deja vu? dun wan T_T

u know those deja vu moments. .=.='''' gosh.

but i think he;s just being frenly?

see. that other time, tis guy, came in. i was hte cashier(as i'd mentioned earlier in m bblog) then he asked how long ive worked.. whats my name..
today this guy i served, asked the exact same question whislt i was wrapping his present. holy cow. =.= O.O i was like. .omg.. .i'd better wrap fast n hurry ver with. jus tin case.
'ea hte previous guy came back pretending wanna buy something. .then ask me out for lucnh remmber? i declined. liek. .u know me. i feel bad and awkward to make them sad or wahtsoever. but i have to turn them down no matter what. so yea.
poor hting .anyway, i dont think he's the tyope to come back.. but scary sia. lol. asked the same questions u know! O.o such coincidence? gosh. i dun wanna know ba =.=
he said he and his mum was here before. darn. .i hope i wont get to see them both nor him again,.
as long as me no serve him ba

anyway,
tired n slpy.
csnt wait for the day to be over with.
missh swty alot. think he's tired n slpy too. so much work to do eh
mrg shift also cant get to talk much. but better than nothing.
least i can do is send my earnest regards and love to him

gonna slp soon. so slpy ne.
so much to do.
busy. tmr i guess busier ba

stress about sales n all. .

anyway,
mm.. oh haha. my collegaue say my bottle look cute n exp. all of them noticed my new botle ^ hhaha.
theres a special way to suck n drink the water. ha. so cute  ^^ =P

anywya,
full.. gosh .late heavy dinenr

kk. so slpy liao. will slp now ba. dunno wanna send sammy gdnight msg anot. .later wakey him how.. later he cant slp again til lwee hours in the morning. .mm..
better not ba. .think he rrly nid to slp through the night ne.
hes been working hard

kk. .jaa mata ne

he's the one. my one ^^

very late. i shld be slping now. tmr wakey early.. so slpy..

anyway. .so many thigns to do in a day..

huuu =( i miss sammy alot.. huuuuuuuuuuuuu
=/ love him so much. me treat him as the only one.
the one. my one true love ^^
so yea.. rrly misses him.
alot.
but i know he's busy. so me send my silent support and love to him.
wish i could join him..
feel his warmt htouch n love ^ so nice.
you'll know how it feels when u met the one.
=) he.e... htinking about it makes me smile. lucky me.
feel so blessed to knwo he's the one fo rme. and i've found him. though. .well its kinda liek he found me first. .through phone. ha. XD long story.. anyway, its an amazing feeling. knowing he's right with me now in my heart. .not anywhere else in this world .

haiyo.. misses him so much la.. dunno can see him in the next 6 months anot.
will do my best ba. haven pay mums op yet.

anyway, wow playboy bras rrly .. me still liek it alot. it fits me liek perfect .their size. .
ok. or perhaps i shld say the aussie bra.
i know what size i shld get. unlike sg.. so many brands. yes they are gd. but.. =/ i duno. its all diff brand n size. .n.. well im just not a huge fan i guess. now im jsut addicted to playboy.
haha .nice pretty sexy degsings, and comfy. plsu fits me perfectly

rrly like a couple of the bras ive bought form there. rrly nice. rrly very nice=) rrly worth it

mm.. so far. .not as much regrets as the other trip .liek id said, this trip is way much better
cos i get to see him more ^^ hehe

anyway yea.. only regret me left with not much money. .trying not to spend more on bras.. walked past the big brasnthigs store.. offers items. .adn sammy was suggesting perhaps i shld go in se eif i can find the black bra(i bought the black n blue) special bra i like.
i resisted it. .din go.
cant bear to let him pay even though he say he dun mind.

mm.. din get to eat the ncie spicy friedrice. .but nvm. i stil lhad alot of great food thanks to sammy ^^

mm... oh no. tmr sure slpy .. o well

oh yea. .din get to go beach. .cos too cold.
evryday i must wear long sleeve.. all cover up.
ha

mm.. forgot what i'd wanted to blog ne. .in syd..
o well.. anywya just so glad we took pics. though its for that night. .but.. .better than none.
always wish to post it on fb.. or write lovey words.. on wall.. but.. yea. cant do it liek th other normal couples.
o well. .its ok.
cos i still feel the love in me from him
hehe

mm... .din tzke as much pics ba..
but ok ba.. .

yea. he's jsut rrly nice to pay most of my meals.. vv nice of him. and yes. ive said this a million times. .me loving hte bottle he bought me so much hehehe. ^^ my pressy. .nawwwww
was like thinking there. .waht to do fo rhim. .wat to get fo rhim.. wanna do soemthing fo rhim.. but its like. .im in a place not of my own.. and its seems like  its sharder to get something for him there than in sgXD
ha. like. .felt as htough he has everythign there. then too exp one cant afford. haiyo.

anyway, its always nice to see him again. foeever nice.
me stil lworking towards the goal of living in syd with him one day ^^ soon i hope.
though don think he coming la.. so yea. .me go lor. not that i mind.

so nice.. my not so close fren went to syd with her bf.. post so many photos... huu.
o well

kk.. gtg ba.

jaa mata ne!

lovey dovey moments

yay. cant believe i dl songs successfully into phone!! =) hehe .all thx to sammy. but i feel so bad liektroubling him .. thinking he's maybe oneline working now..

me jsut a quick blog here. im extremely slpy. .v late liao

today met a weird customer. long story. but basically my fren la. say he noticed that man like looking at me. then nvr tell me. still push me to him. cos he's like looking at products quite long. .like needed help.
wahhh if i know ar, i die die wont help him lor
anyway, he himself also kena a weird french man haha. so yea nvm .

cant htink.. head slpy.. shuttin down soon

i forgot what id wanted to blog haiyo

hehe. me so happy whenever i sue my waterbottle the one he gib me. =)
just so happy to use it ^^ cos its a gift from him. uh huh. my precious gidt ^

saw my colleague the other morning. .almost 8am ..she n bf queue up get changi pass...
then when going back.. she hold onto his arm n gib him a kiss on cheek to say gdbye.. i was like. .awwwwwwwwwwww
then late evening he picked her up..
huu.... would love to do that with sammy..

nice huh. its like.. suconsiously, so used to doing it.. kissy gdbye n a hug.. .so nice =) love it. love doing with him.

i hav a feelign new store been confirmed laio. dunno where. .

hmm next week sm coming back liao. haiz.. .gdluc to us all ne

kk. .almost 3am omg.. huu wonder if sammy still working =/. so late liao

gtg jaa!!

some parts of my trip

supposed to be slping now. but decided to  blog alittle.

been.. reluctant to type abt my trip.. cos.. u know. its that feeling. .of re reading my journal.. ravelone
and tlaking abt it.. though makes me happy, yet will bring back all those memories. .sweetness.. everyting .which im gonna miss. =( especially him.
sighs
so yea. perhaps thats why im afraid to type it al lout.

basically its rrly awesome .and its sweet of him to pay fo rmy meals, and make the effort to bring me out. though i kinow he's v slpy n tired. so am i. but yea ,still wan him get enough rest first

i was crying uncontrollebly when  days passed. cos i knew imma leave liek real soon. though fdays are stil ahead.
was also sad cos i think he misunderstood abt me and my fren. my fren and me reminded me of doctor who, with amy pond and rory williams. Like dic who n amy are v v gd frens. Whilst rory is her love.
but there's no two guys. more of a guy me and another girl .me n him gd frens, he n tat girl are lovers. Yea I was watching halfway.. then it strikes me.  Haa
but yea. perhaps due to his natural nonsense sens of rubbish humours lame jokes msgs, wi guess tats why sammy is liek .. u know.not happy ba:/
haiz.
but what to do. i hav nothing to hide. so when he check my phone im ok .but. guess its still human nature of ppl to take the wrong idea huh.
i dunno why sammy ask me no tto msg ppl i love u . but i only msg him that. i cant remmebr if my fren msg any stupid joke or somtin. but why would i say to others. unles sif its my mum. Anyway figured tat best I keep clear of him n clear msgs before sammy start thjnking the wrong way . later say too much, he get more wrong ideas.. so ya. decidced not to talk abt it .=/

me been slping for 4 hrs plus for two nights straight liao huu

anyway, yea.
 i'll not contact my fren since he don like my fren eh
its ok to lose a close fren i guess .
yea. so thats the down part of my trip to syd cos of this misunderstandsigs

but anyway, it felt liek a .. shit. see me teary liao=((((
i KNEW IT!! =(( thast why dun wanna type. but since type liao.. so... haiz.
k ba. just tpe abit

so yea. liek. .been waiting so long n pining for this moment. .he snuggle up to me in bed.. under thick flufy blankie.. small action lie he pull my pillow closer next to his pillow.. make sme soooo happy. i told him. i felt so blessed at that moment and between us .and blessed to have him. tats what i meant though i didnt say much.
but yea. shit im so sad crying now. .miss all that n him =(((((
tats why refrain from bloggin... o well.
continue abit

so yea.. a drink in my hand.. relax.. watch lappy. .tv.. him next to me. htink that happened twice . at night. jsut simple snuggle up, watching show...
i recalled i was soooo happy. full of happiness... liek these moments. .that ive been pining for everyday, finally came true!!! simple wish of mine, but yet so percious.
so yea.... its hard to desc ribe. but i felt so happy, cant believe it... and ..yea. blessed.
=)

tat feeling when everything came true, its so nice.
 i made new memoeries with him. oh and i took pics with him.!!!!
last time i regretted not taking. why din i? becos i knew i will keep crying when ever i se ehis pic. somemore.. .at time like.. he's stil labit uptight or soemthing.. abt being founf out.. so yea.. din dare to anyway

but yea. took his pics too ^^
me can so see liao. thoguh maybe still will cry, but im so happy to be reminded of tat moment captured with him =)

we went to german bar, pizza, long night drive! i saw stars!!! oh yea. he frightened me inhotel... hahahah. naughty baby of mine.
and i make him sing me bday song, softly he sang=) aww
mm.. he taught me how to blow cold air. i was so happy =)
movie, one more. .damn i forgot=-( slipped my mind fo rnowm, andywya we also eat nice yogurt. he got me hooked on tat haha.
we din go club, but it everyday n moemnt spend with him is so fabulous.
watching him slp. he rrly brought me to alot of nice places to eat. fo rhte first time, yes.syd hav nice food. but exp. haha.
mm... yea.
the opals are amazing. we walked past this stroe. wow... me still misisng my tiny opal necklace with stone.. huu

anyway,
ive gort every detaisl in my travel journal.
last yr one also still hav

pan cakes with him. .we chatted lots abt stupid customers
mm... yea. i sang crazily anyhow in his car. lol. destrpyed my image ehXD

he's got more patience, and nicer, sweeter, more understandings than before. in short words, he's just gotten better as my bf. hee. not  sayin he's bad in the past k =.=
but jsut gotten even better ^^
treat me so nice. make me love him more =)
miss him sighs=(((
i cam eback crying from the plane to cab..to home

but it was awesome. we msg each other non stop
so at least i felt that he's still with me in a way ya know
haiz..
soon will see him again =) uh huh. i know we will. very soon

k ba. tats it for now.
gotta stop crying first.

if though tof anythign else and be prepare to cry, then i shall blog again abt it

but yea. overall its been wonderful . awseom trip =) i ejoyed myself alot. and so glad. he finally did say he enjoyed his week too.
i get to do what couples usually will do.. even the most simplest holding hands... kissing in public.oh he kissed me in the bar when theres lots of ppl. i was so happy =D like he din care din show that he mind how others are looking anot
hehe. ^^ soemthing new eh

kk. gtg

wanna slp early but cant bear to leave him. stil lwanna msg him till as long as he's awake.. .
huu

o well.. .i love him so much!!!!!!!! =)

mata

will update soon!

my hair's almost dry . sorry  . this is only my 2nd post since i came back from aust, and i've not blog anything yet. too much too blog. but will try. anyway, glad i noted down all the details into my travel journal. sp yea. and took more pics. so even one year later or so, i wil lstill remember what i ate, what we did, where he brought me to.. etc =) awww

haiz. rrly miss him alot. cant believe im back =/
...such a fabulous week with him. do what couples can do.
love him so much ne.
cant wait for the day when we can finally be together forever.

i've thought about it.
even though if i have a male fren , and i asked along a female fren of ours, even if the two of them are dating,... i'll throw away their frenships than let sammy misunderstood.
uh huh.
i'll rather that than let sammy think other thoughts.

but in anycase even though they didnt work out, glad my fren still found a gf so soon. haha. playboy. as for the girl, im not sure..
though none of us keep in contact anymore, the most is just a hi once a month? i dunno.
but i guess we're just happy with our own life, and though no time to keep in caontact  with each other, but will be happy for each other happiness.
tats how frenships works eh.

anyway, im thinking so much of sammy. just hoping that i can see him again real soon.
my parents is ok with him and all. my mum wil lask about him and stuff. but guess sammy not too keen to meet them. haha. i understand la.

kk omg almost 3am =X

gdnight!!!

mata

im back!

this is jsut gonna be a prelude. but yea basically im back.
rrly sad i have to leave both sammy and sydney. i really cant bear to leave.. but i have to. sighs. .one day ba. if there's a way for me to be with him 24/7.
i hate the final days before i leave him. me so teary ..couldnt control myself. =/
cry3...
sighs
had such wonderful weke with him.all so worth it. luckly save on time
but yea. its been suich a awesome weke and happy week.. he's been v nice n swt too. =)
rrly wish i don have to leave at all.. sighs. but what to do. tiems up. today's my last day. but i'll definiltey be back for him again. keeping my fiongers crossed asap

omg so slpy.
my stomach always not digrsting well when im there. even with the yakult. it slike i can only poo once .=.= wth

kk. jsut gonna be a short blog tats all.
basically just sad ..v sad that i have to goodbye to him today. sighs

mata

syd, see ya soon ;)

i might not hav the time to blog tmr. ha. hope i am able to catch some slp in case too nervous or excited.

rrly3 slpy today. slpt only abt 5 hrs. tonight also ba. cos nid to work v early shifts.
so ya. by the time i rch syd.. ha. can imagine my dark eye circles slpy bloated head liao=.=
hate it. but what to do. bear with it ba. just hoping can get full slp in he plane without distraction of any nice movies haha

o well.

kk. guess i gtg.

hope i'll have a great time, safe hotel, and have fun shopping. hope i wont regret not buying anything this time round. ya. learnt my lesson. if wan, just buy =.=
later come back regret, too late liao. huu

will blog soon!!

hopefully i'll destress lots, and not bump into u know who...

worried tmr cos too slpy from work, not to mention tired) , i might miss out some stuffs.. mm.. hopefully wont ba.

wish me luck

mata!!!

carefree for 2 days =)

geez... =/.= what a boring sat night. no nice movie nor tv shows..=/=. nvm ba. anyway tmr gotta wakey very early. haiz. back to work .but its been sucha  great two days off fo rme., at first still stess otu about roster.. but then once ive settled it, (yea at home=/) i felt better. uh huh...
maybe its cos... i know im flying off soon?
but yea. i wasnt the usual tired quiet self whne im at home. i talked more, i smile, i interact more with my parents.. i .. yea. im just differnet. i like that alot. like. .so carefree. .stressfree... rrly nice to be this kind of me.. .

yea. .cos u know.. usually at work.. all the laughing and seriousness... rrly used up at work.. i have to and need ot be that way mah. so at home. .even when off. .so tired.. and. .just didnt feel like laughing and .. u know. whihc is not gd. and unfair for my family. but.. =/ haiz. cant force myself. .waht to do.

anwyay,
i feel great. rrly lighthearted. .no stress.. i feel happy.. relax... wow. tmr i dunno la.. but for now, its been great. been soooooo long since i felt this way =)
wow. ..rrly great man.
mm...

what else.
yea. almost pack finish everything liao. wee...
rrly cant wait to fly off. mm.. hope everything will be fine though.
yea. .shld be

oh. yea.. that customer of mine. .omg. LOL. and all my colleagues were laughing out too. this cusotmer actually came in for the third time looking for me. but lucjily todya i on leave!! phew!!! but he left a card fo rme. they say he used colour pens, and stickers too. OMG......... kill me.. =/.='''
i was laughing.. my collegaues laughed till theres tears. yes i can imagine how funny it is. omg.
i tell u... .

facepalm =/.=''*

haiz... just hope i wont see him again. htough i have a feeling he will coem backT_T huuuuuuuuuu
tch. sianz ne!

anwyay, abit slpy today. thoguht wanna nap.. but didnt. read alot instead.
haha. last night after nap, rrly so shoick. i hope will never forget that ffeeling

mm.. .what else

o well.
thast abot it i guess? im just hoping my luggage wont exceed 15 kg.
=X yea...

mm.. k ba. thats about it. ha. htink i will be sooo shy when i see ehim again =)
but happy at the same time. form the second i step into syd, imma make sur ei cherish and make use of every single seconds whilst im there.
be it sit in the cold, walk slowly(after shops close ) .. ha. if walk slow, all shops close liao =.=
they close so early sianz.
luckily theres a thurs.. haha
anyway ya..
rrly gonna make sure every sec is spedn wisely... not liek that time ..spedn alot of itme in hotel. though true la. .i was so tired form  walking and waking eawrly... but then,... yea. its ok. tired me also wanna go out and see more of syd!
mm.. this itme i think i dun wanna miss the rock weekend market.
sammy say nothing much.. but.. i still rrly like street market. sometimes u jsut find the most unique stuffs there. dun care abt the price ba. haha. chey . lol

anyway,
yea.
wish me luck. omg. 2 days to go =X

after work, .. gotta rush home eat and all.. change. .pack last min stuffs.. uh huh.
cant wait.
hope its a gd flight.

mata ne

a fine relaxing day =)

gonan slp soon.

just read one of my fav book..

what a day...
just relaxing. .bored nothign to do. .so headed out with mum..

my fren was texting me. .telling me dont get raped. haha. touch wood sia. .even though its not india.. but yea. .its still abit u know. .scary. especially after reading al lthose horrible news in india =/
..o well.
anwyay,

began packing halfway through.. still some stuffs left. im hoping that its not gonna be too heavy.
haiz. bro wont let me use his new luggage. so nvm ba.

oh man. the aussie sotcks ocontinue to drop. if i knew , wouldve waited till now then change money. but nvm ba. at least not the worst case sceneario

just a couple of days left..

was doing abit of work in the day though.. its nice to force myself skipped abit haha.
but wokey too early, slpy sia. nap.... rrly tslpy sort of nap.. then wakey eat.. headed to ntuc, wow. i felt os energinzed, and so.. happy? like.. i feel good. not tired, not slpy.
was it cos im heading for hoidya, or.. i jsut had a nap? or.. becos i finally do abit of exercise?
u know me. i don exercise at all. thoguh i wish to .but yea. haha.
but its good to seat it out for abit today

mm... so yea . i hope everthign wil lgo smotohly..
i rrly wanna shop alot3... liek go all out to shop.
lol.
so yea. certain thigns can tbe brought from sg mah
so yea. .rlry wanna shop like mad
mm.. what else..
yea. hopefully money is enough. haha.. oops

o well.. .this is it. 3 days to go. my gosh...
cant wait... dunno where to start also once im there.
o well.

mata!! =)

stomache =/

gosh.. stomach not right.. .
huuu

hopefully by the time i rch syd i'll have a very gd health. but one thigns for sure. imma be so tired n slpy. as imma be waking up v early fo sun n mon working n working.. then hurried off.
but who knows if i can get any slp in the plane eh. well, hopefully ba

mm.. fly there not so worry abt hunger. but come back, gosh. .scared i super hungry sia. lol. nvm. can tahan .
uh huh

anyway,
gosh. .errbile sotmach feeling. .so pain

mm.. wonder if i shld slp early tonight.
will i be able to ?skali wakey early
nvm.. wait abit longer then slp ba

gosh. heart skipped abit when rgm asked me abt my holida.. whether my roster been done.. =X luckily after that he din say anything much.
..mm... but im stil lworreid abt roster.
okok. will try not to worry so much.. though hard la

bored. guess imma continue my reading

im bringing a book about demon to syd. ha. hope i wont feel freako out whilst reading it alone in hotel! =X
no other books interest me la. somemore i nid to find a not heavy book. haiz. so difficult. alas , found this book .o well.

mata.

less than a week to go. omg. cant wait!

oen more week to syd!

rrly cant wait for next monday night. till then, i have alot to do!! and complete before i go.

mm.. sotmahc not too gd

me just hope and pray that this hotel is not gonna be weird when i slp alone. gosh... rrly hope will be fine without any on n off by itself aircon n lights=.=

rrly nervous abt that=/
haiz

anyway, mm... yea. so much to do and settle before i fly off. might need to settle some work stuff while im there too. though i rrly wish i can ignore, but. .i just cant help but worry about it . especially for roster
haiz... kk.. i will do my best to stay relax. i nothing to do in hotel will read and work. lol. XD cant believe i decided to do that. we shall see then. hipefully nothing at work can bother me

cant wait to get tehre. abit nervous now. maybe more neevrous when i get ther.e i think so ba. haha.
wow.. seems so long since i left there..

when i thought of leaving there, i feel abit sad alrdy. liek. .i can picture myself sad abt leaving=/
cos only for one week .and its gonna be over real soon
rrly soon... so yea..
gotta cherish every day n seconds while im there.
maybe even if nowehre to go, i shld try and sit in the mall till late or sumtin. lol. XD dunno la see how.
stil lrememebr there are dasy where i'll be back at hotel from three or so.. .then.. nothign to do. but relax in hotel .which is gd. the tv .. simpson.. family guy. .hahaha. rrly ejoy those relaxing moments. buit not sammy so yea. .just alone.. o well

simple but yet so nice .though expensive. haha .
cant wait to shop n see him too.
so much to do. mm...
but yea. time will passed really quickly. i need to cherish every single seconds there. the sun. .the night. .the cold wind. .gosh. not looking forward to being freeze out though .haha.
this tiem cant wear nice clothes liao cos cold.

kk. .nid toilet again

jaa maat!

gut feelings

wow. about 8 days left before i step into airport and omw for a deserving trip!
wow... so fast

erm.. thigs happened.. nots ure if imma spend time and type it all out

lets see

so.. oh. hahaha. i am so confident with my gut feelings now. often tiem to time i'll feel weird or soemthings not righ tif somebody comes up to me(a guy)  , a look form a guy, etc.. even if its a simple can i help u.. i'll get the funny' weird feeling like.. this guy has some sort of a intention.. u know what i mean.

like i still remember that time sammy was buying med after doc.. yea. weir right. buy med from pharmacy
anyway, there was like this two male sales person. at different, but approached me asked if i need any help. i mean. i dunno. maybe i was rly wrong? maybe they did ask the other customers. i dunno. but iwas like. .i don look like i nid any help XD . but anyway hes there, so i felt safer. yea we walked separately thats why

anyway, my colleague kena a creep from ion staff. conceirge
and he was always around neary the store cos they are right in fornt of our entrance. anyway,
i kena him first. then heard something from my 2nd colleague. then this third girl, haha. . o well. luckily she got bf.
anyway ya. at first my 2nd colleagu was liek don say like that about him la.. he's just being so nice and cute and frenly.. not weir la.
i was like. .=. =;; o..k... watever...
see. now i can say to them. i told u so!!!!!!!! hahaha
my colleague wa slike. .i was right!! then saying shes too naive haha
ive rrly been through her stage of 'innocent' and naive-ness
but yea. ive came across too many weirdos and freaks now ito trust my gut feeling. remember that indian man i meantioned recently? outside my store door.. .hey. wait did i blog about that? ....... shld be right? man i forgot. nvm. i'll take it as i did

so yea. i immediately went bac to store and seek help from my colleague. phew... luckily id dnt walk far away from her, nor am i alone =X

of course i think there'll be times maybe i will be sitll.. naive? or maybe i am wrong. maybe that guy is innocent/ but now at least i know i will not care and trust anybody who tells me.. youre beeing too sensitive, youre being paranoid.. nah, he's jsut being frely to everboydy else.
this sort of gut feeling is v difficult to explina. sumtins worng, means sumtins wrong.
so yea.

come to think of it. .yea. .from my fren's fren.. .to fren's fren again. .those stares.. and weird frenly gestures.. luckily i stick close to my frens. and give them a nudge. if not.. dunno la. i'll feel triple weird

kk. be careful everyone!! yay soon can meet my fellows colleague in australia!! plus sammy!

mata