Goodbye Sam

hm... hahaha.... thinking back... when sam pop by my house for the last time,... i heard mum say.. oh.. you've come.. then i look outsidem dad was whispering.. tryng to tell me. sam is here! but me din catch what they're trying to say.. lolXD! i was thinking should be redz.. but then why suddenly my parents sounded so polite and quiet ar... haha.. then i saw his bag flashes past the door.. XD me really caught off guard.. ha.. ....really miss him coming though.. ..really do... ...
my mum told me.. day before he fly off,.. she and dad at night were talking..about him. dunno what they say.. but should be something like.. how such a pity he's flying off already.. they all misses him.. my mum also very sincerely wishes him all the best for everything.. telling him to cum back soon..
especially me will miss him.. even redz also.. haha.. ...my day aint gonna be easy...

oh.. darn it.. cos of a msg, me nearly miss seeing him for the last time! i was sitting in front of my lappy.. and waiting.. till he msg me ask me why haven go out.. i was like huh? cos me told him tell me again when im supposed to go out.. cos he change the time me going out earlier on.. long story.. my fault also. but forget that.
whoa.. was so rush and so sad.. thought really couldnt make it.. but i did.. few mins only though.. but.. still i get to send him off.... saw his parents.. dad.. looks very frenly.. very nice like that.. haha.. mum.. looks very singaporean.. abit unlike her pic.. but. yeah.. she look abit pale.. maybe no make up bah.. cant tell whether they look like sam anot.. cos met them for such a short time.. his bro does alittle bit look like him. however it is, sam is sam. and he's the best. thats all it matters. only one in this whole universe. :) and theres only one lucky girl who can have him... lol.. i know who she is.. ^^ yay

hm.. thinking back.. ppl say the way i met him.. sounds dramatic.. like what always happen in love drama that kind.. haha dramatic huh.. look at the way me rushes towards the airport.. gosh.. me was like thinking also.. how cum i feel like i've seen all this in ch8 dramas ar?..=.= so.... ....yeah... i think so bah.. isnt this kind of loving so super rare and amazing.. ..i mean like. .how many ppl actually can get that..

-i dunno how.. but somehow.. our fates been entertwined ever snce day one..-

haiyo.. he's bro say me really lose weight already.. :( geez... how much weight i've lost ar? me don like to weigh myself.. thats why dunno. then me tell sam wanna put on weight bah.. like dunno too skinny anot.. he say don mind it.. its alrite.. cos girls mah.. me actually wont botehr about this had it not been ppl been telling me me lose weight.. thats why me dunno thats healthy anot.. me ask my frens.. they say just nice.. or maybe just a tiny bit more of weight on can already.. but just nice now. so... hm.. o well.. i think me fine bah.. should be.. as long as im healhy.. then ok.. yeah.. gotta tc of myself u know..

but ytd... haiyo.. me really wont bother to go down and buy food at work if sam never push me to... ..haiz.. cos me really too tired to go.. gotta push in and out things.. but yes he's right.. i should go eat no matter what.. cos me finish at 3pm, yet no eat breakfast how. yes.. certain things i know.. what i gotta do.. but.. yeah.. if he never keep telling me go eat.. i would've eat at all.. cos troublsome and expensive. just tthe thought of these 2, enuff to put away my thoguht of eating. but i must tc lots now.. he's not here with me physically already.. anything i gotta protect and fend fo myself.. gotta stay really strong no matter what..

last night zuan said.. he's proud of me.. becos in front of ppl, i can pretend to be happy and enjoying the moments with frens..they all. but actually me already so sad. yeah.. i know he's leaving one day.. no matter how happy i am,.. how much i smile, my heart will always have this very2 sad part whenever i thought of that.. zuan called me last night.. and i broke down.. wah.. cry so badly.. really2 bad.. loud.. what to do.. ..allow myself to grieve for a day can..?.. ..

ytd.. ..its a night.. me wanna shut from the world.. just slp in darkness.. and.. whatever.. cry or what.. just.. wanna hurry wakey to another day..

i really hated the sun ytd. i was preparing myself to dress up nice.. give him one last impression.. doing my hair.. changing.. every secs past.. is reminding me of him setting off real soon... ..it really sux.. the aftnoon really sux.. and thats when i realised... i hated aftnoon n evening the most.. i really do now.
hm.. i think.. still got alot to say perhaps.. but.. im slpy now.. so.. yeah.. .. will see how.. try to go back to slp..

jaa... mata ne