Party Woes

ok, quick bloggy, then imma slp.

duno what to say.. ha. like. .so busy nowadays.. and tired from work.. erm..

well, today busy as usual.. its gonna be different ba. .cos GSS already started.. we got alot of ppl coming in.. sales went up.. but its good in a way though.. kept me from thinking too much.

i was like wondering... =/ perhaps sammy doesnt like to talk about test stuff ya know. i dunno either.. he say its not that.. but.. yeah.. hm.... i dont think i should probe about it in future though. just felt that.. he wont discussion about his results and stuff. o well, maybe he just doesnt wanna talk abouit it so yeah... twice bitten, one lesson learnt.
ha. my line. o well

erm, so.. yay... tmr. .finally.. tmr after work im soo ogonna relax... soso gonna do that.. and enjoy my off days.. after that will be my 6 full again. =/ sigh.. o well.so yeah.. im so gonna make sur emy days are not spend wastefully.

hm... what else... oh.. so.. these few weeks i wont be talking to sam much i guess.=/ what to do huh. theres bound to be these moments.. but yeah.. just bear with it eh.
=/ haiz

hm.. pressy.. all the things i want, is so expensive=( i have to save bits by bits in order to get it. yeah.. no one will buy fo rme wan=.= anyway, guess my b'day pressy.. ha.. i dunno.. i just ask bro to get me vouchers or sumtin. cos yea.. i cant think of anything else to get...which is affordable for him. hm.. na dredz, he's poor ba. tight budget. so ya.. anyway, haiz... i hope my birthda will be a good peaceful one.=/ dunno will i celebrate with family.. or waht.. o well..=/ just don wan it be upsetting.. last y ear bday still dealing with sam's deparature.. so yea.. ....

haiz...........

hm.. suddenly find myself liking betty boop, and puss characcters. ha.. puss too cute.. omg.... u watched the latest movie, will go AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW..... i swear u will. lol.
hint.. during the licking fur part.XD

this morning.. abit bothered by it ba.. thinking what sam could be thinking.. am i the one the first person he thought of when he wanna shared somethin gwith> ? or anything happy happen...
i duno.. i dun like to think nor guess.. so.. yeah.. im glad busy day makes thing easier to pass.

just relax my mind.. i needed that-_- and yeah.. do not ponder so much.. stop that. .and i'll be better. oh yea.. this mrg. .notbad.. today not bad.. my energy is ok. cos last night i slept at 11pm! yes.. i was sooo sleepy and tired... haiyo.. almost 1am.. guess tmr might be sleepy again.. o well..
hang on! one day to go! gambate.

sometiemss.. im not sure . i guess im still not sure of where to go.. what to do.. i need plans.. like. .months.. a date. i need dates to keep me tracked.
stay on track.
without a specific date, or klnowing what might happen, i find it difficult.. to say... how much money should i save at least.. when should i get something... u know... then end up getting somethign at wrong time.. or spend too much on food.. tch.. its troubling.

oh yea.. my mouse.. sigh.. bloody hell. =.= probs again. haiz.. what to do... i really2 like the alien mouse. .gosh.. its soooo cooool........... but expensive. T_T i know i shouldnt get any expensive mouse now. cos theres other things i need to use which i have to save up and get. a pity summer time i cant get to see sam.. otherwise... yeah.. should be saving mostly for that now eh...o well..=/

hm... so.. oh.. morning. .was discussing with my fren.. both of us could tell.. the way our new managers do things,.. sigh.. can cough up blood sia. very different. .and sort of in a messy way.
sabrina2... she really truly is the best staff ever =/ sigh... wish she's back...thats why.. can u see the reason why i admired her so much for a pro staff now?
she's almost perfect when it comes to this line of ours.
really. haiz. .o well... she's too good.. guess she belongs to somewhere els.e. perhaps somewhere much2 better. .she deserves it.

k ba.. gonna slp in 10,15mins...
tmr will get slpy again i guess..
oh, mac got the kid's meal toy give away. i was hoping to get the puss. LOL> sigh.. reminded me of sam.. he =/ .. huu.. he got me all of htem.. =( sigh... that was so sweet.... ...

soemtimes.. ppl tend to focus on the negative side.. especially when they are feeling negative about everything. . they saw the dark side.. but when u look closely.. think back... there are way so much more important happy treasurable memories there.. more than u know... the lights.. are there.. its just a matter of whether u sees it or not...
see it, and you'll come to realized the importance of matters.......

ha.. a 16yrs old boy becos he's so drunk, lied on a mattress outside somewhere near the party or sumtin.. then a 17 yrs old kid, pour sumtin over his head, and set the 16 on fire. lol.. im sorry.. im being eveil here eh? =/ but yeah.. look.. learn your lesson. underage, stupid , immature, dont drink if u cant handle it. baka. pissed off at these type of baka... perhaps the parents din know he's going to a drinking party eh. o well. if they do, they;d better be blaming over themselves as well. pfft.
.. .. hmm=/ dunno why i got all so worked up at this kind of news.. perhasp.... ..o well... nvm.

haiz. .weird.. dunno why todya can talk so much.. maybe yea.. cos my energy is getting better. k, me gtg.. 1am alreayd..
sorry never blog for few days. .too tired. and net too slow!

mata

KingKong Makes Me Sad

today such a busyyyyy busy3 day! its a public holiday today. so ya... not bad ba.. busy is good i guess.. but yeah.. so busy.. soooo crowded. the whole shopping mall is sooooo crowded!!

just now.. tv was on kingkong.. sigh.. i hate that movie=( cos i always feel so sad=( sigh... its like.. i know i'll be sad.. yet i cant help but watch abit. and i always2 cry whenever i saw him fighting, then died. =( huuuu so heartpain =( then cry.. then go bath.. cant bear to watch any longer. seriously, me always cried whenever i watch the last part.. sigh...........
im not sure why.. but maybe its becos.. i felt that.. ..so sad. becos.. =/ well, though he's a beast, but. he loved the girl wholeheartedly.. she's the only apple in his eyes. and u can see that.
then like.. yeah.. =/ so sad. he protected her.. then die in the end=( sigh...
i dunno.. but so far i've always cried when i watched king kong. sigh.. sad sia.. i just find hte love story so sad.. haiz... he just wanna be with her, but yet.. such a pure intention is thwarted by human beings who deosnt understand.. =/ he so poor thing=/ gish.. hope later will have a good slp ba.. .. try not to think of that movie.. those images.. argh... ...

oh yeah! just recalled! the guy me mentioned in my blog that time, the one who gave out bad vibe? lol.. he's back today with his wife. ha.. then even made a payment. gosh.. i dun care.. nervous, but just don think too much, and get hte sales done over with.

hm.. gosh.. slpy alreayd..

aww... sad.. today sam's morning isnt good ne.. pissed off.. =/ haiz... but glad to hear his voice.. hope i made him comfy more.. so y eha.. he can wakey up to a better morning later on.

k, gtg slp.. cant really think much now.. ha.

haiyo.. my eye red.. so itchy=/

jaa, mata ne

Not Alone

was tired abit.. but.. ok .. erm.. meeting was so early.. not bad.. quite an interesting one.. then.. 2 left for opening.. anothe r2 shifts starts at 12.. so.. we remained at the table.. chat2. .tlaking about singapore.. and cwhere they came from and stuff.. but omstly our our work.. shop, how to improve and stuff.. its kinda nice to be part of all these. cos.. yeah.. im hoping our shop will do way much better in days to come. and ya.. truly want the shop to get better.

then.. we went off separate ways.. me go rush for hte earlymovie.. yay.. caught it on time.. shrek.. very nice movie! ending, touching.. =/ brought me to tears.. no spoilers here.. wont say what happen.. aw.. anyway, yes its great. especially the puss. OMG> soo ocute!!!!!!!!!!!it kind makes me wonder.. what happen if i was in shrek's shoes. or my important love one in shrek's shoes, and i dont recognize them anymore.. just.. yeha wondering how that would feel..

then me go walk ard.. get the stuffs i needed.. had some interesting finds.. hm..then go eat at ajisen.. so long never have the volcano noodle. so ya.. very good. very well done hte meal. the chef is great. so i decided to let the person in charge know. and she gib me a smile after i said that its very well cooked. ha.. hope the chef will get promoted or sumtin ba. lOl

erm.. todya read a news about this couple in sydney. OMG. it disgusted the hell outta me!
they rape their own son! yes even the father too. and the son is like.. i dunno what to sya.. he even complys to it now. .and even tried asking a girl if she want sx sex. gosh3..... what world are we coming in to? this is soooo disturbing. im glad nothing in singapore had that yet. if so, gosh.... i cant imagine. really cant.

wat else.. hmm.. so.. basically thats it. .i don feel lonely at all today. relaly. its all good. i have him in my heart.. and.. yeah.. well, basically just walking ard.. me eating. .was also looking out at the window.. just.. chilling out. .it was good. o well. yup it is. hm... so.. thats it ba.. ha

aw. .today was drawing the onion head to sam.. he did 2 as well. haha. cute! ^^

gosh. .tmr back to work.. =/ o well.. just get it over with.. and sat im so gonna be staying home. and can have a proper nice day with sam. gosh, i cant wait to watch those 2 movies with him!! its awesome. sooo ocant wait. heh.

gosh its late. k, i wanna go slp already!

oh, theres this sad cat video.. sigh.. so poor thing. .the cat doesnt want anyone to be near him nor his dead gf for 2hours straight. sigh

mata!

SNOBS!

gosh.. i am SOOOOOOOOOOOO sleepy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg.... today nt really a good day. ytd was better. gosh.. the 6 days shifts.. zzzzzzzz im so slpy now.. cant wait to slp!

tmr got meeting somemore! haiz.. doesnt feel like i have any off=/

anyway, yeha.. hope meeting end asap.. then can hurry home.. sianz ne..

today so sad sia.. maddening.. kena 2 proud aunties.. who rolled their eyes on me. a*s!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wth.. shoot.... =(
so what if they're rich? SNOBS!! they are snobs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shoot... i seriously hate hate hate detest rich ppl like them!! darn... so what if rich?? no class.. such a bad attitude...
what kind of ppl are they!?
idiots.... only know how to spend parents money, spend husband money.. what do they know otherwise?? idiots...
sorry.. i really just detest these type of ppl. they should just go to africa or sumtin.. instead of showing off. or let their paretns teach them a thing or 2 about how to be polite, morals, and kind.
snobssss..!!!

gosh.. cant believe me kena 2 ppl like that in a day... arghhhhhhhhh

k ba.. gonna rest my feet.. then my eyes in abit..=.=

mata

Weird Tiredness

GOSH.. sooo tired at the start of the day!!! dunno whats wrong=/ haiz.... anyway. right after came back from break, manager ask me to do changing display. very weird ne... =/ why me ne.. its like.. that irritating guy worked longer than me mah.. anyway, well, its ok ba.. i gotta work hard.. so ya... so.. me work3.. non stop.. moving here and there.. busy3.. for 3 and half hours straight. omg. almost 4 hours. STRAIGHT . gosh.. no energy le...

today me had peanut butter bread for lunch. heh.. its nice knowing that u are eating the same as someone u love. =)
anywya, was out and about checking out the sales.. nothing caught my eyes 'cept for one. but me not much use for it.. so tell myself.. musnt buy it.. huu.

tmr.. if theres time, maybe will check out the taka sales.. think got the intimate sales.. XD lol.. lalala.. anywya, will go see2 or what ba..

gosh.. GSS is up for 2 months.. sooo long!!!!

tch..=./ since my ex manager is gone, sigh... thigns aint that well.. its ok.. but. not as great as before. i really admired her work u know.. sigh.. so hard to find a manager like her =(
.. haiz... anyway, tmr gotta work for so long =( sigh... sianz.. jst hang on ba.. 2 days to goT_T
plus... meeting is on my offday.. haiyo.. o well, nvm ba.. maybe can catch a morning movie or what.. see how...

ha.. like 7 days straight go my workplace.. gosh.. but no complaints ba.. thursday.. just treat it as a day fo rmyself.. =/ o well

k, im gonan slp right after my blog. sigh. .hope tmr is good day.
today so sianz.. work together same hours with that guy.. T_T
arghhh
oh yeha. .even this also forgot to tell.. sigh.. see... me so tired, till everything forogt=(
haiz...............

tch.. oh, last nightt was amazing.. called sam up.. then erm.. did something voer the phone which felt sooo real!! so nice^^ hm. me din say that last night isit? wait.. think i did.. haiz. see... cant rememebr.. =(
anyway, yeah.. so real.. then just now, did that again.. bt a pity my credit went deadT_T huu...
and i din get to say gdbye to him T_T cannot msg either.. used my mum internatinal calling card also cannot!! huu.. dunno why cannot.. thats why i don dare to buy..
haiz.. o well, hope tmr mrg my mum could get the card for me ba.. then ya..

what else.... k ba. .thast about it.. tmr.. hang on ba.. dunno what to say..
btw, me changed 2 displays today. yeha.. sooo tired.. huu.... cmon!! where's my 6th working day!
so slow.. T_T
oh yeha ,anyway so glad tmr no meeting. phew....
hm... o well...

oh, im not a checking out kinda girl! juts feel like saying this ba.. cos sam was tlaking about it just now(long story) and yeah.. me just thought of that part which im different from other girls.. so ya.. my fren was so sure me and m,y girl frens sure tlak about guys all the time and stuff. when i say i don do that like ever, even him heard that was like..' u really didnt??? u're so weird.. are u a girl anot?? =.='' '. lol.
anyway, was telling sam about how ok good looking sabrina's fiance is. actually im relaly happy for her. she. not say a super pretty woman. but like i said.. her persoinailty, really shines=) and her fiance is one great lucky man to;ve finally propose to her. took him so long! XD
anyway yeha.. hope they live happily ever after. may her god bless her always =)
she deserves a great man. dunno if he's great, but yeah. i sure hope he is one. =) anyway they've been together for 10yrs . so yup... happy blessing for her! cant wait to see her in september =)

mata

Always Sleepy

gosh.. im so soooooooooooooooooooooooo sleepy and tired!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

dunno why.. not enough rest still? i slept 7 hours! gosh.... no idea why. whatever the matter, im so glad tmr is afternoon shift. gosh... so tired like mad... i cant wait to head for bed.

aw... =/ abit troubling.. long story.. lazy to explain.. anywya, it sjust that.. sigh.. i guess it sorta became a big matter eh about me asking info for the transfer.. and.. well, gosh.. its so.. haiyo...
sianz.. small matter, became everyone know .haiz.. hope will be fine ba.. i mean.. no troubles..

zzz... sleepy desu..

erm what else.. .so.. yeha.. gonna have a long 3 days ahead..=/ tues meeting.. then straight next day mrg shift.. haiz. .gonna be mroe tired than now=/ SLEEPY lotsssss. gosh.. i cant wait to get these days over with!

gosh.. i wanna watch the shrek movie.. =/ thinking of watching alone.. but if bring mum, then wait too late=/ then no time to wakl, then gotta rush back home. tch.. somemore dunno mum finish what time.. so irregular.. hmm... o well, shall see how ba. watch alone also fine.

yawn*

erm.. hmm............. thats about it ba...

ha.. certain thigns one should never ever ask your bf about. i guess its kinda true for every guys huh. o well. .

oh i keep seeing alot of bf carry their gf handbags.. or shopping bags and bags.. OMG. NOOOOOO... that is sooo wrong!!!!!!!!!!! omg.. poor men.. so poor thing.. what are they thinking!!?? perhapp my colleague is right.. they did it becos they minght still be i the first stage of wooing progress... i think so ne.. cos scared the gf angry or what, tehn carry for her.. omg.. cannot sia..
anyway, good luck to them.

today, saw this couple.. gf chinese. bf angmoh. look like pure angmoh. then he spoke with a true blue singlish. i was like.. eh? how come ar.. then on tv, just saw a angmoh guy, with another singlish accent. O.o woo... the world is changing eh.. ha. its interesting. but ya.. not used to it in a way i guess. ha. cos used to hearing that from asians.

=( sigh.. stupid question of mine.. started the bad vibe and all... sigh.. baka3 .stupid3. =/ he say its a good thing. good to know now. but.. dunno what he noes ne.. =/ just hope he didnt get the wrong picture of what im saying. =/ sigh. wishing not.
but yeah.. calling him felt sooo much better. voices are always the best thing. if not dunno what to do. sure cant slp and feeling soooo sad=(

now so confused.. whats truth whats not..

haiz.. o well..

oh, bro started playing with other players.. using dunno what.. in ps 3. .cool eh. but he lost. lol .card game.
me also wanna play like that if have time.. gosh. .sounds exciting eh

mata ne.. =/

Lights Of Hope

ok.. gonna blog this fast. real fast. nearly dun wanna blog. cos im so slpy. tired too.

erm, yeah... dunno why also.. gosh.. super slpy .. slpt all the way in bus too. haiyo..

if only workplace don have that irritating guy. then my life would;ve been much happier and at ease.

it feels like a battelfield.. gosh.. anyway, yeha.. i try my best dont let him bother me.. he steal my customer, i can always steal them back. pfft!
irritating u know!

anyway, erm.. oh, good news ba, when i asked my manager about the go sydney work thing, she never hesitate, and she say yeah its possible. then i was like. .whoa.. .. o.. k.. however, i dont wanna get my hopes high.. as i know the visa is soooo difficult to get. yes.. im willing to do anything to be with sam. if im really heading there,.. hm,.. =/ course will miss the ppl here.. but yeah.. i wanna be with him..

however, discussions still needed, tlaks are needed... so.. yeah..... we shall see how ba... hope she wont forget about this.

anyway, praying for some good news ne.. i don wanna have high hopes like every other time.. then when turn the otehr way round, me end up sad. so yeah.. shall see how thigs go ba.. by themself..

anyway, me will keep working hard as always..

erm.. what else..

ok. .so tmr fnish earlier abit.. today abit late.. so yeha. .tmr ba.. gosh.. tues gonna be so tired=/ whole day.. sigh..

hm. wat else..

oh, tlaked with sam.. at first im done with my tlaking.. then ask him to ask some stufs.. ha. he dunno .then im like.. ok.. nvm wan.. then he suddenluy ask me 2 questions before we webcam. and yeah.. its nice. talked for abit.. theres stuff to talk about. its all good=)
but.. yeah. .dun wan him wrreck his brain to think ne..
however, his 2nd question about the stars is intriguing. cos me always wanted to ask him that. oh, and he gave me the answer i love most=D so yay!!!

kk, i gtg prepare to slp. hopefully tmr better day. gosh.. with him again. argh =.=

mata!

Fruitful Outcome Shall Be

sigh.. what a day.. =/

sleepy plus tired abit.. but dunno why.. so sleepy.. somethings not right..

anyway, .. haiz... well, so glad i ask one more time. .and so glad he tell me everythig...
means alot to me..
i..couldnt say much.. cos.. =. i duno.. could make things worse.. could make him don wan tell me anymore.. so yeha.. i just listen only..
i dunno.. i always thought that they love each other alot.. very caring.. its sweet in a way.. but then.. o well.. i duno.
my mum.. whenever she got angry or upset when my dad went drinking and causes trouble, she'll complain.. and say if not for me and bro, she would've gone to someplace esle, and support herself.. dun need to suffer like this.. that was few years back.. now, hm.. dunno.. seldom at home. .so duno .. dont think so le..
anywya, yeah... sigh.........
=/

erm.. oh.. this aftnoon was so hungry. i wonde rwhy. then my mum say becos last night i never had any dinner. =.= dots.. now then i understand! no wonder so hungry early.. gosh... then me reach workplace.. ate for about 10mins.. then yeah.. back to work..

haiz....... dunno what to say ne.. ...
o well.........

i understand how sam must've felt.. i always misses him lots whenever i saw a couple.. but.. i dunno.. ... somehow the sadness will always lingers there ba.. so... o well.. just gota kinda get used to it in a wya.. find means and ways to turn my head around...

so many years of pain huh...
didnt know he felt this way too..
but we'll make sure it'll all work out ne... so.. ..yeah....

sometimes i still wonder hows swtys god parents doing now.. they are the most loving old couple i've ever seen.. =) sooo sweet as ever can be.. aw... .thats the kind of r/z i wanna have even till on my deathbed..
anyway, yeah.. they are nice ppl.. i hope the are doing fine. miss them in a way too. ha.. though only met twice XD
o well.

sigh.. wha else.. .. ..o well. .i hope tmr will be a better day eh..

oh, found out a french guy working from above us, took a liking to one of the staff in our shop, then ask her out for dinner.LOL. and she went fo rit. OMG> BRAVE> =.='''''

what else.. ...
oh, i sent email regarding my question of the future work and stuff.. so.. yeha. .they replied.. and.. good thing i guess.. erm.. not sure how now.. but yeah.. o well.. good try ? perhaps. i duno.

he say he';s gonna prove to me how much he love me.. ..never expected to hear something like htat from a guy... never ever.. thought abou tit.. ..
but yeah.. ...dun have to prove ba.. i can see..and feel. .i should know whats right and real.. so.. yeah.. but.. yeah.. such sweet words from him.. truthful eh.. .. sweet... ..

recently , customers.. - bf pay for gf. i still dont get it. even from till atz. till now. i know.. i said this before.. i dun get the idea.. but for me. .im kinda curious of that kind of actions.. like. u grab somethieng, then wihtout words, the guy pay. curious. but i know in my stem, i will not liek it. and its gonna be uncomfy for me. lol. talk about trying to have a taste at it eh. but yeah..
it felt almost as though the girls are using tehm =/
but nah.. only some stupid girls would.
so... yeah... think2... intriguing feeling.. but.. nah. not for me. carry bag thing also not fo rme. pur-lease... guys taking handbags for ladies,.. nono.. big nono.. unless she got a bad injury somewhere near her arms or sumtin.. paying for dinner and movie tickets. drinks.. ok. .thats quite gentlement.. but for other items.. i dunno... perhaps once in a while is fine.. if everytime , ha.. not good for man eh.

theres this one time. .this gf bought alot of stuff. then bf pay. then she saw this cute pen . and uses her act cute voice or sumtin.. say plesae.. she want the pen.. then her bf.. like. .haiyo.. okok la..
then he pay. -_-''.
if its her b'day , its ok.. but if not, ha.. poor bf.. o well.. good thing me not a guy...

todya, kinda.. get to know my manager a lil better...
erm.. not bad ba.. important is, must work together well..
then.. this customer ask me if im from australia. cos my accent is liek the same with my colleague from melbourne the aussie accent. i was like... DOTS... she must be real deaf!!! aussie accent where got like mine?? oh my goodness... -_-''' good thing i never burst laughig in front of her.
but.. yeah.. the customers.. here alot better than atz. .somehow.. it is i guess.. o well..

but sometimes.. gotta bear with the rudeness they give us. .what to do, every job has its own difficulities..

hm.. sigh.. =/ i guess.. the thing most sad is.. sam is sad.. and having to endure such painful long years.. =(

omg.. i didnt know ppl are describing me as party girl. =.= cos was talking to my manager.. ask me what i like to do on weekend. .i say usuallly im a home person.. somemore i always stay at home online with sammy..
then shes like.. oh.. thought i was a party gilr.. cos from the way the staffs talk about me..
OMG. what do they know abou tme???? crazy!!! i finish work, go home alreyad. even if say out, its only to have dinner. maybe with bro.. or meet up with frens for dinenr(if sam isnt home) ,catching up..
crazy.. say until like i always go club at night.. nuts............... nuts9.... =.= what do they know abou tme. nonsense....

anyway, don cre ba. .shocking, but yeha. .not my probs.

gosh.. my fren's ear is so swollen.. after piercing his ear. see.. .stupid right.. nothing to do, pierce for what =.='' all for the sake of looking good?
then get into frenzy worries troubles. our other fren also liek that... in the end after one day, he took off, cos alreyad got pus, and yeah.. no hole liao. ha.
so. .hopefully for this guy, gdluck to him ba. =/ o well..

praying that sammys test well all well...

o well, late alreyad.. tmr sure slpy again eh.. k.. gonna go slp..

hmm.. thoguht of doing something.. something since wanna do last night... =/ ... will be abit evil of me. .but.. hm.. no harm done right?.. anyway he wont remember i think.. tha time he didnt. ha. anyway... well... just try ba.. k..

mata.

s- fate let me meet you
p-destiny brought us together

Sang It Out

perhaos.. im the worst gf ever.. sigh......................
so bad ne.. hahahahhahahah.......... u bite a patch at the back of ur hand.... and it becums red... tehn what?
sigh.. nothing is solved.

oh, i sang alot today. o well.
nothing happy eh.ha. ha. ha,.. ha.......
=/'

o well.. tmr start my 6 days straight of work ba..
i dun wanna think of anythig els.e.

erm. sigh. sorry i dun wanna talk abou tanything else........
theres nothing else to talk about..

hope its a great day for u humans out there. cheers eh. .. ha..

... mata

The Can't Be Revealed Top Secret

PHEW..... what a relived... i thought my postcard to sam isnt gonna arrive! gosh. .was worried there..cos.. yeah.. got this little gift for him.. hope it can be of good use to him.. and i took alot of work to decorate the whole card for him..
so yup... so glad its safely in his hands now.. =) yay.. and glad that he like it alot. glad he's happy =) cheers. ;) hee

aw.. tmr his test.. pray that things will go smoothly and well for him...
so many things for him to busy with.. throughout june i guess? no wonder july is the big break.. anyway, whatever the outcome is, i know he;ll do his best.. so yup.. thats important i guess.

today.. wow. .passed so fast huh.. =/ me wakye.. feeling slpy.. but yet.. yeah.. thought i should get up alreayd..
swty not online. .thought he should still be slping.. then mum called to go eat.. so me did.. then up home.. chat with sam abit for today.. he's busy. so yup.. then... hm.. online3... then me cook.. eat med.. headache mah.. then.. online3.. watch tv.. eat.. online. .basically like tat.. i need alot of rest. hope to slp soon. or perhaps after a song or 2. ha.

wow... ..u know........... there's this alien fan page about the infos of true aliens.. blah2... then.. they posted this.. about what.. proofs of the man from apollo 11 when coming back to earth, or pass the moon, or sumtin like that.. they indeed saw a spaceship.
they couldnt say anything cos they were being threatened. .then.. after about 14 mins or so,.....
the whole post is gone.
GONE

i was shocked.. i thought what sey.. then me go check their page.. no one can post anything anymore. the creator posts all gone. not a single left.
wow. its literally dead page now. O.O
its very shocking.
about what ppl can do to erase every bits of truths.. and let them remain hidden.

..gosh.. by posting this out. .would i get affected too? O.o''................. erm...... ok.. if i cant blog anymore, u should know why. ha.. .erm.. ok.. o well, im gonna blog anyway.

so.. yeah.. it definitely is becos of that post.. or otherwise its becos of all the posts the creator of that page had been posting.

this is really weird... the fact that they go all out to erase everthing.. but to us, me, and im sure ppl who read those posts before they were gone, could tell that if theres no Truths to it, why bother to erase evrything? what are they trying to hide?

anyway, its all so bizzare.... who klnows.. perhaps by tmr the page restore back huh? but.. still.. i knida doubt so.. its pretty obvious why it's gone.

=/ o well... such a obvious action... wow.. wow3...

hmm....... ouch.. my arm is abit sore. .was playing bowling with bro and redz the other night .via wii game ha.. o well.. i knew this would happenXD

hm... what else... .. ok. .so.. sigh. .tmr final off day.. after that its 6 straight full T_T huu.....
3 of that to happen.. sigh. .gambate.. ..

hm...
k ba. .thast about it..

hm. .i think theres alot to blog.. but. .dunno why... suddenly forgot alot of things.

oh, today me cooked spicy chicken wings. but to me and all, we dont think its spicy. llol. but bro say its nice. so yay. good.

k tehn.. guess perhaps i should hit the sack early tonight eh?
been slping late..

so.. yup.. tmr hm. .hope i get back some energy..

oh!! one more thing! the currency for aust now dropped to 1.175 T_T HUUUUUU............... i sooo wanna change all my money now!!!!! then save it up till next year.. sure can save up to 50% of my money in future. .gosh.. such a great chance/ .=/ but dunno.. wanna do anot.. haiz.. tch.. ... somemore everything just tlaking only.. dunno when is really confirm the excat date to go.. whetehr its really confirm. .and stuff. .so.. yeah. .if changed now, wait.. =/ u know..
but.. gosh.. this is such a rare cjhance to change money!!! its freaking LOW!!!!!
gosh.. could save sooo much u know.. if everythin been confirm.. then.. ya.. o well.. =/
dunno ba.. .. haiz. ..

mata ne!

Paul Is Coming To Singapore!!

remember that colleague of mine? who had a bf for 3 years, but haven met their paretns.. well, me finally get to meet him. his hair reminded me of sam's hairstyle.. ha.. well, indeed, he does look like a good boy.
she said to me before. he's really a good boy. ha.. when she said that, sounded as though she;s proud of him. =) yah. thats good. its difficult to find a good man nowadays. she say he doesnt drink, nor smoke. for a malay, wow.. surprise2... =)but yeah. he's a hockey player like her. so.. good ba.. that he actually is a nice person. maybe cos of his parents.. yeah.. those strict ones with a strong rules type.. erm. .wats that word.. .hm... .... oh yes. .traditional.. ha..

hm. .today so busy.. but good .time fly so fast.. wow.. speaknig of time.. gosh.. look.. its almost june!! can u believe that?? wow... this is kinda fast eh.. soon it'll be one year since he left... .. o well..

hm. .weird.. suddenly couldn trememebr what to blog.. =/ hmm....... ... ha. forgot le. .thought theres alot to blog..

erm.. what else.. ....... =/ *think2....

ehh.... haha.. cant think of anything!
hm... oh, that irritating guy mc again today. he say doc gib him 3 dasy mc. then today again. last min(2 hours earlier to inform than ytd) but manager say nvm lor. .since like that alreayd. .partiemrs also cant get through.. then me and him work only. cos last night also the same. .and.. yeha. .can handle.. todya. .ok actually.. but theres alot of stocks.. and ni the end we cant finish it =/

sigh.. u know.. ever since sabrina is gone, our shop ar.. haiz. .o dead and cold.. =( really miss her cheerfulness... even my colleagues also say so.. like. .u cna instandlt feel hte atmosphere is so different.. =( so cold.. and the storeroom wow.. i have nver seen it to messy like today before. ever. tmr the manager aka team leader, is gonna arrive early in shop and clean up. gosh.. hope will be a success.

gosh! june 2 paul is coming to our shop!!!! our boss husband!!!!!!!!!!!!! O.O!!! omg.. i hope my boss will be here with him. .but.. i think she;ll be too busy to come ba? =/
gosh. i admired her so much. and her partner is coming here!! omg.. felt as though a super star is coming.. i cant wait to see him. he must be a great person eh.. to be the partner of our wonderful boss =)
well, dunno who she is? hm. .lazy to explain. ha. think i've said it before in my blogs ba.. anyway, she's like us.. a normal person, who knows nothing about business, ended up being such a ... wow.
sooo inspiring!!! soo owanna meet her one day. .i hope. =)

hm.. haiyo.. cant think and blog alreyad.. =/ me sleepy!!! late alreayd. .gosh.. k.. its my night. .so ya.. me go slp now ba.. cos after my off, gonna be 6 full shifts.. huu.. hang on pauline!!

mata

MC Twice!!

dunno where to start.. hn.. starting of dya is very tiring ba. cos.. was waiting for sam to online in morning.. but he never appear.. but. .o well. .of course gotta prepared for that.. cos he might be in a rush.. me just wana chat abit since me din get to hear from him mah.. =/(so not used to it)so.. ya. .then.. go work. very slpy and tired. .me short cut evrything k. =/

then breaktime.. me slp.. then go back work.. then got asked by manager to stay back and work full.. i really declined. .even my fren also ask me to stay.. bt she off tmr. .but she say got dunno what son thing to attend tmr. .=/ i felt soo bad. .sigh... =( but i really wanna , and need to talk with sam. .everythign feels so wrong.. outta place wihtout any news frmo him =(
my colleague ar!! mc last min! argh. no way im doing this again!!!! pfft. gonna be with asm no matter what.

so got home.. still feeling down.. sam wasnt there.. think he's eating.. so.. blah3.. me bath. .and yay.. he's back.. then we chat.. tehn got better. .and i feel much better..
then me finally get to eat!! me eat no nothing u know. so ya.. finally had my dinenr.. jjust nw. ate alot. ha. now thirsty =.= haiyo...

oh.. hten sam say theres a job offer from his fren.. at a hotel.. see how ba.. he'll know if its good anot. .pay sounds goood.. but parking car. .hm.. i just hope those snob rich ppl wont do anythign bad or fierce =/ thas all.
well, he'l lknow... so.. up to him.. will support his decision.. whether he want it or not.

hm.. what else. .me so slpy and tired. .brain cant think much well.. erm. .oh, my colleague in bus. ..omg.. cos t was so cold, he actually blew out this white air from his mouth!!! like overseas sia.. me tried doing it. .but no white smokeT_T
haiyo.. if only me know how to do that too... relaly amazing desu.. to see ttat in sgXD haha.. bus somemore. lol

hm.. oh.. was wondering.. what will happen in life for sam had he not been outta sg.. i.. time time to me would actually wonders at that.. like. .wouldnt our relationship be full of laughters always, me can get to know his family better .. no tears of sadness.. knowing that he's leaving..
.. hm. .guess.. about this knid of relationship ba. .then he can stay over time to time =) hehe.... ^^
ii na....

aww... =/ sigh.. wish i could kissy his arm.. injured himself again =( huu....
i pray that he'll get well soon..

oh.. tmr is tues.. finally.. my off is coming..T_T yay.. cant wait for tmr to be over. .then sam is off also after tmr school. yay fo rhim.. aw.. he's so busy though.. ..
hm. .sigh. .but after my off, me gotta work for 6 days. haiz.. =.= hang on ba girl..

oh, my colleague, the irritating one, actually go and tel my manager i say no. when he asked me for the whereabouts of contacts numbers. manager scolded him. yay.. one, for mc last min, another, for about saying me say no. gosh.. stupid sia.. anyhow say.. pfft..

k, me sooo thirsty!!! k, gonna slp soon.. glad tmr wakey leter abit. .phew..

haiz.. hope my fren is ok =( feel bad .. she also no look happy.. haiz.. ..

mata ne...

Huu.. Stucked Without Him

me so sleepy.. morning wakey, i tell u.. really its like.. u know the feeling.. of u taking a nap, then about 2 hours wakey? yes.. thats the kind of feeling i had this morning. alarm rang, me wakey.. felt as though its a short2 nap =.=''.. gosh.. like never slp sia..
then yeah.. whole day quite slpy.. till breaktime.. then felt better.. o well, its a very busy weekend. this whole weekend=/ dunno why.

k/. =/ sorry. gotta type fas make this blog short. cos rushing to get thigns done.. then gonna wait for sam wakey.. see how ba.. if no time. .i guess he gotta just go straight to school alreayd.. might not se him online. .nonetheless, im willing to wait..

erm.. so.. sigh.. felt so bad. .my colleague supposed to start work in late evening. then mc. =.= then no one to do closing only one person.. so.. =/
o well. .at least got ot money ba..

anyway, main thign me wanna say is, huu.. my heart felt soooo heavy=( SUPER HEAVY. cos thinking how is swty.. cant msg.. cos no time.. then haiz.. so wish to see him..
so wish that i could go home.. me felt sooo bad. =( sigh..............................
however, he need to slp early.. so yeah.. hope he's slping tight now..
miss him so much ne.... huu..
what lies beneath my smile is the face u can tell.. a face without smile and with the hints of sadness lingering right there.. =/ yeah... thast how i look if u look at me closely... =/

k ba. .tmr me break time gonna settle my card thigny. so stupid mistake i made =.=''... haiyo.. so yeah. .hope could rush back on time. if not, me no lunch to eat le=/

k, jaa mata.

p.s sorry short blog. nothing much to write anyway. but yeah. thast it.. kk, me gotta rush. dry hair and stuff.. jaa

Kawaii 'O.o'

haiz.. find my fb fren irritating. . if i'd read the whole comment, i wouldn've replied =.= waste my time.
anyway, long story ba..

erm.. so.. today. .after work, felt sooo bad.. bro end up going uss alone. .and watch the shrek movie 2 alone.. =( but i really miss sam alot. .aznd i wanna be home with him.. plus im very sleepy.. so.. i chose to go back. .but yeah.. sigh.. felt so bad when aboard the train.. however, i do not regret my decision. its the correct one.

hm.. dunno sammy will be watching what movie for tmr night eh.. anyway, at least he get to unwind himself for abit.. good thing eh..
but he'l lbe so busy.. ..

ha.. though i was very tired and slpy, its teh right choice.. to see him through webby.. he cracks me up.. XD so cute.. he really resemble the onion head character.. naw.... =D


today.. sabrina dropped by.. ha.. due to my fren's influence, she wanted to start a scrapbook.. just try to do one. .about singapore. ha.. so she took some pics in the shop. can twait to see it. hoepfully she'll show us when she completes it.

k, rushin gto complete blog. .cos me wanna slp!!

last night .slpt late.. cos keep tossing around. .wondering what went wrong.. i started to doubt myself.. which part of me. .whcih part. .that i never tc of sam.. how do i care for him.. in what ways. .how... is it caring? or sumtin else.. i start to think back.. questionining.. =/ then.. haiz.. fell aslp..
sam.. is swt.. he assures me i did. .and that i did it but his parents.. well. .din see that..
so.. yeah..

i asked my colleagues.. how they met their partn;ers parents and stuffs.. one of them say haven met them for since they started going out for 3 yrs.. cos the parents kinda too traditional.. against that she's a chinese while they are malays.. and the parents not ready to meet her yet..
=/
tehn the other, say her mother in law doesnt like her. but now after married , beter liao.. she say.. all mothers are like that wan.. then me htinking.. =.=.. are my parents too nice? lol.. they are the most easy going i guesss? as long as i like, and he's a good nice guy, my mum is ok le.. so yup...

hm. .so.. well.. kinda nice i guess? not say nice. .but abit glad. .that at least some other girls is facing the same probs.. but i duno.. they waooried the wife cant tc of husbands.. aint it suppsoed to be the females side parents, worried that guy couldnt tc of their daughters more?? O.o

ha. .dunno ba,,

oh!! lol.. its hilarious.. sam was doing this expression ''O.o'' unknowingly.. when we webby just now. omg its sooo cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol... sosososo cute.. its alwyas the best when someone did something they din know , and it turns out so great. =)
hahaha..aw.. so gonna think of htat(him) and head to lalaland.. .he made my night great.. after yeah.. me felt bad for bro.. so yup.. hehe.. .its nice =)

gosh.. so cute.. (^.^)
nawww~~

erm what else.. hm. .k.. hang on for tmr. .then night can see sam le. gonna be slpy i think . so many customer today.. haiyo.. k.. ganbate!!!

oh saw sam's pic of some jersey shirt thingy.. its cool.. well.. dunno why this happen, but ha.. well, at least everyone wore it eh.. .. i thought what. till tonight.. ..

hm.. erm.. =/ ok. .thast it? hm.. kk.. gtg slp!!!!!!

mata ne!

Farewell Supper For Sabrina T_T

hmm..=/ in a little while more, im gonna get ready to head out.. yeah.. for the farewell supper for sabrina.. why so late? cos gotta wait till all the staffs finish work at 10.30pm. haiz.. no more off already.. tmr morning shift somemore. .would so rather stay home. but like i said last night.. yeah.. all for sabrina ba..
but me still feeling lazy to go out. ha.. haiya.. just gonna get it over with. hopefully my stomach still got place for food ba.
my mum just now approached me. .ask me don drink ar.. lol.. cos dunno hows my new colleagues.. unlike my old colleagues..i know them all.. blah3.. .haha.. but o well... i know why she worry.. but i'll be fine. just a dinner thats all. hm. .wonder if they bought anything for sabrina as farewell gift.. thought they wnna do some photo taking or sumtin.. hten end up dinner. see how later ba.. maybe they already bought something. then me will just chip in some money too.

yay.. these few days been raining. good2... cooler.. hm.. nothing much to do todya ba.. =/ online3.. watch tv and eat.. then wait for sam to come home. so me slp abit.. then wakey.. then cant slp.. but stil lfeeling kinda slpy now.. so ya..
haiz.. dunno tmr how.. bro say wanna bring mum to uss.. =/ he off mah. then me till evening.. if gottta rush to uss.. haiz.. gosh me gonna be so tired tmr.. =/

huu.. but overall, i miss sammy la... huu......

haiz... anyway, still haven get to chat with him much.. i doubt could do that ba..
almost 8.. and think he's still bathing..well, at least for abit is good ne.. ..

*yawn.. dunno why still slpy.. no energy like htat..
oh, my chair.. weird sia.. no matter how i bounce on it, i cant seem to push my chair down. yess.... i lifted up the lever alreayd.. ..but. dun think its my weight right?? or is the chair stuck.. O.o anywy, gonna ask the heavierXD redz to help me if he's here. hahaha...
bro always make fun of his weight. lol

hmm.. .so yup.. =/ o well. .guess i'll be very tired then.. anyway, might be my last chance tonight to say goodbye to her. so yup... hope all is well for her ya. wonder who else is going O.o.. if too many ppl, then .. gosh.. how to find seats O.o wonde rif my new manager got book any seats anot.. hmm =.= anyway, see how ba. not like i get to have nice food at other place every so often. so.. o well... one of the rare night..

yay.. cant wait for my pay.... hope to get it soon.. hmm........
i guess.. now that thigns come to this,. ... i dun think.. sammy could make it back here on his own even if he save enough.. =/ isnt it... ... sigh.. o well.. next year july huh.. .. feel so long..
thoguh weeks are are passing super fast due to work.. .... see... ..almost june.. erm.. not yet.XD lol. but soon will.. then.. july will be here.. then.. my birthday.. then.. .i dunno what to do with my birthday... =/ will i really be celebrating it with my fren who's birthda is one day easrlier than me? or. .maybe its same old fashion way again.. boring.. haiz.. i dunno...
this year.. i guess i start to look forward again huh?. .. cos last year i totally wasnt. cos sam is here.. then sam is all i look forward to.. and then..sam is leaving in july... so.. maybe thats why me no mood to look forward the days ba..
haiz..

i felt like a vampire.
XD LOL. its like. .no matter whats my age, i dun feel like what my age is feeling. its as though.. thats just a number. i dun 'grow' with it.
i dunno.. i dun feel any different.. nor is there any much change.. like.. just living through the years.. i dun feel what other ppl might be thinking.. u know. .like say.. oh by this age u gotta save this amount, u gotta be more mature, u gotta have children, gotta have a mind of your own.. etc...
i dunno.. now that i think of it.. yeah.. not much changes occured as though.. just the years passing by... and.. ..im still myself. .but. .perhasp. .alil bit more wiser? ha.. its all thanks to sam.. =) i learned to 'fight' back cos of him. and to protect myself.. and learn how to say no.. haha.. without him, i think i'll still be saying yes3 to everyone i know.

haiz.. 8.10pm alreayd... =/ sianz.. just get this night over with ba..

hm.. what else.. .. forgot alreayd.. .. hm.. .k ba. hope tmr me still can survive the slpyness.. T_T
think bro really chose a wrong time to go uss. see how ba.. if mum don wan go, then.. ya. wont go.
hm.. would she?=.=
weird.. anyway k ba. thats all..

mata ne...

Onion Head!! XD

today.... hm... passed so fast=/
ok.. so my cooler finally been changed. .and it should work fine now.. haven add ice and try yet though.. hm.. today.. watched anime with sam.. he's busy with his work.. but yeah.. still get to chat with him here and there.. and its so funny.. got alot of this cute character called onion head.. msn icons. .lol. .sooo cute!!! he's my new favourite character besides cinnamoroll. =) really like it. ha..he kinda looks like samXD lol.. so kawaii. can picture sammy doing all those. ha.. cute =3

last night.. bro left living room, go shower.. then me.. alone.. sudddenly thought of wha happen in the day. .then closes my eyes.. see sammy there.. huggie me and touchy my head softly... i feel so secure.. aw.. even though sad.. still dun wanna open my eyes.. yeah..

o well, at least.. hm. .today a better day ba.. .. tmr night. haiyo.. still gotta attend the farewell supper for sabrina.. fri working mrg somemore.. haiyo... not gona have any much slp for sure.. =/
but.. this thing.. i dont think its good to excuse ba.. .. sabrina is a really3 great person. and from her, i see how serious and passionate one can be for a job.. i learnt from her, like the way she's so dedicated to her job.. and.. she's gona be outta sg alreayd.. i should say goodbye right? but she will be back in september for abit or sumtin for her fiance. .then i think they going back togeter.. back to nz.. aww..... sad.. cant see her no more.. =(
wonder if tmr may be our last meeting eh..=/ haiz...
oh. .she;s funny.. that time i asked her if she;s happy to leave and back to her place alreyad.. she say course not! i ask why.. she say 'because chris is still here!' chris is the name of her partner. ha.. yeah. .can tell she still love him alot despite the fact that they've been together for long. they alreayd living with each other for yearsss... its nice to be so sweet still =) still like a new couple eh. ha.. all the best to her. =) and to her new job. me never ask her whats her new job though..
wonder if its sales again. .cos... yeah. .she;s in this line for so long alreayd.. i did say right? she started working like at such a young age.. then in bodyshop working for 10 years.. before joining us.

ahh.. i see.. sammy's weight has gone up.. me ne.. i think down? me never weigh myself.. but.. abit scared ba.. skali 39 again.. but anyway, me back in sg, always weight down. ha...
he u[, i down. XD anyway, i wonder how it'll feels like when i hug him whne he becum 75kg... hmm.... good for him ne.. healthy swty =) yay.

hm.. nothing much to do i guess? so i took the time to record down all the contacts in my phone..
ha.. lots of workXD

hm.. what else.. .. o well. .i wonder.. if its weird.. u know.. to send letters to sam now.. the movie the notebook, the character mum kept all her letters from her bf.who sent them for a year everyday.
erm.. ..=.='' don think his mum or dad would do that ba ne.. .. ...dots.. no3. .shake head. .anyway me will ask sam if he'd received anyting.. so yeah..
ha.. me watch too much movies eh?XD

oh!! shrek 3 is coming out!! omg. .looks sooo nice!!! me so wanna watch....but...

haiyo.. today didnt get to cook..

hm.... ...... what else...

oh dear.. i actually called my ex boss accidentally!! huu.. then he call back u know.. i press cancel. gosh.. so paiseh.. haiyo.. skali he thought i called him to ask for my old job back. pfft!

hmm... .. wow... look at the date now.. in about another week's time, i'll be getting my pay.. ...
hm... .........

phone2 i want a phone.. good working one..

sigh.. miss sam..
cant wait for him to be back home.. ... =/
hm.. then.. day time.. me gonna do what ne.. ..

o well. hope wont be too boring.. if not, i could always read my ingredient book XD ha.. k.. im gonna try and find hte onion head toys.. lol. comic connection should have.. hmm.. see how..

jaa, mata ne!

Troubled Day

=/ sowie.. never blog anything last night.. was too tired and slpy.. somemore theres too much bad thigns going on.. i got so much to blog. i dunno where to start.. dunno how to talk.. lazy to think.. so never blog at all. .just need a good slp.
tch.. =/ perhaps i'll miss out some details.. cos. .forgotten what thigns happened. .ha .anyway. yeah..

erm... ytd was a bad day. hm.. firsly, morning.. finally found out that bf family dun like me. then that line seems like a blade which cuts through my heart everytime i think about it.
sigh.. but.. so glad sam understand.. i didnt realised it too.. that.. my first meeting with them is so different from other couples.. usuall ycouples just meet over dinner and stuff.. then slowly get used to each other. .somemore im shy and reserved by nature.. =/ sigh.
hm.. was sad for hte rest of day.. but then nighttime ..somehow cos of sam i guess.. maybe he gib me the support i needed.. the.. now feeling betetr.. uh huh..
but.. i was thinking... .. why cant the parents show RESPECT for the son? .. =(its not an interview for hte parents.. i mean.. . isnt it more like.. important part is what kind of personalty the girl has, is she kind, is she a nice person? like. .isnt that most important? =( sigh.. the son is gonna be with the girl for the rest of his life.. Not the parents. am i right? so.. ..why is the parents choosey.. not son? ppl always say its for our own good.. then never realized that by doing that, they are not showing any respect to us. nor try to understand how we feel. arent they young like us even once? htey should;ve gone through this too. ... i dunno.. perhaps some ppl dont..
i was thinking.. who knows.. if i was a rich girl from a good family background, from some whatever popular god school. no one might cares what type of girl i am.
=/ heartpain sia talking about this part. .still.. theres nothing to be shameful of. im proud of who i am. and especially my mum. take me for who i am, or leave it.
u know.. if it wasnt for sam for who he is, i think i would've given up long ago if its other guys... spared from all these heataches and tears. but ya.. love him alot.. so.. thats why im still with him. willing to work together with him..
today.. hopefully will be a better day..
he's doing his work now.. so.. yeah..

ha.. my mind is complete blank now..

erm.. what esle. .oh the cooler. .gosh. .so angry.. they gib us a sample piece!!! gosh.. heading back there to change again.. dunno dad willing to do so anot. .cos he doesn tliek us buying it. =/ see how later ba.. gonna make a call..
haiz. .so troblesome=/but luckily these few days are cool. not warm. so good ba. today weather also good. ok ba.

gosh.. my pay is over 1700. and u guess what. cpf deducted 355 fro it! T_T huu..... i know.. cpf is good. .in future wanna buy house, and anything, can use.. but still.. .haiz.. my 355......
but yeah.. wow. .feels good to have a 1700 over wort of pay. cos of the ot i got.. o well.
its good though. i guess.
but come to think of it, so baka.. its not 40hours we work per week..(sabrina said so when she interview me) it will never be 40hours per week. however, nvm.. meanig i can get ot i guess?

hmm.. dunno what to do now.. feel kinda paiseh if wana go ntuc. i think my family is very popular in ntuc now.. cos we keep going back to exchange! argh...
sianz...... anyway, all these troubles had better be worth it.

erm. .what else.. aw. sabrina huh.. before i left, i say to her. .nice working with her.. tehn her eyes widen and gib this funny expression XD funny la she...
she bought a couple of items from our shop. she also bought this puzzle thingy.. wanna hide around the house let her fiance find it. lol. she so cute despite her age. XD o well.. as long as one have an open mind.. wiht a young heart. thast so true.
anyway, yup... me would so do that alreyad.. if sam is here..kinda.. missed out on doing alot with him eh.. ..
anyway yup.. i've always wanted to do this. but i'll leave clues to one another, then lead him to find the whole prize^^ treasure hunt eh! haha .sounds fun. perhasp if hotel room is big enough, i could do thatXD wow. .great. cant wait. add that to my list of doings again. =)

hm.. im calling up the manager of ntuc soon.. gosh.. so mafan..

hm... oh my phone.. theres probs to it again. =.= now i cant view my inboxx after i press cancel. haiz. troublesome.

see. .thast why i say.. ytd so many thigns gone wrong =/
plus one customer. nah, not worth talking about it.

hm.. today.. shall see how ba.. dunno wanna cook anot. .cos if bring the thing to chance, most likely i woundt wanna stay for long. cos yeah.. so called 'popular' . oh my uncle working hrere too. wonde rif will get to see him in ntuc later anot. if he's there, i'll complain about the staffs at ntuc to him. let him handle or what. see how..

hm.. feel like going out.. but nah.. rest at home with my sammy better^^

hm.. i think the irritating colleague of mine is applying for a new job.. not sure. .but i hope so. cos saw him writing on a list of paper.. hm.. will be great if he find another job.

hm. .so far.. .. like that ba.. erm.. if i thuoght of anything, i'll blog at night.

jaa, mata.

Be A Nice Lady Please!

today theres this rich looking woman.. bought a receipt file from us(where u keep track of what u've been spending.. etc..) she say its for her daughter. whose really getting outta hand. gosh.. tell me about it*roll eyes. from the way she talk, i could easily tell what kind of a person her daughter is. a brat? o well.. should've send her to africa and have a taste of the tough life.. perhaps then she'll learn. not buy her that receipt file. this kind of girl ,only know how to spend parents money. on branded, on rubbish. buy her that file also pointless. o well.. goodluck to her mum *shrugs

today really was thinking long and hard about the mobile plans.. what phone. .what plans.. how. .sigh.. i relly want a good working phone now. but.. duno how.. =/
see how ba. if only sam is here with me.. but me still get to discuss it with him just now. yeha.. what he pointed out i know.. still .. hm.. me also written down a list of whats good or not.. but still.. dunno ba.. on one hand.. not sure if internet is a thing for me, on another, i might feel like i want it cos i can msn if in case.. say.. that night out with bro and redz to have choco night.. then can online perhaps ne.
something like that.. anyway... ..hm.. tch.. gotta think another time ba perhaps.. =/ the phones aint out yet. its the showdown between htc and I. gosh3.. i cant believe im even thinking of hte possibility of getting a iphone. =/ dots.. i dont like. but.. haiyo...
thats why.. me gotta think carefully... .. hmm =/

awwww.. .tmr my final day working with sabrina=( sigh.. sad sia... finaly day ne =( huu... today.. hm.. ok ba.. ntohign much.. nothing nice.. me just do alot of the arrangements.. the display.. its good. so yup.. at least something to busy with . hehe.

sigh.. that irritating guy.. again like. .as though trying to find fault with me. like. .something happen, think its me. trying to hint its me. saying.. 'wha did u do just now? u're the last person to use this". he crazy isit.. haiz.. thats why.. i really prefer of not speaking to him. cold war with him is much better. =.=nvm.. just hang on... .. hang on... ...o well...

hm.. what else.. tonight. .talk to sam for abit in msn.. then he of to bed. .me called him for abit. always nice to hear his sexy voice=3 NAWWWW... envy me rightXD lol.. anyway.. me just now in train, saw this couple. the gf suddenly say to bf.. as in like. .tehy were joking or sumtin. .then she pointed her middle finger up.. and say f*** you. then repeated that f you again. omg. =X i was like. .whoa.. whats gonna happen if they get married. cmon, be a lady, woman! gosh.. i can never ever imagine myself doing that to sam. NEVER.NO WAY. thas so scary. omg... slap me real hard if i ever do O.O.. gosh... but still, the sight of htem left me mesmerizing the time me huggie sammy tight in train.. then look at him.. then rest my head on his chest.. or he'll places his head on mine, or kissy my head multiple of times if he's not playing psp.. aww.. ... =) those memories will always be alive in my heart and head. andi know its gonna happen again =) me looking forward. .forward desu...............

slpy.. me so slpy still. .espeiclay omw home.. then ya.. oh.. sam used to msg me whenever im so slpy, or falling aslp in bus..that reallys helps to keep me awake u know. and not miss my stop. ha. he's my saviour too XD tlak about great timing eh ;)

tmr gonna work with the new team leader. for time working long hours with our leader. hope al lthigns good ne. think will be busy too.. cos got the lots of display haven been put up. o well. nvm.. at least tmr got htigns to busy with. somemore theres stocks coming in the moring or aftnoon. so yup... cant wait for my day to be over.
oh.. thought was a good chance to pick up the remaining movie of where we left off the other night. but sam cant watch tmr. .cos he need to study..

aw.. he study till so late.. poor swtheart=/ i dunno. .but feels as though he's giving himself lots of pressure and pushing himself heaps. aw... wish can huggie him.. and let him relax ever more...
im proud of him no mater what.

hm.. what else.. .. ok.. so.. . hm.. thats about it ba.. . hmm.... ok.. yup.. ..

k. ja, talk tmr ne.
gosh. .gonna wakey slpy again =/ for sur etmr slpy.. and slpy in bus too.. o well. ha..

mata!!

Bright Smile =)

awww..... our manager last ytd.. and she's soooo sweet!! left us all a card, as well as a different flavour of popcorn each. and she left me a card saying its great to see my bright smile light up my shop's floor. as in the working place.ha. if i see her, i'll tell her she got the nicer smile than meXD. anyway ,yup. .shall see her in 3 months time or so. cant wait. cos. ..hm.. i wanna ask her soemthing too.. ...

i got hold of my big boss email.. ... wonderin gwhat to type to her.. i wanna ask her.. regarding of working in aust.. like. .how it might be done. like. .is there a chance.. my colleague say when she was in sg, she did tell everyone that they can welcome to work for her in aust. she can arrange for that. but tehn my colleague say she meant as maybe work for 1 week or 2.. that kind of thing.. not long term.. =/ hm.. anyway, its still be good if i could get her reply.. but.. dunno .. how should i begin this. .anyway. think me better ask my team leader first. uh huh..
see how ne.. me also scared what if my boss say its 0% of chance.. =( gosh.. i'll be so sad.

ytd was my off.. come to think of it.. never spend alot of time chatting with sam at all. .yet.. felt as though he was near.. so.. somehow.. ytd i do felt. .kinda alrite.. not so lonely.. so.. yeah.. theres things to do.. and i keep thinking of him.
so yeah.. does felt as though we spend alot of time together ytd. he's in my heart ne. heh. uh huh.. i hope things will remain this way, and yup.. . thats good. wil lget betetr ne. .

aw.. the first line i read when i just came back was, something about me giving me a promise to him that i will love him only. was abit surprised .. like outta the blue.. but nonetheless am happy =)
and.. yeah.. hee... =3 of course i will.

gosh.. me so sleepy.. dunno why.. perhaps wakey early ba.. din slpt alot..

tmr. .will ganbate.. and hope tmr the cooler fan can be changed. oh yes.. the cooler. .me and bro shared money to buy it. but sigh.. as its the last piece, and its default. we gotta changed it tmr. we hoping that there;ll be a new piece by tmr.
oh please do..
lol.. i almost dun wanna buy again.. then o well. .me remembered last night.. how i felt. .so keep reminding my self about it. and yeah.. go buy.

oh.. last night watchig bro play game. .till me slpt abit late..

today me collected mum's mothers day cake. bro la. .ask me go collect. .just passed me the receipt.. haiyo... anyway, my family, for hte very first time, managed to finish up a whole cake!! medium one. omg. cant believe it. ha.
so.. thats it ba.. gosh.. me dozing off. .ha.. k me go watch tv or sumtin. glad today not so hot.

aw.. poor sammy.. sounded soo tired=/ huu... no rest yet.. sigh.. hope tmr his test will be alrtie.. dun wan him give himself too much stress... tc ne love... muakzy..


mata!!!!

Bizzare Weather

sigh... why didnt i buy the air coolerT_T huu..... so want the air cooler in my room now.. haiyo... o well.. =/ bear with it ba... im telling u.. the weather on this planet totally gone bonkers. even the regional manager also agree with me. she say even in australi its getting hotter and hotter especially each year after each.
lol. and for one, my bro recently tell me that the earth 2012 is coming to and endXD lol.... i tell him ..thats why me rather take my time.. enjoy this remaining 3 years first. be it there is or not. i dun wanna miss that out. just in case. so yup.. enjoy now ba...
do whatever one wanna do.. though i should;'ve gotten the air cooler -_-..
o well, anyway, speaking of my regional manager, sigh.. so sad.. cos the new team leader alreayd worked for 3 years. so the manager is going back to aust. she got 19 shops to handleO.o.... gosh. .anyway, she's always so cheery =)
she's leaving tonight=( sadly. and she gave me a hug, and a flying goodbye kiss when i last saw her. aww... such a nice lady.. =/ so gonna miss her. the world need more ppl like her. serious.

today... ha.. surprisingly, its sat. .and.. i didnt do anything much .erm.. me never even watch tv till late dinner timeXD hm. .yeah.. so do my stuff... me. .couldnt quite slp well.. morning.. auto wakey.. mind's so active.. then.. online abit. .wanna gib sam a cheering msg online. .cos hp no credit... then find that he msg me alreayd. ha. so yeah.. glad i made his day. yay! =)
erm. .thenme slpt back. .gosh. .wakey soon after.. couple hours of slp only.. then.. never slpt quite well.. lets just say its the mat and fan.

haiz... stupid sia.. still thinking.. why din i get the coolerXDlol.. maybe tmr after shall see. yeahhhhh XD o well... see how ba....

gosh.. the weather is sooo freakin weird-_- i swear. .WEIRDDDDDd...... haiz...
anyway, i guess its kinda still better than freezing eh?
lol.... hey im,agine.. if one day singapore suddenly drop to 20degrees, lol..... i wouldnt be surprisedXD! erm.. perhaps just a lil. hahaha... that will be really interesting eh.
however, its ok.. i like to absorb the sun every now and then still. i guess i prefer have a lil darker tone eh.
duno. XD

o well, anyway shall see how about hte cooler ba. i hope i can made up my mind asap.
maybe tmr call bro to help me carry upXD.

erm.. k.. thats about it.

may tmr be a good day ne.

aw.. sabrina last working day is on my off day.. huu.... sad. =/ dunno wanan drop by and visit her anot. haiz.. mafan ne..

..and dunno hows the farewell thingy going on.. like alot of different plans as though O.o
up to them ba ne..

mata ne....

Waiting(wishing)for my wish to come true...

hm.. i think me forgot what i wanna write about today.. ha.. o well..

erm... oh.. sam just read the book i gave him today... so.. yeah.. well, its basically a book that teaches ppl on how to get through a ldr... for couple who cant see each other anytime they want..
so yeah.. just some lil tips and bits.. it.. kinda helped me alil i guess? so.. well, let him read through.. and.. yeah.. just revise them or sumtin. ha..

woo.... today.. very exciting =) i collected my thing today =)
i cant say what it is. next time then will let u guys know. hehe. basically its something special.. i bought it cos i wanna give it to sam. and to also kinda like.. have it make sure that its me who give something to him. so he'll know its truly from me.

aw... that night sam get to watch abit of ps i love you. a movie. me ne. .like. .wanna watch, but don dare either... =/ really can affect us alot.. these type of movies..

sigh.. at first i always think... like. .what happen if i really work for a long time, then would i get a chance to work in australia too? even if it aint sydney, at least im nearer to sammy.. then.. theres this day.. i asked about how sabrina get to come singapore.. she say cos her fiance is coming to sg to work.. so she actually wanted to quit or sumtin. .tehn they send her here to sg and work. and they did the working visa for her. so i asked her about the visa to aust. .yeah. .she say its even more difficult than singapore. cos u have to proof something2.... dunno what she;s talking about. but yeah. .somehting about showing them' that i can work.. or something.. proofs.. blah3....
=/ o well.. sigh.. still.. welll.. .if u ask me.. .=/ the chances seem sooo low.. but.. at least. .there might still be a glimpse of hope yet... at least better than none right? even if its an empty hope. .i'll rather carry it with me.. through and all. .work hard. .and pray that.. it might turn out to be my wishing star that could shine one day..
so.. yeah. .pray for me aites..
if not.. well.. the only way i could be with sam is for him to marry me. i would love that. but.. i would rather see him earlier. see him everyday... so.. sigh.. hoping someday.. i can really have this chance to go over.. for work. if not. .its gonna be a long wait.. then i can be his wifey..and see him everyday..

...o well........ ..abit heavy hearted.. but.... =/ ....sigh.. stupid ne.. they made it so difficult for anyone to go over and work =( sigh.. stupid2 aussie... sigh... hate them...

..o well.... ... see how my future goes ba.. hoping i can stay with this company for long.. but. .no one knows the future.. who knows what and when anything that can change my future happens.. for now, i guess all i can do is follow this 'plan' ne.. hoping and waiting for the chance to have my wish fulfilled.....
huu......

today.. afternoon is busy.. time passes fast. .not bad. .and our new team leader finally arrives in singapore! so yup... hm... what else... ...
like that ba.. ..

sigh. .guess my mind now is all on the working in sydney.. and being near sam again..
otherwise.. the other times i can see him for long, might be if he ever come here for attachments.. that, i'll be waiting.. then.. yeah.. the rest, ... just me go over for holidays.. vice versa.. hm.. yeah... ..
hang on ne....
..haiz....
of all places... ...gotta be that difficult place eh.. =/ ..

mata

Keep Smiling For You

the other day theres this customer.. dunno from where.. say asked me where i pick up my american accent. -_-''''' dots... i say no.. i don have one.. he say yes i definitely do.. -_-'' ... anyway, dunno ba.. as long as i dont get dis can alreayd..

today me shopped for some stuffs.. yeah. then reaches home just on time.. then sam back home shortly after too..

me came across this cancer charity thingy.. me learned to say no! haha.. really difficult to say no.. but yeah.. i finally did.. i say im not interested.. bnut my face look so quilty.. paiseh to turn them down ba.. ha..

haiyo..me so sleepy now.. been 2 great off.. sat think will be able to enjoy too. cos sam is with me. he made my days=) been happier. yay...

oh! and he won a mars choco bar today. haha.. yay.. he won something too =)

tmr... hm.. me should be working with hte new manager or sumtin ba.. erm. .lets just say.. the new manager 2. so yup.. gonna do my best.. me closing with sabrina i think..
working with her always got more vibe than usual =)

aww.. .saw some nice sushi thingy.. but didnt get.. =/ cos no chance to make for sam.. =/
so wish i have someone here to make lunch boxes to everyday.. or so. would be so nice ne =) hehe. o well.. gotta wait till future ba..

hm.. forgot what me still need to say.. erm... ... so.. basically.. oh! today finally i got a chance to wear my new tee. lol.. been about 1months plus, then me got a chance to wear. XD
haha.. so yup.. yay. .finally wore it..
and took lots of pics. omg. but very cute tee ne. haha.. aw.. cant wait to go back and play... huu.. so wanna bring sammy along.. even if he don wanna take the rides, we can take lots of pics together ^^
they got very nice views there ya..

i think.. im feeling happier these few dasy.. cos of sam ne.. =) these couple of days.. like. . nothing much to worry about.. me just focused on him., on seeing him.. talking to him. .so far so good=)
gosh.. just don wish my pms hit too bad when it strikes. =/

missing him ne...

gosh.. my phone.. tch.. how ne... what type of phone is for me.. should i get a camera too? ..kk.. wait. .slow down... hm.. .take my time.. figure them out. .research2....
to sign on or not.. i dun think so.. but.. hm... -_-''.. kk.. stop thinking first. and save. ha..

k.. tmr another good day ne. happy at the thought that we off together =)

mata ne!

Midngiht Date Great! =D

last night(or this morning) i had such a wonderful midnight date with sam. i asked my manager to give me the permisssion to run off as soon as i step outta the door. .so i dun have to waste time wait for them to lock door.. then risk missing my train.
anyway, we were really excited for our midnight movie date =)

so yup.. theres alot of smiles.. really nice midnight movie.. but only a pity the movie couldnt load fast enough.. thats all.. but yeah.. other than that, most importantly , the atmosphere is great. .very nice night =D hehe. . its really nice to chat with him especially at night =) he can laugh as loud as he want.. and yeah.. hehe.. just relaxing ^^ chats.. =D
me smile till my cheeks feel sore.. lol.. relaly.. been smiling and smiliing.. ha.
then yeah.. he said.. about 7 years to go... we were talking about the first night of marriage.. erm. .yeah. .XD ha.. private story. dun wan say here. lallaa.. .=P anyway, me cant wait for ;that' to happen.. ^^ we're waiting =)

then ytd i found out that i won a make up hampers!!! whoa!!!!!!!!! lol.. cool. its awesome. happy. haha.
cant wait to share this piece of good news with sam. and yeah.. finally i did,. he's happy for me too =)

then morning.. me force myself to wakey early.. took a bad to collect my prize.. bro say he know the way.. i ask him to go with me.. he only willing to go if im taking a cab.. =.= ha .. so yeah.. then the driver forgot to turn on the metre! hm.. dunno.. hope i never overpay him.. ..
then bro wanna collect his dolls.. so we went to this place.. omg.. so freaky.. even the shop owner too.. look like a doll .O.o *deng3 anyway, yeah.. redz say we brave enough to go there eh.. skali he trapped us in there. no one know. relaly sia.. cos the place so 'uru'.. really if we kena trapped there liek 'the saw' or sumtin, no one know. anyway, the owner, and thecat, all look so creepy.. got this weird vibe about them.. expecially when the shop is full of dolls.... -_-'''''' ..glups. uneasy.. ha. my bro felt even more uneasy than me. lol

the new manager or dunno who she is arrived ytd in our shop. when she stands next to sabrina, i could tell they are both blondies, but yet different.
she is very pretty. very infectious smile she got. always smile3.. omg. on the other hand, sabrina, never put on much make up as her. she's just a normal next to door girl. only apply the same brown colour eyeshadow everyday.. but yet. this is the evidence. looks doesnt mean everything. though they're both great persons. very frenly. but sabrina, she's cheerful.. always smiling.. and being hyper sometimes.. she definitly got more colourful personailty than the new one from victoria.. thats the difference. .tehy stand next to each other, i could tell who looks prettier. but yet, sabrina personailty still is the best =)
gosh.. sigh.. gonna miss her upbeat attitude.. =/

she told the new manager or sumtin that im very good with sales. on the sales floor. omg.. i blushed! i was like. whoa.. such a compliment.. aw.. i really need to thank sabrina for this.. =;) no one ever saw this in me while i wrked in that stupid previous place.. im glad.. that finally someone can appreciate my work.. for the thigns i do... and not treat me as a blur girl who will fumbles at work.. i hate it when the boss or whoever thought of me this way. cos i know its not true.
they just never see the truth.

anyway.. yeah.. im gonna work my way up.. just work.. and.. yeah.. hope its a good route...

aww.. gonna miss sam.. tmr me off. can chat with him again.. hee.
oh me gonna head out for abit.. get some stuffs.. finally got a chance to get. .. tehn yeah.. gonna be home early i hope. like today =)

oh.. me din know till last night.. lol. i can actually post my pics to fb. but i didnt . cos need to pay. what for i do that. ha. but yeah.. me din know till nowXD

hm.. k then.. tmr will be anotehr good day i hope. hopefully for sam too. let him smile more tmr ne.

jaa, mata!!

Only Good At Last

aww... managed to talk abit to sammy before he went to slp.. better than nothing ba.. miss him more alreyad..

hm.. sigh.. today.. not so great.. =/ then... kena 2 customers.. bad one.. one is angmoh lady, the other a chinese man.. sigh.. long story.. im tired to type out..
hm.. then.. worked with that guy.. sigh.. 2 of us only.. gosh.. i keep lookling at the clock.. good thing wasnt too boring for long.. cs got customers.. still.. haiyo...

then.. got home.. thigns get better when i managed to spend time with sam. naw..

hm... tired now.. finally my nose unblocked alreayd.. still. .abit runny.. bt yeah.. much better. .hope my throat will heal soon ba.

the other night while havin gour chocolate drinks, ha.. theres this angmoh and a chinese woman. sat beside my bro and redz. i never heard much of what the couple was talking about. but my bro and redz heard everything. he say they talk so loud like.. want eveyrone to know like htat. and the woman is so irritating. trying to give out a fake accent. XD then the angmoh try so hard to make jokes.. say what.. u like gummy bears? cmon!''
lol.. dunno ba... nowadays.. i kinda pity the chinese guys here.. =/ like.. alot of womens kena snatched away by those foreigners liao. XD

wow.. today i saw alot of nice pressies for sammy.. gosh.. i wanna buy htem all.. huu... but.. but cannot.. im still thinking how.. =/ if don buy now, the thigns will be gone soon. but buy now, gotta keep for so long.. and.. dunno ba.. haiy9o.. those gifts requires me to be with him . then can complete. im keeping mum here! hehe. but yeah..sigh.. wish i got the money to go see him. then i can do whatever i can.. and make my plans worked.. tehn gonna surprise him with lots of nice memorable goodies. ^^ but.. haiz.. cannot ba...
dunno wanna buy now, then keep till next yera.. or what.. hwat if theres something better come along.. then i buy alreayd.. wasted right.. =/ hm.. .... tch.. tmr me see how ba...
very tempting pressies.. sigh.. just wish i could complete it.. =/
but. .can only be done so after i seee him...

haiz.. next year eh.. ... im waiting.. ..waiting... sigh.. sounds as though.. yeah.. o well.. i try my best not to think its still over a year's time. ha.. .. o wel................................. ..

hm... what else.. hm.. forgot alreayd.. what els eneed to say..

me tired ba.. and sleepy.. yay.. finally tmr.. after work, thigns will be great. i cant wait to have a midnight movie with sam. but.. hm... i really wish the net will be fast enough.. still gotta load movie though.. unless from youtube.. i dunno.. shall see how then.. hope works well
heh.. like. .theres special moment to look forward eh... like a 'real' date. o well.. just gotta say, its very exciting =) as though.. hehe. .we planned this earlier on. anyway yeah... =) hehe

hm... oh.. the other day.. was it ytd? gosh my memory.. erm.. i think so.. i saw this perosn.. i thoguht he was my fren!!! gosh... they look alike!!!!! its so scary.. from the side view.. totally the same. he's a customer who came into our shop. then i finally decided to pick up the courage, and try to talk to that customer.. then i get to see his front view. really lok different frmo my fren. but yeah.. wow. .teh side view.. i have never ever seen someone so smiliar before..

then i went to eat with my bro.. a guy was covering his mouth.. then i saw his eyes.. look like sam.. ..haiz.... aw... i miss him too much ba.... lol. then i tell my bro.. he look like sam.XD omg.
but no one can take his place. ever. aw... i cant wait to see him ne.. huuuu =/

today bumped into my fren. such a coincidence.. hm... yeah.. she's doing good too i guess.. also still with her bf... she got into a relationship around the time i do.. so yeha.. im happy for her ne... =)

hm.. what else...

o well.. basically my day just gotten happier when sam is here just now.

k.. gtg..

mata ne!!!

Bad Sad Day =(

oh.. i just rememebred.. ssabrina that day told me.. whne i went back to work.. sales nt good.. cos i wasnt there!!XD hahaha... aw.. so nice huh.. finally theres someone who knows i can work.. .. o well..
someone who wont treat me as a blur staff..

gosh,.. im sooo osleepy now=/ very very... im gonna type short and fast. cos im so tired. i didnt slp... im soooo sleepy and totally tired like mad now... =/

i cant wait for the tues midnight movie date with sam.. i hope its gonna happen.. but yeah.. cheers e up after he said that.. dunno why either. ha. cos happy ? anyway.. sigh,.,,, today such a bad day.
=(

i ddun wanna talk about it. relaly no energy for that.
i really cant ait for tues night. .serioiusly.. im parying the time will flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy....
huu................
such a sad bad slpy tired day..

oh yeah. me morning atlast get to wait for sam to online. couldnt talk much. but yah.. gd enfuff..

erm.. what else... sigh...

really in need of destress theraphy.
so hot now.. =/ k..
think im gonna head for bed in abit.. goshx... slpy!!!!!!!!!

i cant think of what to type right now.,
next tiemthen.

mata!

Sigh.. Time For Who?

sigh.... =( i just reached home.. aitn happy at all now.. =(

i somehow got this feeling that i should be home. .then.. i dunnmo.. to go home. .or to head out abit of fresh air with my bro and redz. cos hardly we get a chance to hang out at night. so yeah =/
really dunno which to choose.. a;ready told htem i was gona make it.. but. .feeling unsure.. i wanna called sammy and ask whether he think i should go home anot. .but i cant.. cos i cant hear him.. =( so wanna call him.. sigh....... stupid phone.

so.. o wlel. me went to have chocolate.. it was delicious.. i finish the choco drink within lmins. very yummy. it really looks like the chocolate factory in blue moutain sam took me.

sigh.. then got home.. guess my feeling was right. .=( sam had a bad day i think.. he never say anything about his day to me.. so.. i dunno what happen.. =(sigh........................ i feel so bad. im such a baddie=( last night never attend to my fren. tonight, missed out my swtheart. i know how that feels.. i bene through it before.. sigh.. sucks... i made them both feeling terrible. =( i chose the time for myself.. and i lost time with the ppl around me. =( tell me. what should i do?

to be or not to be. .both ways seems like a dead end to me. sigh.. i guess its just a case of wrong timing? or.. =(

..anyway, im gonna bath.. then rest abit or sumtin.. gonna wait for sam to online.. i wish3 he will online... then me can find out whats wrong.. and yeha.. huu.. i miss him so much..

todya.. still feeling sick. =/ tmr. .see how then... sigh.............................

oh sorry. ytd only postedmy blog in frenster. cos too tired and in a rush.

so yeha.. i hope morning can chat with sam for abit.. sigh... me bad... so bad.. =( baka me..... =( huuuuuuuuu
sob....................................
sob sob....

=(

mata