Better than nothing

ok.. .short blog here... gonna start watching my fav idol soon..

haiz.. =/ dunno what to blog also.. i think i do.. but i forgot. .the moment i wanan start typing, i forgot.

game loaded.. but... .haven get started.. seems.. abit weird.. im blocked.. so not too sure... but... kinda guess it coulve been this way anyway.

had weird dreams...

one is... a dream i have a bf. his face i cant remember anymore... but i know he's short.. slightly taller than me. i felt happy. but.. wasnt that kindof happiness... but.. kinda happy..to have someone care for me there. weird dream. but. .disturbing as well.. weird feeling i guess

another dream. .ha. dreamt of buying all the items i wanted from lush. yes its opening tmr. cheers. cant wait!

haiz. .soemtiems my game can load. .sometiems cannot! =( baka desu ne...
hopefully can load sooon... another game im talking about

mm... oh, i had two love good luck charms now. ha.... funny eh,
asked bro help me get for work and love. but work no more. sadly.. huu...
but yea.. bro bought 2 diff ones... asked me which i like better.. but since he got no use for hte other, i asked for two instead. muahah.
so yup. hopefully that'll bring some gdluck to my love life.
otherwise.... =/ sighs.. i dont think i can ever smile again..  now love life is .. so uncertain. .dunno whats he thinking. i know nothing...

..anywya... still feeling suckly as usuall...

good thing lunch i took..dinner abit. but better than none right.
mood... just.. really down whenever i reach home... at least workplace.. .forced myself to smile and chat with customers.. can relieved me abit of some pains. better than nothing again right.

i hate everythihng here.
i wish theres no need to carry this on anymore.
i don have the heart to anymore.
everything just sucks. and i always have to cry in the dark or when its time for slp.

ha. can u even imagine a me without smile on my face? bet its diff eh if you've seen my cheery pics.

k.. gtg. show starting. .gotta dry my tears now... cannot let family see i cry again. slping time then continue crying ba

ha. and one more thing before i go.. how ironic.. i like parties.. but i hate party ppl. does that mean i hate tat part of me too? i dunno .just hate party ppl. like....

mata ne...

-..dont worry for me.. there's nothing to be worry about..-