 12.29. im so gonabe super early rather than reach there on the spot. bloody heart attack ne. gosh..
sheesh..
hmm... ...haiz.. =/
i duno.. the days.. seem still so slow. .. kidna. ... its oct huh. .gosh.. kept thinking its sept =.=
anyway.. ..
yea. ... ...haiz. .im not even sure hwats gonna happen withhin the next couple of months.. just got a bad feeling about it. like. .sad. i duno.
like. .nothigns been planned. ..=/
tch. .o well..
been so long.. haiz. .now i understand.. why experts say for ldr couples, must see each other for like once a month at least. or once every few months if u wanna survive.
and some other reasosn. one of hte write or duno hwo wrote that. so yea.
but.. some couples don need that to survive. so yea..
but i understand what he;s trying to say now.. like totally. of course partners wanna see each other everyday.. .
sighs. .going crazy thinking of the days im missing out on doing with my partner=/
o well
beter cast some thoughts aside.. yea.. that should be better for me.
yea.. after 2 hours i came home, im heading for bed liao. i.. wonde rwhat my manager wanna talk to me about. should be about the shop and stuff since yea.. o well.
hm... so yea.. pretty much busy all the way till closing. haiz. .sianz.. o well.
nvm. tmr meet at starbuck. yay. .got free drink again. ha.. hope its nice news ba.. kk.
mata ne
05 October 2010
super tired sleepy day
gosh.. .sososososo slpy and tired. wil lblog fast and short. then nid to slp. gosh.. =/
er,,. so meeting.. so early.. got to know thta manager spies uncover some erm.. not so hardworking colleagues. hm.. after meeting.. feel a sens e of lose.. =/ so lonely. .then went to daiso.. im the first customer there. lol. then wlak for an hour. sammy break tiem chatted with me abit. so yea. .fels like he's next to me. so not too bad. felt better after that.
got home.. online abit, cooked, eat, then slp.. all the way till late evening. then gotta force to wakey. cos haven taken dinner. .plus.. huu.. off allmost over.
hm.. yea.. then like that ba.
so tired till nwo also. i duno why. not enough sp? or wkaey too early. i duno. so yea.
hm.. o well.
then baht eat watch tv.. blah3.. soon night. .and itme for me to slp soon. tmr another day at work.. i hope i'll have the erngy htough.. scared will be tired like now=/
haiz.
hm.. .so yea..
thurs.. wonder what manager wouls wanna talk with me about. ..hm.. hope will al be well ne.
ok. .so.. .like that ba.
oh.. had this weird dream.. me kept having the same dreams for liek over 4 times? or mroe? cos middle of slp will wakey abit and then again.. then yea.. like evrything white.. cant leave hte place. sor tof a place for the deads.. hm.. ... then yea..
theres this weird abit scary white creature too. will fnid you.. like hide and seek. but u dont or cant really hide.. duno howto explain. hm.. so yea.. kk. .i gtg.
mata..
oh please.. hopefully tmr i'll feel more energnized.
er,,. so meeting.. so early.. got to know thta manager spies uncover some erm.. not so hardworking colleagues. hm.. after meeting.. feel a sens e of lose.. =/ so lonely. .then went to daiso.. im the first customer there. lol. then wlak for an hour. sammy break tiem chatted with me abit. so yea. .fels like he's next to me. so not too bad. felt better after that.
got home.. online abit, cooked, eat, then slp.. all the way till late evening. then gotta force to wakey. cos haven taken dinner. .plus.. huu.. off allmost over.
hm.. yea.. then like that ba.
so tired till nwo also. i duno why. not enough sp? or wkaey too early. i duno. so yea.
hm.. o well.
then baht eat watch tv.. blah3.. soon night. .and itme for me to slp soon. tmr another day at work.. i hope i'll have the erngy htough.. scared will be tired like now=/
haiz.
hm.. .so yea..
thurs.. wonder what manager wouls wanna talk with me about. ..hm.. hope will al be well ne.
ok. .so.. .like that ba.
oh.. had this weird dream.. me kept having the same dreams for liek over 4 times? or mroe? cos middle of slp will wakey abit and then again.. then yea.. like evrything white.. cant leave hte place. sor tof a place for the deads.. hm.. ... then yea..
theres this weird abit scary white creature too. will fnid you.. like hide and seek. but u dont or cant really hide.. duno howto explain. hm.. so yea.. kk. .i gtg.
mata..
oh please.. hopefully tmr i'll feel more energnized.
04 October 2010
Clothes sorted!
haiz.. so bored =/ yea at some parts of the day.. os boring ne..
o well..
yea.. today.. thought of headnig out.. but maybe cos of last night. .SUPER duper tired out my bwhole body=( then yea.. kinda wakey.. and didnt fel like going anywhere. somemore tmr have meeting. so yea.
haiz..
o well.. then took this chance, clear my stuff. .sort oout all ,my clothes.. throw whatever im not needing anymore.. blah3.. then rest.. and finally!! hehe. i got the chance to play online game=D hahahaha.. first time officaly play ne =P cool. kinda nice. interesting . still learning. but yea. awesome .=Pkinda. haha.
try to get the hang of it meanwhile. one of the guy playing was such an expert. can go all the way alone. wow. ha.o well. anyway, yea.. hope tehere be more time for that in future. whenever nothing to do ba. or bored. so yea. =)
yay.
hm. .hten.. sam replied. .then we eat. .then bath.. hten watch tv.. yea.. then got bored. .then tc again.. then sammy wanna watch movie.. yea.. movie time fo rus. duno whens the next tihough =/ o well.
so yea.. movie.. hm. soso kinda.. .hm..
yea. .
residentevil.. the ending alway always.. haha.. cliffhanger one. lol. forever. then continue and continue.
hagood in a way ba.
but chris and clarie.. omg. .doesnt lok like the characters in game at all!! argh.. omg.. not nice.
o well
hm.. so yea.. haiz.. now bored..waiting for tv to on =/ soanz.. tch. .but too tired to play game. rather rest. so blog abit now.
hm.. yea. bored ne.. o well..
..
hm.. so.. hope tmr meeteing will be fine. .then. .duno do what or go where ne.. most likely.. just go somewhere to walk or sumtin ba=/ .. o well. duno.
hm. .so yea. most of all, so glad finally glad my drawers been cleaned. yay.
hm.. .haiz. im so bored=(
..huuu... 9 months to go befor ei see sammy... so long still. .cant stop thnking =/.. haiz.... ....
hopefully by march tehre'll be a travel fair ne. ...o well...
=/
hmmm............ so wanna buy tickeets now.. .like what the lady told me.. but the dates.. need to wait from sammy. .but shoudl be fine.. but yea.. o wel.l ..tch.
hm.. .nothing else. .im bored. .=/
i duno why.. so bored easily... duno what to do.. suddenly =/
haiz.. o well. .waht to do. .hes not here mah..
mata
o well..
yea.. today.. thought of headnig out.. but maybe cos of last night. .SUPER duper tired out my bwhole body=( then yea.. kinda wakey.. and didnt fel like going anywhere. somemore tmr have meeting. so yea.
haiz..
o well.. then took this chance, clear my stuff. .sort oout all ,my clothes.. throw whatever im not needing anymore.. blah3.. then rest.. and finally!! hehe. i got the chance to play online game=D hahahaha.. first time officaly play ne =P cool. kinda nice. interesting . still learning. but yea. awesome .=Pkinda. haha.
try to get the hang of it meanwhile. one of the guy playing was such an expert. can go all the way alone. wow. ha.o well. anyway, yea.. hope tehere be more time for that in future. whenever nothing to do ba. or bored. so yea. =)
yay.
hm. .hten.. sam replied. .then we eat. .then bath.. hten watch tv.. yea.. then got bored. .then tc again.. then sammy wanna watch movie.. yea.. movie time fo rus. duno whens the next tihough =/ o well.
so yea.. movie.. hm. soso kinda.. .hm..
yea. .
residentevil.. the ending alway always.. haha.. cliffhanger one. lol. forever. then continue and continue.
hagood in a way ba.
but chris and clarie.. omg. .doesnt lok like the characters in game at all!! argh.. omg.. not nice.
o well
hm.. so yea.. haiz.. now bored..waiting for tv to on =/ soanz.. tch. .but too tired to play game. rather rest. so blog abit now.
hm.. yea. bored ne.. o well..
..
hm.. so.. hope tmr meeteing will be fine. .then. .duno do what or go where ne.. most likely.. just go somewhere to walk or sumtin ba=/ .. o well. duno.
hm. .so yea. most of all, so glad finally glad my drawers been cleaned. yay.
hm.. .haiz. im so bored=(
..huuu... 9 months to go befor ei see sammy... so long still. .cant stop thnking =/.. haiz.... ....
hopefully by march tehre'll be a travel fair ne. ...o well...
=/
hmmm............ so wanna buy tickeets now.. .like what the lady told me.. but the dates.. need to wait from sammy. .but shoudl be fine.. but yea.. o wel.l ..tch.
hm.. .nothing else. .im bored. .=/
i duno why.. so bored easily... duno what to do.. suddenly =/
haiz.. o well. .waht to do. .hes not here mah..
mata
01 October 2010
Sick Yet Again
thought of not bloggin again.. cos not feeling well.. and tired.. and weak.. and so much to blog. sorry.. i don think im typing much here=/
haiz... tch..
its so weird.. i get all these looks from guys. i don like that. =/
even at uss. i dont see myself as someone so like..erm.. attractie> ? i don know.. it just bothers me.. i don like all htese uncalled for attention.
luckily during worktime, me still safe . cos they cant do pretty much anything there.
i got my manager to protect me ba.
hm.. tch.. me so weak now.. thought of taking mc. but not nice.. alreayd off 2 days.. somemroe not enough manpower.. so gotta hang on ba. i hope tmr i'll get well.
ate the sg med again.. then ate clarinase about 5hours later. maybe thats why extra tired.
gosh.. don tell me gonna happen again.. the tiredness drowsyness will last till tmr. im pretty sure.
ytd.. omg.. was sooooooooooooo tired. even when mornign wakey, also very3 titred.
while waiting for sammy, me fell aslp. then rest bit and there.. so tired and weak.. sighs.. =(((
feel so.. haiz. just gib bloster or sofa a hug ba..
sometiems just feel somethign amiss.
o ewll..
oh.. ytd . riding hte coaster,. was good. shoick. i like. but the other 2 guys.. couldnt catch up with me. dots.
i didnt know im the type of person who'll smile instead of screaming when riding those. i am... really different huh?
o well.. life's about discoovering oneself too.. bit by bit.. i'll see what kinda person i am.. to be one of my own..
hm. .s yea. certain places we missed out during first trip there, we made up for it.. oh we get to watch the monster rock house, or whatever thats called, and the steven spielberg show. its awesome. the scene from movie liek that.. i don know.. is it lie.. 3d window.. or what. how ever, i can tell u.. it looks like new york really is right in front of our eyes.. with the sea brewing high.. omg. its REAl looking. very9 real. so see for urself. u'll be truly amazed.
the rock show.. hm. quite ok. well. .it was raiing.. but that show indoor. .so stil lcan see.. rain cost us certain show cant be watch.so yea.
and the monster house. one of hte performer. .dots. o well .let redz laugh at em ba. =.=
hm.. so yea.. i dno.. sometimes i wonde rif hte phone connection is bad outside or what.. tch.. i duno even know if im online. but . i am. so.. yea..
oculdbnt be offlein fo rme right?.. =/ haiz
so yea
waht else to say.. .
sighs.. terrible feeling.. just wasnna hug someone tight. .but i cant. will pull through ne?
oh had a customer.. working in sg airline. .told me indeed.. tickets prices are rising on oct.haiz.
then yea.. i duno.
..haiz.. to me no difference. go tpromo or no promo. its stil lexpensive. how cheap can it get? ha.
i wish i could understand.. like just. get how that feels.. how one could forget to do what one said so.
if its really a very important person, then why stil lforget?i wonder if thast possible. or perhaps.. that person doesnt mean much, just that perhaps one didnt realised.. and thats the reason why one could forget.
forget leads to disappointments.
and then it leads to tears.
to despair.
and starts to question.
whats important?
i just dont get it still.. wondeirng which theory could be right for me. to believe what one's heart is saying, or think the other way round.
i remember tha ttime.. ah.. i just came back from sydney..
i tell myself. yea.. just always remember.. he's the one.
ha.. yea.. it was good.
sighs.. so wanna clear my head.. too tired ba huH?
oh.. so.. about.. hm... 2 weeks or so.. my manager returning to melbourne. yay. so envious. super duper envious. haiz..
wish im the one..
i htink the day i bought my tickets, shall be the day i jump up and down.
and tell the whole world. wait fo rme. i would announce it soon.
hm.. .so yea.. tch...
what a day..
my nose is killing me as always. .oh heard bro too. but he's fine when its dark. then redz.. colndt eat.. and feels liek vomiting.. so yea.
tere u go.. gosh.. i cant imagine if i am working todya. glups. .gonna be so tough.
remind me. .don ever ver go uss if next day im working.
hm.. bt i think that time .. yea. i was worknig the next day.
sometimes feel like asking something.. but then.. like, i duno if i should. cos .. i don get it.. and.. duno shoudl i ask. .or could it make thigns worse?.. so yea.. tch.. .. o well..
upset.. its like. .i din know anything. =/
u know.. it came acrose to me.. it slil things that counts.. sometimes.. never do when we're together. then now, really wanan do lots when se ehim again. cos i don get to do that often. and yea.. ha.. ..
its good.
hm.. i want a holiday. no matter waht.
.tch.. o well..
maybe i shld ask sumtin later..
hm.. oh.. ytd.. had a knocked on my head. cos on eof hte ride.. haiz. then head like.. finally know how ppl feels u know.. liek those movies?
like. .head pain.. then the whole surroundings of brain feels different.. u can feel it.. all pain, and dizzy. .so thats how a head concusison is like.
wow.. pwoer sia.. no wonde rppl could die from a car accident..
cos the head could just hit the back of chair,, u know. .thrust forward, then back.. and head hit chair. that is painful ma. .or imagine someone poushes u hard onto the ground.. head hit the floor.. thats hwo it is man..
but after some moments, im back to my feet. so yea.
hm.. din go to my fren's wedding .. haiz. too bad. but so happpy fo rher. yay..
after much troubles and stuffs, good thign she stil lmanaged to get amrried successfully. =)
so envious of her..
hm.. k.. hope tmr i'll be fine.. as long as my body gets back to fitness once again..
so drowsy=./
hm. .who knows.. perhaps next time me go uss again, would be with sammy eh..
mata ne.. ...
haiz... tch..
its so weird.. i get all these looks from guys. i don like that. =/
even at uss. i dont see myself as someone so like..erm.. attractie> ? i don know.. it just bothers me.. i don like all htese uncalled for attention.
luckily during worktime, me still safe . cos they cant do pretty much anything there.
i got my manager to protect me ba.
hm.. tch.. me so weak now.. thought of taking mc. but not nice.. alreayd off 2 days.. somemroe not enough manpower.. so gotta hang on ba. i hope tmr i'll get well.
ate the sg med again.. then ate clarinase about 5hours later. maybe thats why extra tired.
gosh.. don tell me gonna happen again.. the tiredness drowsyness will last till tmr. im pretty sure.
ytd.. omg.. was sooooooooooooo tired. even when mornign wakey, also very3 titred.
while waiting for sammy, me fell aslp. then rest bit and there.. so tired and weak.. sighs.. =(((
feel so.. haiz. just gib bloster or sofa a hug ba..
sometiems just feel somethign amiss.
o ewll..
oh.. ytd . riding hte coaster,. was good. shoick. i like. but the other 2 guys.. couldnt catch up with me. dots.
i didnt know im the type of person who'll smile instead of screaming when riding those. i am... really different huh?
o well.. life's about discoovering oneself too.. bit by bit.. i'll see what kinda person i am.. to be one of my own..
hm. .s yea. certain places we missed out during first trip there, we made up for it.. oh we get to watch the monster rock house, or whatever thats called, and the steven spielberg show. its awesome. the scene from movie liek that.. i don know.. is it lie.. 3d window.. or what. how ever, i can tell u.. it looks like new york really is right in front of our eyes.. with the sea brewing high.. omg. its REAl looking. very9 real. so see for urself. u'll be truly amazed.
the rock show.. hm. quite ok. well. .it was raiing.. but that show indoor. .so stil lcan see.. rain cost us certain show cant be watch.so yea.
and the monster house. one of hte performer. .dots. o well .let redz laugh at em ba. =.=
hm.. so yea.. i dno.. sometimes i wonde rif hte phone connection is bad outside or what.. tch.. i duno even know if im online. but . i am. so.. yea..
oculdbnt be offlein fo rme right?.. =/ haiz
so yea
waht else to say.. .
sighs.. terrible feeling.. just wasnna hug someone tight. .but i cant. will pull through ne?
oh had a customer.. working in sg airline. .told me indeed.. tickets prices are rising on oct.haiz.
then yea.. i duno.
..haiz.. to me no difference. go tpromo or no promo. its stil lexpensive. how cheap can it get? ha.
i wish i could understand.. like just. get how that feels.. how one could forget to do what one said so.
if its really a very important person, then why stil lforget?i wonder if thast possible. or perhaps.. that person doesnt mean much, just that perhaps one didnt realised.. and thats the reason why one could forget.
forget leads to disappointments.
and then it leads to tears.
to despair.
and starts to question.
whats important?
i just dont get it still.. wondeirng which theory could be right for me. to believe what one's heart is saying, or think the other way round.
i remember tha ttime.. ah.. i just came back from sydney..
i tell myself. yea.. just always remember.. he's the one.
ha.. yea.. it was good.
sighs.. so wanna clear my head.. too tired ba huH?
oh.. so.. about.. hm... 2 weeks or so.. my manager returning to melbourne. yay. so envious. super duper envious. haiz..
wish im the one..
i htink the day i bought my tickets, shall be the day i jump up and down.
and tell the whole world. wait fo rme. i would announce it soon.
hm.. .so yea.. tch...
what a day..
my nose is killing me as always. .oh heard bro too. but he's fine when its dark. then redz.. colndt eat.. and feels liek vomiting.. so yea.
tere u go.. gosh.. i cant imagine if i am working todya. glups. .gonna be so tough.
remind me. .don ever ver go uss if next day im working.
hm.. bt i think that time .. yea. i was worknig the next day.
sometimes feel like asking something.. but then.. like, i duno if i should. cos .. i don get it.. and.. duno shoudl i ask. .or could it make thigns worse?.. so yea.. tch.. .. o well..
upset.. its like. .i din know anything. =/
u know.. it came acrose to me.. it slil things that counts.. sometimes.. never do when we're together. then now, really wanan do lots when se ehim again. cos i don get to do that often. and yea.. ha.. ..
its good.
hm.. i want a holiday. no matter waht.
.tch.. o well..
maybe i shld ask sumtin later..
hm.. oh.. ytd.. had a knocked on my head. cos on eof hte ride.. haiz. then head like.. finally know how ppl feels u know.. liek those movies?
like. .head pain.. then the whole surroundings of brain feels different.. u can feel it.. all pain, and dizzy. .so thats how a head concusison is like.
wow.. pwoer sia.. no wonde rppl could die from a car accident..
cos the head could just hit the back of chair,, u know. .thrust forward, then back.. and head hit chair. that is painful ma. .or imagine someone poushes u hard onto the ground.. head hit the floor.. thats hwo it is man..
but after some moments, im back to my feet. so yea.
hm.. din go to my fren's wedding .. haiz. too bad. but so happpy fo rher. yay..
after much troubles and stuffs, good thign she stil lmanaged to get amrried successfully. =)
so envious of her..
hm.. k.. hope tmr i'll be fine.. as long as my body gets back to fitness once again..
so drowsy=./
hm. .who knows.. perhaps next time me go uss again, would be with sammy eh..
mata ne.. ...
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