greal deal

tummy ache again.. not feelin gso well todya. oh man.
mrg also threw up. argh.. rrly need to tc..
huu
hopefully tummy be good soon

gotta rush for bed. jsut type and go slp liao

today i felt better after hearing abit more detailed of tips given by another outlet sm.
i rrly wanna be able to do it nicely. so yea

mm... o well. also dunno waht to type. .erm...
cos been typing too much etcetc over past few days =.=
now erm.. .
shld stop blahing bah

oh so excited to be goign to syd soon. tmr march alrdy.. just few more months.. but. .tix haven get yet..
dunno got promo anot

today my colleagues all go shopping . afte rbreak, everyone is back with the shopping bags ha. me didnt.
gotta save mah

oh yea. bought a 3.35 necklace ..v v heavy n chunky type. on sale. found it in cardboard. ha .alst pc. me bought it. usually price 65
XD waht a deal!!
happy desu.
but dunno what to pair it with.. anyway, since i saw it abt xmas time, i rrly like the purplish glass beads colours. sooo gorgeous. attracted me so much.
so now on sale, sooo cheap. must buy.
maybe one day will be able to ifnd the right occasion to wear ba

mm.. not fun.. .thinking of the clothings to bring to syd...
winter. .cannot waer anythignn ncie=.=
always jeans.. huu.. .see how bah. maybe can tahan the cold. .wear skirt. haha.
kk gtg. ..before tummy acts up again

mata

huu no printer print air tix this time.T_T howwwwwwwwww

my life with sammy.. love

its very stress. when off day. .then received msg .. the numbers of thigns ui need ot look out for..
though stressful, i also kept telling myslef. its all for hte money too .
the more money u get, hte harder u must work.
tats al lfair eh.
so yea.. stresssssssssss
but.. thank goodness had a ncie tow days off straight.. due to coolegaechanges off. so yea. .
but. .a pity. .though t i coulve uses these two days and catcup with him.. but.. yea. ..he's too busy bah .
o well

S5 phoen coming soon. so happy to know taht. rlry cant wait to be one of the first to change it

my stomach. .stil not good. for. .3 or 2 days liao bah . diarrhea. huu......... soon after sammy .
yea. .but ...i guess.. my fault too bah.. cos. .stil lhaving spicy dishes and all...
only recently i realises that.. i MUST have spicy food . in every meal. kidna scary eh
like.. the first thought ... be it lunch or what .its liek. .ok.. chilli3....
oh man...
i don think thats good huh? ...i dunno.. .but.. its beena habit now.. used to it. .and i liekit..

thoughtummy not gd, yet still had the msot spicy chicken wings. ..cos headed there so far.. ....then yea. .wasted if nvr buy..
even bro only ate oen or so. his lips all red. =.=
its.abt of tobasco taste bah... for me. .though spicy, ... yet still quite alright. i like.
but disliek tobasco taste. .liek..soury..

mm..
i wonder if he's lsping now.. .o wel.
uni student mah.. sure busy..

how do u guys handle stress
i wonder

im really bad with that. .rrly
i dunno how to destress
don tel me to smoek or drink
as for exercise.. well.. .
sighs.. lazy la... hate to move. lvoe it when im runnign and sweating. .but.. if i slpt late,.. then thats it=(
sighs. .somemore i tan easily.. if run too late, then yea. ..sun u[p liao... rrly disliek tan now

anyway..regreats aside..

wow. just realled somthing..from workplace. quite long ago .
yea. .someitmes memory just returned=.=

these two aunties..erm.. more of tai tais.
from sg.
they were chating in my sotre.. blah3... oh my children.. study in US.... Uk... your children? ...
oh htey are sstudying in..blah3....
...that rrly pisse sme off
rrly. alot.
i knwo. none of my business. but seriously. its obvious. human nature.whe u say such thing in public, you're feelign good, and boasting. bragging
tats the ugly truth of hu,an nature. anyway
yea. .i disliek it alot .cos. .so haolian. .but at the same time. ..... i wishes... i have the ability..to do that...
but.. my family cant afford..
since young. i knew... diff ppl..diff lives...
.........
ppl live in big hourses.. go overeas study.. eetc etc...  we envy.. but. .we cant change it. .unless we win what.. tot or something=.=

o wel.
but the luckiest thing happened in my life.. is to've met him.
imlucky.

in millionsss and billionssss of humans in this world,.... to find your lvoe one,... its not fate( but it should be) but it's a miracle.
two souls... connected... how amazing is that huh...

i sitll rememebr... durign our date in explanade.. .(haven gott ogether yet)
.he was still plaing with his psp game..the car racing .. ha. he ended up.. getting hanged..and he got lotsssssssssss of pointssssss. haha. anyway... yea.. i was teling hinm.. if that teachser hadnt changed my shcool option, ..i woulntve beeen who i am.. hten immediately.he replaied.. no... shaking his head.. he say no.. as in he rather me to be me now. not someone else.

its amizng.. like. .how i felt so ..naturall..and saem with him.. laying my head on his shoulder.. etc..
when i've even barely know hinm...
glad i trusted the right person

mm.  omg. i forgot what i'd wanted to type=.=.............

again.
oh man

hal still remember.. we went to madarine hotel go toilet.. then to 7 -11 ..he's so hungry.he ate instant cup noodle ..inside 7-11

i wonder.. ....if he still remembr any of thise..........
thoe memories... ar so precious to me....
tats why i made two cscrapbooks for him
it snot easy fo rme.. i've nvr told him.. but .. i knew he's leaving sg... and,. during those times.. i was so upset..and cried alot. ..
i cried so much when i was fdating him..ywet.. he's my first lvoe.and will always be..

i .... so wish.. oto go eat.. bedok fishball noodles with him again.. .... the late night oopen one.. .
if im borned super rich,... i woudlvce gone ther eby now.. ...
sighs ..i wish.. iwish.. h 's able to do that with me.and bring me tehere..

ut yea.. thiking back.. those memories..sp swt.. .
im not gonna say everythign here.. .but. the detaisl when we firs mert, ;as well as in between,.. i still reember clearly...
he's so busy... i bet he ... i think.. he wotnt be able to remember bah..huh.

i fell.. whilst walking down strais from marina square.. then he say.. will hold my hands in case i gfall again..
then.. we kicked some twigs.. like football....
ha...
i hav a feelign he don rememebr.. but.. tis clear in my heads....
i love him so muhc.... i got hurt by him once.. .(officially or more)  .. so im scared..
in fact.. im hurt.. .. moer than once.. but... yea. i wouldnt say anythign .is that a gd thing...

i miss him alrdy

most wondeful memories.. room.. just u and hin...

wow i talking abt him so much here....

imma have inadequate slp again..

mate.......

empress's life

today.. also didn get to msg him much.. though its my off... 

back to uni life.. always life that.... o well... dunno hows he doing there either.. 

me so full... stomach nt good.. eyt. .had spicy chicken wings just now.. not too bad. 

so full.. 

fell aslp yet again.. .

oh man... 

u knwo. .that hk show.. empress in the palace... 

sighs.. so sad... her whole life since 16,or 17... get into palace. .everybody vying for emperors attention.. etc... 

murde.. jealousy.. .etc.... 

poor thing... 

and even her true love... killed in the end... sighs=((yes.. tissue pls... 

then ending.. so sasd. .recap of her past whislt shes slping. .omg... win liao. ...sad. =(

haiz..... 

ervyting that she had gone through.. oh man.. sad. =/ 

its based on true story btw. .thats why more sad... so.. yea. .duno true or nto.. 

haiz.. .shes teh empress by the time shes abt my age. .. adn her love. .gone.. her own son.. also cannot aknowledge.. .=/ 

if her detaislof tru elife is true,... whas the point of being an empress... .

=( 

sighs... 

gosh so full.. hope wont throw up again =( gotta rst soon

mata

tall guys?

mm.. waht shld i type...

u know.. alot of customers mistook me for being youngster.
mm.. so paiseh ne. im a woman already mah. but. .well.. ig uess in a way its good bah.. .at least not like ppl meant that as negative.. its a good thing bah.
mm.. difficult to put into words.. but.. yea..
forget it. haiyo

anyway, what a tiring body ne.. .ha. woke up thiking oh yea no wodner so tired. cos been working three days alrdy. then was like... ...omg. only one day had passed. today 2nd day back to work only (after off) . and haven even started, im alrdy so tired n slpy.
more of body.. fatique. huu

been falling aslp on sofa jsut like old times.. .but this time no samy pick me up

rememebr ytd i mentioned that col of mine? so her bf is very tall. and she say his dad passed awasy alrdy. so left with mum. but his dad side of family is very typical. like. .they'll say she's too short for him. =.=.. like wth right??? luckily she say she don need see them often. ha. phew. luckily her aunt lives there. she can stay with her. if not. his sis is there.. also toruble brews. =.=
lucky for her. at elast her aunt is there.
but yea. .wth. height also wanna find problem. so high standard this type of family =.=

she and i can talk alot abt this man. haha.
oh yea and since we have abt same height, our bf also abt same bah. both tall. when told her abt how i cant wear high heels in syd sadly due to syd need ot walk v v long. its not liek underpass..taka..trian to somerset...bedok etc. its like. .from one place to another, u need to cross lights..walk3... etcetc.. .down dunno how many streets. so wearing heels, will be a disater. somemore im headin gout everyday.
she also. find it painful to wear and walk so far. somemore tal guys walk fast. ha.
so yea.
if only i live there, can once in a while wear high heels bah. but yea. .holiday mah.. limited to bring. .adn need to walk alot everyday . due to treasure some time. not liek can rest my feet for one day. cant wear slippers if winter time too. so yea.
o well. its ok. height only.
wear wedges bah ha

kk so late. gtg. tmr sure slpy again=/=.

mata

looking good

gosh. cant believe that stalker' is back. in my store. omg..... i was so shocked. no wonder he;s so familiar. then my colleague servin ghim. so yea. indeed. he has the accent. he's tall. wears spec. everythign abt him. i recognized. so freaky. i didnt even noticed him till he was served by my col .
my col say he actually wak past store..then came in. looking ard...like pressing phone..etc. i didnt even noticed him. omg. v shocking. hopefully wont see him again =/
somemroe can ask for a huge size ring. excuse or waht. he's insane perhaps. oh man.. hwy is he always in town>?? T_T

ha. my col asked me. ''.u have degree right? if you say u have master (degree), seriously i will also believe. because you really seems like a person with that'' as in.. i look like a person who has degrees /master degree type of person. if that makes sense. ha.  i was like ..wahhhh such nice comments arrrrrr XD
first time someone tells me that. haha. so nice.
maybe .. cos the way i talk, work or dunno bah. but... haha. so nice ar. that sort of impression haha. like ppl think u are clever and even look clever. ha

my col was smoking .and suddenly she say.. wah you will look very sexy if u smoke.
=.= erm.... i was like. .i dunno how she picture it.. but.. yea.. .maybe cos was wearing a bright red lipstick colour bah.
she say my teeth is very white. aint the first time alrdy. or maybe cos their teeth yellow from smoking. .thats why say mine is white bah.
but.. ok leh. i think mine so so.
but sometimes lipstick can make ur teeth look yellow.
as in the colour u choose.
mm.. yea.
but glad ppl think my teeth very white haha.
=)

ahh.. .hoopefully. .might be able to see sammy soon..
but. .don think we are able to meet at gold coast and... yea.. soudns difficult to plan bah eh
gosh slpy liao. thighs hurts.. .from running.
ytd.

yawn.. kk gnna slp bah

the feelign of knowing i can see him soon is great.

oh my col studied in syd for five years. ahh.. amybe can ask her more too... her bf there. he alrdy came back before to see her. but busy. so din chat more to her. but owuld lvoe to.

jaa mata

beginning of a new life

rrly like this anime ending song. by wakaba. but jap title.
so wont be putting it here.

stomach still not gd.
gosh. tat time of month coming bah. mood so bad . can cry.
then wanna cook also nothing to buy. gosh. rrly feel so down .
stomach now so full though. drank too much water

sorry. keaving ut some part of my life days here. dun wanna talk too much i try

but anyway,
last night also stomahc so full. hopfully tonight can slp well
gosh =/

aww so happy for this couple. youtube girl. pregnant alrdy. haha .what a swt curprised for her hubby on xmas day. awwww
think they got married in... sept isit? rrly cant rememebr. but eya. .so swt.
can u imagine waking up and finding out youre pregnant? scary yet such good news. like so many things to think about. gosh.
his reaction is nice too.
was like. .are u sure? haha.
but good bah. unlike some guys reaction not happy. thinking oh no having a baby liao.
anyway they hav two dogs. v v v vsuper cute dogs.
so.. i think they'll be ready for baby bah.
such swt news.
sssssssthats the same couple i mentioned before. they broke up once before. but got back together.
he's rrly a nerdy average joe looking guy.
not handsome,
quirky looking, but shes ok. pretty bah.
if not how to be youtube star ha.
but yea. glad this high school swthearts hav happy ending.
and baby is jsut another beginning for them .
ahhh soooo nice ne
rrly great news
think they.. .11 yrs alrdy... together.
so ncie

yawning. yet stomahc too full to slp
goshhhhh helppppp almost wanna throw up again.
argh

anyway, glad his day is better than mine. though.. .didnt get to msg him much... think he went out  relax meet his fren or waht bah.. .
but yea.

feel like my off day wasted.
been feeling this way for quite long.
hopefully will feel better and happier soon.
rrly do.
dislike feelign sad.
huu

mata

full to sleep .kirai

gosh so full =( as though imma throw again =/ 

hate to feel so full before slp huuu yet so slpy and fallen on sofa yet again.. bro alwasy tries to wakey me. haha. oops. poor him .

=so hard to trust nowadasy..  sighs. .

i dunno anymore.. confused

sooo full arghhh

so glad to see my previous vm . erm.. lets called her as.. head of vm.. erm.. .high vm bah. =.= 

finally .so lucky to see her on her last day. phew... cos jsut so glad to work with her ya know.. thet are nice ppl.. the ho. so yea. 
last min bought her a lil choco with note thank u note.. 

she rrly did drop by my store .and gave me a cupcake. she say to me. .im the most delightful person.. awwwwww

yea when she handed me the cake, i almost cried ha. teary eyes. gosh. so easily touched. =.= 

but yea. so awesome... rrly touches my heart. 
we hugged a couple of times.. .

it was jsut so great to worked with her ya know... it was scary. ofc. cos shes so serious and fast and .. yea. but still qite ok bah

yet i wasnt afraid to givec her my opnion.. 

yea .that, im very proud of myself. ha. dunno why im so courageous. 

anyway, yea. .short couple of days. yet was so great to see the way she work and all.. 

mm... rrly strong memories bah 

ha. so glad she stil lrememebr me.  rrly awesome. happy to talk to her todya =) 

may shes coming again. hopefully will get to see her again 

dunno whats wrong with spaces today and lines. don mind ne

sianz. nvr msg him much again. 

wrong timings agian and again

jsut need to slp it all away

ha. new song to listen whislt typing. boa so close to me 

mm.. haven dl to my phone. .wonde rif able to alrdy or not. nvr try. 

gosh. sooo full

my mind's like. .don run jsut slp. .don run... slp........ 

oh man..... =( 

no motivcation liao. jsut wana slp sianz

cannot ne. huu

wha tt do..

mm.. have i eaten my night med? ... .=.=..... forogt. arghhhhhh soemtimes it sliek that. .. dang... then unsure.. .then afraid to eat.. cso only meant for once a day.. .how ar. .

think i'll take the risk bah

gonna slp soon

cant think liao.

kk.. mata

weirdo again

just a quick blog here. so slpy

dunno what to blog. .oh yea.

today whislt wlaking back to store, this man from opposite direction suddenly reaches out his hand and offered me a piece of small papaer. idnt rrly read it. think some sort of address bah.
then he was like. .heres a room for rent for ladies only. wth?
of all ppl he suddenly giv me. so scary. very psycho i tell u
argh.. alwasy kena these weird ppl. as if i'll fall for it.
skali same guy as that tiem the one in bus. omg. touchwood. my fren say maybe im too pretty. i was ike. .omg. pls. no k. maybe i shld dress down mroe huh. ==

wow. my country manager today so gd mood. talk and laugh and smile sooo much. O.o bt ppl say thats cos shes in gd mood. dunno ba
anyway, shewas tlakunbg abou hk. saying she wanna send two or so chiense staffs to hk. cos theres alot of china tourists there.
and the crowds are like packed everyday. (wow thought only sg town like that)
anyway, she say jsut watch out for more news.
mm.. dunno bah they will send me anit. but think there;ll be more suitable candicates bah.
someomre me still new

haiz... if only i know how and what to do everything right now. .=/ abit irritating...
i just liek to do thigns great bah. dun wanna make mistakes.. though i knwo thats knida liek inevitable.. haiz

kk. .so slpy. gtg slp in abit

mata

oprah advice

sighs.. today at work... quite disappointing=/ .. .rrly hope i can do better speed at changin wall..

anyway, nothing is gonna be easy..

soooo slpy. only had three hrs of slp. or less.
din slpt well last night.
wasnt feeling well. =/ stomach prob bah. huu... .
mmust rrly tc..

heard the radio say.. according to oprah mag or boook or waht... the top five main reason to cause a breakup. or rather, that can cause a breakup.

dunno if i can remember...

there is.. .cooking... see if ur partner will say.. omg so easy... such simple meal also dunno how to cook ar.

friends.. cos ppl revelaed their true personaility when they are with frens. cos with ur partner, you'll tend to be more discreet, polite, and try to be gentle.. .but when with frens, ha. diff story. ur true self is out.
i gotta say though.. thats bloody true. hahahah.
cos i stil lremember.. one time... going home liao.. near parkway bus stop. sammy suddenly bumped into his army.. or rather scdf mate. then he's all laughing and i heard he said the f word. lollll.. .when after ihe's gone, ia sked sammy.. did u just cursd? sam say no lol. but im pretty sure he did. ha. but yea. .was rrly surprised back then. like.. oh. i didnt know thats how he talk to his frens. he's so.. cheery and  talk loudly. butit snice la. with me he's gentle and tender.
and when he met his female fren we went movie together... he then left me behind remember?
and the aussie trip jamberoo.. he's more open and outspoken bah.
cos its true in a way.. .sometimes we treat out love ones with care nad tenderness.... but with frens diff mah.
cos we don love them as our partners.
so.. yea...

but perhaps when its abit too serious, like.. .doing mean or rude thign swith fren sard, then shld rethink abt being with that person liao. cos not everyone true self is good when they are with their frens

then theres also.. .can partners lvoe u for who u are?
after makeup off...
or wear ur home closthes.. etc... hair washed.. will they still love u?
or cannot stand it, and decided to leave .
cos htey only love u when you clubbing etc..
u know.
ha. sammy say i look kawaii without makeup. with makeup is beautifuXD hope thats true lol.
first time no makeup with him he din realized till short while later .he say.. wait.soemthigns different. we were in my room. then he say me no makeup ar. i say yea. he say i still look beautiful. haha. was so shy .

mm... oh and in car. or even a bus travel .
cos small space and cramped.
u can tell his personaility if theres a bad traffic etc.. will he los ehis pateience? staart to scold or cusrde or get fed up at u.. perhaps for talking...etc...
i recalled we took boat to parramata.. then was so excited to see somehitng... wokey him unknowingly.. he got irritated. say next time don ever do that again=(
huu...... sad. but.. i understand la.. cos not enough slp..he will like that one.. .
but yea.. .was happiky gonna share what i saw mah.. ..o well.. past is past.


mm.. .think theres a fifth one ne.. but rrly cant remember.... O.o
cos few days back.. wanted to blog earlier.. but too tired. slpy mah. got work early mrg.
o welll
anyway, too bad. thats abt it bah

interesting though.

but its pretty true.

kk gtg.

so glad bro is back home safely. phew

mata

probs night

sooooo extremely slpy and tired now. huu.. cant believe im gonna slp early later, shld be.. oh yea.. perhaps check out crunchyroll first.

felt bad for waking sammy up with my msgs. suddenly jsut happened so yea..

so my fren's bf.. also facing the same prob. she quralled with her bf bro .and his mum sidede with him, and chinded my colleague. ok fren easier to spell. so yea.
saying ive tolerate u for a very long itme alrdy. she was shocked. anything unhappy say first mah. 4 yrs alrdy. now then say such htings. so mean to my fren=( feel so sad for her. somemore v day nvr giv her anything. and they had a fight again. cos  she told him things. he's ignoring her msg. evading it. yea. talk abt evade. hateed that too
so poor thing=( sighs.
heard they are well to do family. bu dunno la.
seriously... cannot like that mah. dunno whts the full story.. but his mum even said she didnt help her out with cookking
if so say earlier la. why holdit so long .then nw say tolerate u so long.wth.
communicate mahhhhh =. =
my fren say shes tired form work. ( trust me. our job is v v v busy and tiring. stressful too)
somemore shes not her daughter in law .
the 2nd line ... i don rrly agree.. half half bah. i know wahere shes coming from. but the tired part.. rlry.. .can tell u. no joke.
maybe shes thinking. .tired still must cook is a daught in law job bah.. but she snot one yet.
m...mm.. maybe somemore her bf treat her like. .so light ly eh. dunno bah.
no time listen also. cos no drink with her. she wannted to. cos she need to tlak.
haiz.
i feel her.
thought they invited her for family cny dinner etc.. meaning like her. but she shakes her head and replied ..not so.
thats how i found out.. suddenly reminded me of my own case. .haiz
o well.. at least she get to talk with his parent right.. if anything can communicate.. me.. no chnance at all
anyway thats all in the past liao. nvm

then suddenly my other fren msg.. say wan be with me la.. etc.. wth????
i was so angry. like. i dun even bother toreply alrdy. im not going ot keep this kind of fren.

my sm told me. onec a woman's feeligns for a man is ogne, no matter what he do, her feeligns will be be back again.
i think thats how i feel perhaps> >don get me wrong. as in frenship. not love felings k =/=
duh.
like.. don wanna even be frens liao. told ya isnt it.
once i know soemone like mem, i'll keep my distance. and thatss how i lost so many frens. sighs
o well. ..but whatever bah...
not gonna listen to his words
so thick skinned ne
omg
they can be insanced with words. so irritating. anyhow only .wahtever la. don givec a dang

i rrly would love to run tmr. but..dunno .. if slp early perhaps willauto wakey eaerly to run.

mm.. seems to be missing something....

dunno bah

anyway bought two bras and 4 panties. huu cos ta bombT_T
but i rlr like the front closure bras!!!
and 3 out of 4 panties happens to be neon pink=.=
haiz... waht to do.. those are the designs i like. yet no other colours. o well...

kk.. gtg bah

forgot what else to type

so nice to have sammy made me smile even when im in the most extremem tired mode. meaning cant talk no expression mode.
but i smiled abit jsut now. so thats ncie. uh huh

kk gtg
nights

lucky girl

its nice to slp alil early ytd.. but wokey early though..thsi mrg.. not gd. cos get slpy

anyway,
sammy been sick so yea.. didnt rrly get to celebrate any v day.. not even today.. but at least so glad ot be with him when he's down n sick .
hard to control cos sometimes me closing. but will always worried and care for him even if at work.
just cant msg thats all..
anwyay, hopefully he'll be fine by tmr.. or at least better. much better

why ar... ha. even my colleague say.. her impression of me is im so strong and independant.
say whatttttttttttt O.o.........
why everyone saying im strong?
.... thought on ly at my previous company.. sm alwasy say that. bt.. .
mm.. i think ne. my smile bah?
cos i will always be smiling on the shop floor.
u knwo. liek no problem at all. etc
perhaps tahts why? ...
dunno bah
amazes me O.o

ahh so swt. this youtuber.. .im not a huge fan of her liek others or whatsoever .but someitmes will noticed her new vids .but i don watch all of them( like id said not a fan)
i know shes a nice person / gd life/ love her family..etc.
but dunno. jsu tnot a fan. perhaps. .cos of envy her life?
envy too much = not gd. so better not know her too well .
if that makes sense.
anwyay, finally get to learn of her love story. aw... so swt. she met her now bf in paris. and her story so swt. like.. .happened in a cafe one day...
then talked for hrs. .he helped her out when she cant answer the cafe waiter or owner in french.
then they ended up talked fo rhours.
remidned me of sammy. after sammy called, looking fo rhis fren alex', we ended up chatting for 3 hrs. 12-3am. will never ever forget that day =)))))))
swt.

everybody will have their own love story. some dramatic, some swt, some sad, some touching .i hope bottom line is, all will ahve a good best sweetest ending ever to their love life. =)

but yea... rlry swt. think she mentioend abt something.. he taught her to love or what. cos she was hurt before.. .and thinking true love wont gonna happen to her.. etc. soemthign like that.
but he taught her to love, and he show her that he is serious with her..etc. so yea.

stupid right. can u imagien which stupid guy will abandon her???
now she got everythignm, etc. suc h a ncie girl. which ex of her so stupid enough to throw their love away??
but then again.. when she first started outm, think ive seen her old vids before... she was quite chubby... and.. yea. no so pretty..etc.
okok bah.
but still. stupid ex.

even fann wong also. her ex dumped her .read it in news. see. now shes so successful and rich and pretty and stil lyoung looking. now got a great hubby christopher lee. now expecting her first child after yearssss of trying.

soemtime su jus twonder. why their ex so baka to throw them away. .=.=
ih yea... when fann first started out, she was chubby abit too... but then... dun think shes still chubby when her ex dumped her bah. not sure. but yea. its his loss

kinda nice pretty women, yet kena dumped for bitches.=.=
argh wth.
i bet they;ll regret it for life. serves them right

mm.. think im also chubby when i first met sammy... but he still love me.. im touched. i didnt even realized im chubby then. though.. am i rrly chibby? i rlry dunno. i think abit?? i dunno. or perhaps due to pics bah. anyway,
only realized i lost weight when during that time when he's leaving for sg.. and ppl commenting on it.  perhaps due to sadness and stress bah.. lost abit of weight during that time.. =./ so yea..
cried too much.

anyway. every year i feel like im changing. even in recent polaroid photo... also kind aownder. .wohoa. whos that girl .oh its me.

but all good thign bah.

still remember he said tha tmany years ago... he rrly wish to be liek his colleague.. abt same age. .owns a car.. great income or something. kinda .. sorta..remember him ba.. glasses i think. .dunno. unsure abit.
just felt he's weird htat itme.. .got one time rushing to meet him. i was in heels.. we walk v v fast cos running late. valantines day. think he's getting my pressy bracelt from that guy.
either that or some other work reason or somethign.
then i was sweating v badly. taht guy was like took out his tissue, and gonna wipe my sweat fo rme.
( liek htat psycho uncle) anyway, yea. i was like thinking. .erm.. sammys there.. .. who would dare do that sia. unless he's hte rare type of ppl who rrly nvr thought of that.
maybe he is that type or rare ppl ba=/=
but yea... prior to that i did felt uneasy abit.. more of like.. intuition .. likei'd mentioend before. .gut feeling saying something's not right.

lo. dunno why im tyoping this. anyway thats all in the past.
but... yea.

sometimes i wonder. ..those exs of these nice women,.. are they beating themselves up now??
regreting and everything?
if i were the guy, sure will do so.

ha.. .can laugh at them liao. bakaness.
rlrly

hurt their feelings. yet in the end, they c ame out betterm, triump, awesoem life, looking their best, and even with a better partner.
hwo ncie.
they can cry and regret in their own lil black dark corner forall they care

perhaps they see them as.. being too nice . or nothing  much.. . .then go for the voxy bitchy or whaatevr type... ha. see who has the last laugh now =.=

anyway, both thei new guys showed that not all guys are out to hurt them. and there are still true love out there.
so envy whenever see their pics.. adn all...
but i refrained form watching. .cos later jealous..
but ea. her bf is very handsome. a model. and super tall. ha. like sammy and i.
the height. but yea.. .
my sammy is stil lthe handsome most awesoem looking guy ever. too bad he's taken by me ;)

anyway, happy for her. she's a strangerm, but she s a lucky girl nontheless.
not everyone in this world can own everythign they wan. do waht they love. she did. sxhe has it all. and now, she even have this bf whos so great and loving to her.

some ppl, successful all their lifes, owns evertyhingm, yet.. .failed to find any true love.... shes a lucky girl .found him in paris. more of like. .he found her. he's hte oen who approached her to help her out first=)

but yea.. especially if you're rich, its hard to tell if ppl love u for u, or for ur money ,reputation or status......
awesome for them. think they toggether...2yrs at elast. .or just 2 yrs. don rrly know the details.
she just wrote.. We came from two different worlds, spoke different languages and lived on 2 different continents. We were apart for 2 years, but made it work it was hard, but it's worth it. 

so yea. think he's still in paris bah.. unsure. liek i'd said. im not a fan of her. so i dunno the rest of her story. 
but happy that her life is lucky. 
anyone would lvoe to be in her shoes. .but well. every lives are different. 
k bah. gotta get back to my not so nice reality ha. 

slp soon

another long day ahead. 
cos blogged this for liek half an hr or so bahO.o.. .wow

we are all lucky in our own ways. be it little or big.. .
im lucky enough to have his love.. to've met him.. and know him.. to love him... 
how about yours..

kk mata

happy valentine's day

oops.. sorry peepes... needed soem titme alone to sort out my thinkings the days before. ..so yea.. sighs
anyway. glad im sorta passed that now i think...

been super stressed out at work the past 5 dasy due to work, as in till wed.
=/ as in extremely stress. sighs.
also glad thats over now. just so much stress going on..

anyway, happy valentinesd day people.

so nice. see ppl got flowers. sm also. her bf gib her.
lilys
i was holindg onto this bouquet of roses from customer cos my colleague serving her. and boy... it smells good. i thought its on ly in movie or dramas. but its true. u can smell hte fresh flowers.. mm.. nice... haha.
=)
sammy bought me a stalk of rose before. one piece. .a stalk right? but yea .rrly appreciate that. better than nothing. ha.

mm... today indian couple. the bf dunno  no patience or waht. maybe gf took too long in store looking for items. ? then in the end after payment, she still look2... then he said something and stormed outta the store. i was like. why so angry? i dunno the details.. but..s eriouslyu so upset with him. he was like.. ''just setle the bill''. i wa slike thiking. .hello?? /ur gf still choosing. htink i no need to scan ar??
=.=
obviously hes nvr been in sales job before. argh
but yea. maybe he's rushign her to get out .. but seriously.. .so irritating.. .have pateinece la. so ungentlement!
stormed off liek that. so rude to his gf. or wife i duno
argh. v v hateful. rrly dislike this kind of man. ungentleman at all
this is a great example of ppl not cherishing and treating everyday as honeymoon sweet period.
later other guys show her the pateinec, then he'll know

but ofc. i dunno whats the story or details behind it all. but.. yea. at that moment, i jsut dislike him for being soooo rude. =.=
ungentleman is a big nono. =.=

took polaroid pics today. was surprised. i looked diff. ha. in a good way. like..  i didnt know that could be me,. i like what i saw. i like how it turned out .
nice pics.
makes u thik ..oh thats me? but wow. in a good way

still kinda srtress. .but reduced abit cos not closing. thank god not closing tonight. if not more stress

sighs...
what shld i do to life myself up.. think besides work.. .everything is pretty stressful... o well...

so slpy. not been resting nor slping well.. for a week plus le ba

kk.. hopefully cna slp early. kidna full

tonight thought will skype and movie date with sammy. sadly he's too sick. i hope he will be fine soon.  evryday can be a v dayw ith him bah. just gd enough at the very least, i get to sms him. luckily not night shift

think sammy forgot to check his mail.. .i wonder if i'd sedn him that e card before.. hoepfully not...
hope he will like it ne. .

holy cow. jut read a newss. din know syd park also can kena gang-raped . =X huu.. .this world sucks. totally. big time. human sucks. evil .=(

mata ne

p.s ha. rgm say she ahted v day. cos her bf in syd. ldr sucks she said. haha.

it happened again..

ha.. customer of mine. .whos a beautican, say i have quite good skin. gosh. given such comments by her is like yay. imagine a beautican say your skin not good, then how. die. heartpain.

boa jsut released a v v v vv nice song. very western disney movie like theme song. i like it alotttttttttttttt. cant wait for her new jap album to be out. so far all her singles i like very much. =)

sighs.. .

i feel like .. i've given out too much info abt my life. i dont know about his. u know how much i hated to be hide upon or lied upon.
time and again.
tsuru tsuru tsuru tsuru
..

makes me just don wanna share anything anymore

sianz

sighs. been slping late. tonight hopefullly i'll have a better rest bah
no mood liao .

oh yea. today colleague demostrated the hair bun on me fo rcustoemrs se.e. ha. so weird. ppl watching . anyway, its very mafan to put up the bun. but today when i look into the mirror whislt shes doing it, i was surprised. it suited me alot .and my hair's up.. i look like a lil girl lol .i look pretty.
O.o
sounds like im boasting rright. but no. its like. that moment, i just looked liek someone diff abit. cos usually hair is down n long.. soemtiems irritating.. then when hair neatly into a bun, shown myh face, .. soemthign liek that ..i jus tlooked abit more diff only. and for myself, i think wow. i look pretty right there n then .
its a nice moment.

moment counts.
but soemtimtes ppl dunno hwo to treasure.

anyway... sighs

kk. gdnight

mata

stress about work

sighs.. wish theres rrly such a world to escaped to. like that anime .i wouldnt wven wanna come bck to earth .rather die there.

had such a abad night. sighs.
like i;d said. .expect too much from myself. i dont lkike any single bit of mistake. but its inevitablei know .but yet.. .i hate it.
sighs.
so sad. cried when i reached hom.e was trying to control my tears.
till i get hoem =(
sobz
even now. im still upset.

so late alardy. even withouth the night pill, i still fell aslp on sofa whilst watching tv
didnt had dinner. jsut some nuts n seaweeds.
sobz
so slpy. imma slp with hair damp later. no choice. too late now

sighs. nothing is making me feel better.. though manages to chat abti with him.. yet. .he's not gonna be ard again. .
at leazst better than nothing. ..sighs.
=/

so sad. work stresses. maybe small mater to others. but its big to me. thogh dunno was it me. i dunno .im just thinking it shld be. most probably. yea.
sighs

heart is suffocating .
best thing is to slp now. tmr wakey dunno whats gonna happen though =/
life sucks
hate it.
not worth it

wonder if sammy is heading out alrdy or not..
so late now. but his early morning alrdy. dunno what time he's leavving

but appreciate the fact that he waited fo rme till i get home then slp

luckily he sned me the manga chapter thingy. if not. i dunno where to look from. given up alrdy
ha. o well

sighs... gonna get throghanother few more days.. .
so tired.
stress
slpy. so imma try sllp now.
 by the time i slp will be over 3am alrdy bah. ow ell

mata

jaa

hi again part 2 =)

another 6 days shiftcoming.. ,,

oh yea. in case youre wondering why theres a part 2, thats because... hahahaha. i just recaelled some stuffs while i was bathing =P so yea. shortly after the blog jsut now, abt 2hrs or so ? i blog again. haha. be sure to check that previous  out

(but i forgot very fast as well T_T)

sadly. cant find the anime i was looking for in youtube. dunno what ot watch now.. =/

rgm say that a wedding in syd is very exp. well shes from syd. she said that usually its between 30,000 -- 40000
sg is cheaper can u believe it!? she was half joklingly saying that she will get married here and ask her frens and family to fly here instead lol
but yea. i rrly  .. nvr wouldve guess that aust is more exp O.o
heard hdb block style is abt 8konly.

but yea..  wow. then her fren recenlty had a 100guest small wedding.. also still cost abt 30k
dunno what place la.,
to them, 100 is considered as alot.but seriously... ofc.. once ina lifetime mah.... who dun wan a memorable one?? but.. if reality wont allow it, its ok. aslong as two happy, just do a simple cheap one. super close frens.even if less than 20, its fine isnt it.
who knows. in future.somehow we strike it rich, will be able to renew vows. revows... yea. .speaking of that. .i find it so romantic that old couples.. or middle age couples still does it .=;)
so romantice and so sweet.
insteazd of saying.. crazy ar? married once not enough stillwa nna go through again waste money isit??
=.=
if u love someone, and if u treasure him or her alot, u wont say tat.
ofc. having said that, meaning must rrly have enough money la. ha.

and my rmg also said that.. her bf disliek her cut her hair into pixie style. very short.
then she also tied up her very short hair like mylie cyrus(she likes her) . lke two buns. like sailor moon get it?
then when she wake up, she take off clip ofr soemthing.
then ehr hair will be like. .ermm... curly ?
yea.
she say her bf say.. dont do that.

hahaha.... true2... but point is.. he still lvoe her right. he still makes the effort to see her. or be in ldr. i think thats sweet. its a great exampole of how u love their flaws. u accpet them tto. for who they are.
not the serious ones la.. like kill ppl.. .eat ppl... raper ppl.. etc... =/.=
but the normal things or habits they dislike, compromise, and accept.. . or viece versa.. change ..(those small one detaisl) .. say.. soem ladies lvoe to leave their seats down.. guys love to lift up.i asked sammy before. he say he doesnt mind. for me, netiehr. i have no prob. up or down is fine by me.
but dunno why so any girls dislike the toilet seats up\O.o

ohhhh!!! after so lnog, today im playing disturbance by boa again. cso not good mood. .ao wel..

anyway, i jsut saw!!! the guy had the same ring as i do! it from my store one. lol .
XD
but i sitll love my ring from sammy the best. even showed it to my sm and colleague today haha. saying its my most precious form him =3
*blush
but yea.
i like the ifact f havig soemthign to wear everyday on ur body from ur love one. its.. a great feleign bah. sweet assured and remindes u that he's htere.

a pity he ddint rrly like the couple ring designs .cos reason of the blings.. or u know. etc. so .. yea. we never get any when he was here. ow ell

wonder what if i'd said.. its ok to just get the plain ones huh.... o well... =/
anyway... wouldve still been sad even if he didint wear it

,,.. that sit bah.. dunno  hav i forgot to add anything anot hmm...o well
anyway gonna slp late tonight. a pity he cant stay up late.

so bored. bro not homesighs. im all alone =(
.....so ..bored. .sighs

recent anime i watche dis nice. but .. omg the love story part. .. not that interested ba
but the storyline.. soooo goood. one of my dream if able to live in a adventure magical world. ..rrly. wish for it.
if. .its true. .its real... who wouldnt wanna head htere eh........ o well .
so nice. the stroy line .rrly good idea. good store. just if only i dont have to watch the love storey part and get sad .. o well. but yhea. the game storyline. fabulous. wish i could join in the game..

my sm asked.. why i don wanna work makeup artist line... cos we were at sephora.. and. .she didnt know what certain thigns does. .i explained to her. .then she sliek. .since uknow so much. .why din u get that job.. as in makeupline .i would love to.. but. .it seems as though. .so difficult ne =/
.dunno bah... haiz. life decisions.. ....im lsot.


tahs why more time talk to u all bah

mata

hi again =)

gomen ne.. been lazy to blog lately. also due to busy and tiredness..

been such a unhealthy week. crap ne. if only can maintain healthy always. o well

missing him alot. finally received abit of msgs from him 

thought he'll first thing msg me when hes able to . owe ll. anyway, next thing i know, he's off to bed. cant blame him. hes too tired bah. but so shocked he slp liao. no time to even chat more. o well
after that, i gourge myself with food.. then yea. satisfied liao. felt better.

guess after next week maybe better bah. see how

saw this yellow stains on my pillows. was like.. kinda disgusting looking. ha. like its spreading kinda marks.. u know. i thought.. germs? or bateria or what. cos that pillow supposed to be a good one. 

anti blah3... .so was puzzled. 

then today was like crying whilst head on my pillow.. 

it suddenly dawned on me.  hey. those stains were my tears!

hahaha. finally pulle solved. but yea. damn. din know its gonan stain m pillows. =.= 

o well. 

slpy morning last min preparation for meeting. luckily i do. phew.... somemore that one no discussions. that topic i do alone. =.= 

o well

mm.. 

and one of my best fren. went back to his c ountry liao. sighs. 

had dinner with him and his gf the other day. o wlel. 

so sad. all my frens leaving. but dunno he's coming back anot. 

that guy ar. thought of stepping two boats with one foot. argh. dunno whats he thinking. 

somemore this girl is swt and pretty u know. 

duno why he prefer the other uglier and psycho maniac type. always stalked him etc.that time he complain3... then now duno la. i think he's mad. 

but anyway, had i mentioned this last week? 

O.o i forgot

so he went shopping for clothes. (i saw the clotehs would love to buy for sammy. rrly .so nice. but sadly he's not here. and i cant send him anthing) 

and he keep asking for my opnion. 

his gf. .i think she's ok bah. but im like... omg. ur gf leh. ask her la. later she upset how. 

dunno abt here. but If i were her, wi will get so upset with sammy. 

at least ask ur gf first. then ask ur fren la. 

make me so worried for the girl. i even tried staying away abit. but he still turn to me and ask me nice anot.. =./= 

omg. that guy ar... no. i think most guys. just no sensitive feelings to them. not all. but most. =.= 

sorry. 

not their faults though. cos girls ..most are sensitive bah

still rememebr after movie. .long time ago. 

then sammy nvr even hold my hand. and walk straight up to his fren whos smoking. female. then talk to her. 

leaving me at the back. with no one i know. 

huu.... +pout. shocker eh. o well. 

sighs. 

anyway, so nice. sm gave us valentines day chocolate. 

mini one. like a simpe type. 

to think that day was joking with them that i nvr recevive valentine days pressy for many years liao ha. mm.. oh yea. cos one of them ask me buy for her v gift. i say.. her bf can do  that. cos no one gib me for so long liao ne. should gib me. duno isit hat why sm buy choco for us. mm.. 

oh yhea. in case youre wondering. cos he's overseas

slpy still not enough slp then went meeting

luckily tmr can slp late

ha. rgm still cna rememebr. im going back to work even on my off day. again. 

not work. but meetin ga d sign contract etc. 

but yea. its difficult to arrange time due to sg timeslot. 

so many thigns wanna tell sammy over then things. but forgot most of them liao .ha

o well

so rgm said again.. that we have to dress best of the best. esp cos its Aplus store. dress till big boss can tell oh htats from team ____a. .

haiyo... msut take pics again for another week. =.= 

for the best dress. apparantly the winner not out yet for the other week .gonna wait for sm decision. sm thought rgm must make the decision .

o well. must think of what to wear again for the next week to come. 

wish me luck

today bought a dress simple one. and a skirt. OMG> the material sooooo softttttttttttttttttttt 

so smoothhhh hif sam here. .haha .thats it. cant keep his hands off. 

and a crop top.. .red one. oh man... =/ decidedcd not to buy. cos its v cut. and ea.. my boobs. 

worse than my other crop top maybe

so. .decided not to get it. if sammy is here. will get. cos i feel protected. but.. .yea. wear that. .awalk alone, thats it. uncomft with eyes ard 24.7

mm.. as though im tlaking to him here ...ha. cos suddenly recalled alot of thigns

must think then can rememebr. if askon the spot.. sometimes hard to recall 

so nice. 2 sm who worked for over a year( including my sm) , they get to go australia 5 days for work in may. sooooooooo envious. haiz.... this company is soooo great and generous. rrly nice. at previous one, .. .work there e4yrs. also dunno what i get. 

lots of experience though .

liek my previous rgm used to say... 

eh don care abt education. work experience is the most important. cso money cant buy that. 

and yes. i am proud to have those years of experience. 

=) 

so swt. my fren bought me candies. in turn, i bought staff opruchase item for her. prices fair enough .its the thoughts that counts.was rrly touched. cos i like the andies. .but always nvr buy. i din tell her. but told her its cute. then she bought fo rme =) . so swt . but. .few ppl are that nice nowadasy .sighs. .

anyway, rgm say. .after meeting . that we get our choice of statement necklace , bangle and earrrings for free .wow .and we get a bold colour of choice lipstick from the company too. sephora brand la. $20 ne. O.o 

better than nothing. 

soooo generous! all becos of they want us to look good. 

maybe they rrly did consider the fact that not all team members can afford lipstick and stuff. but well. they cant provide everythign mah. outfit we still must wear. 

anyway.  jsut picked out my five outfits for next week. omg. all black and white .XD

dunno why... ive been loving the black and white colout combinations. not say loving it. but.. jsut. .somehow... the ones i bought and like, are all in balck and white. oh man .i need more colours. 

so hard to find a top i like. oh. .the above i just mentioned in my previous blog isit. ow ell. dunno .nvm. 

kk. gtg. 

so nice to blog again =) 

mata

new taste of colours

gtg ruch for slp huuuuu

so slpy today. nvr set alarm=/ luckily.. rrly thakn god.. i woke up ealry and realized it... phewwwwwwwwww

sammy in campo now bah... disliek it.. cos.. always no gd memories from it=/
even now so.. he hasnt reply my msg.. no internet. .too tired etc reasons bah
so yea. .dislike him going far.. cos .. will change desu. =/

anyway..

gosh. my colleague .. tat same fgirl.. like.. saying.. to me. .that butt.. .then... like accidentally thigns bump onto my butt and chest. waht sia. of all ppl she? so weird. dunno coincidence or what-/ -
omg. weir....

i just realized.. ive been ewarign alot of blac k and whites. like. .yea. i didn know u know... wow. so weird...
i wish to wear more colourful clothigns.. but.. dunno ne.. always end up liking bnw
so weird eh.. wy ar.. probable cos its cool? dunno ba
but sometime sim attracted to colourfukl clothigns too

cant wait to off. one more day man..
haiz.. mrg shifts..then sammy no wfree.. night shifts.. then he's free.. somethimes like that ..o well

ahh.. i had a good time havign steamboat.
so full. been eating alot latel.ly

kk.. gtg,. not gonna slp alot =/

7a, shift.. .meep..

mata

anime

so sad.. one of the anime epi... i cried... modreately... moer than the violent one which i'd jst finished.

bit yea..

its cnie though,. hte movie concept and all.. .wish its reality.. .

ha. my lcollegaue still doing the same old thing .liek touches my back.. then.. accidentally using a tool box to touch my butt... dunno la... as longa s its not a guy

small blog here as i rushing off to bed. v v slpy

haiz.

mrg shift.. but gotta endure wihtout his msg baychh

omg my eyes ckisngi

cloging

forgivce me

mata