actually didnt wanna blog now.. as its still early.. but i really got nothing on my hand.. =/ i dunno what to do.. im just sitting right in front of my laptop... its my off day today.. .yet.. it felt so empty =( and i certainly had a bad day. =( becos i was sneezing right from the moment i woke up, til now =( sigh..................................................
yes.. im feeling very in a bad mode now.. =( sigh... so sick. .i feel like theres a fever coming in.. bnut its only 37 degrees.. ha. .so yea.. well, me still yearning for some fever actions eh. ha..
hm. .so yeah.. today sammy isnt with me.. he's gone out for a llong long long dinenr with family.. dunno.. he say wanna watch movie later.. but yea.. me just waiting on..
hm.. so yea.. don think will be in my best of health or anything like htat to watch though =/ its too long await.
today basically im just dping hte waiting, watching tv, online.. and of course.SNEEZING . sigh.. my poor nose... =( sigh.. its a terrible day peeps.. sigh... i wan him to be here.. but he's not =/
sigh.. so yeah.. i hope by tmr my energy will be back.. so.. yeah.. .looking forward to my wed off... bah............
so.. online abit. .searching through websites.. i was thinking... hm..... yeah.. i might regret signing plans now.. but i didnt have much choice right? i really need a phone now.. and its gonna help heaps in communicating with sammy without a bomb on topping up. .but still, having said that.. im still looking through al l the infos.. to sign plans.. or without.. etc.. hm.. o well..=/ thats all ba.. and my bro got a voucher from singtel.. but expired on end of month july. i don know should i get a phone by then or not. i don tthink so. cos afraid m1 and starhub will come out with a more devious of its own.. so yeah.............
hm.. see how ba... o well.. me just doing research here.. so yea... i do need a proper phone..
bah................ about 10.40 alreyad.. me rested for abit today.. still not good enuff. .was cold and yeah.. i dunno.. .me just keep on sneexzing...
bro and redz plus mum were cleaning up rooms. hence the reason why my nose got all worked up for the worst=(
but yeah.. my desk is soo much better now. yay. but yeah.. it came with a price.
bah.. dunno what sam's doing now=/ football again? i dunno.. im just waiting......
hm... bro and redz went out.. i didnt go iwth htem as i was expecting a movie with sam.. but.. well, i dont regret my decision.. as im stil lweak and sick now still.. very2 weak =(
but yeah... just dunno ba....... tch.. i dunno.. im so bored.. so.. quiet everythign here =( i dun like loneliness. =(
they are not ba ck yet.. wonder if redz coming back tonight eh.. o well...
hm.. been a long off day.. sick one at that =/
oh, have i mentioined abo0ut my fren last night? the one who had years of relationship with a girl. then now turn to complicated=( sigh. .felt sad abou tit.. but yea... he's a fren through my ch fren. veyr nice person. we clicked. and yeah.. but we couldnt meet up due to mos tof it is becos of my situation. ha. .so yea.. but i heard abou this probs before.. but. .o well.. i dunno them.. but yeah.. =/ abit wasted isnt it.. but i do kinda get it.. im i was the girl, i might've think twice too.
already at the age where u should hav some savings or so,.. yet perhaps u didnt.. then.. of course girls would wanna get married. .espeically such long years been together... but he told me that he did not have any intentions to get married at all. somemore.. he specnd his money on items he's been wanting.. like a good slr camera.. from there onwards, i could really tell that he's the type of perosn who.. for dunn waht reasons, the thought of marriage never crossed his mind, and he really is focusing on other thigns. other than marriage. he would rather save up moineyh for a good camera, phone, trip to other places.. etc. but.... hm... =/ i dunno.. i realised by then, if i were his girl, i would feel really3 insecure. cos. .our future isnt secure at all. when would the future of them begins then? when she's turning 30? perhaps they haad a falling out due to that issued.. or what they think.. i dunno....
when i first know him, he told me they are having a cold war. think its due to the reason that he just finished his ns, and working partime. but his mum nor his gf understadn.. but still blame him that why not he find a decent job now. from the(gf) girl's point of view.. i could understadn perhaps.. like.. ok.. im think.. he should start saving up now. .for future blah3.... but from my views as from myself pauline., i understand. cos he just done with his ns. no one would really love to just hit into the workzone. ha.. thats the reason i say why we could clicked. we can agree on alot of thigns. however, that doesnt matter. im glad to have a frenship like that.
so yeah... =/ that could lead to alot of probs.. but its really upsetting =( to have yearsss of relationship to be on the rocks just like that.. especially when a couple have no different commons in future together.... ....
..wouldnt that be wasting each other's time? and... .. i dunno.. =/ a time worht of life is precious to a girl's life.. if u ask me., ,, so.. yeah.. i could understand how she feel.. but.. whatever the reason now is, i didnt ask him.. becos. yeah.. not nice. .we aint that super close anywya.. and.. o well....... =/ i could only guess what the prb is.. but i don think i could. becos we stil ldon know each other that well. somemore his gf.. me dunno nor ever met ever.
howveer, it would be really foolish and a waste thoguh.. to let this kind of hting happen.... becos she;s a pretty girl. im sure any guys would be more than happy to fill up his position as a bf for her at anytime.
its gonna be his lost.. but........... hm.. o well. i could say the same thing to him too. sometimes.. things are relaly far from our grasps... =/ we must really learn how to keep adn treasure the thigns or ppl we love to ourselves..
do not ever let one mistake u made, took over ur love ones, or hte thign su ever treasure or preciious in life.. =/ do not ever let that happen. .its a regret for life... =(
so, have u thought of whatever matters u need to do now? in order to keep it that way? to keep the thing u treasure most in ur love to stay forever ?
hm.. ok.. from now on, im trying from the moment im finshing in my movei with sammy.. hm... yea. .kinda. huuuuu =( gotta wait for an hour.... huu... hope movie could continue on ba.. aw.. it snice tonight to see swty laugh more.. =)
yea.. glad to see him laugh alot tonight=) midnight for him eh=)
sigh... i miss him................ i really hope to watch the whole movie with him by tonight... =/
sigh.. dunnoa hm............... yea............. i dunno... so whats the most importaant to u>? =/if u don learn how to cherish? what? why don u wanna giv eit up? =/what"?? u dint realised it? that u are goin goverboard as it is? as u supposewd to stop and think by now befoe its too late??? tell me. is it too lat efor a talk????????????
sigh... my fren's case.. = its very sad one.. =( i hope . everything is gonna be alrite between them..
so yeah... sigh................................................ =( some matters are so unpredictable.... eh...
hm.... o well.. =/ hm... ok.. guess my nose is better abit now/. so yea... oyea yay eh.. o well.............
hm.. k ba. .so.. er.. ok.... thats it. .i guess... movie's over... iso... yeah.. erm.. things ended.. so yea.... =/
mata
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