dating with love one

crying.. haha. o well .

always so sad when parting with sammy.

its as thhough it nvr happened. .im in my room now.. .and. .he just dropped by ytd.... out of the blue. .i was so paiseh cos fumbling ard thinking of what to wear for him nice2.. .u know. my room messy.. and yea ..ubt glad he din talk abt it. phew=P


miss him so much alrdy ha.

today can tell he's tired. cos we went out mah. .and yea. .didnt rrly slp alot. that happens whenevr not enuff slp. but ...yea. still he's swt.
we went to pool also =)
uh huh.

i ttok pics of him alot. like while he's taking video n pics of uss. yes we went there. though.. .due to hotel prob, we rushed abit. huu. 3hrs only to uss. didnt managed to go all ne. but mostly yes

we also talked abt the trip bait over dinner. .adn how his fren's gfs are like. ..interesting. .2 diff personailities . mm.. yea. but.. .o well .see how bah. scared sometimes ppl last min changed their mind. like my fren's fren cannot make it last min. so my fren ask me go. .something like that .
im quite shy ard ppl. but once im open, im open.
haha. so yea. see how bah.

it'll be great to meet his frens too

i bgouth along clubbing dresses. but in the end nvr wear cos we didnt go haha. but its cool though. uss and nice dinner plus nice whiskey shot. .yup. anythign great with him =)

whenever im with him in hotel, i will dream of him. at least or usually once. so weird haha .XD

he's bulkier now. .and his hand.. duno why.. but feels liek its bigger tooo.. .and fleshier.. .
when i first know him he's pretty skinny but not too skinny. be it now or then, he always look so good . maybe cos i love him bah. so.. yea. no matter whats his size, im loving it =P

and he whispered v softly in chinese love me =P . haha .so long nvr hear that. so happy desu =))

saw a ice top we both liek. but a pity its over 80 bucks. .so i din get. that top wouldve looked great with a pair of short denim

mm.. what else. .

in the end. .my paretns still didnt get to see him. haha. o well. . .

mm... rrly love how his body is so extra smooth after bath. XD

it sok to say that right. cos anyway no one know who he is. and theres no pic of him. so yea.

i wonder when wil lhe return to sg again... will itt be few yrs again ?=./

if he didnt hav to returned home in a hurry, i actually wanted to go with him to marine life park. o well. ..maybe next time bah...

i todl my mum i do not wish to go down for dinner tonight. ..cos .. not in the mood bah.. still asd and all ..

yay. we took some pics togehther. again .acouple blurred. and he sometimes looking down or something .so yea. ..

still better than nothing. but i craved and wish for more haha. nvr enough =) like. .yea. ..i thin knot enuff. i just want more. .more pics and memores of/with him...
however,.... rrly glad at least theres 3 or 4 niceshots.. proper ones =)

seriously.. now i still wonder if thats all a dream.. just ytd with him.. .this time at hotel queuing...
uss... etc..dinner. ..
smilin gchatting. .
even if no talk also comfy.. .

its all like a dream. .so surreal. .i almost cant believe it. .....

but now here i am alone in my room..
he wont call to say he's dropping by anymore. .as in at least for this year)
wont call to ask where to meet..
wont call to ask e dress nice2 to go out with him...

=/

when i went swimmng today, i was abit worried. wonder eh why im kinda bloated.. then realized. .ive been drinking water since night to middle of night and morning =.= ... dang. if i remembber, i wont drink so much lor. =.= grr.. .

anwyay, luckily not alot of ppl in mrg. nto so sunny too. great idea of sammy to wakey v early for swim

he was so hot and charming when he swims.. omg .
i wanted to stay near him but scaared dis his swimming concentrations.. .
then theres this moment when he burst /split out the water frmo his mouth. wow. HOT. XD hahaha.
love it.plus hte view..and sunlight.  apity no cam =.=
anyway ..yea. .. ive always like him regardless when he's skkinner or now bulkier. ..
still feel so smooth adn comfy. to hug as always

finally i get to see him do alilt it of sport =)

polo time he sure sexier than today hahaha. XD  can imagine liao

those secs... and mins spend with him. .so.. surreal.. like dream.. yet..its reality. .i cant believe i smiled so much and laugh so much ever since he left. this has been the happiest days of my life.

even my fren was tellin gme i look happy .
whenever im with him, before or after, my frens wil lsay i look so happy

haha

life is so short. and one nvr know hwats gonna hapen ..be it ur health or life. ..
i just.. .hope i have more time with him. .adn am very grateful for now that every seconds soend, be it in tears or happiness, its all well-worth it.
and i sincerely hope that, everyone is able to experience this..

and i noticed.. .when im with him, im fitter. i like that!=)

cherish while u can..

youll know that person is the one among this planet earth with countless of humans.. . then dont let go. happiness will be urs sonner or later..

haha. we took similar snap chats at the same time! XD and oh. we think alike some times too lol. weir dbut amazing XD

ahh took 2 pics of him fullshot pics! haha. wan his pic leh... duno he will send anot XP
oh i videoed him once at uss. hahaa. he tot its pic. so  yea=P

mm.. so everytime he took pic.. or video. .i took his back pic. .ahh. cos so difficult to take his front pic. haha. but nice ne

oh yea i said we took smiliar snapchats right... lol. and the thing is. i din even know he took it too!XD =) few times laio hhaaa.. ..wchie his nsapchats then i was like ohhh the same =P''

luckilly for him my phone phone shld be better now...

oh my hair.. he saw also. frizzy cos after bath n blowed dry hair. tats why i don rrly likew to blowdrymy hair so dry

i just realized. my hair so soft n smooth now lol
the shampoo at hotel not too bad ha.

but yea. rather he feel n see it smooth lor.. not tangked at all.

so swt he let me used hus conb today:3
instead of my frizzy sizde haa o well too late-.-

gosh j almist forgot ... the other tine also like this... see his shadows'everywhere... i miss him in my roommetc...:(((sobx n dating too

as though a dream.. i held his hands and hug him ours ago... so real.. .=/

jaa mata...
stay happy and have a blissful life peeps.. .

one more day exciting !

blogging throygh phine again omw to work.

hehe tmr gonna sepnd sometime with sammy finally!!though time is limited and i wanna go all places with him,... abit hard ba. but even if relax is gd too. duno what are we doing tmr. but any swc spend with him is awesome.:)

my fren say i look so happy. haha i know who to thank tat for :p


im looking forward to tat. rching liao gtg:)

may tmr weather be gd

mata!maybe will blig again tonight if have tjme.
oh man puffy eyes n face drank too much saltysteamboat soup last night.-.- mata!

happy day yet again =))

come to think of it... one of my fav pic with sammy is gone too. along with that phone=/
when i visited him in syd first pic we took together last yr.

anyway. ytd i took a ffew with him.acoupe blurred. but yeaa. rrly love it. =))) soooo happy!!!!!!!!!1
and he stayed back to wiat for me finish work =))) 0so happy. another happiest day of my life.

ha reminded me of last time he also waited for me. from start shift at atz, all the way till l end in late aftnoon

anyway =)))

haha .how i wish all these wouldnt end. but i know he will be back in syd soon huu...

oh. read abit by abit the book. .eh.. so. someitmes when argue. ..women get upset due to the tone of men arguing. men thught women is arguing rejecting them etc. but actually men is not vulerable to change of tnoes and harsh words etc. but women does.
tat makes alot of sense.
yea. .women maybe more sensitive ba. will get upset if anybodt shouted at them or they way they argue is mean and unloving .isnt

kk. i gtg.

oh yea. ..pretty sad that i couldntn change a mrg shift with my ptimer. i have a feeling she just iddnt wanna help. though im able to break a longer time. so. .o well. i'll let that go ba. =/

haiz. but anwyay.

yea. stoma ch not feelin gtat gd today mm

ah. .so ice.. those laughters and smiels we shared.. eating and chatting just sit down together. ..^^ s happy
=) always puts a smiel on my f a ce=)
even if work busy or tiring .. etc. tat dont matter anymore. i realized that when he ask me hows work. its like .yea. all those stress is nothing now. thanks to him

if onlhy everyday could be like tat hah


kk gtg liao .

sammy c ame into my room =) last night. but still shy with my family. not used to it bah. though my parents misses him .haha
o well..

cant wait to spend my off with him .
wish us luck

mata

happy cny 2015!!

hi there.

so... so tired fom wowrk on cny eve... missed tv countdown cos was bathing huu.. haha nvm. then.. yea. but it was soooo fantastic msging sammy while watching tv. thought was able to meet him for the night. then ...yea. its so hard. so yea. ..then last night also.. .as though we watching together ^^ hehe. best part of him being in sg. besides can see him that is

visit2...   gosh. now 2nd day if cny. i woke up. soooo tired and sleepy.

ytd also slpt late and woke up early mah.

today...duno store how quiet.. shall see bah.
quiet. .bad for sales. but. ..gd for me personally. ha. ..cos v tired mah .rther do my tasks slowly.
so yea. gonna be back to work liao huu =/

anyway.
what else. ..

mm... .

tats abt it bah .thank goodness. ytd middle of night rained. so weather abit cool. not too sunny. only buses we missed twice. waited abit. but nothing too bad. cab also. one time only waited quite long. overall, its one of the best cny weather /transportations. haha. the weather is most import. luckily not too hot and no rain.

kk gtg for wokr later liao.


ja amata ne1


enjoy y'all cny!

almost cny peeps.. enjoying ntuc=)

so near yet so far with him..

haha how i wish to spend a day with him at uss XD.
anyway, we might be able to go clubbing while he's here so yea. .
we shall see abt that.

today another offer just ended for aust trip. i hope there'll be more though.. .
mm..

me been liking and enjoying the atmosphere of ntuc.. .u know how supermarket is so lively due to the ocming up cny. so cool.
everyone so excited and all. .though im excited. ..im not that much of a ...excited .. mm... duno maybe cos nid to work and tired. .so not much feel bah. nonethels,, im more excited for steamboat baby!!!!

soyea. looking forward to that.
=)

mm.. yea. msging him now is more fun than in syd though. though still love it. but yea. the way he msges in sg is abit diff. abit more him. i lik eit more when he's in sg and the way he text me XD haha.
bleah.

just so nice to shower him with kisses when i first saw him at my lift there. those. ..no penny couldve ever bought it. cos thats kisses with feelings. =)
precious.

i wont forget it.

mm.. kk .hope eryone wil lahve a v happy lunar new year!! tmr think im going to rush for my nails..diy anyhow bah lol
tired ater work la huu .ppl go do nail me no do meep
do myself lor

mm... so yea... oh.. .i ..had a v v bad terrible nightare. worse than the last few days ago... i hate it. i dislike that dream alot. i asked tat thing a question. i wa slike.why the hell i wanna talk to it? oomgggggggggg baka me in baka dream.
anyway. sighs. i just hate this kind of dreams. been so long alrdy ne. wonder if cos im too stressed. =/


jaa mata

dream came true / best surprised ever

wow. what a start of the day..

sammy shows up at my block today!=D omg.

he was telling me to dress us etc.. .i wanted to.. but i ust woke up. ..then i was like.. what if he's teasing me again. so im not sure f he meant it or not.  ..liek u know how couples teases each other. ..then.. yea. ..i started brushin abit faster. ..and. ..still unsure if i shld get ready. just when i was abt to.. he skyped me. and yea... =) sob.

this moment that ive been waiting for, is finally here. i am so happy. happiest dady of 2015 so far. and yea happiest since. ...the past coming months aded up together.

he has limited time. .so we watched movie. ..eat.. .and talk laugh.. .im so happy. he laughs and smile so much. i lvoe tat most when he does that=))

i will believe him and trust his words next time he asked me to dress up. haha .
cos outta the blue. .so yea. .
=) i'll trust him when he said tht next time . haha. though the day i lost my phone he msg  fly down hug me .how i wish he rrly appear right there n then XD

and he's so swt.
he bought me a dress. but tats not the best part. to me, its the fact that even though he's rushing for time, yet he persuades em to try on the dresses, and massage me while queing. ..and even waited outside of changing room for me11 only him a guy in the store. usually in the past he would be so shy and just stay outta the store.

and yea. im so grateful and happy he actually dd that fo rme .=))
tats so special to me and it meant so much .tat efort and thought, i love it.

i was so nervous and duno what to wear can u beleive it??! lol. althese times i want him to see what i can wear with i go out. .etc. then when its here. i panaicked. cos nid to rush out .i kept him waiting long . huuu.... .so hurrily picked up skirt and top. alamak.
yea. ..tot wanna dress.. .but scared overdressed later he'l lsay i overdress...haha.
anyway. he ended up disliek ht etop haha .i like that he's being frank with me. though. instead of hiding it. othat one of the thing i liek abt him. frankness. =)

so yea. when panicked and shocked,, od not just grabbed something to wear lol

the book says..

when women think s shes giving him care and love byh concerning and askin ghim questions. ..
but they dislike.

then if guys.. .thin ktaht by ignoring her to give her space is what she need, and also to say. ..oh its just a small prob. no big deal;..
but women dislike actually.

cos men does that to his own guy frens. buddies. they din know its didff for women.

same goes for women. women shows love and care by asking wfemale frens questions.. .tryign to help them. but.. .actually. .men dislike it.. =/

so yea. ..

without proper understandings ..no wonder many couples wants a divource

and when men thoguth they had given the enough lov eassurance or fulfilled it to women, they thought nvr do they nid to do it again. but. ..women nids it every now and then. not just once. to feel love by them

this book is gd. my fren said she read it too .its gd.

i was kinda afraid to believe he's rrly here to visit me...at my place for fear of disappointment..              not that i don trust him (he said it in a joking way) .. .but yea. i was so nervous. .and when i see him, my wolrd is all light up again. and i didnt have to wait till april =)
advance see him haha .
this trip with him is our first ba. to other places.. .and yea. its gonan be interesting. and. .im gonna trust hi with all the infos and stuffs.
he's good at those=)

glad today i didnt order the pasta at peppers lunch haha. i was abt to. then he's lie. pasta??? doubtful sound. haha . i rememebr his words in syd. .he knows whats gd in restaurants..etc. so i trusted him .i ordered the non pasta. and i lov eit. omg so gd the salmon!

thigns liek that makes me happy by trusting him correctly. and yea. gosh . im jsut the happiest girl in the world now. tmr at ork i will be extra happy too i bet=))

anyway.

today is such a memorable happy day

and guess what. my weird dream sorta came true. omg O.O weird ehhh

abt him telling me he's here long ago.. etc. but. .thank goodness.. .he didnt leave this weekend or sumtin .phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

tats a relif. if not i'll be liek in the dream v sad.

kk. gtg

hoepfully i can meet up with him soon.

wish us luck

gdnight

jaa mata=))

home and frustrated

sianz

once reach home getting all frustrated. maybe im too tired ...and worned out. its liek after a weke's long of break, everything back to square one.

i gotta chill man.. .=/ i hate myself like this. why angry so easily.

im not doing this right eh.
for one im not exercising.
i din slp normal ppls time
i bath late
and worst i had my one meal very late in one day
worst if im in night shift.
tday i had my first meal at 617pm
thats my breakfast lunch and dinner. though before i start i hurrily gluped down 3 old chang kee gyoza.

yea i know. its so difficutt for me to change my lifestyle though ive been wanting to badly =/

i dunno how

arghhhhhh forget it.

=/

somemore eve day also cant go back earlier to have reunion dinner. haiz.

all for money huh .

i wonder if HB also liek this anot. ..


i dunno....

haiz

a pity though .today saw valentines day promo. but min nid 2 ppl to go . haiz. nvm.. .see next promo how ba . wish me luck

thankfully sammy cheer me up right away.. if ot maybe me still upset ba..
jaa mata

worst bad day :(

The day before ytd was great. Had great time msginv sammy.. though mrg so many thibgs to settle and all. But yea. He makes it better.

Using phone to blog now  ..omw to work..

Still feeling kinda sad. Just abit better.

Spendbheaps of money on new phi e. Same actually  cos ny phone got stolen ytd at bedok  . I was so upset and crying .  Tbank god im in mrg shift  . Then my fren the sm accompany me go buy phone. Shes gd at talking n all. Luckyily for her im able to get new phone successfully.


she even treated me to dinner  im so grateful. So nice of her  shes the one who ask me wan her company me buy phone anot

i hate theifs huuuuuuuuuT.T


sighs. Anyway ytd so suey. V badluck.

din hav lunch went all the way tonpolicestation  got down wrong stop sunny and walk3.  In the end cant file report due to no ime number

kk rchjng soon. Talk soon peeps. May my day be better today..sighs jaa mata

vivid weird dream/ love for cooking with him

wow such a weird dream.

like i dreamt of sammy talking to me lie sitting right across me. and arms on the table. smiling. ..says.. .oh he's in sg for 6 days. he finally told me on my last day of AL that he actually landed in sg coupke of days back. but nvr tell me cos wanna surprise me. and don wanna disturb my leaves. i was like. .whattttt so disappointed and sad. XD can u imagine ur bf say oh i dun wanna dis ur leaves. lol

tats why i say this is liek a weird dream XD
and i was happy too. just sad that he's leaving on fri night. and the remaining days im working al lthe way . haha. its pretty vivid though. even if its true, its stil lbest he arrive in sg isnt. rather than not at all. . though many yreas passed. ..he said before he left my house hte final night. the most 2 yrs he'll be back in sgXD but yea. lol .time flies.. .

omg. i just realized. its 7yrs alrdy. the other tie i counted it was.. .almost. .7 yrs. maybe a month plus or so.. but yea. jan is over so soon gosh. then its gonna be valentines day. then cny. wow.

mm... my al flew by fast .. .and .. .well. though i didnt managed to stay healthy or run like i'd intended to... still i get to slp in late. .haha. so nice. without setting alarm! such a great feeling XD

yes. after 7 months of working non stop, finally its gd to slow down.

now i cant wait for april. though hasnt book tix nor hotel... but yea. just hope there'll be enuff room for the hotel haha. and great deal=.=.

half a day is over now.. .fo rmy final off. today not al. is more of off day.
haiz.

wish me luck bah =)

back to work. kinda miss it though. but after first week, haha .sure back to normal liaoXD

theres this youtube couple whihc im pretty sur ei'd mentioned them before. cos they got married at 19yrs old. and 5yrs on still loving each other. though when they first got maried alot of ppl keep saying no no no.
cos they don have money ya know. they're liek normal teenagers. and nope shes not pregnant. they don have any children up till now.
so yea. they're liek homebody according to this lady who is 23 or 24 now. somewhere there.
her husband is a musican. she worked at mac cosmetics. but now onto youtube.
its so nice to hear whats her valentines day plan .so simple yet so nice. its what she does al lthe time with her hubby.
cooking with each other. eat. then movie on couch.. snack on cough till they pass out. haha.
soooo ncie.
i ean thats one of the lil detaisl in life which u nid to learn how to appreciate isnt.
its nice ofc. once in a while go to a hgh end restaurant. .wine. .wahtever.
but being home is special too. its all abt balance i guess. u know. treat urself once in a while. but then don forget to have a more intimate and personal time at ur own home swt home with ur ow love one.
dinenr together. and hello> cook together? tat sounds awesome .i wanna tell sammy though today or th eother day but  forgot.
ioh yea when he cooked a steak.
it slike. he took pic for me.
he didnt purposely make the whole plate garnish with nice stuffs etc wateerv. and he jsut send it to me. fo rme thats real. and i lov eit.
i love how a man is able to cook .be it for himself for her. or for his faamily. though he todl me that his dad disliek becos scared he'll meedd up the kitchen.
but anyway. he's all ggrown up. shld be able to ... use  more of kitchen i gues.. anyway. yea.
i love a man who cooks. tats a definite plus points. =)
how charming isthat. even if not gd, so what. as long as the effort tat he puts into it u know.

he cooked me pasta once at his home. sg home.
it was salty. but u know. i rrly appreciate that. and thinking back i stil lfeel so love that he's willing to do that for me =)
and we actually went to parkway cold storage to buy all the ngredients. its al lsums up to abt 80 over bucks. which i felt so bad...amkign him pay for those.. .
=/ cos he didnt work that time only limited pay form scdf
but anyway. memories like those. .is what i'll cherish forever. why iddnt i take pic of that pasta dish>>?? arghhhhh if the now me always take pics of food. ha.
but why.. .cos tat time no gd cam hp or maybe i did but forgot. or i forgot cos wanna eat badly..? mm..
if only can print out the photo. i found so many memories that couldvt been forgotten, is all saved by photos. tats how i rememebr certain stuffs.
photos. .can be a great memory tool in future.

then we sat and eat in front of tv..watching. .and commenting how much salt shouldve added instead. to the pasta.
but its ok. tat dish still fills y heart up with love. its the process that matters. we dont give up trying ever.

thank u sammy. =)
haha . not that he's reading but hey i can always thank ppl here in my blog. =)

cooking is so fun. the way u add and do the cook. .control.. .youre in control of everything ya know. fire.. .tempature...cuttings. .etc. youre the chef. even if failed, hey. at least u know what to imrpove on next.
whenevr i failed, i always leartn my lesson. oh so this shld be doe instead. that shld be done...etcetc
wanted to cook tonight though. but mum say better not bah cos im back to work tmr.scared im tired. so yea. o well .

oh!! omg took me sooo long to rememebr this! jamie oliver,... and his wife. wow. i forgot. like i came across his interview. he loves his wife to bits. and they dated since.. .when they're 18 yrs old or so.. .and yea. thye're married till now. i nvr expected that form a a famouse chef. but.. yea. ttas sooo oswt. in his pics he stil lresyas. .look at his gorgeous wie for something .for a man to say that to everyobdy even after 10 yrs over f marriage, thats a big wow something . y aknow.
lucky wife of his=)
haha. wow he's devoted. =3 but yea. its somethign liek this tats so nic e. u love one another. and then u get married..and even after 10yrs, u stil lcompliment each other appreciate each other and even able to think back of.. oh how yrs had passed. tats.. rrly something. i can tel lhe loves his kids and wife v much...

jaa mata

AL over soon T_T

so happy. yay. finally had a proper abit better than none conversations today =)
with him.

i think after reading the book, i understaand abit better now.. .like how.. .as in not yet finish up the book.

like how.. .men can misinterpret what owmen is trying to say. and women vice versa.

when all women want is a hug and someone to rrly listen to. not just hear but listen,.. .and sometimes guys may take it as they are blaming them(the men) .
its all so simple. yet without realizing it.. one may  make a big mistake.

the author was always saying.. how with pratice, he listens.. .and usually by the end of convo be it his wife or sister. ..will simply just say.. thanks for listening. i feel so much better now.
he didnt try to solve the issue. or  give solutions..

its all.. abt pratice and u know.. depends on situations i guess. someimtes when i talk to him abt things its like cos im tryign to find an answer too.
mm.. complicated eh haha. i know.
but o well.. .patience loving support these are all the keys ba.

so sad my AL almost over=( boo huu.. .
so fast ne one week over huu=(
cant wait till april.

o well... will hang in there bah

until then=)

so.... after monday gotta work till sat liao huu.. .
=/ o well. try not to dwell on it too much bah. i guess....

mm.. one remaining off day . think i just wanan rest and continue cleaning my room  gosh not been cleaning these few days. meep
been online all day haha. oops

trying to do more reading too cos still lmore books haven readT_T
and my times up

o well.

thats abt it i guess.. oh yea. .couldnt find a pair of red heels that i wanan match with my dress.. .and bag too. see how bah

i have this sexy dress.the other more .. .not so sexyXD

so far i have more votes for the sexy one.
and my fren was like saying... if have the figure to flaunt it, why not.
cos the other saying for cny abit sexy.
so yea. ..but all say v nice. i wanna bringitto the store and seeif any accessries can match it anot

o well .

today i was reminded again of his nice god parents .haha yea i mentioned couple of itmes befor ein my blog. i think its like. .whenever tv is on. .adn u see nice old couplle s who still hold hands.. u know. suddenly i'll though t of them .=)
so loving even at this age. and they seem so kind too.

anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy

hm.. .im kinda excited and not excited for cny. cso yea.. like.. .=/ o well.. ..only get to celebrate one day. tehn back to work .

kk... i gtg.

o hyea. boo huu. my pimple is poppin gup on my face. abt 2 or so bah. my time of month lor. huu . hope by cny they will all vanish =.=

kk wish me luck

missing him alot.

hope he come back sg soon. though.. mm.. even if on leave. ..still cant meet him much bah..he wont be able to come alone.. mm... anyway. yea.
ahahah.... the feeling of going on dates with him again .soon =)
wouldnt u all appreciated. or tends to forget eh. how much a date means to u.

jaa mata, gdnight peeps!=)

swtdream (morning post haha)

morning. haha. yea i know. early morning bllog alrdy.


why i feel so upset right after i woke up and decided to blog here..? ahh.. .bec ause.. .thouhg it was a gd dream... but it flustered me that its not real...

i dreatm somehow i was able to travel to sydney for liek 1 day. or oe night two days kinda trip . so weird eh ha. i texted him im in syd now. he idnt reply .

but yea it was a weird dream. but.. .its nice that i get to go ba ck there' but.. sucks when its not true at all. ofc i wanna go even for a day.



mata

thought could spend more time together

days passes so fast eh..

been on leave.. and yea. its nice.. .slp and wakey ..adn yea. one of the day i woke up thinking. .omg im owkring>1 hhaha

o well

coupk eof time i was worried abt wor .in fact today i msg work thing abit.. haiz.

if my asm had done whats supposed to be.. .then i wouldntve msg them today.. o wewll..

nvm ba

thoug on leave also nvr get to msg him much..
,,like no difference. anywaymmy leave is comng to an end soon so yea..
wishing if only i had more time with him =(//... is he ever so busy..even on my leaves..

msging is all we can do. .he cant skype and talk to me as often.. so yea. .communications is only through msgs. .o well..  wat else can i say


o well
. still a couple of books lef tto be read..

so slpy today. been slpy lately why

mata

continuing my currant fav book at the moment =) / im understanding more of situations i've been through now...

so.. towards the reading...

sometimes conflicts arises due to men wants women to think like them. and lady wants men to think like them ladies.

men touch .women emtional. if women want their partner to be emtional.. .then men want women think like a tough man... strong.etc.... yea. ..sounds so weird eh =.=
thats why....
thats not how he puts into words duh. im using my won simple words cos im no writer.

it makes sense though.

and this i liek too he did mentioned he's sure alot of couples can relate to that.

women shares and talks abt their probs. men stay in a cave . not talk. rather figure out solution and divert attention by reading news paper. .game ,sports etc

so soon exp names: after a logn day at work, when both reaches home,
mary talks. john stays quietly reading

soon, as time passes, mary feels ignored and neglated .
whilst john thiks mary talks too much.
tast becos they don understadn how each works. or perhaps john expects mary to be like him. whilst mary expect john to be like her(as a woman styel) which is to talk it out.

if they do understand, htings wouldve been alot more easier to understand.

and.. yea. sometimes i wonder actually. .adn feels kind abad when i talk to him abt my stresses and work..etc.. cos its as though im talking too much. i myself realized tht .like. .am i tlaking too much probs .. =/ many blogs ago i did mentioned this. if anyone can still remember lol

but yea. cos.. .i duno. compared to others, im more. ..how to say. my intuition and feelings are quite strong . i relies on them alot, and i trust them kinda.. and.. .thats why its sometimes hard for me.. .i always think of others before me. most of the time.
if i say this or if i do this, what would they think .or this could or shld be the way they will htink.
not saying all the times im right ya know. but yea..
o well .
so perhaps why. .i can reazlized c ertain thingy' liekthe above... but still... duh im no expert .no heavenly being. ofc i do feel ignoredand neglated too. which woman wouldnt. sometimes he also nvr msg me whole day mah .
wonder how guys think or feel. maybe oh one day she nvr msg me, its ok. notin much anyway.
mm.. .maybe?

anwyay.

one thing caught my attention though.
have to be careful with my words.
woemn are caring. so sometimes offers to help or provide solutions. but according to the book...
its not gd. big nono.
if john is driving for 30mins and is lost, mary says. why dont u call someone for help.
he will be silent for rest of jounery. and to him he's thinking u mistrust me of what i can do even such a lil thing.
for mary its mroe of like im trying to help u out in a caring  and thoughtful way so we can both arrive on time and safely.

so yea. .see. u cant suggest that. .u know often i guess. but then he mentiones. .its all abt the approach and timing as well =.=. omg so chim .
so yea. .no impossible but still... yea...... .

that got me thinking ya know.

in this mall. sammy was pretty sure thats this honey birdette store. we couldnt find it. i suggested why dono we look for info counter. cos its v normal in sg anytinng we go there also directed customers to there for more info.

then he keep saying don wan. or nvr reply me. we walked right past the info counter .he also don wanna ask. he's pretty sure its somewhere in front somewhere. .finally we found it. =)
i wonde rif i ask sammy now will he stil lrememebr? or wonder how he felt at the point of time. hope he's not unhappy with me =X

i didnt know a simple suggestion will u knwo. end up making ur partner question ur intentions. thinking we don trust them to do a simple task.

sm suddenly talked abt her bf..
how he always make sure she cleaned her feet before going to his room .and cannot jump into his bed with her outing clothes.
haha. i was like. hey me too!
as in my bf too! does the same things. at first i tot perhaps its due to sammys mum a nurse ya know. .so maybe abitmore cautious abt hygienge or something. but yea they're pretty much the same haha.
also i cant let water splash too much ard basin he wouldnt like it.
so yea i have to be carefullor

ok back to the boo.k it says so too... men provides solutions to women who talk abt her probs. but guys feel confused when women say they don listen.

well. .women needs tomore hugs and empathy. more than solutions. cos guys is all abt solutions. trying to solve things and stuffs.

so theres this exp he gave. ..abt this .

mary came home form an exhausting day..and she wanted to share her feelings(women shares out feeling sand talk abt it)    mary:* john:*

mary : so much to do tiring so last min tasks
john u shld quit find something u like to do
mary they expect so much
john don listen to them .just do hwat u can do.
mary i am! in the end i didnt get to call her aunt. feel so bad now=/
john oh she will understand
mary but u know what shes going through?  .
john u worry to much thats why u are always unhappy
 mary im not unhappy. why cant u listen to me?
john i am listening
mary why even bother

thas the negativ eone.. .

positive swt one is..

mary so much to do so stress.. . so many last min tasks wan me complete..
john pauses... then say hmm...
mary i evebn forgot to call my aunt
john narrowed his brows. .oh no.. =/
mary she need sme so much right now i feel so bad. ..
john.. you are such a loving person.. come here. let me give u a hug.. .
mary cries in his arms...
she then say.. .i love tlakint with u. u make merrly happy. thanks for listening.i feel much better .=)


yea i prefered the 2nd convo too.

i wouldnt like anyone saying ..oh u think too much. thats why u are always unhappy=.=
dots.

come to thinkof it... when i talked abt these ..cyber bullies or whatever.. .during a game they talked nasty stuffs abt me.
he wa slike.. .just ignored them. why care abt them.. .they're probably stupid kids. .
why care so much of what they say

what if he says to me.. .in a more gentle way.. of.. .yea. .thy're bad. its over now. how ar eu feeling. hope i can cheer u up.. wish i could hug u now.. i shall make them disappear if ii see them again

hahahahaha..... well... nah .not all partners are perfect duh. this is what so called everyones perfect dream of a perfect partner.
sometimes they can sometimes theyr'e not. cos wwe're just humans.

we all have expectations of our special someone.. .

books says. .

if we all learn to and respect our differences, there wouldnt be so many cases of broken marriages .

true. i said it many times and before.

compromise. communicate. and no matter how diff u are. respect that. one may be messy the other a too clean person,  but still cna respect one another. dislike toothpaste outside of holder? just pratice and let it be inside the holder everytime after brushed.

either that or, u know wha tits ok. its jsut outside of holder . what harm can it done .just leave it there.

or what abt both ways. man left it out .woman left it in. vice versa. whats the prob.

all abt attitude thinkings and yea. .respect one another. and see the gd in the difference. .

kk.. .abt enuff haha. im liking this book alot. how i wish can ake him read it. hahah.XD don think he will ..

kk.

jaa mata

yea no wonder can soldover 15millions this book lor. only negative feedback he received is. .''why didnt i read ur book or get ur advice earlier''.
XD haha

long blog. relationships/ realizing the differences between men and women/ how lucky u are...wake up and realize it now!

hiiii hah im bloggin yay =)

ytd was a tired but nice da out with family. thoug yea v v tired. glad to be back by evening .

ever since sammy long ago showed me this funny video by this indian man who stayed in a western country he was like talking abt how women think too much.. etc
whilst man is not a thinker. staring into space without thinking a thing is what they are capable of.

so... it intrigued me. then i thought of i heard this popular book. men are fromm mars women are frmo venus.

been wanting to get to book. but its not like ya know. .oh i want it so much now. tats why i nvr go find it or anything. then todya, i happened to come across it. and its on sale.
like bookstore on sale

so i  bought it. i read the introductions.. and i i felt like crying . cos i feel so sad for his wife.

he said.. .after first week of their new born daughter, his wife still in pain bu tgettin gbetter. so he wnt back to work. then. she called her bro cos her pain killer ran out. his bro supposed to visit her mah. but forgot get the pillsfor her .=.=

then when he's back from work. she say ... erm. what im typing is roughly what he rote cos now im not typing according to every single word he wrot on the book. so yea.

so she say. ive been in pain whole day. (cos of birth. like duh.women suffered pain huuuuu) i called ur bro he forgot the pills.. etc. duno what els.e abt liek this bah.

he took it as she's blaming on him. then that day he's also kinda like.. in a fury mode'
he say something liek. .so youre blaming on me? why didnt u call me instead?! etc..
then he say he's gonna walk out the door.

then she pleaded.. .tears welling up on her eyes. .
please don go. i need u now more than ever. dont walk outta that door.. all she neede is him right now. i've been in pain this whole week. neede him by her side this moment. .rrly needed him.  she said somethng more touching sorry i cant remember. .

then she say. when im the loving person, you'll be so loving and caring towards me, but when i changed, into angry or sad person, you'll walk out on me.

he then hug her. and she weeped in his arms.

here. he realized that... any women couldve know and understand his wife the moment she told him hw painful she is.. .all she needed is a hug. and love. but hm, as a man, couldnt understand, and took it as a blame onto him.

and he also realized. .yes its true. whenever shes nice he's nice back. when but when she's in  adown mood or sad.. etc.. .he'll turn away =(
all this while thats what he's been doing to her. (im not sure how long they've been married or been together . but that's their first baby )

so yea.... awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
uh huh. ikkr
sobx. so touching. hey! at Least he realizes his wife feelings. and his mistaake. unlike maybe some other man wouldve been. thinking. .maybe. .omg crying again?=.= i had enuff.etc.

so yea. ..
gd thing he went back and hug her. thats al lshe need from suffering the whole day in pain.
i cant even imagine how the pain is even though im a woman myself. ive not given birth before ya knnow. ..gosh...

saw this saw. this actor say when he  look at his wife u know ehere, when they say ok the baby is coming outsaw the baby... he also saw (he said it in a joking humours way) how his wife is being dismembered' .he can see her lungs..liver instines. .etc. omg i duno man .=(
one thing for sure. giving birth is hell of a lot of painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

so i cant imagine. .gosh. just after one week, and he's walking out that door???
tahts why. guess some man can understand. but some  cant. then again. he mentioned. that day he's on the fury mode' too. so yea. i duno . maybe lack of slp or boss scolded dhim?

so yea. ..anwyay cant treat just given birth wife like that mah

then he looked back ...at how his first marriage ended.
thats his prob.


other couples he helped rrly...alot..alot. his book sold more than 15million copies world wide.

he say... this coupe of 9 yrs. .had so much differences. they came to him saying wanted divource... (he sorta console ppl i think )
then they are surprised to learn that soooooooo many couples had their own differences. and that is normal.

uh huh.
then in the end, after anothr 6b yrs, he visited them and they are still together. more than ever loving each other. awwww=)))

duh. which couple is perfect. therell always be differences.. etc. compromise. respect. and ya know.. .love each othre! accept each others flaws.. and learn to accept who they are.
imagine if im the wif eof sammy. he dislike too spicy food. while i love it, ofc i wont cook spicy meals for him everyday=.= duh. nid to compromise. find ways.and respect it. i could always cook up an extra dish for my own spiciness cravings .or just a plate of chilli padis on the table  or anyday head out to eat a spicy meal.
thats what... so called.. u know. have a happy outcome for everyone. instead of like. .gosh then im not cooking anymore. or u know what, learn to eat and tahan my spicy dishes.
like. thats selfish. =.=
how can u live with someone like that?

gosh so many to type today .O.o woah.

huuu... just when i said that, . i forgot liao. i wanted to talk abt the recent tarot card topic.. but another topic.. .it slike been wanting io type for soooo ages ago i think. now slipped off my mind again wth=.= huuu
sorry
huuu such a pity i was like on i rememebr now! so excited to type it =.= then now i forgot. .huu
nvm.. now onto the tarot card topic. are u ready?

ytd my fren told me they went for a famous and v long been there tarot card reader.
at holland v.
and. .. its abt 85% acurate according to my frne.
they asked abt life. not future. the now. abt partners...

my fren still kinda misses her ex. but with her bf  is like. .not rrly tat love.. more of like... somemore he's too nice.. liek gd man.
so now she smore .. .relief .. .to know.. he could be the one.

the reader say to her. she and her ex wont make it. cos there'll be a 3rd party. she nvr told her. but she said it. uh huh. a women broke them up .=/

then with this currant bf, in 6 yrs time, if they cant overcome their obstacles of their differences(she cant stand how he's too straight forward and talk without thinking. u knowshes smart street..  smart like sammy), she'll be the one who choose to live.
uh huh. given her personaility, she will.
but if they overcome it, they will be together happily ever after=) aww. ..
she say she did told her bf. and her bf not skepitcal abt it. he's liek ok with it. but gd. cos he nvr scold her or what. and listen(he's v nice)
and its gd. cos at least she told his whats their obstacles, they can change, or u know. overcome it in future=) yay

then another fren, life not so smooth . (i heard this not from herself cos its personal so my fren told me abit) . she also asked abt her bf. and this new guy she met(remember the batam trip? the one who has a guy wooing her. .bought her tiffang neclace..etc skype )
i asked. .so how? anyone of them make a gd match for her? my fren shakes her head..... =/... aw.. but yea.thats it. she cant say i also wont ask. i respect my fren's privacy till i see her see if she would tell me.

another best fren of hers i heard of all the time. ..long story short. they used to hang out together all the time 3 of them .then she got married. then my 2 frens get to know me. and now it sliek the new 3 of us hanging out .but they still met up like naturally. cos been frens so long liao. but that girl is married.

she askded abt her husband and her this new fren who showers her with alot of lavish gifts and always bring her to high end restaurants=.= their personailities clicked so much and so alike they can talk so much etc. .. like so nice to talk to him forever go tsame nice topics to talk abt(well maybe also cos they just know each toerh bah)

my fren told me once. ..that their best fren  having probs(of after marriage life) just tat she didnt tell them .
so duno got probs with her husband naot. but heard her husband is v rich de. whilst shes' a. .u know. commoner.

anyway.. reader ask her. is that girl or guy. cos she sees no love between them .as in her new found fren . she say guy.
she say. he's not a man who wanna settle down and get married.she say yea. she know.
reader say they will consists nothing of love. they can talk and talk etc. .but no love between them at all.

im thinking... maybe the guy just wanna get her into his bed ya know=/
dang. some guys are jerks! know shes amrried yet still... argh.


so yea... haiz.
=/

my fren then say... ask me go next time. im like. O.O say whatttttttttttttttttt??????/////
somemore ask me go ask abt my relationnship with sammy. wattttttttttttttttttt
just to get a assurance. =.=
gosh .
i duno man. if im prepared for that kinda thing.

haiz.

anyway.. billions x billions of humans in this world..galaxy whatever... it is..  to meet someone u love. or to care for, is like the most. .precious thing u'll ever find in ur lifetime.
some ppl only foudn true lov ein their 40s or 50s..etc.

when i met sammy i fin dit so wasted. .to not meet him (i cant say fin dcos he's the one who found me=) ) earlier ..but than.. better late than never. and somemore. ..its rrly... not tooo tooo late. y aknow. i met him when he's just turning into his 19th year =) so yea. grateful thata its aint his 50th years old year ya know.

whetehr u treasure it. .cherish it. .its all up to u. after all, fate lies in ur hands. ur decisions could change ur life . forever.
make the wise one, and you'll remain happy like treasure.

i cant wait to read on this book. =)

sighs still not able to recall what i'd wanted type abt..which is longago topic... oh man. hopefully as i blog more often, i will rememebr..

ahh... he still hasnt msg yet.. .i wonder.. .slping o rbusy.. or.. .
miss him

jaa mata ne.