THINK - APPRECIATE - BE THANKFUL

hm.. ok..  so.. today theres a huge crowd in our shop.. dunno why.. but yea..
haiz... o well.. so.. officially to say.. its back to plan 1. and i wont be able to see him in a shorter time. so.. yea. too bad. =/
o well.... .... life doesnt get easier.
anyway... sam was talking to me through about phones again.. its interesting about their lines. .hm.. ..o well. anyway... ....i dunno.  i try to keep it as a low down thingy for me.. dont wanna  get too interested in sumtin, only then to u knw. know that u couldnt own it.
 and.. yea.. no good at all. ha.. o well
shall see how ba...  theres good and bad between the i and the s phone. s could say as such htc desire.. i... hm.. i dunno.. dots.. =.= sounds still... hm.. ..i dunno. =/ shrugs* bad impression i gotta say. very bad. but. .yea.. like i said. theres always a bad and good points. but i know which side im on. so.. yea. but try not to think of it too much. .in case i gotta stand on the other side.. u get wha i mena eh? so yea..

hm.. tired.. o well. .4 days to go. .hang on ne.. .. gosh.. ..
hm... ....so long never get sunday off ne.. ...
 o well..
hm.. lets see... ... today work.. i duno.. don really feel happy. but try not to think about it..

weird.. i think i forgot to say anythign here.. hm... .. dots. .cant remember..
anyway...
hm... workplace now the new staffs starts to open up.. and lol.. its surprisinly weird.. i duno.. different i supposed.. .. haha.. ....
so yea.. at leats.. nto so bad now.. ..
tch.... i dunno what im thinking. its like. .back to how i feel last year oct to nov.
or sep to nov.. or to dec.. yea. .wahtever..  i wonder if i should have a read at those older blogs.. gosh.. i hate to re-read my previous blogs.. so troublesome. .i duno.. just.. hm.. ... freaky. .. i dun like... like. .re reading whats been happy and whats not.. and then i'll be upsetall over again.. or have regrets of my past. i duno. just don like ba.
but anyway... hm.........
..i duno..
im just wonderig  why things changed.. ..or was it forgotten.. or simply too used to it, and ppl starts to get them for granted. and then forgot all about hwy its so important in the 1st place. and then nobody starts to appreciate what u do.. they tend to treat it as a .. 'i'll accept if u give me'.
kinda.. tyea.. attitude.  or perhasp. '.oh yes.. this happened so many times.. its happening again. so, im gonna accept this. its for granted. '
yea.. don u think so? ask yourself. when was the last time u actually stop and htink. think about what could u do for the other person. or. .just at least spend more time to appreciate it. .think about what ppl around u are thinking.
not say all of them.. but... ... yea... .
sometimes i wonder.. if its better. .to be one of the others. forget what u see right in front of u. live ur life. stop making the efforts.
just.. blend in with them .at least things could be easier on my side. but.. someitmes.. human nature.. couldnt be changed at all.u just knnew.. it couldnt. or rather, you couldnt.
o well... life's tough. overcome it. try to do so. failed, then get back up again. its so tough now isnt that so. ..geez.... why did humans have such a life i wonder.
..
gosh.. its a lil late.. and i thought i was gonna be able to slp early. ha. ..o well. i mena. .i cant realy. .i don really feell.. good.. ..
hm.. .... just a tired night i supposed eh.. ..
ah.. phones2... always nice to hear sam, or ppl's opinion about them.. yea.. i guess its all thanks to him now that ive become interested in gadgets too eh. ha.. oh an dipad.. OMG... i didnt expect it to be soo .. big!! gosh.. was like. .huh?? wasnt it supposed to be so small ? gosh.. wth. haha.. anyway, yea..
hm.. i hope starhub will hav emore lines soon ne..
mata 

Day 1

ok.. so.... my night. .haiyo... bad sia.. ...
closing ran into some stupid prob=.= watse my time.. make me go back late.. haiz.
then got home, weird things happen.
dunno should consider as weird or not ba.. but yea.. me got home.. lights alreayd on..
went into my room. .changed clothes.. on my lappy.. then go out.. saw living room light off..  without thinking anything me go on it. course ya. .u know.. i dislike darkness.
then took a few steps towards kitchen.. i turned back, look at the living room.. hey.... wait a sec... the room light was on! i din switch it off! O.o
parents slping somemore ne.. so weird.. o well.. duno ba..
then me eyes widen up. ha.. like movie sia.. gosh...
anyway, just wanna bath and stuff. .so yea..
what makes this thingy frekay is.. theres this funeral going on below the block. i mena across the road. saw it when bus passes by. so yea .
but nah.. i 'll be fine. need some slp anywya. then gonna wakey fast liao. trying not to think too much about htis hwne i head for bed later. dots.. scary.

wow. .sooo many new diary. =) its fabulous! so pretty all the items! omg. .cant keep my eyes off them.. keep on touching them. ha.. anywya, haiz.. tch.. it wasnt used to be like this.. i hate this type of working atmosphere.. where ppl are talking about why the upper (manager) isnt doing their work.. etc.. i dunno how to explain. .but yea..
i dunno..whatever ba.. .like.. o well...

hm.. .....hwat else.... ..eh.... ... o well.. about there ba.. like.. so weird. .duno how i got through my day =/
like.. so long... yet.. dunno ar.. haha.. .. so tiring..
o well.

anyway... my manager is coming back in a week's time. yay.. kinda yay.. hm.. duno. o well. haha.
hm.. k ba.. duno hwat else to say ..

*yawn.. oh.. i heard form my colleague say.. giving belated birthdya present isnt a good thing. duno why ne.

mata

End OF...

=( feel so lost. .after sammy went to bed.. feel sooo lost. and sad=( reluctantly said bye and ended the call..
sigh.. baka desu.... huuuuu....

o well. .tmr back to work.. haiz.. and he's heading back to school in days.. huu...

oh. .just now watched movie with him.. nice one.. but kena dis halfway through cos we watch too much. .the time too long or sumtin.. then gotta load =,=
then my fren suddenly pop in msn O.o gosh. but me never reply of course.
then finally we watch finish. its funny. nice movie.
and theres this part.. omg.. i laughed soo hardXD... so .. omg.. funny!!
yea we both laughed. gosh.. got me cracking up there.XD


anywy.. hm.. oh, ytd morning.. so cold. O.o i thoguht i was in sydneyXD lol. i grabbie my blankie.. yea.. soso cold.. wow.
hm.. then ytd dinner iwht family.. duno why.. sudden though of samy.. suddenly thought of the date now.. its end of july.. and i was like. .wow.. hold on there.. did i just said july? then i remembered..  ... its officially a year since sam is gone. =( huu... and there i was.. holding back my tears. was so gonna cry at the thought of thta. but yea.. held them back.. and.. uh huh.. shifted my thoguhts.. i tried. so yea. ..huu.. was so gonna cry on the spot.. but.. uh huh.. wow.... one year is gone..... ha.. making me teary now again.. ..baka desu.. ...
and to think my thoughts stil lremained at about 6,7 months.. then realises it was a year in fact.. ..huu.. so pain....

had a hard time slping again last night. .thinking of him.. and. .i duno.. just slpt hard.. and long after my head hits the pillow.
hm.. hope tonight will be better..
tmr. .working. .sianz.... gotta get through lots of 6shifts man.. this month .. i mena aug. =./
haiz....
gotta stay strong.. in all aspects.. ..
gotta be...
sigh... will hang on ne.. .. uh huh.. ..

bah............. .... =/
gambate ne pauline..

and so.. thats it ba.. hm... suddenly i guess... from 6 months.. gotta stretch to one year now eh.. wait.. no.. its 11months. ha.. ..o well...
and .. sigh. i hate it when that time of month is coming, i'll be extra sensitive during these dasy.. and that sucks.. *breathes out.. trying to keep it all together..
trying not to dwell on it all u know. ha..

hm.. was having this conversation with my fren.. hten he was like. .saying i sounded like i was gonna go to a real far away place and couldnt contact each other anymore.
i was like. .oh.. i din know i suonded htat wya.. but i replied. u know. .we never know the future.. for all u j know, i might be gone one day and never come back. I might be gone for real eh.
..ha..

hm.. o well...
so nnow.. im hating that my off day is overT_T sianzzzz... huu.. o well.. hang on for 6 days ba.. see how things are going.. ...
hm...

ok.. so.. o well.. thast my dya.. ..ha.. yea... basically just rest. .me lie on bed. .trying to slp abit or rest.. cannot nap ne.. jus cant put my mind down to slp.. maybe cos of coffee ba? ha. .o well.

tch.. =/ duno what else to say ba.. .. i duno. suddenly at this moment, things are all so bored. and... so amiss... cant put my finger into it.. maybe its just so quiet now. .and.. yea.. .. i dunno.. maybe cos its at the end o fmy night...
i dislike this feeling..

haiz.. k then.. end of my days..
nights.

mata ne.



-see u when i see u-

Nothing OnLine

hm. .day.. started out quite alrite.. cooked pasta.. yay.. cooked it the way my bro did.. spicy.. taste almost identical.. was good..
hm.. then eat.. watch tv.. then chat with sam.. aw.. haiz.. he got no payout thingy.. os yea.. =/ cant se ehim liao..
haiz..
erm.. yea.. clean2 abit room.. throw papers away.. then watch movie with him.. so nice his laughter.. ha. .so infectious^^ naw..
laugh so much..

hm... .... then me go bath .. soon to eat. .he also.. then... yea.. hm.. talk abit. .and im starting to feel so tired. .siting in front of lappy got  nothign to do.. gosh. really dunno what to press anymore..
hm.. so yea.. then in and outta my room.. watch tv and stuff..


oh yea.. last night forogt ot mention eh..
it was nice for sammy to show me the apartments in sydney.. and takl about it. yea..
i didnt realised theres such apartments thereXD ha.. .so yup.. thats swt of him ^^


hm... ... gosh.. i think forgot to mention one more thing. .dots.. dunno hwat ne. .
haiz.. tch.. o well=/

see if i could remmeber tmr night ba


haiz.. so bored. .yet doesnt wish to slp.. cos my night is ending =( then gonna be 6 full shifts. .haiz. .sianz...
hm... o wel...

haiz.. mish sam so much now =(
somemore.. =/ haiz.. if only he could get the money from the goverment thiny eh.. .o well.. ..
just han gon fo rhte days ba.. ..

hm.. so yea.. mish him so much now=( huu....
*pouts.. actualy every min of the day.. even when he online..


mata

6 Months!

aww.. just watched a thriller movie with bro and redz.. then the first part of the scene reminded me soo much of me and sammy... *blushes.. .o well.... haiz.. so miss him ne..
oh.. so... erm.. ok. .concidence or wha.. ha. .i dunno. .perhasp ba.. seems like. .sammy mummy wiht bro is coming back to sg in jan. but who knows what might happen last min eh?
however.. so.. now there could be some slight changes eh.. who knows.. i might be the one ended up going over to his side... hm.. i duno.. shall see how ba.. months back.. i checked the hotel.. hm. .wihtout tub i think. .it cost about 500+ au dollar for about a week? i think... hm.. there should be cheaper hotel.. but.. o well. .just without tub only.. we cant expect alot mah. however, having him is enuff. somemore, hm.. doing things like.. going to opera house.. or blue mountain.. doesnt cost much ne. .cept for fuel baXD
o well. .anywya, just hope things will o smooth as plan.. and.. yea.. we could relaly highly be poissble to see each other soon =D yay.. i wish!
hm.. what else happen..
..think*.2..
ok.. so.. we gave each other a smile on the face today.. by msging.. ha..
hm.. oh yes.. i shall be searching fo rmovie link...
hm..  ..gosh.. what else.. .

weird. .thought i was gonna say something? hm. .eh......... ..
not sure
but anywa, todya me saw 2 dresses. so nice T_T but couldnt buy it. and didnt buy it. if sam was here, i could just buy the dress, wear it with him on dates out.. wear nice2 mah.. XD ha.. erm.. yea.. but... now i cant.. i gotta save. .somemore.. even if buy ,there wouldnt be much changce for me to wear either.. wear so nice also for what.. usually me also never go out too late or whatever..
so yea.. =/
but becos seldom anything could caught my eye, that is why ... yea.. its abit ifficult. but it sok.. i shall forget about those expensive dresses. ion.. what do u expect. .everythign expensive =.= cept for daiso. ha..
so yea.. very2 nice ne.. swet.. anotheer is abit.. hm.. alluring. ha.. so yea... aw.. o well. .nvm ba..
hm.. wat else... .... eh.. k ba. .getting so late. .me better go get reayd fo rbed soon..
hm. .yea.. oh!! theres this old couple. .ok .. they are fashionable ppl. .not so typical kidna old ppl .. anyway , me feel so close to them. they are such awesoe frenly ppl =D omg. so swt. my manger say they love me!XD LOL... anywy yea.. whever they come in, they'll look fo rme. and bloody hell.. none of my manger nor colleague tell me about htis=.,=.. grr....
anyway, yea.. they bought tons of items.. =) im so happy. veyr hapy to see them. .always =D
such nice couple. .and htey are incredibly lioving!!!!!!!!!! gosh!! i wanna be like them in futre old days!! awww..
then i tell my manger i think they are from france. .and she offers me to intro france guys to me. yes. i just thought of htis funny thing she said. me totally forgot! =,=then  i was like. NOOOO!!!!!~ lol.
but she jsut joking.
anyway, yes.. such loving couple. .gosh.. so sweet!! and i think. .they are very2 rich ppl. however, awwww. =) gosh.. i only have nice and good words for them =)
aww.. ahhh.....
XD.. yea...
hope to see htem soon ba. gosh.. touch wood. .but if i ever get transfer,.. =( sigh.. im so gonna miss them T_T =( huuu..............
mata

Great News! =D

wow wee..... =D! ok. .so theres this plan going on. .about 6months later i could be seeing sammy!! omg!! this is nuts=D happily nuts^^ well.. just hoping for hte best.. and save whatever we can... 
hm.. yea.. so.. keeping my fingers crossed! i hope i can see him soon!!=D
uh huh ^^ great piece of news eh.. uh huh... looking forward to that happening one day.. jan huh.. gosh.. i want it so badlly.. really hope he can come withhin that time period.. menatime, we jus gotta save hard enough to make sure this can come true.. yea..
i know.. ppl will say.. so much money.. then why spend it awya.. but.. i serioulsy think its worth seeing him more than any other thign esle.
=)
but.. come to think of it.. he really  didnt have to save as much as i do ne.. hm. .yea.. somemore here is cheaper. .food.. malls.. and even if go zoo, so much cheaper!! haha. i wonder what can he buy from here..XD
anyway, its gonna be awesome if this could come true! soo gonna go explore everywhere with him!!! =) don care if its hot or far or tiring.. SO gonna make all the trips with him! =D ahh.. and hopefully by the time he's here, the uss transformer theme will be out already. should be actually.
hm. .so yea. =) night safari.. jurong bird park.. lol.. =) uh huh.. so wann go desu.. or maybe zoo again? XD

oh.. bro was telling me jurong bird park have this really  big fountain. very beautiful looking .
yea.. i wanan go check it out one day. oh, can go sience centre with him also.. lol. .XD anyway, wil lsee how ba.. or just stay at home.. dvd.. ice cream tv mode.. ^^  gosh.. loving all. =)
hm.. os yea.. basically like that ba. happy to tlaked with him =) and yea.. with such good news.. aw.. =) nice ne^^
hm.. scared it wont come true.. however it si.. just hope for the best ba.. and save3 money...

my colleagues still asking me.. =.= why don wan find someone nearer to be my bf. lol.. i think ne. .everyone who's in ldr.. will get asked this question somehow.XD
well..... its simple to reply. would u rather want true love? or just convenience? true love lasts forever. u want convenience? go find a begger also wil ldo ne. =.=
anyway, hm.. my fren was chatting with me .. then like. he complimented me.. i dunno how to explain.. like. i feel he might like me.. i dunno.. its scary.. i'll rather don wan know the answer, and trust my feelings.. and stay away from him.. yea.. =/ abit.. like. .sad ba.. cos.. hm. .wasnt the first time i gotta stay away fro my frens cos of this.. but.. yea.. its wise and a must thing to do..
so.. uh huh... o well.. as long as i stay away.. will do fine desu..
hm. .today.. hm. .alot to do ne.. i think. yea.. quite alot. anway, long story. just glad me finishied work on time. phew..
and get to speak wiht sam on time too. before i missed bus and too late home. huu
so yea.
hm..
oh yea! this mrg. .found out i overslpt. omg... becos i didnt set my alarm! i was too slpy and tired.. cos somemore i was chatting with sam through the phoen. .too comfy.. anyway, sooo glad me wakey on time.. phewwwww......
oh yea... hmm.. ... if only.. haiyo.. cannot.. just thought of sumitn. if only sam could book his ticket months earlier too. .that would be good.. cos i dunno.. maybe its the same eh.. could be cheaper if book earlier.. but cannot ba.. cos he not sur ewhen he wil lget caleld to work. .then if bookk.. then haven save enuff how.. touch wood* o well.. nvm ba.. just hope the price wil drop somemhow
k.. me slpy..and tired. .wanna slp alreayd. .hm.. did i miss out anything.. .=.= hm............
o well. tmr continue or wht ba. .ha
oh.. sam mentioend that its so bnoring to work alone.. and sacn stuf.f.. hm.. i know how that feels=/ had that before.. but i tell myself.. other colleagues want chat, let them be. . me , doing my own job and work. who knows, i might get customer leave feedback with good impression of me. correct? so yea... here to work. .not to make frens. even if chat2. ..yea..
still... ... uh huh... nvm.. i get all he sales if they continue talking.. ha. .so yea.. good for me ba..
anyway.. hope he'll be fine ne.. so wanna hug him.. watching him work.. ..

hm. .somemore thining.. i forgot say something ne. .dunno hwat.. ha.. maybe too happy over the news ba.. k gtg..
hm.. hope tmr he also get to work ba..

mata ne!!

Good 3 Off

i dunno man.. the other night. .i was liek trying to find someone to cover my shift for me.. blah3.. thinknig should i mc ornot.. then today that stupid guy mc yet again!! like once a month or at elast once every two months. this is so freaking weir. =,= anyway , ended up my manger to find ppl to cover for him. im seriously thinkig should i pretend to ask her about it? oh, i tot u guys keep saying we have to find our own replacement. how come he's not doing it? how come u are the one to do so???
gosh.. he's so.. omg.. i duno.. manager words could not be trusted? i shoudl've painted my nails all with nail arts=,=
anyway, its really irritating. good thign we managerd to have ppl cover up 2 guys. gosh!!!
IF. and i do mean it. if he ever mc during my shift, and i gotta do fullshift, im so gonna say to my manger that this will be my last time to coverfor him. COS HE MC EVERY MONTH!! yes. im not kidding. i will say that if he ever kena me full again. gosh.. so irritating. ok. lets say its real. he evry month got eye infectious, or duno what. but. its every month ne! shoudl've gone to hospital or what alreyad.or at the very least, for god sake, go find replacement himself!!!
sianz.... i wonder if i should ask my manger abt this.. but afraid to come across as being too.. on the offense side.. . anywy
today received a pressy from my manger. ^^ aw.. so nice=3 i  mena the thoughts la. then got a card soemmroe =;) haha.. oh theres another item. i think its for me according to my fren. but theres no note tat indicate that belongs to me. .so yea.. me never bring home. tmr will ask my fren ba
hm... ..so yea.. thats abou tit ba.. ..hm..... tired.. but its ncie u know.. had my 3 dasy off. .really3 made a huge difference.. me back to work, feeling good. like.. not say happy. last night feeling sukly.. cos yea. .huu. .ging back to work =/
but today.. yea.. back to work i have energy. not tired. .not  slpy.. its good. i really do nid these 3 offs.
wow. made such a difference .but of course. im slpy and tired now. ha... .
hm.... ......wonder when will i get such off again. =/ especially when me not sure how many leaves can i get nwo=/ haiz.. so wish sabrina will appear soon.. then i can ask her abou tit.. ..
work's fine todya.. hm.. yea.. thanks to my 3 off. which is really great.. ..
but. .morning .. gosh.. have to do some work.. cos dunno why the schedule is planned this way.. putting a partimer with a new partimer!? wth??  and somemore never teach them what to do.. how to do opening. .then just place them liek that, sianz. end up me do their opening work. ahh.. anyway, don care ba... i understand how difficult it is to plan the schedule.. ..so.. o well..

u know.. i guess the travel fair isnt necessary after all. i should actually check time to time the website for good deals.and not through fares.. .. hm.. yeah... i think earlier book though website. should be better than the travel fair ba.. .i dunno.. hm.. whatever. i just wish that the rates for the aussie currency will remain as low as now!! oh hopefully!! yea...
hm. .sammy still aslp.. ..
aw.. his school starting soon =/ huu..
and gnna be abck to those dasy of ..hm... yea..   couldnt talk to him much ne..

oh, ok.. so iphone is coming out. wow. yea.. i asked my colleague today. .she's using android. .theres this thing called text buzz. i asked if it could send to overseas. she say yea. cos iphone got hte whats app. so.. uh huh.. hope the text buzz will work as good. hm..
anyway,well.. im just gonna save3.. do whatever it take sba. oh, gosh.. forgot to gib parents money today .. haiyo...
hm.. so wanna go over like in jan..
last night missed him so much.. then so baka desu.. though tof hte one year time again.. reminded myself how long it is.. =.=
oh, time is fast though.. i dunno.. in a way.. i duno.. its weird.. see.. alreayd .. omg.. just erealise!! alreayd almost end of july!! XD thought its july..like in the middle or what. lol.
anwyay, yea.. my bro's fren went japan study.. then back last year dec. then coming back again in weeks time. i was like.. omg!! thast fast! like as though his fren never left. hahaha.... yea.. very fast.. and so.. for me i got 12 onths to go.. if only could reduces to 5months.. ... o wel.l..
money3....  haiz. .if only saved enufff...=/
hm.. anyway... ......... ..... what else.. oh.. redz 2 nights ago ba.. hm.. i think. stayed ove rmy palce. then also never wish me happy birthday in person. =( its over alreyad i knwo. .but couldnt ppl at leats wish me a happy bbirthday? i mena he's close to me soemmore. =.= bro ,dad and him like that... huu....
i dun like being appeared as invisible to ppl im close with =( hate that! huu... my mum ,sam and my colleagues and frens are the better ones who know and rememebrs how to wish  me happy birhtdya.. and even bouh tme gifts.. just a lil thought from them... good enuff...
haiz... yea.. truly felt the wishes all coming from frens instead from the ones im close with like family. (excluding mum and sam.)
these 3 men.. disappointed me =/ .. haiz.. o well....
hm... i think i will blog about another matter another day ba. ..
hm.. makes me ponder for today ne.. . o well
anywa, have a goodnight ne.

mata.

final off day

sighes....... so.. my day is gonna be over within hours time=( sad... .
and my day with sammy ended early toay.

3 dasy off.. much needed indeed.... birthda.. wasnt so good.. zo day.. its alrite.. tiring, but day was over in an blink of an eye=/ today.. hm.. nothing much. .just rest.. sad ne.. day off over.. menaing lesser time with sammy as welll... ... he's heading back to school soon.. and we probably wont have much ime to talk and stuff=( taht sux.
o well...
what to do.. will see along how ba.. just hang on.. i dunno also
hm.. tired still. .but. .duno whta shold i do.. just watch tv.. online till nothing to online no more..
oh.. so sad.. had to remove my nail arts today =( no choice.. o well... ...anyway, see how ba.. i decided to do one nail art on a finger. each on both hands. cos i really dislike plain nails. as in one plain colour. i mind  mind nothing on.. but its fun to do nails.. so i like to paint and draw on them. howveer, =.= dots.. o well.. .don allow then dont ba .whatever. that time sabrina also never say anything=( dunno why he duno. nvm. see how future brings me. maybe without manager with me in shop is a good thing too=/
anyway, argh.. gotta stop talking abt work >_
erm.. what else.. ...nothing much i guess... anyway.. hm.. future seem tough all of a sudden..
hm.. why do i sense stress all of an sudeen.. weird.
anywya, gosh.. still dislike the fact that manager actuall yget mrg shifts still when she's taking leave same week. sux.

and u know, ppl, i mena our staffs, not happy already with them. becos they never do what they say.(see!! thast why i say sabrina is THE BEST staff ever!!)ok. sabrina's not perfect and fair too. but!! no one is perfect. plus our these 2 managers. really overboard. not say wos so overbard. but. ..they should do what thye told us to. and they say they would. they should keep to their words! but they didnt .and ppl are now upset.
i dunno. sometimes i really wish to meet sabrina one day. perhaps when she drops by in shop.. then tell her everything thing that got messed up ever since she's gone. =,= really feel like saying all those. .but.. sigh.. o well. .a pity..
anyway, she was satying she wasnt sure if she's gonna leave after 2 weeks in sg.. ha. well, hope she wont leave. but what to do. her fiance should be leaving sg soon. september i think. so ya.. ...
her small town.. i mena her fiance.. or duno whatever.. the place she lives is a small town. .and its really small .till it looks so boring. yes she sent us postcard .pic of her place. anyway, guess she hates the weather there too. lol .she just loves our warm weather. =) lol..
i guess thats one of the reason why foreigner like it here. though warm someitmes, but still... its better. and good hing is, these weeks, its been cooling. and its nice. hope will rain soon. ha. now that im not ogoing to zooXD. so ya.

oh, was thinking should i watch the predator with sam on my birthdya. but turned out that we watch it on the same day but in diff places with diff ppl respectively. and.. so wanting to watch the proposal. .but.. his internet failed.. so.. yea.... ..o well... tch.. just kinda frustrats me that our free days are gonna be over soon.
o well. .anyway, erm.. .yes.. that abt all
hm.. o well. .kinda relax i gues.. abit. no say relax.. but yea.. my manager 2 days off. so i'll be seeing her for one dya only. anoteher went to melbourne for training. 2 weeks. so ya. but i just hope that irritating guy wont be so cocky without them ard.then boss me ard. i hate that. anyway , he's going away for abt 5days? hm. .think on sun or what.. so ya. .yay for that ba.
ok. .will hang on.. 3 days to work. gambate.
hm... =/ ok. .tats abt it i guess.. ..hm...  i'l try to relax at hte same time while working.. .yes.. wil lkep tellingmyself that. .dunno how but yea... hm.. maybe just feeling alil stress whne holidays over eh. ha. ..so yeah. o wel. gonna be busy anyway. perhasp starting nov? or even oct. gosh. .scary..
im wonderni ghow the xmas is gonna be like.. i think perhaps the time wil zoom away . .which is great tbw. and then i'll be knocking out everynight on my bed once done is done. .then repeat again.. liek theres no tmr. hopefully oct to dec will be over asap. i really want next year to be here soon. heard cny is in feb first week. o well.. don care.. me just wan 2010 year to be over.. wil lreminds me that july is coming soon.. nad i should work harder. .and there will be travel fair soon.. hopefully very soon.. so i can confirm earlier which date i could be headin gto see him again... ..gosh.. i pray that thigns wil lbe fine. .
enuff money, can take leave. his days there are confirm.. then.. yes.. can look forward liao.. .but anwya.. yea. .see hwo ne..
oh, my manager also.. alreyad planned to head back to melboune for birthdya. =.= so .. mayeb i could planned too. months before, just say oh july i want take leave. should be fine ne.. .hm..
anyway, thats all. .hope the year wil lbe over soon.. many months to go. .so dreadful to think about htta. but yea.. =/ just hoping days wil be over soon and over. .and happily over..
..o well.. gambate.. hoep i have the strength to do whatever it take sto ge tme till next  yera happily.
mata ne.

We're Going To The Zoo,How About You!? =)

wow.... sooo tiring.. ok. i'll make it brief.

erm.. and so.. my birthdya as u al lshould knbow,. it didnt went as planned.. and.. yea.. it jst.. hm.. didnt end so well.. as i was really hoping to catch a comedy movie with sam.. . anyway, as following morgning im heading to zoo with bro adn mum. i really need to slp! early.
but i still end up slping at2am=.= then couldnt fall aslp till 2.30am.. till i got mosquitoe bit me.. and i ended up keep wakey here and ther T_T i didnt slp enough, or rather at all. haiz...

and so. .finally me wakey.. get ready and stuff...
yea. .been solong never go zoo. .somemore everyone is free, and i got a extra day off. .so yea.. we headed there.. early morning.. till closing at 6pm.. gosh im so slpy now .leg feeling better alreayd. now my nose abit sneezy=. huu..
anywya, todays zoo.. a real pity i didnt get to se ethe polar bear=( sigh.. but o well .most of other animals i do get pics of them.. its cool. .they are so near us! kinda. i mean, being compared to sydney, i could easily see whats the difference between these 2 zoos. seriously, i have such a clear and easy time looking out and taking pics of these animals in sg compared to sydney taronga zoo. uh huh. *nods
anyway, yes. its a very good zoo indeed.. now i see why its being named as oen of hte best zoo in the world and im soo happy to say that a water safari is coming soon!! woooo!!!! in year 2012!! omg i cant wait to go. even though... night safari i haven gotten any chance to go yet. ..=.= dots.. nonetheless, hopefully one day i will.
sam went out with his frens.. well.. i figured that its nice if he could hang out with his frens and out to the park too eh.. ..so yea.... and yes.. he relaly had tons of fun . which is great. and its awesome he finally get to sat on all rides! uh huh. .best of all, he can 'feel' me around with him.. which is totally awesome. =)
and i alwyas do that whever i go too. so yes... im happy he's able to have me ard with him today=D yay!
..but of course. .all the more i wish i coud join him.. ...
..anyway, hm... oh we ate there. .gosh. .so expensive=,.= laksa cost 6,90. o well. .waht to do.. gotta eat mah

then we catch all shows.. hm... ... take pics.. walk and walk.. so thirsty.. at onne point we thoguht its gonna rain! gosh.. but phew... it didnt..... ^^ so yea...hm..... ..... waht else. .soryr.. im very slpy at this point.. tyrin to think of what happen.. hmm...
hm. .anyway, can tell sammy enjoyed alot today. so yup.. good thing eh.
im glad he stil lable to thin opf me.. and say love me to bits. ^^ nawww
oh.. huu.. is aw this panda cap.. htink left one. anyway, not cheap ne. .somemore i think i;ll only use it at home, or not use it at all. .so me decided not to waste money. bt.. but...  haiyo... now me still thinking of getting that! dots. .o well. .i guess its always like this wan eh.. but once i get over it, hten yuea.. will be fine. .so.. uh huh.. hope to get ove rit ba. .who knows.. perhasp next year go sydney, can get to see that hat againXD.. ..o well
hm..what els.e. aww... sad.. a poity i have to remove my nail art by tmr =/ cos going back to work liao.. then cannot have nail art on.. sigh... bad ne...
hm.. so many photos.. omg... how to upload.. however, me don wan think about htat now.. wanna go slp liao!!
kk, overall.. well.. its not a too bad day.. its good enough.. hm... .so yea....
k. .my eyes are closing.. huu..
mata ne!!!

Birthday..Reminders

....haha..... sighes................................................................................ =((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

today is eithe rone of the worse birthdya(which i dun think so) or yes. .its my worst birthday ever. =(

dunno hw to begin eh.. ... everythig just doesnt feel right, good, or nice =(
everythig went freaking WRONG. =(
my birthda couldnt've been this worse. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i dunno what to do.....
sigh.. from mrg. .from the ppl i spoke with.. to my birthday cake. . today i;ve been weeping all the way =( yes im freakilngly weeping on my birthdya=(
i feel so invisible.. i dunno.. sigh.. =( its a  total diaster =(
but i keep reminding myself.. i have family.. i have bf who loves me so much.. i should be fine.. yes.. i must be content... i keep reminding myself throughou the day.... non stop.. remind3................. trying to feel betetr.. yea. i did. that is.. to cover up.. yea.. then  i did..

ibut anyway.... yeah. .alrayd better eh.. so.. yea.. i dunno .but yea

..anyway.. there goes my birthdya.. ntohign much to mention about. .i just wanna get it over with.. it just turns out to be a diaster. thats all. it was near alrite.. btu i dunno... i dun.......... o well......

ha.. i cnat believe this.. gosh... .............

so ya.. there  u go.. my birthdya... everything went wrong from A to Z. ha.. yes.. u name it, i got it. almost. so ya.. end o f story. unbelivable story. o well.. suey luck.. tough.. i got them all .wow. best gifts ever. ha. .... .o well...
..anyway.. hmm. =/ yea.. i dun have to tell u my birthdya in details.. oh wait. one of hte  part where nothing went wrong is the dinenr part..  erm. yea. .dinenr. .so full. no appetite as well.. cos dunno. .doidnt feel good.. sicne afte rcoffee.. i duno what swrong.

anyway, as i was saying.. yea.. i dun have to say anything.. whatever u think, yes.. u name it, i almost got it.. everything went wrong from a to z..
anyway this isnt the birthdya i imagine it out to be
o well...... SUEY. haha...
o well.. but beter than the ppeps in africa. o well.
sianz..

k.. i gtg.. no point pointing out all my miseries here.. u guys should know..

.. wiat.. lemme say somehing els.e .tmr.. sigh........ dunno can go zoo anot. .howver... ...... =/ i at first i thoguht of not goin.g.then like.. wait. .i raly inn need of destress righ t now. .otheriwse at home im gona go crayz.. i dunno.. i duno how to explain.. im just.. not happy right now =( sorry.......... sighes.. im just not... =(

the only birthdy a(perhaps) where i got no mood nor smile to sing happy birthdy awith.. diaster... but well. .keep reminding myself of how lucky i am.. and compare myself to the ppl in africa.. u know.. m lucier in that wya.. at least i still have sam, family and cake. so .. ...o well.. suey.. but stull betetr huh?
..even simple pleasure planned before hand.. such as. watching a nice movie with sammy.. .. alos can be destroyed by internet. .... =/

my only pleasure initially is to watch a comedy movie and laugh.. but.. all plans failed thorugh... =/
o well.. yea.. will have betetr dasy i believed.. its alroite.. .. o well.. . not alrite. but yea.. im still lucky enuff eh..
 

i got so excited. i heard his voice so clearly.. i thoiught i could skype with him after all. .but .. stil end up with no movie and stuff...
it sok.. its a day i could be remeebring it all my life.. whoever.. i reminded myself throughout the day.. im stil lthelucky one. .... so yea.. ..o well..

even thought my fren offeres me to drive me out to beaach. .still.. i dun like. i dunwan.. =(
yea.. home is my best place to be.. ..with him desu.\

jaa mata.

Happy Birthday To Me

aww... was so touched when my colleague bought me something for my birthday =) really so sweet...
hm.. yeah.. dunno why.. hahahah.. was so nervous and excited when clock striked 12am just now =P yes.. my birthday!! wee... haha...
hm... well... a little disappointed ba.. .. cos ppl close to me wasnt by my side. nor appeared to be enthusiastic about me(birthday).. so yea... but o well....
hm.. oh yes.. sammy asked me how i feel.. ha... i dunno! i never thought of how i feel... but yea.. i do felt wiser, and .. know what i want.. hm... well... i dun feel different.. i dunno.. still feel the same.. im still blur, funny, clumpsy, getting cuts everywhereXD.. thigns like that.. shy as always.. hyper as well.. same.. just perhaps i've grown wiser alittle bit more thanks to the help of sam =) uh huh..
well.. i think i've matured alil more. hm. .kinda.. lol... ...hm.... stable... ..hm... ...... yea... basically whenever im with sam, i'll still end up being like a lil girl.. lol. his girl=P
ha.. anyway yea.. how i feel huh.. yea.. nothig much.. just that i learned how to fight back.. how to be fierce. how to fight for myself. how to say no.. ok.. perhaps i still do say yes.. however.. yea.. i do learned how not to let ppl take advantage of me.. not so much. .it stil lhappen, but at least not always. and yes.. i improved! ha..XD o well..
hm.. so yea.. thast abou tit.. no cake tonight=( aw.. o welll.. nvm ba...
hm... dunno tmr what am i gonna do.. .hm.. see how ba=/
hm..... ... maybe should wakey early.. i dunno.. stil lgot alot of thig sto settle.
o well. .hope tmr will have a nice celebration with paretns then.
uh huh..
oh!! theres this online game. .free.. learned about it from sammy.. wow.. its cool.. i dunno.. me haven tried playing yet. but it seems hm.m.. how to say.  not so complicated ba.. like. .u jsut gotta press paly.. then blah3.. cna start alreayd. no need do alot of things.. anyway, i dunno. cos i haven tried yet. hope its good. yea.. perhasp could kill some time.. however i'll be busy trying to clear my room ba.. gosh.. dunno. hope can clear them out by the end of my offs
oh, bro drag mum out to garden festivcal today. hahahah... anyway, glad she get to go out ba.. heh.
hm... wha else. .well, so far like that ba.. k.. me tired.. wanna go slp. .hm.. so, yea... happy biorthdya to myself!
mata ne!

Prelude To My Birthday! ^^

alrite.. today is totally so different from ytd O.o

o well.. anyway, so glad its a happy day. or at least itss a better day.
hm.. so yea... luckily im in for work today.. otherwis ei'll cause trouble fo rmy manager.. anywa, sigh.. i guess i still cant be hard hearted eh=/
hm.. todya. .get to be a manager for a day. 'manager' i mena.XD ha.. yea.. thats what my manager say. anywya, its good day. so yea.. just watch if ppl are working.. instruc tthem.. blah3.. =.= haiyo...
hm..  oh... .a pic left my jaw dropped open again. i was so shocked. i took this mocha pic. that day remember? i had such bad day i got home, hurry make a cuppa iced mocha.. then yea.. as i was adding pics to my ablum, i saw something familiar.. so i turn the pic upside down. yes.. totaly upside down. guess what i saw? shockingly(not ghost k=.=) the ice in my mocha, is the shape of a LOVE. yes!! love shape again!! deng3!!! i took the pic just to show ppl like. .hws my iced mocha look like. .but i didnt expect my pic to turn out that way. O.o wOW. so surprised. yet so glad i took the pic. becos i really like the love shape. natural love shape that is. and i took it unknowingly, and htats what makes it even more precious and special!!
yes.. i will load it to my facebook.
soon when i have time to do so. alot of pics. =X
anyway, yea... wow.. really surprised!!! its soooo awesome =) totally. =) wow. .dunno what to say.. like. .yeah.. so cool... took it unknowingly, and i  recognized that its a love shape ice=) how cool and swt is that =D hehe. cant wait to upload that special pic!WOW! blown me away. =)
hm. .so.. me ordered mac... hm... what else... .... yea. .like that ba. .so full now. .yet slpy.. after blog will slp alreyad.. gosh.. didnt realised.. my birthyda is here! the other time was liek thinknig. .haiz. .see. .still 3 weeks to go.. =/ soo long! then now, gosh.. one day to go towards my birthday =)=X wow.. yea.. i was wishing my fren happy birthday. then his birthday happen to be a day before me. same year somemomroe. then i was like ..wait. .if his birthday ddalreayd here, then mine....?
then i was like. .ok!! wow.. mine is tmr XD hahahah... wow....
ok... dunno whats gonna happen at night.. but.. whatever it is, i hope i'll be happy. k, one dya to go!!! then my off days!! will be here. cant wait!!!
so yea.. im glad today feel alot more relax.. whereas ytd.. gosh.. =. so stress and sad.. haiz... maybe sick ba.. don feel good at all =/
hm.. so yea.. thats about it. sadly enuff, my boirhtdya bro and redz wont be attending=/  maybe other things are more important to them than me. so yea. nvm ba... .. anyway still go tparents and most of all, sam. =)
htough.. dunno what i would be doing. .would i be heading out to get cake? or eat out? i dunno... but yea. .just wanna spend as much time with sammy.. .

glad he can work now.. and earn lots.. but hwen his school starts, .. haiyo. =/ anyway, hope his summer holiday arrive asap.. will be soon eh.. yea. .time will fly.. anyway, hope his 3months , he can earn tons of money. save it up, and yea.. be happy .

we're tlaking about him coming and stuff. .ha.. lol he say wanna save till 6k come here. omg.... i was like. .me go there also no need 6k.. however, its up to him to decide.. anyway, all i want is him ot be by my side. thats all. i dun ask for anything else..  simple leisure time with him spend is the ultimate pleasure of mine =) and thtas enuff... ^^
so yup... ..  cant wait to do those simple life thigns with him. . looking forward to it. .though.. doesnt have a date for it.. =/ but.. yeah.. all i can do is wait, and pray its gonna happen soon..
well, one thign is confirm i can see him in a years time. howveer...... ...yea.. keeping my fingers crossed.. .nothing is gonna disrupt us last min=( otherwis elike. .from waitiing now july.. till dec.. till next year july.. then  dunno drag till when ne... ..anyway, hope the future plan is all good. .pray for me ne.....
hm... so yea.. k.. time fo rme to slp.. i shall ccelebrate my own.. its ok.. i may not own the bext and most of htings. .but i do have something most important to me.. and in my heart... and.. thats something not anyone could have.. im the only person out of 20 ppl or even 50 ppl to have it.whats that? u should know;)
heh. nights peeps=) may i have a wonderful tmr and even better than today..
and.. yeah...
goodnight!! =)
mata ne^^

Awful Day =(

gosh.. its like.. so many things to be hated right now! arghhhh!!!!

i think maybe is it me? =( did i have too much expectations?  i cant feel any much concerns ard me. and i hate that. i duno... im taking that as a false alarm. but.. yea.. maybe cos im just too .. today is just so fu day for me. argh! darn it.
..sigh.. i was sooo osick.. at the point where i really wish to request to go home. i don ever do that. if i even thought of doing it, menaing im sick like a dead rat.
then yea.. i didnt do it.. as always.. this i s so irritating and funny. i wish i could get sick.. so can mc. then now i got my chance right infront of my eyes. i couldnt do it. good nature? i dunno. i hate that now.  sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh =( really hate myself for being so useless. why be so nice>>>?/?? just take mc ar. but i couldnt bring myself to do it. sigh.. =( im so useless. its so irritating. =(
i dunno.. im hoping i'll be fine by tmr. and no. im not taking any med. don ask me why. heck care it.

sigh.. =( hungry now. sianz.. tch.. nvm ba... dun feel like caring fo rit. sianz.. when one person is so frustrated, i think i can just kick anything. =.=

and yea.. my day.. customer bought somehting. .i pass her papaerbag.. she took too fat, as a result, the bag brushes against my skin, and i bleed.  but minor thing. i get cuts almost every other days. =/ o well. used to it.
hm.. so yea.. gosh.. my birhday week sukc.
and found that my manager got 2 das leave. and still get mrg shifts!! then fo rme? this week i took leaves. gib me all aftnoon shifts. saying becos i taking leaves. wtf.
i mena wth.
shoot...
sigh...........  sorry. just let me complain here... i might be fine after blah3 nonsense out. i dunno. should be. by tmr moring. oh yea. so my manager was hinting .. don get sick2, go eat panaldo..
wth.. but yea.. maybe cos of that, i couldnt bring myself to mc. =/ useless right. ha.. o well. .stupid me.
then yea... all the more i dun wan take panaldo. i dunon.. wanna take .. but then very sianz when i got back home=( so yea.. dun feel like taking it
tch. .so hungry=/ but me just wanna slp and rest. .and get the night over with.. bad night. .bad day =/
haiz..

what would u say to me? when u learned that i had such a awful sickful day?

haiz................. what else.... .. oh , ytd a lil girl was saying my hair lloook so pretty cos its so long. aw. so swt of her. =/
sianz.. cannot smile now. tch.
gosh.. my blog sounds so bad tonight. i know.. cant help it. sorry =. /
just feeling sick tired frustrated, sad, angry. all in one. so yea.. its complicated,. im so cold now as well.

my birthday week sucks.
o well. .just let it go ba.. haiz.. after this blog, wil lforgeet it, then mrg wakey to a better day. ..i dunno. worse or better. whatever.
=/ so yea.. ha. .see. .complain till nothig else to complain no more.. o well..
sigh.. k ba..
dunno why i hang on so tight sometimes..

jaa mata!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

O well

hmm.. u know.. i thought theres alot to talk abit since me and sammy watched the same movie today..  so suggested skype. but i think msn is better eh.. doesnt sound like he's in the mood to talk much.. well, he's too tired i guess.. so yea... o well. hm.. or did i say something wrong again? =/ ..
o well.. i dunno anymore.. =/
tired day ba.. sianz.. i dun wanna talk about it. sorry ne.

sigh..  hope tmr wont be tired.. k ba.. gotta go slp.. and prepared for anther day at work.. like. .felt as thoguh its never ending.. work slp work. i dunno.. th ehours are too close to feel like i had any rest=/
anyway, din have dinenr. tch. k ba.. sam went sllp.. i think i should go too
mata

Hateful Saturday

yay.. managed to save money. .so ya.. couple of dyas to go. .and i kept to my target. =) phew. that was close.
oh great! sam got alot of money working for an hour and so.. sooo glad thigns turn out alrite .and he got his fine paid soon. phewwww.... so lucky. ^^ and yeah.. easy money eh? XD
haha..  o well.. if me work liek tha, everyday happy liao. XD so much money
hm.. sorry. .too slpy. .abit blur and tired.. dunn o.. kept forgetting what im supposed to say...

oh, day sucks big time. pfft. don wanna talk abouit it. stupid day. nothign happen, but yea. i dunno. i hate my day
so.. reach home.. hurry make a cuppa mocha... nice drink. .dunno why i craved for mocha eh.. ha.. anyway, yea....  hm..  like that ba
oh, keep forgetting to ask abouit sam's dad birthdya whne.. hahaha... cos i know! its about a week from my birthdya. its not far. so i knew it was comingXD well, they celebrated it just now.. nice. it falls on a sat. hee. and tmr they're gonna have a nice day spend too. so yea.. thast good.. .
hm..
gosh.. me so slpy and tired..
ok.. tmr gambate ba.. hmm
o well...
couldnt think much.. too tired.. leggie too.. slpy too.. ==.=
k ba. don feel like tlaking. lazy. jaa

mata

Birthday Disappointment

huu.. disappointed ne... =/ bro say got company dinner on my birthdya at 8pm =/ sigh......... .... i dunno.. just feel so sad.. like.. sigh.. =( like no one bothers about my birthday.. not say no one.. but yea.. i felt that way.. what to do..
sigh.... its like. .so sianz............... ....sigh.. now i dunno hwat to do.. very bored.. birthday sux for this year too i guess.. .never mind.. =/ i'll make it up on the 23 ba.. =/  sigh.... so sad... very disappointed.. =( huu.. baka everyone... .. =(
o well.. ..sigh.. so erm.. yea. .today.. throat dry. .cos talk to evry customer. .gotta hand them vouchers.. hm.. very3 tired=/ leg sore.. yea.. pain and tired..
tmr mrg shift .so yea.. o well.. 5 days to go.. sigh.. gotta hang on.. what to do.. aug. .i'll be doing plenty of 6 shifts. .so yea.. ..=.= sianzzzzzzzz.. i dunno ba. .sometimes wish new shop would open soon.. i know.. in about 2months time.. but yeaa.. i dunno.. sometimes just wanna get away from my managers.. =/. tch... i dunno... perhaps im very ired now=/ o well
hm.. what else... ... o well. .basically nothing else i think? ...
dunno hwat happened either. .anywya im so tired... and u know.. i think everything mrg or anytime i left sam a msg in msn, I used to wonder how come he never reply at all .. i dunno.. perhaps its all an misunderstanding after all.. dunno hwy ba. .the net somethign wrong or what .so ya..
sigh............ feeling so tired and terrible. =/
terrible perhaps cos my birthday no one care ba. i know! not say no one. .but yea. .doesnt make much difference =/
arrggghhh.. .im sooo tired!!!
k.. i dunno hwat else to say.. mind is blank ba..
mata 

sleepy morning!

gosh!! okok.. hurry bloggy. short one. erm

im sooo tired and so slpy. .anyway, mrg. .meeting.. huu.. sad.. disappointed cant do nail art nomore.. but what to do.. just accept it ba. .erm.. sam is trying his luck with the same company im working with now..good. erm.. me got home.. sooo tired.. morning.. tried to online via wifi.. i did. .but weird. .didnt receive sam's msg. .dun tell me even in phone msn also couldnt work?o.O

erm.. oh, i thought hwat my colleague said perhasp wasnt that true, but yea.. come to hthink of it, it is.. and plsu what sammy said. .it all makes sense. .i didnt expect the aussies to be so pretencious=/ aw,, not good

have u ever saw something, but felt that u have to trust ur guard and buy it or u knew it suits someone? don try to deny that feeling. i tell u, wil lregret sia. ha.
erm. .what else.. hm... ok. .completed my movie with sam. .which is great. .glad he could still lol. .=) though yea.. huu.. bad sday for him.. sigh.. hope he'll be alrite.. =/ so wish to hug him so tight now.. =/
hm.. yea.. so.. what else. ...
yea.. so sick of going back to work knowing u got 6 days to go =.= sianz.... but hwat to do.. hang on lots ba.. hm.. ok.. so.. o well. b'day is coming.. saw awesome designs cake at pp. hm... yea.. i think. .the only 'better' cake i ever had.. was from polar soething. cant think now sorry. yea.. but that was ok.. tasted normal. .saw another awesome one at pp to. .the god diva? no.. erm. .forog.t. dunno
anyway,
hm.. yea.. next nice one is my mum ordered for me.. customed bake. the 21st birthdya. but it tasted erm. .too normal. ha. its okok.. but appreciat e the thoghts. =) alot.

hm.. gosh!! almost 2am.. ok. .what else. .erm.. ..yea.. was in a rush to get my thigns complte by todya.. but acouple of thigns didnt get to do it. .cos was resting and stuff..

kk.. i gtg.. slp time!

tmr talk. mata

Exciting Movie Date!

ha.. head abit pain.... ... o wel..

hm... so.. later theres a meeting.. sianz/ .. me feel like slping in=.= anyway.. yea.. hm..


its exciting. had a movie.. but watched it half .. tmr gonna continue. its exciting cos i knew sam is gonna be laughing alot^^ and i can hear lots of his laughters. nawwwwww~~
welll.. in the midst of it all, at one point he was so angry.. =/ like.. alot of shoutings going on. slaming the door i think. i asked why.. but yea. his personalilty is like that.. most of the time he wouldnt say anythign. .. so.. yea.. dunno ba.. .hm.. but hope he's ok =/ wan him to be haopy u know.... so ya.. will worry of course

hm... oh.. went to pp wiht my mum.. finally get to print our family photo.. hm.. what else... oh.. yay.. bought a pair of shoes for workj.. i really hope this pair wont make my toes hurt..
hm.. oh.. mum asked me if i want anything for my borthdya present.. i say no need.. then she say go look ard abit more. .then i was like.. ok.. theres really nothing i need. or so i thought. 
hten nowhere else to go indeed... we ended up at ntuc. its a huge ntuc there btw. then mum saw the coffee mug.. dunno what she said.. then i turn, and was like. .hey! i juts took a liking to coffee! i do need a coffee mug for my powder i boguht the other day! haha.. and soo yea.. thats my pressy=3
lil things could make me happy easily. =)


aw.. saw this onion head hp strap.. was thinking of getting 2... thn think3.. end up geti one only. sam was asking me if i got any for himXD i say no. aw.. i did thought of that! long and hard... but given his personailty... the strap is abit too obvious and big.. somemore he don hang anything on his phone... =/ though he'll rather hang them on his hp pouch or sumtin..
 but yea.. its too cute.. i don think a guy like him would really use that on his phone. .so.. in the end i never get.. i think for so longXD then yea.. o well... couldnt decide betwene the designs too..
theres 2 more i like.. so yea... feel a lil bad.. but yea.. ...  =/

hm.. morning.. wakey early. tummy not good. .gotta go toilet a couple of times.. hwat else.. .. yes.. thats why im so slpy now.. and i do need slp! ok. .im gonna slp alreyd


oh, hm.. gosh.. head abit pain. .dunno what to say.. erm.. hmm.. gosh i forgot. O.O too slpy.
ok. thats all folks. i forgot what to say.

oh yes.. glad i have sam's advice... ... he always gib me advices... yea.. .sigh. .wish he's beside me now.. anywa... yea.. he will be keeping me warm in heat ya..

mata ne

Cherish Amazing Love

aww... so sad.. sammys fren engaged then broke off cos parents dun like bf.. but.. i think i heard of this before.. hm.. dunno... but. .usually.. i heard malays.. almost all of htem love to get engaged.. but almost always ended up.. hm.. not so good ne.. =/ sihg.. dunno isit a curse or what..  but i truly think.. its really stupid and foolish to throw away ur own happiness for the sake of others. =( why do so? its ur life. not others. live the way u want. its not worth it eh.. u are the one whos gonna plan ur life, spend the life u want.. why let others affect ur decision? why lets others take control of ur life? why let others decide for u?????? =( this isnt good... if she really had broken up cos of her paretns, then thas a huge regret she's gonna get. not just her. .but for hte other couples ard too.. =/
but.. somehow i don think thats the case for her.. since alreayd engaged.. how could suddenly the parents say no? like.. wouldnt they feel embrassed their relatives will come to know that such a huge event(engagement) is called off eventually.? i think perhaos the girl is using this as an excuse to break up. most definitely.. but however... theres always alot of strories behind one's back.. so.. yea.. if its true, then she made a big mistake.. its she's a liar, well, she isnt a person worth dying for. i mean. .to love for..
ya..

anyway, do cherish the ppl ard u ya.. u nver kknow when love is gonna fade away if u don work hard enuff to keep it up. .but then again, iif u're meant to be, u will be meant to be. .love is such a mysterious thing.. its so difficult to fathom.. well... theres too manay reasons behind one story. one situation.. however, it is so precious.. tha.. could u imagine  theres so many humans in this world, and now u;re loving this one person in  this one huge round world? fate.. brought together alot of things.. unfold alot of amazing events... and yes.. may u find the only one.. who shall be the partner to u for life.. your wine to ur glass....

hahahaah..XD whats all these tlk about love eh. XD o well..

oh, today tried out msn using wifiXD my shop really have sia! lol.. cant believe this. =) but yay.. so nice.. ha abit troublesome to sign in.. i almost forgot my email!!! and finally took me about 10mins or plus2, then me sign in.. and achatted with sammy whole breaktime. ha. its nice. makes me fel so happy. was smiling all the way. work's quite fine todya =)

my fren looked me up. .asked to join in steamboat.. at bugis. aw.. but i couldnt agree.. thouigh its a good event. .but.. yea.. i gotta head home. .so.. gotta turn this offer down.. =/
hm.. wont say the details.. but. .today soething strange happened.. only in drama.. and this happened to me. .it felt so weird.. like.. totally in a drama.. but... yeah... ... its so weird.. ... just that it haoppeed with the wrong person and wrong time. haha.. o well.......
anyway, im proud that i dun care about it..




i think my fren said that to upgrade pohne.. perhaps need to wait for about a year .still so lnog huh.. o wel.. its ok. .i'l lwait and see how.. later on.. ..


tmr.. aw.. i thought sammy heading out. .then told my mum brining her out to walk abit. she went yay!!! lol..XD ya.. shes so happy.. then found out maybe sammy might not be working on that day.. so.. o well.. i cant say no to mum now. =/ so.. yea... no choice. .haiz.... .
but will watch movie with him. .ohhh.. i hope theres a  link to that movie!!



hm... ok. .sales great again.. my sales^^ lalal.. haha.. yay.. big sales..

ah.. i need to print out photos! hope wil lgo well.. hm.. family pic.. new year till now haven print sia.. ha.. so ya.. gonna do it =3
but.. .. its like. i should print out sams pic with me huh.. but. .=/ im very scared... i'll feel emotional and yea.. sad.. =( not a bad thing.. but yea.. will miss him so much. .then see pic with him in sydney, will tthought about hte next year july.. which is one year to go.. then my heart would be liek so.. haiz.... that kind of down feeling.. when i see his pic with me.. .. so  ya. i dunno.. perhaps.. when im prepared, then shall print out huh.. haiz. o well..  anyway now need to save money abit. .so yea.. don print so much ba. .


mata ne.

Happy Waiting =.=

slpy.... tired liao... finally tmr... final day.. yes.. looking forward. .anyway, will have plenty of things to do for tmr ba.. ..

hm.. dizzy.. ha.. o well.. cant wait for tmr!!! to be over that is.

hm.. so lazy to blog now.. sllpy still


hm.. ok. .not bad. .today not say wow.. so nice day.. but much better.. and i have alot of great sales.. so yea.. hm.. ok.. no need to do much stocks.. what else.... hm...
oh.. ha. .today counted how much money i need to go over sydney. how much money i should save each month.. and how long its gonna take me.. ha. .yea.. feels better if i kinda know when i should start saving and stuff.. so yea.. at least will make sure i can hit my budget ba.

sig.. my poor2 lil pinky =( so pain.. so.. haiz... dun wanan say alreyad.. almost cry sia. .so freakin gpain.. =/ now still pain .. hurts like mad.. somemore it sbleeding inside hte flesh=( huu....

ok... so... i dunno... heartpain ne when thought of hte fact that if im getting a phone next year . ha.. that kind of feeling is like.. Speechless.
like.. yea.. i know.. of course days passe sby phone siwl lkeep on coming out. .and if i wait.. ok.. i;ll get a btter one. .but then if another is coming out with a better one, i'll be waiting till 3 years later and still using cybershot c905. im running outta pateints. .but i know.. its good. .but.. its sooo sianz.. anyway im trying to keep this matter off my mind ba..
like. yea. .what to do... these ppl will always have new phones coming out and betetr. .sianz.. .
just wish that th egood phones will be out in sg ba.. if not, will wait in vain.. but i think it will arrive.. should be..


well, just take this time ot see if theres any complaints about samsung ba. .see if this brand is trustworthy.. got any stupid probs keep on occruing anot. .so ya.. i hope not thoguh .. but yea...

anyway my phone is useless to me now. for now. i dunno what to do durin gmy breka anymore.. shopping ard only make sme wanan buy things=/ sianz.. hm.... dunno ba.. just taking one step at a time..
nowadays i try not to think of thigns which nbothers me.. sometimes i still do think.. but try to think of it in another way. .perhaps positive way..
so yea.... i feel better now that i treat my phone as a .. i dunno.... as a ... erm.. pager.. or.. yeah.. camera.. so yeah.. try to treat it as trash baXD haha.. o well... so.. yea.. hm...


what else.. .nothing much to mention now... i think.. hm.. couldnt really remember my day much.. so yea.. hope tmr will be a better day ba..

oh silly meXD its not 3 guys working. lol. .duno ba.. hope they get more staffs.. cos i don thin kthey can make it good. hm..  anyway yeah.. 3 staffs isnt enough.. they need more ne. .especiall ywhen new shops open.. haiz.. cos xmas is gonna be madhouse.. and i tell u. its a MADHOUSE> i cnat imagine.. gosh. .they say u cant eve nmove ard hte shop.. and sales could go up to 69,000. yes.. in one day. its frekaing scary.. so they'd better get them started now on our products and stufs.. ohrwis,e i tell u.. goners.. -_-
but .. if busy.. hm. .good in a way eh..  cos i htink when sam's relatives go his house and stay, i dun htink he'll have much time for me nethier. .so.. yea. busy3...time flies. .so yeah....

hm. .come to thin of it. .gonna be a lil tricky to save money.. cos ticket money plus phoe money will raash at the start of 2011... ...duno how to plan.. ...ahhhh.... nvm.. don plan these first ba. .just tka emy days easy.. one by one gone.. yea.. okok... relax... XD


oh.. even my fren is say i have to learn and do the thign sonly maanger can do.. i dunno... i think im really getting a promotion?o.O it seems highly so.. howveer, i don think baout it, dun wan high hopes.. anyway its gonnabe super stress u know being a manger. anyway, yea.. see how future goes ba.. hm..  so yea.. hwaever happen happepns.

my fren today.. so stress till shebang her hand onto wall or table.. saw her wrist so bruised.. badly bruised=/ blue black green... gosh.. so stress so said.. most probably beco sof her mum's illmess too ba.. plsu need alot of money for hosipital bill.. sigh. .poor thing. .=/ ha. .dunno why.. so sianz o blog tonight. o well. nothign special ba..

and so.. yup.. next year could be a better year. .to celebrate me getting a hp.. wow.. ha.. naywa... hm.. wonder what should i do on my off days.. ...*think2...  gotta make gd use of it. .gonna be 6 days of working after this liao.. so yea.. huu.. gambate!!
hm. .so yea.. gonna enjoy myself ba. .or dunno... but for sure i dun wan cook on wed.. cos wed passed so fast!! cook2 then gone liao T_T then thurs is here.. haiz.. so yea.. wed gonna gib myself a break or sumtin. i duno.

so  yes... will keep on looking out for hte phone sonc ein  a while. .cos look now also .. dunn owhat to say.. phone swil lkeep on have newsand blah3..
so ya.. so.. uh huh.. . kinda know what phoen i want.. but. .happy waiting ba/ . ha.. haiz... and of course. .it'd better get its.. ahem gadgets down to sg!!!! grrr......
anywy, hope to get same phone as sammy ba.



so happy sammy found a job.. hm.. gonna be tough ba.. =. on him.. but yeah.. will gambate him!! ha,..

hm. .his plan is so beautifully nice... .. rent house.. stay there with him.. just be with him.. hm.. .. yea.  i wish for that too.. if only its real.. and happenin g like now.. ha. well..  just.. i dunno.. even though say look forward to the future.. yet.. it seems so . uncertain.. cos dunno how long is the future . =/ and it seems a lil frightening to me now.. so.. o well.. sometimes afraid of what might happen in the future too.. ..


hey.. wait. .hows my plan going!? O.o! my jap class!!XD if wait till next year.. haiyo.. no money to study sia.. -_-.. dots.... planning is so difficult when u not sure when some thin g is gonna happen. -_- haiyo... plan till big head liao.. ha..


mata ne

Tough O' Day

gosh... not my day... certainly notnotnot my day!! so suey... tough luck man!!
sigh.. so sianz.... =( i hate working on sunday.. haiz... nvm.. hang on for 2 more days.. gambate... huu..
hm.. so yea... got home, also suey.. =(
earrings forgot to take off, tangle up with my hair.. then brush teeth forgot i have eat yet.. then the plug for my lappy and stuff, drop, luckily no dc.. but hurt my arm . surpirsingly now still red and pinkish O.o. .weird.one sausage legth of redness. -_- chocolate drop on floor as well.. sianz....... i just wanna go slp, and yea.. that s it. i dun wanna think nor talk abt my bad day.. sianz..

oh and i tell my managers about what that irritatin gguy did today. he let the partimers.. no.. he changed for htem! they were late, even if by abit only. still, he change it to not being late! i have to tell managers about this. its so unfair!!! and now that he started this, will definitely have another 2nd time, 3rd.. and so on.. its so unfair towards the ppl who rushes to reach on time. very unfair.
so yea. no chpoice.. i felt abit bad.. but i gotta do this. gosh .. i hate him so much!!! pretend to be like.. no.. i should say he''s acting like a manger in chage today!! pfft!! wth! cos none of the managers were ard today.. so ya. he's like the boss incharge of this shop.. .gth. shoot.
...sigh.. anyway, i don care..  i gotta relax... life's alreyad stressing enouigh..
so.. oh yes.. indeed .. see, i told ya.. wakey, felt better alreayd. and think things through. so.. no phone, then no phone ba. so what? sam got a point. video chat is good. its a plus point. we should make good use of it sinc ewe're in a ldr somemroe. it would be very useful to us. so indeed thats a must.
i thin.. i alwasy need to calm down.. and after geting upset and stuffs, i can see the reason.. someitme sba.. ha.. baka me. anyway yea... wasted the desire,.. but i think its the best desicion for us. the features(front cam video chat) is important too as it enables us to communicate more with each other.. so ya... it'll be good... ...
erm.. oh.. haha. .but last night as i was tlaking with him in bed, one question comes to mind.. if we video chat during slping time, wouldnt i be off my ligths and its dark?> but then again.. i'll most probably leave my lights onXD at least he gota small light... hey.. i could buy a small lamp too! nah. .i think at home should have one.
hm. .so. yea... come to think of it.. uh huh.. glad im able to put this all behind me.. just let the days pass bah.. i dno care of other thnigns much alreayd.. its straining u know.. of my energy and health=/
anyway,... yea.... just wanan do things to keep myself happy ba.. ha. .nails? i dunno.. o well........
yes.. off day is coming! im gonna watch a movie with sammy.. gonna be so cute.. XD

oh, todya theres this couple. .bf super tall!!! like 1.9o cm or sumitn. .very2 tall.. then gf, like ard my height. and of course. . the girl wear her high heels.. but i tell u.. its HIGH heels indeed... =.= its uper duper thick and high!! omg... wouldnt her feet hurts like mad??? and how could she walk on those??
wouldnt she be walking like a tortoise?? gosh.. if me, ha. .i cant imagine that.. one thing, sam might be imaptient with me waklin gso slow, another, i myself walk very fast.. i dun walk slow.. if i wear htta type of heels ... .. dots.... very sianz to go out on a date like that.. so tiring.. so pain.. so slow.. so heavy..
but yea.. she does need that.. he;s too tall! taller than sammy by a head i think.. i dunno .. but yea ard there..

last night.  after blog me felt better.. tonight.. i think abit tooo ba.. though... o well....... still tch.. =/
sianz.. terrible sunday. i dislike working on weekends.. haiz...........

hm... so yeah... o well........... i duno ba.. ........ at least there'll be new staffs comin gin.. hooepfully new ppl will be easier to work with.. =/
sigh.. maybe me dunno how to get alnog with girls ba.. i dunno... i can talk to them.. but.. something doesnt seem to click... i mena.. can talk... bt... dunno ..somethings seems to be missing...
anyway at least still got my manager whom i enjoy talking to the most.  and 3 more guy are joining us.. so.. hopefully they can be fun to work with.  i don care them being males or females, i just wish that they can listen to whatever they are told.. and not be like the present patimers.. sux.. so yea... haiz...
anyway, me will hang on... hang on 3........... all for hte money sake.. just.. hang on ba. what to do.. ..sigh..
so yea.. haiz.......
i cant wait u know. .to book tickets right now.. then can countdown to the days im leavnig to a happier days =/.. one by one countdown.. at least i have a clear view of when its gonna happen, oh, it is really gonna happen without a doubt. .u know how that feels right?..

sam is playing game right now.. dunno he winning anot. o well.. by the time he finish im going to bed alreayd. os ya.. .. hm..
sigh.. sunday is over.. in a blink of an eye. .

hey.... i saw this ring.. omg.. it look sooo unique and cool and gorgeous... huu.. i want. .but i didnt buy...yet. i wanna take time to consider.. as its made of those.. wem.. elastic bands/?? dunno whats the excat materia.. however im afraid as time passed, the band will get bigger and bigger .then i couldnt wear it anymore =/ then how? hm....... .... somemore.. i'll be so scared to let it get in touch with water..
but yes.. u know me.. its so hard of me to like somethign so much.. lvoe at first sigh tagain.. XD hahaha... so yea.. beautiful ring... gosh... ok.. tmr shal lgo take a look again.. wonde rif its sstillthere? O.o hm... see how ba..
oh yea.. g shock watch. .huu.. expensive.. but me like.. T_T baka3................. i musnt think of watches now... at least i still have one. .but.. i like.. huu.. .but.. nonono... i cant..*shake head..
first hting first.... i haven forget the thing i said to myself.. must save at least 500 this month! so yea... ok. .2 more weeks topay day.. however, me still wont get b.a..=/ at least i still have a watch. .cna use.. hm.. so yea.. perhpas aint a good time to buy watch.. so nah.. but i rather want the ring. .cos its so unique looking.. i think. kinda forgot how it looks like now. ha..
oh yes.. then got 2 tiny cuts on my finger.. sianz.. so there u go.
all i can say is, my lonely unglam day.. bad luck. .tough luck.. sad.. down2 day.. = so ya.. whatveer.. i survived.. o well. tough one though..
hm... so yea.. then at home. .bro in room. .like so quiet.. dun wan tlak.. =.= so yea.. sianz..  dunno whats up with him..

haiz.... tmr will be better day? i dunno.. huu.. so wish my manager will get back to work soon.. somemore he's gonna be away for 2 weeks to melbourne. .=( so long.. haiz... for traini glor.. but howveer, i think its good fo rhim. .gonan be nice. ha. .though tired ba.. o well.. but if i were him, i'll be nervous. .cos its like. .wah. .training ne! al lhte way thereXD. .scary sia.. butim sure all ppl there will be super frenly.. just that aussie working styles can be very strict and professional too. its good he can go learn abit there. but no matter where he's going, lucky it isnt japan. .otherwise, ha.. gdluck.. nothig to say XD
..tch... so yea.........  hm.... =/ wow.. 1am alreayd.. o well.. tim eto slp soon...

oh.. my team leader say sam is so lucky.. now im starting to think.. thinking back. so many ppl say he;s so lucky.. my leader say if its her, she would've given up alreyad. dunno how i can do this. ha... but yea..  i duno.. i though t im the lucky one.. but.. yea.. O.o i guess... .he Is very lucky then? =.= dots.. sounds weird.. like im praising myslef.. geez... but well, if htey say so, hten i guess he is very lucky indeed . to have me. ...... gosh.. feels so wrong!! i dont praise myself! baka3.... soudns so weird. .k.. erm.. they say he's very lucky to have me. wow.. so it makes what sam said before is right. .Ok. fullstop. i don say anyhign liao.. otherwise weird dne.. like.. yea.. dotsssssssss.... anywy me lucky too ne. .hehe^^
k ba.. haiz. .gona go slp after abit of drink ..so thirsty
mata

No Phone Desu~

sigh... dunno what to say ba.... =/ hmm... it may seems like i've lost the opportunity to get a 99% perfect phone. =( and its really so wasted.
its such a great phone!! and comes the upgrade now and everything, its everything a person could ask for..  but... i dunno.. sam mentioned that theres no front cam.. and.. o well.. like htat lor...
so.. o well.. u know.. if i get that, hten menaing we couldnt do any video chat.. but i dnno.. if we'll be doing heaps of those.. ? but anyway, its really disappointing.. but i know hwat he meant..  but yea... s*it.. so suey... just this one prob.. stupid htc.. no front cam. .infact, alot of htc phoen s no front cam..
i dunno. .only thing im worried about now is.. even if in the future say theres a betetr phone come along with front cam, it will never be as good as the desire.
and now.. i have to wait . .dunno till how long =/ for another better phone to come out.. just gotta wait.. i dunno.. been wanting a new phone since last year. .and its driving me crazy alreayd.. thoguht i could owe one for sure in coming months.. but... o well..
and i really dislike the fact that i cant communicate with sammy through msging. it sux like mad. s*itty mad. sorry. but yeah.. im not feeling good now..  no choice.. i have no idea how long this is gonna go on.. and.. yea.. i gotta stop msging him alreyad=/  and use the money for call or sumtin.
its just so much money to top up.. like 50 a month.. and now my local credit alreyad hit 1000 over. =/
i dunno..just sux thinking abou tit.
and i try not to.. i hope.. and i think by tmr wakey shld be fine.. should feel better. o well
just feeling a lil upset cos im missing out on such great phone.. seriously.. what a waste.. =/ it would';ve been all so perfect with this front cam .. but.. yea.. i guess.. somehow in a way, htey do have to purposely make a phone this way. u cant have perfect everything in one phone. they can give u good cam, bt no flash. or great cam, but slow phone. pi guess it could never be perfect . never. there'll always be something missing.

i dunno hwat u think of ru guys out there who's proudly holdin ga htc desire phone right now, but..  yeah.. it sux big time for nto haveing a front cam, and me loses a chance to own it. yeah.. the cam aint that wowowow. but it so good enuff. im content with it. its good. take clear pics.. i mena, i wil lget a camera. so now it doesnt really matter how many mega i guess.. but... i dunno..
thing that frustrats me the most is i dunno when i can get a proper phoen now. and that is sooooo argh............
=(
its liek july now! gosh.. i dunno how i jhang on my phone till now. but. .yeah.. o well..... then theres another great phone which couldnt come to sg.. but no front cam again . ...... dots.... the power phone always no front cam!! ok.. evo 4g does.. but not super clear. it was just okok alrite.. but.. yea.. thats the kinda phoen one should own. or i should. but. its not even coming to sg. alot of good phones released only in usa. shoot. so when wil la phone like that which meets my expectation come to sg? i dunno! its so irritating.
oh god. .its so wasted.... i gotta let this go.. seriously.. by the time i wake up, i relaly gotta put this behind me =/ otherwise its gonna affect my work.. and my dys. =/ which is bad. yes bad.

checked alreyad. .for now, no great phones with front cam is gonna be out in the Near future. tch... haiz..
galaxy.. okok.. but.. yeah... if only theres more phones out there liek galaxy.. but having said that, i still miss desire.. the one which get the top reviews in every magazine.. whos not gonna miss that?
u dont get a phone like thta coming out every now and then. its rare if u ask me. and i dun think theres gonna be a phone to replace desire anytime soon. as it just release. legend another great phone before desire.. but also no cam. i mean front.
so ya.. there u go... but so far. .only hte iphone 4 has the 5mega front cam.
sorry.. im complaing alot here.. so ya.. jist for tonight k.. just need to get my disppoinments out =/
..so yea.. theres goes... my phone... and.. i dunno ... i guess again, i don have to save up so hard now eh? can relax a lil alreayd... not saving for phone liao..
hm.. are thos emy fit of an anger words? i dunno.

so yeah.. today..soso..  dunno what to say so ya.. lazy to say anythig else.. forgive me...

..o well.............. sigh.. tmr will be spendin gmy breaktime alone . can go sephora.. dunno what to eat though.. =/ oh.. yes.. mum will buy lunch for me to bring.. hm.. so yeah.. i will have pretty much time to wlk ard.. sianz.. no phone.. other wise can stop shopping. not say shopping. .anyway i dun realy shop.. so ya
ok... gettng tired.. so ya... tch... hm........
ok ba.. liek that lor.. what to do...
is my patience really that low? i dunno.. sometime si think so u know.. i cant stand certain things for certain period of time.. but then again, see... since last year been wanting a phone till now. .till nowwwwwwwwwww....... no wonde rim losin gmy cool.. o well... i dunno... theres nothing much to do cept to wait and pray3 ffor a better relaly super good phone to come along(i highly doubt so, but yea.. lets wish for it, that way, life could move on).
why so many good phone snot arricing in asia? geez.............................................
sianz.... veyr very very sianz.. .disappointing.
oh, how so disappointing!
i dunno.. i just wish that giving this up is worthwhile.. becos if the whole video thing doesnt work out, video super blur, laggy, slowwwwwwwwwwww, voice softtttttt, not free, blah3, im so gonna kick myself in the air!

 and so yes, it'd better be working in the end!!! its  a MUST!!!
if not, yes, kill me all u want(jk). -_-
tch..... haiz.. k ba. .i guess its time to put those infos ago. .mag away.. and yea.. let nature take its course. but still feeling so huu.... cos knowing that no other better phoen is cmoing, its as good as.... haiz. o well.........

gdluck to me eh?.. .yes... .good luck......

sigh.. it'd better be a better day tmr... may sumtin happen which can make me forget eveyrthing happened these couple of days.. days of excitements for nothing.. o wel....
ok.. complaining is about done.. time fo rme to go i guess... get ready for bed.. and.. well, see if sma's gonna onlin eor what..
hm.. its weird.. not msging him anymore.. o well.. its still gonna be the same .. just leaving it in msn.. but.. its gonna be like once a day only. .so ya.. well, i guess.. abt the same ba.. i didnt even get his msg for even once a day..
hm.. well, we shal lsee hwo thigs go when i can msg him for free.. even through msn .. but yeah...
gosh. .cant wwait for tcc to open.. need to have a cuppa coffee and chill there.. gosh.. hectic life.. hm.. isit? .. O.o
mata.

Choice Been Made

so tired.. huu.. tmr another day of working.. will be slp ba.. hm.. alreayd 12.. i hope to slp soon. .k.. lets get this blog over with..
erm.. nohing much to blog i guess... lets se.. the only hting thats interesting or weird, is i went to this shop, hit it off with a phillipino girl, and she ask for my name.. intro herself.. i bough somehti gfrom here. .then she ask me whrere i work.. what shop.. then she say im very cute.. haha.. XD weird ne.. but its ok. .shes a nice person.. ha.
erm.. then at the carpark when i was back, argh.. a guy making that stupid sound at me.. *roll eyes
hate it.
oh.. then today ne. finally decided on which phone to get=) haha.. like. .so relieved.. finally have an answer.. prob solved. winner is, htc desire!! however if come any decision swty wanna get ipohne, then i'll abide by his choice.  so ya.. o well..
erm. .. so nmow.. im thinking of whwhat line to apply. >_<
hm... dunno ne.. so far. .both singtel and starhub got ppl vote.. but.. me stil lnot sure hwat i want.. aw. if only i could spend the my bro's 50 dollars voucher on phone now.. o well.. nvm ba.. cos end of july gone liao.. cannot use.
hm....

so yea.... so far like that... and me think2.. no... galaxy.. thogh its good phone.. but... yes i like bigger screens.. but.. desire is alreyad on the top phone chart. .somemore... the lights, and the flash.. i dun like that much.. no flash i mena. the dim light.. if i don bother should be fine.. if not, it irritates me that its darker than other phones..
but yeah.. since i have issues with those, see, desire is the better choice. great, safe, with guarantee results. wont regret. =)
so.. o well.. that should be the one ba.. ha.. hm....
oh, todya my fren had a private meeting with my manger. .for quite long.. i never ask whats it about.. but.. im wondeinrg.. maybe she got promoted? she's alreyad the manager assistant or sumtin.. so ya.. hm.. anyway, don think will be a bad matter ba...
hm.. maybe tmr me will go check out the m1.. gotta check out the pricing plans.. dunno which to get! ha.. anyway, if htc desire is there, will check it out too.. will ask bro if he's there. sad sia.. how i wish my bro know about phones=/ ow ell. haha. he knws better of the living dead dolls.
so tiring. .come home, eat,shower,. watch tv.. soon, back to slp and work mrg again.. T_T sianzzzz ... o well..
aw... keep looking at my nail polishXD so shimmering such nice colour =) haha..
gosh.. i fell aslp for so long  =/ haiyo... waste my time. .XD haha.. anyway.. gonan get ready for bed soon.. hm.. sam fell aslp again.. so..ya.. haha.. o well
mata

Phones In waiting

wow i am so slpy now.. i dunno why.. but i really feel  liek slping now!!! so slpy.... yawn....
hm.. lets see.... oh.. din really do lots.. just trynig to get my nails done.. . gosh.. i tell u, its sooooooooooooo difficult to remove that polish of mine!!!! i uses my nails instead! cos nail remover doesn work. omg... as for my toes, i have to use a mini knife.. yes.. it really is that difficult to get them off my nails!!! huu.. so ..argh.... now im just ltting my toe nails to heal. .as i got no chioice but to 'injure' them abit in order to remove this polish.. haiz.. .stuoid ne those glitters=/
ut anyway, glad htey're off. .and i got new colour on.. i love the colour!!! its gorgeous!!! =) best colour ever.
gosh.. im soo slppy now
oh, so.. yay! cheers for sammy staying homem online with me since daytime =D its geat.. especially when he say it feels like the day where we first get to know each other, and i was having a haircut. .and he's like msging me all day.. then felt as though he;s beside me=) spending the day toget. .glad he could felt this way today =D ^^
gosh.. me sooo wish for off tmr.. =( i realy do..  sooo really do.... hm... o well....
ok.. im having choco now.. i hoep its gonna help me stay awake for abit...
hm.. so.. sammy slpt.. its bette ri think. .not that bored.. its like. .even though he's quiet.. but i get to watch him. or at least i know he right inthe webby.. naw.. feels much better.. than. wondeirn if he's up .. or eating now. u know. ha.
hm.. so.. oh yes.. been awhile.. since i think june or sumtin. .sam been busying with his exams and stuff... oh btw, he passed!! one of htem. hte others not sure yet. but yes=) happy for him. congrats to swty of mine^^
so yea.. today finally get to feel he's focusing on me again =) so yes.. T_T yay... so nice.. . huu
anyway. he's resting again. .aw.. i thin he really  nid plenty of good rest.. and i think he rested well enuff for today=) yay ^^  hm.. wonder if he's gona drool on lion.. naw.. erm anyway, yea... gosh.. its alreay night time.. =/ huu..
oh, yea.. he was at home since aftnoon.. he didnt wanna go out.. so yea. thats why we get to webby all day long=) which is great. haha.oh he wokey so fast O.o erm.. ok.. anyway,
hm.. now nothing much to do.. but i get to watch him.. hm. .been checking out phones.. todya found out anothe rgood one. .thanks to sam.. but.. im still not sure.. cos motorola.. i duno.. doest felt like its trustworthy.. on the other hand, it could be a very good phone indeed.. maybe shouldnt judge it. .but still.. hm... i dunno.. shall see how..  not sure if tmr have time to check it out or not.. o well..
naw... sammy is slping now.. so cute!!!! he got his cutesy lion, which i gave it to him. so gald he got a spare one ^^ its sooo cute. and they made a great cute pair. =) charming. munchy!~!!  huu.. but sad.. i cant hug him =(
sigh.. so wan him here right by my side now =/...
anywya... hm.. bah.. o well..
hm.. tmr. .back to work.. very soon, i;ll be  bloggin here, oh , another week passed. .seriously.. 5 days working, then off for 2 days, u'll kinda wonder where did the weeks gone? its like. .poofed! gone.. and soon, hehe.. my birhday =) im more of looking forward to my 3 off than my birthdya.. anyway, its the 3 dasy im gonna have a blast....at resting.XD. haha. .im gonna giv emyself one special day to do what i want.. to celebrate. .or to jus thav efun, or whatever. .we shall see...
hm.. ok.. so back to the phones... hmm.... i got 2 choices on my mind now...... well, lets see which will be better.. and of course.. alot of ppl have their own opnions.. im researchingon them no.w. .i dun wanna spednmy money, and of course waste my years of contract on a phone i'l lcome to regret. so thats why i really wanna consider carefully before i get a phone. and not just anyhow, ok, buy this.
so ya... still conculting my frens.. or just reading htorugh what [ppl are saying.. so far.. htc having a huge fan absed. .even my fren using it say he's simply loving the phone. with NOthing to complain. oh, i mean his htc desire. and u know.. ppl might be right after all. .should giv eup in waiting evo. cos after all, not all phones will launch in local. and the incredible too.. i heard its a usa model. somemore desire is very fast. yes. .everuone;s saying that. its very fast.. hmm.... screen is small er compared to glalaxy and motot.. but.. its a brand u shouldnt be regretting.
thast for sure. adn.. thast what i want. something i wont regret at all.hm.. shall see.. somehow will be able to get some answer.. i mena decision. .XD

ok.. so.. ha.. now im just looking thorugh.. and. .when i;ve decided, will discuss wih sammy again.. then if all things went smoothly and calmly,XD then i should be getin gmy self a porper phone finally. lol. it might come s to near end od yearXD u never know..  cs i've been sayin gwanan get a phoen since like.. late last year or early this yearXD then phoen skeep
u know.. i think i might have an ide aof which phone i want.. i just gotta wait. .cos like i said, not all phones are able to use in sg=/ haiz. .but yea.. we shall see. .months to go then.. huuT_T
happy waiting ne.. ha
haiyo.. my off finsh liaoT_T haiz............................ so fast
mata

Sitting Day

gosh.. my butt hurts.. my spine too.. =. i feel so tired.. .sigh....... so manay thign si didn get to do again.. cooking take sup alot of time. .after that, me gotta online..and too tired to do anthnign e,lse already =/ sigh..
so ya..
my day.. oh.. last night watched world cup.. yea.. so exciting eh.. erm.. well, yea.. was like. .shouting whoa, and goal.. not goal. .more of whoa.. so ya.. glad i didnt wakey my parents up.. but it was a nice match.. so ya..
so.. wakey.. go online. .find stuffs.. in the end all work for nothing.. but thats ok.. erm.. then.. hm.. eat.. quite a late lunch.. =. erm.. then ntuc. .buy ingeredients to cook. .took me from preprations to finish cooking, about 2 and half hours time =.= yes. .troublesome. .ha. .but o well.. its good.

erm.. so .. bath.. eat.. hten online.. wait for sam.. thn finally done... then we watch movie together.. so ya.. he laughed, i laughed.. its good.. then . .like tha ar.. erm.. movie's good.. so ya.. enjoyable one. .but sad ending i gotta say =/ haiz

hm... now bored also.. .trying to get myself in the most tired state ever, then i can slp without thinking.. without any worries.. just need a good rest.. then tmr.. wont be seeing sam till late night again... erm.. .ya. .sigh.............. sad.
tmr.. see what i can do ba... i dunno.. no mood to do anything.. i dunno what to do... =/
i should be doing my nails.. but.. yeah.. o well.. i dunno wahst after that =/

there are thigns whcich i woinder why.. i don understand im afraid.. might not so throughly yet.. but.. its so difficult to get to know it.. and.. ..tch. i dunno.. im afraid thing aint what i htink is that simple..

hm... i dunno. feel so sianz now.. i dunno hwat to do for later on... should i stay up to watch football again? i dunno........ but my legs are tired.. form sitting too much. ha.. o well.. whole day down.. what ya expect eh.
tch.... dunno what to do.. haiz....................
i feel so frustrated!! its like im kinda stuck!! between wanan go out or not, to rest or not. what to do.. blah3.... its so frustrating....................... =(

o well...............
haiz...  its ok.. everything will be fine..

i wonde rif.. u know.. i had watched somethng for too close and too dear. and thus making myself going through all these coaster rides.. its weird..
i might be the only person going through all that.. and.. i dunno wat did i end up getting? yes. .i should ponder over this for a lil bit...

things will get better. not easy. but. .uh huh.. haha.. hmm.............
oh..
oh dear.. O.o the match is about to get started!! but.. nah.. im not gonna be watching.. k.. i'd better stop right  here and head for bed.. =/ dun feellike having a good night tonight..


mata

Choicees

sigh.. so sad.. =/ remember i mentioned about my fren in a 4, or 5 years relationship with a girl? =( sad.. they've broken up.. he just put up a single notice in his fb=/ haiz...... dunno who suggested it. .but i got htis feeling its from the girl... i dunno what happen.. but.. i dun ask him ever about his relationship.. we can talk alot. .but when it comes to this, nah.. im not so close to mention about it yet.. feels weird. .i mean, after all he's my cf fren. thats how i got to know him.
anyway, sigh.. feel so kinda down=/ so wasted.... haiz.. but i think i kinda understand the girl's situation why she chose to leave him.. if she really is hte one who wanna.. u know.. =/
i mentioned it before in my previous blog. .so yeah. .those are the main reasons i guess.... ...=/ o well.. he should be fine i guess.. but now that he's single, even if wana go out as a group feels kinda weird.. =.=''... dots... just weird. dunn owhy. but nah. wont think so much. anyway i wont have so much time to meet up with anyone fornnow.. so ya..
gosh.. my cf b'day is coming soon.. wonder how will it be eh.. .heh... me looking forward to my b'day too. yay..

oh, football match is starting! but a pity the countries are .. .hm.. o well.. we shall see how the match goes..

gosh.. im so full.. had kfc just now. .i ate so fast and yea.. alot. lol. i keep eating and eating so much XD

hm..then sam.. dunno why.. offline without a word, then online again.. and never talk. maybe his net ba.. i dunno.. but anyway, he should be slping for sure.. otherwise wouldve msg me alreayd ne..
hope he's slping well ba. me on the other hand, wanna wait for him, and also cos of eating too much, too full, i cnat slp! plus jus wanan enjoy my night . .so yea...

gosh.. im still going through the phones... haiyo.. somehow i wanna get samsung .but .. somehing is saying the choice might be wrong.. =.= anyway, me still gathering infos.. lol. .from customers , and ppl ard meXD and through net of course. hahahah...

hm.. work.. work's fine.. 2 staffs sytarted their training today. .tmr also.. hm... hope they can work ba. ione can. .the other, im not so sure. .like a typical.. u know who. -_-

hm.... orlando got have the harry potter universal studio.. OMG.. i tell u.. its soooo wowwwwwwwwwwwwww........................... i really wish i could go there if i could have so much money, go sydney, then to see harry.. wow...
its amazing place indeed... took my breath away.. well, almost. ha

gosh. .so full ..haiyo..

hm.... so... about there ba.. my days.. nothig much..

wanna share with sam about the info of phones.. ha. whcih i found todya. anyway, shall talk to him son tmr perhaps. oh i mean later on.

mata

Busy Start Till End

wow................................... O.o... i started doing stocks from 1pm all the way till closing.. i had suh a long day today.. gosh... @.@ tired abit... yea.. but its good. .i ddnt worry about time being so slow.. but really.. tough tired.. gosh...

erm.. lets see.. yeah.. so dodododod my work.. gosh...
hm.. im thinking.. whether i should be needing a pair of jeans.. recently just realized that my jeans are all so loose=/ sigh... o well.. see how ba

tonight as usual.. checked out abit about phones.. omg... headache. .its soo confusing.. =.= sooo many choices!!!! @.@ can faint ne... i dunno what to get now. .totally clueless... dots....

hm.. so glad tmr finaluy day to off...

u know.. its really so kinda fast eh.. one week is gone.. me work 5 dyas, tehn 2 off straight, and its alreayd one week gone. very fast...
o well.... anyway, my days been peaceful without the irritaiing guy ard. really2 peaceful!! gosh.. tmr will be working with him.. but on diff shifts.. still, hours would be spend with him workin gtogether =.= haiz.

hm..... so ya.. haiz.. basically doing stocks is so busy, and takes up whole day to do so.. abit tiring .. but im ok today.. feelin ggood. ha. kinda.

gosh.. feeling so slpy now... had abit of food.. then.. hm... online.. watch videos of phoens. abit only.. nothing much to find liao.. then.. read mag.. then online again.. looking through some stuffs.. gosh.. all that making me slpy..
yea i know.. lamey things to do.. but what to do.. its nice to sit down , and since tv nothing on, might as well, yea.. in front of lappy.

ha.. me do things.. always in a rush and rough. XD do stocsk till theres 2 tears on my hands.. ha.. poor thing.. cos me wann rush finish job mah.. o well.

hm.. the day passes so blindly... like. .weeird.. tmr im back to same shift again.. and im gonan slp, wakey, get ready for work.. repeating itself and repeating again =.=so slpy now.. but wakey up to the same new day.. hmm.. -_-

ok.. so.. nothing much to say ba.. .

o well.............................................................

=/ its a different total night compared to ytd..

oh, so many nice movies coming out.. hm.. not say so many. .but theres 3 i wanna watch. wonder when would i be watchig it. .well, one of them should be watching it on my b;day. ha. weird.. im planning my b;day now u know.. not say now.. but yea.. its me =.=

i still feel neglected =( haiz.. baka3

hmm.... o well. .so like that ba... good thing in a way i guess? =/ save money.. i think before i decide on which phone, i';ll be receiving my pay again.. who knows.. i might end up getting a phone in aug or sep.. gosh.. i cant beliveve this. i try not to think about it. ha
its like.. well, i dunno.. i don do mcuch on a phone.. its just thta.. i could us eit to msg sammy through the day.. hmm... yeah..... unless its palying game s, or reading on the phone.. but.. yeah.. oh, and of course. .taking pics.. ha. but.. i think after all, i really don have much of .. u know.. anything serious' about.. hm.. o well..

if not for the fact that im gona be siging on plans , and using same phone for certain years time, i wouldnt bother much about the phones even if abit difference.. i'll just choose samsung(cos of my fav bigger screen) and buy it now or later. cos starhub got fair now... huu..

hm.. sigh.. see.. now alreayd 2.30am./. =/ so fast. .yea.. cant wait to slp soon though.. oh.. speakin gof which.. i keep having weird dreams sia.. not say very weird..but uncommon ba.. like.. so many in a row for days now.. O.o wierd ne..

gosh.. my leg tired.. ha.. relall y must sit.. these 4 days of owrking. .none is happy one.. o well.. tmr see how ba.. anyway, will look forward to closing... then its my freedom!! gosh. .really time flies...

hm.. k.. hopefully i didnt accdentally click onto the private post again.. gosh..

what else... hm.. k ba. .thats about it..

im so bored and sleepy.. i dunno.. starts to feel life is so boring. =( bah.. o well.............
just focused on my nails, and cooking! gosh.. i got so many recipes i haven try out. .haiyooooo

but u know.. someitmes i don like this feeling....
- buy ingredients. then prepare.. then cook.. it takes up whole of my afttnoon, and soon before u know it, the half dya is gone =( meaning my off dya has ended in an blink of an eye.

hm... i like big screens so much... .hahahhaa.... if only htc desire have htat, hten i might go for it nowXD

o well................ ..... hmm. haiz. .lets just give it abit moretime then.. i also dun have to save till cough out blood. ha. .anyway, yea... been tlaking it for monthssss.... finally the day might be near. .anytime soon now. .to get my hands on a proper good phone... T_T
but.. yeah.. really.. i might not do much with it. ha.. baka desuXDo well. =P

mata!