22 July 2009

A Different Birthday

....he want me to be happy always whenever think of him... but.. all i can say is im trying my hardest. happy, of course. becos knowing he's on the other side waiting.. upset.. of course.. cos missing the warmth and good times.. missing a huge part of me.. sigh.. will pull myself together somehow.. when the time is right.. i'll be fine..

as i was saying halfway.. oh... about ytd... hm... k... continue from ytd bah... so me met sammy for dinner. ^^ then sammy staying over. then bro and redz already home when me rch back. then waited until 12 then get my pressy. sammy hid it so well! XD me really thought thats his shoe box! haiyo... anyway, me received a big fluffy white comfy cinnamoroll! the material is soooo super soft and comfy!! omg... tehn from bro, he really gotten me a bag. not guess... but from sembonia. really like it. its elegant looking bah.. ha. so.. yup... im really grateful and so happy.. thanks guys...

morning 8am.. me woke up hoping to catch a view of the solar eclispe. but... haiyo.. canot.. in china then can see. oh well.. haiz. so we watched the tv.. sammy and redz too.. omg.. soooo slpy!! slpt at ard 5 plus mah.. so.. yup. but its so nice though.. morning wakey.. then check out the solar eclispe on 18th floor with sammy.. then went back.. and out again.. just keep checking.. haha. :) slpy morning, but fun. and super comfy when back to slp. yes.. thats like one of the best slping comfy night i've ever had... :) so gonna miss that.. huuuuu......

hm.. me wokey at 2pm..? hm.. lets just say.. really never expect my birthday to turn out this way. ha.. .. o well... but its ok.. cos sam's still here.. .. actually me imagine my birthday to be like this.. erm.. morning verye arly wakey and go somewhere to walk2.. happy2 til night time or what.. but.. lol.. wokey at 2, already aftnoon! haiyo! but what to do, tired and comfy! erm.. then.. sam gotta go settle his stuff... me never expected that.. so.. no choice.. he's gone for awhile.. so me thought of.. nvm.. since he say should be ard 5plus finish, me hurry go out and send my phone for repair. but who knows.. he called 30mins later to say he's done. ha.. so just mit him outside bah. then yup.. nvm.. send my phone for repair bah.. since nothing is planned anyway.

hope... hm.. yeah.. hopefully my phone is alrite..

hm. .after sending my phone,.. yay.. glad no queue :).. walk2 ard ion.. then news about me having to go for bbq session, dampens the mood.. i know hows my boss like.. its difficult to explain.. but.. ...tch.. i guess.. if i cant make it.. the only last resort is to called my lady boss.. i hope she'll be there that day.. even if i managed to miss it,.. sure im gonna leave a darn bad impression... ...sigh.. how i wish i could have more support now.. .. its ok.. ..he'll be in my heart ne.. .

i was so surprised... i... i've always felt this way about cherishing and appreciating.. i mean... ... tat night.. my bro was playing again his game.. ff x2.. one of the ending.., the main guy was saying to yuna... 'yuna, cherish me and i'll cherish you'.. ah.. lets just say... he's gone, but he's back again.. and 2 of them are in love. he's gone becos he got no choice. they're hoping he wont disappeared again.. cherish huh.... ...i've been doing that for a year and half.. and its getting ever Stronger. so.. ..yup.. me glad. .. :)

ok... now... starting next month onwards.. before i quit.. im gonna do my best in saving money.. lets see if i can do without shopping for clothes for a few months.. 3 months at least. since.. he's nt here anyway.. me don really see the point in.. yeah.. so... o well... hopefully bah..can save lots.

but.. me still looking forward to bring my mum out for some..treats though.. let her enjoy abit.. ..yeah.. me always been spending my free time with sammy.. cos sammy's a very3 special and important person in my life. my time is for sammy. :) belongs to sammy. ^^ ...well.. this month is ending.. will i get my bonus?... ... haiyo.... no one mentions anything about this!!! geez... grr... sianz.

i really wish i can go over... ...

my heart is yearning so much.. ....

hm.. ...ok.. ..so... erm.. yeah.. today ate till.... wow. super full.. and me so slpy now.. so waanna slp now.. zzz.... but.. abit more... will slp asap!

starting from ytd since sam dropped by to have lunch with me, till tonight, ..my days been great.. me so happy...

bro aint home tonight.. me lonely now.. cos.. no warmth.. ....o well..

mum asked me just now.. need to buy any cake anot.. to celebrate.. me say no need.. cos so late already.. and so full.. but... u know.... this year,.. its my only first year without candles on my cake.. yes.. but.. come to think of it.. ..hm.. yeah. hahahah... abit sad sey.. no birthday candles... o well.this year.. counted as very special bah.. ne. so.. yup. theres alot of things for me to look forwarad to right now.. in future.. alot gotta do with him.. so.. things to look forward to.. .. yup... i hope it helps me get on life abit more..easier..

my one year and half.. been full of hopes and happiness... the days ahead.. i do not know hows it gonna turn out like.. but... im hoping for the best.. i need alot of support and faith now... so.. yup.. ...o well..

hm.... isnt that the greatest.. to found someone who loves me truly more than anything else in the world.. and for me to love back unconditionally... thats so....fortunate..isnt it.. like..how many ppl.. can get to experince that.. and treasure it..

k.. i'd better go settle my other net stuffs.. then can slp sooner..

jaa mata......

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