so tired.
and slpeey... very sleepy....
ok. so... my poor wound.. .teared.. huuu... then today bleeding!! =(( so sad. feel so poor thing.. .huu..
i'll make htis a short blog. cos yea. slpy n need to bathe soon
today was like. .joking with my colleagues. .like.. pray htat i'll come back safely.. if not, its the last time u see me here.. .lol... XD
so funny. but of course i touch wood!
then say3.. .then one of htem bought me a have a good trip card. haha. '
then they wrote on the card for me. aww.... so sweet and nice. =)
so touched ne.
nice ppl they all
today i realizes that... sometimes one's cruelty .. can actually really cut off someones ties.. and in turn, closes the door there and then.
but. there may never be a coming back. cos.. alreayd lcosed.. why do u even wan it back
u shut it down urself. so tdon expect that door to be oepn up again on the other side
anyway, haha. my 17yrs old very young colleague suddenly commented to me that.. ''actually for your age, you look very cute leh. u don look like ur age at all. but its good la. cos you're very cute'. aww... ha. im not good with compliments as u knw.. i sut thank her only.
trust female's comments more than a guys;. haha
anyway, today first half is great. =)
had a good nice chat.. laugh.. .
get to know some good nice frenly ppl . uh huh..
kk. gtg.
tmr gonna pack up. =( dunno what to pack or where to start. .shall see how ba. .haiyo.. lazy la. .huuT_T mafannn then today walk around. .dunno what else need to get fo rmy trip... haiyo.
hope i wont miss out anything ba.
and yea. totally frogt today is end of 2011 alryad.
to think my fen reminded me. .and i was like. .isnt that like dayssss later? then like. .oh yea!! its tmr!! haha.
omg.
kk. gtg now.
my holiday is near. .oh so near.. ...me. .worried. .but will jia you.. even i fcant get back.. at least i tried eh.. ./=/ scary. .. haiz. no map... wonder how will i end up =/
wil li be able to get to the place i wanna go?
haiyo.. .heard castle and rouse hill or soemthing. .(far) the stores from my company. .ahve the items city areea no have anymore. .. .i really iwsh to go. .but heard it soooooo fadr. =( how. far ne. .cab exp..even if by train or car. .i think still ... haiz. but once a year mah.. go better than no go right. .but. .ahiz. .dunno ba=/
wonde rhow to get there... skali worst case.. finaally get there, but sold out=.='''' omg.
yea cust told me wan.. htta they have alot that my store no more of. haiz....
i wanna goooooo =(
how.. ..
=/ tch.. see how ba
oh.. one of my nice good fren. .was worried and soundde frustrated when heard of me going syd. said don wan me get hurt again... but i know what im doing. so yea... ..
o well
k ba peeps. it was a nice day. i smiled alot .ha.
bye. mata
30 December 2011
28 December 2011
found it in syd! =)
ok. just a quick blog here.
so. .today i actually.. been so long) did my hair! just a soft curl. cos everytime i went to hair salon, they'll ask why don wanna do a perm. hahaha. they say it suits me. me too. i like. .but. .permanent? =/ nah.. .
anyway, my fren paul told me of this website where u can watch anime at ease. omg. brought back sooo many memories!!!
was lookign through the list. .uh huh. .found so many of the ones i love to watch. =)
i deciede to go fo rone of the anime he recommenedde. mm.. not say my type. .but i'll give it a shot since he's so confident. ha.
and uh huh. i randomly chose 2 to watch too. omg. my eyes gonna stuck to comp. but at least betetr than nothig to do huh. yay..........
all thx to him.
gosh im so slpy. tired out totally =/ not enough rest. hair stil lwet. but really need go slp liao. huuuuuu =/
gosh.. im flying off on wed. .can u believe that??? imma do my last min shopping here for hte trip...
tues?
anyway, im excited about this store which me so wanna go!!! flipsters!!! i've been looking for that !! wth. it all along in syd!?? haha. thansk to this tv show i watched. =)
yay..............
gosh... is my money gonna be enough for me??? ...glups.. * T_T thats why i say.. eat breads ba... i dun mind... o well.. .as long as i can shop ba. just hope thats enough to last me for 8 nights. ..mm.. wish me luck!!! but that time. .me nothign much to buy ne... over there.. .o well .we shall see. gosh. those bras are gonna cost me a bomb eh. .T_T o well.......
mata!
so. .today i actually.. been so long) did my hair! just a soft curl. cos everytime i went to hair salon, they'll ask why don wanna do a perm. hahaha. they say it suits me. me too. i like. .but. .permanent? =/ nah.. .
anyway, my fren paul told me of this website where u can watch anime at ease. omg. brought back sooo many memories!!!
was lookign through the list. .uh huh. .found so many of the ones i love to watch. =)
i deciede to go fo rone of the anime he recommenedde. mm.. not say my type. .but i'll give it a shot since he's so confident. ha.
and uh huh. i randomly chose 2 to watch too. omg. my eyes gonna stuck to comp. but at least betetr than nothig to do huh. yay..........
all thx to him.
gosh im so slpy. tired out totally =/ not enough rest. hair stil lwet. but really need go slp liao. huuuuuu =/
gosh.. im flying off on wed. .can u believe that??? imma do my last min shopping here for hte trip...
tues?
anyway, im excited about this store which me so wanna go!!! flipsters!!! i've been looking for that !! wth. it all along in syd!?? haha. thansk to this tv show i watched. =)
yay..............
gosh... is my money gonna be enough for me??? ...glups.. * T_T thats why i say.. eat breads ba... i dun mind... o well.. .as long as i can shop ba. just hope thats enough to last me for 8 nights. ..mm.. wish me luck!!! but that time. .me nothign much to buy ne... over there.. .o well .we shall see. gosh. those bras are gonna cost me a bomb eh. .T_T o well.......
mata!
27 December 2011
Dont fall sick now!
gosh. another injury today=/ stupid ring. too tight cannot come out. LOL> stupid right.... omgggggggg=.=''''' have to twist n turn.. .tear off my skin just to get that friggin ring off my finger .u can see it from my fb. gosh.. having to tear off like that. .luckily not cut off.
huuuuu..... why so suey =/
anyway, today not feeling well at all. =/ somemore now, runny nose again. im afraid imma get sick again soon. perhaps just my nose ba. .plus always not enough rest.
o well... =/
nvm. just tahan it over with. haiz
when i sneezed, my collegague said htta that was so cute... and when i smiled while taking pic, my manager said that my smile very sweet...
..soemitmes i wonder.. am i relaly that ..nice?? O.o.;''
so weird isnt it. im just a normal girl. thast all.
y ppl wanna compliment me? O.o
just. .still cant get used to it.
dots.
gosh. .its like my final week at work. lol. no.. .not quitting> haha. but yea. .having a long. .okok not so long break is good enough. had no break for a year u know. =( huu....
so yea.
oh. good news. and bad news. the item i didnt buy one year ago at my store, well, they still haev it!! bad news,.. its hte only last piece=.=''''''
have a not so good feeling about it.. but... no choice. i must have a look at it first. just hope its working, not so much scratches and dirt... not yellowish.. thats all i ever ask for.
cant wait... that store is one of my fav! aw. .how great if i can work there. beautiful place to work at.
mm..... so many thigns to talk about.. but i really forgot =/
sorry
tryign to think.. if not, gotta leave it for some other days...
and so.... icve not relaly prepared with my stuffs yet.. .mm.. hopefully i wont miss out on anything.
oh my hair... mm.. not so... wow. i dunno. i don really liek it.-=/ just normal. .he didnt cut the way i want it to be=/
but betetr than not nice at all. o well...
anyway, so awkward.. .ended up 2 guys blowing and styling my hair. so .. omg. paiseh liek hell. =.='''''
touching my hair and all.. i dunno. im just not used to it. u know me. shy around guys. so yea. that was like. .please. not ever happen again k.
=.=
ahh... all is fine now. i get to speak with that guy colleagues of mine more freely now. no thanks to my manager of course=.=
at least not awkward when wanna work together or something. he's nice though. hes gonan help me find this jap app thingy. i'll let u guys know soon. i cant wait to try tha out. =)
gosh. what busy days.... so tired. so slpy. been falling aslp like a dead log... =/ in bus. and cab. omg. for only one day. .8hrs of slp.. also not enough.
hopefully in syd i'll be like that. i mean at night. so i can easily doze off early without thinking too much, and wakey early straight away can head out liao.
im sure imma think alot in the night... ...gosh. hotel should be fine ba. not too scary i hope.
...glups.. * =/ still uncomfy abot it. but. .yup. another thing i have to go through. i can do it. ...yea. have to no matter what anywya. ha
mm.. .wodner if i'll get to take the train. bus i think pretty much hopefless.
train.. how to buy ticks ne... O.o
dunno .. .skali ddrop off, cannot find way back...
gosh.. .not liek i wanna scare myself. but. i know hows it liek being me. and with the roads.=.=
yea. just get used to it, and i'll be fine. i must relax.. .enjoy. not afraid of getting lost right! uh huh...
so yup....
cant wait to shop there.
once a year relax holiday . oh please. .hopefully i'll enjoy every min n sec of it.....
without any big troubles lurking ard tha is.
gosh. .slpy now. .guess i cant slp on tiem again. =/
wet hair. if slp now, later sure runny nose worsen, and headache next =/
don htink i can bring along my med. huu... have to buy in australia liao./... haiyo. why everythign cant seem to bring them in =.= so troublesome. also need visa to get in there. ..ahzi.... what are they thinking
mm.. think imma bring along a bigger luggage this time.
should i be goig to ocean world? its quite far though i recalled... =/ the one i never get to go with him.
mm.. should be that ba. .but.. yea. .dunno ne.
and bondi.. wonder if i should go there again. theres this fabulous pool next to it. omg. heart says jump in, but reality say no. because. ..o well. heaps of reasons.
anyway, stomach so bloated now= /feelig terrible.
oh gosh.
hopefully i'll get well soon. .haven start packing up u know.
gosh. i cant believe its alreyad xmas over! to think i was counting down. .4 weeks to go before holiday.. .etc. .now look .one week only. omg.
very fast i'll be back in syd.
wish me well n gdluck .=)
mata!!
huuuuu..... why so suey =/
anyway, today not feeling well at all. =/ somemore now, runny nose again. im afraid imma get sick again soon. perhaps just my nose ba. .plus always not enough rest.
o well... =/
nvm. just tahan it over with. haiz
when i sneezed, my collegague said htta that was so cute... and when i smiled while taking pic, my manager said that my smile very sweet...
..soemitmes i wonder.. am i relaly that ..nice?? O.o.;''
so weird isnt it. im just a normal girl. thast all.
y ppl wanna compliment me? O.o
just. .still cant get used to it.
dots.
gosh. .its like my final week at work. lol. no.. .not quitting> haha. but yea. .having a long. .okok not so long break is good enough. had no break for a year u know. =( huu....
so yea.
oh. good news. and bad news. the item i didnt buy one year ago at my store, well, they still haev it!! bad news,.. its hte only last piece=.=''''''
have a not so good feeling about it.. but... no choice. i must have a look at it first. just hope its working, not so much scratches and dirt... not yellowish.. thats all i ever ask for.
cant wait... that store is one of my fav! aw. .how great if i can work there. beautiful place to work at.
mm..... so many thigns to talk about.. but i really forgot =/
sorry
tryign to think.. if not, gotta leave it for some other days...
and so.... icve not relaly prepared with my stuffs yet.. .mm.. hopefully i wont miss out on anything.
oh my hair... mm.. not so... wow. i dunno. i don really liek it.-=/ just normal. .he didnt cut the way i want it to be=/
but betetr than not nice at all. o well...
anyway, so awkward.. .ended up 2 guys blowing and styling my hair. so .. omg. paiseh liek hell. =.='''''
touching my hair and all.. i dunno. im just not used to it. u know me. shy around guys. so yea. that was like. .please. not ever happen again k.
=.=
ahh... all is fine now. i get to speak with that guy colleagues of mine more freely now. no thanks to my manager of course=.=
at least not awkward when wanna work together or something. he's nice though. hes gonan help me find this jap app thingy. i'll let u guys know soon. i cant wait to try tha out. =)
gosh. what busy days.... so tired. so slpy. been falling aslp like a dead log... =/ in bus. and cab. omg. for only one day. .8hrs of slp.. also not enough.
hopefully in syd i'll be like that. i mean at night. so i can easily doze off early without thinking too much, and wakey early straight away can head out liao.
im sure imma think alot in the night... ...gosh. hotel should be fine ba. not too scary i hope.
...glups.. * =/ still uncomfy abot it. but. .yup. another thing i have to go through. i can do it. ...yea. have to no matter what anywya. ha
mm.. .wodner if i'll get to take the train. bus i think pretty much hopefless.
train.. how to buy ticks ne... O.o
dunno .. .skali ddrop off, cannot find way back...
gosh.. .not liek i wanna scare myself. but. i know hows it liek being me. and with the roads.=.=
yea. just get used to it, and i'll be fine. i must relax.. .enjoy. not afraid of getting lost right! uh huh...
so yup....
cant wait to shop there.
once a year relax holiday . oh please. .hopefully i'll enjoy every min n sec of it.....
without any big troubles lurking ard tha is.
gosh. .slpy now. .guess i cant slp on tiem again. =/
wet hair. if slp now, later sure runny nose worsen, and headache next =/
don htink i can bring along my med. huu... have to buy in australia liao./... haiyo. why everythign cant seem to bring them in =.= so troublesome. also need visa to get in there. ..ahzi.... what are they thinking
mm.. think imma bring along a bigger luggage this time.
should i be goig to ocean world? its quite far though i recalled... =/ the one i never get to go with him.
mm.. should be that ba. .but.. yea. .dunno ne.
and bondi.. wonder if i should go there again. theres this fabulous pool next to it. omg. heart says jump in, but reality say no. because. ..o well. heaps of reasons.
anyway, stomach so bloated now= /feelig terrible.
oh gosh.
hopefully i'll get well soon. .haven start packing up u know.
gosh. i cant believe its alreyad xmas over! to think i was counting down. .4 weeks to go before holiday.. .etc. .now look .one week only. omg.
very fast i'll be back in syd.
wish me well n gdluck .=)
mata!!
25 December 2011
goodbye xmas
mm.. forgot.. what am i supposed to tlak about...
been so tired n slpy. gosh. and oh so cant wait to trim my hair. not sure about my fringe.. =/ but. .o well... maybe i should? mm.. i hsould ba. see how. cant wait for a trim.
gosh. slowly bit by bit getting ready.. but.. not sure!! lol. sat then will pack up ba. goodness... .
what to do ar...
hmm... hope nothig will be too last min ba=X oops
been so forgetful lately. hopefully that'll be over soon. haiyo./
=.=
perhasp too tired or what. or maybe cant wait for holiday. i dunno ba.
its time for my brain to take a rest i guess huh.
super tired./ =/
wondering why doing this again.
haiz..
oh! today. hahaha. used my not so good jap speak to customer again. pauline save the day!! XD lol.
broken jap. hahaha. cos no choice. the customer really doesnt understand a single word of english. and i was asking her if she dropped her money. no choice. i used abit of jap.. and she knew what i wa talking about. then i returned her the money. lol. but my jap works!! omg. happy. i did it again ^^
yay.....
but.. if only have the ... yea. .. if only i cna be push to leanr more.. or have someone learn with me
o well. .wasted. =/
if i ever have children in future, must teach her jap. lol
i mean let him or her learn jap. yup.
haiz....
someimes... sad feeling.. bt.. just have to cover it up with a smile or happy tone. at work the same. .at home also the same...
.. so deceiving.. but. .its a must. if not... thigns wil lget more complicated. at least can blog it out.. not so bad huh.. ..
ok. so here's my plan. when he;s busy, i'l lwalk. and i think i wanna try taking train. no map. just a mini useless one.
mm.. .walk liek bro .. walk.. straight.. in the end its the same path. i know.. not japan. but. can give it a try=.=
so yea.. .then walk the same route back. .tkae note of how many turns n lights to cross... mmm... .can right. yea. .should be.. .
mmm..........
hopefully i wont miss out on anything good.
mm... =.= yea... ...ok. that should work for me. train... mm. .how to buy tickets ar. lol. sg i also dunno ne. =.=''
nvm. will see how.
mm...
wish me luck then. a tleast kinda know who to walk alone.
night time. .always have the lounge in hotel even if cant go down to a pub right .my collegaue slor... =.= all keep saying not safe .like so confidently. .i knwo they aint joking. .cos they from there mah. as in yea. so.. o well... must listen to them ba. .if not, i wont ever make it back to sg alive. =.= deng3.
touch wood.
anyway, about 10 days now. are u excited for me? im .. abit stress though. heavy hearted
dunno why. .mayeb cos worried? ... but i have to force myself. yea. i musn let this go wrong. must enjoy myself there...i hope. wonde rif any past memoriers will.. .u know. yea. wont be too sad ba. i hope=.= dots. haha.
o well.. anyway, everyday also sad.. makes no difference.
....
so. xmas. .25th dec is over. wow. so fast. another year in my company.. gone. so much ahppened in 2011. bad, sad, pains, follish acts, worried ppl aroun dme.. etc... all he bad ones. good ones? before i was left behind i guess.
so little.
can only rememebr the bads ba. ha... o well...
.. just hope that the most basic 2012.. .can be carry on with lesser pains.
lol. know what my colleague told me? regarding ytd 'stalker' (not really stalker thought. he just keep looking i guess.. follow abit only. i dunno)
'you should dump that love tailsman of yours from ur bro! look at what it has been attracting ..to u.'' . LOL. that tailsman is just liek a good luck thing. hopefully in my life love can still work well and blossom good. mainain well... not like i want to attract stalkers, or love or.. u know. =.= ''' dots....
just a gdluck thing. but ended up. lol .what she said does make sense. haha.
wha to do. so much love to give. ..without love in life can die sia. ha. nah not die. but perhaps. .just meaningless....
mm.. think something happened to redz. dunno ne. his fren... o well. hope everythigs fine ba. haiyo.
he ar.. ever since he succeed in slimming down, so much happening thigns going on. =.=
he club so much too. dots....
recently get to know a new casual of mine. gosh. looks are deceiving. she's actually so happeing. omg. but so kin dof her. =) invited me to her events and frens. i don mind trying out. sounds good.
but.. .she said sometimes her frens dunno their limits. and most of them are guys. i was like. ..... erm.. .o.. k... =.='''
but. yea. why not give it a try eh.
i think this is how ppl get to relax and know more ppl huh.
think its time for me to be brave, and go for it. but health n metal definitly die... slpy all the time.
..oh yea. no wonder he also.. ...o wlel. nvm
so yea.
and u know. so irritating. the moment u liek someone's comemnt or status, like. .not so close fren, they'll immediately chat u up =.=
wth. .... dots... .hate it man. typical men.
not close then don act close ne. i liek that better
o well...
its ok. no need tc of myself. tc of others n the store will do .
i think.. im really better with taking care of others. so weird huh...
just wan otehrs to be happy. thats all. ..
oh. and am glad meboguht bro the right pressy this year. cheers.
....k ba. late alreyad. gotta bath n all. tonight gonna be another late ngiht again.
how was ur xmas? hope u had fun. im sure most ppl did eh.
..haiz.
merry christmas once more.. .
jaa.. mata...
been so tired n slpy. gosh. and oh so cant wait to trim my hair. not sure about my fringe.. =/ but. .o well... maybe i should? mm.. i hsould ba. see how. cant wait for a trim.
gosh. slowly bit by bit getting ready.. but.. not sure!! lol. sat then will pack up ba. goodness... .
what to do ar...
hmm... hope nothig will be too last min ba=X oops
been so forgetful lately. hopefully that'll be over soon. haiyo./
=.=
perhasp too tired or what. or maybe cant wait for holiday. i dunno ba.
its time for my brain to take a rest i guess huh.
super tired./ =/
wondering why doing this again.
haiz..
oh! today. hahaha. used my not so good jap speak to customer again. pauline save the day!! XD lol.
broken jap. hahaha. cos no choice. the customer really doesnt understand a single word of english. and i was asking her if she dropped her money. no choice. i used abit of jap.. and she knew what i wa talking about. then i returned her the money. lol. but my jap works!! omg. happy. i did it again ^^
yay.....
but.. if only have the ... yea. .. if only i cna be push to leanr more.. or have someone learn with me
o well. .wasted. =/
if i ever have children in future, must teach her jap. lol
i mean let him or her learn jap. yup.
haiz....
someimes... sad feeling.. bt.. just have to cover it up with a smile or happy tone. at work the same. .at home also the same...
.. so deceiving.. but. .its a must. if not... thigns wil lget more complicated. at least can blog it out.. not so bad huh.. ..
ok. so here's my plan. when he;s busy, i'l lwalk. and i think i wanna try taking train. no map. just a mini useless one.
mm.. .walk liek bro .. walk.. straight.. in the end its the same path. i know.. not japan. but. can give it a try=.=
so yea.. .then walk the same route back. .tkae note of how many turns n lights to cross... mmm... .can right. yea. .should be.. .
mmm..........
hopefully i wont miss out on anything good.
mm... =.= yea... ...ok. that should work for me. train... mm. .how to buy tickets ar. lol. sg i also dunno ne. =.=''
nvm. will see how.
mm...
wish me luck then. a tleast kinda know who to walk alone.
night time. .always have the lounge in hotel even if cant go down to a pub right .my collegaue slor... =.= all keep saying not safe .like so confidently. .i knwo they aint joking. .cos they from there mah. as in yea. so.. o well... must listen to them ba. .if not, i wont ever make it back to sg alive. =.= deng3.
touch wood.
anyway, about 10 days now. are u excited for me? im .. abit stress though. heavy hearted
dunno why. .mayeb cos worried? ... but i have to force myself. yea. i musn let this go wrong. must enjoy myself there...i hope. wonde rif any past memoriers will.. .u know. yea. wont be too sad ba. i hope=.= dots. haha.
o well.. anyway, everyday also sad.. makes no difference.
....
so. xmas. .25th dec is over. wow. so fast. another year in my company.. gone. so much ahppened in 2011. bad, sad, pains, follish acts, worried ppl aroun dme.. etc... all he bad ones. good ones? before i was left behind i guess.
so little.
can only rememebr the bads ba. ha... o well...
.. just hope that the most basic 2012.. .can be carry on with lesser pains.
lol. know what my colleague told me? regarding ytd 'stalker' (not really stalker thought. he just keep looking i guess.. follow abit only. i dunno)
'you should dump that love tailsman of yours from ur bro! look at what it has been attracting ..to u.'' . LOL. that tailsman is just liek a good luck thing. hopefully in my life love can still work well and blossom good. mainain well... not like i want to attract stalkers, or love or.. u know. =.= ''' dots....
just a gdluck thing. but ended up. lol .what she said does make sense. haha.
wha to do. so much love to give. ..without love in life can die sia. ha. nah not die. but perhaps. .just meaningless....
mm.. think something happened to redz. dunno ne. his fren... o well. hope everythigs fine ba. haiyo.
he ar.. ever since he succeed in slimming down, so much happening thigns going on. =.=
he club so much too. dots....
recently get to know a new casual of mine. gosh. looks are deceiving. she's actually so happeing. omg. but so kin dof her. =) invited me to her events and frens. i don mind trying out. sounds good.
but.. .she said sometimes her frens dunno their limits. and most of them are guys. i was like. ..... erm.. .o.. k... =.='''
but. yea. why not give it a try eh.
i think this is how ppl get to relax and know more ppl huh.
think its time for me to be brave, and go for it. but health n metal definitly die... slpy all the time.
..oh yea. no wonder he also.. ...o wlel. nvm
so yea.
and u know. so irritating. the moment u liek someone's comemnt or status, like. .not so close fren, they'll immediately chat u up =.=
wth. .... dots... .hate it man. typical men.
not close then don act close ne. i liek that better
o well...
its ok. no need tc of myself. tc of others n the store will do .
i think.. im really better with taking care of others. so weird huh...
just wan otehrs to be happy. thats all. ..
oh. and am glad meboguht bro the right pressy this year. cheers.
....k ba. late alreyad. gotta bath n all. tonight gonna be another late ngiht again.
how was ur xmas? hope u had fun. im sure most ppl did eh.
..haiz.
merry christmas once more.. .
jaa.. mata...
24 December 2011
merry christmas
gosh. .my memory is failing me. maybe im too slpy. i really cant wait to slp. but afraid ill forget what to blog the next day. better brief it here now.
ok. so. my first impression.. .lol. ppl always thoguht i have alot of boyfriends. OMG. where did that come from??? XD lol. im serious! they told me. so many of them. thats their first impressiion if me. llol
wth. =.='''' not good sia. cos of the way i look? or what. =.=
anyway,
was glad tat i found out from my colleague. .that another new colleague, actually commented that.. 'pauline is great. love her! ''
aww.. .thats ver nice =)
nice. i get to know more about my colleagues today. couple of them. ha. nice one .=)
am glad that so. even the most shy one, that half jap guy. he's funny! got a snese of humour. totally one of the last kind man you'll ever find on this earth. lol. honest one.
no gf before u know. one look at him, and i could tell. ha. very good boy.
anyway, its good knowing them.
u know.. cos of what happened to my dad... and. .u know what they said.. .you are who u hang out with. i guess tats very true. .. u can tell hows that person by the person he's hanging out with.
not always accurate. but. yea. i believe so.
haiz. .
o well.. so difficult to find some decent frens nowadasy huh.
smoke, drink, shopping. though shopping is quite fine.
o well. as long as one doesnt follow the wrong path ba
i ... .i dunno. i don think he;s a stalker. but. omg.
the words spreads... now they're saying i have a stalker again =.=''''
my colleague saw... this guy with his fren. he's wearing red.
he's like looking at me. .staring at me. i don dare look at his face of course! my colleague was slacking and standing around.. keep watching ppl. then she notice.. .
omg. after she told me, i hurried make excuse to go to other side of store.. .then end up the guy with his frens follow. omg. i stick to my collegaue another one.)
=.= then walk bck to that previous side of store.
haha.... scary sia.... sorry la. im not good with guys staring or checking me out. i hate that attentions=.=
thast so disturbing. i don like . huu...
=( 2012 huh. .wonder hows it ognna be like. ..
2011 is suc a heartache emtional painful ride fo rme. its still going on...
wonde rif thas gonna carry it with me till 2012... =/
...
life in 2011 after feb is hell.
i guess.. .all i wish for is that. .2012 will bring me back some..even if abit of happiness. the type of happiness i neevr felt in so llong. .happiness i forgot hows it like to feel.. .
and hopefully.. lesser pain will come along in 2012...
haiz... come to think of it. .its scary. =/
perhaps too tired now ba.. ..
...
merry xmas to everyone. may u be enjoying and spending time with your love ones right now. .with nice food and good ppl ...
enjoy it fo rme.
mata.....
oh. my poor feet. .now guess what. my toe. scraped off its skin. =( bleeding.. now can see my flesh. T_T huuu........ so suey.
today whole leg pain. =( sighs..
ok. so. my first impression.. .lol. ppl always thoguht i have alot of boyfriends. OMG. where did that come from??? XD lol. im serious! they told me. so many of them. thats their first impressiion if me. llol
wth. =.='''' not good sia. cos of the way i look? or what. =.=
anyway,
was glad tat i found out from my colleague. .that another new colleague, actually commented that.. 'pauline is great. love her! ''
aww.. .thats ver nice =)
nice. i get to know more about my colleagues today. couple of them. ha. nice one .=)
am glad that so. even the most shy one, that half jap guy. he's funny! got a snese of humour. totally one of the last kind man you'll ever find on this earth. lol. honest one.
no gf before u know. one look at him, and i could tell. ha. very good boy.
anyway, its good knowing them.
u know.. cos of what happened to my dad... and. .u know what they said.. .you are who u hang out with. i guess tats very true. .. u can tell hows that person by the person he's hanging out with.
not always accurate. but. yea. i believe so.
haiz. .
o well.. so difficult to find some decent frens nowadasy huh.
smoke, drink, shopping. though shopping is quite fine.
o well. as long as one doesnt follow the wrong path ba
i ... .i dunno. i don think he;s a stalker. but. omg.
the words spreads... now they're saying i have a stalker again =.=''''
my colleague saw... this guy with his fren. he's wearing red.
he's like looking at me. .staring at me. i don dare look at his face of course! my colleague was slacking and standing around.. keep watching ppl. then she notice.. .
omg. after she told me, i hurried make excuse to go to other side of store.. .then end up the guy with his frens follow. omg. i stick to my collegaue another one.)
=.= then walk bck to that previous side of store.
haha.... scary sia.... sorry la. im not good with guys staring or checking me out. i hate that attentions=.=
thast so disturbing. i don like . huu...
=( 2012 huh. .wonder hows it ognna be like. ..
2011 is suc a heartache emtional painful ride fo rme. its still going on...
wonde rif thas gonna carry it with me till 2012... =/
...
life in 2011 after feb is hell.
i guess.. .all i wish for is that. .2012 will bring me back some..even if abit of happiness. the type of happiness i neevr felt in so llong. .happiness i forgot hows it like to feel.. .
and hopefully.. lesser pain will come along in 2012...
haiz... come to think of it. .its scary. =/
perhaps too tired now ba.. ..
...
merry xmas to everyone. may u be enjoying and spending time with your love ones right now. .with nice food and good ppl ...
enjoy it fo rme.
mata.....
oh. my poor feet. .now guess what. my toe. scraped off its skin. =( bleeding.. now can see my flesh. T_T huuu........ so suey.
today whole leg pain. =( sighs..
23 December 2011
sweet dreams
gosh. my head is in pain again.. .just took med. =/
....tch.
oh had a swet dream today.
dreamt i was at my store.. but in australia. holiday liao. bought heaps of unique pen designs not out in sg yet. lol. so happy. bro was there. .. sam too. erm yea. .. o well. anywaym , was good dream. wakey, hten like. .hizz.. ...holidia not here. ..pens. .aitn real.. =/
im blogging a quick one here. slpy n pain
u know. theres this pic where he pout his mouth.. i ahve that pic of his expression in my phone. eating pratz.. then i took his pic. really reminded me of that. he's stil lthe same. .ha. o well
mm...
forgto wanna say what. headache sia. pain3
kk. .gtg.
haiz.
peeps.. .wish me luck.
less than 2 weeks. .will be over soon eh.. ....
dermas will come true soon huh.. ..
... jaa mata
....tch.
oh had a swet dream today.
dreamt i was at my store.. but in australia. holiday liao. bought heaps of unique pen designs not out in sg yet. lol. so happy. bro was there. .. sam too. erm yea. .. o well. anywaym , was good dream. wakey, hten like. .hizz.. ...holidia not here. ..pens. .aitn real.. =/
im blogging a quick one here. slpy n pain
u know. theres this pic where he pout his mouth.. i ahve that pic of his expression in my phone. eating pratz.. then i took his pic. really reminded me of that. he's stil lthe same. .ha. o well
mm...
forgto wanna say what. headache sia. pain3
kk. .gtg.
haiz.
peeps.. .wish me luck.
less than 2 weeks. .will be over soon eh.. ....
dermas will come true soon huh.. ..
... jaa mata
22 December 2011
sudden death
huuu... got many blisters... big big bubbles.. pain... =((( huuu......
my poor feet... =/
bought wrong size of shoes.. huu... very pain.. bubbles so big.. but cannot poke them =( huu...
theres this huge stoer. a & f.. openhed up in sg not too long ago. me bought perfume for bro cos he said he wanted it. yea. but glad redz was there. otherwise so weird to walk past those ppl..
u know they actually palce theses makle so called hunks' in fron tof entrance?? /u can take free pics with them.. plus one shirtless guy inside. .take free polariod photo.. omg. i dso don wan that!!
dunno whast so great about it. like.. hello? typical girls=.=''
heard my fren said that one girl even requested 2 angmohs carry her and take pic. omggggggg
thick skin=.= ''
haiz. very weird
but liek the place. it slike club. dark place. .very dakr.. music like club misic.. only lacking are drinks. lol.
cool place. do check that out yea;)
cos. .im still so slpy. yet again, mrg runn nose n blocked=( sighs.. .always liek that.. somemore me alreayd not enough slp. huu...
so yea.. haiz.
now super slpy. too busy. no tie to rest either.
hows ur xmas gonna be like? mine.. i think as usual. pathetic. o wlel... .
what to do.
mm.. glad finally doen all my thingy.. now only left with... mm...
yea. just pack my luggage ,and wait for date to arrive. whcih is freaking soon. omg.
and yes. finally told mum im leaving for syd in jan.
she just asked me not to open door anyhow like in sg. there is diff... very sdangerous.. etc. and of course. .she's worried if sam's parents gonna find out.. or aint he worried at all?
i tried not to reply her too much. cos yea.. .
..sighs. .my fren.. 's younger sister. .25yrs old... very young..but.. commited suicide. =(.. .last sat night. sighs.. i dunno what to say. its hard. when i heard .. .htat she.. when my fren and his family ask her whats wrong n all, sh ekept saying htat its fine. .nothign's wrong...
she don wan to talk about it at all.
but they know shes;s stress.
i was shocked. cos .. im exactly the type of person. im stress or sad .. etc. i don tlak at all.
so yea..
but anyway,.... she even become forgetful.. her own mother also couldnt recognizer..
when i told him that .when depressive ppl suddenly chenanged into happy mood, thats when u must be very careful. cos. .thats a sign htat they've alreyad decided to leave this world.
without delay, he saud. .i think you're very right .his sis nvr kisses her mum;s hand.. yea they're malays.
but one day, she actually did. .and so ncie to her mum too. so yea. .everything was weird. .and.. dunno why someitmes shes so nice and all.
sighs.. .
life is like that ba.. just out of the blue.. .u know.. .
ppl just .. could kill htemselves liek taht... don care a thing about the world anymore.. .
haiz...
=/ hope my fren and his family will get through this asap.
gosh. my phone bill.. .huuu....'
i cant online too much now=/ sighs;
no money liao. huu
long story ba. dl to much what to do =/
mm... so yea.
even the ngiht she deis. .her mum woke her bro up to look for her. .he replied.. nah she'll be fine. later will come back for sure. don worry.. and look what happened.. ..
i understnad.. ppl used to taking thigs for granted. . that nothigns gonna happen or what. .but truth is, u never know whne's that gonna happen.
humans.. cna choose death just over tha one desicion. one moment, one second.
u nvr know. =/
sighs. =/
o well....
k ba. gonna rest brain no.w.
eyes closing. slpyyyyy . huu.. and so late now. again =.= oops.
kk mata.
glad today settled everything. next, luggage packing time!! woots.
my poor feet... =/
bought wrong size of shoes.. huu... very pain.. bubbles so big.. but cannot poke them =( huu...
theres this huge stoer. a & f.. openhed up in sg not too long ago. me bought perfume for bro cos he said he wanted it. yea. but glad redz was there. otherwise so weird to walk past those ppl..
u know they actually palce theses makle so called hunks' in fron tof entrance?? /u can take free pics with them.. plus one shirtless guy inside. .take free polariod photo.. omg. i dso don wan that!!
dunno whast so great about it. like.. hello? typical girls=.=''
heard my fren said that one girl even requested 2 angmohs carry her and take pic. omggggggg
thick skin=.= ''
haiz. very weird
but liek the place. it slike club. dark place. .very dakr.. music like club misic.. only lacking are drinks. lol.
cool place. do check that out yea;)
cos. .im still so slpy. yet again, mrg runn nose n blocked=( sighs.. .always liek that.. somemore me alreayd not enough slp. huu...
so yea.. haiz.
now super slpy. too busy. no tie to rest either.
hows ur xmas gonna be like? mine.. i think as usual. pathetic. o wlel... .
what to do.
mm.. glad finally doen all my thingy.. now only left with... mm...
yea. just pack my luggage ,and wait for date to arrive. whcih is freaking soon. omg.
and yes. finally told mum im leaving for syd in jan.
she just asked me not to open door anyhow like in sg. there is diff... very sdangerous.. etc. and of course. .she's worried if sam's parents gonna find out.. or aint he worried at all?
i tried not to reply her too much. cos yea.. .
..sighs. .my fren.. 's younger sister. .25yrs old... very young..but.. commited suicide. =(.. .last sat night. sighs.. i dunno what to say. its hard. when i heard .. .htat she.. when my fren and his family ask her whats wrong n all, sh ekept saying htat its fine. .nothign's wrong...
she don wan to talk about it at all.
but they know shes;s stress.
i was shocked. cos .. im exactly the type of person. im stress or sad .. etc. i don tlak at all.
so yea..
but anyway,.... she even become forgetful.. her own mother also couldnt recognizer..
when i told him that .when depressive ppl suddenly chenanged into happy mood, thats when u must be very careful. cos. .thats a sign htat they've alreyad decided to leave this world.
without delay, he saud. .i think you're very right .his sis nvr kisses her mum;s hand.. yea they're malays.
but one day, she actually did. .and so ncie to her mum too. so yea. .everything was weird. .and.. dunno why someitmes shes so nice and all.
sighs.. .
life is like that ba.. just out of the blue.. .u know.. .
ppl just .. could kill htemselves liek taht... don care a thing about the world anymore.. .
haiz...
=/ hope my fren and his family will get through this asap.
gosh. my phone bill.. .huuu....'
i cant online too much now=/ sighs;
no money liao. huu
long story ba. dl to much what to do =/
mm... so yea.
even the ngiht she deis. .her mum woke her bro up to look for her. .he replied.. nah she'll be fine. later will come back for sure. don worry.. and look what happened.. ..
i understnad.. ppl used to taking thigs for granted. . that nothigns gonna happen or what. .but truth is, u never know whne's that gonna happen.
humans.. cna choose death just over tha one desicion. one moment, one second.
u nvr know. =/
sighs. =/
o well....
k ba. gonna rest brain no.w.
eyes closing. slpyyyyy . huu.. and so late now. again =.= oops.
kk mata.
glad today settled everything. next, luggage packing time!! woots.
20 December 2011
how many hours of slp?
i am so slpy. slpt in bus like what. long story.
anyway, yea. had 4 hrs of slp again. then work like nobodys business. gosh. totally insance lifestyle. wonder if tmr night partys still on.
wanna die liao. starving. but rather eat just abit then hurry slp. wouldnt that be better. but as much as i wanna slp early,... i dont think its much possible. =/just too lazy n tired to explain. nvm. soon will be over. tahan abit more.
everyday sucks like hell. pfft . wonder how a human can survive. o well...
haiz.
k.. imma change money this thurs. fren say so. should be fine ba=/
better hurry settle this over with.
gosh. bloody tired. =(((((
wheres my holiday. i wnna be tired shop till i droop. not this kind of a tired. sighs... hurry be here soon.
guess what. i still haven tell mum im headin off in 2 weeks time. =X or less than 2 weeks.
gonna start preparing stuffs soon. haiyo...
gosh. im totally dead. so tired. help me please. =/
k ba. .better go take some dinner.. sighs....
mata
anyway, yea. had 4 hrs of slp again. then work like nobodys business. gosh. totally insance lifestyle. wonder if tmr night partys still on.
wanna die liao. starving. but rather eat just abit then hurry slp. wouldnt that be better. but as much as i wanna slp early,... i dont think its much possible. =/just too lazy n tired to explain. nvm. soon will be over. tahan abit more.
everyday sucks like hell. pfft . wonder how a human can survive. o well...
haiz.
k.. imma change money this thurs. fren say so. should be fine ba=/
better hurry settle this over with.
gosh. bloody tired. =(((((
wheres my holiday. i wnna be tired shop till i droop. not this kind of a tired. sighs... hurry be here soon.
guess what. i still haven tell mum im headin off in 2 weeks time. =X or less than 2 weeks.
gonna start preparing stuffs soon. haiyo...
gosh. im totally dead. so tired. help me please. =/
k ba. .better go take some dinner.. sighs....
mata
19 December 2011
Stare,...and burn!!!
funny/. my colleague was asking me at the end of shift.. with other colleagues around.. .' pauline, has anyone tell you that you're very pretty?'' ..=X o..m...g....
i dunno how to reply liao. very shy. =.= not gd with compliments la.. even if to say. .thank u.. like.. proud or something=/ i dun like.
ut well, that gave me confidence i guess. especially after a bad hair day kinda mood. so yea. XD haha. o well
ut well, that gave me confidence i guess. especially after a bad hair day kinda mood. so yea. XD haha. o well
i cant wait to cut hair. gosh... time to do so.
not sure if wanna cut fringe again=/ but. .o well. maybe ba. really no idea which suits me better. some frens say don. but. .o well.
that night while crossing road, didnt realized tht it was red light. i crossed, theres incoming car quite fast. .then this stupid 2 indians... one drunk. the other trying to keep a hold on him. the drunk man was walking slanting... slanting towards me! i was halt by him as he's coming towards my dirction. . omg. and the bloody car is coming. i have no time to be stoipping! close one. but yea. phew. scary. =.= baka drunk indian.
mm.. dunno why lappy no sound=/ hpope its not spoil..
tch... weird. .thought theres somethieng i wanna blog... but what ar.... ...
oh. omg. theres this stupid old indian man. omg. was looking at me!!! he was drinking btw. no wonder so daring. i went toilet, he still cna turn his head stare at me. wth. i hate it when ppl stare! yea i know... they can look and stare all they wan, but they cant touch nor have me. but i still dislike them looking. omg. makes my blood boiled.
yea.. if decent ppl, i'l lprobabaly blush. but if jerks, i'll hate them. like duh
mm.. k. not gonna think hwat i've misssed out to blog about. tired. veyr late now. huu.. again. kk. .gtg slp soon. hair stil lwet=/
past couple of days had very bad runny nose and blocked nose. would wakey and couldnt slp at all for couple of hours=( huuu.... very xin ku. terrible. huuu..... sufferssssssssssssss =(
hopefully tonight will be fine ba. maybe cos i slpt with wet hair? plus its too cold. i dunno. just so cold=(
no warmth. huu...... blankie also useless.... somemore this mrg got bad headache. its a terrible mrg..i do not wish to recall=/ hate runn nose. huuuu.....
body too wewak ba. .what to do. =/
kk.. gtg. mata
17 December 2011
bro's birthday
today.. so tired n.. yea. ..bro's birthday. was upset n disappointed when he said he;s going out with frens n redz=( then he asked if i wanan join him... was thinking... should i or not.. cos. .tired.. but yet.. .im gonna be left alone ..lonely and bored at home... =/.. so hwat to do.. .just go out lor... sighs..... not say happy day ba. like. .bad hair day. .not much of a mood...
so yea...
so many thigns to blog. but im afraid i cant remember much. .i try my best.
so yea.. been getting really tired n busy. i have no energy left. so yea.. .but soemtiems still dislike the fact of staying at home wasting my off away. ==/
anyway, oh. ytd i worked,.. my rgm from aust comment that.. 'you look very pertty today'. =) aww... so swt. =) then after that, my customer, a young lady, commented that my eyes are very pertty. =)
aww... ladies compliments ..i am veyr honiured.
today, another angmoh is very rude. she was rushing or what, i dunno. but she bumped against redz, a couple behind us, and she push against my shoulder!! very rude!! again. if sg ppl, ppl will be htinking oh so sg. but now, they c ant say that anymore. cos other country ppl also doing that. so dont push the blame to sg k.
but yea. very frustrating.
mm.... so tired. im not gonna be having much slp. but so be it ba. o well. tired then yea.. tired lor. what to do. bear with it for now.
few weeks seems to be forever =/... i cant wait for xmas to be over. huu....
oh, long time never see bro's fren. one of them, the moment my bro's fren arrived, first thing said to me was.. 'you lost alot of weight..' ...dots.. i was like. .maybe cos of work i guess. what else to reply? no appetiet?
but true. i think cos of work.. and stress of everythign in life ba=/ what to do. every year i keep on losing more weight only. o well. as long as it wont affect my bust, so be it.
i should be aslp by now. .huu.. .hair not dry yet.. wait some while long er ba.
haiyo. .cant find the jap cd i want today=/ how ar... .
sianz. todya such a big day, yet my hair is bad, and i look obviously tired and dull face look =( pics took today are obviously not good cos of that. huu...
maybe cos not feelign good ba.. somemroe period is here ... but. its not heavy or wahtl. so its like. .here. but not flowing' ... so yea... anyway, im just glad next month holiday i should be free from hassle. but. .cant escaope the bloatness, water retention body, and mood swings .. haiz.. =/ nvm ba. as long as im free from the redness' . im very happy alreayd. phewwwwww.... thank god man .
see how tmr ba. maybe heavy? gosh. .gonna be extra tired at work lor=/
mm.. duno waht else to say.. kk.. gtg.
tired tired tired...
life is stil boring no moatter how happening the night was
mata
so yea...
so many thigns to blog. but im afraid i cant remember much. .i try my best.
so yea.. been getting really tired n busy. i have no energy left. so yea.. .but soemtiems still dislike the fact of staying at home wasting my off away. ==/
anyway, oh. ytd i worked,.. my rgm from aust comment that.. 'you look very pertty today'. =) aww... so swt. =) then after that, my customer, a young lady, commented that my eyes are very pertty. =)
aww... ladies compliments ..i am veyr honiured.
today, another angmoh is very rude. she was rushing or what, i dunno. but she bumped against redz, a couple behind us, and she push against my shoulder!! very rude!! again. if sg ppl, ppl will be htinking oh so sg. but now, they c ant say that anymore. cos other country ppl also doing that. so dont push the blame to sg k.
but yea. very frustrating.
mm.... so tired. im not gonna be having much slp. but so be it ba. o well. tired then yea.. tired lor. what to do. bear with it for now.
few weeks seems to be forever =/... i cant wait for xmas to be over. huu....
oh, long time never see bro's fren. one of them, the moment my bro's fren arrived, first thing said to me was.. 'you lost alot of weight..' ...dots.. i was like. .maybe cos of work i guess. what else to reply? no appetiet?
but true. i think cos of work.. and stress of everythign in life ba=/ what to do. every year i keep on losing more weight only. o well. as long as it wont affect my bust, so be it.
i should be aslp by now. .huu.. .hair not dry yet.. wait some while long er ba.
haiyo. .cant find the jap cd i want today=/ how ar... .
sianz. todya such a big day, yet my hair is bad, and i look obviously tired and dull face look =( pics took today are obviously not good cos of that. huu...
maybe cos not feelign good ba.. somemroe period is here ... but. its not heavy or wahtl. so its like. .here. but not flowing' ... so yea... anyway, im just glad next month holiday i should be free from hassle. but. .cant escaope the bloatness, water retention body, and mood swings .. haiz.. =/ nvm ba. as long as im free from the redness' . im very happy alreayd. phewwwwww.... thank god man .
see how tmr ba. maybe heavy? gosh. .gonna be extra tired at work lor=/
mm.. duno waht else to say.. kk.. gtg.
tired tired tired...
life is stil boring no moatter how happening the night was
mata
15 December 2011
tired out
was so tired out ytd. fullshift. cos rgm asked me to stay back=( totally no more energy. sighs.. .
then cannot claim hours for this week. sighs...
=/ so tired n slpy now. last night slpt late. ha. cos wanna msg chat with him. o well... but worth it still.
wakey so early for breakfast today. ppl still late. wth. they siding with their race or what. o well
anywya, so... wow. wish my holidy alreayd here. or tmr. so tired. everyday so busy. the crowds.. non stop. omg. gd to be busy. but very tiring...
anyway yea. .very disappointed that my hours cannot be claim. .sighs. ..make me so tire.d. .
even my new part timers can tell that.. aust rgm n sg rgm so diff. aust rgm so nice.
haiyo. dunno what to say ba.
mm.. .i cant wait to go out. .but. just so tired from work. .what should i do. .haiz.
reach home also too tired to do anything. online, then just wanna nap liao.
o well....
finally. .haklf of dec is gone. so fast!! kk... dec 31st will be here soon... please let it be over asap....
gosh..dunno if i should slp anot..
ok. just another couple of weeks to go. pauline. tahan. u can make it .
mata
then cannot claim hours for this week. sighs...
=/ so tired n slpy now. last night slpt late. ha. cos wanna msg chat with him. o well... but worth it still.
wakey so early for breakfast today. ppl still late. wth. they siding with their race or what. o well
anywya, so... wow. wish my holidy alreayd here. or tmr. so tired. everyday so busy. the crowds.. non stop. omg. gd to be busy. but very tiring...
anyway yea. .very disappointed that my hours cannot be claim. .sighs. ..make me so tire.d. .
even my new part timers can tell that.. aust rgm n sg rgm so diff. aust rgm so nice.
haiyo. dunno what to say ba.
mm.. .i cant wait to go out. .but. just so tired from work. .what should i do. .haiz.
reach home also too tired to do anything. online, then just wanna nap liao.
o well....
finally. .haklf of dec is gone. so fast!! kk... dec 31st will be here soon... please let it be over asap....
gosh..dunno if i should slp anot..
ok. just another couple of weeks to go. pauline. tahan. u can make it .
mata
13 December 2011
morning sickness
stil lso sick in the morning. .terrible feeling. godo thing im off. if not how?? =/ suffer on the shop floor again ne. anyway, after much diaster.. .suffering for hours in morning till aftnoon, my nose..stopped runny. phew.. .still slpy n weak. .din slpt well... so yea
gosh. .waht a day. abit relaxing.. but yea. .just weak and dizzy. heavy headed.
gotta slp soon. more thing to be done soon.
glad to tidy up my stuffs n room today.
haiyo. me haven tell mum me going away for holiday ... =X oops. .dunno how to break this to her ne.. o well... ...soon ba..
kk gtg slp. build up my energy i must.
jaa mata
gosh. .waht a day. abit relaxing.. but yea. .just weak and dizzy. heavy headed.
gotta slp soon. more thing to be done soon.
glad to tidy up my stuffs n room today.
haiyo. me haven tell mum me going away for holiday ... =X oops. .dunno how to break this to her ne.. o well... ...soon ba..
kk gtg slp. build up my energy i must.
jaa mata
12 December 2011
Peeled nose / Ridiculous Race
gosh.. sooo sick today. agaiin. =/ tch.. me always sick huh.. guess.. just not enough nutrients... anyway i deserve it.. i dont tc of my health anyway. im the type of person who's more of taking care of others. not the other way round. ha. o well. .waht to do.. .
somemore eat always not enough..
anway, was terrible. .my nose peeled from sneezing too =/
just had med.. so yea.. hopefully gonna help.. but so far.. still runn abit ..haiz=/
o well.........
dunno why sudden sick. o well.. nvm ba. perhasp too busy. then yea.. wanna rest also cannot. who say can rest.. when it comes to work.. don even tlak about rest, or mc. o well.. nvm that ba
look. nowadasy i find some angmojs geting very irritating and arrogant. that day, a young angmoh lady... came back to store to exchange something. one item is missing from her pack. so we changed her a new one. guess what. she said ''i come all the way here.. so what are you going to do TO MAKE IT UP TO ME? ''
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
say whatttttttt???????? all my colleagues were shocked. hello??? not singaporean. not china. its an angmoh!!!! young lady somemore!!! holy crap. no way. but its real. not the first time alreayd. these angmohs are braver than singaporeans. and they are very very mean! the way they tlak. .very demanding. very arrogant. like they're king and queens. omg.
cna u believe that?? in the end we cant give her anything or waht. so i have to apologiesd(even though its NOT my fault k). customers walked in was like looking at me or us. but i don care. its my job. i have to apologised on behalf of my store. if not then how.
gosh.... i cant believe this!! they are ridiculous.!!
even encouter this angmoh couple. months back. .think i blogged it before. dunno .anwahyy, its about price tag... and items... then they say misleading. OMG....... the whole detailed situation, if i tell anyone, the firts thing they might thought is.. oh auntie or sg ppl isit. NO. its angmohs!!
onmg. its.. shocking. i thought they are better' in a way. but i was wrong.
i did thought of u know... if i shop alone in stores... suddenly i speak with this accent'... wil lthe aussie think im from us or what? like what my boss said. .they hate them. will the aussie there hate me too? especially if im buying anything from them.. gosh.... i hope will be fine.
and hopefully not too strong of accent my custoemrs always commented me on. huu..... don be against me.... T_T
skali ask ppl where to go, they purposely show me the wrong way =X.. .wonder if thats gonna happen.. gasps.... kk. .better dont sare myself first. .... =/ hope will be fine ba...
the other day whiel i was working, this angmoh man making payment was like staring at me with his big eyes. like O_O. me of course odn wan look back. just look at the screen.. then turn, and saw like..he's still in the same position. .hten i pretend nvr see and turn head away again. gosh. so awkward.. i cant have man staring at me. i'll blush. i dont like either. just aint comfortable with that ba.
very cold today.... perhasp thats why i caught a cold? yea.. just thought of it.. mm.. .maybe ba.. cos weak enough... then... nothing to immune againtst the weather change...
haiz... its as though dec and jan are officially the winter for sg.. including nov. guess hte world is changin indeed.. .
im so cold now.. =( so wish to have someone to hug warm.. =/ huu.. sobx..... .
hands freezing.. .o well..... tahan ba... nvm. soon can see mr Sun in syd. be ready to burn!!!!!
haiyo. .so cold now. .yet still need to tahan the fan. .hair wet ne.. =/ sniff*2
huu........ helppppT_T
mm.... i wodne rif the watch at kikki k strand still have anot.. =/ exp. .but thought of buying. .regetteed not buying. .ahiz... but most liekly no more=/ but if theres more of the porceelain necklace, hehe.. im sure gonna buy again. but. .have a feeling. .no more too.. see how ba. wil lcheck tha palce out again =) mmm... wonde rif i have the ability to make it there alone by walking. ...glups..* =/ im very scared actually..... .
im not a man liek my bro after all. .even if ask ppl around also.. .... haiz.. ok. .see how ba...
my colleague sis. .25 yrs old.. came into the store to buy stuffs... my colleague was like... asked my age ,and turn to look at her sis and then me again..... hten say... 'just one year difference, but look so different!' .XD lol. her sis is wearing office wear somemore.. and her look mm..... .lets jus say... plain and...mature ba.. so can easily tell that she's 25.
im thinking.. .even if i wear what she's wearing,..... gosh. i'll look dang weird. cos i don have that look liek her sis. not say bad.. but.. well. .just diff ba... do i look baby like? or what. i dunno. but to have that compliment, well, thanks to her ba. its not a bad thing after all. so yup. glad to accept.
haiz. .alot more thigns to be done. .for work. .workload is very heavy.. but yea.. wil ldo my best. .
and to stay alive too. like totally =.=
thansk for hearing me out.
gosh. cant tak eit anymoer. just off the fan ... wil lslp with wet hair ba. what to do. freezing here. huuuuu....
ha. felt as though im tlaking to my laptop... ..yea..which is true indeed. ha. o well.....
but.. better than not saying to anything at all...
cant even talk about all these to bro.. so yea.. =/
at least still have lappy...
sighs...
life is such a pain.. was pain. .tehn changed to happiness... but then pain is back again.
everything sucks.
..haiz. o well... =;/
jaa....
somemore eat always not enough..
anway, was terrible. .my nose peeled from sneezing too =/
just had med.. so yea.. hopefully gonna help.. but so far.. still runn abit ..haiz=/
o well.........
dunno why sudden sick. o well.. nvm ba. perhasp too busy. then yea.. wanna rest also cannot. who say can rest.. when it comes to work.. don even tlak about rest, or mc. o well.. nvm that ba
look. nowadasy i find some angmojs geting very irritating and arrogant. that day, a young angmoh lady... came back to store to exchange something. one item is missing from her pack. so we changed her a new one. guess what. she said ''i come all the way here.. so what are you going to do TO MAKE IT UP TO ME? ''
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
say whatttttttt???????? all my colleagues were shocked. hello??? not singaporean. not china. its an angmoh!!!! young lady somemore!!! holy crap. no way. but its real. not the first time alreayd. these angmohs are braver than singaporeans. and they are very very mean! the way they tlak. .very demanding. very arrogant. like they're king and queens. omg.
cna u believe that?? in the end we cant give her anything or waht. so i have to apologiesd(even though its NOT my fault k). customers walked in was like looking at me or us. but i don care. its my job. i have to apologised on behalf of my store. if not then how.
gosh.... i cant believe this!! they are ridiculous.!!
even encouter this angmoh couple. months back. .think i blogged it before. dunno .anwahyy, its about price tag... and items... then they say misleading. OMG....... the whole detailed situation, if i tell anyone, the firts thing they might thought is.. oh auntie or sg ppl isit. NO. its angmohs!!
onmg. its.. shocking. i thought they are better' in a way. but i was wrong.
i did thought of u know... if i shop alone in stores... suddenly i speak with this accent'... wil lthe aussie think im from us or what? like what my boss said. .they hate them. will the aussie there hate me too? especially if im buying anything from them.. gosh.... i hope will be fine.
and hopefully not too strong of accent my custoemrs always commented me on. huu..... don be against me.... T_T
skali ask ppl where to go, they purposely show me the wrong way =X.. .wonder if thats gonna happen.. gasps.... kk. .better dont sare myself first. .... =/ hope will be fine ba...
the other day whiel i was working, this angmoh man making payment was like staring at me with his big eyes. like O_O. me of course odn wan look back. just look at the screen.. then turn, and saw like..he's still in the same position. .hten i pretend nvr see and turn head away again. gosh. so awkward.. i cant have man staring at me. i'll blush. i dont like either. just aint comfortable with that ba.
very cold today.... perhasp thats why i caught a cold? yea.. just thought of it.. mm.. .maybe ba.. cos weak enough... then... nothing to immune againtst the weather change...
haiz... its as though dec and jan are officially the winter for sg.. including nov. guess hte world is changin indeed.. .
im so cold now.. =( so wish to have someone to hug warm.. =/ huu.. sobx..... .
hands freezing.. .o well..... tahan ba... nvm. soon can see mr Sun in syd. be ready to burn!!!!!
haiyo. .so cold now. .yet still need to tahan the fan. .hair wet ne.. =/ sniff*2
huu........ helppppT_T
mm.... i wodne rif the watch at kikki k strand still have anot.. =/ exp. .but thought of buying. .regetteed not buying. .ahiz... but most liekly no more=/ but if theres more of the porceelain necklace, hehe.. im sure gonna buy again. but. .have a feeling. .no more too.. see how ba. wil lcheck tha palce out again =) mmm... wonde rif i have the ability to make it there alone by walking. ...glups..* =/ im very scared actually..... .
im not a man liek my bro after all. .even if ask ppl around also.. .... haiz.. ok. .see how ba...
my colleague sis. .25 yrs old.. came into the store to buy stuffs... my colleague was like... asked my age ,and turn to look at her sis and then me again..... hten say... 'just one year difference, but look so different!' .XD lol. her sis is wearing office wear somemore.. and her look mm..... .lets jus say... plain and...mature ba.. so can easily tell that she's 25.
im thinking.. .even if i wear what she's wearing,..... gosh. i'll look dang weird. cos i don have that look liek her sis. not say bad.. but.. well. .just diff ba... do i look baby like? or what. i dunno. but to have that compliment, well, thanks to her ba. its not a bad thing after all. so yup. glad to accept.
haiz. .alot more thigns to be done. .for work. .workload is very heavy.. but yea.. wil ldo my best. .
and to stay alive too. like totally =.=
thansk for hearing me out.
gosh. cant tak eit anymoer. just off the fan ... wil lslp with wet hair ba. what to do. freezing here. huuuuu....
ha. felt as though im tlaking to my laptop... ..yea..which is true indeed. ha. o well.....
but.. better than not saying to anything at all...
cant even talk about all these to bro.. so yea.. =/
at least still have lappy...
sighs...
life is such a pain.. was pain. .tehn changed to happiness... but then pain is back again.
everything sucks.
..haiz. o well... =;/
jaa....
11 December 2011
Pretty sweet comment =)
hi guys... been worrying about my time of month recently.. seems like its very near.. can feel it.. stomahc very very bloated feeling.. .huu.. hate it=/
really praying that i can get past 15th or soemthing... =/
wish me luck
mm... so yui[/.. been raining and raining...
cold...
so nice. ha. theres this auntie making payment with her daughter. this mother face very black'. like.. unhappy. ha. then after payment, she walk off...like took a step.. then step back and tell me. .miss, 'ni heng piao liang'. while hand pointing to her whole face indicating fo rme. aww.. was so surprised. cos she suddenl;y smile.. i blushed of course! i htink to have a woman think you're pretty, is much better than having a man think you're pretty. cos that would mean even the women are envy' of u or something. ..m... yup. lol. something like that XD. anway, really appreciated . so nice of her =)
suddenly smiel and so nice. .lol. i was shocked. XD so paiseh. .cos store alot of other customers queuing up too. OMG. of cuorse colleague make fun of me too. ha.
mm.. u know... i come to realized that.. my store.. and alot of chinese students.. they somehow. .dislike certain malays. likewise. my workaplce alot of malays.. .very racists=/
haiz.... dunno la.. .
so racist for what. u think htis is australia ar?? =.=''''
today feel good though. i dunno why. O.o
not happy of course. but. .feel... good about mysekf. which is weird. O.o mm... why ar. cos jan is coming? i dunno ne.... but.. yea. .just weird feeling ba... soemthign diff i guess... not happy feeling.. but. .comfortable feeling. .not that comfy.. but... just... i dunno. its just. .a... 'ok ' feeling.
maybe cos busy... then yea...
same as game ba. busy, and alot of thigns no need to think anymore.
yup
everyday.. just tell myself that as long as he's happy.
ha. this kind of thought.. lil thoughts.. no need to let him know..
in a corner wishing fo rhtat will do..
soemtimes u know.. i tried to look back at my pics. .wondering why frens dont lok at me at all. lol .i ddint used to find anything diff. but now i do.
in fact... with each year passed, something drastic will take place for me. appearance for example. i changed pretty much over the years .hobbies and interests... mm.... somewhere there too...
but one thigns for sure. im getting skinnier with each year passed too. perhasp i dunno. not a big difference? but definitely somewhere there..ha. wonder why the first tiem he can fell in love with teh chubby me. XD that tiem cute only ar. now cute n pretty? lol.XD JK... gosh. i do not wish to praise myself sia. =.= really. jk only
i wonder. .eyar 2013... ha. how will i become then.
my coleagues younger than me al lthought im like 21 or younger =.=''' dots.s.... compliment yes. .but.. .erm.. .o..k... -.-'''
but.. yup. looking forward to the 2013 me..if theres ever one.
haiz. fingers all wounds sia. T_T
can... now 11 alreayd... less than a month to go. must brave the storm...
explore the place. but.. seriously... i find that.. i .. do dislike to bring a big flabby map and walk around all alone in syd.
imagine... a pixie size girl like me.. .walking around looking lost with a map.. .wouldnt that attract more bad guys!? =.='''''' if man still ok right. exp my bro. but i fme.... ....aint i counting troubel for myself> ? =.=
ha. but dunno ba. .see how.
not gonna buy map. got a mini one. .so.. .see if thats gonna help or what ba=/
but my words above really is true eh. seriously. if you're a bad guy, wouldnt u target a girl like that? duh
gosh. .so cold.. .
mm.. .ok. must save more money for shopping spree at syd ^^
dunno what to shop=.='''' 'dots..... .but whatever ba.
this time not gonna spend on food ba.. mmm..... see how. but first day.. must definitley go buy instant noodles n breads huh. yea...
gosh. cant wait for hte burning hot sun!!!! mr sun.. here i come!!(soon) =P
work.. omg. busy start liao. queue... got queue yes!! omg. ...stuck at counter for hourssss straight. sometimes even 4. =.= but its good. tiem flies. ^^
hehe
thinking... perhaps shouldnt drink too mcuh when i reach there. .cos. .that might.. make my time of month..sensitive'... and arrive faster.. .i dunno.... but. .see how... =/ sighs. really don wish to slp in a scary atmonsphere.. ..and i wish no more spiders.... huu.. that other time. .gosh.... alone in hotel room for hours.. .trying to escape a spider.... o...m...g.... u have no idea... scared out of my wits! plus shift here..shift there... must keep watch of spidy while watchign anime prepared by sammy..
scary sia. if no animes, i think me stuck in toilet dun wan come out liao=.=
heard aust alot of scary dangerous spidys.. =/ so yea... o well.. wont be so suey ba. right? ..*glups. touch woo.d
the white sands. dunno what palce... the theme park. .gonna close down.. sighs.. .i've been there only once=(... soemmore no take pics. .all pics in his lost phone...
sighs... .first and last time there wioth him. wish could rememebr more. .couldnt recall much.. deep impression are the entrance.. haunted mansion.. and train ride. omg. that train ride. ha. so paiseh... blush*.. haha. .mm...
yea. .duno got coaster ride anot. really forgot.. ..see.. .if only have pics....... taking pics are important ne. why din i take .. i cant remember. .was it cos he's taking? or i was too shy.
im always shy to take pics with him. lol .dunno why.
even during one of the valentines day... at vivo.. ha .ncie view.. but. .shy to take la. paiseh .but regreetted later XD baka me.. o well....
now i learnt.. ...i wont make the same mistakes twice ba..i think. ha.
o well.... nice memories... bah...
oh regarding the results i get from temple about my question of us,. ..well.. not sure what its saying but.... don worry guys. i'll .. yup. ..just yea. .. ha.sorry dunno what to say /
k
nights peeps..
jaa mata
mata
really praying that i can get past 15th or soemthing... =/
wish me luck
mm... so yui[/.. been raining and raining...
cold...
so nice. ha. theres this auntie making payment with her daughter. this mother face very black'. like.. unhappy. ha. then after payment, she walk off...like took a step.. then step back and tell me. .miss, 'ni heng piao liang'. while hand pointing to her whole face indicating fo rme. aww.. was so surprised. cos she suddenl;y smile.. i blushed of course! i htink to have a woman think you're pretty, is much better than having a man think you're pretty. cos that would mean even the women are envy' of u or something. ..m... yup. lol. something like that XD. anway, really appreciated . so nice of her =)
suddenly smiel and so nice. .lol. i was shocked. XD so paiseh. .cos store alot of other customers queuing up too. OMG. of cuorse colleague make fun of me too. ha.
mm.. u know... i come to realized that.. my store.. and alot of chinese students.. they somehow. .dislike certain malays. likewise. my workaplce alot of malays.. .very racists=/
haiz.... dunno la.. .
so racist for what. u think htis is australia ar?? =.=''''
today feel good though. i dunno why. O.o
not happy of course. but. .feel... good about mysekf. which is weird. O.o mm... why ar. cos jan is coming? i dunno ne.... but.. yea. .just weird feeling ba... soemthign diff i guess... not happy feeling.. but. .comfortable feeling. .not that comfy.. but... just... i dunno. its just. .a... 'ok ' feeling.
maybe cos busy... then yea...
same as game ba. busy, and alot of thigns no need to think anymore.
yup
everyday.. just tell myself that as long as he's happy.
ha. this kind of thought.. lil thoughts.. no need to let him know..
in a corner wishing fo rhtat will do..
soemtimes u know.. i tried to look back at my pics. .wondering why frens dont lok at me at all. lol .i ddint used to find anything diff. but now i do.
in fact... with each year passed, something drastic will take place for me. appearance for example. i changed pretty much over the years .hobbies and interests... mm.... somewhere there too...
but one thigns for sure. im getting skinnier with each year passed too. perhasp i dunno. not a big difference? but definitely somewhere there..ha. wonder why the first tiem he can fell in love with teh chubby me. XD that tiem cute only ar. now cute n pretty? lol.XD JK... gosh. i do not wish to praise myself sia. =.= really. jk only
i wonder. .eyar 2013... ha. how will i become then.
my coleagues younger than me al lthought im like 21 or younger =.=''' dots.s.... compliment yes. .but.. .erm.. .o..k... -.-'''
but.. yup. looking forward to the 2013 me..if theres ever one.
haiz. fingers all wounds sia. T_T
can... now 11 alreayd... less than a month to go. must brave the storm...
explore the place. but.. seriously... i find that.. i .. do dislike to bring a big flabby map and walk around all alone in syd.
imagine... a pixie size girl like me.. .walking around looking lost with a map.. .wouldnt that attract more bad guys!? =.='''''' if man still ok right. exp my bro. but i fme.... ....aint i counting troubel for myself> ? =.=
ha. but dunno ba. .see how.
not gonna buy map. got a mini one. .so.. .see if thats gonna help or what ba=/
but my words above really is true eh. seriously. if you're a bad guy, wouldnt u target a girl like that? duh
gosh. .so cold.. .
mm.. .ok. must save more money for shopping spree at syd ^^
dunno what to shop=.='''' 'dots..... .but whatever ba.
this time not gonna spend on food ba.. mmm..... see how. but first day.. must definitley go buy instant noodles n breads huh. yea...
gosh. cant wait for hte burning hot sun!!!! mr sun.. here i come!!(soon) =P
work.. omg. busy start liao. queue... got queue yes!! omg. ...stuck at counter for hourssss straight. sometimes even 4. =.= but its good. tiem flies. ^^
hehe
thinking... perhaps shouldnt drink too mcuh when i reach there. .cos. .that might.. make my time of month..sensitive'... and arrive faster.. .i dunno.... but. .see how... =/ sighs. really don wish to slp in a scary atmonsphere.. ..and i wish no more spiders.... huu.. that other time. .gosh.... alone in hotel room for hours.. .trying to escape a spider.... o...m...g.... u have no idea... scared out of my wits! plus shift here..shift there... must keep watch of spidy while watchign anime prepared by sammy..
scary sia. if no animes, i think me stuck in toilet dun wan come out liao=.=
heard aust alot of scary dangerous spidys.. =/ so yea... o well.. wont be so suey ba. right? ..*glups. touch woo.d
the white sands. dunno what palce... the theme park. .gonna close down.. sighs.. .i've been there only once=(... soemmore no take pics. .all pics in his lost phone...
sighs... .first and last time there wioth him. wish could rememebr more. .couldnt recall much.. deep impression are the entrance.. haunted mansion.. and train ride. omg. that train ride. ha. so paiseh... blush*.. haha. .mm...
yea. .duno got coaster ride anot. really forgot.. ..see.. .if only have pics....... taking pics are important ne. why din i take .. i cant remember. .was it cos he's taking? or i was too shy.
im always shy to take pics with him. lol .dunno why.
even during one of the valentines day... at vivo.. ha .ncie view.. but. .shy to take la. paiseh .but regreetted later XD baka me.. o well....
now i learnt.. ...i wont make the same mistakes twice ba..i think. ha.
o well.... nice memories... bah...
oh regarding the results i get from temple about my question of us,. ..well.. not sure what its saying but.... don worry guys. i'll .. yup. ..just yea. .. ha.sorry dunno what to say /
k
nights peeps..
jaa mata
mata
09 December 2011
Question answered
today.. went to the temple.. cos its on the way. so yea.. dunno why.... walked past the .. i dunno how to describe this. .its like.. sticks.. in a tube...
chinese we called it 'qian' .
u ask question to god, and attempt to shake out one of the stick with number on it.
and that stick, shall give u an answer to ur question
i dunno why.. as i wlked past, i hasve this strong urge. .strong feeling that i wanna do this. i wanna get a stick for my question.
so.. i tried.. and. .at first, the
god' kept laughign.. this is another hard to explain thing. .its like. .u throw this two red wooden thingy... mum knows.. but yea.
anwyay... .
i wanst confient with the resut. .however.. .
yea. .its a good stick'.
i asked.. about my future love life.. about my feeling with him..if there's any future ahead... its all about my feelings and love..
and... this si the answet i get...
''one frets hoping for the best, one faces good times, luck, etc. A big wide horizon open for you. suit yourself in what you hoped to do.
Interpretation: Good
Proceed with what you want to achieve. All is well. ''
thats it. the above words are so called.. the wnswer i get from the god. im not like. u know. im, kinda a free thinker.but that doesnt mean i can do the same thign as others.with is try and seek for an answer.
but i don get it...
proceed with what i wan to achieve? ... s..=/ im not very sure whats that mean... meaning... i shouldnt stop what im doing? and... future... i'll have good luck and good times? menaing its good? i dunno.. scared to have any hopes anyway.. .
sighs. .scared. but. at leat im glad to learn that its a good lot.
and yea.. dunno why i have the strong urge to do this. i rarely hardly.. never ever do this.. .but today. .i did. weird eh ...
ppl say. .u are the type of ppl of whom u mixed with. of whom your frens are.
is that true? most of the times yes. but. . not all huh.
mm... anyway, im glad tis a good one.
future.. huh.. ..
today was looking at the pics which i never post.. it seems that o have the exact scars. same shape. ha. same location.its faint dark brown.. but.. yea. .whenevr i feel down, i'll look at it.. and remind myself of the pain. and the scars are there to remind me..
all the painful memories. as well as... .
situations.. or what causes that to happen..
time to time, i'll look at my wrist..compared from left to right... so diff.. but i guess.. thats the lessons i've give myself eh.
ha. .wonder if the scars are gonan stay for life.. .oops. but o well... im alreayd prepared for that.
at least its aint that obvious.
tonight.. my left wrist with scars hurts.. ..like.. burning feeling. .itchy.. i dunno. .weird.. .
haiz...
wahts life huh. .and wats a future like without love.
those are another.. painful level to......
mata
chinese we called it 'qian' .
u ask question to god, and attempt to shake out one of the stick with number on it.
and that stick, shall give u an answer to ur question
i dunno why.. as i wlked past, i hasve this strong urge. .strong feeling that i wanna do this. i wanna get a stick for my question.
so.. i tried.. and. .at first, the
god' kept laughign.. this is another hard to explain thing. .its like. .u throw this two red wooden thingy... mum knows.. but yea.
anwyay... .
i wanst confient with the resut. .however.. .
yea. .its a good stick'.
i asked.. about my future love life.. about my feeling with him..if there's any future ahead... its all about my feelings and love..
and... this si the answet i get...
''one frets hoping for the best, one faces good times, luck, etc. A big wide horizon open for you. suit yourself in what you hoped to do.
Interpretation: Good
Proceed with what you want to achieve. All is well. ''
thats it. the above words are so called.. the wnswer i get from the god. im not like. u know. im, kinda a free thinker.but that doesnt mean i can do the same thign as others.with is try and seek for an answer.
but i don get it...
proceed with what i wan to achieve? ... s..=/ im not very sure whats that mean... meaning... i shouldnt stop what im doing? and... future... i'll have good luck and good times? menaing its good? i dunno.. scared to have any hopes anyway.. .
sighs. .scared. but. at leat im glad to learn that its a good lot.
and yea.. dunno why i have the strong urge to do this. i rarely hardly.. never ever do this.. .but today. .i did. weird eh ...
ppl say. .u are the type of ppl of whom u mixed with. of whom your frens are.
is that true? most of the times yes. but. . not all huh.
mm... anyway, im glad tis a good one.
future.. huh.. ..
today was looking at the pics which i never post.. it seems that o have the exact scars. same shape. ha. same location.its faint dark brown.. but.. yea. .whenevr i feel down, i'll look at it.. and remind myself of the pain. and the scars are there to remind me..
all the painful memories. as well as... .
situations.. or what causes that to happen..
time to time, i'll look at my wrist..compared from left to right... so diff.. but i guess.. thats the lessons i've give myself eh.
ha. .wonder if the scars are gonan stay for life.. .oops. but o well... im alreayd prepared for that.
at least its aint that obvious.
tonight.. my left wrist with scars hurts.. ..like.. burning feeling. .itchy.. i dunno. .weird.. .
haiz...
wahts life huh. .and wats a future like without love.
those are another.. painful level to......
mata
08 December 2011
day gone wrong =(
was pissed off today. =/ supposed to go out, but din get to. sighs............. always like that
somemore bro wont go out with me even if i ask him to =( he'll only go out with his real brother redz if he asked to. sighs... waht to do,, its as though we;re not that related
anwyay.. was so angry.. down in the mood.. my mum asked bro and i.. wanna eat out or homr. bro say home. i felt like eatin g out... but yea.. then .. she threw in the rice ..and i was too late... my bad. then i decalred to her. .don cook my share . i do not wish to eat tonight=/.
still, i think she cooked alot=.- nope. im not eating them. cept for teh chicken wings ba... ow ell
im hungry. having a packet of chips now.
haiz.. my peeled off wounds are killing m,e=/ huu...
bear with it ba.. things are gonna get really busy in the next couple of days to come. haiz...
okk... soon... jan 4th will arrive... shall take my flight with ease... everythign shld be fine eh... ...i hope...
wth.. O.o all my female frens just commented as .. lol or hahaha... at the indian youtube video i talked abt ytd.
so weird!! are they agreeing?? O.o omg. dont tell me that video is quite true? women really are like that? im a woman.. but im not extreme normal like their extent. thak god.
jaa mata
somemore bro wont go out with me even if i ask him to =( he'll only go out with his real brother redz if he asked to. sighs... waht to do,, its as though we;re not that related
anwyay.. was so angry.. down in the mood.. my mum asked bro and i.. wanna eat out or homr. bro say home. i felt like eatin g out... but yea.. then .. she threw in the rice ..and i was too late... my bad. then i decalred to her. .don cook my share . i do not wish to eat tonight=/.
still, i think she cooked alot=.- nope. im not eating them. cept for teh chicken wings ba... ow ell
im hungry. having a packet of chips now.
haiz.. my peeled off wounds are killing m,e=/ huu...
bear with it ba.. things are gonna get really busy in the next couple of days to come. haiz...
okk... soon... jan 4th will arrive... shall take my flight with ease... everythign shld be fine eh... ...i hope...
wth.. O.o all my female frens just commented as .. lol or hahaha... at the indian youtube video i talked abt ytd.
so weird!! are they agreeing?? O.o omg. dont tell me that video is quite true? women really are like that? im a woman.. but im not extreme normal like their extent. thak god.
jaa mata
07 December 2011
sick again so fast
my fren visited me in the store... omg. stil lcan ask me about the stalker.. =.=''' dots.... i just hope no more stalkers in future. he say no wonder.. cos i look so chio' now. chio as in Hot. =.='''' dotsssssss
but anyway, glad to see my old frens once in a while.
but anyway, glad to see my old frens once in a while.
gosh im slpy... and very tired. not feeling well. .guess imma down weiht a cold real soon. no wait. i alreyad am =/
will hang in there ba...
just hit me.. .its alreayd dec 7.. first week of dec is over. wow. fast eh. without knowing... mm.... k.. gambate. .hang on till its time for me to relax overseas..
=/ hate my manager.
o well.
try to forget it ba.. keep ionside heart also useless huh
oh there's this indian video been goign around by my frens. some laugh it off.. but.. i don really get it though. lol. are women really like that? O.o i dont understand. or perhaps cos i dont react that way. o well. of course best if i dont react that way. =)
dunno ba.. wonder how true that video is. ha... perhaps just a gimmick.
oh there's this indian video been goign around by my frens. some laugh it off.. but.. i don really get it though. lol. are women really like that? O.o i dont understand. or perhaps cos i dont react that way. o well. of course best if i dont react that way. =)
dunno ba.. wonder how true that video is. ha... perhaps just a gimmick.
jaa mata
06 December 2011
my wonderful days
haiyo... =.=
haiz... bro was asking me if i would like to eat some godiva chocolates.. i turned, and i saw this similiar choco nice box he bought for me when he first went back to syd... from the blue mountain..chocos...
tears.. just dropped like that. .baka desu... hopefully bro din notice.. .
tears.. just dropped like that. .baka desu... hopefully bro din notice.. .
just.. .reminded of how.. the image u know just came back. . i picked him up at the busstop.. he passed me my pressies he bought from syd.. were in the living room.. then checking out the pressies. .so paiseh.. then turned my head tlaking halfway... and he kissed me. ha. our first kiss after 3 weeks apart. but i've been waiting for it too. just too shy to.. u know. ..ha. ..what a swt kiss that was. . it was lovely
yea. .thats the image. and. .how he had wanted me to go over cos he couldnt bear to part with me. .that time i was really thinking of yea. .how to save hard..but still din get to go cos his grand,ma went there with them
sometimse its like....
even if u didnt really think abou tit, certain thigns or matters.. wil lstill trigers your memory.
..very heartache... just wanted to cry out loud. i guess.. because those were part of the only best memories i ever had ba.
sighs.. .
=/ o well..
its ok. rather he be the happy one.
mm.... dunno what else to tlak about... don think tonight gonna have a peaceful night slp ba.. =/ .. haiz.. .what to do. memories can never be erase. not thtat i want to anyway
jaa mata ne
05 December 2011
Spoiler day =/
yesterady.. wow.. so pain my chest area.. as in inside.. my ribcage or something. i dunno.=/ at first i thought it was my heart again. then wait a min... heart is located on the left hand side. .but mine is around.. middle or right.. i dunno.. but it was a terrible feeling.. hints of pains whenever i breathe in.. its a weird feeling.. .lasted quite long.
huu..
oh. and so... mm.... today this movie thrailer called' like crazy' .. i watched it, =/.= thasnk to fren's link... so yea.. and it totally spoiled my day =.= bloody sad k.... sighs.... just.. puts me down real badly todya.. didnt have the mood to work either.. =/ haiz.. .baka.
but yea. i wont ever ever watch that movie i swear to god. spare me from the heartache..
sighs. .why i go and watch.. ...bloody hell.. .
haiz.. somemore las tnight.. was looking back at old pics of u know who.. hten .. haiz. cried again. ha.. .baka desu ne.
o well. .not a good day ba. but i think tmr shld be. cos manager not around. yay.
lol. theres this video of a news... singaporeans are number 2. ranked number 2. the coolest ppl. hahaha. cool huh
mm.... days aint getting easier... thoughts are still the same... .. sad life indeed...
i hope this trip... can cheer me up. and... .haiz. jst wanna do something daring and different.. but.. everytime my ccolleagues who been to australia. another one... from australia. ha. admittted that it is a boring place. lol.XD wth. anwyay... .she also advices do not go club or out alone at night to pubs and all... haiyooooooooooooooo ..but.. but.. =( i wanna try . huu...... how ne... =( she say later angmohs there dare to hit on me wan..=.=''''' of course i don wan that !
tch.. boring sia.... still dunno what to do. only know i wanna go to this paticular thai restaurant.. =/ not good enough. syd... what have u got fo rme =/
haiz.
but if hang around at the lounge area in hotel............ ahh... htat should be fine right!!
mmm...=.=... .think..think....
i'll see hows the hotel like first. at least go back easier and safer . just go up the lift. haha
dunno wher i got this blue black on my thigh.. =/ alreayd all black. not the normal blue. today got another papercut. haiz.. but.. physical pain is nothign after all..
finally its dec peepps.... ..im getting nearer towards the date of leaving... ..certain items and currency haven settle... but yea.. about there ba...
mm.... just wanna.. destress... and... yea... see if i could brighten up more.. if belign left alone in hotel at 5 and onwards,.. god.. .tc.. o well.. will se ehow ba.
at leats can drink all i wan. ha. no need to care much about anything ba
sighs.... ..yea.. u care... thats why.. u get hurt. and thats why. .it never heal.. .
but such thing.. cannot be control after all...
who in this world.. even knows the pain i suffered everyday.. oh yea. me.
tough. but im hanging on at least until my holiday is here.
i really see no lights now.
wonder whats fgonna happen after my holiday huh..
oh. i know who to pass on my msg. i mean.. jus in case right. a girl like me out in a big city. and im so .. blur somemore when it comes to getting lost. yes.. im best at that=.='''' dots. just in cas.e. i know who to pass on my msg... touch wood duh... but yea.. better than nothing right.
at least abit more relieved now.
thasnk for reading. thanks for listening..
..sighs. .what am i gonna do without blogging... would've kept even alot more of troubles inside my heart.
not good.. but. .sioetimes u c ant help it.. just aint got hte right person to talk to.. even if have.. that person might jjst not be always there..
jaa mata
huu..
oh. and so... mm.... today this movie thrailer called' like crazy' .. i watched it, =/.= thasnk to fren's link... so yea.. and it totally spoiled my day =.= bloody sad k.... sighs.... just.. puts me down real badly todya.. didnt have the mood to work either.. =/ haiz.. .baka.
but yea. i wont ever ever watch that movie i swear to god. spare me from the heartache..
sighs. .why i go and watch.. ...bloody hell.. .
haiz.. somemore las tnight.. was looking back at old pics of u know who.. hten .. haiz. cried again. ha.. .baka desu ne.
o well. .not a good day ba. but i think tmr shld be. cos manager not around. yay.
lol. theres this video of a news... singaporeans are number 2. ranked number 2. the coolest ppl. hahaha. cool huh
mm.... days aint getting easier... thoughts are still the same... .. sad life indeed...
i hope this trip... can cheer me up. and... .haiz. jst wanna do something daring and different.. but.. everytime my ccolleagues who been to australia. another one... from australia. ha. admittted that it is a boring place. lol.XD wth. anwyay... .she also advices do not go club or out alone at night to pubs and all... haiyooooooooooooooo ..but.. but.. =( i wanna try . huu...... how ne... =( she say later angmohs there dare to hit on me wan..=.=''''' of course i don wan that !
tch.. boring sia.... still dunno what to do. only know i wanna go to this paticular thai restaurant.. =/ not good enough. syd... what have u got fo rme =/
haiz.
but if hang around at the lounge area in hotel............ ahh... htat should be fine right!!
mmm...=.=... .think..think....
i'll see hows the hotel like first. at least go back easier and safer . just go up the lift. haha
dunno wher i got this blue black on my thigh.. =/ alreayd all black. not the normal blue. today got another papercut. haiz.. but.. physical pain is nothign after all..
finally its dec peepps.... ..im getting nearer towards the date of leaving... ..certain items and currency haven settle... but yea.. about there ba...
mm.... just wanna.. destress... and... yea... see if i could brighten up more.. if belign left alone in hotel at 5 and onwards,.. god.. .tc.. o well.. will se ehow ba.
at leats can drink all i wan. ha. no need to care much about anything ba
sighs.... ..yea.. u care... thats why.. u get hurt. and thats why. .it never heal.. .
but such thing.. cannot be control after all...
who in this world.. even knows the pain i suffered everyday.. oh yea. me.
tough. but im hanging on at least until my holiday is here.
i really see no lights now.
wonder whats fgonna happen after my holiday huh..
oh. i know who to pass on my msg. i mean.. jus in case right. a girl like me out in a big city. and im so .. blur somemore when it comes to getting lost. yes.. im best at that=.='''' dots. just in cas.e. i know who to pass on my msg... touch wood duh... but yea.. better than nothing right.
at least abit more relieved now.
thasnk for reading. thanks for listening..
..sighs. .what am i gonna do without blogging... would've kept even alot more of troubles inside my heart.
not good.. but. .sioetimes u c ant help it.. just aint got hte right person to talk to.. even if have.. that person might jjst not be always there..
jaa mata
02 December 2011
Love advice =.=''
here i am.. abit frustrating i have to say... ..listening to my fren's prob... having probs with his wife.. haiz.... i.. really don like to talk about love probs with ppl... like.. .i mean look at me. i cant even fix mine.
and yea. .here i am. .sitting away..typing.. trying to help him out.. .giving good advices and all.. but im the only one he talks to. .so yea.
gosh.. .i wish this conversation to end soon. don mind helping.. but.. jus not in a good mood now.. so yea.. =/
sighs...
tch. .sat always sucks.. even with things going on.. .
anyway.... i just thought of something. and bro was laughing too.
see.... this love charm..or tailsman.. i think its working. but... i didnt want that to work in that way... instead, i think probably somehow it gib me that weirdo from last night. lOL. wth isnt it. anyway,
just saying. jk ba.
couldnt be that...good right. its just a charm. =.= '' erm.. o well. haha. .anyway , my fren sbeen asking me to be careful... i dun see hwats so frightening.. but.. yea i do.. but.. .i dunno. im not so worry for now.
so yea.. but true. .last thing i want, is to have him follow me home. ...pray for me. =.=
mm.... and so....
hopefully there's no moer weirdos or stalkers around anymore...
oh god.. .at 21, sam and him are quite diff. well what can i say. duh. diff ppl mah. haha.. .
mm.. thinking of what to do. .next...
just.. .really dislike the feeling of being at home ... makes me real sad and depress.. =/
just feel like crying.. .because. .heart is so stuffy in there..
and not good to cry at home. .later mum gonna start questioning again =.= sianz.
pray for him to get well soon ba. otherwise he's not able to enjoy his blubs and parties..ball .. whaever.
guess he's been playing too hard
o well.. anything for him to be happy ba.. thats all it matters..
hopefully i'll feel better soon.. .wait ba. .what else to do...
stuffiness seems forever long to get it all out..
=(
..jaa
and yea. .here i am. .sitting away..typing.. trying to help him out.. .giving good advices and all.. but im the only one he talks to. .so yea.
gosh.. .i wish this conversation to end soon. don mind helping.. but.. jus not in a good mood now.. so yea.. =/
sighs...
tch. .sat always sucks.. even with things going on.. .
anyway.... i just thought of something. and bro was laughing too.
see.... this love charm..or tailsman.. i think its working. but... i didnt want that to work in that way... instead, i think probably somehow it gib me that weirdo from last night. lOL. wth isnt it. anyway,
just saying. jk ba.
couldnt be that...good right. its just a charm. =.= '' erm.. o well. haha. .anyway , my fren sbeen asking me to be careful... i dun see hwats so frightening.. but.. yea i do.. but.. .i dunno. im not so worry for now.
so yea.. but true. .last thing i want, is to have him follow me home. ...pray for me. =.=
mm.... and so....
hopefully there's no moer weirdos or stalkers around anymore...
oh god.. .at 21, sam and him are quite diff. well what can i say. duh. diff ppl mah. haha.. .
mm.. thinking of what to do. .next...
just.. .really dislike the feeling of being at home ... makes me real sad and depress.. =/
just feel like crying.. .because. .heart is so stuffy in there..
and not good to cry at home. .later mum gonna start questioning again =.= sianz.
pray for him to get well soon ba. otherwise he's not able to enjoy his blubs and parties..ball .. whaever.
guess he's been playing too hard
o well.. anything for him to be happy ba.. thats all it matters..
hopefully i'll feel better soon.. .wait ba. .what else to do...
stuffiness seems forever long to get it all out..
=(
..jaa
confession of love!? O.o
so many things happened..
anyway.. .last night. .in the middle of the night, i could feel my intestines. .from my upper torso twirling or soething.. i did eat somehting.. huu...=/ tonight.. hopefully... wont happen again. very scary.. its not stomachache... its really like. .internal pains. from the stomach. not like u wanna go to toilet kind of stomachache pain.
=/ luckily no need go operation or hospital... for some moments there, i really thought i might need one =( huu.....
but perhasp me no eat enough huh....
haiz. duno ... =/ tch. .but such a scary feeling... huu...
oh was so excited lush finally open in sg!! go check it out .finally. now.. ac ouple more stores im waiting from aust, to arrive in sg. wee.... soon ;)
so weird. lol. today dunno what day. suddenly 4 of my ex colleagues all at diff times, come to store and visit me. short visit. but yea. lol. so weird ne.
one of them.. me not so close with.. cos wormk only for one day. she asked me how am i . .i was like.. good....err...o..k... okok . lol. XD
im not good. and i dont wanan say good. just too used to saying good' to customers.. thats why.
anwyay.... funny thing. one of my excolleague,.. we're like. .we talked so close and frenly! like we've known each other for years. but infact, i never get to work with her before. only for floor trail yes. once. weird right. but every time i met her, we're like buddies. not like buddies.. but yea... we hit it oof so well. ha. even my colleagu was surprised we din work together at all.. ' then why did u hug each other'? lol. i also dunno... XD just felt close to her ba
anwyay.. .today.. highlight of the day.. so happeing sia todya.
a man. came into the store.. he say the other time he came in i wasnt in store. he said he talked to me once .. but i couldnt remember him at all. i m not sure=/
anwyay... he proceeded to ask me fo rmy name. .he intro himself. .asked me for my hobbies. .ask me why din i ask him anything since he ask me so much alreyad. OMG. i was like. .holy cow.. whats the situation here now?
then he's like.. say you'll go out with me. .and i;ll be the happiest man in the world. if u dont, i'll be very sad.
im soft hearted. i dunno how to handle this type of ppl! omg. im in trouble.
=.= ''
then blah2.... i was doing cashring .. and he was like. .doing this blow kisses action to me. i was like. ...is he crazy? haha... seriously.. omg. i dunno hwat to say of this. very weird. in the end his fren arrived, and he went off while i continue busy with customers..
omg. what the hell was that. scary.. i hope this aint gonna happen again. though im very sure he's gonna be back=.= but im not prepared of what to say at all. im really not good with hurting ppl's feelings.
huu.... very weird situation.
i made it clear that he's too straight forward and im NOT that kind of girl who'll go out with a stranger whom i just met . like. .yea. htats not me. im not like ok lets go out then type of girl. so not me.
hten hes; like. .ok we'll go out i'll treat u as a fren we talk as usual. .we go out as frens, and then we move on to the next stage...' i forgot what he said in full snetence. in short, he;s sayinghtta we go out as frens first, and then we;ll go out as a Couple. holy camoly.
WTH was htat O.O i am speechless.
he's so confident! like. .thick skinned i guess? -_- dotsss ...
ha. somehow i have a feeling that if sam gets to know about htis, he'll laugh his *ss off. or nah perhaps wont care abit.
but yea.. its sooo weird. today .. ....so happening. lol
can u believe that? so many stalkers. weirdos... omg. spare me please........................
=.=
haiz.
k ba. hopefully this time round will have a peaceful slp....
mm. .worried abit. .but. ...should be fine ba. ... ..
sighs.. .
life is still... ..such a joke after all... ...
=/
mata
anyway.. .last night. .in the middle of the night, i could feel my intestines. .from my upper torso twirling or soething.. i did eat somehting.. huu...=/ tonight.. hopefully... wont happen again. very scary.. its not stomachache... its really like. .internal pains. from the stomach. not like u wanna go to toilet kind of stomachache pain.
=/ luckily no need go operation or hospital... for some moments there, i really thought i might need one =( huu.....
but perhasp me no eat enough huh....
haiz. duno ... =/ tch. .but such a scary feeling... huu...
oh was so excited lush finally open in sg!! go check it out .finally. now.. ac ouple more stores im waiting from aust, to arrive in sg. wee.... soon ;)
so weird. lol. today dunno what day. suddenly 4 of my ex colleagues all at diff times, come to store and visit me. short visit. but yea. lol. so weird ne.
one of them.. me not so close with.. cos wormk only for one day. she asked me how am i . .i was like.. good....err...o..k... okok . lol. XD
im not good. and i dont wanan say good. just too used to saying good' to customers.. thats why.
anwyay.... funny thing. one of my excolleague,.. we're like. .we talked so close and frenly! like we've known each other for years. but infact, i never get to work with her before. only for floor trail yes. once. weird right. but every time i met her, we're like buddies. not like buddies.. but yea... we hit it oof so well. ha. even my colleagu was surprised we din work together at all.. ' then why did u hug each other'? lol. i also dunno... XD just felt close to her ba
anwyay.. .today.. highlight of the day.. so happeing sia todya.
a man. came into the store.. he say the other time he came in i wasnt in store. he said he talked to me once .. but i couldnt remember him at all. i m not sure=/
anwyay... he proceeded to ask me fo rmy name. .he intro himself. .asked me for my hobbies. .ask me why din i ask him anything since he ask me so much alreyad. OMG. i was like. .holy cow.. whats the situation here now?
then he's like.. say you'll go out with me. .and i;ll be the happiest man in the world. if u dont, i'll be very sad.
im soft hearted. i dunno how to handle this type of ppl! omg. im in trouble.
=.= ''
then blah2.... i was doing cashring .. and he was like. .doing this blow kisses action to me. i was like. ...is he crazy? haha... seriously.. omg. i dunno hwat to say of this. very weird. in the end his fren arrived, and he went off while i continue busy with customers..
omg. what the hell was that. scary.. i hope this aint gonna happen again. though im very sure he's gonna be back=.= but im not prepared of what to say at all. im really not good with hurting ppl's feelings.
huu.... very weird situation.
i made it clear that he's too straight forward and im NOT that kind of girl who'll go out with a stranger whom i just met . like. .yea. htats not me. im not like ok lets go out then type of girl. so not me.
hten hes; like. .ok we'll go out i'll treat u as a fren we talk as usual. .we go out as frens, and then we move on to the next stage...' i forgot what he said in full snetence. in short, he;s sayinghtta we go out as frens first, and then we;ll go out as a Couple. holy camoly.
WTH was htat O.O i am speechless.
he's so confident! like. .thick skinned i guess? -_- dotsss ...
ha. somehow i have a feeling that if sam gets to know about htis, he'll laugh his *ss off. or nah perhaps wont care abit.
but yea.. its sooo weird. today .. ....so happening. lol
can u believe that? so many stalkers. weirdos... omg. spare me please........................
=.=
haiz.
k ba. hopefully this time round will have a peaceful slp....
mm. .worried abit. .but. ...should be fine ba. ... ..
sighs.. .
life is still... ..such a joke after all... ...
=/
mata
01 December 2011
Better than nothing
ok.. .short blog here... gonna start watching my fav idol soon..
haiz.. =/ dunno what to blog also.. i think i do.. but i forgot. .the moment i wanan start typing, i forgot.
game loaded.. but... .haven get started.. seems.. abit weird.. im blocked.. so not too sure... but... kinda guess it coulve been this way anyway.
had weird dreams...
one is... a dream i have a bf. his face i cant remember anymore... but i know he's short.. slightly taller than me. i felt happy. but.. wasnt that kindof happiness... but.. kinda happy..to have someone care for me there. weird dream. but. .disturbing as well.. weird feeling i guess
another dream. .ha. dreamt of buying all the items i wanted from lush. yes its opening tmr. cheers. cant wait!
haiz. .soemtiems my game can load. .sometiems cannot! =( baka desu ne...
hopefully can load sooon... another game im talking about
mm... oh, i had two love good luck charms now. ha.... funny eh,
asked bro help me get for work and love. but work no more. sadly.. huu...
but yea.. bro bought 2 diff ones... asked me which i like better.. but since he got no use for hte other, i asked for two instead. muahah.
so yup. hopefully that'll bring some gdluck to my love life.
otherwise.... =/ sighs.. i dont think i can ever smile again.. now love life is .. so uncertain. .dunno whats he thinking. i know nothing...
..anywya... still feeling suckly as usuall...
good thing lunch i took..dinner abit. but better than none right.
mood... just.. really down whenever i reach home... at least workplace.. .forced myself to smile and chat with customers.. can relieved me abit of some pains. better than nothing again right.
i hate everythihng here.
i wish theres no need to carry this on anymore.
i don have the heart to anymore.
everything just sucks. and i always have to cry in the dark or when its time for slp.
ha. can u even imagine a me without smile on my face? bet its diff eh if you've seen my cheery pics.
k.. gtg. show starting. .gotta dry my tears now... cannot let family see i cry again. slping time then continue crying ba
ha. and one more thing before i go.. how ironic.. i like parties.. but i hate party ppl. does that mean i hate tat part of me too? i dunno .just hate party ppl. like....
mata ne...
-..dont worry for me.. there's nothing to be worry about..-
haiz.. =/ dunno what to blog also.. i think i do.. but i forgot. .the moment i wanan start typing, i forgot.
game loaded.. but... .haven get started.. seems.. abit weird.. im blocked.. so not too sure... but... kinda guess it coulve been this way anyway.
had weird dreams...
one is... a dream i have a bf. his face i cant remember anymore... but i know he's short.. slightly taller than me. i felt happy. but.. wasnt that kindof happiness... but.. kinda happy..to have someone care for me there. weird dream. but. .disturbing as well.. weird feeling i guess
another dream. .ha. dreamt of buying all the items i wanted from lush. yes its opening tmr. cheers. cant wait!
haiz. .soemtiems my game can load. .sometiems cannot! =( baka desu ne...
hopefully can load sooon... another game im talking about
mm... oh, i had two love good luck charms now. ha.... funny eh,
asked bro help me get for work and love. but work no more. sadly.. huu...
but yea.. bro bought 2 diff ones... asked me which i like better.. but since he got no use for hte other, i asked for two instead. muahah.
so yup. hopefully that'll bring some gdluck to my love life.
otherwise.... =/ sighs.. i dont think i can ever smile again.. now love life is .. so uncertain. .dunno whats he thinking. i know nothing...
..anywya... still feeling suckly as usuall...
good thing lunch i took..dinner abit. but better than none right.
mood... just.. really down whenever i reach home... at least workplace.. .forced myself to smile and chat with customers.. can relieved me abit of some pains. better than nothing again right.
i hate everythihng here.
i wish theres no need to carry this on anymore.
i don have the heart to anymore.
everything just sucks. and i always have to cry in the dark or when its time for slp.
ha. can u even imagine a me without smile on my face? bet its diff eh if you've seen my cheery pics.
k.. gtg. show starting. .gotta dry my tears now... cannot let family see i cry again. slping time then continue crying ba
ha. and one more thing before i go.. how ironic.. i like parties.. but i hate party ppl. does that mean i hate tat part of me too? i dunno .just hate party ppl. like....
mata ne...
-..dont worry for me.. there's nothing to be worry about..-
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