to be my best

hey guys

so stressed uptdoay. big set up coming soon .
cant help but feeling nervous

plsu approving rosters

sometimes i wonder like.. its ust 2 weeks of trainings my rm gave me. triningaper says 4 wks.
but she trained me only 2 weeks. and i dunno. i tink im doing good. but im so stressed out too


days i will work from home. more than 10hrs. perhhaps even more thana 12 or 13.

and .. i kow its not a gd thing. but

i keep telling myself. 'most wont, bu t i will.

event oday out with parents.. i was so .tired n slpy. i didnt have any mood. only sammy kept me up for the day when he msg me.. coupe of oents i almost cry in the day. cos i was so.. bored and fatique i wanna go home i dun wanna stay out ya know. see the unhealthy signs there? =/

sighs

just keep mving forward i guess.

this yutuber been with her bf for yrs right. thehn she recently mentioned how she mentioend to him that pandora charm mmatches her pandora ring .and they went to swazzie store, they were looking ard, by the tmie she got to him, he bought a ring and neclace frmo threre, plus pandora charm the one she wanted.

awwwww

liek even for years right, even before  or after mariage, that is the kind of lil thigns u will do for your partners . for lifetime  its not the gifts or cost that counts. but. the ability to listen, to show, to give, is so worth it.
it takes tme for couple sot learn but yet so... needed. .in a relationship.

it may just be a char. or breakfast. or a ring only.
but.
the thought that counts. is perfect

her partner, truly s a gentleman

my bro mentioned bought a chamr back frmo syf. its only avaialble in syd! oh an.. i hope i will find something like that when im tereh in amonths time

tbh... i dun feel good.
as much as i would love to see him asap.. i dun feel im ready yet.
cos oth pysiically and mentally, im just so messed up.
comepared to how i met him a year ago.
like.. now.... im so tired out. messed up... not feeling gd abt myself. noo time to go for a run, ike. litera.lly, aint the best of mysefl. and since i see him once a year, i so wish i in my tip top condition whne i see him. =/ but now i don feel like it. im so not ready. and not myself. like i feel so ... not me ya know. tired and.. stressed. and.. not happy.
sighs..

one month left.
what else can i do.
still getting usde to my new role as r.. and.. haiz.
i only wish im more psyically and mentally hapier so i can meet him in my best form

afraid. .and adding to stress that im unable to fulfill that.

whne u get to emet ur partner for once a yr, hell youlll wanna look your best. but.. im too streessed and busy to do that. i cant find my time. for myself . between work and all. sighs..

hoepfuly all tur out gd with sammy. =/

i hoep somehow i can be my best or at east 80% when i se ehim.

things so crazy esp druing saes period =((

sighs

jaa mata

wish me luck

no pain no gain

Hey guys,

been so lonog .gosh. tahnsk to sammy , it inspired me to blog this. i totally forgotten about it.

thigns i used to do to unwind, or fav thigns to do. etc, now its all been taken up by my workload. i no longer can enjoy my lil treats of scrolling through snapchats etc.. lil thigns liek that u see.

but i understad the thigns u need to give up . though i hate to say it. it isnt right. but.. the thigns u need to give up for work .
sounds wrong eh.

my syd rm was telling me how she lieks to play (dunno what thing is taht) every sat. ubt when she got promoted, she gave that up. and look. time flies, and shes in sg now.

im good with my job. but. i dont love it. love what u do is so important.but.. i dunno..

sighs. im just working 24/7. im letting the workload get ahead of me. and i understadn starting out in new roles is alsways so difficult. even syd rm also says the same thing.
she cried to her state manager. took her 4 months to get used to rm life

4 months . yup. ,my next coupe of montsh sure is getting prettier each day till 4 months. =.=

anyway jsut a lil rant. gonna get some rest now.

had 4hrs of slp and phone call from owrk woke me up.

and yea..

beenw orking till 430 since then =/

jaa mata