happy cny to all =)

happy cny everyone!

had wanted to spend day quietly and watching anime. but ended up going to pp with parents. well. im ok with that too bah
then anime some probs.. so yea. glad its ok now
but gotta go slp

sooo slpy. din run today. huu.. legs aching. after six days of work.. uh huh

so yea. .kinda sad bah. cant go tmr with family for new year visits. but nvm. at least wont get weird questions eh ha

hmm... so yea.. tmr .. first tiem work on cny. wonder hows it gonna be like. .quiet or how..

hav a great holiday peeps. =)

hehe skype with sammy again. so nice. to spend time talking n just smiling

slpy.. .

supposed to meet fren. but i turned it down. spending time with parents buying steamboat ingredients is more fun. and skyping with sam too

kk gtg so late

mata

good thing

HUUUUUU T_T accidentally deleted the blog i'd typed. late liao. guess i will cut short ba

so... no mood for cny cos working . but lookign forward to eating. steamboat n grill

great sales tonight .bus came on time no need wait. and i ge tto go back on time finally =)

skype with sammy. yay.....
so nice

2am liao. thZtas why gottta rush. gomen

my colleagues alot in their early 20s. they all were shocked to learn that im not 21/20ish
since in my teenager years, i get that kind of compliment alot .wlel. i treat that as a good one now. at first didnt liek it. but now im used to it. its a good thing after all.
=)

mm.. wat else.

oh man. sianz. why kena delete.. .huuu

kk... gtg late liao. if remember anythign will blgo tmr maybe

6th day finally. huuu.. .so glad. jsut wanna get it over with!
all aft cept for one 11-9 shiftT_T
huu

mata

good deed done

soo oslpy. can start to feel tired liao..

mm.. ok. i can do this. hang in there...

today everyone so stress to make the budget today. last day of the month to hit. so yea. i think we did it. .but.. wlel.. lets see how tmr.

haha. i helped a man who dropped his coin today. i helped by stopping it with my shoes. then walk away . cos his hand reaching the coin. doing good deeds like this. .even a simple one, and no one ask for anythign in return,
no need even a thank u.  os he's a stranger mah

cos stomach not feelign good ne these days.

such a shocker.. three days gone liao. jsut liek that. good.
in a way bah
and glad he's back alrdy. hope his shoulder s fine=/ wonder if bones are alright=/ oh man.. .sighs

kk. .gtg slp. last night slpt too late. today slpy.

mm...

am i forgetting something?

o well.

haiz. so envy those ppl who came in.. looking for accessories to match their clothes. .they buy shoes.. etc.all for cny. i cant even enjoy a good cny.
o well.
nvm bah...
not everythign wil lbe perfect.. jsut kidna wish i could be one of those to shop like that. .lookign for items.. ha. so fun.
o well.
nvm bah

gtg slp

mata

nice look

wah now im hook onto that anime . its getting exciting. those episodes.
 catn wait to watch again. at least not bored

so slpy. and tired.
ok. will tahan few more days. haiz. this yr. cny rrly no feel. =/ work3... o well
maybe next will be better?
hopefully

all my colleagues compliented on my dress today. sm say sexy. i was like. rrly meh? but .. maybe short isit. cos my front was covered up. rgm also say very nice .very wismical i look ha
but yea. i do like that dress la.
so yea. glad everyone likes it.
yt outfit rgm also say very cute and lovely.
ever since i work there, its like alot of compliments i get. ha. but its good ba. though stil lshy. but not a bad thing.

kk. gtg catch up on my slp. oh man. .tmr. .big day to catch up and hit month of budget=/

mata

great show

oh man. late arldy . cannot watch another episode of anime. rrly glad after so long, theres finally a nice anime series. thasnk to sammys recommendation hehe

oh man.. he's gonna be busy soon =/ everytime hes way he will be so busy. hardly can msg.
that last time one. .wasnt so good at all.. sighs. o wel.
hope wont repeat itself again
just makes u think if new ppl are more important

so slpy. thought i was off for one sec lol. dang. wa slike. .aww.. no. im working .
so tired by nght time

hate it when ppl say wana return money, then nvr. be auto la. somemore hinted twice alread argh. thats why dun like hlep ppl pay first. these ppl dunno how to auto pay. arugh
nvm. by mon. then i msg again. cos its small amount. dun wan ppl think i petty.
but serioulsy its not abt the amount. its abt integrity.
and promises.
when it comes to money, they'd better keep their words. sianz.
thats why me dun like drag. can pay just pay. transfer asap. if no time, will msg and inform. unlike some ppl. arghhhh
even though we're frens. but cannot liek that mah. not nice ne.

mm.. oh yea. had steamboat grill. yay. its awesome .thank god no smoke hhaa. rrly yummy .
n kinda fun. had a great time picking up ingredients with mum =)
yea .been a while nwo. .tat was rrly a joy to hsop like that.

had a great news. yay. pay raise. sooo awesome .glad i left the previous company. and that rgm. asked him nicely abt my money, he said it as thogh im  aloanshark. wth??
arghhhhh rrly dislike him u know.
=.= bloody idiot.

kk. late alrdy. cant wait to watch the nexxt epi

mata

extremelyy slpy day

wow. ytd i wore this daring outfit. its like.. a huge step fo rme. lol. cos me nvr dress like that mah. first time try crop.
erm. .well its kinda lowcut. but its nice piece. so.. yea .i like it .but of course i cover up with my hair to my front ha. duh

received compliments from colleagues and this auntie customer. haha .like they say wow. XD
but its not something i will wear often .nope. just try2 only. sommore mon quiet mah. not many ppl ard

so slpy. had four hrs of slp only due to work. night then mrg. 7am shift .keep on yawning
oh man. after dinner went ntuc.. can fall aslp sia. like literally my eyes closing .omg. usuall that happneed at lucntime. but this, is dinner time,
sooo oslpy. straight away knout in bed . but jsut for abit.
cso dun wan wakey in middle of night. so was pretty cazutious about it .

kk. gtg slp now bah. hope to go for run tmr morning. .if i wakey early enough ha.
jaa mata.

sunday finally off

huu.. my nose.
runny.. after eatign steamboat .a pity the soup not strong enough=.=
however, ive finally tried it. cos of the mala soup based.

just a quick blog here. cos my med making me rrly slpy
.the victamin i mean

oh man. .my extra hrs and off in lieu still no news. sighs. so mafan. claim also must ask rgm.
/= / no wonder nobody dare to voice out

finally parents bought a steamboat grill . new. hha. been wanting for a steamboat grill. so glad. bt. .dunno will have smoke anot .as bro said. mm... hopefully not. sadly im working . so.. ard cn. .so yea. .
haiz. cant enjoy properly bah

me so sleepy.

forgot what else.

glad i found my tank top at half price haha

mm.. dunno what else liao.

kk. gotta go rest soon. if not tmr more nose prob

huu my internet. .hope my laptop will be fine..

jaa mata

so much to do. haiz.

oh yea. was rrly stress on sat. cos of sales. luckily we hit target. but still.. =/ haiz...
closing on a sat. rrly sucks. argh

mata

coaching queen

yayyyyy boa's single is coming out soon. i think. anyway, rrly cant wait =)
and her movie ..gosh. not the holloywood one ,that one i watched alrdy. her korean big movie. .yay. hooe she will win awarns again

ok. quick blog. cos slpy. been tired and slp so no blogs.gomen

it was so awesome to suddenly , more of surprisingly meet my fren!!1 omg. shes the same. cept that shes married. happily married=) aw... but yea .so happy for her. and she sthe same innocent (kinda) blur girl. haha. very blur. but yea .anyway, its rrly ncie to see her again .after about. .maybe... 5 yrs? yes. we lost contact .only contact in fb. but yea .so awesoem to've met her that day!! yay , and we exchanged number too. gosh. went out worth day. rrly3 tired. but wellworth it =)

so.. my fren's wife is kidna the paranoid serious tupe? i dunno. but yea. if he says he's doing 1 ad 2 to his wife,
then it mus tbe that way. if not she will find out from his bros or somethingv
if he decidede to do 3, that is.
so he's trying hard not to let her find out. but its nothing serious. aybe last min decided go for gym?? exp la.
haiz. though he love her la. im sure they love each other .but... scary ne.
imagine so stress... omg. wanna tell cannot. need to hide. dunno hide for what

and he will buy clothes for his wife. which is ncie and swt. but. cos the other tip got promo buy one get one free, he decided to get that instead. haiyo =.= lose points. if the no promo one is nice ,but abit more exp. then buy la. haiyo.... go changed mind and buy the cheap normal looking one.
=.= but however, nice that a guy randomly just buy something for his woman.
tats swt. plus point . but buy without sincerity, boo.
somemore say no need wrap=.=

thats the thign with married couple!!! seeeee told ya right. before marriage. wrap with ribbons. .card... blah3... now, change liao ar. =.=
if me , i still wanna make it nice for my man. maybe do even beter during dating times.
yea .shows that i care.
but if they dont appreciate, die la. one hand cant clap wat. skali say.. wrap for wat. waste money.. etc. wah... that kin dof marriage ar. .wont last. anyway,

so slpy

oh so happy. rgm praises me.. that i was outstanding during the meeting ytd. today she said the same thign to me personally again
=) wah. rrly glad ne. she say she can tell.
i dunno.. maybe i answer her correctly /? i dunno hwat i did too. bu i was taking down tons of notes.
whilst she was talking.
but.. yea .rrly glad she said that =) unline someone.. nvr even say such thing during my yrs there. hmph =.=

hmm duno what else.

anwyay, my inner thighs are aching.
but still, yea. .its good. workout . wah run like wat seh. ha .not gd. need to improve slowly. but my top. huuu... .se sexy' looking=( when i run, its exactly liek in the movie. guys look ath the womna's breasts bouncing. huu.. htough i dun htink anwayone look bah.. glups*
but whne i reached, then saw how 'sexy' looking my top is. on me. oh man.. need to buy a new one liao. huu. someomore indian men are there too. construction workers.
dang.
=/
se ehow ba. cant find any suitable one so far. oh man.
but its nice to run. however that whole day. ha. i went out right .and i ate laot. =.= so yea. haha.
anyway its ncie to keep my heart pumping ba

2 times alrdy. my below chest area hurts so badly dayssss ago.
rrly scary. luckily not heart attack. dunno what happened either=/

kk. gtg. late liao. slpy.

rgm asked me be the coaching queen .gosh. shes so confident in me. why ar. she say she can tell i will be one. form the meeting. waht did i do at the meeting ne?
O.o
mm....
maybe cos i was taking notes? i duno ba

but anyway its a gd thign

just abit disappointed that last night wanna share with sammy. but hes not available at all .though i was on mrg shift. hes too tired ba. o well.
but luckily today finally shared with him
its that feeling of. .wanting to share the gd news first with the one u love

kk mata

bloody filthy family =.=

i am so tired. off my laarm. but luckily wokey again.
seriously.. at previous company. ive never been so lspy. and jsut off my alarm so many times in a months time.
=/ why??
isit cos of my multil victamin night med??
or im jsxut too tired form my work .
had a runny nose. took me abit before i fall back aslp
but yea. was so lspyyyyyyyyyyy and tireddddddddddd =/
whats going on.
sighs
luckily i prepared two times alarm in my phone. one alram clock. to prevent me from being late

i HATE THIS FAMILY. long story. hteir fault. nvr chec their item. then come back. her dad demanding refund of $2. we cant do anyhow. he blah3... then say wanna look at companys policy.
(in the end due to long story, we nvr overcharged them. and we took back the $2 that werefunded them)

teenager or i dunno. early 20s? with a sis. and mum. dad also. came in blah3... make sooo much noise. pisses me off so much. redunf money need their name n numebr .she was like .why need her name????
with a fu** up face. i was liek .cos  tats to prevent company form thinking im the one taking hte money!!!! HELLO?????? common sense!!!!!!!!!! then ask or number, shes liek. number??! in the end her dad gave.
WTF
STUPID PPL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cmon. girl, work ur ass for ur own blood fu**ing money then!!!!! know why the hell u need name n number from ustomer .bloody bit**
after they left, i kept cursing no stop. at my previous company, i got mad at customer and cursed at them about 3 times the most inmy 4 yrs at work there.

this place, alot of bloody ppl. go LV gucci and buy la!!!!! wtf
today i jsut found out that. besides about ppl hurting my family(which ivs mentioend before) , the other thing i cant tolerate, and gets me bloody worked up, is filthy rich ppl.
brats. famileies . gth for all i care

why hide behind ur dad? why act so blody high up>?  go get a job! get a life! stand on ur own feet. ur own ground. don reply of ur fu***** parents!!  get ur own moeny!! bloody manners ppl have nowadsy. idiots!!!!!!!!
so angry now u knwo. sitll .grrrrr
bitc* her mum too. in fact, her whole family. stupid sia.
seriously

i cursed liek hell after theyre gone, i told my colleagues. i cant stand rich ppl with stupid attitude.

dunno where htey send their daughters to school. duno school free or what .nvr teach them properly.
put brown eyeliner. think wanna look like kjoreans ar??? pls la. japanese look much better and less sugergys k!!!!!!!!!
they are more beautigful and kawaii compared to koreans.
cept for boa./her everythign is real =)

anwyay yea. bloody bi*** .
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
rrly hate this type of brats u know. and family. bloody hell.
idiots... .grrr

sighs... this world full of stupid humans liek them
got money so wat> ? in the end skali their daughters disgrace them only.
mean thing to say i know. but im sjut so pissed off. hey. it can be true k.
cos theyr'e baka ppl

betetr abit now that ive vent out here. sighs

rrly made my day bad

toda time sooo slow=(( sigsh .counting down every mintues u know
huuu

sighs... wahtever bah. stupid humans

so what if they have money. stupid personailities of them.. it'll bring them their downfall one day..

mata =(

stay on?

ok. just a very quick blog

mm.. gosh. do u think i'll wanna stay at this outlet? or go to the one tats opening in march.
rgm jus ttold me sm told her that she wanted me to stay with her there .rgm say maybe.. she was lke asking me to see if i like it there.
mm.. its a flagship store. its v v v v vbusy. like my previous place.
mm.. i dunno man... i need to think really hard.
sm say she also wishes to go back to her previous outlet. which was the quiet not much ppl type. less stress.
after so many years of working in flagship stores, so many custoemrs..busy3...
i dunno man.. = / u think i;ll evantually say yes to stay on? haiz. .rrly dunno.

dun wanan athink so much ba

closing so late again. luckily got bus.
teach pt closing lor. =/
sighs.
..o well
hate closing
what to do

sianz. till now i haven claim any hours, nor any xmas and new year off .what is going on. argh

mm.. something jus tslipped my mind.. .forgot what i wanna type

eh weird.

mm.. o well. nvm

kk. jaa mata

imats

dunno wanna blog anot .but scared no blog later i forget.

dunno hav i ever mention about imats?
gosh. i htink its one of my toughest dream to come true.
i wanna go. i wish to go one day.
its the ultimate heaven place(i think) where al lbeauty products lovers will head there for.
they held one in sydney.. about ..few months back.. .mmm..... aug? i dunno. forgot .now they're headin gto LA
but was like. .oh man.... shortly after i came back from syd, they held it there=.= dang it.
besides the lcoation,dates,  and tickets are tricky to obtain, its ofc. money
.can u imagine how much i can spend tehre in one day?
sphora still can do my best tahan not to spedn.
but i think .. when u arrive to ur dream place, or perhaps once a lifetime, or once a five yrs  place u think u'll get to go, do u think can tahan? like hell no. later no buy lots of regrets. so money3... can spend like siao. perhaps 1k is possible O.o
but yea. its still.. .something i wish i can have a chance at it though.
so amazing .
so yea. defiitley a dream . but.. well.. not a huge oen like wanting to go syd and live and work.a.dn be with sammy.. so yea

so late liao. gotta slp soon

mmm... rgm sometimes nice soemtiems scary. ..yea .but o well.
rgm job mah. cannot be all too ncie .
think she's still better than that guy.
=.=

kk.. gtg liao. gosh so late =(

mata!!

healthy start?

ever since that firs tin lifetime woke up late for mrg shift, its like. .im having paranoids already. =/
eevryt morning i woke up, i'll keep checking my phone. did i ring? what the time? have i overslpt? hate that feeling=/ like shocker liek that. then cannot slp tat well. huu
o well.
hope this dreaful feeling will go away soon

nothin gmuch to type. .
u know. i think. i am going to stay healthy. i wanna go running around my neighbourhood. though not sure if im daring enough to do that anot.., no runny shoes somemore. lol. wil lsee how ba.
anyway yea. but.. abit scary. later those pervert uncles will watch anot. eeww..... theres alwasy murders around the kallang river or what. blah3. my area not that safe ar. mm... quite scary ne. anyway, will see howbah.
its alwasy nice to stay healthy.
but yea. ive been so lazy and tired. lazy is the word? more of tired bah. rrly when too tired, off day just wanna slp and rest. ask anybody working in sales line sg, most of them wil lsay that.
oh. and especially if htey work in town area. makes a huge difference k. everyday so many customers.argh
=.=

rrly hope i will be able to do this. like.. rrly keep up with the exercise. haiz...
rrly ne. thinking back. lcukily i still have my figure. desptite no exercise going on. sorry spy liao. mustve been the med.
kk. .better get to slp soon

so far. .noboidy asked me to claim my hours and off in lieu. whats going on=/? dang it. i hate companies liek that. sicne ATZ, im afraid of companies wholl do that..
take advcantage or dun care

so nice .my fren worked at big toy store. SOOOOO quiet u know. like one customer only. =.= but pay very little. it sliek that. pay more, more work and stress.
haiz.... sometimes i wish i can go back to quiet store. work peacefully. .not much stress... but. .sighs. .i need money.
=/
so yea. ..
in exchange of stres and fatiqure.. no choice.

today so lil msg from sammy
o well. perhaps next week will be better bah
slpy liao. mm. .gotta go explore my area soon.. wanna find out which route to run. dun wanna go too crowded one. remote .. but not too remote bah. later dunno how i die. lol

kk

mata

dreamland

so slpy.

my poor peeled off skin.. still red.. healing.. o well
cant wait to slp. tat girl still msging me though.haiyo
nvm. gonna tell her im slping later
oh yea. sure gonna left me another scar on my hand. = /huu

so painful when touches water

mm.. forgot what i wanna say already

mm...
oh yea. not been going out .off day just rest .rrly sianz. n tired bah
sammy busy with work. and hes tired too bah. din get to msg tat much

sometimes i wish to go for a run. but no motivation haha. very bad hor
so unhealthy

daysssss back. i talked in my dream. woke up still talking. cos i dreamt of serving customer.
and the other time, i woke up with my hands gesturing returning card or cash back to customers.
i was like.. wth am i doing? nvr ever tat happneed before
oh yes. i dreamt of that too. returning money back to cust. then i woke up like continuing the same actions
omg
same thng as the talking. glad no more alrdy .if thrid time, haha. i might be walking to my store liao. omg. touchwoodXD

gosh i don feel so good..
mm

oh yea. to think i feel so bad abt being late.and so honest of me call rgm say im late that time. face palm *
baka.. .anwyay, ppl either nvr call, or call store to say late. usually no call. and htey late pretty often=.= like wth right. omg.
i don have to feel bad after all. cos they also. geez=.=

kk. gtg
rest time
hopefully tmr more energy

mata

haircut finally!

ive been slping very late .oh man..
till runny nose liao.. not enough rest. nid slp sooon

gosh.. no plaster. .my hand peeled and bleeding. then peeled more off my skin cso no plater to protect it =/
wound keep hitting stuffs
feels so good to put on a plaster now

me soooooo slpy
kk. fast2 blog

mainly just wanna say, yayyyyyyyyy ive cut my hair. well.. trim?> anyway, so much lighter now. not so thick.feels rather much comfortable=)
nice to hear the hair stylist say any hairstyles look good on me.
hahaha .
oh yea. and hey alwasy suggest me to perm my hair .maybe they wanna earn money bah. but. .i do like curls u know. just that. .mafan to maintain la=/ and sooo expensive=. =omg
o well.. .see how bah .who knwos. maybe one day i will decide to change my mind and heed their advice=)

butyea. jsut so glad. finally look fresher now+)

mata

invisible scars/ blood in my mouth

so weird. just recalled.. that lady.. msg me that she vomitted blood.  few hours later, i did threw up, but.. theres blood taste full in my mouth.
it was only aft afew hours, then i recalled her msg. coincidence huh? so weird
but rrly dunno what happened. but its rrly true. my mouth.. full of hte taste of blood. u know how blodo tasate liek right> when u accidentally bite ur lips,  definitely u will get htat in ur lifetime as a human. gums bleeding.. etc. u shld know the taste of blood.
even as a child when ur tooth kena drop, theres blood in ur mouth too. im scared. =/

so yea. i dunno where that came from. im not the type of person who will look at my own vomit. eew... )
so i udnno did i threw up blood=/
but theres definitely blood . so stronger for the first time in my life. in my mouth .=(
its stronger than a tooht bleed. .gum bleed. .its jsut. ...full mouth blood taste. thats all i can describe.
i dunno what happened=/
but. .yea. .i hooe i am fine though. huu.. so scary...
and yea. i didnt not bit my mouth or gums at all. cos not a single spot pain in my mouth .everythign is ok. cept the blood taste.. did i rrly threw up blood ? ... =/ thats hte only explanation. if not, where did the blood taste came from?
..arhg. .
sighs. scary

sammy didnt get to msg me that much. he's working today.
my off .but .bored. jsut. .at home.rest. so tired. youtube drama.
so ncei to watch... my fav. one of my fav

anway, i hoep to slp asap.
dunno possible anot.
just wanan stop thiking,. and get on with the new day

haiz.

my stomach still not feeling that well. liek wanan thorow up.. but. .o well
can control abit bah. kidna.
thats awhy all the more wishes to slp soon

i wonder if my health is alright though...
ah.. wahtever bah

whilst watching the draam. almost wanan msg him ask if he can live without h me. haha.
XD
cos osf drama la
ha. so romantic that guy.. lol
but nvr msg him that la.
..if he can broke up with me that time. .his ans mustve been yes..
heartache still. .yet its the truth

sometimes.. no matter how long time passed, . heartaches.. and regrets. .are the ones. .that will neevrbe heal.. or at least even inthe long run..
its invisible scars...

uh huh.. .

ha. my fren say .im very li hai. to tahan 5 yrs of ldr with him.
cos its a year and half with him in sg then he left mah.
but he never come back. he said. .. give him at least max 2 yrs...he will be back.. but he didnt. ...
o well
but yea. when my fren mentioend that, i was kinda surprised too. so fast. time flies. who wouldve thought that abt 5yrs of ldr i will go through in this lifetime eh. ha. amazing eh.
if not becos i love him, of my trust and faith in him, and ofc his side too, i think we wouldnt've lasted this long.

cant wait for the future bah....
i hope it will be amazing .
and promising.

many uncles nad aunties ive come acrossed from my job.. like me alot. but.. yea. so sad huh. the important ones didnt. ha. o well
cant force.
my fren once said. .they are. ._____d not to like me.
i don wanna put the word up .cos its not nice. its not a curse word. but i feel bad. =/ so i dun wanna put the word up. but yea .cant blame them. they have a amazing son mah. who am i to..u know..

waht a day and night. .may tmr be better..

mata

aching day

wah... suddenly my frens msg3... then oen of them wan me video help with their relationship. wth. ...waht??????????????????????/
facepalm. kids. omg. =.=
haiyooooooooooo
thats the thign with female frens. very.. troublesome. arghhhh
then the other sitl lmsg abt bf...
i dunno. its ncie.. to msg abit here n there. but. .wah lao.. these girls....
argh... =.=

slping late again . dang

oh man.
rrly cant wait to cut my hair. these few days. i shall do it!=) cant waittttttt

my legs aching .very badly. =/ so pain... unline some fulltimenr. .stand behind counter only. no need walk ard tlak. whatever bah

sorry if i talked any nonsense ytd blog. i cant rememebr waht. .but i think i was pretty upset.
but yea. all gd now ba
though. .still mood. .not very good. .cos of.. yea. work bah

mm.. cant rememebr wht else. .oh.... .last week or so. colleague asked if i run. i say noope. i dont exercise at all. (i know. T_T very bad)
then she say cos my thigh area very toned. like u know ..got the.. line' line' toned thigh. not super toned or obvious line. but .. u can see somehow its there ba. cos me usually walked very fast one. maybe that explains why.
ha. we were joking abt how she can draw n contour her thigh. lool
just a joke

but that day. .walked up the stairs. .the very very long type.. .in shopping mall.. the fireexit type. omg. third floor only, i almost cant tahan liao. heart beat liek whtat

i know its very unhealthy. but. no one run with me. or motivcate me.
wanna run, also too tired. jsut wanna sit at home =/
haiz.
o well...........
wish i can go gym.

slpy. not enuff slp. dang

kk. mata
gotta stop now

upset saturday =(

sianz.. today.. wokey to a bad start. =(
been so long since i started started shouting and flared up. cos everyone says they din throw away my tea jug paper. (where theres soem imporatnt instructions)
in the ned it was my dad=.=
but anyway, i found it in the bin,. wet. abit. sighs... i rrly.. cant stand. .living.. not say cant stand.. but.. i would lvoe to move out. away from them. i lvoe the,. but. i cant be with them. im all grown up. ineed my own space.
i was so upset. and i cried . even mum was liek saying don put here n there. .blah3.. then put in my room ar. anwyay my room is a storeeroom to begin with

sigsh
i dont blame them .alls good now. but. .sigsh. still upset.
ive never wanted to .. haiz. .i woudl rather live alone. wear my own thing. do my own thing.,
..sighs

though it was my off. , i didnt get to msg sammy that much. only a couple. dunno .he's busy wih hsi mums dinenr and frens visit.
so yea.
o well. too bad
sperhaps another day ba. whenim working ... io well

sianz. then at night. dunno why bro suddenly play the movie ghost. u knwo the famousj old song ..' oh..i louve you.. o darling.. '' balh3... the demi moore when shes younger and everythigns real with her.
so yea.
last thing i need, is a love storry movie.
everyday listen to my fren's lvoe story. it sliek i know her bf liao.
omg
=.=

sighs

cant wait to let the med take its effect and let me go to slp

make the pot of tea.. so much left.. o well

i rrly thoughttoday is gonna be a relaxing gd day .sadly, its not rrly .. .

=./

raterh watch ch 8 than watch that stupid movie. locked up in my room allday
 din talk t o mum till dinner time i think

lucnh ..instant cup noodle

sat sucsk. that otehr sat off also sucks i think?
arghhhh hate it.

...curses

oh yea. duno.. maybe too engrossed in work..
the other week.. dunno how long, but the moment i woke up, i was alrdy talking. .like. .to custotmer

and ytd mornign, the moment i opened my eyes, i was alrdy doing the hand gesture of giing the change back to customer. omg.=X .. am i ok??? never ever done tha tbefore in my life. omg.
cos in my dram i as giving hte change bakc. hen yea. .when i opened my eyes, i was doing it .
..so scary. ...sighs. too tired isit? or too stressed? i dunno =/ but thats not right. sigs. hate to dream abt work

mata

pursue ur own happiness bravely

soo slpy , just gonna blog a quick one. sorry rushing to bed

wah that girl. .rrly can msg so much abt her bf. then say her bf only once in a long while then shop... but will buy v exp items. branded ones.
cos he rarely shop.
but she always shop. he don like.
he's mkorean
then blah3... but when he buy for her, it will be something rrly good liek vb exp one.
thats nic e la.
but according to her, his attitude like. .very. .u know. koreans style. very... erm... ...dunno how to explain ba. but not the sweetest one.
anyway,
on n on.. anyway someitmes im bored.so entertain her ba. not say that. .more of like giving her the advices she needs. o well

hehe .make a very nice big jug of tea today. first try. not bad. gav my family try ha.
tmr i hope can continuie
rrly treasuring my off dasy straight

luckily used the customer voucher fo rme.
can u imagine fruits soooo exp??? OMG
can faint u know =. =
haiz.. .then salad exp. burger cheap .what is the world coming to

kk.. think imma head to bed now

soemhow i thought theres stil thigns i wanna blog abt .mm. .jsu ttoo slpy ba

was nice msging him all day. erm,.. almost all day today =) makes me happy.
and im even happier after u learned that ppl around are having probs with their partners and all. .well. we are all humans in the end. there'll be sadness and anger throughout it all. this journey. but.. once u get over it, youll live happily ever after

oh just though to fit.
yes. i wanna blog. abt my fren
heard form my fren. abt our fren

so... she love this first guy. then parents separated them up
then after someitme, she go tnew bf. and its been many years. and this bf sorta ldr. but they meet often .cos hes in malaysia. but its a normal easy ldr ba. cos lie i said they meet often here n there.
they married. recently. but she thought of divorce. but refrain from doing so cos her parent in law treated her sooo nice and well.
shes moving to malaysia for gd. give up everythign here. she stay with him cos of sympathy. her heart is with her previous bf.
=/

ofc her parents sad. shes moving away.
and u know. .shes'... selfish.. i dunno., i rrly dunno. sorry.
but. .heard she asked her first bf to attent her wedding. if not she will not be happy. but poor guy. already heartbroken, yet still need to attend her wedding .haiz...
=(
anyway, its not fair.
she shlf just go with her first bf.

i told my fren. its hard to choose when u are making a big change. moving away so far.
but.. its ur live. in this body of urs. if u give up love, u stay on ur homeland, u regret, u cry, lock urself in room, forces urself to be happy.. u think ur parents will be happy too?
they wil lknwo u are sad. then in the edn everybody sad

but. if u chooses love, u head over, yes. sad. but. u get to live happily ever after with ur true love. ur parents will be happy when they know u are living well, happy, and being love by ur hubby.
in the end, everybody still happy. sad part is jst to leave them behind. but u can always come back isnt it.
ccompared to the top one i mentioned. where everybody will end up sad.

then my fren keep quiet. cos she agreed.

sadly. thats more of my case. not her case.. her case is. .she shouldn've married him. if u lvoe someone, hte u get married. not cos of. .u know. =/
sympathy.. but she still in love with her first bf. her first bf also. aw.. haiz

overall, if only her parents didnt object in the first place .sighs.. .sometimes. .one action, unknowingly, could ruined alot of ppls happiness/lives. i wonder if her parents will ever know what they'd done.. =/
sighs

its not very super details.. but thats abt what happened. . i hope she'll be fnie there alone. helping her hubby with cafe business. .but no frens.. and. .yea. gonna be tough. all the best to her. hopefully she can rrly make this marriage work

my fren told me cpf money can be claimed back if u are living overseas.. as a citizen? sam say dun think its pr.
i was like ..wow. at elst theres a backup eh.
though... well .future is unknown.
if have those money, no need worry so much liao =./ =
ha
but so good fo rhim. got both citizenships. wah. .no cpf to worry abt.

but to be honest. .msut think carefully.. haiz. once give up thats it. sg citizenship is so bloody hard to get. hard my frens ay must saty abt 10/20yrs inoder to be one
anyway, yea.. its like. .a priviledge. .to be u knwo. xcitizen of sg. sg is good actually
so.... to give up jsut liek that. .... mm... dunno if its worth it. ..
i duno.

mm... o well

crap. slping late again

gtg!

mata

loving my bf =)

mm.. u know how sometimes frens.. cos they dunno ur relationship well, they will make guesses and give commetns that may be wrong abnd all

human nature bah.. cos they dunno us. or hows our lvoe like. .or personailities.. my frens will ask me.. u sure he's not seeing anyone there at all? get a niec girl there. .etc.. cos proud of the feeling that someones waiting fo rhim.. maybe i'll ask the same if i dunno abt them well.
but yea. its always. .u know. abit. .like.. =/ '' when u heard it. but.. its all about trust bah. only u know te best.
i choose to trust sammy so yea.
thats why im still in love with him after a year mroe than a decade. haha .so chim word. a year more than a decade liao XD well. by the end of month ba

anywya, ppls words can destroy alot of thigns. its all up to faith and love.
i chose to belive him . so yea. otherwise frens words wouldlve put a bad afffect on me liao eh
yea. .must be careful. ppls words can influence one..
i sometimes also try to be careful when giving advice to frens abt relationships. soemtimes i was like. .hey they turned out fine. i was wwrong.
cos we dunno them well. and we thought oh hats a common prob for guy/girl. but actuall not all probs hte same. some minor. and its changable. or its jsut a one week problem only.. etc.

anyway,
yea.  i lvoe to msg him and keep in contact with him
seeing the erm. .new fren' keep tlaking abt her bf and her. showed me their msgs. .etc. i wa slike. .aw.. im so glad to have sammy. and im so happy to msg him liek happily everyday.
don wanna be liek her. .5months. .and very.. alot of probs. ego probs.. dating probs. .etc.
ofc htey do msg happily sometiems. .yea she shoed me =.=
early mrg turn up at my store. ...uh huh......=
anyway, yea. makes me cherish even more of the time msging with and for sammy
=)
so glad.

mm.. i dont think we;ve ever properly ccelebrated annivery together.. O.o.. i wonder hows it liek huh. maybe just liek another valentines day bah.
alwasy hear my fren say give anni pressy etc. i was like. .wah. everymonth give ar=.=
yea. some ppl every month. ...gosh. kids. ha

oh man. my dress ar. ok forget abt the butt stuck out part
but. .sometimes. .difficult ar. wear tops.. abit low cut becomes too . .abit too much for me bah. cos my counter low. wil lneed to bend down alot.
then eya .
im not the very flat chested gfirl. so.. anything i wear, its like.. u know. how. .front out back out kinda body .. shape?
like.. not say sexy. not braggin. nonono... but its like.. rrly worried ppl wil lwatch n look. sometimes feel uncomfortable. always need to use hair cover up my front.
maybe will used to it one day ba.
but yea. i kow. sammys right. dont wear too u know what. but.. nid to wear nicely to work they sday. its a requirement. then everyday wear suit ar.
so hot.
dunno bah.
disliek under my block ppl too
always rush and walk up fast
home

yea. .jsut need to get used to it bah i guess
not like i wanna wear low cut and all mah.
o well
even a normal fitting spaghettic top will make me look like... u know. liek i wanan be on the cover of 'funny thoughts' mag. =.=
cos of my boobs.
not a bad thing. no. but.. thats hwy cant wear wahtver i lie sometimes. if only sammy is here. then dont have to worry abt otehr guys watchig
o well .
jsut wear jacket lor. btu cant cover front also .embrace it huh
=.= ..

o well

mm. .think sammy fallen aslo.. or is he still palying game. dont htink so bah. late liao for him

kk.
time for me to slp too
mm.. dunno if thats the case. .but ..i tinnk.. the vic.. rrly is helping me get my energy back .. at work. even though today my fifth day of working
better anboit
mm.. we shall see. =)

mata ne

he's there in new year with me

wah.. the vic says it helps to relax as well.. maybe thats why ive been feeling slpy soon after i ate it. like. .head abit light.. like. .wanna sleep and rest my brain kind.
all gd. all gd=)

oh man. think im falling sick=( i feel it coming. my nose. .getting worst.

shoot. this morning i think i either ignored my alarm or of fit. but auto wakey mins after. why ar. so slpy ar.
luckily i prepared the alarm clock n extra alarm timeslot in my phoen

glad sammy is back home safely.
tahts the best part  bah. luckily he save' my new year. so glad , happy that i was able to laugh with him even for that short while.
then mrg get to hear his voice also, hehe

gosh. that girl is rrly telling me all abt her and bf O.o ...ok...
jsut listen lor. maybe shes lonely? O.o

mm.. gosh. had a terible case with my clothes today. the zip.. .cannot zip. luckily in mrg. nobody. so use bag cover up. long story. kk. gonna watch tv abt then slp. shouldve slp now. but cant resist bros dvd
ha

sorry continue my blog next day!! dvd start liao. slpy

kk.

mata!!!