End OF...

=( feel so lost. .after sammy went to bed.. feel sooo lost. and sad=( reluctantly said bye and ended the call..
sigh.. baka desu.... huuuuu....

o well. .tmr back to work.. haiz.. and he's heading back to school in days.. huu...

oh. .just now watched movie with him.. nice one.. but kena dis halfway through cos we watch too much. .the time too long or sumtin.. then gotta load =,=
then my fren suddenly pop in msn O.o gosh. but me never reply of course.
then finally we watch finish. its funny. nice movie.
and theres this part.. omg.. i laughed soo hardXD... so .. omg.. funny!!
yea we both laughed. gosh.. got me cracking up there.XD


anywy.. hm.. oh, ytd morning.. so cold. O.o i thoguht i was in sydneyXD lol. i grabbie my blankie.. yea.. soso cold.. wow.
hm.. then ytd dinner iwht family.. duno why.. sudden though of samy.. suddenly thought of the date now.. its end of july.. and i was like. .wow.. hold on there.. did i just said july? then i remembered..  ... its officially a year since sam is gone. =( huu... and there i was.. holding back my tears. was so gonna cry at the thought of thta. but yea.. held them back.. and.. uh huh.. shifted my thoguhts.. i tried. so yea. ..huu.. was so gonna cry on the spot.. but.. uh huh.. wow.... one year is gone..... ha.. making me teary now again.. ..baka desu.. ...
and to think my thoughts stil lremained at about 6,7 months.. then realises it was a year in fact.. ..huu.. so pain....

had a hard time slping again last night. .thinking of him.. and. .i duno.. just slpt hard.. and long after my head hits the pillow.
hm.. hope tonight will be better..
tmr. .working. .sianz.... gotta get through lots of 6shifts man.. this month .. i mena aug. =./
haiz....
gotta stay strong.. in all aspects.. ..
gotta be...
sigh... will hang on ne.. .. uh huh.. ..

bah............. .... =/
gambate ne pauline..

and so.. thats it ba.. hm... suddenly i guess... from 6 months.. gotta stretch to one year now eh.. wait.. no.. its 11months. ha.. ..o well...
and .. sigh. i hate it when that time of month is coming, i'll be extra sensitive during these dasy.. and that sucks.. *breathes out.. trying to keep it all together..
trying not to dwell on it all u know. ha..

hm.. was having this conversation with my fren.. hten he was like. .saying i sounded like i was gonna go to a real far away place and couldnt contact each other anymore.
i was like. .oh.. i din know i suonded htat wya.. but i replied. u know. .we never know the future.. for all u j know, i might be gone one day and never come back. I might be gone for real eh.
..ha..

hm.. o well...
so nnow.. im hating that my off day is overT_T sianzzzz... huu.. o well.. hang on for 6 days ba.. see how things are going.. ...
hm...

ok.. so.. o well.. thast my dya.. ..ha.. yea... basically just rest. .me lie on bed. .trying to slp abit or rest.. cannot nap ne.. jus cant put my mind down to slp.. maybe cos of coffee ba? ha. .o well.

tch.. =/ duno what else to say ba.. .. i duno. suddenly at this moment, things are all so bored. and... so amiss... cant put my finger into it.. maybe its just so quiet now. .and.. yea.. .. i dunno.. maybe cos its at the end o fmy night...
i dislike this feeling..

haiz.. k then.. end of my days..
nights.

mata ne.



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