Sad Date

crying profusely now.. ='((((((((((((((( sigh... so sad.........................................A
didnt get why even the most simplest thing to be done??????????

sobxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx why is this even this way.................. =((((((((((( i just wanna be happy............. =(((((((

but why am i even crying now???? am i doing something wrong???????? I wonder what is the fate saying... sigh............ =( lal i want is just to have a happy date.. how did thigns even turn out like this..................... =((((((((

i dunno what i shoud ldo now.. it sholdnt go on this way =( sigh.. its so sad............

todya.. dunno if im feeling unwell or not.. but yea. was resting... my bines all felt so tired. .i dunno... like.. i couldnt move.... ..anyway.. o well.. =(didn feel that great i guess.

watched movie wih sam... didnt hear abit of his voice at all. ha.. ow ell....... erm.. yea.. its supposed to be a comedy.. but.. this time.,...... it felt so different....... =/

i've been looking forward to watch this movie agian. .so ya.. o well

..sigh.. didn thave a proper date.. when was the last time i had one????/// =/

gosh.. im starving.. haven eat yet. .dunno. .mayeb i'll eat the meats only.. didnt haven any appetite.. yet feeling hungry... ..o well........ its ok right..... yea.. of course.. who am i kidding. not like i've neevrbeen through this befoe.. stomach wil hurt, hten it wil be all fine.. its the same..........

-I've gotta move on and be who i am-

i forgot. =( what happen today? oh? dunno.. i really hate to have rice fo rdienr now.. no appetite.. but todays lunch, i cooked, my mum love the soup, dad too. she kept it throughout the night, she addded the chicken in. wow.. but still, i hav no appeitite to eat =/

i didnt knw hwat happen. oh yes.. just the fact that im so tired.. slpy.. i didnt knw i was that slpY! and erm.. yea.. bones hurting...

my leader.. yea.. somehting isnt right.. but i don think its nice to ask her.. hm... cos yeah.. sh ebroke off with her 3 yrs /r bf.. so ya.. she also sam elike me.. didnt liek to heawr hte song called 'finally' .. bu dunn which singer.. she changed the song twice alreayd... i wonde rhwat happen.. =/ but yea.. i asked her befoer.. if had she not broken up., would sh e've come here.. she said no// bt yeah.. she came here becos its a good hting to get away from him(that matter).

one thig i kept learning.. never to harbour any hopes up high........... =(
sigh.. it'll only keep hitting u back.. back to the hole..... no on eis gonna pull u up, 'cept for urself..............

what else happen.. hm.. ow ell, todya basically just rest abit.. dunno why im sick=/ so yea.. sigh... whats making me sick> u think?

o.. get addicted to singins the songs from a walk to remember.. ha. o well..

now listenign to hsm 3.. gotta go my won way =/

oh, yea.. tmr night still can chat with sam abit ba... at least he hioe early, cna chat with me, rest more, and go out with family.. so ya.. o well...

trying to relaz.. tryig to keep everyhting in place.... i hope i can make it... u think so??

birthday.. dunno what should i do. kbox>? zoo? or what... no one seems tobe happy for me.. i dunno... i only seem to be the one planning for myself.. =/ its always been this way.. i dunno.. perhpas i had somthieng else before.. however, im glad.. at least im beter than some other families ba.. ow ell

sigh.. my heart relaly hurts so much=( i relaly.. im so sad. but.. ............ i duno what to do.. im sorry..

mata