Mistakes

hmmm.... .. i duno where to begin..
start with nice news first?

was happy to meet a ex colleague back in shop today. she just passed by to say hi. omg.. my memory.. i nearly couldnt recognized her!! took me a couple of good secs then rememebr! =.= that goes the same for another colleague of mine the other day. dots.....
haiz..
anyway, ywa.. so great to see her again. happy person she is. ha

toda.. sick.. wakey, thne sick righ t awya.. didnt slpt well. .cos.. wasnt feeling good.
s o yea.. sick till late night.. then close. .then blah3.. home
i have to do htis. so i asked my colleagus anything not happy with me, or htink i should changte just let me knbiow. it can be hurtful trust me. but its a must thing to do. COMMUNICAte. no wodner ppl always say this is so important.. u know.. how actiosn that u done, and keep doing, u have no idea of.. thats a bad thing. u ddnt know. cos u didnt realized. no one tell u anything. so u keep doing. without realzinf that its a bad thing. and u didnt know u keep doing it. then no oine corrects u.
then yea. htats my point. there are no communication. if there is any, then of course. u'll reliazed the mistake, move on, and make ursrlf turn out to be a better man. change it over. listen to what ppl say. head for a good change. tough. but as long as its helpful. why not???
especially if its gonna aid u for life.

haiz. stress..

its like.. at work u gotta try and do every best.. give the best u got. smiles. jokes. talk. work. lead. everything. you laugh when u're feeling down. when theres still so much going on around in ur head.. u have to . =/
its a must. u musnt give anyone a chance to stab behind ya back again.
sommore.. ... u know.. i have so much high expoectations of myself at work. i wana and need to do my best. so i can keep on moving. i cant allow any rooms for mistakes. but soemtimes, mistakes let in, and i have to learn from them.
.haiz. never really talk about this.
yet.
just.. .. duno.. how.. i duno..
=/ o well..
..haiz...

so much .. to .. u know. just. .well. try to brush it off, move on.. work it out.. put on a mask or so.. even if it meant half a mask.. and just work the day through..
someitmes i dislike trying so hard to joke ard. but. .yea. .u gotta do somehting if u don wish to remain in the same posiiton fo rhte rest of ur life.

ah.. jus realised.. .its been a year arealyd.. he made this promise to come back 2 years later the most.
..but i doubt that could come true after all..
realized that. .thigns to look forward in doing wiht him seems so far far away now..
he cant come back here any time soon.. i cant go with him to uss anytime soon.. so much.. i cant do.
that cant be helped u know.
no one's fault.. just.. yea. .wron timing.

great griefs

me.. working so hard for my future now.. at the same time.. wont forget what i told myself.. before that year is here, just do whatever i like. i try  to. but difficult. ha.
then when its all over, life will be save and save.. hard to hard. yea.. ..

haiz.. my jap lessons.. wonde rshould i start next year early. .or what =/
sighs...............i need to see how much money i;ve left after i bought the tics first. ..yea.. tics come first. the rest, the most i wait till come back from holiday then do.

so nice... just thought of.. .. the fact that my manager is headnig back to melb.. for 12 days. .haiz.. .super duper envious=((.. .i wish i could be the one to go..
o well..

don even know if the plan will fail.. but. .yea. .theres the max i cold hold on to.. its no good keep pushing he date further and further away.. it makes me .. yea. .go crazy. not good.. =/
o well.. after chinese new year ba. ..

o well..

hm. .so yea. .lesser hopes for today!!
care less, hurt less.
lower expecatations, less hurts.

o well.. may tmr be a peaceful day.. i just wanna be myself on m off.. not one to get all .. .smiling even when i don wan t to at work..

k. much to be learn.. just pull through this.. don give up. ...

mata