Wood

haven u like... gotten your words out, but then they werent remember? and then u wonder, how heavy does those words weigh in one person's heart? yea.. u get what i mena eh? times and again. then u gave up.
i guess it all makes u wonder in the end huh? lots of question marks and stuf... haha... o well.

hm.. had weird3 dreasm=/ even when i fell aslp just now.. i didnt know why im so tired, but yea.. anyway, fell aslp, again had weird dreams.. like my mind keeps on moving. .im slping. yet my mind is talking.. i dunno.. still, iguess i should've enough slp eh. i hope.

erm.. so.. was so bored.. online2. .didnt know of what to do..
then wanna do some reading, but didnt have the mood to =( haiz. so .. me go down.. have my lunch, go ntuc with mum.. erm.. yea.. was soo frustrated when i found out they didnt have the ingredient i wanT! gosh.. anuyway, i just picked up anything i could find, and decided to look up the recipe. i made it into 2 different flavs. and it turn out great. ok good. not perfect. but yea. =) parents like it too. so.. yay.
and the yellow ginger chicken.. yea.. really taste like one.. cos i added meat and grizzard to it. ok.. not bad. =P

hm.. dunno why.. todya acouple of thigns i wanna blog. .but not sur eif i could remmeber.. =/

hm.... so.. yeah.. me still haven read anything. argh... nono... wont do man.. i gotta do some reading! still wanna 'upgrade' myself. haha. nah.. i realy just like learning more stuff. out of my boundaries kinda stuffs.. so yea.. and of course my interests that is =) but. .me always so tired to do any reading.. haiyo... hopefully later, or tmr will do abit. .see how ne. hope i have time for it

=/ hm............
oh.. so.. i guess i fell aslp after dinner, after watchin gshow, after online.. sammy wasnt replying u see.. so yea... then me fell aslp.. but abit like keep waking up to look at my laptop.. hm.. then.. turns out that sammy fallen aslp till erm.. dunno.. about slping the same hours as me. concidence eh. anyway, good thing me didnt really waited for him. and yea.. course a good thing i fallen aslp, and theres a show to keep me busy. so ya.. phew

erm................... oh... ppl were telling me.. or rather, asking me.. why go so hard on myself, and spend so much money just to go there and see my bf.. that set me thinking... yea.. u know.. it is hardwork.. its tough thing to do yo.. yea.. its so tough.. but.... i dunno.. i dun wanna think about that now.. its still kinda long from now.. i dunno whats gonna happen in the future right? yea.. we shall see then...........

oh.. its great. boost juice company is part of our shareolders now. and our boss bought back 40percent or sumtin of their share from some bank. and its awesome. seems like the jucice company could help us. since they have about 14 outlets overseas i think. so yeah.. it;ll be great. and so.. our company is gonna open (perhaps in KL) hong kong, japan, france.. ah.. and all over the world.. u know, so yea.. its good. i cant wait to see that all happen.. bit by bit.. bt first, more stores in singapore!
things are gonna get so busy... but.. ...well.. i guess sometimes busy is good huh.. =/ ...bah. o well

.sigh...... i dunno what to do for tmr...... =( sigh................... what do u reakon?
go some place to chill?

sigh.. i dun feel good...... =(

what else need to be said?... ..

oh yeah....

u know.. even if theres a piece of wood, it is perfect, but in time , it will slowly rot away... buggies will start to appear out of nowhere, and start to consume it. .until its so thin and weak, and finally its gone.
its like.. how u discover bit by bits those Lies...................... those freaking lies............
and then the support is gone.. or u know what.. perhaps they aint any lies. perhaps it could be what we called as'' the hidden truths'' . some matters that are mena tto be shared, yet u hid it on purpose.. white lies, are still lies.
U didnt complete what u are supposed to tell, and its really important.. well.. in a way, thast a lie too huh?... .. i thought.. being frank is so important.. or was it just me?

how much weigh does one word holds in ur heart? think about it. u might be surprise what u've been missing out. ..

wow. its a very long cooking procedure for today.. but its good.. worth it..

u know... our managers didnt do anything... i understand... they are busy keeping wiht reports or god knows what... but.... sabrina used to do everything.. serving customers, changing the display.. sigh.. she really is a workaholic.. but its great... i mena.. yeah.. ... like.. uh huh....... now that source of bubbly energy is gone.. =/ its more work now.. and seeing ur manager doing nothing, its really like... ha.. wow.. i dunno what to say.. they dont do changing displacys nor doing any of the stocks liek sabrina does.. ..=/ o well.. its futile to say all this now.. yet.. yea.. now u see why i hold so much respect for sabrina eh..

oh.. just remembered.. i gotta do my nails tmr.. ha.. erm.. but... hm... see how ba..... wondeirn gif i should run some errands tmr mrg while sam isnt ard... hmm..

oh.. really gotta sort out my pics now.. haiyo.. me haven send sam the schedule of mine=/ gosh..

hm.. what else.... ... so yea.. i guess if my bro never come back home and wakey me up with the door sound, i would';ve still been slping eh.. gosh.. i didnt know me slpt long.. thoguht it sonly 9pm.. ha.. o well

erm.. today.. yea.. basically nothing much.. just cook, and .. well, this is my off day myself.

u know... don ever forget something or anything which meant the world to u. if u forget all about it, then u are a fool for sure.. dont be a fool.. ..we only get to live once...in one lifetime...

tell me, who could u really trust?....

mata...............














































-He said.. I could have all the time i want... but.............-

Golden Couple =)

ha.. dunno am i super hungry or what. i ate alot today! hm.. sort of. ha. anyway, yup.. todya feel like eating alot. thtas all ba.
ahh.. so disappointed =/ the yellow ginger chicken rice.. me asked for extra spicy... but ended up sux.. i mean as in not spicy =/ i mena.. not so spicy as i expected. that time me ate with bro at iluma,. that was great. the chef created what i wanted. so ya.. ps.. really.. they cannot make it.. anyway, me alreyad sned them a feeedback .. so ya.. ...

hmm.. have questions. .but dun dare to ask.. =/ baka desu.............

gosh i am soo tired!! cant wait to slp. body tired ne. last night.. dni went to slp well. .so ya..
hm.. oh, golden couple is in the haus yo!! XD i mean my boss =) haha. sooo nice! they just got back form holiday at dunno where, then tonight heading to sweden. aw..... me also want that kind of holiday..

so ya.. as u guys know.. i got nothing but praises for them.. =)
seems to me that.. u know.. actually they are 2 quite different persons.. kristina is elegant, with poise, business looking kinda woman..
knows what she want.. like.. a smart business woman.. gentle.. with Grace...

paul.. hm.. very very funny man. =) always puts on his smile, ever sooo friendly.. kinda bubbly.. see, if u place them together, yea.. its different eh? one is cheerful, another is reserved. but.. well, they do made a sweet blissful golden couple if u ask me =)
opposites attract ne ^^ hehe.

again, i was sooo nervous to meet her. my boss. omg. she talk to me, i dunno what to say muchXD geez!
as for paul, im always glad to se ehim with axel =)
before they go, paul wants a hug.. so we bid farewell .. .erm.. wait. dots. .i mena we bid them goodbye, and hope to see them real soon =) i cant believe i places my cheeks side by side with them. llol. my idols!! XD =)

ahh... a angmoh guy , came into our shop, looking for one of our colleague... lol. think they met in starbucks or sumtin.. duno what happen.. but yeah.. he was looking ard hte shop, then go up to her, and she servedhim.. then went to pens area, he wrote his number down, and gave it to him. LOL. BUT. much to my very surprised, she actually say she throw the paper away O.o... woo........... dunno why, but maybe he's not a good guy i guess? at first i thought he's her fren. the ffrennch guy(apparently they're still seeing each other i think) cos they were talking,m and the customer places his hand on her shoulder for a sec. omg. =.=
then yea... maybe its becos she didnt wanna be flirty eh? i dunno. maybe cos of her french guy fren? ha.. anyway, yea.. thats the correct thig to do. just throw the number away.

i ask my fren.. the one with 3 yrs r/s with ehr malay bf. if she's the one who got the number , would she've throw it away too? she think2.. then say yes. .then say.. wait. .maybe no. must see situation. i was like. .dotsssssss!!!!!! =.=''....
no matter how she and her bf are open, its so weird to allow ur own partner to contact and get numnbers from other strangers outta nowhere =/ absurd or what? O.o
anyway, she really like australia.. so i guess she's stadnig by the angmoh side. ha..
but like i said. i don like ppl changing the way they are. . to pretend whom they're not, or defy who they really are. anyway.. gosh. so tired. .me sneexing abit now..

gosh.. i dun wanna get sick on my off again!! huu..

hm. .so.. me rushed home after buying dinner. .try to keep myself awake. .btu.. yeah.. keep dozing off abit. .then wakey.. dunn wan my food to drop ar. .ha..
wanna walk ard, but no time. .like... yeah. .wanna head home.. so.. o well.. then reach home .eat.. sammy paying game.. so we talk much later.. after i bath and all.. so yea
then me eaat chips. .watch tv. .i dunno.. i much alot. hahaha...
i htink i lost weight=/ o well..

hm.. me decided to cook something tmr. i hope me nose will be fine!

so tired. .wanan slp soon ne... hm.. .
k, so gonna enjoy my off eh.
me slpy liao.. ha

gosh.. no time to upload pics , video.. =/ haiz..

yawnnnn k ba.. me gtg. .cant think of what to type now.. hmm

jaa,
mata ne

TIred for what reason?

hmm.... =/ not a very good day i must say.... sigh.

erm.. the other morning, me wokey, last morning. .yeah.. then alarm rang. .i was so surprised. .like. .huh? what the? is there a mistake? im off! haha.. but then i sae the timing. .no its correct. .time for me to go work. .ha. so.. yeah... good hting me neevr off alarm and ba ck to slp . touch wood

hm.. me slpt very early ytd. about 10.30pm.. ye si know.. its crazy.. ha. then now, im feeling slpy again. dunno wana slp anot. =/ hm.. see how ba.. sigh..

alot of thigns on my min di guess. i dunno. thing si need time to figure out on my own..

tmr im gonna do something to cheer myself up ba. .duno ba. .but we shall see. tehn shall enjoy my off.

todya at work alot of ppl interview. .hm.. me at owrk today.. like. .on a battlefield. .=/ i hate it. stress.
working with that irritating guy is so.. sigh.. =(

plus watching a show about how a man betray his love, is even more upsetting .gosh. why did i even wanan watch it. shut up. =/
sianz.. feeling so sianz...

sigh.....

dunno go and make myself so miserable for what sia.
=( stupid.

tch.. sigh.. so bored=(

=./ boss tmr coming. .like. .know i should rest.. yet i didnt want to.. dunno.. feel so vexed.. sigh. =/ mayeb tmr wakey will be a better day? could be eh..

owell

in anycase, i hope those new staffs will work with us, so i can spend less time with that guy. sianz!

..me need to chill.... gosh... calm down2...

tch.. thinking about stuffs.. old memories.. and wondering... =/ hmm... how to make things back aagin. or.. should or should not let things remain where they are.. erm. .blah3...

hmm... ok.. so perhpas im feeling so tired ba. .i dunno.. maybe. but felt better after talking about phones with sammy.
gosh.. i wish the htc 4G and iphone 4 will just comeout. like, now! bah.. i couldnt even msg sam alot now. tch.. o well

oh. .had football old chang kee today. its good.
i mena.. its spicy! much to my very surprise. ha.

. me no idea why so tired=/ slpt so long aslo.. o well..

kk, me gtg.. i love u sam.

mata

Slow Day

me wanna slp.. ha.. o well, i duno.. like.. slpy, need rest, yet doesnrt feel like doing so. o well. cos dun wan the night to end ba.. ha.

hm... lets see..... nothing much today ba..
oh! news papaer reporter or dunno who from newspaper( dunno whcih newspaper) is gonna interview my boss in our shop on tues! gosh. .so fast.. like gonna see her again. ha. .o well... rather i off on that day.

today saw nice clothesXD but me didnt buy. haha. .me prevent myself to buy. by thinking up lots of reasons. but its true though.. i dun need those. i have no time to wear them, me always at home. .so yea.. ha.. anyway im trying to focus on saving money to get whats needed for myself, plus air tickets. i almost forgotO.O! gotta buy tickets early! the earlier the better /so it'll be cheaper. like what my fren said too. she bought 6months earlier, 6 months later, the price before and after, was a huge difference of about 400 or 600 bucks! i'll most definitely go take a look at next year travel fair. though dunno when.. but that can be checked later.. hm.. so yeah... im hoping will be able to get slightly cheaper tix to sydney.. but. who knows. .it might still be the same expensive ne.. but first, gotta confirm with sam... the excat dates.. then ask my managers for permission.. then yeah... hm... but definitely not before april then me gonna look through ba.. hm.. wait.. sounds weird.. i duno.. in april... me alreayd looking through the tix right,.. and yeah./ nothing cheap came up. hopefuly somehow 6months earlier will help.

XD lol.. me just thought of the nights, where me go singing anyhow with sam over the phone.. omg.. so paiseh.. but he's a swty.. didnt complain to me about it. .so yeah.. awww =) ha.. so paiseh sia meXD
but ok ba. .since alreyad so familiar with him.. everuthing or anything i do are most comfy enough already =3 hehe...

gosh.. =( my nose is sooo super senstitive to dusts.. .im gonna sneeze again liao.. huu...... shouldnt have took out that shirt.. anyway, yeah... hate my nose to be so sensitive to dusts =( me so afraid of dusts

aw.. was relaly nice to 'meet ' sam in the morning. .ha. .apity cant video cam with him.. but yea... still nice...
=)
morning is always great with him ard.
ah.. been waiting for whole day to skype with him =3 dunno why. .so wanna hear his voice ba.. so yeha.. hoping wil lgo on the earphone..

hm.. slpy.. haha.. dunno why ne... anyway, cant wait for tues!!! final day of work then to off^^! haha... looking forward to it cos its the final time for this month that im working for 3 day shifts.. after this, its gonna be 5,and 6.. o well.. just hang on ba.. get used to it..

ah.. tmr. .got ppl coming for interview.... i hope they are nice ppl.. yeha.. .hope so ne...

gosh.. slpy.. haha.. baka desu....

kk.. me better go slp soon too.. hm... forgot what else to blog.. hah. .o well..

jaa, mata

Weird Morning

wow. i just read something from the starhub web. u cant just buy the iphone. u HAVE to sign the plans on. okok good. one decision less for me to decide. i like that, so yea.. menain gi have to sign on no matter what.

haiz... ytd was so tired and sick.. =/ why keep getting sick on my offs? =/ anyway, watched a movie with sam.. yea.. i still got some energy left to watch..though was tired and yea.. but the movie's good. funny. and he's laughing more than when he was watching shrek. O.o''... abit puzzling.. like.. shrek...he didnt laugh at all throughout the movie i thinkk.. so yea.. ha.. i wonder why,, but anyway, its good.

why am i blogging so early in the morning? =/ sigh.. o well.. tired i guess? =/ hm.. i dunno.. no not that.. i think i miss sam alot.. =/ huu... still missing his voice.. aw.. i didnt kno wtime flies.. and yea.. he went to bed late.. and.. yeha.. o well..

morning.. i awoke myself with my alarm as usual... then, i was so surprised XD
i was like... huh??? alarm?? wth? then i thought it was a mistake u know( i think im still in my off mode) .. so i checked my alarm time, and its 7.15.. then i was like. .correct wat... thast the time me always wakey for my mrg shift. .then i was like.. oh yea! I Am working today! gosh.... totaly forgot. ha... i mena.., well, morning, what can i say.

ah.. my fren is askin gme out.. but.. im not going.. wanan keep sammy for company throughout the night for his studies.. well, cheer him on.. he got a exam tmr. so yeah.. praying for him.... hopefully its gonna go well...
then i guess i was too tired. i wodner. .whats m8. lol. my fren typed. i couldnt think at that time. sam was saying.. mate.. but i heard as maid.. then me even more puzzled.. lol... then i was like. .duh.... of course its mates!XD aw... somehow wanna go.. but yeah... i hope to hear his voice tonight again.. dunno possible anot..

ytd waited soo long for sammy.. but worth it ne. finally have a date with him. turns out to be a midnight one. ha.. o well.. but beter than nothing i supposed.

hm.. slpt for only a couple of hours, yet im feeling quite alrite u noe. O.o weird.. maybe i sneezes too much, yet still rested enuff? but anyway its good. alil slpy, but im ok =) so yay. hope wont feel slpy through the day.
gosh.. cant wait to get home=/ i miss him. huu

so yup.. hopefully could listen to his voice even for abit ba.
hm.. weird mrg.. but. yea.. i hope its gonna be a good day....

mata!

Sickening Day

actually didnt wanna blog now.. as its still early.. but i really got nothing on my hand.. =/ i dunno what to do.. im just sitting right in front of my laptop... its my off day today.. .yet.. it felt so empty =( and i certainly had a bad day. =( becos i was sneezing right from the moment i woke up, til now =( sigh..................................................
yes.. im feeling very in a bad mode now.. =( sigh... so sick. .i feel like theres a fever coming in.. bnut its only 37 degrees.. ha. .so yea.. well, me still yearning for some fever actions eh. ha..

hm. .so yeah.. today sammy isnt with me.. he's gone out for a llong long long dinenr with family.. dunno.. he say wanna watch movie later.. but yea.. me just waiting on..
hm.. so yea.. don think will be in my best of health or anything like htat to watch though =/ its too long await.

today basically im just dping hte waiting, watching tv, online.. and of course.SNEEZING . sigh.. my poor nose... =( sigh.. its a terrible day peeps.. sigh... i wan him to be here.. but he's not =/
sigh.. so yeah.. i hope by tmr my energy will be back.. so.. yeah.. .looking forward to my wed off... bah............

so.. online abit. .searching through websites.. i was thinking... hm..... yeah.. i might regret signing plans now.. but i didnt have much choice right? i really need a phone now.. and its gonna help heaps in communicating with sammy without a bomb on topping up. .but still, having said that.. im still looking through al l the infos.. to sign plans.. or without.. etc.. hm.. o well..=/ thats all ba.. and my bro got a voucher from singtel.. but expired on end of month july. i don know should i get a phone by then or not. i don tthink so. cos afraid m1 and starhub will come out with a more devious of its own.. so yeah.............

hm.. see how ba... o well.. me just doing research here.. so yea... i do need a proper phone..

bah................ about 10.40 alreyad.. me rested for abit today.. still not good enuff. .was cold and yeah.. i dunno.. .me just keep on sneexzing...

bro and redz plus mum were cleaning up rooms. hence the reason why my nose got all worked up for the worst=(
but yeah.. my desk is soo much better now. yay. but yeah.. it came with a price.

bah.. dunno what sam's doing now=/ football again? i dunno.. im just waiting......

hm... bro and redz went out.. i didnt go iwth htem as i was expecting a movie with sam.. but.. well, i dont regret my decision.. as im stil lweak and sick now still.. very2 weak =(
but yeah... just dunno ba....... tch.. i dunno.. im so bored.. so.. quiet everythign here =( i dun like loneliness. =(

they are not ba ck yet.. wonder if redz coming back tonight eh.. o well...

hm.. been a long off day.. sick one at that =/

oh, have i mentioined abo0ut my fren last night? the one who had years of relationship with a girl. then now turn to complicated=( sigh. .felt sad abou tit.. but yea... he's a fren through my ch fren. veyr nice person. we clicked. and yeah.. but we couldnt meet up due to mos tof it is becos of my situation. ha. .so yea.. but i heard abou this probs before.. but. .o well.. i dunno them.. but yeah.. =/ abit wasted isnt it.. but i do kinda get it.. im i was the girl, i might've think twice too.
already at the age where u should hav some savings or so,.. yet perhaps u didnt.. then.. of course girls would wanna get married. .espeically such long years been together... but he told me that he did not have any intentions to get married at all. somemore.. he specnd his money on items he's been wanting.. like a good slr camera.. from there onwards, i could really tell that he's the type of perosn who.. for dunn waht reasons, the thought of marriage never crossed his mind, and he really is focusing on other thigns. other than marriage. he would rather save up moineyh for a good camera, phone, trip to other places.. etc. but.... hm... =/ i dunno.. i realised by then, if i were his girl, i would feel really3 insecure. cos. .our future isnt secure at all. when would the future of them begins then? when she's turning 30? perhaps they haad a falling out due to that issued.. or what they think.. i dunno....
when i first know him, he told me they are having a cold war. think its due to the reason that he just finished his ns, and working partime. but his mum nor his gf understadn.. but still blame him that why not he find a decent job now. from the(gf) girl's point of view.. i could understadn perhaps.. like.. ok.. im think.. he should start saving up now. .for future blah3.... but from my views as from myself pauline., i understand. cos he just done with his ns. no one would really love to just hit into the workzone. ha.. thats the reason i say why we could clicked. we can agree on alot of thigns. however, that doesnt matter. im glad to have a frenship like that.
so yeah... =/ that could lead to alot of probs.. but its really upsetting =( to have yearsss of relationship to be on the rocks just like that.. especially when a couple have no different commons in future together.... ....
..wouldnt that be wasting each other's time? and... .. i dunno.. =/ a time worht of life is precious to a girl's life.. if u ask me., ,, so.. yeah.. i could understand how she feel.. but.. whatever the reason now is, i didnt ask him.. becos. yeah.. not nice. .we aint that super close anywya.. and.. o well....... =/ i could only guess what the prb is.. but i don think i could. becos we stil ldon know each other that well. somemore his gf.. me dunno nor ever met ever.

howveer, it would be really foolish and a waste thoguh.. to let this kind of hting happen.... becos she;s a pretty girl. im sure any guys would be more than happy to fill up his position as a bf for her at anytime.
its gonna be his lost.. but........... hm.. o well. i could say the same thing to him too. sometimes.. things are relaly far from our grasps... =/ we must really learn how to keep adn treasure the thigns or ppl we love to ourselves..
do not ever let one mistake u made, took over ur love ones, or hte thign su ever treasure or preciious in life.. =/ do not ever let that happen. .its a regret for life... =(

so, have u thought of whatever matters u need to do now? in order to keep it that way? to keep the thing u treasure most in ur love to stay forever ?

hm.. ok.. from now on, im trying from the moment im finshing in my movei with sammy.. hm... yea. .kinda. huuuuu =( gotta wait for an hour.... huu... hope movie could continue on ba.. aw.. it snice tonight to see swty laugh more.. =)
yea.. glad to see him laugh alot tonight=) midnight for him eh=)

sigh... i miss him................ i really hope to watch the whole movie with him by tonight... =/

sigh.. dunnoa hm............... yea............. i dunno... so whats the most importaant to u>? =/if u don learn how to cherish? what? why don u wanna giv eit up? =/what"?? u dint realised it? that u are goin goverboard as it is? as u supposewd to stop and think by now befoe its too late??? tell me. is it too lat efor a talk????????????

sigh... my fren's case.. = its very sad one.. =( i hope . everything is gonna be alrite between them..
so yeah... sigh................................................ =( some matters are so unpredictable.... eh...

hm.... o well.. =/ hm... ok.. guess my nose is better abit now/. so yea... oyea yay eh.. o well.............

hm.. k ba. .so.. er.. ok.... thats it. .i guess... movie's over... iso... yeah.. erm.. things ended.. so yea.... =/

mata

Glad to be home for a happy night with love one=)

lol/// me din know i added so muany ppl accidentally! XD till sammy said so. cos me list got alot of ppl add me. .so yea =/
gotta check my list.. and yea.. ha.. oops...

sam say it'll be really to talk to me whole day. =)

\so glad im back home. so glad he's home. so glad we;re home. and not somewhere else with our frens. =D really so happy. so nice. so important. so great. its beyond awesome =) ahhh ^^ naw.... ~^.^~

hm.. todya ne.. me getting mnore aggressive towars my colleague ba.. cos yeah.. i dunno.. howeverm, i try to remmreber sam's words as well... hm.. yeha.. u knw.. i gotta stand up for myself..

gosh.. o late alreayd O.O.. really didnt watch the time as i was chatting hapily with sam.. gosh..

yeha.. morning me wokey, alreyad forgotten what happened last night. i didnt try to rememebr it. so ya. good.

hm.. ok.. u kno whwat.. i gotta.slpXD no further bloggy.. i gtg. ha.

mata

Sad Date

crying profusely now.. ='((((((((((((((( sigh... so sad.........................................A
didnt get why even the most simplest thing to be done??????????

sobxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx why is this even this way.................. =((((((((((( i just wanna be happy............. =(((((((

but why am i even crying now???? am i doing something wrong???????? I wonder what is the fate saying... sigh............ =( lal i want is just to have a happy date.. how did thigns even turn out like this..................... =((((((((

i dunno what i shoud ldo now.. it sholdnt go on this way =( sigh.. its so sad............

todya.. dunno if im feeling unwell or not.. but yea. was resting... my bines all felt so tired. .i dunno... like.. i couldnt move.... ..anyway.. o well.. =(didn feel that great i guess.

watched movie wih sam... didnt hear abit of his voice at all. ha.. ow ell....... erm.. yea.. its supposed to be a comedy.. but.. this time.,...... it felt so different....... =/

i've been looking forward to watch this movie agian. .so ya.. o well

..sigh.. didn thave a proper date.. when was the last time i had one????/// =/

gosh.. im starving.. haven eat yet. .dunno. .mayeb i'll eat the meats only.. didnt haven any appetite.. yet feeling hungry... ..o well........ its ok right..... yea.. of course.. who am i kidding. not like i've neevrbeen through this befoe.. stomach wil hurt, hten it wil be all fine.. its the same..........

-I've gotta move on and be who i am-

i forgot. =( what happen today? oh? dunno.. i really hate to have rice fo rdienr now.. no appetite.. but todays lunch, i cooked, my mum love the soup, dad too. she kept it throughout the night, she addded the chicken in. wow.. but still, i hav no appeitite to eat =/

i didnt knw hwat happen. oh yes.. just the fact that im so tired.. slpy.. i didnt knw i was that slpY! and erm.. yea.. bones hurting...

my leader.. yea.. somehting isnt right.. but i don think its nice to ask her.. hm... cos yeah.. sh ebroke off with her 3 yrs /r bf.. so ya.. she also sam elike me.. didnt liek to heawr hte song called 'finally' .. bu dunn which singer.. she changed the song twice alreayd... i wonde rhwat happen.. =/ but yea.. i asked her befoer.. if had she not broken up., would sh e've come here.. she said no// bt yeah.. she came here becos its a good hting to get away from him(that matter).

one thig i kept learning.. never to harbour any hopes up high........... =(
sigh.. it'll only keep hitting u back.. back to the hole..... no on eis gonna pull u up, 'cept for urself..............

what else happen.. hm.. ow ell, todya basically just rest abit.. dunno why im sick=/ so yea.. sigh... whats making me sick> u think?

o.. get addicted to singins the songs from a walk to remember.. ha. o well..

now listenign to hsm 3.. gotta go my won way =/

oh, yea.. tmr night still can chat with sam abit ba... at least he hioe early, cna chat with me, rest more, and go out with family.. so ya.. o well...

trying to relaz.. tryig to keep everyhting in place.... i hope i can make it... u think so??

birthday.. dunno what should i do. kbox>? zoo? or what... no one seems tobe happy for me.. i dunno... i only seem to be the one planning for myself.. =/ its always been this way.. i dunno.. perhpas i had somthieng else before.. however, im glad.. at least im beter than some other families ba.. ow ell

sigh.. my heart relaly hurts so much=( i relaly.. im so sad. but.. ............ i duno what to do.. im sorry..

mata

My World With Him

hmm... finally that guy fren of mine.. is heading back to his country... till now me still doesnt understand how he feels. towards that girl he met during his holiday.

its like... i had frens.. telling me that.. his frens, singaporeans, bene cheated by angmoh guys alot. they are making use of htem.. blah3.. then those girls foolishluy fell in love easily with those angmoh guys. and he almost wanna bash them up.
then im thinking.. in his case,... =/how does he feel? we're nt close. .but.. becos now they are separated, it reminded me of sam and i.. so ya.. dunno they still together or not, however, as though.. its not that open yet.. both of htem seems to be single. .i dunno... but.. yeha.. for the girl to break up with her bf, and go for this angmoh guy, gosh.. whats the point?
i dunno.. im very curious... about love i guess. like. .i dunno whats my fren thinking about.. like.. weird... why and how did he shed tears if he wasnt serious with her? was it all an act?
not my business.. but.. yeah... i.. i just... wanna know.. like... could a guy actually have teears, and next day, or weeks later, get back to his own happy life again?
sigh... i dunno...
pity the girl.. used to dislike her cos she.. yeah. .typical.. dumped her bf, go for angmoh.. =.= then now.. i dunno..... i believe she realy like him.. but.. the guy ar... hmm..............
o well..........
im just wondering only.... .......could he forget everything in a matter of tiem? or would be be likehte girl who gave him everything, and cry her bawls out.. =/
sigh..

hey.. have u ever wondr?.. or puzzled at something.. like.. how did u get to know somehtieng u never learned? like. .especially thos ewhich requires u to learn in order to know abou tit.. but.. without learning, u knew it. why? how come? how did that happen? have u ever had the same thing liek this too?... weird.. i ahve alot of times. i jst.. ..didnt know how did i get to learn all those... a mystery eh.. ..

theres this couple.. customers from.. dunno where.. one balck, one blonde.. the lady,(whos black,) was so surprised we closed at 10pm! and tell her partner , or fren that we closes at 10! ha. .they looked sooo sxurprised..! she was like.. 10??? from 10 to 10?? everywhere??? hahaha.... i was like. yea... thats singapore^^! ha.. funny.. yea i know.. overseas teh shops closes early. .so early.. btu in sg, different.. thats why alot of tourist, very surprised. ha.

that time, my manager brought my boss to the tampiness mall have a look.. (location shop check out..) . then at first my boss was like. .nah.. how can theere be lots of ppl... then my manger brought him there, my... sorry2! i mean my ceo! XD he was like.. ''where did all these ppl come from?O.o'' ' he was so surprised that tampiness got so much ppl! hahahah...... he asked a very funny question indeed.. XD but yea... i wonder why he wasnt convinced in the first place, however, yea. .now that he knows.. indeed there's alot of ppl in tampiness mall! ha.

hm... good.. i;ve been a good girl.. ha. well, alot of things are so tempting lately.. os many nice thigns... but i told myself.. no.. don t buy them,... think of what im saving for.. plus, even though they look sooo pretty and tempting so nice to have them, no.. i cannot buy them. cos I HAVE NO USE FOR IT. so yeah.. thinking about that, me alreyad decided not to buy anything =) yay!!

me ar... hmm.. have done alot of 'alone' things... ha. i mean.. with just by mysefl... watchign movies alone. .go walk ard alone.. im used to it i guess... i even tried eating at a restaurant alone today!! XD lol.. so funny.. not funny.. but yea... haha... eating alone... hmm.. ok ba.. me grown up alreyad.. but to my frens, they'll find me so poor thing, and yea.. so weird. .to even watch movie alone. . but.. well, what to do.. ha.. im ok with it.. abit lonely.. but its alrite. .abit nice ba.. me can shop fast2.. take my time.. ha.. o well.. my world is with sammy mah.. so yeah.. the rest doesnt matter..

hmm.... =.=... weird.. felt as though something hasnt been said here.. o well, dunno ba

anyway, im glad swty say he should be able to pass his exam.. yeha.. i hope he can. .hope his hardwork pays off...

me soooo relieves tmr my off!!! cheers!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D so glad. .yeah.. finally can have a good rest.. so many things to do.. dunno what to do firts ne.. cook? hmm.. maybe i should. .shall see how. =D so gald day is over.. though i stayed back for abit at work todya.. but yea...

hm.. k then... perhasp shall stop her enow then..

mata!! yay off!!!

Futures

hmm.. wow.. my new mouse is great... to think my manager was saying its gonna be a slow type. .ask me change for the better expensive one.. but yeah.. turns out really well =) im glad. hehe.
yeah.. the expensive one i'll leave it till next time.. i really wanna save properly ya..
all i need is a proper gd enough item. no need branded or anythig.

morning he was asking me when can i go see him again.. for h9oliday there.. i say he told me to go on july.. then he say ok. i was like.. ha.. i was hoping he would say.. 'no.. actually in feb u can come'. XD o well. baka desu . ha..
o well.. .certain thigns couldnt be forced...

yay.. me cant wait for tmr to be ended... =) finally can off... huu.. i think i need new working shoes.. my feet hurts.. =/ everyday. cos shoe abit too tight somemore with my socks on =/ sigh

hm.. was telling sam.. that maybe the most i could go se ehim is stay for 10 days... money alreyad difficult to save.. but... yeah.. me still got work on hand... somemore i guess the only time i could visit him is limited too. either his summer holiday, or july.
hm.. ... so yeah....
of course sad too.. once a year, see him for one week.. so poor thing right.. =/ but what to do.. if company doesnt allow, i also cant do anything much. haiz. unless they have enough man power.. but.. they are opening more shops soon.. wonder.. if.. ... hm.. o well. future matters, all i hope for is the best, and ging smoothly.. the others, well, i could not tell whats gonna happen.. =/

today tehres 2 girls.. erm.. maybe ard 20 yrs old or under? anyway.. they were talking.. then i overheard one of the girl say wanna ask her mummy to buy her a chanel bag and iphone for... dunno what what occassion. but i was like.... if she's my girl, i'll tell her daddy and mummy are rich. but you're not. so go start earning ur own penny!
gosh... i wish my future children wouldnt turn out that way! pfft. seriously man.. argh... go earn their own.. geez.....

anyway, hm.. today ne.. my manager angry with my manager aka team leader. gosh.. his face so black.. but turn out to be ok later on.. but yeah.. he say he dont allow his staff to tlak to him so rudely like that... =/ i dunno what happen.. but... ..haiz.. dunno la..
not my prob eh..
=/

closing time, my manager say he wanna train me to become a store manager. gasps... i dunno what to say. but whatever the case is, i wanna continue doing what im doing, don wan say.. suddenly work super hard all for hte sake of his words.. i mena.. just be normal. .as myself.. do what i got to do.. whatever happen, happens. and well, the manager post.. have or don have, so be it.. me dun wnan have any big disappointments.. so yeah.. will take things easy, and naturally.. so yeha. .but greta news nonetheless..


so late alreyad.. me gonna slp soon. counting down to my off day ^^ yay...
aw... i really hope sammy will be alrite for tmr.. .=/ he still gotta send his mum to work.. haiz.. .=/ even though he got exam=/ i think he should rest moer mah.. till exam start. .then revise abit.. but.. yeha.. ow ell.. guess there must be some reasons ba.. soemmore ppl lliving there gotta be send here and there.. cos u cant go work without a car. form what i know, in australia, sydeny got the worst traffic jam or traffic whatever. yeah. hte worst.
o well.. what to do..
for now me don have to fret about that. in future perhaps ba. ha

hm.. .slpy...
ah.. hope will rain.. feeling so cold! just now it looks like its gonna rain ne.. hm..

...me htinking.. jhave i miss out on something else?.. hm....

oh yes... u know.. i think its greaat.. when a woman or man thought about marriage, it means that they have only one person in their heart.., and they are willing to settle down with them.. they are sure there is one person only for them. and they are so not interested in other opposite sex. which is grea.t. u are sure of who u want.. and.. yeah.. im proud of that. =)

hm.. i was tkaing a shower.. then.. saw myself in mirror..... then.... dunno.. doesn tlook like me. O.o
i duno.. i look like as htough i've lost weight.. but.. hm.. duno how to explain ne...
look so.. hm.. sexy. O.o'' dots.... i know. .weird. -_- but yeah.. dunno why ne.. maybe ever girl in bathroom look sexy while showering. lol. yeah

hm...
last night. .before slp, lookey thorugh my phone.. then... aw... sobx2..
missing sammy's smiles.. thinking about it.. then yea... huuu.,.. T_T
oh, then in the morning, he told me that he was looking thorugh my pics.. hten suddenly lookey at my wrist. .and recalled how it felt to him when he hold my wrist. aww...
i think its the pic from sydney trip.. hm.. ha. dunno.. anyway, yeah... me also. . always recalled how we used to laugh, smile, eat together, everything together.. he's wearing his slping clothes.. slpt on top of me. . so comfortable. .so family... yeah.. so ncie being together...
he is my family.

..bah.. o well.. one year to go.. hang on lots. .thats all i could say.... im looking forward to next year.. i really do... next year....
....................
oh yeah.. 2011. lol. .for a sec there, i thought its 2012 XD ! no i don wan sia.. watever u guys might think aboiut the world ending matter, i dun care. .alryead told myself.. don bother too much.. just enjoy my life till then. after we passed that dec 21 in the year 2012, then i can start thinking more of my future.
so yeah.. thats it. ha. not a stupid k... i just don wanna.. u know..plan this and that... in the end never enjoy my life, then i die. gosh... dun wan sia...

gosh.. slpy2... dun need to say somehting else or not.. hm.. k, jaa gtg!

mata!

Finally can slp well

i am soooo tired!!! soooo sleepy!!! finally tmr can slp late abit. abit better than nothing. work was slow and slpy=/ not so fun.. hm.. meeting.. gosh.. im so tired to type.. ha

try my best ba.. hm... well, the meal was awesome. i ate alot. ha. for beakfast. then never eat till just now only XD was so hungry.
erm, so ... me meeting my boss was sooo nerve wrecking!! omg. my heart beat so fast, im shaking abit.. gosh!!! then she was asking each one of us whats our fav items, and any new product ideas to share? i gave alot. lol.. gave so much till my manager called my name! and say i got so much ideas.. as in menaing time fo rme to stop XD not in a bad way k.
anyway yea.. glad that i provided her alot of ideas=) she should be arrving in sweden later on.. aw.. so nice to h ave holiday ne.. ha.. even boss also on holiday... until july 5. so short right=/ but o well...
morning she said she was really tired cos before she left, she have alot ot fhitngs to do and settle. gosh, busy woman eh. yet a good mum,and with a great husband ^^ nawww lucky desu=3

hm.. was angry at my manger. .for telling me a lie. for the 2nd time! gosh.. i camnt stand it.
if such a troublesome matter, dont wanna do, then tell ppl lies abotu it, thats so unprofessional. isnt it? =/ like. .what manager is that. he's ok. only this part relaly cannot sia. =/ sigh.. sabrina2.. the professional one.. wish u are back in the shop.. haiz..

wow.. feels like its late already.. but nope. .its only 11plus. ha. bro not gonna be home tonght.. hmm

geez.. i cnat wait for my off day!!!!

hm.. dunno what else to type.. tired alreayd.. k.. will stop here ba.. hm. .tmr .. another busy day.. theres things to do and learn. haiz...

mata

gamabte girl..

Working Non Stop

sooo tired. i cant believe this!!! again!!! cos of the same person, i kena stay back! fullshit!! sigh.. why always happen to me =( so sianx.. im slpy enough already somemore,. haiz.... anyway, not say a very nice day. time passes so slow. me go out of shop by 10.45pm. sigh.. late right. i know =/

today i think a man whistle at me when i waslked past him to the front. omg. wanna smack him sia. oh, closing, got prob again =/ money excess la, what3.. gosh.. so irritating. soemmore 2 of us closing only. haiz. so extra take time.

sigh.. father's day me and bro not at home.. =/ i hope he's ok with it.. o wel.... ...haiz.

hm.. i got a feeling im gonna get transferred outta this shop now! i mena the place im awroking at now. omg. cos my manager keep saying want me learn more.. then when they 'throw me aside'', i wont panicked, and will know what to do. so let me learn now better than later. gosh.. so far.. me dunno ne... but its a good chance to perform myself isnt it.. hm.. anyway, i;ll see how. future matter we doesnt know yet eh.

gosh. couldnt believe this. when my manager say see me later in few hours time, i ponder for a sec, look at my watch, then was like.. huu... T_T can u imagine? in about 7hours time, i'll be back at the same place working again.. ok. its breakfast for awhile first. then work. but yeah. so fast! liike my day just picked up from there. like. .me stucked there for 13 hours today.. gosh..... o well.. hang on ba.. huu.. htink my shoes abit small... =/ my toes hurting now... huuu so uncomfy =/

ok.. 3 days to go.. i want my off!!!

wow. .gona meet my boss soon.. omg... gdluck to me!!

o well.. time is running.. and rushing.. at least i get to chat with sam for abit.
miss him. sigh... like no time ne.. =/. o well.. gota wait till i off then se ehow ba.. =/

k.. me gotta go slp before my hair dries.. o well

hm.. thats it ba

mata

Saving Up!

frankly speaking, i gotta admit.. i was happy to hear that my childhood fren got herself a bf. but at the same time, i find myself feeling very envy.. or is that called jealous? becos her bf is in sg... while mine... u know.. so ya.. but anyway not like im meeting her alot... s ya.. dun wanna see her with bf togetherXD lol

me slpy now... =.=

hmm
oh.. managed ot stop myself from going to a big sales on mango shop. haha. so proud of myself desu^^XD wanna save money mah..
so yeah.. glad i didnt spend mcuh today. only on food. yummm
k.. this month.. just save3 ba

hm.... news show the T3 magazine editor or dunno who, say something about iphone.. then say about wait till 4G phones out.. blah3... as though saying it will soon be 4G phones market soon. gosh.. i dun wanna sign plan, then get hte phone, then htc 4G phone come out, and i regret sia!! O.o


o well.. hope nothingof that happen ba.. me just dun wan end up like redz... wanna change phone, also cannot. haiz. ha. o well..

see how ba.. me use them as targets, just trying to save my money for now. iphones coming out on june 24. will see how the comments go ba.. hm.. the video chat is one of the wow part of the phone.. was wondeinrg.. if cannot use it with sam cos its expensive, then... .its like wasted liao.. nothing much special abou tit.but o well, we shall see how thing sgo over the next couple of months ne.

gosh.. gonna be so slpy tmr

oh, found out from my fren that our schedule is so unfair from that of our managers. =/
they sooo many morning shifts! o well...
dunno ba... sianz.. our ex manager also never like that before.. today another staff say she fele ike abit slacking than before now. cos sabrian used to remind her to greet custoemrs and stuff.. but hte new managers none of them did that, =/ sigh.. sabrina.................
yeah.. even she also misses her alot.. sayig she's very dedicated with her work and stuff..
oh, she just used skype with kris. her fiance whos now in sg. haha.. her place in new zealand is raining and cold. XD poor thing. she say she really misses sg weatehr alot!! =D XD haha... aw

o well, hope she'll be back.. and.. yeah.. somehow i hope could have a gathering dinenr with her or sumtin. i dunno. up to the staffs ba. so sad sia.. when september she's going off again with kris.. hten dunno when is she gonna be back this time..=/ awwww

gosh.. meeting boss day is coming soon!! haha. how nervous or exciting it can get.. XD for me. cos she's like an idol. lol
o well

kk, me gtg.. cant wait for tmr to end!

mata!

FLying Time

awwww...... gosh.. such a huge turn on O.O.. hahaha..... =) blushes* ^^ im so happy i know sam went to lalalnd with a huge smile on his face, feeling so happy. yes im so sure of it. cos i am too. =)
gosh.. so happy....

me hope can rest well.. tmr wakey.. then yea...

wow... u know.. its so wow.. shocking.... my bro and i couldnt believe it.. redz reminded us that june 25 will be the first whole year anniversary that michael jackson died. wow. it felt as though 3,5months ago... but already a year!! i cant believe this... its a year... its sooooo fast.... O.o... wow.. i felt as though we've been through to time machine...

sammy left on 25 july.. it felt long though..=/ cos.... yeah... naturally.. cos im thinking and missing him everyday.. but then again, kinda fast eh.. almost a year we are having ldr.. and think of this... soon we';re gonna be together for 2 years and 6months. wow. =)

uh huh... going strong..
which relationship is smooth as forever? none right.. but with each obstacles overcome, things will improved.. more closeness you'll feel.. working together as soulmates..

I send him a very long email..XD yes very long.. duno how i type so long also.. but yeah.. doing my best to let him know how i feel, what my thoughts are.. thigns a bf should know from a gf point of view.s ..etc.. kinda like that..
and im glad he like it alot. yay...

gosh, so late alreyad.. me must make use of this chance to slp .. good thig tmr aftnoon shift.

kk, me gonna offline now. slp time!! hm.. htink i missed out on typing things.. hmm..

anyway, yeah.. just wanna say, im happy as long as he rememebrers me, have me in his heart, love me, and he's happy... then yeah... =)

mata

Loving each other no matter what

aww.. sam went to bed already...

me today only had one meal.. but then brought some food back home.. so me eat again.. full..
hm.. meeting.. ok ba. .me very slpy.. cos never slp at all..

whats past is past.. i dun wanna talk about it ba.. all i know and sure is, i love sammy alot.. and he feels the same.. and thats all it matters.. sometimes when u care too much about someone, something might happen.. but yeah.. learn mistakes, find solutions, and just get over it iguess.. .. as long as by the end of the day, he still love me..

so yea.. tmr all the best to him.. i mean later on... really hoping all the best for his exam.. he worked hard.. and i hope it pays off... so yeah.. whatver the results is, im still very prooud of him .=)

hm.. so. .yeah.. me very slpy and tire.. but just now play the wii tennies.. omg.. arms sure gonna hurt alot by tmr=/ o well.. bear for 6 days ba.

its nice to know.. that sam is on holiday now.. becos menaning when i get back home, he's there.. and he doesnt have to rush early to slp that often.. though.. he might still have to watch football.. so ya

give and take... hm...

u know.. its knida sad.. when he said hcos were a[art, he didnt knw what im thinking... it hurts abit.. but... cant blame him... but. yeah.. i thought.. he should be the one to understand me the most... so yeah...

anywya, hmm... im just letting things take its natural course now.. cant force anything... if antyhing unhappy about, either talk about it, or srugh it off. its better this way.. cos even if wanna talk, its aint face to face nor voices are there. .so.. its really difficult to communicate properly whenever theres important matter to discussed.. so yeah.. i understand that.. and.. will do my best to see what kind of solutions will suits best for the situations. .whatever can be hold back, just hol dit..

and.. was kinda shocked he uses the stubborn word on me again... sad.. but... o well. .cant blame him huh.. not like he's here.. and know what im doing.. how i;ve changed and stuff... i dunno..

dun wanna think of these now ba..

glad i get to hear his loving happy comfy voice beside he went to bed. but a poty my credit ran out.. haiyo.. however,. yeah... no matter what happen, all i wanna hear by the end of the day is the voice like his.. happy and comfy..
last night.. didnt get to hear it.. but.. yeah.. let it bypass eh..

so wish to see him.. i have lots of faith and hopes in him.. he's my man...
one year.. will pass quickyly eh.... ... huu

gos.. mish him so much now=(

k.. i'd beter dry my hair fast, and head to bed. i need plenty of rest! only had about less than 3 hours of rest when i came back from meeting.. so tired.. body gonna collaspe..

hm.. so yeah..
i pray.. this kind of thing wont happen again.. if i didnt get to slp whole day, i rather it be becos we're watching movie online together or chatting or sumtin..

yea.. someitmes its difficult.. cos all u see are words... thats why i say.. i really love it when he's on teh bed, then we get to concentrate on each other.. then we talk abou tlots of stuffs... its quite easy actually.. and talking about past.. future.. now.. and hear each others laughters.. before he slp is the best time to chat i think. cos he;s concentrating only on me...and nothing else.. =)

yeah.. o wel.. lets just hope the free skype for iphone could help us... but think might have to pay for the credits or dunno what.. hm.. wonde rif theres a free calling.. howver , at least theres the cheapest skype availabl;e. still go tmsn, and msging.. apps. but i think msg is better than msn in iphone.. msn.. someitme.s. o well.. u know.... =/

kk.. hm.. think i'd better stop here now..glad tmr mrg.. cant wait to get back home and see sam.. i mena chat. yup..cant wait..
hm.. dunno when will our movei date be.. =. my borthday ar.. so long ne.. o well

mata!

Pour In Somemore!

o well...=/

just blog roughly ba. .erm.. morning.. raining.. heavily.. didnt expect that'll causes a flood in town.
very weird.. the last it happened somewhere else is in 1984. o well.
anyway. its funny. at first i didnt take note of that. my fren was saying.. 'y is there a flood at orchard.. now i cant even get chocos from watson.' i thought menaing its flooded with ppl. as i din tka enote of hte word FLOOD> i took it as flooded with ppl kinda meaning.
then sam asked later on.. town got flood ar.. i was like.. oh, maybe his fb frens are tlaking about how crowded it is.. so i replied lucky me not working today. cos if theres lots of crowds, meaning shop ve very busy. so ya.. haha.. then he showed me the link to the pics.. and i was like.. o....k......... lol. so its a flood they were tlaking abt!XD all these while i never really thought much abt what flood.. ust naturally took it as humans crowds... haha.. flooded with ppl.. geez.. anywya, its the tlak of the town right now.
big news.but with sg kinda way, its gonna be back to normal in no time. i do not worry abt this at all. ppl are kinda happy and amused i think. ha. cos so rare this big news happened.

oh, its colddd.... haha. its nice. but i still on my fan. ha. open up the door, stand outside, if added with more wind blowing in, it'll be the excat kind of cold while i was in sydney. everywhere u go, once the wind blows, ha.. freezing.

i dun mind once in a while like this. its really nice. just nice the coldness it is... ah..

hm.. so.. my day.. mrg wakey to cold.. wakey so early. .tummy ache.. then couldnt slp no more.. online, sammy then just offline. sianz. ha. o well.. .then.. do my stuff.. then eat.. wanted to take a nap.. but thought.. wait what if sam online. .then i got no time to do my nails and stuff.. so decided to bath, then do nails.. for so long .. ha. good relaxing i guess. so ya.. then sam online jst when i was about done.
then... ya.. continue doing abit more.. then hungry.. then eat.. then online and stuff.. then while waiting for sam, me go do my remmaining stuff i was supposed to do long2 time ago. ha.

phew.. finally done.. just a couple more tasks to go.. which.. either tmr, or when im super free again.

not such a bad day i guess...
hm.. tmr meeting.. kinda looking forward to it, but kinda not too. o well.
ha.. so early.. seems like me gonna wakey early again eh

haiz.. stil lthinking abt the weekend of.f. only one.. =/ ...think3.. o well.. decided to put this off ba.. at least sam off for one month.. i mena july. so. .yeah.. my off stil lcan spend withhim.. but.. me gotta work all month in 5 or 6 full.. whcih is very.. ha.. o well.. sianz. if next month theres anything else, then i'll voice out ba. o well.. always giv me so many shifts stuck togethr.. 2 straight off is good.. but.. ..o well.. tiring ar.. =/

hm... k.. next month.. me tell myself gona start saving up.. gosh.. dunno ba. .mayeb stress lots or sumtin.. anyway, ya.. gonna watch what im spending on nw.. wish me kluck.. i hope to save for phone first.. then tickets.. since trip is so long way to go. so ya. .i cant stand my phone alreayd.. somemore no space alrady=/ sigh.

i need memory space!! gosh... been taking too much pics.ha. o well

hm. .been long since i have an off day like thsi ne.. .. not say perfect.. almost.. but not.. yet its still kinda nice. hm.. ... o well.... not so nice at ngiht.. but still... ya.. better than nothing..

o well.. after tmr, back to 6 shifts.. haiz. .hang on3......

sianz.. at the htought of 6 shifts.. o well...

was so nice to hear him say.. darling.. he going to bath.. how swt that word darling is.
after that everything changed.
thought i wouldnt cry today.. but i still did. o well..

i wonder.. up till now, does my way of doing thngs.. still couldnt be understood?.. even through times of reminding..and.. o well, i guess.. as the situation seems,. i relaly didnt make much of any impression.. at least not a deep one for sure...

oh, recorded 2 videos for sam. but one of them coldnt be send. th eother one..can.. but didnt send. cos.. those 2 are kinda linked together.. so ya..

hm... k ba... dun wanna talk alreyad... oh.. 21st seems to be near. .very fast it'll arrive.. so nice ne.. going back to her hometown...... sweden........ with her family... gosh.. when will i have that kind of relaxing days again.. oh.. maybe in a year's time. but definitely wont be for long. huu.. no money mah

i remembered meeting weeks ago, it was good.. i was enjoying it.. hopefully tmr also ba.. just everyhing goes well.. and im feeling happy. i hope i am.

k.. perhaps shall slp soon...

mata ne

Very Cute and Funny Girl

leggie tired... ha. .o well.. finally off.. was hungry.. thought of eating.. but then too late now.. so ya.. o well... nvm ba.. i think et some slp is better ba. hm... craving for soup noodles now.. haha.. o well

erm.. ok.. so.. today i found out htat sabrina when describing about us to the new partimer, she refer me as 'pauline is very cute and funny'. XD lol.. i was like.. awww.... thats so sweet! she actually said that! but. i have no idea what had i done to make her hink im funny XD> i have no clues at all! cos usually i don dare to joke with her much.. as yea.. she's a pro manager.. so.. everything is abou twork..most of hte time. so.. yea. didnt get how she find me funny. XD but thats a good thing eh.

july schedule.. gosh.. gonna be either 5 shifts straight in a row, or 6. glups... and only one wkend off=/ o well... thought of telling my manager to change..hen like. .hm.. not nice ba.. last month i also voice out laio.. then.. yea.. anyway july sammy wkdays will be at home too.. thst why i never voice out ba.
plus.. its kinda nice to have 2 straight offs. only hard to bear part is the 5 or 6 straight shifts.. ha. o well..
tmr.. so gonna make use of my day to rest.. but couldnt slp too late i guess. cos have a meeting. o well.
everyone is attending the meeting for he first time. ha. cos have free drinks mah. starbucks! today was craving for it. but didnt buy. cos expensive. alreyad spend so much on a plate of nasi padang =/ cos didnt feel like walking all hte way to outside and eat.long story ba.

anyway, kinda looking forward to the meeting.. hm.. ...
o well... lets jus concentrate on tmr ba. may i have a nice enjoyable day tmr. yay. cheers. gonna do my nails tmr^^ hehe. hope will have ime for it. so much things i left undone yet. geez.

kk, will be ne.

hm.. certain thing si never ask.. but.. hopefully the other party..wont get the wrong idea that i do not care ba..

mata ne!

Fruitful Trip

finally! tmr aftnoon shift, so i could replenish my neergy. haha.

hm... somehow i htink im supposed to blog abt something.. =/ but.. as my memory is failing me,(kinda) i couldnt remember ne... haiyo.... o well.....

hm.. today.. slpy as usual.. but good thing i got htings to do.. os yup.. kept me awake for abit.. hm..
breaktime me slp for half an hour also...

thats about it ba.. ha. boring day. but alrite. hm.. schedule. wonder if its gonna be out by tmr.. cant wait to see it.. at the same time, wondering how it would turn out.. ha. o well..

hm.. interesting way eh.. catching world cup thorugh internet led by sammy. ha.. tlaking with him while he watches.. =P

u know, he's right. i feel comfortable about doing anything with him. he's my other half. when i visited him in sydney, alot changed. good changes. i realized.. i didnt know i could be so comfortable and whats that call.. hm... like.. i dunno.. ha. it feels just so right ba.. to do anythig in front of him. which i never imagien i could! nice surprise. down moments.. hm.. thought he changed abit. .cos we're having cold shoulders=/ i seriously thought he'd changed, and doesnt lov eme that much anymore. ha.. i know.. baka ne..
but also learned the ways to compromise.. to love.. msut communicate well.. a trip back, it seems as though i know him for yearsssssssssssssss..... serious. like theres this book, about love queztions.. i read it before i went there. and i wasnt so sure about the answers.. but after i got back, i read it again, and the questions (about one's partner) seem so easy like 123 to me. O.o i was like.. o..k... how did i suddenly feel so confident. lol. XD hard to explain ba. but yeah... im so glad i made the worthful fruitful trip. only regret is i blame myself i didnt take enough pics with him, and i loses my cool soemtiems. yeah.. and things were kinda rush.. and we were exhausted.. so.. next time me go there, gonna make sure everything is all good. slowly we shall go.. no rushing anywhere.. just walking slowly with him even to supermarket, or malls, will do great. cos i m with him, that time so rush.. i think htats becos i;ve never been to anywhere beside sg. somemore i presume i would never get a chance to go there again.. so i didnnt wanna have any regrets of not going to somewhere. well, now i know.. theres still chance.. but. its a very3 very longggg chance to come by.. uh huh..=/ thats really the downside man... o well.. what to do.. mmoney is difficult to save=/

o well.. .... as much as i would like to head there soon, i know tiem and my finance wont allow to make things go fast.. somemore gottta wait till he's on holiday .
for now, just kinda force.. u know.. step back.. even if i dont wish to.. but gotta...
just step back.. save money for phone.. then a cam.. a normal cam would do. cos iphone cam sux!! XD erm.. yeah.. then next should be the trip .. that is, if really july he got nothing on..and he really have a month of holiday again. on the same month. ha. so yup.

gosh.. me got nothing els eto do on net now.. hm.. maybe will read mag.. or go sit down.. rest my leg.... uh huh..

hmm... =/ wondering ne.. what else to say.. i thoguht htere should be somethng to say here.. .hmm... -_-... couldnt rememebr.. ha. o well. =P

aw.. so wish i off on sun.. so sat night could stay up and watch football with sam.. its great... but sigh.. i was working.. =/

mata!

Off, where are thou!

aw.. sam say im funny. and i make him laugh. that meant soo much to me. i didnt know that.. but yea.. =) its great to hear him say that. ^^ i wonder how i make him laugh.. how im funny to him.. ha. sometimes me blur2, could make him laugh. aw=P

oh, ha.. he;'s waking up in abit.. o well.. wonder if im gonna be slping by then.

was so slpy just now.. while waiting for sammy;s reply, me reading through some apps.. then fell aslp!! then wanna slp, but scared the night would be over.. i knew i musnt slp yet.. then wakey.. bro is back. .sam haven reply.. me getting grouchy.. ha. cos just wokey mah.. then feel so irritated kinda.. ..
then.. yea. .wakey.. watch tv abit.. bro then play dvd.. and soon i felt better...

of course. stll feelnig slpy. i cant wait to slp. tmr mrg shift again.

my poor finger.. knock onto the wooden shelf.. blood gushes out.. small cut but deep.. a tiny bit piece of skin been sliced off.. ha. my colleague was like.. gonna faint. lol. then apply med for me.. andplaster. good thing have plaster. oh.. =. forgot to tell sam about this customer.

ha. erm.. middle age man i think. after payment, suddenly ask me if my pendant is a bear. i say no.. its wombat. then he ask if i've been to australia.. i say yes.. and i like wombats. ha. .then he still stand there. i straight away say, ok, hope to see you again in our shop soon.! then i say bye. lol. otherwise im thinking if he's ever gonna leave. =.= he's not from usa.. sounded as though from france or.. dunno.. that kind of accent.. english not that good.. but he;s holding a sg blue nets card.. so i presume he's living here as well like many others before him.

its really nice when u hear that those customers from afar(excluding china, philippine,india,malaysia..) like our country so much. its an honour. cos they are from palces where theres high towers, mountains,.. blah3.. yet they love it here. so yea its relaly great. always glad to hear they love it here =)
its still kinda.. abit.. i dunno.. weird.. how sg is so different now? from all these foreigners coming in.. its like.. nice.. but yet. .ha. .so.. erm.. refreshingly weird? XD now we have all sorts of ppl in sg.. from all over the world. yea... erm.. black ppl rarely see them live here.. but yeah. thata about it. ha .but we do haveblack customers. they are cool. some are very frenly. while others, look totally so stuck up. -_-

hm. k enuff about htat.. waht else.. .gosh.. i gotta plan my time eh.. oh!!! on the 21st, im gonna have breakfast with kristina and paul and axel!! gosh.. im gonna be soo onervous to see her. im happy of c ourse. cos its like.. wow.. i finally get to see this super wonder woman. =) awesome. so wan her autograph.lol

nah.. o well.. .o.. cant wait for wed. .huu.. tehn... gonanbe another 6 shifts again=/ haiz... tired.

oh, oh no... it turns out that sam is free on my b;day. =/ sigh.. tch.. o well.. i just send an email to my manager.. ..i hope she will receive it.. and could make some changes to it.. abit troublesome ba.. not ncie.. but.. o well... just do it ba..
hm.. hope can change ne.. movie on my b;day.. duno hows it gonan be.. maybe will decorate my house first? lol.. XD then.. watch early movie.. then night can eat cake , sing b;day song with family ba... o well..

so sad huh.. if only i have enough money.. then july.. cna go see sam liao.. bt then again, my leaves isnt 2weeks as i just started. o well. dunno how to count ba. ha

mata ne

What Days?

sianz... =.= now then the internet back to normal.. .haiz... so slow since ytd!!

anyway.. today.. =( bad day ba.. o well.. dunno how to tlak about it..

was good.. wakey.. then.. chat.. then sammy ask about should get a pet or child first.. when i ask about names..hen found out he's going for dinner.. then my dad wanna go out..
then.. me doesnt feel like going out.. cos was thnking if swty didnt have to study so much today, wanna watch shrek with him.. then.. since everyone is going ou. .so i no choice. .i go along too.. otherwise will be all alone at home. sigh.. worse. .so me go out.. bene pulling a long face. .somehow the aftnoon passes so superfast... .. and when we're heading home, i realized its alreayd 7pm.. so fast.. a lil wasted i felt...

then got home.. still aint feeling any much better.. then saw sam's words in fb.. lets see.. don have to tell someone, oh who is btw, me, don have to tell anything, just type in fb and i can see. its alreayd hurtful enough for somebody to tell u once. and for the 2nd time round, ...ha.. u tell me.
=/
so.. o well.. he just read my msg in a different way.. and presuming im doing the same as him.. so.. yeah.. o well.. apparently i didnt. cos i dislike the way u found out somehting in fb. rather than the person to tell u. its not that big a deal, till when the matter is something important u think the person should share it, or tell u in person. personally that is.
am i wrong.

ha.. headache now..
..i think.. overall, i think im just having the most sensitive moment of the month.. i feel so neglected. very. but i understand.. this is all part ofthe process crucial exam period..so on..etc.. ya.. so ..anyway.. sam sounds kinda.. i dunno.. in tip top condition i guess. only after the misunderstanding part then.. =/ o well.. don wan him feel bad.. but. . ha.. o well, words kill.

..its a bad sat. sat supposed to be an enjoyable one. but.. o well....

..lets just wait till july is here, then we shall see.

oh, though of applying for leave during my birthday month. but.. sigh............................ =( dunno ar.. the manager ask me instead about my ot hours. i was like. .wth???? i dunn even know if i have any leaves, or whatever shoot.
forget it... sometimes things liek that i cant be bother. abit only anyway.. .just get it next year ba =(

sigh............... so freak up day eh.

ytd.. today.. i dunno.. i forgot my days.

sigh. .so full now. i dunno wanna slp anot. i cant slp.. im too full. drink alot, eat alot. gosh.. =/ nvm ba. .enjoy my sat abit more. .then go slp.. see how.
tmr mrg shift.. o well.

k ba. couldnt think of anything nice to type. oh wait. yeah. .the mrg part tlaking about the child and pet. thats a nice question. uh huh..

k.. me go watch bro play game. get out of my room ba.. =/

mata

Worldcup!!

ok. haven blog. was online searching stuffs. no time to do so. was too late. erm.. .so.. .ok... what happened ytd? gosh.. my memmroy aint that good. ha. .i think something happened.. i dunno

oh, i had dreams.. about sam i think. then today, i had weird dreams O.o like im in a movie. cept' that im a bad lady. lol.

oh yes.. football i guess? was just telling sam abou tthe 4years ago kinda hting.. gosh.. i like zidane soso much.. was so upset he kena outta hte field in that way. =/ boy if i find out the name who did that to him... =.= grrr.... anyway, sigh.. its very upsetting. he's a great man. much better than .. nah. forget it.
well, even though he retired alreayd, he played his last. sorry to end up that way, but ya . =(
that means alot to me.. i know.. been so long ago.. but yea.. its means so much. somemore he's a man i respected alot. do not know much about him. but kinda do. but ya... glad he's back home enjoying his days with his beautiful family. lovely wife and children. (unlike those disgusted football players who keep having flings outside=.=)
gosh.. still, i miss him for the worldcup man!!
so yup.. still feeling upset for him =/ weird ne. lol. but i guess, well, there isnt alot of ppl i respect in this world. so ya... erm i mena respect.. as in in a very.. really someone who deserves the respect form me. like. .what they done.. and stuff. ha. o well
hm.. and i didnt realized that till i come across sabrina, and kristina.. i mena.. yeah... i guess i respected about.. 5 or so.. ppl in my life. thast all? hahahaha... o well. anwyay, yup. i like that. meaning i hold htem highly in respect. so.. thast a good thing eh.

hm.....

i dunno.. what else... nothing much.. working was alrite. .quite cheery.. ont so bored. so thast good.
hm...

o well.. shall keep track of the football eh.

oh, gosh.. i cant waiwt to watch shrek again. lol. so gonna watch it again man.
ah.. watign for the dvd too. hahaha...

k, gonna settle my stuff. then check them out.

oh, i shall see if tonight there's anything to blog about. ;)

mata

Only with true love

inside my soul sometimes feel so weird. .as though.. theres a monster wanna be released out... i dnno.. just so violent... so scary.. as though.. scared something might triggered it in future to be out.. its a very weird.. very.. kind of anger.. feeling.. i dunno.... ..o well..

today.. bro and redz went out. .dunno go where..
me.. at home. .whole day.. only about one hour;s time or so, was out at ntuc outside with paraents. other than that, dinner time, sat in living room and eat.. while the rest of my tiem spend siting in front of lappy. yeha... more than 10 hours in front of my laptop.
o well.

oday.. very3 boring day... =/ just online.. watch funny but anazing videos.. watch and watch.. keep watching.. youtubes..

erm.. read abit abou thte iphone adn htc.. though no zoom in, but the front cam is abit tempting. .cos its 5mega.. still, i wanna get a camera.. so.. i dunno whats my choice for nw.. erm.. ...jst waiting for the new phoens both of htem to be out, then decide. iphone can save alot of trouble. but a pity im the type of person who doesnt liek to follow the trend =.= sorry. im not liek other ppl .so ya.
o well...

hmm... duno ba. today actually thoght of going ot.. but never.. =/ its relaly total boredom for me. i've been sitting and online like forever . =/

my hands so hot on the laptop.. sigh..

tch.. dunno ba.. someitmes dunno what to do...

its sooo frustrating... =/ sigh.. its always the same thing

im bored

=/

i think pms ba

otherwise wouldnt be crying hard these couple of days.

feel like argh

=(

forogt what to say again.. =/ o well.

sigh.. only me haven slp=/ bro not coming back. .sigh... ...

place relaly is different without redz and bro ard=(
i hated that

sigh..

..i cant do anythig

except to look forward to next year. . hope still cna save enuff for trip to sydney

dunno if anything will happen anot.. then last min sam say cannot go see him again.... *touch wood

anywy.. yeha

so.. if say.. pay for my phone bill.. plus net bill. plus house..

sigh

i try to keep myself away from stress

if tmr got time, me will make sandwich peanut butter again

hoep will have time to make ba

oh wow.. bro and redz just got back.. oh. .they went ikea.. ... never ask me =( .. maybe they know i gotta stay home ba.. o well.... ......leftout abit. .but yeah.. its ok... anyway i wont go i think..

nah, erm.. where am i .. oh... yeah.. hope to save money on eating breads ba.. nothing to do.. just shop.. not good=( sigh.. trying to stop.

but nvm.. b;day comign.. just reward myself ba. i dunno=/

hm... cant wait to change my new nail colour. nowadasy im so obessed with nails. . not so.. bt ya.. perhasp to shift my attention ba.. focus on something i liek to do..

my jap course gotta wait for a long2 time till next year. =/ cant do this year liao. i know what jap custoemrs tlaking about.. but i wanna know how to speak fluently too.. i gottta see if next year i have time to do it anot. =/ its very difficult. cos if my off, go for lessons, then one day less with sam. dunno what to do =/ sigh.. next year then worry ba=/ but i cant wait to elarn and speak fluently.

hm.. waht else

erm... .... o well, hope tmr will be a good day. cant wait for it to be over. then enjoy my fri night.. then off sat.. hope will be all good..

and hope sams results turn out good too.. nvr ask cos.. u know. yea.
anyway, he will do good. i hope he passes with flying colours. ha. cliche. XD

hm.. hope my bro din buy naything expensive form ikea=( sigh. .always buy so many nonsens ethiing. he buy dollies.. sigh.. imum told me he still didnt know how to save.. i say i gib up liao.. tell dada, bro also popintless.

i wanna live a life of my own. spend my own way. i know wat im doing. and consequences i'll pick them up myself. need nobody to do so. i dun care alreayd.. stress about otheres, makes me stress more in life. enough of stresses, i wanna make myself destress.and i will fnid ways to do it. i will have it my own way. anywy, bro and family don have a say in it. though only sam ba. ha; o well. but he's not here so ya. .i dunno

im focusing onmy own lifestyle now.. dun wanna learn from family. i always learn from my own way. this is how i grew up. i think. ha. kinda. erm.. naywy, sam and frens are the ones who taught me not to be so honest.. i learned how to lie form them, how to become more confident, how to fight back, how to be fierce

how to be angry

alot of negative sides, but which are ood for life somehow. in a way. so ya. .thos eparts, i learned from them.. almost all others, i learned myself alonig the way.. i teaches myself with one of the sides in me... and also, form the ppl ard me. .take and learn form experince too.. yea.. i came across this somehow the few dasy back i think.. .. i dunno.. what have i learned form family? what have they taught me? i dunno

but i do htink i taught myself all i need to learn. i may seem blur, yet.... there is this side.. which is unknown to me.. and it alwasy helped me to open up the doors to more.. more unknowns...

sam helped alot too.. me learned so much.. and get to se ehtings the way never seen before.. open up my world so brght and far! i learned to eat seafood again.. dancing.. outgoing more.. me like salmon as well. .appreciate them. hahahahaha.... so yeah... learning to liek what he likes.. and.. its good.. always good to try new htings.. ot have new things ope up for me. THINGS I NEVER KNEW I COULD LIKE THIS MUCH. ITS GREAT. really. to learned from the one u love. its good to have things in common soetimes wiht ur love ones.. btu its also great when u have differences, and u learned from each other.. so yeah.. i accept both views.^^ or logics if u would say. ha

yea.. i even started to liek kids.. yearn to have them infuture. O.o i used to disliek them!! gosh. .then working in toyshop slowly changes that.. hten.. after to sydney, i love sam even more99.. alot more .. its very powerful how one trip can do to ya... seriously. thast why wanna go there soon again.
erm.. then yeah.. don mind if have a family with him.. be it he want anot. i dun mind. cos seeing my custoemrs,even muy ceo, they are so happy being a parent.. but yeah.. thast sitl la long way to go.. though being early parent is very2 good. .still, some matters could not be force......
so.. o well, future is unknown.. as lnog as i have a loving husband , thsat all it matters.... jus love me, care me, treasure me, cherish me forever.. httas all i need....

k ba. .gtg .. enjoy my last few moments of thurs off nigt. .cant wait for tmr to be over.

hm.. im glad my shop is in sydney.. i dun have to worry too much about finding job.. just that.. when will i get to be finally moving htere ba =/ o well... .. at least one prob solved.. phew... i hoep i can continue doing well, and yeah.. with no probs.. and continuing liking my job.. i dun wanna get bored with my job..

jaa, mata

-my advice.. dont let the person u love most slipped through your hands Regrets for life aint worth it.. No.. its not. Don't risk the misery that stays with you forever...-

Do my best!

yay.. finally tmr last day.. .then my off!! one more batch of 6 days full to go. hm... today.. ok ba.. manager.. seem as though have plans for me in the future or sumtin.. i dunno.. dun wanna think much either.. just do what im doing..

u know. .he told me that his ex boss have a scandle with her director. the director just gotten married somemore!!! omg. slut. im sorry. becos this really disgusted me soooo much when he told me that. omg... wth... want money? go marry an old uncle, and get his fortune ar. wth come between the newly weds for what. what an idiot and jerk that director is too!!! argh. maddening isnt it???!

and my colleague. a married man, had a 2 yr old son. wife giving birth soon. still can say to me.. oh, the lady customer just now he relaly wanna serve( but i ended up serving her). cos like.. she's his type.. so sexy looking.. he find her sexy. WTH?????????? omg... omg3.... i dunno peeps... whats wrong with these ppl??????????? =( if i have a husband liek that in the future, saying this behind my back even if they say what. its a guy's nature., gosh.. my foot!!! what bloody nonsense is that! other husbands also still hold their wive hands till old.

geez... =/ i dunno man... this kind of thing.. really.. its so disheartening =/ no wonder nowadays ppl married late.. sigh................. what kind of a vow is this? .... Isnt marriage the most wonderful thign to happen? o well... i hope i will jhave a happy marriage , life like my boss and ceo. they are the examples that life could still be happily ever after. u just gotta find the right person to spend the life with. thast all.. .. she's so lucky. really.
i wish i could be like her too. at the age of 22, left her hometown, and go there be with her partner. i would do tha if i could.

anyway, yeah. i hold a lot of respect for her, and sabrina. uh huh.

hm.. 2 days been raining and raining... no wonder been cold ne.. but its nice.. its cooling.. cold.. yeah.. 2 days in a row.. its nice.

sigh.. so many couples came into our shop today =( sometimes do my best to avoid looking at them.. then one couple .. bf poke2 gf. .then gf jump onto bf's back. .sigh... so heartpain.... tehn another couple dunno do what.. reminded me of the time after watch movie, i pull him aside. .and. .haha. yea.. then got all teary eyes. .sigh... so sad... i miss those happy memories.

then he said to me.. just now. .eh say.. he's so proud of me. .huu.. brought tears to my eyes.... sob... i miss him so so much.. =/

so wish valentine's day could fly to see him..=/

today.. hiayo. .long to type. .erm. .ok. .so.. the news about my great sales is out. ceo even say they're very proud of me.. glups.. omg... now everyone knows.. im so paiseh like hell. .i didnt expect thign sto go this wya.. cos my colleague encourage me to type the story out. .so i did.. its liek sharing it with everyone working staffs around teh world.d oz..new zealand.. they can read all.. so yea..
haiz.. hte thing i worried most is.. ppl might felt that im showing off.. very proud or what.. =/ o well.. i try not to think os much about this ba.. =/

todya went to eat at ajisen. and go arond lookey at anything i like for pressy. ha. in the end, still think a voucher suits me better. so tell bro. lol. hm. .gonna gib myself some b'day pressy too. ha. ow ell

sam just asked me.. whats the most intimate memory of us together. i was surprised he asked htat. cos here i am, tlaking about thinking of our memories sweet2 ones today. would've thought he's reading my blog had it not been the fact that i haven posted this out yet. lol
o well... been getting teary eyes these few dasy.. duno why.. perhaps too long never cry eh.. ..

finally aplace. .where rppl could see what i could really do.. really capable of.... .yay.. ..cheers

mata!

thx for being proud of me baby.. =')

Manager Trust

me so slpy!!! k... 2 days to go.... me fever no more T_T awww.... too bad.. o well...

hm.. aftnoon.. still feeling a lil tired.. maybe cos of sick last night.. just feeling warm and hot my body..
ha. .so funny.. was so excited about it. .anyway, work was alrite. .i find that my manager seem to trust me more thna that irritating guy. who worked longer than me. before he go, he even gib me a pat on the shoulder.. saying he's counting on me for everything. lol. o well... i just do my best..

hm..... 2 days to go.. cant wait to off.. wonder what should i do for off ne.. ...
o well....

oh, saw this brand i like.. its abit like guess.. saw it from a customer.. then ask her about it.. its an american brand it seems.

tch.. haiyo.. so sorry.. i cant htink right now. .so slpy.. i wanna slp alreyad... frgot what els eto say..

just hope sam will get well soon huh...

..its alreayd june.. .. sigh.... .. i cant wait to have a holiday.. and go sydney again... everyday i'v ebeen thinking about it.. yet it seems and feel soooo far2 away... =/sigh

o well...

hm... tmr.. k ba... see hows my break gonna be like tmr...

hm.. i wanna say something here. .but keep on forgetting.. dunno what ne..

mata

Fever Time!

i am having a fever. wow... finally.. after all these years... =D so sick of cold.. flu.. coughs.. hehe.. at first i was happy and excited.. but.. soon, i became more restless... and.. from happy, to no energy. just feel like slping now.. bones feel so tired and sore... gosh.. .k ba.. dun wanna talk abot this... zzz..=/

so.. ytd... oh, forgot to mention.. me and my colleague.. heard this 'new' song coming out from our shop's ipod... think its called finally. we;re both like.. huh?? why is there a sad song coming out? i thought of changing to the next.. but not sure whether my coleague will like it anot. .in the end, she asked to do so. i was like..o.. k... thought she;s gotten over her past.. but.. .. o well.. =/somethings are so difficult to forget...
=/

todya.. my colleguae.. ok.. im just gonna say my fren. colleague is too long to type. =.=
my fren.. had a fight with her bf. who later apologise to her.. she bought bags online.. one for him. in the end, its a very pathetic looking bag. and total amount plus shipping cost her 100 plus. she not much money left for this month. she called her bf to pour her hearts out.. but he mistook that she is complaining to him about the bag for him.. and blaming him for what happen.
she then told me that.. she only just wanted him to console her.. just a simple line.. words. .to console.. make her feel better. .well.. i think maybe somehow he misunderstood... but yea.. later he's back into the shop to look for her.. i finally met him too.. so ya.. but good thing he learnt his mistake.. ..

heartpain ... ... dunno why sam asking me questions.. i dunno... just weird abit ba..
..dunno .. it might be the tone i took it wrongly.. so ya.. maybe he's just asking caaually.. then i took it in another way of tone.. misunderstadning ba.. o well..

felt like wanna rest early.. but.. =/ don wan liao... haiz... nvm ba.. enojy my fever abit longer.. o well..

shinji no koto ga... ... .... ha... .. o welll........ ..bah

so.. tmr.. waiting for good news...

what else.. k ba.. thats it.. see tmr how... if sam is here, i'll be going to see doc now, and take mc. i'll do so that now. ha.. but.. o well..
back to work ba! everyone is sick. my shop had been cursed!! deng3... ha..

bear with it. .work it off. 3 days to go. dont fall sick like others.just work3.... gambate pauline.

oh, this mrg. .actually wakey to a warm start liao. then at night temperature went up.. but usually by next day shold be fine wan.. so yup.
then mrg me sneeze3... gosh.. day was fine. .busy.. things to do.. so time passes fast.. kinda.

hm.. i still feel ne.. having a fever is better than flu . definitely for sure i think. at least u are still able to breathe.

gosh.. today so boring.. like no tv shows also=( huu.... boring tv..

k ba.. dunno what else to say.. k ba.. me go rest.. or watch tv abit.. dunno.. see how.. =/
sigh.. cnat wait for 3 days to be over.. ....

wait.. i just thoought of somehting.. i thoguht i had a fever 10 years ago.. no wiat.. i was wrong!! i just recalled it! i had a very high fever after work.. at atz time.. i don wan go back home. .so stay till night.. then.. yea.. but next day i still go work. ha. thast me.

mata



those tears.. says it all...

Our Friendly CEO

ok. hurry bloggy.. me gonna slp right after this. its been a longgggggg day.

erm.. ok. .so breakfast. met my ceo. he is a funn yman, very friendly. now i could see why kikki that time is willing to move to melbourne for his sake. erm, he say he's a very proud father. ha. his son very cute. 2yrs old plus. he said it in a very fascinating way.. that he never thoguht its so fantastic to be a parent! he loves being one =) he also say being a father is so much fun! haha. and he showed us a video of his son. naw. so yeah.. i know.. being a parent is good.. but.. o well.. lucky for them.. may them live happily ever after. aw.w... so nice.when i mention i cant wait to see kikki, and i said she's really awesome.. he say.. yeha. .she's a very good girl.. XD lol. so swt. aw.
they are a very swt couple indeed. they never get married though i heard.. but yeah..
erm.. its like. .kikki loves to read. he said. and she would bring about 2plus of books when she went overseas. ha. and they would go to bookstore, and buy whatever book they like, then decide.. hmm.. what should they read today? what books to read by the beach. .etc..
i mena.. aw.. isnt that swt? u do thign stogether, enjoy together.. choosing books.. =) sounds so good. ..=/ me so wish could do thing like that with sam.

then.. eat.. then walk back to shop.. (i went home after accompany muy colleague to look at sungalsses) sorry. btw, my spellings very wrong i know. thast becos i don wanna correct it and bother to check. / no time, plus my mouse is giving my probs. haiz.
as i was saying.. then she suddenly ask me.. if my bf ever tlak to me aboiut marriage? like what kind of tlaks i asked.. she say.. like. talking about future together..
then i got it.. ha. but yea.. i always liek to picture a day me and sam together.. our own house.. we could do whatever we want.. but its difficult for htat to happen i gues.s.. cos yeah. .parents around.. so yeah. .buy house also difficult=/ erm.. anyway, thats a nice dream.. a goal huh..

hm.. she also fall ill. lost her voice. fever. tmr cant work. my fren todya, work abit , then fever back. my manager also. vomit after hours from breakfast. then go home. very weird. ha. o well.. all sick ba. hten me got terrible headache. i never ask my manager to gib me med. .cos i assume he dont hva.e but turn out he really have them. omg.... i suffer for nothing =.= but thank goodness.. i felt ok alreayd. otherwise dunno wha to do.

erm.. had a customer. veyr rich. .she bought about 129 items. spend almost 2k after discounts.
wow. its awesome. and thast my sale! yay. haha
yeah.. i worked on her.. gosh. for hours... but good ba in a way.. i didnt get to focus on my tiredness.. instead, time flies..
gosh.. tmr.. haiz.. don wanna think man =/

oh, today found out from ceo that in aust, goverment actually gives them a 'space' to draw the graffiti. i wa slike.. ok... a space eh.. =.=.. dots.. then how about the other kind of spaces? anyway... yeah.. stupid angmoh go and darw on our mrt. .LOL> to other places, its normal. to sg, thats plain stupid. lol. our manager and ceo was like so surprised to read that news XD
anyway, the trains in sydney, gosh.. so ugly with those drawings.. =/ not say ugly.. but very messed up.. .. i mena. .so wasted. .beautiful country, but with dirty surroiundings=/ haiz..

sam suddenly aske dme about driving.. .. ha. .me also talked about htat with my colleague today. such a coincidence ne.
but yeah. .if living in sydney, theres no choice but to get a car=/ unless lucky enough.. can take bus, or walk to work or supermart. then ya.. otehrwise, just gotta get acar ar.. gps.. ha. gps should be able to help me ne. hhaa... i liek the apple green colour i saw in sydney.
kk.. gosh. .type so long. i gotta slp!!!!

mata!!

SICK! argh

o well... sigh... guess both mine and sam's day been ruined.. for him is school project.. for me, its my flu.

so tired.. so drowsy.. no energy.. sigh.. o well.. i hope will get better soon. ytd ar.. bro sick.. yet me say nvm.. can share with him chili sauce.. me din think i would really get sick that easily mah. haiz.

anyway, yeah.. me cooked allot today. if i'd known i was gonna be this sick, i wouldn;ve cook. gosh..

so sianz....

hm. .todya. .time passed fast eh.. i recalled. .morning was raining.. i wokey for a sec..smile to myself then slp. cos i know im off.. and i dun have to get up early.. and see that its raining, wishing to go back to slp. ha.

hm.. had a movie with sam just now.. then he sang me this song.. ha. i asked him to sing it. cos i couldn tfinish it. afew sentences, and im crying already. i couldn't finish the song=/
o well... ...

but yeah. .glad he sang it. i like that =) hehe. swt.

tch. .duno hwat to blog. .just wanna chill and rest.. =/

after my off, gonna be 6 fullshifts.. me so not looking forward to that.. argh. ...

today.. dunno ba... i think it wasnt a great time now.. sammy gotta concentrate on his exams and stuffs..
hm.. me feels kinda outta it.. but yeah.. wait til july is here, then perhaps things will get better ba.

what else happen.. today.. just been cooking thats all. redz say cook what he like.. i should know..
but!! i was like.. huh??? how would i know his dislikes sia.. lol. i dunno... come to think of it. .ha. i didnt pay attention ba.o well.

kk.. i wanna do other things.. rest..

mata

Blocked Out

my fren was askign me.. if i could go with him fo rthis diploma class thingy... well.. u see... its erm.. ok. make it short. u attend 5 months of lessons in singapore. then 5months in other countries. he wanna go to hong kong.(cos his grandma is from hong kong.) but.. he wana a kaki to company him.. plus im kinda like hit it off with him kinda fren type.. so yeah.. he asked me.. =/ it s a great deal.. seriously.. but sigh.. i cant. yes.. even though they still paying u $1000 every month while u school.. u only need to pay $1300 inoder to start.. great deal eh. i dunno why, but yea.. i would've gone for it.. BUT. i cant. i still prefer to work. another thing, sam 1000%wont let me go with a guy fren to study.
im thinking.. of telling my bro about this.. cos both of them are interested in fashion design... hm.... see how ba.. later tell him.
sigh.. but yea... getting a diploma through this way.. its nice eh.. what a great deal.. however i still advice him.. do be careful.. it seems to good to be true.. o well.

me... just now watched freddy movie.. dvd with bro and redz. lasyt night watched freddy movie with bro.
tonight... very weird.. ITS AS THOUGH MY BRAIN BLOCKED OUT THE IMAGES I HAD WHILE I WATCHED IT WHEN I WAS A GIRL... i only remember this one small part.. and the rest,.. i totally had no recollectio of them. weirddddddddddd . its very weird.. cos.. usually like say.. jurassic park.. i rememebred clearly what was showing in movie.. so yeah.. was kinda surprised. how come 99% of freddy movie 4th i couldnt rememebr???? weird..
but seriously, i do believe in memories blocked out. when u relaly detest it, or dun wanna face it, u'll blocked them out. its true.

tmr ne.. i understand .. sam stil lbusy with his'fan'.. dunno will hav edate anot.. but yea... o well... gues.. over the next week i'll be busy too hhuh... o well.. just enjoy myu off tonight ba..

today, im headnig back to my shop from the bathroom.. then, this man. or uncle.. i dunno.. he's wearing sunglasses.. i dun think he;s local though.. he said somehting weird.. i dunno if its english or not. but yea... asshole.. i kinda know what he's talking baout.. but .. darn it.. .i hate guys ogles at me . PFFT! i hate it!!!

haiyo.. i cant think now.. i dunno.. =/ what els eto tlak about.

oh.. lunch.. i had mac. was looking for hte shrek puss toy. but a pity this week belongs to shrek.. so yeah... tehn me gone to taka, no have. go far east. have shrek. o well.. waitning for puss ba..

my fren asked me out for tmr evening... sigh.... =/ i know.. i felt like going too.. cos.. theres not much time for me to catch up with all my frens =/ but. .tmr is my day with sam. so i cant do that.. dun wan him feel negelated.. nor let him feel my frens are more important than him.. cos i know if he does the same, i'll feel this way too. so yeah.. i told htem i couldnt make it... =/ o well.... so.. gotta wait till next time then catch up with them ba.. dunno how to,or when..but somehow.... one day i guess. one day.. o well.

o well.. wha els.e. erm. yeah.. happy todya finally ended... looking forward to enjoying my off..

k then.. goodnight everyone.. me not sur ewhat els eot say.. nites then..

mata