happy new year 2015

how shld i start this. ytd,, ok i try myy best blog more often

so ytd.
gosh last night had a wonderufl time playign msoothly game.. then when im in tummy ache. no choce but to abadon whole plan =.= gosh. pan dashed.

but anyway yea...

and.. oh. i was heading home eh.. and. .gosh. one of the most random thing.. .

i heard a person calling to me hi or something.. corner of my eye saw a person. i tot stranger? .. but then i decided to turned my head further cos maybe thats my fren.. cos that hi voice is like. .so frenly. then skali. .... it s aguy ...and his hand was liek ..'peace' sign.. .he has a baord in his hand maybbe that tointerview or sumtin? but yea. i could see thrat coupke of ppl turning heads to look at us. cos hello. hes the only one who said hi abit louudly in mrt underground. who cant hear him =.= i walked on still gosh. i do wanna another person to say.. 'give me bak my heart'. rememerb?

anyway,, so awkward

today.. new yr eve...

shocking. din realzied its 2015 till mrg..

how do u feel abt that.

theres..... more downs than ups in 2014 for me..
being unhealthy.. didnt know where im heading....

myy local was tlaking to me how aussie rm oi to a young lady ocs she cut quque in fron tof her in mrt. LOL .yes muy rm is daring=.= in case u din know haha.

she say its a lesson taught for her.

lool...
was like. .rrly curious how her bf can be her bf. u know. liek so .. .accepting how crazy she is.

rm is  sooooo impatience. .the aussie one.
my rm local one. say maybe her bf is a patience one.  cos my au rm sooo impatience. omg. i cant tell u ..

anwyay yyea.. true. if he's not aptience.. .then i cant imagine how they are together.
cos .. she the most impatience one... and if her bf also. how can things work out??
my locak rm say thast why her bf shld be the v patience one.

mm.. hls job bah hor. .cos he's photographer. .

nyway.

to my pleasent surprise, my rm todl me. .. me and my asm, is the most patience ppl. i was like. wow..?
i am? O.o
i dunno whyy she said that. .i didnt ask though curious. .butim flattered. cos patience is a viture. and.. for her to htink that i have patience, i am v glad .flattered desu =)

cos there's a troubled m fulltime coming to our storeT_T huuu... nda yea. she told her my store. .me and my asm are the most patience pp. so we can help her. gosh i hope she can wor=

anyway yea...

sammy is right alot of malays lazy.

long story short. ut yea. that fulltime is malay. another one at ps uotlt. .also. then yea. say previous workplace customr approach her. not she approach the, omg. wth

anway.. .etetc. gd tat my rm think i hav the best patience among all managers lol
in real life.. mmm actualy .. i think im gd ne.

depends bah. but .. .yea. i think preetty gd. Cept when hungry. Hungry us an angry person for me. If v v v v hungry ha.cos i like food n

mm... just abt 1mobth...and me and him.. .7 yrs...
crazy huh...
i wish i could be treated like.. as though i first met him. durng the 'honey moon period' ha. .o well. .

years passed... but. .. yea.

i still cherish thos emoments. and uh huh till this day

kne wabt news of the plane thingy again =/

rrly.. i wonder to myself. .next flight plane. i shld prepare a gdbye farewell letter in case i dind make it back alive. it sike wth? paranoid? no. its not. better to be safe than sorry.

i ratherwrt edown my last words than having regrets in plae when im dying

far too often.. pl duno when they are gonna die. like instantly and suddenly

so yea..

liek that sunday. ..last sun.

i almost involved in a bus crashed. this bus stopped voilently  ya knoowliek. .gosh worse one yet.

not the first time. but that was the orst i think

anyway. sg still safe enuff

mm....

so.. happoy new year everyone.. stay saef and healthy. dont lie. love ur love ones.

and yea.. do not regret not saying ur last words..

ja amata

dont derserve this

slpy.. so slpy.. just wanna slp away. al troubles will begine


wwwwwwglad xmmas is over. but due to sales period.. theres still heaps of cutomers and stufs..

there are thinh tat i dpn get it

words said that arent fulfilll..


o welll

in the end pining of his vpice over skpy and game turns out nothing.

looking forward to taht for what

ppl don cae anyway


jaa

sighs..bored

M EXTREMELY TIRED///

opps  cap

ighs..
 long day.. 11 hrs=(((

 home play gae.
he's sti llstirt as alwasy..

duno have i done somehtin gwrong.
=/

then he wtn to slp earl in my time..and now im so bored.... and. .ea. no nice show tonight=((( sighs. v boring . boring satsuh as alwasy

i can expect him to stay wakey long with me too cos i duno he nid to slp early or somethig. then yea.  rrl y want him sl on time. think he hav work or somehtin to so by 130.ofc i see theitme i nid to let him go early...

so bored though..

likeduno what to do net=.=


why life so ored eh

xmas no spend with him.. ..o well.. .moat of the tim wewotn

mata

nightmare before and after xmas

soooooooooooooo freaking tired and lack of slp. i had a very very boring xmas day=( but whats great was that when i got back home late from work.. i bath. and i opened up pressy... i love all of the presents so much. what a great pressy year it is=))
that makes my night much better. now. im ba ck to bored mode. .= arghhhhhhhhh

and sammy is busy away. anad im like. ok. so this is xma.s so slpy and dead tired body.
goshhhh was htinking of heading out. but... too tired man=/

tv is sooo odisappointing. theres no nice shows going on. what happen?????/ =(((
borrringgggggggggggg

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i still hate xmas after all. sighs

mata

new world

sick and tired of things happening... so sianz.. maybe its time to give it a rest..

today was so hungry .. .then.. byy the time i had my meal at 3pm... yea. that kept me so full till now.. ok abit hungry now bbut not soso bad. noodles turned soggy so had to throw it away.
meep

was like trying out new game event thingy in new map thingy.. was gd . something new. rather than getting stucked no lvl up and cant go anywherer ==
ut the way they run was so fast. not concentrating for a sec, and thats it. like. where the heck everyone gone. frustrating .
tch
o well
thaats just how it is. hope that didnt cause him to feel too upset. 3 ppl ..i know. no patience de.
uh huh .
haha. just realized that

haiz.
just wana slp it all off

i rrly dislike dec every year=/

sighs o well

mata

fav game part

Lights off typing in bed withbphone

U know how its like..i feel sumtin is diff.. but u ca0nt cgange it..
Gosh dozing off

So yea Frustrating it is..

Anyway.  .. played game..again

Still like tat swimmibg part the most.was so sutprised n scared as though i held my breath ha

But yea.  Its rather difficult to fight away n slow.... =_= so u nidto fight alobg dide ither team n yea..find events etc.
Theres one bloody hard event thouvb. Ha wonder if anyone succeesed

Eyes closing!jaa mata cant opeb liap 0gjaaaaaa

Sory i typed with slpymodse p

Mata.

rip

sighs.. once again.. something bad happened.. out of the blue.. u know. suddenly ppl died.. big news. yea. .rrly out of the blue.. random day.. anythign can happen..

pics of flowers on the floor mourning the deaths. .at syd martin's place. .

that image immediately lead me to recalled a smiliar news.. .not quite. but its the same.. ppl left flowers on the floor.. .et.. .big news. the melbourne rape /murder case.
that irish woman... mm.. im so curious abt the c ase. .i wonde rhows the murderer now.. .
later will go check again bah

anyway.. yea. =/ its liek a big news. .and. ..o well. something sad bah..
just hope. .mm...  they can prevent such cases. .and how the hell ppl stil ldie. i dunno. police too fast rushes in and started shooting?
id unno man.. too eager to end this thing? so.. started shooting?
but anwyay... no turning back now

ppl died. .and. .yea. just hope i wont be there to witness such a thing on my holiday .can u magine being there while youre enjoying yourself. like outta the blue=.=
gosh

terrible.

k,, jaa

u know. finally xmas is gonna be over. yayyyyyyyyyy

mata

worst day ever. sick =(

terrible day today... though not my asm fault.. yet its suchbad timing =(

sigsh .worst day ever=*(((

i was so sic. yet im working 11 and half hrs.
losing my voice. ..runny nose... body like so weak..
gosh. worst day ever so far. =(

somemore working with newbie and not enuff manpower. wth

now im looking foraward to a gdnight sl.

though late aalrdy.
but yea. so slpy mypoor nose and throat. i don feel like talking liao

gdnite everyone . .*yawns.. .hopefully tmr will be better

ceo visit definitely on the rong day. asm on al also on wrong day. me sick. also on wrong day. all in same day.. = worst day

mata

creepy day and night T_T

tot i was getting better. .but then.. today i got worse. feeling so terrible now with my dang throat and nose. throat worse. shoot. i cant afford to get sick in dec. i cant.

so i wa slike rrly wondering.. .ok. so a guy can ..say not reply to a girl's msg when gaming. even till game over and its time for bed.
forgettable huh .o well.
most guys like that?

last night was terriblee. so was this mrg.

last night? not. two night ago i think.

lonog astoryy. this painting right in front of me.bros painting. at the top hanging. dropped twice i believed in the past. hit my leg my toes. bloody painful. i recaleld it was middle of night. ard 3am ish

and iw as aginast mum putting back up again. she did. so .. quite long.. .duno how many days. this time round. brow ith me to. but lights off cos i nid to slp he wanna play game. so on the back light. living room two lights. anyway. abt 1210am ish. this bloody painting dropped virously. rolled down.. .all the way straight landed next to my head. i am not even exaggerating. not joking. IT WAS A SCENE RIGHT OUT FROM A HORROR MOVIE.
uh uh. no joke. the sound was loud. grumbling down next to me. previously time it droppped straight. landed straight onto my toes. this time, it rolled allthe way next to my heaad. holy cow.its made of bloody heavy wood. i couldntve been knoced out right there and then. i couldnt even react cos it was that one se so fast. i look at the painting... didnt move an inch. .my eyes followde it till next to me. .then i look at my bro =.=
omg

scary

then i wanted to snapchat.. .share it lol .i dunno bah. my eyes or what. this white .. .so difficult to explain.. .this white.. .erm.. thingy... flew past my eyes so fast. i captured it into my pic snapchat at the end corner.
as though a tissuse felw past

but yea. its rather weird.
brrr.. .scary
told my colleague next tday

and this morning.... omg.
this mrg 9am plus...
coincidence perhaps. the speaker of our store. .theres static sounds. i tot ok maybe its the mall's thingy prob. then. the cd player on the songs by itself. i was like.wthhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
still kinda creepy thinking abt it. gosh.

anywya... argh

tough luck. just so glad im not in hospital now. rrly.. if htat thing knock into my head. sure faint. the way it fell so hardcore peeps. gosh

so.... i wa slike. .talking to my collegaue.. then. .long story short. i was like storming away in a jk manner. like. .u know..stomp2... turned and stomp walk away... . at that moment. i wa slike. .hey it felt as though i was doing the same thing when back in sg sammy was saying i was so cute stomping off.. .across the road.. say will nvr forget it .
i wa slike. .whats so cute.
them.. the moment i tot of that.. .my cololegaue screamed out.. omg youre sooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=.=
uh huh. deja vu huh. i wa slike... .what did i do. then was like. .could it be the same way i walked away when i was with him. at bedok on the way to his house i rememebr.
mm.. so yea. i dunno. but.. .
yea. believe me i have no idea whtas that all abt.
but. .i take that a s a compliment bah. cos i didnt try or intent to do any of it. ..it just came naturally to me. so yea. .
i wouldve been sahamed if i were to act that out. =.=
well. nowadays alot of women like to act cute so yea. .. some gone overboard type ha. gosh

huuu so sick. cant wait to slp
gosh ceo coming tmr. hope he wont stay long. .mm.. wonder if theres a chance ..i wanna ask him abt the bra store opening in sg.. why so long. .due to se* toy shld be.. .haiz. =/
if only ..sg can make it happen. too strict bah.
read news before in aust that theres complain abt the toys..then got kids etc.
but in the end they still open alot of outlets mah. 36?
outlets i eman

anyway. hope for the best!!!
mm... think theres something i forgot to mention.. nvr not it down so forgot

btw this restaurant.. like. .sounded like cheap sg brand name or something . tomato soup. but hey. its good. jsut that meat is too well done=.= overcooked i mena.
the waiter is a nerdy2... abit ... i dunno. is he.. u know. something wrong or waht. but he's v v v nice. great service. and so kind. my colleague also like his service.
so polite somemore. and attentive. even apologie for letting me abit long.
how many waiter will apologixe for u cos of tht eh.
so yea. great service. great food cept for overcooked meat.
if only more guys are simple like him how nice would the world be.
wil ldefinitely go back there again .

oh my throat and voice. .somemore today train ppl.. talked alot. huu

glad i rememebr for now what to type. .though. .thin ki still missed out something. .mm

jaa mata

softer flowy hair =)

holy cow. my hair is soooooo softtttttttttttt

thanks to this s brand hairmask
my two other frens bought the same one. the other haven use. one of them used. she say it made her her so hard and rough. not gd. so asked me to hurry try. i kept putting it off cos was tired etc. .cso decided to try. .and hey.it worked rrly well for me.
duno .maybe the way she applied? O.o
i was abit worried. but now im gd. hehe =)

so funny. my fulltime say country manager asked her abt me and asm bf.how aere we doing etc.
she was like. .huh? is she supposed to know? then country manager laughed. i duno ne. maybe shes jsut concerned abt us.

mm.. yea. i liek her way better than aussie rm

mm. what else.. .

oh last week this aussie senior manager came by and visited alot of our stores. and eevryone was liek going gaga over him.say he look like the skiny version of huge jackman. the wolfverine.

but yea. they were al lraving abt how handsome he is. lol................
ok la. gdlooking. no wonder even sg rm was like. .hes so handsome right.. lol


omg. first week into dec alrdy. say whattttttttttttttttttt
on the other hand.. .just few more weeks and nightmare before xma swill finally be over.
and. .me and asm  cant wait for 2am shift to be ove T_T over. huuuuuuuuuuuuu
the worst is yet to come. ..

anyway.

so bored today.

mm.. me still dunno what to get for bro pressy. oh man=.=

tot of getting doctor who items.. but. none that i see he will rrly like or use.. haiyo

see how ba

rrly slpy. .ko in bus. gosh luckily woke up on time..

still rrly liek the pic he took... whilst i was at the escalator. i was so shy . i duno. im v shy when ppl tak epic of me. selfie ok la. but. .yea. haha

can see my tiny dimple there. ..  i rrly like that pc alot. mm.. if only i cna print it out ha.
frame it eh. chey XD lol


jaa mata

for ur love one move

i sm kind like tuked in my game somehow
stucked. yup.
ont been lvling up etc. .oh bother=.=

anywya... that aside.. mayb i'll find a way out somehow.. bubt yea..

erm.

m jus tbeen boring ocupe of  ydas. canu belivev it. its first week into month of dec wthhhhhhhhhh O.o

i cant wait. 19more days before xxma it s over

omg

and my 2am shift.. .boo huuT_T mayb the pain be over soon...........

sighs

anwyay. .my store.. .wow. for the first time ever, its ranked 18th. of all 2 hundred plus soters.or three.. .mm.. duno. or two hundreds. but yea.
i was like ..whoa.. .for real???????? 19th peeps ow3....
allthese tears and sweats peeps.. .been worth it... ayea. .its like. .rrly. tears and swetas for me heaps

i rrly  cant wai ttoget into hoiday mod for myself.. .rememebr what i'd said.. .in syd.. . abit lost. .and. .came across this restaurant. .and i went in. had a pink smoothie..and pasta. ..not teh best as alwasy.. but. .the feeling.... .is epic.

just me. relax. and.. .nothing of the work bothers me...

as mrg.. .even on off days.. work bothers us... uh huh.. .

i  can imagine being rgm too.. soehwo.. stil lwil lhave work msg to reply to..etc.

anyway. yea.

i ...rrly yearn for that time of year.. jsut .. .bbe it ith him or myself alone. .i want peacefule ness.
..serenity
just.. .time out for mylf to enjoy.

two yrs back ?

i rlry dislike how myself doing roster in a jap restaurant iwth sammy at night in syd
sghs

rrly. one must not let work takeover their life. nvr

oh did i mentioned last night ?

so.. my country mg .. u know her partner cant come ove.r and my aussie rgm.. so lucky. her bf is willing to come over to sg .. and they are living together now .. .
in sg.

it al come sdow to.. how much youre willign to give to be with the one u kove huh..

i dunno abt my country mrg... is his family that poor or what. .r is my c mrg that desperate...etv..c.. why cant they do something abt it..
whilst my rgm partner can.. .etc

u know. to eadch of his own....perhapsy due to ambition over lov.e or rrl its\ fnancial prob ...
idunno. but. .hoep all the best fo rmy c mrg.

i cantn find anyting for my bros pressyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy T_T
omg help

a guys pressy is as though as it gets. but this guy. he has everything he nids. then howwwwwwwwwwwww

huuuu

mata

'A' job?

hello...

been rrly busy for xmas period..

anyway..

myy country manager driped by the other day.. and yea. .etcetc. .then she was asking abt me and bf.. and she was like .she can feel me. .her bf in europe. and even though theyre both working adults,,.. apparantly he cant come over here. hes not willing to let go of his job in europe or somehting. so yea. .so wa slike. .hes not coming over fo ru? shes like no..

...sighs. i duno abt ehri situations. .but if rrly love another. .e will give up to be with her. thats what happened to my fren's fren. o well.. it all depends on the peeso themselves ba..

she say.. too many heartbreaks for this relationships to give up.

o well...

=/ i hope somehow they can wor it out together .. .i liek this country manager better than ausie rgm .though ive yet to sene the scary fierce side of her yet. ha. hope  wont ever.

but yea. .

haiz

erm.. .so ws watching this video.. and this hilarious coupe .well theyre frens not couple. this girl was saying. . eevry girl says oh they love blowjobs etc(sorta to impress their guys) but actually no. its liek bloody last hting on their list. lol .she uses the f word i uses the bloody word so yea.
she say.. blowjob is also called the A job.
mm.. menaing. .cos its v tough thats why its called A job> ?
mm.. interesting

but yea. anyway
then the guy was mumbing sumting abt  blowjob usually will take ard 25mins or so..
i was like. .mm. .yea abt there. .and i tot was long. so its normal ha.
but anyway. A job huh. haha. like so hard for the females as though. lol

dunno if thats true but yea. .anyway.

stiill coughing and voice bad.

not enough water

boo huu

jaa

quick blog again

hello jus a quickie here. .
soooooooooo slpy gosh

cant wait to slp as usual

my throat rrly took a turn for the worse. om. i cant . .no i dun wanna even speak now .nid to rest my throat. hu T_T i cant sick its xmas.. i cant sickkkkkk no mccccc

tonight gmae was boring for me. no lvl up=.= felt liek aday beenw asted haha.
next time perhaps bah.
wonde rif i shld go back hoem'

mm.. yea. if not stucked in weird places no monsters rrly boring .
waasting my time no lvl up though views is g

kk sooo slpy gtg

talk abt another stuffs next time when free nights

today ot a gd day. sighs. just not gd=( sad desu ... and im stil lstressed out . sighs

mata

perk me up mrg =)

it was such a .. .draggy mrg for me. .as i reluctantly get up for work.. =/ dragging my feet along..

then his msg perks me up. and makes me feel alil much better...
if not.. duno how imma get through this day.. .

its always nie to have someone msg u in mrg especially when youre feeling down eh..
it amkes the rest of day more bearable ne..

mm... anywya. working at 7am tmr. alrdy cant wait to hit the sack

oh what long day..
time flies.. .
i cant wait for april and feb

i look back at my pics where i had smoothie and pasta.. .i was alone. .wandering ard. .so hungry no breaky no lucnh. had late lunch. ..was shopping ard on my own. then finally found somepace where i could rest. ..so yea. .well. .syd nono have aloto of nice food places..affordable say hte least.. but yea. i like those moments. .alone me time. just ended up at a god knows where place. out of the blue. .uh huh. ..
so peaceful.. just sat down and eat on my own. .think that time sammy was slping whole day til late evening so yea. did alone shopping me time.

anywya yea. .was so frustarted couldnt rrly decide of where to eat. mm.. or did i msg him abt it. .i ant remeber liao.
anywya.. .yea. i rrly cant wait. apri.. .

k. gtg. check out abit of game n nid my slp. last night gosh... i couldnt slp well due to bro's dvd playing. .think tonight best that i slp in my room with cold floor. no lights. not much sound.

throat abit hurt... mm. .gotta drin more water ne. cant afford to be sick=/

jaa mata

stressful days lost my smile =(

hey... just feels like. .another day been wasted... =/

was so upset int he day. . cos pan runined. and.. yea.. in the end.. at night.. i compensate it. soyea..
though. ..

that didnt make me feel any better=/
sighs

im so upset and stress the whole of the day. ytd as well .
i feel like. i had no control over my lfe. im losing it.. and i didnt know how to steer the wheel anymore=/
that broke my heart
 just couldnt feel that im in control anymore. my life is in a mess  . sighs

trying jmy best nt to feel this way. but i cant help it =/

this mrg. it as dar and v cold. i was freezing.. .and it was 7a,. usually will be sunny. but liek i'd said its gloomy and dark. .raining.. .so nice to slp in. i wa sthinking to mysef. today i am grateful for... didnt have to wake up for work today. and just laze in  bed for this gloomy rain.

skype didnt go so well with him .. bad reception .alil difficult to understand whats he is saying. .then towards the end phone cut into silence. ..haiz

my throat a lil hurt today.. cant afford to be sick ya know

sighs...

oh yea. last night what i'd said i take it back. searched online. in the end the game girl will still die so yea. pointless for me trying to save her.
so i didnt feel so bad after that .

losing interest in everyting. sighs

i cant wait to slp .sad though .think nid to slp o n floor. in my room cos bro aint home yet .he needs to dine at living t=room as always. later liek that time . later he angry. we both upset .haiz

better i slp on cold floor right
then later i'll weep alone at night again =(

duno ba why i feel so extra down these days i cant even smile. im not happy.
perhaps work stresses me out too much. haiz.. .
o well.. .

jaa nights peepe..

wsh i have my smile back

mata