aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:(!!!!!!!! everything is soooooooooooooooooooooo wrong today!!!!!!!!!!! i felt terrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!! huu.... :( bloody hell.. sigh....... ..
so bored today.. ... i can really feel my blood pressure went up so high today. im so stress. about sales.. about alot of stuffs. then today.. chatting with sam in msn as usual.. but dunno why.. he seems busy.. reply back is only a word or 2. ..sigh.............. but yeah.. at night. ..ok.. back to normal.. ..
then at night closing.. thank god a customer help me out on time. boost my sales a little bit more. im freaking stress whole day today. like everything so freak up. luckily at night chase after bus, manage to get home early. supposed to go back with my fren. but totally forgot.. cos was so rushing home.. then batt die out in bus.. my lappy batt. ytd izuan asked me go back with him through train.. then today tot will be alone. .but.. ha. o well.. still alone. nvm. .me just wan my bus reach home asap.. not wait for other pl bah.. ..
boss was angry about ytd's sales. so?? not my prob. wth man!
my fren ask me wanna sell drug anot. but im not tat freaking stupid to do such a thing. so what got tons of money? im not an idiot. shoot. but dunno he jokingly ask or what. should be real. since he got tons of 'dirty' ways.
then reen called today. he always pop out like. .once in a very blue moon. -_- hm.. talked quite abit.. about the old times.. about eadiv.. azrul.. how they've been.. even luthfi.. he passed by pp today. he ar.. ...hm... ....well... doing quite ok.. .. infamous ex gf,.. ...regretted marrying the wrong guy.. her daughter misses him of course. ..haiz.. ...these ppl. ... hm.. oh well.. long history...
my pressure sure high now.. my colleague also. my dad got high blood pressure.. .. me.. .. really don wish to end up like him.. .
today really not a good day............ :( i want HOLIDAY... :( sigh........... what is it that i want in my life? i roughly know what i want. but how to get there. especially where money is concern. :(
when i come to this part,.. my plan frozed. i dunno where to go... but i dun wanna get stuck here.. .. so freaking confusing.. ...........
was walking with zuan to train.. near hmv,.. in front of us were this couple. .this gf holding big2 cinnamoroll. omg.. super fluffy and bouncy the ears =.= haha. wanna tae pic.. but cant.. cos she put in front of her already. s.. yeah. but me still love my kawaii expression fluffy cinnamoroll the best! hee
my fingers.. or both hands.. got so many cuts all of a sudden. -_- me cant remember when did i get them.. .. sigh. .work3.. .stress... abit unhappy.. especially. schedule. .me got another 4 full straight. .why3.. oh why...
why ONLY me.. is this fair?.. ..
oh... now the hollywood star jet li is a singaporean-_- wow.. ..ok.. ahem.. .. haha.. who knows.. maybe might get to meet him in street huh. ha.. ..
hm.. that maggie also right. ... oh no.. its gong li.. ..-_- ha.
'I like u'.. out of a sudden, these words actually appeared in my chatbox today. it feels so weird.. so not right. .i don even know him well. he knows my status. i dun get humans sumtimes..
things will be solved. me more worried about my own stuffs. end of year will be here soon.. .. whats my plan.. ...to proceed,. .or not. if wait, things changed. ...nvm.. k.. relax... ...months to go.. .. o well..... ...
hm... ............ belief.. .. gotta be strong..
...mata ... ...
-missing lots.... ...alot... ... when will the waiting wait...-
31 July 2009
30 July 2009
Money Can't Buy Over Good Woman
'you never ever go to your wallet, as long as I got rubber band banks in m pocket' rubber band banks meaning thick notes of money tie by a rubber band.. '.
'my chick can have what she wants, go in any store for any bag she wants.' dun know whats wrong with that guy. so what if rich? -_- think every girl go for that?? geez.. so terrible.. no wonder zuan also din really like him.. me all the more wont be interested in him. -_- geez... dunno why he wanna even say that. that felow ar.. -_-
ytd.. get to chat with this angmoh woman.. about 32 of age?.. asked her a question.. and got back an answer.. very interesting.. but a pity me kind forgot what she said of 2nd lin.. she say.. 'no matter what happen, if its meant to be,.. it'll be.' sumtin like that. hm.. yeah. nice advice she gave. but.. ha. forgot whats the excat words. but yeah..
huu.. today sales sooo super bad.. .. and me.. super hungry now.. really nid food :( but gonna slp bah.. no chips also.. sigh. sooo hungry :( hm. .see how later ne. ..
ah.. sammy msg me again after so long.. ha. its like.. feels so right again.. :) so.. yup. hehe. really great. feels like good old days.. going back.. going work.. can msg. so yup thats nice.. :)
feels 'back' again.. ..
hm.. hope tmr sales better.. ..
jaa mata!
'my chick can have what she wants, go in any store for any bag she wants.' dun know whats wrong with that guy. so what if rich? -_- think every girl go for that?? geez.. so terrible.. no wonder zuan also din really like him.. me all the more wont be interested in him. -_- geez... dunno why he wanna even say that. that felow ar.. -_-
ytd.. get to chat with this angmoh woman.. about 32 of age?.. asked her a question.. and got back an answer.. very interesting.. but a pity me kind forgot what she said of 2nd lin.. she say.. 'no matter what happen, if its meant to be,.. it'll be.' sumtin like that. hm.. yeah. nice advice she gave. but.. ha. forgot whats the excat words. but yeah..
huu.. today sales sooo super bad.. .. and me.. super hungry now.. really nid food :( but gonna slp bah.. no chips also.. sigh. sooo hungry :( hm. .see how later ne. ..
ah.. sammy msg me again after so long.. ha. its like.. feels so right again.. :) so.. yup. hehe. really great. feels like good old days.. going back.. going work.. can msg. so yup thats nice.. :)
feels 'back' again.. ..
hm.. hope tmr sales better.. ..
jaa mata!
29 July 2009
Im Locked!!?
hm. .now my shoulder still got abit of redness... hurts just now.. when the shutter door came crashing on me. was gonna close halfway.. then this custoemr drop by like wanna come in.. but go away after seeing me closing door.. then me was looking at him. .wondering shold i ask him to cmoe in or what.. then think for only a few secs, i forgot about the shutting down oor! omg.. then my key got stuck bit.. turn3 then open up lock, and press stop. by then abit late.. becos the door already below my shoulder. then me use my sholder to put under door.. prevent it frmo closing.. phew.. cant tell ya how close that was. if really come down, im gonna be locked inside. the lock is outside door. everytime me closing, gotta close half first.
so.. yeah.. that was really2 close indeed.. just this close to getting myself squash or locked. brr... -_- scary.
got customer ask same questions again.. am i doing partime job?.. blah3.. same thing. then he ask my age. and say wow i look so young like 17. then before he go, he ask me.. issnt it goo to look so young? me dun wanna talk too much, smile2, only.. but in my heart so wish to tell him.. no.. look young ppl wont take ur words or actions that seriously. o well... ...
*yawn.. last min so bz all of a sudden.. maybe cos sammy msg me? XD haha..
me waited for sammy to online msn.. sooo long.. hours still not yet appeared.. .. but.. lucky.. found enuff time to keep myself occuppied. got games.. got chatting... know new ppl.. yeah.. amazingy somehow me get through the hours.. oh.. tmr.. haiyo.. cant bring lappy.. .risky bah.. ..hm... dunno.. .. then how am i gonna get by.. .. no msgs for my phone already.. ..haiz boring ne..
no nonus ar... ...:( .. hang on til so long.. then no bonus.. ..
dunno.. dunno3... should i quit?.. but so wanna go.. ..
soul interview at prints already.. heard they need ppl.. ..hm... ..... prints.. wonder if i should try out there.. even zuan also thinking of doing so. but.. ..got a feeling this idea aint good.. they do give payslips and stuffs too.. ..
hm.. yay.. so glad tmr wakey late.. ha. can eat tehn slp!! yay.. im so hungry..
today had abit of kueh as breakfast. cos need small notes for shop. XD haiyo.. hm..
kk.. gtg.
..every nite.. no matter how dead tired.. will be a sure thing to listen..and watch abit of videos.. my memories.. sweet ones.. .. ..
mata
so.. yeah.. that was really2 close indeed.. just this close to getting myself squash or locked. brr... -_- scary.
got customer ask same questions again.. am i doing partime job?.. blah3.. same thing. then he ask my age. and say wow i look so young like 17. then before he go, he ask me.. issnt it goo to look so young? me dun wanna talk too much, smile2, only.. but in my heart so wish to tell him.. no.. look young ppl wont take ur words or actions that seriously. o well... ...
*yawn.. last min so bz all of a sudden.. maybe cos sammy msg me? XD haha..
me waited for sammy to online msn.. sooo long.. hours still not yet appeared.. .. but.. lucky.. found enuff time to keep myself occuppied. got games.. got chatting... know new ppl.. yeah.. amazingy somehow me get through the hours.. oh.. tmr.. haiyo.. cant bring lappy.. .risky bah.. ..hm... dunno.. .. then how am i gonna get by.. .. no msgs for my phone already.. ..haiz boring ne..
no nonus ar... ...:( .. hang on til so long.. then no bonus.. ..
dunno.. dunno3... should i quit?.. but so wanna go.. ..
soul interview at prints already.. heard they need ppl.. ..hm... ..... prints.. wonder if i should try out there.. even zuan also thinking of doing so. but.. ..got a feeling this idea aint good.. they do give payslips and stuffs too.. ..
hm.. yay.. so glad tmr wakey late.. ha. can eat tehn slp!! yay.. im so hungry..
today had abit of kueh as breakfast. cos need small notes for shop. XD haiyo.. hm..
kk.. gtg.
..every nite.. no matter how dead tired.. will be a sure thing to listen..and watch abit of videos.. my memories.. sweet ones.. .. ..
mata
28 July 2009
Slping Early.. ?
hm.. nowadays...... ...after talking to sam.. and then he slp first.. ..so early.. .. me no mood to stay up also liao. . just feel like slping asap.. ..haiz.. staying strong.. gotta stay strong.. ... ganbate pauline... ..hm.. sigh.. now im thinking.... ....what to do end of year.. quit or not to.. ... im so confused now. dunno what to do. but i want money.. but i want a long break. i... ...sigh dunno.. im so confused... haiyo... but i guess no choice.. everything gotta wait til end of oct then can tell.. ..
argh!! ..me feel down thinking about it.. the days ahead seem so long and uncertain. .wanna do something to improve.. but yet gotta think of money and my family. this sucks.. i want money.. but nothing is gain through pain and hardships. so... well... what would i be sacrificing huh?.. ..
k.. for now gotta keep telling myself.. me gonna be working hard alongside sammy. he'll be fine ne.. .. k.. ..when wait till end of sep.. then see how. yes.. ard sep.... not ot.. oct too late to quit..
omg.. ..dunno me doing right thing anot.. ..
was sad when sam say he very tired cos keeping me company.. :( but yeah.. im so gonna make sure tmr he slp early no matter what. hm.. tmr though.. .. morning so gonna be bloody boring.. nvm.. go back to watch anime bah.. .. haiz
ytd my off day.. hehe.. tried out web date.. XD sumtin new ne.. hehe.. webdate huh.. ..hm..
oh.. read somewhere in news.. omg.. megan fox from transformers.. sh used to be a guy. and they never deny it.. -_- omg.. then bro's frens and me start looking at her face... -_- ya.. dunno.. but.. really got the man look.. omg.. so weird.. brrrr.... lucky me not those mens who took interest in her. eww.. but yeah.. it was shocking.
and to think she stillcompare herself to angelina.. hm.. -_- weird ne.. ..
haiyo.. this is argh.. my fren's fren with his fren drop by. both of them work in same company. we first time meet. after that, he keep pestering my fren whole day till get my number -_- omg..... yeah.. sammy say burn them XD
tch.. .. hm.. should i slp..?.. .. feeling blue.. sammy should be slping soundly now.. .....hmm..
today thank goodness got sammy to msn with again. otherwise.. yeah.. today been a really fast nice day again.. thx to sam. otherwise my days would be.. argh boring..
then my fren drop by also.. today had lunch with me. yes.. so nice to be alone free.
hm.. k bah.. me slp soon..
..o well....... ..
i hope tmr will be another nice day.. ...
mata.... ...
argh!! ..me feel down thinking about it.. the days ahead seem so long and uncertain. .wanna do something to improve.. but yet gotta think of money and my family. this sucks.. i want money.. but nothing is gain through pain and hardships. so... well... what would i be sacrificing huh?.. ..
k.. for now gotta keep telling myself.. me gonna be working hard alongside sammy. he'll be fine ne.. .. k.. ..when wait till end of sep.. then see how. yes.. ard sep.... not ot.. oct too late to quit..
omg.. ..dunno me doing right thing anot.. ..
was sad when sam say he very tired cos keeping me company.. :( but yeah.. im so gonna make sure tmr he slp early no matter what. hm.. tmr though.. .. morning so gonna be bloody boring.. nvm.. go back to watch anime bah.. .. haiz
ytd my off day.. hehe.. tried out web date.. XD sumtin new ne.. hehe.. webdate huh.. ..hm..
oh.. read somewhere in news.. omg.. megan fox from transformers.. sh used to be a guy. and they never deny it.. -_- omg.. then bro's frens and me start looking at her face... -_- ya.. dunno.. but.. really got the man look.. omg.. so weird.. brrrr.... lucky me not those mens who took interest in her. eww.. but yeah.. it was shocking.
and to think she stillcompare herself to angelina.. hm.. -_- weird ne.. ..
haiyo.. this is argh.. my fren's fren with his fren drop by. both of them work in same company. we first time meet. after that, he keep pestering my fren whole day till get my number -_- omg..... yeah.. sammy say burn them XD
tch.. .. hm.. should i slp..?.. .. feeling blue.. sammy should be slping soundly now.. .....hmm..
today thank goodness got sammy to msn with again. otherwise.. yeah.. today been a really fast nice day again.. thx to sam. otherwise my days would be.. argh boring..
then my fren drop by also.. today had lunch with me. yes.. so nice to be alone free.
hm.. k bah.. me slp soon..
..o well....... ..
i hope tmr will be another nice day.. ...
mata.... ...
27 July 2009
Wanna Rush Home
last night.. listening to sammy's msg..watche abit the videos.. then slp.. but can make ppl cry la.. hah.. oh well..
slpt late ytd.. cos upload pics.. then bro and redz ask me go downstairs join them for supper.. me full. .so never eat.. just drink bandung.
sleepy now... becos wokey at 10.30am.. then cant slp back..somemore today gotta collect my phone.. so went out.. collected it.. then gotta get a new pair of heels.. becos sort of 'broke' already.. but cant find it. my heart isnt out there either.. if not for the phone, me wouldnt wanna go out. just wanna rsh home asap.no mood to walk anyway.. just wanna get back home.. online msn.. cos sammy will be there.. going out isnt that funny and nice anymore.. sigh. just gotta make do with now bah.. what to do.. at least me go home rest at home.. got someone to chat with.. isnt that great too :) hope boss wont come down tmr.. cant wait for my off day soon.. ..
tmr i hope after work i wont have to go down.. to another outlet and passs key to them. rather rush home.. sianz.. thought of tmr working.. hope the boss not there bah..
mata ne
slpt late ytd.. cos upload pics.. then bro and redz ask me go downstairs join them for supper.. me full. .so never eat.. just drink bandung.
sleepy now... becos wokey at 10.30am.. then cant slp back..somemore today gotta collect my phone.. so went out.. collected it.. then gotta get a new pair of heels.. becos sort of 'broke' already.. but cant find it. my heart isnt out there either.. if not for the phone, me wouldnt wanna go out. just wanna rsh home asap.no mood to walk anyway.. just wanna get back home.. online msn.. cos sammy will be there.. going out isnt that funny and nice anymore.. sigh. just gotta make do with now bah.. what to do.. at least me go home rest at home.. got someone to chat with.. isnt that great too :) hope boss wont come down tmr.. cant wait for my off day soon.. ..
tmr i hope after work i wont have to go down.. to another outlet and passs key to them. rather rush home.. sianz.. thought of tmr working.. hope the boss not there bah..
mata ne
26 July 2009
He's With Me Zutto Ni
hmm... forgot kinda..what i wanna say today... hm.. basically.. today me very happy.. time passes fast.. cos msn with sammy whole day.. it was really great :) having someone there.. without sammy, me would've continue crying today.. so... yup. only morning cry abit.. then aftnoon, msn till nite with sammy.. as if im not alone at all today. :) so happy.. yay.. haha.
today so sleepy.. keep yawning.. sam never slp in plane.. hope he's ok..
tmr off.. yay.. can collect phone.. ..but... ..abit afraid to go out.. cos... ...no warm hands to hold me there.. heart breaks when thought of that.. walking up he stairs too.. heart crinch just like that..
...feel like staying at home.. but my phone..tch.. o well.. ..
hm.. too tired.. forgot what i wanna say la.. haiyo! XD
cant think now.. today headache so pain.. but after taking med, ok now.. so glad tmr off.
hm.... ... k.. since me cant think of anything now.. me better go slp soon..
nextmonth schedule.. tot got 2 off.. but.. no.. alot of half shifts.. and full no longer 4 or 3 straight fulls.. july been an insane month to work.. next month so much bettr. phew..
so.. yup.. hopefully next month relax more.
hm.. k.. better go bah..
tmr so gonan rest.. tonight also.. hope my bro will be back. .me dun wanna be alone tonight.. :(
mata.....
today so sleepy.. keep yawning.. sam never slp in plane.. hope he's ok..
tmr off.. yay.. can collect phone.. ..but... ..abit afraid to go out.. cos... ...no warm hands to hold me there.. heart breaks when thought of that.. walking up he stairs too.. heart crinch just like that..
...feel like staying at home.. but my phone..tch.. o well.. ..
hm.. too tired.. forgot what i wanna say la.. haiyo! XD
cant think now.. today headache so pain.. but after taking med, ok now.. so glad tmr off.
hm.... ... k.. since me cant think of anything now.. me better go slp soon..
nextmonth schedule.. tot got 2 off.. but.. no.. alot of half shifts.. and full no longer 4 or 3 straight fulls.. july been an insane month to work.. next month so much bettr. phew..
so.. yup.. hopefully next month relax more.
hm.. k.. better go bah..
tmr so gonan rest.. tonight also.. hope my bro will be back. .me dun wanna be alone tonight.. :(
mata.....
25 July 2009
Goodbye Sam
hm... hahaha.... thinking back... when sam pop by my house for the last time,... i heard mum say.. oh.. you've come.. then i look outsidem dad was whispering.. tryng to tell me. sam is here! but me din catch what they're trying to say.. lolXD! i was thinking should be redz.. but then why suddenly my parents sounded so polite and quiet ar... haha.. then i saw his bag flashes past the door.. XD me really caught off guard.. ha.. ....really miss him coming though.. ..really do... ...
my mum told me.. day before he fly off,.. she and dad at night were talking..about him. dunno what they say.. but should be something like.. how such a pity he's flying off already.. they all misses him.. my mum also very sincerely wishes him all the best for everything.. telling him to cum back soon..
especially me will miss him.. even redz also.. haha.. ...my day aint gonna be easy...
oh.. darn it.. cos of a msg, me nearly miss seeing him for the last time! i was sitting in front of my lappy.. and waiting.. till he msg me ask me why haven go out.. i was like huh? cos me told him tell me again when im supposed to go out.. cos he change the time me going out earlier on.. long story.. my fault also. but forget that.
whoa.. was so rush and so sad.. thought really couldnt make it.. but i did.. few mins only though.. but.. still i get to send him off.... saw his parents.. dad.. looks very frenly.. very nice like that.. haha.. mum.. looks very singaporean.. abit unlike her pic.. but. yeah.. she look abit pale.. maybe no make up bah.. cant tell whether they look like sam anot.. cos met them for such a short time.. his bro does alittle bit look like him. however it is, sam is sam. and he's the best. thats all it matters. only one in this whole universe. :) and theres only one lucky girl who can have him... lol.. i know who she is.. ^^ yay
hm.. thinking back.. ppl say the way i met him.. sounds dramatic.. like what always happen in love drama that kind.. haha dramatic huh.. look at the way me rushes towards the airport.. gosh.. me was like thinking also.. how cum i feel like i've seen all this in ch8 dramas ar?..=.= so.... ....yeah... i think so bah.. isnt this kind of loving so super rare and amazing.. ..i mean like. .how many ppl actually can get that..
-i dunno how.. but somehow.. our fates been entertwined ever snce day one..-
haiyo.. he's bro say me really lose weight already.. :( geez... how much weight i've lost ar? me don like to weigh myself.. thats why dunno. then me tell sam wanna put on weight bah.. like dunno too skinny anot.. he say don mind it.. its alrite.. cos girls mah.. me actually wont botehr about this had it not been ppl been telling me me lose weight.. thats why me dunno thats healthy anot.. me ask my frens.. they say just nice.. or maybe just a tiny bit more of weight on can already.. but just nice now. so... hm.. o well.. i think me fine bah.. should be.. as long as im healhy.. then ok.. yeah.. gotta tc of myself u know..
but ytd... haiyo.. me really wont bother to go down and buy food at work if sam never push me to... ..haiz.. cos me really too tired to go.. gotta push in and out things.. but yes he's right.. i should go eat no matter what.. cos me finish at 3pm, yet no eat breakfast how. yes.. certain things i know.. what i gotta do.. but.. yeah.. if he never keep telling me go eat.. i would've eat at all.. cos troublsome and expensive. just tthe thought of these 2, enuff to put away my thoguht of eating. but i must tc lots now.. he's not here with me physically already.. anything i gotta protect and fend fo myself.. gotta stay really strong no matter what..
last night zuan said.. he's proud of me.. becos in front of ppl, i can pretend to be happy and enjoying the moments with frens..they all. but actually me already so sad. yeah.. i know he's leaving one day.. no matter how happy i am,.. how much i smile, my heart will always have this very2 sad part whenever i thought of that.. zuan called me last night.. and i broke down.. wah.. cry so badly.. really2 bad.. loud.. what to do.. ..allow myself to grieve for a day can..?.. ..
ytd.. ..its a night.. me wanna shut from the world.. just slp in darkness.. and.. whatever.. cry or what.. just.. wanna hurry wakey to another day..
i really hated the sun ytd. i was preparing myself to dress up nice.. give him one last impression.. doing my hair.. changing.. every secs past.. is reminding me of him setting off real soon... ..it really sux.. the aftnoon really sux.. and thats when i realised... i hated aftnoon n evening the most.. i really do now.
hm.. i think.. still got alot to say perhaps.. but.. im slpy now.. so.. yeah.. .. will see how.. try to go back to slp..
jaa... mata ne
my mum told me.. day before he fly off,.. she and dad at night were talking..about him. dunno what they say.. but should be something like.. how such a pity he's flying off already.. they all misses him.. my mum also very sincerely wishes him all the best for everything.. telling him to cum back soon..
especially me will miss him.. even redz also.. haha.. ...my day aint gonna be easy...
oh.. darn it.. cos of a msg, me nearly miss seeing him for the last time! i was sitting in front of my lappy.. and waiting.. till he msg me ask me why haven go out.. i was like huh? cos me told him tell me again when im supposed to go out.. cos he change the time me going out earlier on.. long story.. my fault also. but forget that.
whoa.. was so rush and so sad.. thought really couldnt make it.. but i did.. few mins only though.. but.. still i get to send him off.... saw his parents.. dad.. looks very frenly.. very nice like that.. haha.. mum.. looks very singaporean.. abit unlike her pic.. but. yeah.. she look abit pale.. maybe no make up bah.. cant tell whether they look like sam anot.. cos met them for such a short time.. his bro does alittle bit look like him. however it is, sam is sam. and he's the best. thats all it matters. only one in this whole universe. :) and theres only one lucky girl who can have him... lol.. i know who she is.. ^^ yay
hm.. thinking back.. ppl say the way i met him.. sounds dramatic.. like what always happen in love drama that kind.. haha dramatic huh.. look at the way me rushes towards the airport.. gosh.. me was like thinking also.. how cum i feel like i've seen all this in ch8 dramas ar?..=.= so.... ....yeah... i think so bah.. isnt this kind of loving so super rare and amazing.. ..i mean like. .how many ppl actually can get that..
-i dunno how.. but somehow.. our fates been entertwined ever snce day one..-
haiyo.. he's bro say me really lose weight already.. :( geez... how much weight i've lost ar? me don like to weigh myself.. thats why dunno. then me tell sam wanna put on weight bah.. like dunno too skinny anot.. he say don mind it.. its alrite.. cos girls mah.. me actually wont botehr about this had it not been ppl been telling me me lose weight.. thats why me dunno thats healthy anot.. me ask my frens.. they say just nice.. or maybe just a tiny bit more of weight on can already.. but just nice now. so... hm.. o well.. i think me fine bah.. should be.. as long as im healhy.. then ok.. yeah.. gotta tc of myself u know..
but ytd... haiyo.. me really wont bother to go down and buy food at work if sam never push me to... ..haiz.. cos me really too tired to go.. gotta push in and out things.. but yes he's right.. i should go eat no matter what.. cos me finish at 3pm, yet no eat breakfast how. yes.. certain things i know.. what i gotta do.. but.. yeah.. if he never keep telling me go eat.. i would've eat at all.. cos troublsome and expensive. just tthe thought of these 2, enuff to put away my thoguht of eating. but i must tc lots now.. he's not here with me physically already.. anything i gotta protect and fend fo myself.. gotta stay really strong no matter what..
last night zuan said.. he's proud of me.. becos in front of ppl, i can pretend to be happy and enjoying the moments with frens..they all. but actually me already so sad. yeah.. i know he's leaving one day.. no matter how happy i am,.. how much i smile, my heart will always have this very2 sad part whenever i thought of that.. zuan called me last night.. and i broke down.. wah.. cry so badly.. really2 bad.. loud.. what to do.. ..allow myself to grieve for a day can..?.. ..
ytd.. ..its a night.. me wanna shut from the world.. just slp in darkness.. and.. whatever.. cry or what.. just.. wanna hurry wakey to another day..
i really hated the sun ytd. i was preparing myself to dress up nice.. give him one last impression.. doing my hair.. changing.. every secs past.. is reminding me of him setting off real soon... ..it really sux.. the aftnoon really sux.. and thats when i realised... i hated aftnoon n evening the most.. i really do now.
hm.. i think.. still got alot to say perhaps.. but.. im slpy now.. so.. yeah.. .. will see how.. try to go back to slp..
jaa... mata ne
24 July 2009
2nd Last day
...saying goodbye to sam is difficult.. cant hold back my tears.. doesnt wish to look up in his eyes with me crying... i total broke down when i saw him.. cos been wanting to see him so much today... then thought really cant at all.. but he came.. without me knowing beforehand.. ...7hours.. 7 hours... gotta remember that.. aint that far.. just expensive to go.. i allow myself to cry now.. but.. i gotta be strong by... end of next week?.. need time to get over it abit..so.. yeah.. give myself one week.. hopefully i'll be strong enough and get it through.. ..
oh.. wore this top me bought so long ago.. erm.. previous chinese new year.. then today me wore it, and found out it's a dress. a very mini dress.-_- but can be use as top la.. that time cos don wear mini dress.. thats why feel weird bah.. like wonder how come so short.. now that i pull it down, its a dress to me.. ha. cos wear before mah.. short dress.. but thats becos he was there with me.. so... its alrite.. ...o well......
.....morning wokey.. feel down...with abit of sorrow.. thats normal i guess.. cos that day is near.. today is 2nd last day.. ..final day..is tmr.. ...sigh.. oh.. was kena pull to go for bbq by izan too.. sigh.. oh dear..
this morning in the train, my phone received a msg.. my tone is the transformer one.. then 2 mens standing beside me were taking out their hp from their pockets to check.. XD hahaha.. so funny.. at the same time somemore...
sam say he walked past my previous outlet in p.p.. then purposely say loud2 that the shop is messy.. who wanna buy anything from it.. lol.. cos the bro said something about the figurine in the shop.. then sam say like that.. XD omg.. wow.. she heard it somemore.. then he told his bro about that infamous auntie.. and i was surprised.. his bro know about that infamous auntie.. hahaha... good.. more ppl know how shrewd she can be.. hm.. but... ...why do somehow my consious is.... ..tch.. i wish i can be more evil sometimes..
oh... so glad sam reminded me.. maybe cos of the book i gave him? or... he really still remember.. we're talking.. then suddenly he ask me about what dish he first cook fo me.. dunno isit me slp and tired that day,. .or too sudden to just think.. i answered wrongly. oops... then he gib me the correct answer.. very often me like to look back at those memories we shared since day one.. repeatedly.. me dun mind.. oh.. cant wait to look at those books again..if i see him. memories.. scrapbooks.. whatever u called it.. my hardwork.. :) hee..
hm.. thinking back.. about the news of mylie cyrus getting back with her bf.. one of the jonas brothers.. hm.. then that time she got another guy... but then somehow i knew it wasnt right.. cos in teh pics.. she doesnt look like herself.. as in really happy.. o well..
oh! sushi! ytd redz bought them at great offer.. wah.. having sushi as supper.. haha.. so happy to see him come back with those.. :P yummmy2..
oh.. think.. i'll upload the pics of underwater world to my face book only.. cos.. really too many.. will take so long.. sianz.. ha. yeah.. gotta wait for a very boring time, then me upload them..
k.. me better go rest soon.. .. sigh. .miss the comfortness while slping...
oh.. finally watched finsih the anime.. yay.. cant wait to watch the 2nd season. :) my boring day at work.. lucky get to watch.. otherwise dunno do what either..
mata... ....
oh.. wore this top me bought so long ago.. erm.. previous chinese new year.. then today me wore it, and found out it's a dress. a very mini dress.-_- but can be use as top la.. that time cos don wear mini dress.. thats why feel weird bah.. like wonder how come so short.. now that i pull it down, its a dress to me.. ha. cos wear before mah.. short dress.. but thats becos he was there with me.. so... its alrite.. ...o well......
.....morning wokey.. feel down...with abit of sorrow.. thats normal i guess.. cos that day is near.. today is 2nd last day.. ..final day..is tmr.. ...sigh.. oh.. was kena pull to go for bbq by izan too.. sigh.. oh dear..
this morning in the train, my phone received a msg.. my tone is the transformer one.. then 2 mens standing beside me were taking out their hp from their pockets to check.. XD hahaha.. so funny.. at the same time somemore...
sam say he walked past my previous outlet in p.p.. then purposely say loud2 that the shop is messy.. who wanna buy anything from it.. lol.. cos the bro said something about the figurine in the shop.. then sam say like that.. XD omg.. wow.. she heard it somemore.. then he told his bro about that infamous auntie.. and i was surprised.. his bro know about that infamous auntie.. hahaha... good.. more ppl know how shrewd she can be.. hm.. but... ...why do somehow my consious is.... ..tch.. i wish i can be more evil sometimes..
oh... so glad sam reminded me.. maybe cos of the book i gave him? or... he really still remember.. we're talking.. then suddenly he ask me about what dish he first cook fo me.. dunno isit me slp and tired that day,. .or too sudden to just think.. i answered wrongly. oops... then he gib me the correct answer.. very often me like to look back at those memories we shared since day one.. repeatedly.. me dun mind.. oh.. cant wait to look at those books again..if i see him. memories.. scrapbooks.. whatever u called it.. my hardwork.. :) hee..
hm.. thinking back.. about the news of mylie cyrus getting back with her bf.. one of the jonas brothers.. hm.. then that time she got another guy... but then somehow i knew it wasnt right.. cos in teh pics.. she doesnt look like herself.. as in really happy.. o well..
oh! sushi! ytd redz bought them at great offer.. wah.. having sushi as supper.. haha.. so happy to see him come back with those.. :P yummmy2..
oh.. think.. i'll upload the pics of underwater world to my face book only.. cos.. really too many.. will take so long.. sianz.. ha. yeah.. gotta wait for a very boring time, then me upload them..
k.. me better go rest soon.. .. sigh. .miss the comfortness while slping...
oh.. finally watched finsih the anime.. yay.. cant wait to watch the 2nd season. :) my boring day at work.. lucky get to watch.. otherwise dunno do what either..
mata... ....
23 July 2009
Can't Live Without Them
haiz..... you know.. i have this ring on my finger for more than a year already... even till today,.. i still love my ring so much.. i cant do without it.. my heart will be broken into pieces if anything happen to my ring.. i did thought of why not get add one more new one.. but then.. if i buy it for myself.., ..things would've feel so different then. it wouldnt feel that special.. yes.. you can see it from my pics.. my ring is my treasure. theres another one too. but my ring... :) its very2 special indeed... also dunno how come like this.. ..ha. every morning.. will make sure its there.. nothing to do, look at it.. play with it.. touches it.. i dunno why.. just love that ring so much.. or perhaps.. yes.. i know why...
why am i saying this all of a sudden? hm.. i dunno why either.. yes.. said it before.. how i love my ring.. but.. dunno why.. these few weeks.. especially now.. love to look at it more.. i just wanna let it be known.. of how much... my ring means to me.. i hope.. really hope.. that it can last through all the years with me.. how great would that be... :)
wow.. was soooo surprised when razi stand outside my shop. he's the staff of gramophone.
used to work at p.p. then got to know him through fren. lol.. the last time me saw him was monthssss ago!! XD he did mention he's working at that outlet.. but me din take note.. so yes.. we're working at the same place.. lol. and me din know till he decided to drop by outside my shop and have a look. hahaha. then i saw him, and was so totally surprised! XD finally another person i know working at that boring place. ha.
today.. boring.. but with my lappy.. ok.. not that bad.. hm... tmr.. see how.. dunno wanna bring anot.. today.. not that hungry.. so bought abit of food.. hehe.. at a cheap price. :)
now me starting to love working there. ha.
oh.. then was doing some anime thingy the whole day.. and finally at the end of closing, manage to complete it! XD haha... yay.. just on time :) tmr.. hope mansoor wont come down bah..
then me can have time alone.. ha. ..o well...
hm.. ....so fast huh.. .. my birthday's over.. my last date over... this sat the worst day is coming.... ...:( sigh..... .... sux.... life really sux when huge of u along with the happiness is being taken away.. ..my happiness.. ... i wont be looking forward to my off day that much already.. .. but.. maybe i will.. who knows.. maybe can go on dates in webcam.. erm.. .. dunno how.. ha.. ..o well. sianz.. drag my off days now.. .. :( cant look forward like i used to now.. i hope i can be happy like how that time.. ..
...sigh.. kk... don think ne.. its better i guess.. .. must focus my thoughts on.. other things.. good things.. ..
jaa mata
why am i saying this all of a sudden? hm.. i dunno why either.. yes.. said it before.. how i love my ring.. but.. dunno why.. these few weeks.. especially now.. love to look at it more.. i just wanna let it be known.. of how much... my ring means to me.. i hope.. really hope.. that it can last through all the years with me.. how great would that be... :)
wow.. was soooo surprised when razi stand outside my shop. he's the staff of gramophone.
used to work at p.p. then got to know him through fren. lol.. the last time me saw him was monthssss ago!! XD he did mention he's working at that outlet.. but me din take note.. so yes.. we're working at the same place.. lol. and me din know till he decided to drop by outside my shop and have a look. hahaha. then i saw him, and was so totally surprised! XD finally another person i know working at that boring place. ha.
today.. boring.. but with my lappy.. ok.. not that bad.. hm... tmr.. see how.. dunno wanna bring anot.. today.. not that hungry.. so bought abit of food.. hehe.. at a cheap price. :)
now me starting to love working there. ha.
oh.. then was doing some anime thingy the whole day.. and finally at the end of closing, manage to complete it! XD haha... yay.. just on time :) tmr.. hope mansoor wont come down bah..
then me can have time alone.. ha. ..o well...
hm.. ....so fast huh.. .. my birthday's over.. my last date over... this sat the worst day is coming.... ...:( sigh..... .... sux.... life really sux when huge of u along with the happiness is being taken away.. ..my happiness.. ... i wont be looking forward to my off day that much already.. .. but.. maybe i will.. who knows.. maybe can go on dates in webcam.. erm.. .. dunno how.. ha.. ..o well. sianz.. drag my off days now.. .. :( cant look forward like i used to now.. i hope i can be happy like how that time.. ..
...sigh.. kk... don think ne.. its better i guess.. .. must focus my thoughts on.. other things.. good things.. ..
jaa mata
22 July 2009
A Different Birthday
....he want me to be happy always whenever think of him... but.. all i can say is im trying my hardest. happy, of course. becos knowing he's on the other side waiting.. upset.. of course.. cos missing the warmth and good times.. missing a huge part of me.. sigh.. will pull myself together somehow.. when the time is right.. i'll be fine..
as i was saying halfway.. oh... about ytd... hm... k... continue from ytd bah... so me met sammy for dinner. ^^ then sammy staying over. then bro and redz already home when me rch back. then waited until 12 then get my pressy. sammy hid it so well! XD me really thought thats his shoe box! haiyo... anyway, me received a big fluffy white comfy cinnamoroll! the material is soooo super soft and comfy!! omg... tehn from bro, he really gotten me a bag. not guess... but from sembonia. really like it. its elegant looking bah.. ha. so.. yup... im really grateful and so happy.. thanks guys...
morning 8am.. me woke up hoping to catch a view of the solar eclispe. but... haiyo.. canot.. in china then can see. oh well.. haiz. so we watched the tv.. sammy and redz too.. omg.. soooo slpy!! slpt at ard 5 plus mah.. so.. yup. but its so nice though.. morning wakey.. then check out the solar eclispe on 18th floor with sammy.. then went back.. and out again.. just keep checking.. haha. :) slpy morning, but fun. and super comfy when back to slp. yes.. thats like one of the best slping comfy night i've ever had... :) so gonna miss that.. huuuuu......
hm.. me wokey at 2pm..? hm.. lets just say.. really never expect my birthday to turn out this way. ha.. .. o well... but its ok.. cos sam's still here.. .. actually me imagine my birthday to be like this.. erm.. morning verye arly wakey and go somewhere to walk2.. happy2 til night time or what.. but.. lol.. wokey at 2, already aftnoon! haiyo! but what to do, tired and comfy! erm.. then.. sam gotta go settle his stuff... me never expected that.. so.. no choice.. he's gone for awhile.. so me thought of.. nvm.. since he say should be ard 5plus finish, me hurry go out and send my phone for repair. but who knows.. he called 30mins later to say he's done. ha.. so just mit him outside bah. then yup.. nvm.. send my phone for repair bah.. since nothing is planned anyway.
hope... hm.. yeah.. hopefully my phone is alrite..
hm. .after sending my phone,.. yay.. glad no queue :).. walk2 ard ion.. then news about me having to go for bbq session, dampens the mood.. i know hows my boss like.. its difficult to explain.. but.. ...tch.. i guess.. if i cant make it.. the only last resort is to called my lady boss.. i hope she'll be there that day.. even if i managed to miss it,.. sure im gonna leave a darn bad impression... ...sigh.. how i wish i could have more support now.. .. its ok.. ..he'll be in my heart ne.. .
i was so surprised... i... i've always felt this way about cherishing and appreciating.. i mean... ... tat night.. my bro was playing again his game.. ff x2.. one of the ending.., the main guy was saying to yuna... 'yuna, cherish me and i'll cherish you'.. ah.. lets just say... he's gone, but he's back again.. and 2 of them are in love. he's gone becos he got no choice. they're hoping he wont disappeared again.. cherish huh.... ...i've been doing that for a year and half.. and its getting ever Stronger. so.. ..yup.. me glad. .. :)
ok... now... starting next month onwards.. before i quit.. im gonna do my best in saving money.. lets see if i can do without shopping for clothes for a few months.. 3 months at least. since.. he's nt here anyway.. me don really see the point in.. yeah.. so... o well... hopefully bah..can save lots.
but.. me still looking forward to bring my mum out for some..treats though.. let her enjoy abit.. ..yeah.. me always been spending my free time with sammy.. cos sammy's a very3 special and important person in my life. my time is for sammy. :) belongs to sammy. ^^ ...well.. this month is ending.. will i get my bonus?... ... haiyo.... no one mentions anything about this!!! geez... grr... sianz.
i really wish i can go over... ...
my heart is yearning so much.. ....
hm.. ...ok.. ..so... erm.. yeah.. today ate till.... wow. super full.. and me so slpy now.. so waanna slp now.. zzz.... but.. abit more... will slp asap!
starting from ytd since sam dropped by to have lunch with me, till tonight, ..my days been great.. me so happy...
bro aint home tonight.. me lonely now.. cos.. no warmth.. ....o well..
mum asked me just now.. need to buy any cake anot.. to celebrate.. me say no need.. cos so late already.. and so full.. but... u know.... this year,.. its my only first year without candles on my cake.. yes.. but.. come to think of it.. ..hm.. yeah. hahahah... abit sad sey.. no birthday candles... o well.this year.. counted as very special bah.. ne. so.. yup. theres alot of things for me to look forwarad to right now.. in future.. alot gotta do with him.. so.. things to look forward to.. .. yup... i hope it helps me get on life abit more..easier..
my one year and half.. been full of hopes and happiness... the days ahead.. i do not know hows it gonna turn out like.. but... im hoping for the best.. i need alot of support and faith now... so.. yup.. ...o well..
hm.... isnt that the greatest.. to found someone who loves me truly more than anything else in the world.. and for me to love back unconditionally... thats so....fortunate..isnt it.. like..how many ppl.. can get to experince that.. and treasure it..
k.. i'd better go settle my other net stuffs.. then can slp sooner..
jaa mata......
as i was saying halfway.. oh... about ytd... hm... k... continue from ytd bah... so me met sammy for dinner. ^^ then sammy staying over. then bro and redz already home when me rch back. then waited until 12 then get my pressy. sammy hid it so well! XD me really thought thats his shoe box! haiyo... anyway, me received a big fluffy white comfy cinnamoroll! the material is soooo super soft and comfy!! omg... tehn from bro, he really gotten me a bag. not guess... but from sembonia. really like it. its elegant looking bah.. ha. so.. yup... im really grateful and so happy.. thanks guys...
morning 8am.. me woke up hoping to catch a view of the solar eclispe. but... haiyo.. canot.. in china then can see. oh well.. haiz. so we watched the tv.. sammy and redz too.. omg.. soooo slpy!! slpt at ard 5 plus mah.. so.. yup. but its so nice though.. morning wakey.. then check out the solar eclispe on 18th floor with sammy.. then went back.. and out again.. just keep checking.. haha. :) slpy morning, but fun. and super comfy when back to slp. yes.. thats like one of the best slping comfy night i've ever had... :) so gonna miss that.. huuuuu......
hm.. me wokey at 2pm..? hm.. lets just say.. really never expect my birthday to turn out this way. ha.. .. o well... but its ok.. cos sam's still here.. .. actually me imagine my birthday to be like this.. erm.. morning verye arly wakey and go somewhere to walk2.. happy2 til night time or what.. but.. lol.. wokey at 2, already aftnoon! haiyo! but what to do, tired and comfy! erm.. then.. sam gotta go settle his stuff... me never expected that.. so.. no choice.. he's gone for awhile.. so me thought of.. nvm.. since he say should be ard 5plus finish, me hurry go out and send my phone for repair. but who knows.. he called 30mins later to say he's done. ha.. so just mit him outside bah. then yup.. nvm.. send my phone for repair bah.. since nothing is planned anyway.
hope... hm.. yeah.. hopefully my phone is alrite..
hm. .after sending my phone,.. yay.. glad no queue :).. walk2 ard ion.. then news about me having to go for bbq session, dampens the mood.. i know hows my boss like.. its difficult to explain.. but.. ...tch.. i guess.. if i cant make it.. the only last resort is to called my lady boss.. i hope she'll be there that day.. even if i managed to miss it,.. sure im gonna leave a darn bad impression... ...sigh.. how i wish i could have more support now.. .. its ok.. ..he'll be in my heart ne.. .
i was so surprised... i... i've always felt this way about cherishing and appreciating.. i mean... ... tat night.. my bro was playing again his game.. ff x2.. one of the ending.., the main guy was saying to yuna... 'yuna, cherish me and i'll cherish you'.. ah.. lets just say... he's gone, but he's back again.. and 2 of them are in love. he's gone becos he got no choice. they're hoping he wont disappeared again.. cherish huh.... ...i've been doing that for a year and half.. and its getting ever Stronger. so.. ..yup.. me glad. .. :)
ok... now... starting next month onwards.. before i quit.. im gonna do my best in saving money.. lets see if i can do without shopping for clothes for a few months.. 3 months at least. since.. he's nt here anyway.. me don really see the point in.. yeah.. so... o well... hopefully bah..can save lots.
but.. me still looking forward to bring my mum out for some..treats though.. let her enjoy abit.. ..yeah.. me always been spending my free time with sammy.. cos sammy's a very3 special and important person in my life. my time is for sammy. :) belongs to sammy. ^^ ...well.. this month is ending.. will i get my bonus?... ... haiyo.... no one mentions anything about this!!! geez... grr... sianz.
i really wish i can go over... ...
my heart is yearning so much.. ....
hm.. ...ok.. ..so... erm.. yeah.. today ate till.... wow. super full.. and me so slpy now.. so waanna slp now.. zzz.... but.. abit more... will slp asap!
starting from ytd since sam dropped by to have lunch with me, till tonight, ..my days been great.. me so happy...
bro aint home tonight.. me lonely now.. cos.. no warmth.. ....o well..
mum asked me just now.. need to buy any cake anot.. to celebrate.. me say no need.. cos so late already.. and so full.. but... u know.... this year,.. its my only first year without candles on my cake.. yes.. but.. come to think of it.. ..hm.. yeah. hahahah... abit sad sey.. no birthday candles... o well.this year.. counted as very special bah.. ne. so.. yup. theres alot of things for me to look forwarad to right now.. in future.. alot gotta do with him.. so.. things to look forward to.. .. yup... i hope it helps me get on life abit more..easier..
my one year and half.. been full of hopes and happiness... the days ahead.. i do not know hows it gonna turn out like.. but... im hoping for the best.. i need alot of support and faith now... so.. yup.. ...o well..
hm.... isnt that the greatest.. to found someone who loves me truly more than anything else in the world.. and for me to love back unconditionally... thats so....fortunate..isnt it.. like..how many ppl.. can get to experince that.. and treasure it..
k.. i'd better go settle my other net stuffs.. then can slp sooner..
jaa mata......
20 July 2009
My Guardian Angel.. My Light...
lol.. was searching for my pressy in my bro's room just now!! XD! he was hiding here and there.. hahaha... yes.. ever since young, i've always had this habit of searching for my birthday present in ppl's room.. XD especially my bros. lol... now still aint change one bit ne! ^^ hehe.. :P oh.. he was asking me if i wanna celebrate birthday tmr.. my birthday on 22nd.. but he's working.. so.. see how ne. wonder if redz will come too. :) and sammy... ....
...sigh.... today... me not happy at all... was gloomy the whole day... :( becos... sigh.. the days are passing so fast...my last date is coming... dunno have to wait till when then can enjoy with him again... ...its bloody tough.. me realy gotta stay strong and hang on... ...gotta cheer up.. :/ ..
my phone.. sigh.. spoiled again.. -_- sianz!! gotta send for repair!! omg2!! so sianz! why?! how?! XD
woo.... the next solar eclispe after 22nd, will happen on year 2027. so.. yes!! im not gonna miss it this time!! 22nd at 8am.. no, before 8am, me gonna wakey and look at the moon! wohohoho....! falls on my birthday know!! ^^ hehe.. thats why must watch.. haha.. told my bro don lock the door already :P lalala... hee.....~ so.... yup! hopefully can see it bah.. happy that it falls on my birthday. :) so.. ..special bah.. .. ha. oh.. it'll last for about.. 6mins and 43 secs.
....my heart feeling so... ..heavy... pain.. ..sigh... how... the weekend is coming.. ending.. i dun want him to leave... ... :..( oh.. speaking of weekend.. its already been confirmed.. bbq chalet organized by our company.. omg.. so troublesome.. -_- don feel like going.. dunno whos gonna be there.. hope i wont see that bloody backstabber milo!!
ion's ladies... oh gosh... yes.. talking abaout ytd.. the ladies.. got sooo many mirrors!! XD! geez... like a make up room.. =.= omg.. do check it out ppl.. hahaha... so high class like that.. o well...
oh.. saw this woman all wrapped up.. her face.. so can only see her nose and eyes.. sam.. =.= joke about me gotta wear like that if i convert.. bleahx.. not like that me know of course! XD haha... speaking of converting.. yeah.. me dun mind.. cos don even know where i stand.. :( when i do marry,.. geez.. do i need to convert? whats my religion anyway? =.=... haiyo... i dunno where i stand... o well.. guess gotta have my own faith for now bah..
.....hm.... ...im scared... ....... my birthday's coming.. ..dunno whats gonna happen.. i wish i wont cry... ...i...... ... dunno.. ....dunno am i hating my this year birthday or what.. cos... ...yeah... its my last... .... :/ ..sigh........... ..dread it.. ..
mum was telling me.. she dunno what to give me.. she cant give me anything much. .cos she also no money.. i know... and i dun mind.. i dun blame her.. its just pressy only.. ..just that.. of course.. in my heart.. still years for a little tiny something from family.. ..its alrite.. i got bro.. for sammy.. got redz.. ..im lucky enuff already right..?.. just that i wish.. if only my family.. is... ... ....nah.. o well... im already lucky enuff to have sammy... theres nothing else i want..
today.. finally gotten my stuff done.. left with final touches.. finally.. after half a year.. its completed.. hm.. but not that much of a perfect..but.. what to do.. time is limited.. .. so.. yeah.. .later gonna complete it bah.. ..
sigh.......... how i wish sammy is here and and cheer me up.. sammy doest have to do anything u know.. one smile is all i need.. presense is all i need... and i'll be so ever happy...
gosh.. ...tears are pouring!! XD.. geez man!!.. hahaha... ... ....im really so glad... my first love.. that person.. is someone who appreciates me.. who love me so much..but can never beat me to it.. ha.. i did not love a wrong man.. i've made a right choice.. im really so lucky in this part of my life.. despite.. that my life before aint perfect.. there're lots of downs.. pains.. hardships.. alot for me to endure..which my family din know.. cos i never say anything to them.. then one day.. here comes this white light.. appeared before me.. he's tall.. warm.. sweet.. with the most comfy presense you can ever imagine... wait.. isnt he my guardian angel... ...he hold my hand.. walk through the dark times with me.. and every secs.. became such sweet moments..that one could never forget.. ..but.... ... he's gonna be gone for awhile now.. its gonna take alot of hardwork to see him again.. ...what to do... greater things ahead are always meant to wait.. see... didnt the white light appeared jst when i was about to lose all hopes...?... im glad.. i haven lose it.. the greater things lies.. in the future... ..i cant wait... but.. the path.. is gonna be long and difficult i think.. what to do... the best of the best things... always take the longest to reach... but as long as he's there.... i'll never lose the light... abd.. we're gonna reach together..
the sun.. wasnt bright today.. but i decided to wear my sunglasses anyway.. just.. feel the sudden need to shut my face from the world.. as i was cleaning very carefully the sunglasses,.. i realised (perhaps again) that the side.. got bling2 to it... haha.. not diamons, not crystals.. but.. look nice.. i was cleaning the box as well... carefully.. very carefully.. and slowly.. admiring the whole thing.. wipe.. wipe.... wipe... so much things on my mind today... theres much peace and quiet today at work.. but... i wasnt happy. im stress!
by 3 plus today.., i wasnt feeling hungry yet.. but no.. cannot... i tell myself i really gotta force myself to eat something.. its getting so late.. thus me bought food.. eat.. and.. after awhile, bought chocos from candy empire..(stress!) and... yeah.. now feeling hungry again.. dots... -_- dunno... tmr wanna bring instant noodle anot.. everytime spend at candy empire.. is = to one meal.. haiz.... what to do... craving for the candies there.. ..ha
k... me better go do other stuff soon.. ..
jaa.... mata ne.....
...sigh.... today... me not happy at all... was gloomy the whole day... :( becos... sigh.. the days are passing so fast...my last date is coming... dunno have to wait till when then can enjoy with him again... ...its bloody tough.. me realy gotta stay strong and hang on... ...gotta cheer up.. :/ ..
my phone.. sigh.. spoiled again.. -_- sianz!! gotta send for repair!! omg2!! so sianz! why?! how?! XD
woo.... the next solar eclispe after 22nd, will happen on year 2027. so.. yes!! im not gonna miss it this time!! 22nd at 8am.. no, before 8am, me gonna wakey and look at the moon! wohohoho....! falls on my birthday know!! ^^ hehe.. thats why must watch.. haha.. told my bro don lock the door already :P lalala... hee.....~ so.... yup! hopefully can see it bah.. happy that it falls on my birthday. :) so.. ..special bah.. .. ha. oh.. it'll last for about.. 6mins and 43 secs.
....my heart feeling so... ..heavy... pain.. ..sigh... how... the weekend is coming.. ending.. i dun want him to leave... ... :..( oh.. speaking of weekend.. its already been confirmed.. bbq chalet organized by our company.. omg.. so troublesome.. -_- don feel like going.. dunno whos gonna be there.. hope i wont see that bloody backstabber milo!!
ion's ladies... oh gosh... yes.. talking abaout ytd.. the ladies.. got sooo many mirrors!! XD! geez... like a make up room.. =.= omg.. do check it out ppl.. hahaha... so high class like that.. o well...
oh.. saw this woman all wrapped up.. her face.. so can only see her nose and eyes.. sam.. =.= joke about me gotta wear like that if i convert.. bleahx.. not like that me know of course! XD haha... speaking of converting.. yeah.. me dun mind.. cos don even know where i stand.. :( when i do marry,.. geez.. do i need to convert? whats my religion anyway? =.=... haiyo... i dunno where i stand... o well.. guess gotta have my own faith for now bah..
.....hm.... ...im scared... ....... my birthday's coming.. ..dunno whats gonna happen.. i wish i wont cry... ...i...... ... dunno.. ....dunno am i hating my this year birthday or what.. cos... ...yeah... its my last... .... :/ ..sigh........... ..dread it.. ..
mum was telling me.. she dunno what to give me.. she cant give me anything much. .cos she also no money.. i know... and i dun mind.. i dun blame her.. its just pressy only.. ..just that.. of course.. in my heart.. still years for a little tiny something from family.. ..its alrite.. i got bro.. for sammy.. got redz.. ..im lucky enuff already right..?.. just that i wish.. if only my family.. is... ... ....nah.. o well... im already lucky enuff to have sammy... theres nothing else i want..
today.. finally gotten my stuff done.. left with final touches.. finally.. after half a year.. its completed.. hm.. but not that much of a perfect..but.. what to do.. time is limited.. .. so.. yeah.. .later gonna complete it bah.. ..
sigh.......... how i wish sammy is here and and cheer me up.. sammy doest have to do anything u know.. one smile is all i need.. presense is all i need... and i'll be so ever happy...
gosh.. ...tears are pouring!! XD.. geez man!!.. hahaha... ... ....im really so glad... my first love.. that person.. is someone who appreciates me.. who love me so much..but can never beat me to it.. ha.. i did not love a wrong man.. i've made a right choice.. im really so lucky in this part of my life.. despite.. that my life before aint perfect.. there're lots of downs.. pains.. hardships.. alot for me to endure..which my family din know.. cos i never say anything to them.. then one day.. here comes this white light.. appeared before me.. he's tall.. warm.. sweet.. with the most comfy presense you can ever imagine... wait.. isnt he my guardian angel... ...he hold my hand.. walk through the dark times with me.. and every secs.. became such sweet moments..that one could never forget.. ..but.... ... he's gonna be gone for awhile now.. its gonna take alot of hardwork to see him again.. ...what to do... greater things ahead are always meant to wait.. see... didnt the white light appeared jst when i was about to lose all hopes...?... im glad.. i haven lose it.. the greater things lies.. in the future... ..i cant wait... but.. the path.. is gonna be long and difficult i think.. what to do... the best of the best things... always take the longest to reach... but as long as he's there.... i'll never lose the light... abd.. we're gonna reach together..
the sun.. wasnt bright today.. but i decided to wear my sunglasses anyway.. just.. feel the sudden need to shut my face from the world.. as i was cleaning very carefully the sunglasses,.. i realised (perhaps again) that the side.. got bling2 to it... haha.. not diamons, not crystals.. but.. look nice.. i was cleaning the box as well... carefully.. very carefully.. and slowly.. admiring the whole thing.. wipe.. wipe.... wipe... so much things on my mind today... theres much peace and quiet today at work.. but... i wasnt happy. im stress!
by 3 plus today.., i wasnt feeling hungry yet.. but no.. cannot... i tell myself i really gotta force myself to eat something.. its getting so late.. thus me bought food.. eat.. and.. after awhile, bought chocos from candy empire..(stress!) and... yeah.. now feeling hungry again.. dots... -_- dunno... tmr wanna bring instant noodle anot.. everytime spend at candy empire.. is = to one meal.. haiz.... what to do... craving for the candies there.. ..ha
k... me better go do other stuff soon.. ..
jaa.... mata ne.....
19 July 2009
A Simple Nice Great Day :)
............after sending sam back.... ...i walk up the staircase alone back home... gosh... memories of how he used to carried me up the stairs when my legs are so tired.. how we always play ard in the lift.. while waiting for lift.. everything2... suddenly pops up into my mind.. sometimes i feel if its so cruel.. leaving behind all the sweet memories thats so vividly alive.. ....i'll hang on... its so tough.. but i gotta.. will try not to think too much.. difficult.. but gotta try.. ... mum open up the door.. say she'll support me.. ...thx mum.... today my 2nd last date with sam is over.... ......such crulety.....:(
today.. simple sunday... :) first time sunday morning at 10 plus went to town have breakfast.. with redz bro sam and me. wow.. :D happy!!! hehehe... me love it.. we went to have breakfast at burger king.. then went to ion... redz got the special invites.. thats why we can go in today.. opening is actually 21 july. hm.. alot of branded shops there.. bro went to work first.. me redz and sam walk ard exploring.. theres this ceiling which looks like undersea water world.. haha.. we went to prints shop.. then walk ard.. we came across levis.. went in.. and redz is late for work as a result cos he and sam bought some stuffs.. members too... haha... :) guys shopping!! me like a belt there.. but.. nah... oh.. then both of them become a member.. and get a free levis watch. haha. good deal..
after that.. redz rush to work.. left me with sam.. we go find bro.. then look at the sunglasses there.. haha.. look only la! at lv shop.. we're both slpy.. and tired.. cos ytd slpt at 4.. wakey at 8plus.. yeah.. im so tired now.. even after some slp just now.. erm.. so.. we went to find a ncie cold drink.. came across this round2 fountain.. hahaha... we end up playing with the water.. and pebbles.. XD :P so fun.. and relaxing in a kind of way.. :) im happy sam get to relax so much today.. and have fun. :) hehe. ^^ and im so glad he's able to join in for today. :) so nice isnt it.. :) hehe...
we sat down at mc.. get ice coffee.. then walk ard again.. cos got new found energy.. ha. walk to orchard centre point?.. hope i get the place name right.. the new shop.. erm.. alot of new shops.. alot never heard before.. we just walk2 ard.. he get to play abit of game.. then.. yup..... basically its just window shopping.. after that.. too tired... ha. .we went home... then we fell aslp for a few hours...
thats why i say.. its a simple day today.. alot of window shopping.. morning enjoy with family.. rch home about 5.30pm.. then rest till night! haha... yes.. relaxing.. fun! :) especially with him ard........ i'll always2 be so happy... ...
......thought im gonna slp right after this.. but.. nah.. wanna settle something by tonight..
hm..... he's my family.. one who'll always be on my mind..every sec.. everyday....
geez... see... ....suddenly cant remember what else me wanted to type... ..cos.. yeah. .thinking about today.. .. really.. ...so nice.... .... i wish this can go on more... .....
i really belive... almost anything is possible as long as you have faith.. and the determination to do it...of course the road will be tough.. even comes with pain.. but which road isnt. ...will ganbate lots... as long as he's there..
and for everyday, i promised to look back at our memories.. i'll try not to think too much.. cos sometimes hurts alot.. but still... memories.. from the start till now.. little2 words.. pictures.. events.. anything thats happened.. even if he forget some.. i'll still remember.. will do my best. as long as they're all in my heart and mind, thoughts everyday..
so much more to say.. but its getting late.. gotta go do my stuffs already.. im soooo tired...
hm. .hope.. tmr frenster will be ok.. cos still wanna blog there..
mata ne.. oyasumi...
today.. simple sunday... :) first time sunday morning at 10 plus went to town have breakfast.. with redz bro sam and me. wow.. :D happy!!! hehehe... me love it.. we went to have breakfast at burger king.. then went to ion... redz got the special invites.. thats why we can go in today.. opening is actually 21 july. hm.. alot of branded shops there.. bro went to work first.. me redz and sam walk ard exploring.. theres this ceiling which looks like undersea water world.. haha.. we went to prints shop.. then walk ard.. we came across levis.. went in.. and redz is late for work as a result cos he and sam bought some stuffs.. members too... haha... :) guys shopping!! me like a belt there.. but.. nah... oh.. then both of them become a member.. and get a free levis watch. haha. good deal..
after that.. redz rush to work.. left me with sam.. we go find bro.. then look at the sunglasses there.. haha.. look only la! at lv shop.. we're both slpy.. and tired.. cos ytd slpt at 4.. wakey at 8plus.. yeah.. im so tired now.. even after some slp just now.. erm.. so.. we went to find a ncie cold drink.. came across this round2 fountain.. hahaha... we end up playing with the water.. and pebbles.. XD :P so fun.. and relaxing in a kind of way.. :) im happy sam get to relax so much today.. and have fun. :) hehe. ^^ and im so glad he's able to join in for today. :) so nice isnt it.. :) hehe...
we sat down at mc.. get ice coffee.. then walk ard again.. cos got new found energy.. ha. walk to orchard centre point?.. hope i get the place name right.. the new shop.. erm.. alot of new shops.. alot never heard before.. we just walk2 ard.. he get to play abit of game.. then.. yup..... basically its just window shopping.. after that.. too tired... ha. .we went home... then we fell aslp for a few hours...
thats why i say.. its a simple day today.. alot of window shopping.. morning enjoy with family.. rch home about 5.30pm.. then rest till night! haha... yes.. relaxing.. fun! :) especially with him ard........ i'll always2 be so happy... ...
......thought im gonna slp right after this.. but.. nah.. wanna settle something by tonight..
hm..... he's my family.. one who'll always be on my mind..every sec.. everyday....
geez... see... ....suddenly cant remember what else me wanted to type... ..cos.. yeah. .thinking about today.. .. really.. ...so nice.... .... i wish this can go on more... .....
i really belive... almost anything is possible as long as you have faith.. and the determination to do it...of course the road will be tough.. even comes with pain.. but which road isnt. ...will ganbate lots... as long as he's there..
and for everyday, i promised to look back at our memories.. i'll try not to think too much.. cos sometimes hurts alot.. but still... memories.. from the start till now.. little2 words.. pictures.. events.. anything thats happened.. even if he forget some.. i'll still remember.. will do my best. as long as they're all in my heart and mind, thoughts everyday..
so much more to say.. but its getting late.. gotta go do my stuffs already.. im soooo tired...
hm. .hope.. tmr frenster will be ok.. cos still wanna blog there..
mata ne.. oyasumi...
18 July 2009
A Little Lonely..
hm... felt alittle lonely back theer.. going home alone.. thought theres a chance for me to go home with someone.. feeling down.. somewhat alittle sad.. arrived.. walking up.. as usual... legs were so tired.. couldnt even walk anymore.. so glad tmr off...
then reach home.. mum told me about how daddy drinks.. and blah3.. ..sigh.......... so disappointing... im so glad im not there to witness it all... thats why i say.. my mum.. she's so strong.. able to hang ard my dad for so long.. for me.. if i had a husband like that, i would've go hang myself already. again.. not say my dad is... sigh.. o well.... long story.. long story.... .......... ..sigh... if only he never started drinking....... .... :(
this morning.. found out my mp5 screen broke. history repeated itself.. that happened to my very first mp 3 as well. and i used it for ard one month too. coincidence? ha.. yes.. very. disappointed.. but... forget it... im not gonna get one again.. would rather consider getting the video recorder or something from creative. see how.. well.. lets look at things this way.. no music.. i got time to rest or perhaps read a book in the bus.. no need to get upset wheneveer theres a sad song.. my ears will be safer too. ..o well.......... no affinity..with mp players... -_- ha
hm.... weird.. last week perhaps?.. eat quite alot.. then recently.. stop eating altogether.. hungry now... i think.... i'll be eating later.. cos.. yeah.. ytd never eat, then go slp.. even bro was asking me.. why recently me keep slping so early.. ha. o well.. cos really too tired.. he was cooking last night.. XD so tempting.. ha.. but i go ahead and slp anyway...
....cnt belive.. my 2nd last date is tmr.... ...sad huh.... ..yeah.. very... ...how i i wish things aint like this... .......
i dunno why.. so many customers.. especially oub.. always first ask me if im working part time.. when i say no, they'll be like.. oh.. i thought you're still studying and doing a part time job... then they ask me how old am i.. and say i really look so young like 16.. thats what happen again today. -_- haiyo.... like that.. how ppl gonna take me seriously.. if me look too young.. then.. dunno la.. would ppl take me seriously for what i say anot... especially at work.. hm.. o well.. dun fret for now bah..
this decent malay looking guy was walking with his girlfren. walking past my shop.. then dunno why. .suddenly let out a frenyly smile at me.. =.= geez.... if im that girl, i sure super heartpain.. how can a guy do something like that. argh... maddening!
...well... gonna cherish from the sec now.. till me start work again..
wish me have lots of fun tmr.. enjoy myself.. stressfree.. and.. relax... whatever.. ha.
jaa, mata!
then reach home.. mum told me about how daddy drinks.. and blah3.. ..sigh.......... so disappointing... im so glad im not there to witness it all... thats why i say.. my mum.. she's so strong.. able to hang ard my dad for so long.. for me.. if i had a husband like that, i would've go hang myself already. again.. not say my dad is... sigh.. o well.... long story.. long story.... .......... ..sigh... if only he never started drinking....... .... :(
this morning.. found out my mp5 screen broke. history repeated itself.. that happened to my very first mp 3 as well. and i used it for ard one month too. coincidence? ha.. yes.. very. disappointed.. but... forget it... im not gonna get one again.. would rather consider getting the video recorder or something from creative. see how.. well.. lets look at things this way.. no music.. i got time to rest or perhaps read a book in the bus.. no need to get upset wheneveer theres a sad song.. my ears will be safer too. ..o well.......... no affinity..with mp players... -_- ha
hm.... weird.. last week perhaps?.. eat quite alot.. then recently.. stop eating altogether.. hungry now... i think.... i'll be eating later.. cos.. yeah.. ytd never eat, then go slp.. even bro was asking me.. why recently me keep slping so early.. ha. o well.. cos really too tired.. he was cooking last night.. XD so tempting.. ha.. but i go ahead and slp anyway...
....cnt belive.. my 2nd last date is tmr.... ...sad huh.... ..yeah.. very... ...how i i wish things aint like this... .......
i dunno why.. so many customers.. especially oub.. always first ask me if im working part time.. when i say no, they'll be like.. oh.. i thought you're still studying and doing a part time job... then they ask me how old am i.. and say i really look so young like 16.. thats what happen again today. -_- haiyo.... like that.. how ppl gonna take me seriously.. if me look too young.. then.. dunno la.. would ppl take me seriously for what i say anot... especially at work.. hm.. o well.. dun fret for now bah..
this decent malay looking guy was walking with his girlfren. walking past my shop.. then dunno why. .suddenly let out a frenyly smile at me.. =.= geez.... if im that girl, i sure super heartpain.. how can a guy do something like that. argh... maddening!
...well... gonna cherish from the sec now.. till me start work again..
wish me have lots of fun tmr.. enjoy myself.. stressfree.. and.. relax... whatever.. ha.
jaa, mata!
17 July 2009
Water Treatment
ahh.... my leg.. .so tired... .sore... huu.. .so tired... tmr.. one more day to hang on... sigh.. but cant wait for sunday. hopefully things will go as plan.. tmr then confirm again.. wahaha.. wanna take a look at the sunglasses at my bro's shop.. i hope its not too bling2 and bright.. XD bloody hell... sometimes me like that.. so hadr to like something. but once i like something, it can be a very3 darn expensive item. but then again, good thing usually when me reach the target to afford it, me would've lose interest in it already. always been like that. haha. so.. oh well.. see how bah. love at first sight item.. me always love one.. haha
hm.. just done with my bathing.. ...when about done,.. me squat down.. lettting the water splashes on me.. listening to the sound of heavy droplets dripping into the big red bucket before me... ...the sound of water... ...so nice..calming.. me like to do that whenever me ahd a tough day.. long day at work. .or got too much to think about..me like to stay like that for afew mins.. letting the water washes away my troubles.. its relaxing only for abit and while.. so nice.. to just sit under the water...
ah.. my vans shoes.. haiyo.. that day raining.. water can go in my shoes already.. sianz.. zuan say he also wanna buy shoes (again)-_-.. next month we go far east buy. but... hm.. see how ne.. besides.. branded shoes not much difference from a pair of $20. last about one year too. so... see how ne.. me like vans as well.. so.. well, just gotta see which one me would fall in love at first sight with. ;)
dunno whether wanna slp early again.. or eat.. haiyo2.... -_-... so sianz.... im so tired.. ...hm.... ..... ytd.. slpt at 10.30pm.. -_- wow.. super early man.. then slpt all the way.. so nice.. so.... thats why wondering... what should i be doing later... hm.... oh.. ytd no pasar malam.. thats why no food.. haiyo... dunno wanna eat instant noodle later anot.. legs too tired to stand anymore... :( ....tch.... ...nah.. anyway..... that wouldnt be counted as a proper meal already.. see how later ne.. sianz......
me was thinking.... ...if only i'd knew how much fun it is to go sentosa,... i would've gone there many time with sammy already.. then go check out all the remaining places yet to be explored.. but.... ..apity me found out too late.. ...so... ...sigh.. its too late now.
.....hm... tired2.... 10.15pm now.... whats my next step.. eat..then slp... or.... nah.. i dunno.. my heart is telling me to slp... tmr aftnoon then eat.. but then.. i'll be eating after 2.. so......... hm.. ...so frustrating..
mata
hm.. just done with my bathing.. ...when about done,.. me squat down.. lettting the water splashes on me.. listening to the sound of heavy droplets dripping into the big red bucket before me... ...the sound of water... ...so nice..calming.. me like to do that whenever me ahd a tough day.. long day at work. .or got too much to think about..me like to stay like that for afew mins.. letting the water washes away my troubles.. its relaxing only for abit and while.. so nice.. to just sit under the water...
ah.. my vans shoes.. haiyo.. that day raining.. water can go in my shoes already.. sianz.. zuan say he also wanna buy shoes (again)-_-.. next month we go far east buy. but... hm.. see how ne.. besides.. branded shoes not much difference from a pair of $20. last about one year too. so... see how ne.. me like vans as well.. so.. well, just gotta see which one me would fall in love at first sight with. ;)
dunno whether wanna slp early again.. or eat.. haiyo2.... -_-... so sianz.... im so tired.. ...hm.... ..... ytd.. slpt at 10.30pm.. -_- wow.. super early man.. then slpt all the way.. so nice.. so.... thats why wondering... what should i be doing later... hm.... oh.. ytd no pasar malam.. thats why no food.. haiyo... dunno wanna eat instant noodle later anot.. legs too tired to stand anymore... :( ....tch.... ...nah.. anyway..... that wouldnt be counted as a proper meal already.. see how later ne.. sianz......
me was thinking.... ...if only i'd knew how much fun it is to go sentosa,... i would've gone there many time with sammy already.. then go check out all the remaining places yet to be explored.. but.... ..apity me found out too late.. ...so... ...sigh.. its too late now.
.....hm... tired2.... 10.15pm now.... whats my next step.. eat..then slp... or.... nah.. i dunno.. my heart is telling me to slp... tmr aftnoon then eat.. but then.. i'll be eating after 2.. so......... hm.. ...so frustrating..
mata
16 July 2009
Pathetic Way To Get Home
i am so totally wiped out tired right now.. sigh................................
ii thought whwen i reach home, first thing i'll do is to eata something. but no.... im too freaking tired to cook... and im so freaking cant feel the growling in my stomach now.. cos too tired. i had 4 slices of bread in total today. plus plain water. and no, today never close shop go out.. eat outside, expensive, and lonely. and nothing much to walk ard either. so yup no break. today sales is great. not much moment to be left alone and be bored. so... yup. today quite ok.. at least not bord. time is ok today. not that slow..
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im so tired..
the was i walk up the stairs, i tell you, i look pathetic. really3 pathetic. i was walking slow... very slow.. one step at a time.. no energy already.. just freaking tired.. and dunno.. maybe i feel hungry too?.. dunno later wanna eat anot.. sigh.........
tch.. so sianz.. darn freaking tired.... dunno tonight later how.. gonna slp early.. or play like last night.. or watch tv with bro and redz. tch....
oh... think i can feel my hunger back again... but.. omg... i really cant move my leg... :( so darn tired to go down and buy food... don feel like having instant noodles... how... ...haiyo.. food also expensive..
.....sigh.... bloody hell............
my eyes cant even open wide... -_- argh..... oh.. bro's back...
....sigh... 2 days to go..
oh.. yeah.. me dun mind though.. to go eat at ajisen just now. but apity there don have. otherwise no doubt me sure go eat there. yes... eat there.. take my time.. enjoy the ramen.. the soup.. the lemon tea... ..haiz.... ...
feel like just close my eyes now, and wakey tmr..
in anycase... omg back to home... i look so pathetic and so poor thing. yeah.. like.. .really sad...
kk.. think me better decide fast about food... see what im gonna do.. to bath slp eat, or bath slp, or.. dunno...
mata
ii thought whwen i reach home, first thing i'll do is to eata something. but no.... im too freaking tired to cook... and im so freaking cant feel the growling in my stomach now.. cos too tired. i had 4 slices of bread in total today. plus plain water. and no, today never close shop go out.. eat outside, expensive, and lonely. and nothing much to walk ard either. so yup no break. today sales is great. not much moment to be left alone and be bored. so... yup. today quite ok.. at least not bord. time is ok today. not that slow..
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im so tired..
the was i walk up the stairs, i tell you, i look pathetic. really3 pathetic. i was walking slow... very slow.. one step at a time.. no energy already.. just freaking tired.. and dunno.. maybe i feel hungry too?.. dunno later wanna eat anot.. sigh.........
tch.. so sianz.. darn freaking tired.... dunno tonight later how.. gonna slp early.. or play like last night.. or watch tv with bro and redz. tch....
oh... think i can feel my hunger back again... but.. omg... i really cant move my leg... :( so darn tired to go down and buy food... don feel like having instant noodles... how... ...haiyo.. food also expensive..
.....sigh.... bloody hell............
my eyes cant even open wide... -_- argh..... oh.. bro's back...
....sigh... 2 days to go..
oh.. yeah.. me dun mind though.. to go eat at ajisen just now. but apity there don have. otherwise no doubt me sure go eat there. yes... eat there.. take my time.. enjoy the ramen.. the soup.. the lemon tea... ..haiz.... ...
feel like just close my eyes now, and wakey tmr..
in anycase... omg back to home... i look so pathetic and so poor thing. yeah.. like.. .really sad...
kk.. think me better decide fast about food... see what im gonna do.. to bath slp eat, or bath slp, or.. dunno...
mata
15 July 2009
Getting Through My Day!
im sooo sleepy now!! almost doze off in the bus. sooo sleepy.. been sleepy late again.. so.. yup. not much rest.. tonight see how bah.. cos redz is coming.. so... think maybe will be staying up for abit? huu.. feel like slping now..for afew hours.. XD tch..
today sales not good.. :( haiz.. oh.. adilah drop by today. then went to have dinner with her.. if not, me would've just taken bread at lunch, and not having any dinner. hm.. tmr... dunno.. see how. yeah.. today manage to get pass the day without lappy. got ppl accompany me for abit.. plus me doing my stuff...
yeah.. never get to sit much today.. busy with my personal stuff.. hahaha.. wanna finish it ar.. cant wait already. ha. speaking of that... .me forgot to bring it out today!! haiyo... then called dad up to ask him deliver.. he really did.. ha.. yay! me so happy.. ^^ cos really without that, plus no lappy, me really dunno how to get through my day!! so... yup. tmr see how.. dunno what should i bring or do to make my boring day pass faster.
haiyo.. .so slpy!!! think me go rest for abit.. and wait for them to come back home.. then eat or something.
today again... sooo cold!! dunno why.. huu.. kk.. me better go check out something else, and take a nap maybe.
jaa, mata.
today sales not good.. :( haiz.. oh.. adilah drop by today. then went to have dinner with her.. if not, me would've just taken bread at lunch, and not having any dinner. hm.. tmr... dunno.. see how. yeah.. today manage to get pass the day without lappy. got ppl accompany me for abit.. plus me doing my stuff...
yeah.. never get to sit much today.. busy with my personal stuff.. hahaha.. wanna finish it ar.. cant wait already. ha. speaking of that... .me forgot to bring it out today!! haiyo... then called dad up to ask him deliver.. he really did.. ha.. yay! me so happy.. ^^ cos really without that, plus no lappy, me really dunno how to get through my day!! so... yup. tmr see how.. dunno what should i bring or do to make my boring day pass faster.
haiyo.. .so slpy!!! think me go rest for abit.. and wait for them to come back home.. then eat or something.
today again... sooo cold!! dunno why.. huu.. kk.. me better go check out something else, and take a nap maybe.
jaa, mata.
14 July 2009
Sentosa!!- My Wishes
morning wakey sure gonna be so super sleepy.. ha. just now was so comfy.. feel aslp for abit.. was really so sleepy.. and so comfy..
omg.. today took sooo many pics!! hope me got the patient to upload them soon! haha.. lazy ar sometimes..
today went to sentosa. wow.... been so many years since i last went there. cant even remember where and when.. but i think i should've been there.. should be.. over 10 yrs ago... today was so fun.. me tried out things i've been wanting to try out since for god knows when. and today i made it. thx to sam. :) cos of money,.. actually intended to just go for one spot. but after that, it was so fun that we've decided to go for another one. first we went o to the underwater world. argh... missed out on the dolphines by mere mins.. sigh.. but anyway, the underwater world, my first time there!! wow!! its superb! the fishes there.. huge!! 30% larger than what we saw in the tank! thast what tehy say of the actual size of the fishes there. so.. yeah. its really2 amazing.. i got kinda scared looking at those big huge fishy at first. haha. so... yup. its really amazing there.. then we head on to the 4d show.. erm... ok... not say very2 wow.. cos the time is short.. but still, me get to try it. :) yup. wanted to do that so long.. then we're actually supposed to leave for home.. we walked past the cable poster.. me say something like.. in the end never get to sit wiwth him the cable.. then he brought me there.. i was so surprised.. we got a pic taken at the cable there.. and... yup.. we went for it. he's really sos thoughtful and sweet... ha.. he created our own atmosphere.. he was playing songs in there. :) hehe. singing abit too.... ... it was touching... really sweet.. beyond sweet... .... ...haiz... so.. yup. thats both our first time sitting through that cable car.. nice view.. :)special... :) hahaha...oh!! and i bought one shark pop up image bookmark! hehe^^
and so.... yup... at the end of today,... both of us had fun.. though spend plenty of money? yah.. really enjoy lots.. and... yes.. money doesnt matter now.. im just glad we went for it.. and had fun..
today i finaly fullfilled me long time wishes.. from the underwater world to the cable car.. plus the 4d image show.. ... yeah... it really mean alot2 to me.. its one of the most special day for me.. alot2 of sweet memories...
sammy taught me alot of dota tips again. hahaha... i hope i remember them all.. and put them to practice lots.. till i get the hand of it. today had actually wanted to play together.. but too late when got home.. so.. oh well... .. oh.. and he keep spinning me ard at the mall! XD hahaha. and so funny! in the train, sam was playing wiht his sweet, then he drop it, and put it back! XD lol.. we're laughing like mad.. hahaha.. it was so funny!! he ar... cute la.. haha. :P and while at vivo,.. i was saying something about letting him punish me.. then me say wanna go put my leg at the small fountain side and let it splash me.. then he never stop me.. me ask him.. 'why never stop me!?' XD!! lol... thinking back.. gosh.. i think i look so funny ba.. XD like my frens always say.. cartoon la me.. ha?
hmm... lets see what esle... .. dunno got miss out on anything anot.. ... .. oh... .....last few days left to see him already... heart hurts soooo much.. oh god... .... :(
hm... dunno.. was thinking my plan might be destroy.. cos sam say its better to go over to aust after they bought a house.. i know too.. he say its ok if go end of this year if i really want.. hm... i dunno.. thats my plan.. so now.. abit confused.. after quitting.. what should i do.. hnm... perhaps hope that teh prices will still be low bah. if yes, then great:). oh.. then about tickets.. hopefully can get more info on that. before going, will compare lots of different prices from different places.. see how ne.. still a few months to go..
....haiyo.. cant wait to slp.. really so sleepy..
hm............... ...........i wonder if thats all... ... hm.. see tmr how.. tmr then blog more if can remember anything. ha.
haiyo.. tmr another boring day at that place.. just wish to get home asap.. reach home early, rest early i hope. ha
k... gotta go... ... ....another magical day for me.. one of my rare longgggg time wishes.... been fulfilled... :) thanks sweetheart...
mata....
omg.. today took sooo many pics!! hope me got the patient to upload them soon! haha.. lazy ar sometimes..
today went to sentosa. wow.... been so many years since i last went there. cant even remember where and when.. but i think i should've been there.. should be.. over 10 yrs ago... today was so fun.. me tried out things i've been wanting to try out since for god knows when. and today i made it. thx to sam. :) cos of money,.. actually intended to just go for one spot. but after that, it was so fun that we've decided to go for another one. first we went o to the underwater world. argh... missed out on the dolphines by mere mins.. sigh.. but anyway, the underwater world, my first time there!! wow!! its superb! the fishes there.. huge!! 30% larger than what we saw in the tank! thast what tehy say of the actual size of the fishes there. so.. yeah. its really2 amazing.. i got kinda scared looking at those big huge fishy at first. haha. so... yup. its really amazing there.. then we head on to the 4d show.. erm... ok... not say very2 wow.. cos the time is short.. but still, me get to try it. :) yup. wanted to do that so long.. then we're actually supposed to leave for home.. we walked past the cable poster.. me say something like.. in the end never get to sit wiwth him the cable.. then he brought me there.. i was so surprised.. we got a pic taken at the cable there.. and... yup.. we went for it. he's really sos thoughtful and sweet... ha.. he created our own atmosphere.. he was playing songs in there. :) hehe. singing abit too.... ... it was touching... really sweet.. beyond sweet... .... ...haiz... so.. yup. thats both our first time sitting through that cable car.. nice view.. :)special... :) hahaha...oh!! and i bought one shark pop up image bookmark! hehe^^
and so.... yup... at the end of today,... both of us had fun.. though spend plenty of money? yah.. really enjoy lots.. and... yes.. money doesnt matter now.. im just glad we went for it.. and had fun..
today i finaly fullfilled me long time wishes.. from the underwater world to the cable car.. plus the 4d image show.. ... yeah... it really mean alot2 to me.. its one of the most special day for me.. alot2 of sweet memories...
sammy taught me alot of dota tips again. hahaha... i hope i remember them all.. and put them to practice lots.. till i get the hand of it. today had actually wanted to play together.. but too late when got home.. so.. oh well... .. oh.. and he keep spinning me ard at the mall! XD hahaha. and so funny! in the train, sam was playing wiht his sweet, then he drop it, and put it back! XD lol.. we're laughing like mad.. hahaha.. it was so funny!! he ar... cute la.. haha. :P and while at vivo,.. i was saying something about letting him punish me.. then me say wanna go put my leg at the small fountain side and let it splash me.. then he never stop me.. me ask him.. 'why never stop me!?' XD!! lol... thinking back.. gosh.. i think i look so funny ba.. XD like my frens always say.. cartoon la me.. ha?
hmm... lets see what esle... .. dunno got miss out on anything anot.. ... .. oh... .....last few days left to see him already... heart hurts soooo much.. oh god... .... :(
hm... dunno.. was thinking my plan might be destroy.. cos sam say its better to go over to aust after they bought a house.. i know too.. he say its ok if go end of this year if i really want.. hm... i dunno.. thats my plan.. so now.. abit confused.. after quitting.. what should i do.. hnm... perhaps hope that teh prices will still be low bah. if yes, then great:). oh.. then about tickets.. hopefully can get more info on that. before going, will compare lots of different prices from different places.. see how ne.. still a few months to go..
....haiyo.. cant wait to slp.. really so sleepy..
hm............... ...........i wonder if thats all... ... hm.. see tmr how.. tmr then blog more if can remember anything. ha.
haiyo.. tmr another boring day at that place.. just wish to get home asap.. reach home early, rest early i hope. ha
k... gotta go... ... ....another magical day for me.. one of my rare longgggg time wishes.... been fulfilled... :) thanks sweetheart...
mata....
13 July 2009
More Than A Kind
haha... wonder if im still gonna be slping late.. had wanted to slp very3 late tonight.. but,... hm.. perhaps not?.. ha. anyway tmr gotta wakey early. very early. another sweet day is waiting for me!
me just finish playing a game.. geez.. my eyes are so watery.. *blink2 .. yup... very fun game indeed the dota warcraft. but my eyes... huu,,, eh.... ...yeah.. now tat i get my hands on it.. yeah.. nice.. hm... need more pratice.. haven gone onto a 'real' battle yet.. sammy really helped me alot on this. geez.. making me tired now... zzzz my eyes.. -_-
my legs are so sore today.. hm.. today we have china cusstomers. one of them ask me where i came from. then they're saying i look so young.. ask for my age.. i tell them.. and they're saying i look like 10plus. dunno what 10 plus la.. but.. lol... XDno matter how many times i hear it, it still sounds weird and funny to me.. ha.
oh yeah... the only very bad thing about playing that game, is that me cant msg.. nor concentrate properly.. -_- huu... its like.. stuck to the game.. hate that. ...cos i know how tat feels for ppl ard.. .... ...anyway...
after work, went back with bro and redz. its great.. not goin back alone..
...sigh.. sometimes i wonder if being too naive or blur is a very bad thing anot.. but i did ask myself that question.. and.. my answer is positive. i like who i am. i got alot of different sides to me. best ones.. good ones.. and rare bad ones thats almost never been seen. i like them all. cos meaning im just not one type of girl. i like the way i am.. being different types at times. eh.. i mean not that complicated.. XD i dun wanna name it all.. but.. yeah. just like the fact that i can be more than just one type of simple girl. but.............. ...of course theres a downside to everything...
oh well... its all right. whats important is for you to love who you are. sometimes i doubted that too.. but... ...oh well.. but today my answer is positive..
hm............... ....i sure do hope things will go smoothly tmr.. but first, wishing my legs will get enough rest by tmr. XD haha... then can walk longer. :P
hm....
oh well... got alot to type about.. but.. ...too tired to think bah.. hm.... dunno what time to wakey ne.. ...if only can confirm... ... oh well..
mata ne!!
me just finish playing a game.. geez.. my eyes are so watery.. *blink2 .. yup... very fun game indeed the dota warcraft. but my eyes... huu,,, eh.... ...yeah.. now tat i get my hands on it.. yeah.. nice.. hm... need more pratice.. haven gone onto a 'real' battle yet.. sammy really helped me alot on this. geez.. making me tired now... zzzz my eyes.. -_-
my legs are so sore today.. hm.. today we have china cusstomers. one of them ask me where i came from. then they're saying i look so young.. ask for my age.. i tell them.. and they're saying i look like 10plus. dunno what 10 plus la.. but.. lol... XDno matter how many times i hear it, it still sounds weird and funny to me.. ha.
oh yeah... the only very bad thing about playing that game, is that me cant msg.. nor concentrate properly.. -_- huu... its like.. stuck to the game.. hate that. ...cos i know how tat feels for ppl ard.. .... ...anyway...
after work, went back with bro and redz. its great.. not goin back alone..
...sigh.. sometimes i wonder if being too naive or blur is a very bad thing anot.. but i did ask myself that question.. and.. my answer is positive. i like who i am. i got alot of different sides to me. best ones.. good ones.. and rare bad ones thats almost never been seen. i like them all. cos meaning im just not one type of girl. i like the way i am.. being different types at times. eh.. i mean not that complicated.. XD i dun wanna name it all.. but.. yeah. just like the fact that i can be more than just one type of simple girl. but.............. ...of course theres a downside to everything...
oh well... its all right. whats important is for you to love who you are. sometimes i doubted that too.. but... ...oh well.. but today my answer is positive..
hm............... ....i sure do hope things will go smoothly tmr.. but first, wishing my legs will get enough rest by tmr. XD haha... then can walk longer. :P
hm....
oh well... got alot to type about.. but.. ...too tired to think bah.. hm.... dunno what time to wakey ne.. ...if only can confirm... ... oh well..
mata ne!!
12 July 2009
Danger Ladder!
ok!! im so determined starting next month, after passing my fren's present, and dunno will go shopping alot anot.. but for just one day. after that, me so not gonna do any spending!!!yup!! im gonna save3 my money!! as much as possible.. im so gonna count my days and looking forward towards the end of year.. i really hope everything will go well.. so.. yyup.. .keeping my fingers cross..
my dinner today is a rocky road bar, and a choco caramel bar. super4 sweet at the end of dessert!! XD omg... thats why din feel like eating liao.. though.. now very hungry.. but nah. not gonna be cooking. cos too tired.. just wanna slp soon.. hm.. but think not that early. oh well............. ... maybe eat tibits ne.. hm..
today so busy.. from 12 all the way till 6plus. -_- gosh.. my lunch.. also.. argh.. anyway, sales today is safe. so me relax.. not that stress today. phew. passed.
at night, theres this couple wanna look at these tanks.. omg........... thats the scariest ladder i've ever climbed. -_- the ladder is shaky!!!!!!! and im stepping on the last step of the ladder, trying to pass the customer 2 huge boxes of tanks! heavy toys!! geez... i was like... whoa... losing control man.. even the customers fear for my life. hahaha... so they helped me hold the ladder. but itss futile -_- geeez. so.. yup. i really got a fright up there. shoot.. sooner or later fall, then nvm. mc!! yipee! haha
omg.. my fren wanna webcam sia.. geez!! i just bath finish.. dun wan!! lol. too tired, typing busily here!! XDlol my fren say its cool. -_-.................. omg... whats so cool about webcam.. lol! haiyo... me really so tired now..
oh!! me and bro went home together just now. in a new type of bus! its all purple and pink! hahaha.... it looks like a pub. omg.. the chairs.. hahaha.... next time will post the pics bah.. nowadays too lazy and tired to upload pics.
mata ne
kk.. think me gonna go.. dun wan type already..
my dinner today is a rocky road bar, and a choco caramel bar. super4 sweet at the end of dessert!! XD omg... thats why din feel like eating liao.. though.. now very hungry.. but nah. not gonna be cooking. cos too tired.. just wanna slp soon.. hm.. but think not that early. oh well............. ... maybe eat tibits ne.. hm..
today so busy.. from 12 all the way till 6plus. -_- gosh.. my lunch.. also.. argh.. anyway, sales today is safe. so me relax.. not that stress today. phew. passed.
at night, theres this couple wanna look at these tanks.. omg........... thats the scariest ladder i've ever climbed. -_- the ladder is shaky!!!!!!! and im stepping on the last step of the ladder, trying to pass the customer 2 huge boxes of tanks! heavy toys!! geez... i was like... whoa... losing control man.. even the customers fear for my life. hahaha... so they helped me hold the ladder. but itss futile -_- geeez. so.. yup. i really got a fright up there. shoot.. sooner or later fall, then nvm. mc!! yipee! haha
omg.. my fren wanna webcam sia.. geez!! i just bath finish.. dun wan!! lol. too tired, typing busily here!! XDlol my fren say its cool. -_-.................. omg... whats so cool about webcam.. lol! haiyo... me really so tired now..
oh!! me and bro went home together just now. in a new type of bus! its all purple and pink! hahaha.... it looks like a pub. omg.. the chairs.. hahaha.... next time will post the pics bah.. nowadays too lazy and tired to upload pics.
mata ne
kk.. think me gonna go.. dun wan type already..
11 July 2009
All the Best Hammy!
hm.... me feel kinda uneasy now.. ..cos zuan send me this photo in hp.. got some thingy he said.. but.. not sure la.. cos pic blur.. then. .just now was showing sam about it.. ..hm.. just wish me not alone slping tonight.. but.. oh well... ..huu.
super duper tired now.. legs sore like hell.. totally cant move.. XD ha. cos was walking ard ps today.. nothing to do after work.. plus its sat.. and dun wan take mrt back home.. cos scared got lots of ppl cos of the ndp fireworks.. but then.. -_- end up bus so squeezy-_- geez. then.. was so bored.. finally decided to just go ahead and buy the dota game. so.. yup. got lots to learn about it. just hope i got the time and energy for it. i was learning abit from sam just now.. super dleepy though XD. ha. but.. yeah. trying to memorise everything he taught me. hm... maybe mon night can play huh.. ha. see how..
so super glad sam can make it to meet me just now.. :) really happy. then like.. yeah. will always cheer up.. no matter how bad or stressful the day is.. cos at the end of the day, u know theres always someone waiting for you at the other side of the end of the rocky road.. so.. yup... thought couldnt.. then.. yeah.. he made it.. .. :) ..it striked me though today.. ..theres less than 2 weeks to spend with him.. ..2 weeks pass very2 fast.. of course whenever think of that, heart always hurts like mad.. but what to do.. its just hurts... ...
hm.. yup.. spend a nice night wiht him.. ha ^^ eat.. then walk ard.. looking for a place to sit and have a drink.. at tcc. :) then.. wah.. make the water so sweet..XD ha.. and.. try sucking 2 different drinks using straws.. he cant stop laughing.. hahaha. so funny..:P and yes.. finally pass him the soft fluffy plush!! hope he'll hug it and enjoy the comfyness.. ^^
i was looking after the other shop today at my workplace.. yes.. theres 2 outlets at the same floor.. then again it happened.. ha. izuan was out for abit.. then me help him look after.. then after serving the customer at his outlet,, me went back to my outlet. then the customer so surprised to see me.. and ask me working at 2 shops? i say yes.. then he say very poor thing to workfor 2 shops.. yes.. see.. ppl know.. ha..
today feel so cold all the way.. but another staff say very hot.-_- dunno la.. really so cold.. dunno why she's hot.. -_- ha..
oh.. so irritating.. my fren hamimah is officially wiht that irritating guy me dislike much. -_- after sticking to her like a pest, finally she's in a relationhip with him. omg.. i hope her decision is right.. and hope she wont regret... :( after breaking up, this touchy guy from frenster came along, keep sticking to ehr wherever she go.. and after 3 months or 4, ta-da! they're together! -_- argh.... even her best fren also dun like him.. ...sigh.. hope she'll be ahppy for long bah.. ..thats why me sometimes really glad me not in any relationships when i was 18, and below. me glad to fall in love and stay faithful with one man in my first relationship. and thats something im very proud of. thinking back.. if me really anyhow go and agree to be someone's gf when i was at ard that age.., me sure will get hurt i think. cos to me usually..not all..but usually.. ppl like that.. just wanna have fun and play.. then end up hurting ppl's most inner feelings.. cos thats like the danger zone age 18 and below.. where ppl don take ppl seriously, then end up hurting one of the party. like hamimah ex. haiz.. o well.. ppl are difficult to fathom..
anyway.. wish her all the best.. though.. .. hm.. dunno la. leave that to the future..
hm.. think me gonna slp at ard 4am.. -_- kk, better go.. in anyway, tonight turn out to be great. hm.. yup. hope to get use to the dota game soon!!
nites..
mata!!
super duper tired now.. legs sore like hell.. totally cant move.. XD ha. cos was walking ard ps today.. nothing to do after work.. plus its sat.. and dun wan take mrt back home.. cos scared got lots of ppl cos of the ndp fireworks.. but then.. -_- end up bus so squeezy-_- geez. then.. was so bored.. finally decided to just go ahead and buy the dota game. so.. yup. got lots to learn about it. just hope i got the time and energy for it. i was learning abit from sam just now.. super dleepy though XD. ha. but.. yeah. trying to memorise everything he taught me. hm... maybe mon night can play huh.. ha. see how..
so super glad sam can make it to meet me just now.. :) really happy. then like.. yeah. will always cheer up.. no matter how bad or stressful the day is.. cos at the end of the day, u know theres always someone waiting for you at the other side of the end of the rocky road.. so.. yup... thought couldnt.. then.. yeah.. he made it.. .. :) ..it striked me though today.. ..theres less than 2 weeks to spend with him.. ..2 weeks pass very2 fast.. of course whenever think of that, heart always hurts like mad.. but what to do.. its just hurts... ...
hm.. yup.. spend a nice night wiht him.. ha ^^ eat.. then walk ard.. looking for a place to sit and have a drink.. at tcc. :) then.. wah.. make the water so sweet..XD ha.. and.. try sucking 2 different drinks using straws.. he cant stop laughing.. hahaha. so funny..:P and yes.. finally pass him the soft fluffy plush!! hope he'll hug it and enjoy the comfyness.. ^^
i was looking after the other shop today at my workplace.. yes.. theres 2 outlets at the same floor.. then again it happened.. ha. izuan was out for abit.. then me help him look after.. then after serving the customer at his outlet,, me went back to my outlet. then the customer so surprised to see me.. and ask me working at 2 shops? i say yes.. then he say very poor thing to workfor 2 shops.. yes.. see.. ppl know.. ha..
today feel so cold all the way.. but another staff say very hot.-_- dunno la.. really so cold.. dunno why she's hot.. -_- ha..
oh.. so irritating.. my fren hamimah is officially wiht that irritating guy me dislike much. -_- after sticking to her like a pest, finally she's in a relationhip with him. omg.. i hope her decision is right.. and hope she wont regret... :( after breaking up, this touchy guy from frenster came along, keep sticking to ehr wherever she go.. and after 3 months or 4, ta-da! they're together! -_- argh.... even her best fren also dun like him.. ...sigh.. hope she'll be ahppy for long bah.. ..thats why me sometimes really glad me not in any relationships when i was 18, and below. me glad to fall in love and stay faithful with one man in my first relationship. and thats something im very proud of. thinking back.. if me really anyhow go and agree to be someone's gf when i was at ard that age.., me sure will get hurt i think. cos to me usually..not all..but usually.. ppl like that.. just wanna have fun and play.. then end up hurting ppl's most inner feelings.. cos thats like the danger zone age 18 and below.. where ppl don take ppl seriously, then end up hurting one of the party. like hamimah ex. haiz.. o well.. ppl are difficult to fathom..
anyway.. wish her all the best.. though.. .. hm.. dunno la. leave that to the future..
hm.. think me gonna slp at ard 4am.. -_- kk, better go.. in anyway, tonight turn out to be great. hm.. yup. hope to get use to the dota game soon!!
nites..
mata!!
10 July 2009
BOMB!
...hm... my starting of the day aint that happy... cos cant go out enjoy with sammy... so.. .finally after 5 days of hell. .today is my off. thought of going out with sammy. but cant. then freds.. but in the end too late, so me say cancelled it. think nvm.. just head out faster..instead of staying at home and wait..-_-.. so asked mum out. wanna go shopping. and watch movie. so yup.. asked her wanna watch? to my surprised..XD haha.. she say yes3... haha.. then after payment she ask me expensive anot.. i say $19. then she's like wah so expensive! she rather dun wan.. ha. rather spend it on food. but its ok.. me just wan her to enjoy. its a horror movie. after watching, she say the movie aint that frightening. whoa.. 2 thumbs up for mummy!! XD haha.. yeah.. throughout the movie she's cool. like me. XD!! lol like mother, like daughter. ha. certain parts only hor. ...at least.. she's much stronger than me.. ..
ahh.... and so... upset abit.. but.. oh well.. then went shopping like nuts. erm.. yeah.. as in spend lots of money. so.. i guess most probably my 5 days of hardwork money, all gone within a day. abit heart[ain. .but at least i can really feel that i get much destress today. finally my off day.. no need to stuck in a shop for 10hours. ...yeah.. best thing about off day is, you get to enjoy the day, relax, chill, do whatever u want, spend time with love ones, no rules, get to dress up nice2.. just like that. yeah.. hm... tmr back to work. at least end early.. so.. yup. very looking forward to that. not sure wanna go somewhere to get my stuff anot. ..tch.. see how tmr. just wanan get out of my shop at 6pm sharp!! sigh. a pity cant dress up nice. haha.. o well.. once in a while will do.. yeah..dun like everyday. me still like the average girl with jeans and plain t shirt every once in a while u know. :P ha.. switch2 ne.. XD ha.. anyway.. only dress up nice cos of someone.. :P
spend a bomb today.. hm.. abit tired now.. after reach back home.. ate alot. noodles, popiah abit, satays, plus dessert. cos something's missing mah.. huu. hm.. later gonna get a drink. thirsty!!
hm.. bought 3 items today.. last item is a top.. actually dun wanna buy.. but mum say if really wan then go.. then me think3... then rush back to get. lol. cos its cheap!! XD ha. .yeah.. bugis street items are cheap in a way..
i hope bro will come back home tonight.. im so bored.... ...haiz.. feel like watching dvd.. .. tch.. no one enjoy with me.. ..sabishi na..
oh.. then after movie.. thoguht of bringing mum to eat at mof jap restaurant. but.. hm.. no mood to eat..cos not that hungry also.. ..so abandon my plan. anyway dad say to call him when we reach back for dinner. so.. yeah. next time bah. .when my dad ard too, then go eat expensive one.. but... huu... me this month been spending alot i think.. think my one month's pay gonna be gone.. oh well... all the more me gotta stay in this company and BEAR!!!! argh.. .yes.... -_- bear with it.. few more months to go.. then can enjoy myself for months!!
ah.. my colleague from philippine invited me and zuan to go there on dec. lol... zuan say yes for now.. but im not sure whether that'll be the case when dec is here. but.. .so cheap!!!!!! yeah.. din expect that.. haha... then i tell my colleague.. then put me and zuan in same room ar?(dunno guestroom or what.. hm..) my god.. kill me first k! XD lol sure cant slp!! hahahaha
...hm... ...tch.. oh well.... i'd better bring my cup noodle tmr. to replace my $50 i've lost.. huu.... need to start on saving now bah.. ha. been shopping too much. hm.. ..wait.. die.. cannot.. oops.. cos already told my fren to go shopping for belated b'day! ..hm.. nvm.. just hope that one day wont cost me much of any spendings. hm.. nvm2... just earn back.. and erm.. ..yeah.. will do my best!! huu.... money2... its ok... yeah.. just work extra harder. mm hm.
jaa, mata ne!
ahh.... and so... upset abit.. but.. oh well.. then went shopping like nuts. erm.. yeah.. as in spend lots of money. so.. i guess most probably my 5 days of hardwork money, all gone within a day. abit heart[ain. .but at least i can really feel that i get much destress today. finally my off day.. no need to stuck in a shop for 10hours. ...yeah.. best thing about off day is, you get to enjoy the day, relax, chill, do whatever u want, spend time with love ones, no rules, get to dress up nice2.. just like that. yeah.. hm... tmr back to work. at least end early.. so.. yup. very looking forward to that. not sure wanna go somewhere to get my stuff anot. ..tch.. see how tmr. just wanan get out of my shop at 6pm sharp!! sigh. a pity cant dress up nice. haha.. o well.. once in a while will do.. yeah..dun like everyday. me still like the average girl with jeans and plain t shirt every once in a while u know. :P ha.. switch2 ne.. XD ha.. anyway.. only dress up nice cos of someone.. :P
spend a bomb today.. hm.. abit tired now.. after reach back home.. ate alot. noodles, popiah abit, satays, plus dessert. cos something's missing mah.. huu. hm.. later gonna get a drink. thirsty!!
hm.. bought 3 items today.. last item is a top.. actually dun wanna buy.. but mum say if really wan then go.. then me think3... then rush back to get. lol. cos its cheap!! XD ha. .yeah.. bugis street items are cheap in a way..
i hope bro will come back home tonight.. im so bored.... ...haiz.. feel like watching dvd.. .. tch.. no one enjoy with me.. ..sabishi na..
oh.. then after movie.. thoguht of bringing mum to eat at mof jap restaurant. but.. hm.. no mood to eat..cos not that hungry also.. ..so abandon my plan. anyway dad say to call him when we reach back for dinner. so.. yeah. next time bah. .when my dad ard too, then go eat expensive one.. but... huu... me this month been spending alot i think.. think my one month's pay gonna be gone.. oh well... all the more me gotta stay in this company and BEAR!!!! argh.. .yes.... -_- bear with it.. few more months to go.. then can enjoy myself for months!!
ah.. my colleague from philippine invited me and zuan to go there on dec. lol... zuan say yes for now.. but im not sure whether that'll be the case when dec is here. but.. .so cheap!!!!!! yeah.. din expect that.. haha... then i tell my colleague.. then put me and zuan in same room ar?(dunno guestroom or what.. hm..) my god.. kill me first k! XD lol sure cant slp!! hahahaha
...hm... ...tch.. oh well.... i'd better bring my cup noodle tmr. to replace my $50 i've lost.. huu.... need to start on saving now bah.. ha. been shopping too much. hm.. ..wait.. die.. cannot.. oops.. cos already told my fren to go shopping for belated b'day! ..hm.. nvm.. just hope that one day wont cost me much of any spendings. hm.. nvm2... just earn back.. and erm.. ..yeah.. will do my best!! huu.... money2... its ok... yeah.. just work extra harder. mm hm.
jaa, mata ne!
09 July 2009
Our Special Moment.. Our World..
hahaha...... i appeared on tv for a short while! XD yes.. today's ch8 at 8.30pm show.. im helping my childhood fren with her tv programe thingy.. haha.. XD i must've look funny i think? i dun know!! XD lol.. sammy tape it up.. ha..but i have no diea how things are like.. anyway, yup.. so wasted my frens, bro and i couldnt watch it as we're at work.. but.. oh well.. at least sammy and my parents watched.. ha..
ah... ytd.. dance till so tired!! hahaha.. but so much fun. yes.. :) only sam can make me dance till like that.. erm.. i dunno! XD sexy?? lol!! omg.. dunno how i look like.. but dun care. cos was having fun just by dancing away.. my first time dance till... hm.. yeah.. i can say i really just let it out.. and dance like nobody's business. dun care what ppl think.. just dance the way i feel like doing. and.. yeah.. XD i feel like im so wild that night.. lol! omg.. :P haha.. it wasnt like me at all. so confident..dancing away.. hahaha... only sam can make me do thata. becos he's there, thats why im able to do this. just let myself 'go' for the night.
the club we went to is called butter factory. nice place. i like that place. cos got so many free flow. and yup. .good thing its ladies night. ha.. went with sam's bro and a fren of his bro. whoa.. the washroom there is happening man.. -_- first, theres a woman whose face is so red cos of drinking obviously.. 2nd, a woman's back is whole red.. third, a drunkard angmoh girl cut the queue and go to the toilet. her fren told her she cant cut queue.. but she's too dead drunk to pay attention to whats happening ard her. and so.. yeah.. i elt her went before me.. its ok i can wait.. and her fren keep apologizing to me.. then theres a woman whose boyfren went into the ladies to escort his girl to the washroom so erm.. yeah... he's in the ladies for a few secs.. -_- ha.
club washroom.. always got happening gerls there.. dun like.. oh well...
ah.. dancing.. dancing like no other ppl's business... sam pull me up to the stage to dance! XD gosh... me never would've thought i could do that without him. :) and it was so fun up there.. haha... me like. .somemore more spacious.then at this point.., he actually spin me ard! XD like in a ballroom! hahaha... soooo fun! its like one of those magical moments... where its just the 2 of us in our own world.. thats how excatly i felt when that happen. :) so... ..yeah.. at that time, im just enjoying being with him.. having him ard.. looking only at him.. :P haha.. so.. yup... totally in our own world.. other ppl out there suddenly becum just a pitch of darkness before me.. its sort of like a very dramatic feeling.. which happen only in drama.. ha.. but yeah. thats how magical it felt at that special moment... :)
after club,.. his bro and me..plus sam went for supper.. the guys were starving.. ha. then after eating.. his bro was talking about how their parents are like.. .and im surprsed... oh yes i am... ..hm.. ...pity them abit.. ..but.. ..well... no choice ne. ...so.. just glad me can gib sam alittle support out there... .. yeah..
zuan was asking me what i want for b'day present.. my mind is in a state of total blank.. usually i'll thought of what i wanted right before my birthday.. but now no.. .. For All I Ever Wanted....is one thing.. and i got it now.. my most top priority above everything.... in my heart always.. i cant ask for anything better.. :)
oh.... me and sam were dancing halfway when there this photographer suddenyl ask for permission to take a pic of us. we agreed. .snap, and he went off... hmmm... i really wonder whats that for u know... who's he.. wheres the pic gonna end up at.. oh well.. guess i wont be able to find out huh? haha..
lol!! my fren recognized me from that tv show!! XD hahaha... yeah.. i mentioned earlier right.. so funny.. din expect thatXD haha..
hm... really glad to've spend the night with them all.. and me get a chance to know sam's family better..from his bro's mouth somemore. haha. erm.. XD i mean even for a tiny bit better. hm.. yup. ^^ really nice.. hehe.. hope can 'go' up further... :)
ah... yeah... stressful night though before relaxiing for abit. cos me just paid $50 due to reason not my fault.. ...then somemore family issues.. .. tch. .haven solved yet.. .. :(
anyway.... well... way to go to a brand new dancing me. lol XD totally unlike me in real life when im on the dance floor. ha.. oh well... only with sam aard ne. hee
mata ne!!!
ah... ytd.. dance till so tired!! hahaha.. but so much fun. yes.. :) only sam can make me dance till like that.. erm.. i dunno! XD sexy?? lol!! omg.. dunno how i look like.. but dun care. cos was having fun just by dancing away.. my first time dance till... hm.. yeah.. i can say i really just let it out.. and dance like nobody's business. dun care what ppl think.. just dance the way i feel like doing. and.. yeah.. XD i feel like im so wild that night.. lol! omg.. :P haha.. it wasnt like me at all. so confident..dancing away.. hahaha... only sam can make me do thata. becos he's there, thats why im able to do this. just let myself 'go' for the night.
the club we went to is called butter factory. nice place. i like that place. cos got so many free flow. and yup. .good thing its ladies night. ha.. went with sam's bro and a fren of his bro. whoa.. the washroom there is happening man.. -_- first, theres a woman whose face is so red cos of drinking obviously.. 2nd, a woman's back is whole red.. third, a drunkard angmoh girl cut the queue and go to the toilet. her fren told her she cant cut queue.. but she's too dead drunk to pay attention to whats happening ard her. and so.. yeah.. i elt her went before me.. its ok i can wait.. and her fren keep apologizing to me.. then theres a woman whose boyfren went into the ladies to escort his girl to the washroom so erm.. yeah... he's in the ladies for a few secs.. -_- ha.
club washroom.. always got happening gerls there.. dun like.. oh well...
ah.. dancing.. dancing like no other ppl's business... sam pull me up to the stage to dance! XD gosh... me never would've thought i could do that without him. :) and it was so fun up there.. haha... me like. .somemore more spacious.then at this point.., he actually spin me ard! XD like in a ballroom! hahaha... soooo fun! its like one of those magical moments... where its just the 2 of us in our own world.. thats how excatly i felt when that happen. :) so... ..yeah.. at that time, im just enjoying being with him.. having him ard.. looking only at him.. :P haha.. so.. yup... totally in our own world.. other ppl out there suddenly becum just a pitch of darkness before me.. its sort of like a very dramatic feeling.. which happen only in drama.. ha.. but yeah. thats how magical it felt at that special moment... :)
after club,.. his bro and me..plus sam went for supper.. the guys were starving.. ha. then after eating.. his bro was talking about how their parents are like.. .and im surprsed... oh yes i am... ..hm.. ...pity them abit.. ..but.. ..well... no choice ne. ...so.. just glad me can gib sam alittle support out there... .. yeah..
zuan was asking me what i want for b'day present.. my mind is in a state of total blank.. usually i'll thought of what i wanted right before my birthday.. but now no.. .. For All I Ever Wanted....is one thing.. and i got it now.. my most top priority above everything.... in my heart always.. i cant ask for anything better.. :)
oh.... me and sam were dancing halfway when there this photographer suddenyl ask for permission to take a pic of us. we agreed. .snap, and he went off... hmmm... i really wonder whats that for u know... who's he.. wheres the pic gonna end up at.. oh well.. guess i wont be able to find out huh? haha..
lol!! my fren recognized me from that tv show!! XD hahaha... yeah.. i mentioned earlier right.. so funny.. din expect thatXD haha..
hm... really glad to've spend the night with them all.. and me get a chance to know sam's family better..from his bro's mouth somemore. haha. erm.. XD i mean even for a tiny bit better. hm.. yup. ^^ really nice.. hehe.. hope can 'go' up further... :)
ah... yeah... stressful night though before relaxiing for abit. cos me just paid $50 due to reason not my fault.. ...then somemore family issues.. .. tch. .haven solved yet.. .. :(
anyway.... well... way to go to a brand new dancing me. lol XD totally unlike me in real life when im on the dance floor. ha.. oh well... only with sam aard ne. hee
mata ne!!!
07 July 2009
His Side
ok... 3 fullshifts down already.. whoa... gotta hang in there man..
hehe.. tonight.. gonna get more animes!! XD today finish watching them in my mp5.. nice sia... hehehe... cant wait to watch again XD!
hm... tmr dunno will blog anot.. oh... today... wow...... i saw this guy..ard the same height and size of sam.. walk into the shop next to mine.. omg... i wass o shocked!! from his side view, the way he stand, the way he dress, i thought it was him!! sooo shocking!! its the same side view!! then me go outside the door of that shop.. take a peek.. lol.. then not sure.. then peek again.. till finally i get to see the man's face front view! XD then ok.. thats not sam. lol... really3 the side view of that man looks just like sam. 100%/100.1%. wow..... i cant belive my eyes... =.=
hmm... ..yeah.. cant describe how that feels.. but... ..hm... XD!! happy and weird at the same time. haha
hm..... if only the balloon lesson begin tonight.. haiyo.. gotta wait till tmr already.. ..i hope my finger wont get affected.. hm.. balloons2.... -_-
ah... hopefully tonight can slp early.. thoguh highly doubt soXD!!
today sales great! :D happy. can stop feeling stress in aftnoon already. hehe.. :) how nice if everyday like this..
jaa mata ne.
hehe.. tonight.. gonna get more animes!! XD today finish watching them in my mp5.. nice sia... hehehe... cant wait to watch again XD!
hm... tmr dunno will blog anot.. oh... today... wow...... i saw this guy..ard the same height and size of sam.. walk into the shop next to mine.. omg... i wass o shocked!! from his side view, the way he stand, the way he dress, i thought it was him!! sooo shocking!! its the same side view!! then me go outside the door of that shop.. take a peek.. lol.. then not sure.. then peek again.. till finally i get to see the man's face front view! XD then ok.. thats not sam. lol... really3 the side view of that man looks just like sam. 100%/100.1%. wow..... i cant belive my eyes... =.=
hmm... ..yeah.. cant describe how that feels.. but... ..hm... XD!! happy and weird at the same time. haha
hm..... if only the balloon lesson begin tonight.. haiyo.. gotta wait till tmr already.. ..i hope my finger wont get affected.. hm.. balloons2.... -_-
ah... hopefully tonight can slp early.. thoguh highly doubt soXD!!
today sales great! :D happy. can stop feeling stress in aftnoon already. hehe.. :) how nice if everyday like this..
jaa mata ne.
06 July 2009
Gdluck Shah!
-_-.. some stupid malay guys.. walk past them in carpark this morning.. trying to talk to me in chinese.. for those ppl, please ar.. dunnno how to speak chinese, then don try to be funny in front of girls. dislike those guys.. argh... hate this Bunch of useless cowards..
ha... now feeling abit hungry.. XD cos lunch had too much! alot!! hahaha... this staff from other shop say i can eat alot.... lol. dunno ar.. im so hungry... thats why eat alot.. haha.. mee goreng plus curry vegie.. alot sia!!!
lol.. im so busy right now! XD typing this, on the phone, msn... geez.... i wanna hang up... XD.. huu..
kk.. can concentrate now.. hm.. my bro watching the saw now.. me no time watch la.. online first.. he got all seasons.. -_- whoa..
ok. .so theres this game on izuan's i tough.. word guessing game.. its sooo weird.. the answer is aeon flux. i have no idea what the heck is that.. but the game is blank.. you gotta guess what word is that.. so its like.. ____ ____. izuan guess the word aeon so fast. me also. the word flux appeared across my mind. i wodner if thats what happen to zuan too.. -_-... then yup. we guess it correctly within secs. really amazing.. i wonder how we did that.. =.=
ahh!! my fren! really going for interview! lol... XD omg.... if he really get my outlet,... ...geez.... i'll make sure he suffers!!!! lol!! XD he say if he's happy working there, he wanna be there for quite some time. hm... but dunno. i don have to make him suffer... the working hours alone can make him scream.. XD ha.. lets see how long this man can last.... lol muahahahahaha!!!!!~~ hmph... =.= wanna disturb me?.. fat hope! no way! sure he's gonna shy like hell. well2, lets just see if he can get past the interview anot. lol. gdluck to him ne. ha.. so funny.. so nervous and excited about his firsst job here. XD!
hhm.... sooo cold!! eh... did i slpt at 4am last night? or previous night.. cant remember.. but now. .ok.. not so tired. :) yay
kk, gtg! maybe wanna eat later ne? ha..
mata!
ha... now feeling abit hungry.. XD cos lunch had too much! alot!! hahaha... this staff from other shop say i can eat alot.... lol. dunno ar.. im so hungry... thats why eat alot.. haha.. mee goreng plus curry vegie.. alot sia!!!
lol.. im so busy right now! XD typing this, on the phone, msn... geez.... i wanna hang up... XD.. huu..
kk.. can concentrate now.. hm.. my bro watching the saw now.. me no time watch la.. online first.. he got all seasons.. -_- whoa..
ok. .so theres this game on izuan's i tough.. word guessing game.. its sooo weird.. the answer is aeon flux. i have no idea what the heck is that.. but the game is blank.. you gotta guess what word is that.. so its like.. ____ ____. izuan guess the word aeon so fast. me also. the word flux appeared across my mind. i wodner if thats what happen to zuan too.. -_-... then yup. we guess it correctly within secs. really amazing.. i wonder how we did that.. =.=
ahh!! my fren! really going for interview! lol... XD omg.... if he really get my outlet,... ...geez.... i'll make sure he suffers!!!! lol!! XD he say if he's happy working there, he wanna be there for quite some time. hm... but dunno. i don have to make him suffer... the working hours alone can make him scream.. XD ha.. lets see how long this man can last.... lol muahahahahaha!!!!!~~ hmph... =.= wanna disturb me?.. fat hope! no way! sure he's gonna shy like hell. well2, lets just see if he can get past the interview anot. lol. gdluck to him ne. ha.. so funny.. so nervous and excited about his firsst job here. XD!
hhm.... sooo cold!! eh... did i slpt at 4am last night? or previous night.. cant remember.. but now. .ok.. not so tired. :) yay
kk, gtg! maybe wanna eat later ne? ha..
mata!
05 July 2009
Great Starting
hm... sad to hear that sam not been able to slp well..or fast at home.. but so glad he fell aslp just now at my house within secs. XD! hahaha... yeah so fast.. then.. overslpt.. for.. hm.. he slpt for 2 and half hours i think.. wow. :) hope later he can fall aslp easily again..
hm... so late already.. me haven slp... yeah.. wakey late.. then too hungry, decided to cook maggi just now.. just finish bath.. after online... hm. should be slping at ard 3am plus.. dun care about tmr.. so glad and happy sammy pull me through today... makes my day seem so much more happier and better... really... :)
lets talk about morning... ....sigh... heart so pain... mum was talking about how daddy been jobless for so long now... yet he.. .. sigh.. i asked her to stop talking about him.. cos me too heart pain.. but she never heard me i guess... so.. me just listen.. cos thinking she need someone to talk to i guess.. ... i realised... i really cant afford to tatke up partime job.. if i wanna learn something new outside, i gotta handle my fulltime job as well.. besides money for parents, i wanna save up alot too.. so can go there every once in awhile.. i really wanna go for the lessons.. but.. with my job.. plus the lessons..together,.. i dunno if i can make it through all these.. ..not especially when sammy not ard anymore... ..sigh.. .. argh.....! guess all these.. i'll think about it again when its after nov or something..
k.. then at work.. sammy's great.. bought me breakfast burger king..then the rocky road.. really kick off my day with so much happiness. really give me energy to kick start my day.. :) yeah.. today's my first day of hell for 5 fullshifts. so... yeah.. so glad today feel real good.. :) thx to sammy! hm... but in morning.. blown up 33 balloons and tied them up for customer.. thought would get swollen finger again. .but to my dismay,.. -_- i get blister. then bloody hell... XD another customer came along and ask me to blow and tie balloons again! and my blister burst! huu~.. worse this time.. now my skin peel off.. huu.. good thing no more tying balloons.. cos my other finger just abit more, gonna get blister also. can see a dot there already..
..yes... morning got plenty of energy.. but second half shift... gosh. .dunno whats wrong with my body.. suddenly so weak and tired... i hatee that feeling.. argh... then rch home, slpt for abit, and feel better... now.. hm.. tired.. but better now bah..
me learned from raz that that auntie milo was complaning izuan that he's lazy, and she dislike working with lazy ppl.. she dun wanna work with him.. hm.. that auntie ar.. ..forget it... -_- dun talk about her liao..
hm... wed night go club.... ....never done that before. lol. hm.. i dun feel good now. gosh.. dunno why... i think im too tired.. ahh.... dun think... dun think.... dun think of anything......... grr.... cant wait for friday!!
im so surprised izan really drop by today.. wow.. to think i was talking about how i wish she would come down to mw few days ago. ..long story.. lazy to explain here... lets just say.... darn it! XD me only get to say about... 49% of how i feel. ha... dunno la..
argh...! dun wanna talk about work already.. haiz
mata
hm... so late already.. me haven slp... yeah.. wakey late.. then too hungry, decided to cook maggi just now.. just finish bath.. after online... hm. should be slping at ard 3am plus.. dun care about tmr.. so glad and happy sammy pull me through today... makes my day seem so much more happier and better... really... :)
lets talk about morning... ....sigh... heart so pain... mum was talking about how daddy been jobless for so long now... yet he.. .. sigh.. i asked her to stop talking about him.. cos me too heart pain.. but she never heard me i guess... so.. me just listen.. cos thinking she need someone to talk to i guess.. ... i realised... i really cant afford to tatke up partime job.. if i wanna learn something new outside, i gotta handle my fulltime job as well.. besides money for parents, i wanna save up alot too.. so can go there every once in awhile.. i really wanna go for the lessons.. but.. with my job.. plus the lessons..together,.. i dunno if i can make it through all these.. ..not especially when sammy not ard anymore... ..sigh.. .. argh.....! guess all these.. i'll think about it again when its after nov or something..
k.. then at work.. sammy's great.. bought me breakfast burger king..then the rocky road.. really kick off my day with so much happiness. really give me energy to kick start my day.. :) yeah.. today's my first day of hell for 5 fullshifts. so... yeah.. so glad today feel real good.. :) thx to sammy! hm... but in morning.. blown up 33 balloons and tied them up for customer.. thought would get swollen finger again. .but to my dismay,.. -_- i get blister. then bloody hell... XD another customer came along and ask me to blow and tie balloons again! and my blister burst! huu~.. worse this time.. now my skin peel off.. huu.. good thing no more tying balloons.. cos my other finger just abit more, gonna get blister also. can see a dot there already..
..yes... morning got plenty of energy.. but second half shift... gosh. .dunno whats wrong with my body.. suddenly so weak and tired... i hatee that feeling.. argh... then rch home, slpt for abit, and feel better... now.. hm.. tired.. but better now bah..
me learned from raz that that auntie milo was complaning izuan that he's lazy, and she dislike working with lazy ppl.. she dun wanna work with him.. hm.. that auntie ar.. ..forget it... -_- dun talk about her liao..
hm... wed night go club.... ....never done that before. lol. hm.. i dun feel good now. gosh.. dunno why... i think im too tired.. ahh.... dun think... dun think.... dun think of anything......... grr.... cant wait for friday!!
im so surprised izan really drop by today.. wow.. to think i was talking about how i wish she would come down to mw few days ago. ..long story.. lazy to explain here... lets just say.... darn it! XD me only get to say about... 49% of how i feel. ha... dunno la..
argh...! dun wanna talk about work already.. haiz
mata
04 July 2009
Plush Catching Machines
ytd slpt at 4am.. wakey at near 12pm.. then.. ...this aftnoon... ..had lunch with mum.. then meet sam... feeling in a good mood.. happy. so.. yup. feel like going to 2 places.. where theres plenty of those soft toys catching machines. ha... and theres this one called mackman?.. at marina. or macksman.. whatever it is, ha.. sam played it, and got me 2 stitch plush! ^^ wow... :) happy of course. cant belive it :)
hm.. right after that, we went to bugis.. i feel like playing somemore of those machines.. but.. my energy is depleting.. im sooo tired now... sigh...
hm..... then eat... then walk for abit only.. then go back home..
tmr... :( so suey... got lots of ballooons to tie.. sigh.. why must i be at the party house at the wrong time.. argh..
....sigh... im so tired.. wanna slp soon..!
u know... so glad sammy with me for this stupid tough full of tiring fullshifts month. dunno how to get through without him.. i cant even bear to think about next month...
sigh... i really2 wish to hand in my resignation letter end of this month.. :( cant stand it anymore.. but cannot... ..must bear... until at least end of sep or oct.
gosh........ sometimes i feel like i cant do this anymore.. its so tiring.. makihng my mind really2 tired...
mata...
hm.. right after that, we went to bugis.. i feel like playing somemore of those machines.. but.. my energy is depleting.. im sooo tired now... sigh...
hm..... then eat... then walk for abit only.. then go back home..
tmr... :( so suey... got lots of ballooons to tie.. sigh.. why must i be at the party house at the wrong time.. argh..
....sigh... im so tired.. wanna slp soon..!
u know... so glad sammy with me for this stupid tough full of tiring fullshifts month. dunno how to get through without him.. i cant even bear to think about next month...
sigh... i really2 wish to hand in my resignation letter end of this month.. :( cant stand it anymore.. but cannot... ..must bear... until at least end of sep or oct.
gosh........ sometimes i feel like i cant do this anymore.. its so tiring.. makihng my mind really2 tired...
mata...
03 July 2009
Darned Thaat Auntie!!
ah... forgot to mention.. ytd.. me eating with sam.. then he suddenly stop, turn his head and stare at me for a few secs.. me still never realise till me turn ard.. and he whisper close to me some realy sweet words... me blushing like mad. lol. aw.... so sweet.. :) love it when guys aint afraid to show their affections..
oh..... hahaha... read a interesting news.. the megan fox who starred in transformers, she's interested in the korean star rain!!(sorry, but i don like that dude one bit-_- ) but wow.. he rejected her. hm.. cool.... gotta admit man. he's not one of those typical hateful guy who fall for ppl like megan. as in when alot of guys are swooning over her(one popular girl) and stuff. so.. yup. i like that part of him. and... what makes him a star today. his reason..and background. he... lets just say he work very3 hard despite from where he come from. but still..... -_- me don like him! dislike! ha..
ok... i was soooo super pissed off just now. now... feeling much better after some talk. whoosh... -_- stress.. today stress about sales too.. raz told me about what happen.. hm. .at first he say dun wanna say anything.. boss talked to him about me. he say he scared i'll cry. but i say im fine. then when he finish talking, me not a single bit sad at all. i was so darn freaking pissed off, angry9!! grrrr....... stupid auntie milo!!!! wth man! tell me whats her problem! or she not unhappy with me, tell me! let me know how to improve. i dislike mistake. but its ok. i'll learn from it. teach me. whatever. i'll get better. or what? ha!! the only proble is she feel threaten by me isit??!! how could she tell such lies.. these ppl in company.. like.. never give me chance to explain.. or let me learn.. tell me whats the problem... at least me understand. ..argh... ..oh well... ..
don wanna say anymore already.. sianz.. was talking and blah3 so much just now already.. hm. .and yeah.. its like magical.. after talking to sammy, feel so much better... even though me talk the same thing over again. yeah.. my frens also dunno whats wrong with that irritating auntie. -_-
im am sooooooooo tired now... -_- gosh... need energy....
today sales manage to pick uip at night.. phew.. whole aftnoon was so worried.. -_- stupid rite.. still worry about it. but... hm.. ..lets just say me got reasons.
kk.. gtg... tired ar... huu....
tmr.. my freedom....before nightmare...
mata ne...
oh..... hahaha... read a interesting news.. the megan fox who starred in transformers, she's interested in the korean star rain!!(sorry, but i don like that dude one bit-_- ) but wow.. he rejected her. hm.. cool.... gotta admit man. he's not one of those typical hateful guy who fall for ppl like megan. as in when alot of guys are swooning over her(one popular girl) and stuff. so.. yup. i like that part of him. and... what makes him a star today. his reason..and background. he... lets just say he work very3 hard despite from where he come from. but still..... -_- me don like him! dislike! ha..
ok... i was soooo super pissed off just now. now... feeling much better after some talk. whoosh... -_- stress.. today stress about sales too.. raz told me about what happen.. hm. .at first he say dun wanna say anything.. boss talked to him about me. he say he scared i'll cry. but i say im fine. then when he finish talking, me not a single bit sad at all. i was so darn freaking pissed off, angry9!! grrrr....... stupid auntie milo!!!! wth man! tell me whats her problem! or she not unhappy with me, tell me! let me know how to improve. i dislike mistake. but its ok. i'll learn from it. teach me. whatever. i'll get better. or what? ha!! the only proble is she feel threaten by me isit??!! how could she tell such lies.. these ppl in company.. like.. never give me chance to explain.. or let me learn.. tell me whats the problem... at least me understand. ..argh... ..oh well... ..
don wanna say anymore already.. sianz.. was talking and blah3 so much just now already.. hm. .and yeah.. its like magical.. after talking to sammy, feel so much better... even though me talk the same thing over again. yeah.. my frens also dunno whats wrong with that irritating auntie. -_-
im am sooooooooo tired now... -_- gosh... need energy....
today sales manage to pick uip at night.. phew.. whole aftnoon was so worried.. -_- stupid rite.. still worry about it. but... hm.. ..lets just say me got reasons.
kk.. gtg... tired ar... huu....
tmr.. my freedom....before nightmare...
mata ne...
02 July 2009
WHAT A SO HAPPY DAY :D
so tired.... cant wait for my off day!! after that, its gonna be 5 fullshifts. my life is gonna turn upside down after 5 days.. -_- dunno how me will end up..
:D! today sooooo happy!! such a wonderful day:) even though sam was angry about some..family issues.., and it spoiled his day,.. me glad to cheer him up.. and make him feel better.. cos he was smiling and laughing throughout the day :D yeah.. thats really great... hm.. first.. ...we went to had late lunch.. talk alot about michael jackson.. then.. before movie starts, we went to arcade. :) hehe.. wanna let him have fun and enjoy.. u know.. to get his mind off the unhappy events.. so.. change alot of coins, let him catch the soft toys as much as he want.. hehe.. me planned it already ne! when he send me the unhappy msg.. oh.. then soon after, movie starts.. wow.. the sofa special seat.. sooo comfy!! hehe^^ always comfy.. watched ice age 3.. cool. :) funny. me been wanting to watch that since last year?.. when the poster was out in bugis. ha. so.. yup. been anticipating for this movie so long.. so glad finally get to watch with him. :)
hm.. after movie... then.. walk to train station.. then went back home. hm.. sounds short eh? ha.. but to me no ar.. cos was having so much fun and enjoy so much.. it seems as if..its 12 hours full of laughter! :)
then... before sending him off,.. he's still so happy.. dunno whether wanna ask him about what really happen anot.. so... k.. ask him.. if he wanna tell.. its better.. me dun want him to have any unhappiness inside of him..and not sharing.. rather him to talk verything with me.. so.. yup... after talk.. make him smile again! thats a must. :)
ah.. he recorded me a msg.. in my phone.. me just found out only. ha... me use earpiece to listen.. ... lets just say.. ... yeah.. very4 sweet as always.. ...so true.. so heartfelt.. ..sincere.. so real.. i can really feel every single he said..he mean it.. ..and thats like so.. yeah.. truthful.. ..dunno how to explain.. :)
hm.. at the busstop.. ..he was talking about how life might've been if he's sign on to become a firefighter.. he could've stay with my family. my family wont mind. then.. he can get his bike.. send me here and there.. he can ride it anywhere too.. then.. get a nice tv.. clear my room.. ..sounds so.. ...perfect huh?.. ..as in a happy ever after life.. ... but well... ... sometimes... ...ppl chooses their own path... different decision.. different path u chosen.. takes you to a total different future.. it could be better.. but less happier.. i've always wonder... yes.. .. what would've happen if he really sign on his plan.. ...and stay here.. what if me pretend to be a bad and wildful girl and force him.. and to beg him to sign on..? ... ...its too late now ne..? ..
......haiz.. ..k.. tmr me gonna hang on till night.. then can happy for sometime.. before the nightmare shifts start. this time.. how i iwsh to take mc.. but wait they go cut my off... argh..
oh! yay! my game! succeed! hehe ^^ but mp5 video.. no.. hm... dunno why.. ..nvm.. later me maybe go check again ne..
mata ne...
:D! today sooooo happy!! such a wonderful day:) even though sam was angry about some..family issues.., and it spoiled his day,.. me glad to cheer him up.. and make him feel better.. cos he was smiling and laughing throughout the day :D yeah.. thats really great... hm.. first.. ...we went to had late lunch.. talk alot about michael jackson.. then.. before movie starts, we went to arcade. :) hehe.. wanna let him have fun and enjoy.. u know.. to get his mind off the unhappy events.. so.. change alot of coins, let him catch the soft toys as much as he want.. hehe.. me planned it already ne! when he send me the unhappy msg.. oh.. then soon after, movie starts.. wow.. the sofa special seat.. sooo comfy!! hehe^^ always comfy.. watched ice age 3.. cool. :) funny. me been wanting to watch that since last year?.. when the poster was out in bugis. ha. so.. yup. been anticipating for this movie so long.. so glad finally get to watch with him. :)
hm.. after movie... then.. walk to train station.. then went back home. hm.. sounds short eh? ha.. but to me no ar.. cos was having so much fun and enjoy so much.. it seems as if..its 12 hours full of laughter! :)
then... before sending him off,.. he's still so happy.. dunno whether wanna ask him about what really happen anot.. so... k.. ask him.. if he wanna tell.. its better.. me dun want him to have any unhappiness inside of him..and not sharing.. rather him to talk verything with me.. so.. yup... after talk.. make him smile again! thats a must. :)
ah.. he recorded me a msg.. in my phone.. me just found out only. ha... me use earpiece to listen.. ... lets just say.. ... yeah.. very4 sweet as always.. ...so true.. so heartfelt.. ..sincere.. so real.. i can really feel every single he said..he mean it.. ..and thats like so.. yeah.. truthful.. ..dunno how to explain.. :)
hm.. at the busstop.. ..he was talking about how life might've been if he's sign on to become a firefighter.. he could've stay with my family. my family wont mind. then.. he can get his bike.. send me here and there.. he can ride it anywhere too.. then.. get a nice tv.. clear my room.. ..sounds so.. ...perfect huh?.. ..as in a happy ever after life.. ... but well... ... sometimes... ...ppl chooses their own path... different decision.. different path u chosen.. takes you to a total different future.. it could be better.. but less happier.. i've always wonder... yes.. .. what would've happen if he really sign on his plan.. ...and stay here.. what if me pretend to be a bad and wildful girl and force him.. and to beg him to sign on..? ... ...its too late now ne..? ..
......haiz.. ..k.. tmr me gonna hang on till night.. then can happy for sometime.. before the nightmare shifts start. this time.. how i iwsh to take mc.. but wait they go cut my off... argh..
oh! yay! my game! succeed! hehe ^^ but mp5 video.. no.. hm... dunno why.. ..nvm.. later me maybe go check again ne..
mata ne...
01 July 2009
Pathetic Schedule
soooooo risky today!! XD me never listen to my inner voice.. actualy decided to keep my lappy when time reaches the busy period.. but me thinking.. nah.. nvm.. should be fine wan.. then my boss appeared!! omg.. *deng3....~ omg.. scary... thought he gonna chide me.. but no.. he never say a word about it! first thing is, even though my lappy is right under his nose. me not sure whether he sees it anot.. secondll.. hm.. maybe he understand?..XD hahaha... that its too boring there.. i dunno!! but.. omg.. so scary man... he's just beside me lappy! haiyo... next time me so gonna keep my lappy until after the busy hours over..
my boss was like.. making his words clear.. about no closing shop.. -_- .. he was like saying.. after he cum back, me go buy food up.. i hesitated.. then he say if not, gotta close down shop.. hm.. dunno how to explain ar.. but he's saying closing shop is not an option. -_-
then after he's back, he bought me 2 curry puffs.. then me munchy on them while doing stocks.
now feel full.... was sooo hungry! my dinner.. first meal of the day... hm.. or.. curry puffs count as meal too?.. -_-
sigh... :( so pathetic.... me check the schedule... thought last month got 3 full shifts becos one of the staff took leave. then found out that.... me kena 4 straight fullshifts..then 7 hours..then off. follow by full again... :( very tiring... :( how can they take advantage of me.. ... sigh..... 4 full... then.. 7 hours.. its like 5 full... .. dunno how i can tahan for that week.. .. ...haiz... ........ ..... tmr... and sat... ... i am so gonna enjoy.. relax.. whatever u name it. im jst so gonna cherish it.. cherish my off..my spare time to relax..outta the shop..my freedom... ...yeah...
aw... wanna get that psp game! but.. can.. cos dunno why.. over already the web?.. haiyo... sad.. then cant find any games that attract me.. hm... ..well.. nvm.. see how tonight.. later go check again.. ..
tmr!! the movie i've been looking froward to! yay! hehe!^^
mata!
my boss was like.. making his words clear.. about no closing shop.. -_- .. he was like saying.. after he cum back, me go buy food up.. i hesitated.. then he say if not, gotta close down shop.. hm.. dunno how to explain ar.. but he's saying closing shop is not an option. -_-
then after he's back, he bought me 2 curry puffs.. then me munchy on them while doing stocks.
now feel full.... was sooo hungry! my dinner.. first meal of the day... hm.. or.. curry puffs count as meal too?.. -_-
sigh... :( so pathetic.... me check the schedule... thought last month got 3 full shifts becos one of the staff took leave. then found out that.... me kena 4 straight fullshifts..then 7 hours..then off. follow by full again... :( very tiring... :( how can they take advantage of me.. ... sigh..... 4 full... then.. 7 hours.. its like 5 full... .. dunno how i can tahan for that week.. .. ...haiz... ........ ..... tmr... and sat... ... i am so gonna enjoy.. relax.. whatever u name it. im jst so gonna cherish it.. cherish my off..my spare time to relax..outta the shop..my freedom... ...yeah...
aw... wanna get that psp game! but.. can.. cos dunno why.. over already the web?.. haiyo... sad.. then cant find any games that attract me.. hm... ..well.. nvm.. see how tonight.. later go check again.. ..
tmr!! the movie i've been looking froward to! yay! hehe!^^
mata!
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