stressed out sales period. hate it

soooo stressed out and busyyy =/

my mum and frens caught myself staring into space(cos i was thinkin abt work )

and ive been slping late. blah3... this sales period sucks.

so much to be done

sighs

my colleague and shes the longest in this company..3 yrs. recently mc 1 week. she felt dizzy. she was sick before but almost well.. then yea one day it happen.

and doc say probably shes too tense and stress out

and recently she told me.. its not worth her health. and she finally decided to quit by jan next yr.
well after geting bonus duh

she also hav the same thoughts.. like how we envy other store staffs when we walked past the usual quiet stores

it all comes down to... yes. more money but u work ur ass off. or lesser money and for her she think she will be happier.

there was this youtuber who reecently commented tht.. .she keeps changing jobs. and one day she decided to just stop it.
and took a risk. and quit her job and do youtube.
its sad to see ppl struggling and being unhappy in their life with work.
she say shes happy now.

they all made a decision. and its a risk theyre willing to take.

for me... i duno yet. im still along the line of seeing what will happen..

cos i know they trust my capabilities.. and thinks highly of me.
..hence the added stress. cos i dun wanan disappoint them. or u know. let their expectation of me drop.
and im abt to run the top store next week. im so nnervoius anxious and worried and stress.. i know i can do it. but its just so.. .o well.

yea shld be fine bah.. .right? everything...

i saw something today at river.
its crazy
like.. gosh. why did i even bother to check it out=.=

and maybe nothing to do with it. this big doll almost fell on me (it landed right next to me) when  i was browsing. kk..better don think liao. though that image is so vivd=/

i wonoder if thats just an excuse... monthssssss ago my fren say she like it better now that shes put on weight. like fatter.
cos clothes suits her better look nicer(rather than skinner) . and ppl complimented on her that she looks better than when she was so skinny.
she say hse herself like her size now better .
then one night.. weeks ago i think? her ex bf fren saw her. and he's the v straight forward type. say it out loud. eh why u so fat now?? like keep repeating ask her. omg
cos last time they met yrs ago she was still v v skinny.

then after that night. .she took slimming pills.

and hte things she told me all opposite.

i asked her again(cos i remmeber her saying fatter is better) .. and she say.. ofc skinnier fit all clothes better. i asked.. u like urself meatier or skinnier. she say of cos when she was skinner. ppl say she look better. etc. li ke all opposite of what she told me monthsssss ago.

but those words she told me monthsss ago sounds so real.

so i duno.

taat guy ar. rrly mess her up man.
so stupid to be so hurtful and straightforward to a woman
=.=

so yea. .. maybe she didnt lied?? maybe she just forgotten how she used to like being more fleshy with her body.
she snot that fat. but... like. big size.. .abit more fleshy than being chubby.

anyway.. haiz. if only that guy kept his mouth shut.

jaa mata

worst stressful week ever =(

didnt blog last night but actually wanted to..

sooooo fed up. and i literally lost my cool first time. and also the first time i cried in store over work.

childrens running ard. mother don car.e blah3... ive so much work. im so stressed out alrdy etc... u know the scene in shrek 4 happily ever after? ... beginning of movie. his babies all crying piggies ate his cake.. balloon popping... ppl running ard. etcetc... he then lets out a big roar... then he smash his fist onto the cake,
now THAT< , was exactly how i felt. i felt shrek . liek so weird. but its the same scenerio.
i even commented loudly i dun understand these ppl.

sighs
=(

its been a rrly hectic stressful full of tasks every single day of the week. ive been slping late woke up early.
and i don slp comfortable anymore. i sooo sooo wish to move out. my fren hava  place but im not gonna waste my money and pay rent besides its too far.

so yea. if i blog last night sure words gonna be worse.

and this duno this girl in her early 20s or i duno. she look like early 20s... anywayyyy . she was with her mum. she wanna use her gold amex credit to pay. my  machine faulty. she say she want points for that c ard. hello????? its bloody $9 item!!!!!! use ur own cash. stop using ur parents credit!!!!!
get ur ass moving and get to work b****

then i say cannot work she give the abit irritated look. saying 'wasted my points'. crazy. $9 item onlky. go to next store which is etude house. like gooooooo but ofc i din say that to her. but tat face of a bloody rich girl (gold amex shld be rich family right  i think?) with that stupid look on her face pls. somemore she look presentable but her heart like this.. or rather her attitude like s is such a put off and disgusting. like legit DISGUSTIng.

sorry im getting fired up here.

theres so much anger in me =((((
like form all these stress builind up this whoel weke. lil things cust sas or do rrly irks me so much. its like im a vocalno thats why i explodede when those chikdredns keep screaming and making huge mess while im trying to refill my items

and im like wanna cry most of the time.. and im so stressed out. and i try to control it cos i dun wanna suddenly get fed u with my mum or family u know. especially when parents sometimes nagging etc.

and i duno how to release these tentions and stress =(

online didnt help
tv im not interested
usually evening time onwards my parents uses it to watch their chinese shows which im not intereted

so yea

now i feel like just shop3... shoppin g retail therapy
but tats not a gd idea either. .sighs i duno wat to do

its liek those moment if someone weer to bump into me and make a rude remark, i will probablhy give her a slap

no. not rrly ha

proably just say bitc*

sighs

ok rant over. gonna figure out how to relax later on

rrlhy wanna go out on my all. some alone quiet me time.. but always feel stress cos like leaving mum at home.

i just feel like living alonne. like.. hav my own freedom.
a nice clean space to do my hobby to slp in no bugs etc

so stress.. crying wont help. but i still cry... =(

and i emntioned befor ewhen i was in sydney sammsy fren mentioned how his gf woke up with his snoring and she was crying so badly for him to stop snoring cos she couldnt slp.. he said it was liek legit bad . and she was doing a duno fullshift day or sutin and she was tired out

now tat one i can feel too. like so tired and stressful .. things like this sure irritates and upset u, and yea ofc will cry like mad. that feleing sucks. i tottally get how shes feeling .

hoepfully i will feel better soon.

mata=/

mata