creepy guys =.=

so far.. its gd that i didnt have to hear the same words again over the phone with him. those sad heartbreaking words..
anyway.
so yup. i was right

ytd so sick. stil lwork. and yea. . true enuff. even my colleguae also say at night srue hav fever. and yea. i did
still sick though. rrly sick =/
i cant smell nor taste any food.
owell

past few days tried to be
'careful' abit. cos its the seventh ghost month. jsut srtarted. and yea. ppl say sometimes things' wil lattract to u especially when youre feeling down, sad negative and sick
so yea. . jsut. .gotta be careful ba. jsut in case
nvr know

i taste zero. sighs. hoep wil lget better than tmr

slowly ba.. no more crying.. i tink

gosh. again. i hate ppl looking at me without me knowing. god knwos how many times.
my colleague was tellign me how this guy with his Gf in store, was checking me out. my fren was laughing cos whislt making payment(his gf) , the guy keep looking at me bottom to top!!! then quickly look back at his gf then look at me up and down again. OMG thats disgusting .
that is so wrong.
*headpalm
dunno what to say. so creepy
that gf better kicked him out of her life soon i hoope
arhg

and todya. so creepy. maybe it sjsut me la. but was in the lift with an indian man. abt my height. after we got in, he was facing me standing next to me.
from the corner of my eyes i saw.
then nvr move. like dunno got look at me or wat i dunno.
maybe im jsut paranoid.
leme tell u. if he nvr press the floor, and night time, i wouldve thought hes a ghost. no kidding. scary

mm.. k bah. thats abt it.

jsut feel so sick now
work nonstop. in away. .though. .could be a gd hting. i dunno .not g bah. but.. o well
sighs

hope he's doin fine. the other day saw his vid. omg so cute those huskies. they do sell it! how i wish to buy them and lead a life there.
o well
perfect isnt it

i didnt tell my colleagues abt why im feelin sad. only one happened to ask so yea. ..
cos tht day sm just got angry at me. .so.. maybe sm thought itsher who made me sad.
anyway.. .yea. .. i couldnt talk ab tthis to anyone. cos.. scared cry

more than half a decade spent with him .. it'll be weird if suddenly he's gone from my life huh ..

dunno how long will nid to go undercover' for.. hoe pwont be too long. .

o well

mata

love story of my colleague

.. falling sick today. throat hurts.. nose running.. eyes abit weird.. head abit heavy.. rrly not feeling well.... =/
think too much going on ba. .plus didnt drink enough water  . its rrly no time to. hav time. but cant. cos keep going toilet. thats why ppl at work also seldom drink. waht to do .

hope after panaldo will feel better tmr
at least don think feel warm liek jus tnow. i think

sighs..

can only tahan at work. at home also. then when quiet ..can release abit..
o well

2plus liao.. .bro played dvd again .

anyway. so interesting. my colleague. pinoy. 25yrs. alrdy hav 2yrs old daughter.
shes pretty and hav swt smile. her hubby also.. like those handsome type. he's a playboy before he met her. had 29 gfs. ha.so naughty. she don wanna hav kid so soon. cos they were in ldr. and finally settled down.yup. married so early ha. nice. so yea. one yr after. she was shocked to find her period late. hten found out shes pregnant. at first he deny.. then finally admitted yea. he only used twice protection. the rest of times nvr use. hahaha.
interesting how a playboy suddely can change to wanting to be a father at such young age. she say he told her the moment he saw her he knew 'shes the one' .aw..

but its always a risk to be with a playboy..well used to be.
but its ok. cos shes pretty pretty, and so frenly and nice. even though she hav daughter. i don think thats a prob at all for her.

anyway. but she did broke off with him for 9months. then he keep trying to contact her back..find her numebr or something. .etc. .. til lshe finally relented. i asked. did she regret breaking off with him for those months. she say no. ha.
cos he did something la. anyway.
... yea. its almost as though its magic i think .for her. so young and all .then ldr.. then finally found a job in sg.. then got married. pregnant. now her daughter 2yrs old.
and there're stil lwomen msging her hubby in fb. ha. cos they both hav passwords to each others acct.
even though he put his profile pic with his wife and daughter. well. some bi***es just love to destroy families.
also got angmoh women throwing themsleves at him. wth right. but she say she feel safe
. like. .still ok la.

she also say. she don like to make him feel like. ok shes mine now. hes my wife. i got her alrdy.
then when he talk loudly or shouted at her. she will get v upset.
cos she don wan him feel that way.
which is true. i can relate to her.
if only every ppl can remember the way they treated each other when they first met. if not better.
o well. ..
depends on how well ppl cherish each other ba

but amazing. wonder how she feels. like.  a used to be playboy alone in sg. then ldr... maybe cos she sense he rrly love her bah. he wil laslo buy those $20 prepaid card or sumtin to call her everyday.
if i nvr heard wrong. she did say $20 everyday. wow .i wonder how long that went on.

so late alrdy. here i am .not feeling well .stil ltyping. cos drying my hair=.=

imsses him. wonder how he is now. ..
=/
sighs.
wanna cry again liao.
..
o well

oh.. .last week or dunno when. my break at abt 230 i think. yea. work till 1030.. 7hrs straight. god. dunno what to say.
work mah. .like that ba

jaa mata

sianz

think i nid to take some med later. been so stressed out lately =( and so sad..
just trying to.. make my way ard stuffs. . yea.
so tired .. v tired

been refraining from blogging. cos dunno how to start. cos it might not sound gd.. duno ba

anyway sighssssssssssssssssss

dunno what to type suddenly.

think ive been forgetting ..so easily..
depends ba. smlla thigns or what..

ah.. whatever

mata

my man =)

nid to slp soon. v slpy desuuuu

=) was great to finally hear his voice again. he sounded cheery and happy hehe. and best part is he wishes me happy birthday. with his voice ofc ^^ satisfied liao

ahh.. interesting... if not for this skype i woudlnve know... u know how.. when u get comfy. .erm.. u hit the g spot or watever spot. like. .it takes time and all right?
i dunno
i think so.
but there were tiems when its just. .the moment in, its like. jackpot. ha. yea. i was surprised too O.o so easy ar haha .
then he say.. theres no protection . i duno. could that be what my colleagues meant? like. .for them its mor eof uncomfy.
i dunno. so far ok bah.. not a huge diff..  but i owder.. could wearing the protection' actually hinders the g comfy moments. if all the way he didnt wear.. wil lthere be more spots on O. o interesting huh.
strange.. i tot he did wore though.. well. he rememebrs more bah.
but yea. interesting indeed.. ha.
i,agine if i wan a quckie spot on, ask him don wear anything. lol .
anyway. yea.. .
gosh was so bored todya. online like what. only. =.= so slpy..
he was out working and all..

was kinda ike surprised when his fren say just do it. he's a grown man now.. surprised as in..
when i do talk abt it to my frens, they said the same thing. they wil lask his age. then like yea.. he's a man now .why hi. parents stil lwanna contorl him and his freedom. he's able to make his own decisions . and just do it.
he's not a boy anymore.
now just see... waht decisions he would make. .as a man .perhasp. .could even be the biggest decision yet made, as a grown up man.

why ask age first ofc.. cos.. who knows. maybe my frens thought he's 16.
but yea.. at his age now. mature enuff alrdy..
some thigns are difficult bah. .
i understand.. but what my collegaues say does make sense .. just that. .if only i wish his parents could udnerstand that.
could it be.. in their heart. .he's still a 10 yr old child?.. i dunno bah. .everyone thinks differently..
just wish. .things could be easier.. but.. yea. .
all is worth it .


my guy fren even once said. .just move out. they wil lmiss u. and yea. .they just say only wanting u to go away.. i dunno abt that. cos my parents ok de.
but if me. yea i do wanna jsut do it. let them miss me. know ahts it like to lose' me.. perhasp .its all abt parents ego huh?

i jsut cant wait for the day. and so wish to live with him everyday =)
like .wow. thats a dream come true. will be so happy desu

theres this youtuber. .married 5yrs ago to her husband. they were 19 that time. yeaaa.a.. .19 O.O
she say alot of thigns struggles cos they married  jsu tlike that .jsut because htey love each other so much.
awww=)
but yea. now she's doing much better. and can afford better stuffs. .etc
so swt to know htat though. and they are stil ltogether in love. aw....
19.. wow. can u imagien? at elast gd bah. u dont waste time. life is so short. spend the time life together whenever possible bah .
i wonder if their families or relatives said anythign married so young. but see. 5yrs down the road. told ya so.
they will end up being happy.
now thats a marriage u don get everyday. at least hard to come by with these ppl and world nowadays..

o well

anyway, just happy to hear his voice. v v happy though whole day din msg much. but at the end. there's this sweetness. =) that fillsme up. guess ima hava gdnight slp after all

i still pray and hope fo rthe best .. hoepfully his parents wil lcome around.. and understand him more. .

jaa mata

before and after b'day

omg. no time to blog at all. soooo tired and slpy

so my bday is over. so weird. and.. yea. was at hoem alone.. having instant noodle.. and midnight liao
mm..
yea.
was working on my bday..
prio to that went jb. haiz.. .was like gloomy and so. .stuffy hearted. .cos no wifi to connect. .sucks. .wanna msg sammy also v difficult=(
so yea. v v sad
 didnt wanna go but u know.. they took leave alrdy. so yea.. .tsk. o well
anyway.. bought a few nice find dresses., im used to it alrdy.. when buying something.. i wonder if sammy is gonna fin dit nice on me. .etc... its liek wondeirng if he'll like it too.. .ha. yea. always like that. will thought of him when im shopping
well. love him muchmuch mah

got another shocked. or rather surprised. when sm suddenly presented me with small bday cake and candle.
in store. ha. gosh. they gave me smiliar pressy liek bro. and... its nice la. .but to be honest. body lotions i have alottt. thats the last thing i need now. so yea. .but nonetheless, better than nothing.
o well

geez. gonna get bday cake another day. i know its over but stil lcan celebrate mah. luckily made one wish from my sm mini cake. huu... no big cake. nvm. tmr then maybe buy bah.
uh huh. gonan do it
wanna eat yummy cakey
and make wishes.
ha
o well

mm.. ok thats it bazh. ioh yea. kena chided by sm ytd. .=/
haiz. o well.. .thigns happened.
huu

kk.. gtg ba
 v v slpy
bro playing dvd again haiyo. must tell him stoo ba

jaa mata

think imissed out some stuffs leh.

oh yea. my asm poor thing. msg her bf. thenn bf say cos she knew got new female admin there. so jealous . assused her of being jealous ne. =/ shes so sad. haiz.
cant he think before he say anything? somemore 4 yrs together liao. or 5. or 4 plus. anyway yea.
baka bf of hers. pfft
haiz. liek that also wana fight. sad.
somemore alrdy share bank account. and  buy house liao. nopoe not even engaged or married

oh got this pinoy colleague. 35 but so swt and pretty lookin gbah
she tot i am 22 and shes shocked=.=
but im shocked too. her smiel v nice. married alrdy. mm. .dunno got children anot. .think not. dunno .nvr ask.
but so frenly .glad she sin my team

kk gtg. v slpy

jaa

against all odds. belief

shld rrly try on bras when goin to peroid mode. thats when usually my bust will be extra bigger. then more accurate when buying bras. now abit tight. ow ell..

mm,.. anyway.. .last night was quite sad... cos.. haiz. din wish for this to happen. .but,. .yea.. he had a fight with ..u know..
i thought perhaps i could spend the day with him first.. .then didnt.. so thought.. perhasp today then. cos thinking he was with his fren. .so.. didnt wanna bother him. only send him a couple of msg. in case he nid to catch up with fren or something.  told myself. .if he can msg then gd. .if not then nvm ba.. don wan make him upset or anything. .and i aint angry at him.  if rrly cannot contact for the day then yea... waht to do..
think he got angry.. . plus the frustrations of what haopened ealier on.. i rrly wish.. thigns aint so complicated..
i don wan him sad ..
sighs
i judt don get it.. in what ways am i disrespectful to anyone. ..
u know bac k in the dasy at kikki .. ppl say thigns. then i was like.. wat> when did that ever happened. deja vu eh..
like.. innocently..din even know what mistakes had i made..
of all ppl ofc would wanna respect them. whats their regulations of respect. or lil thigns can triger being as disrepectful?
or isit once u disliek someone u will find 1001 reasons or excuese to dislike.

dunno bah...
all i know is i love their son alot. i love him alot. .
and.. yea.
so wish to be by his side now..
i alsways enjoy the time when he's not at uni
cos can spend more quality time together.
onc euni start. he will be v busy
so yea

at least now i get why his uni takes so many yrs to complete=.=
and thats why i like talks. can understand more of him
fin dout lil thigns of him. .more n mor.e..

anyway.. not gd days.. .cos i rrly wanna make him cheer u again..
bday.. also not looking forward.. so yea.

o well

k bah. gtg.

think first time working on my bday after so long. o well..
nvm ba.
haiz

jaa mata

lovign him is the hapiest thing i can do

forgetful

just a quickie blog..

mm.. pout. 2nd down alrdy =(
o well.....
guess my throat is getting better today

just bath. .got back from gathering of my team. sm wanted bonding cos store not been having much fun lately
its a good idea bah.

gd thing tmr off. if not so tired. and slpy =.=

ha. finally done henna. with my colleague. been so many years since i had one .uh huh
quite fun. not that wow pretty la. but u know. its jsut a experience.

tried to msg him as much as possible today too.. cos tmr he going out. don think he'll be able to msg much bah. .so yea =/
fo rme i don mind holding my phone in my hand in case he msg u see.
basically he nap.. i also nap abit only. gosh sooo slpy din rest much. due to meeting in mrg
so yea. appreciate that i get to spend time with him in these three days
tmr dunno ba. maybe he busy in daytime. hoep not but.. yea
see how .
after that. .back to work liao
o well
mm... slpy desu.
dunno why time passed so fast. especially for off day=.=
argh
cant even rememebr much of what i did ytd

if i focus thinking on sumtin too much. i will forget what im doing. or what i was abt to do before.
dang. i gotta change this habit. soon. ifnot not v safe in a way
so out of focus

so nice. .sammy went eat indian food. .
that time i ate with him. .o well... misses that.. those moments...

regarding his parents case.. he say he got it. he know what to do. and asked me not to worry.. i trust him..
i feel much safer and secure.. tats like what  a  true grown man would say.  =)

oh man.. how i wish i can also live with him there. .just two of us.
dunno when can i have that dream come true huh... ... o well..

ha. so late liao i stillblog. jsut wanna get something outta my chest ba.. in case i forget again..

hope his nose and leg ok alrdy..

mmm... kba. .one more day to go.. mm... how i wish he didnt have to go out tmr night. o well. .he  nid his frens time ba

gosh. the bras nice. but small for me abit..
i mean the ones form chinatown
o well. nvm. shld be fin dba. just ... yea.wear lor
jaa mata

bad cat =.=

wow. so fast one day down...

i thought of getting specs after my pay.. but.. somehow.. coudltn resist the urge to do so. the scratches ion my specs is irritating me..
its like some stains on ur glasses that wont go away

huu.. wanna slp but bro jsut gotten back.. how to slp ne u tell me =/

haiz... still misses the freedom of being alone in my own space or with sammy

so yea..

was great skyping with sammy again..till his phone got cut off=/= but yea. thats the time when i get to know more abt his lil detaisl.. hahaha. . the image of a cat rolloing on his laps... gosh... so jealous. haha. yes of a cat XD
but gosh. the scaratches of a cat.. argh. .dang.. thats harsh man =/
i hate any sorts of scratches. but coming from one with germs.. yea.. =/ i heard it somewhere that u shld head to a doc immediately after getting scratched by animals. well.. ive been through that before.. but nvr see doc also. truth is.. we all love to ignored. but there is always this 50-50 chanes.. that from a small matter... it can end up as a huge infectious... adn thats why its worryful
=/
so yea.
anyway... hope he will be fineba....

mm.. htink bro playing dvd.. oh man. ok. will go watch abit bah

slpyyyyyy

jaa mata

throat/glasses kinda day

so slpy. v tire.d ive been working extremely hard these days. rrly. after one day off last week .ive worked 5 days straight. and yea. boy am i glad that it is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! been waiting for this day!!!!! 33 straight offs woo hoo. its a treat k. hardly will get ever. =.=
so yea.

mm.. late alrdy gosh .shld slp soon. htining what to do ...to make gd use of my offs=)

my voice is not v gd now.. cos been shouting the sale thigny.. . so yea. duh. ofc my throat wikk hurt more. not voice losing alardy =(
huu
haiz.... so many ppl come in everyday. .shout till.. yea =/
o well .waht to do. they wan loud fyi  mah

nid to walk all ard... sm say shes v tired alrdy .jan will wanna change to other outlet. she say told rgm shes tired. hmm... yea. i can imagine. after these few dasy. .plus ytd... i am tired.
being floor manager on shop floor.. long story..

my throat.. .huuu lucikly next three days no nid shout

mm.. forgot wat else. .memory not v gd.. at li lthigns bah. duno.
but sometimes gd. aiya. .watever la

oh tried on multiple pairs of glasses today. my colleagues sammy and bro al lsay diff ones. cept for bro and sammy. though bro chose another one also .but yea.
i dunno ne. i feel ok... not like... wow this is it .u knwo. =/
i stil lliek my old glasses the most. how i wish can find the exact same one
haiz

anyway. thats it bah. one more short youtube and im off to bed. throat so dry. huu

mm.. hope i din miss out anythign else.

gosh. rgm rrly moody. ytd still happy with sales. today like. .soso=/
guess too stress huh. .haiz. maybe shld ahv a male rgm. not gay. not female. but just male.

sammy say shoudlve brought me to dfo.. mm.. o well. i wonde rhuh.. maybe great deals ogoing on there or look much better eh

kinda regret u know.... i only bought 3playboy bras thsi yr=/ huu... cos other outlets no more. the ones i went to. huu... o well.... seriously. i still think honey B cannot rrly compared to playboy. i duno. nid to wear more and see how ba. playboy jus tfits perfectly u know. but honey b quality is definitely great. jsut that yea.. .
playboy fits much better still i think. .fo rme bah

jaa mata

missing him =/

gosh.. work stuff.. casues stress and headache.. hope its resolved ..

anway.. slpy liao. .waiting hair to dry

was having my break.. sammy wasnt ard.. then eating. .then looking up the sky.. missing him. .wonder whats he doing. .thinking how nice to walk under this sky and sun with him hand in hand.. haiz..
teary abit... o well

and yea had a long intense brain working bad dream. dunno hwy dreamt so long
argh
disliek the dream

my colleagues all thought im 22, 23 .. i was like.. no... im not. i think.. from the way and u knwo. thats why they also find me easy to talk to. but not always a gd thing .cos when u wanna manage them.. yea. nid to show the diff side o fu.

my colleague rcently asked me where i studied. .then ne. shes liek shocked. in fact. my asm fren also. i dunno why. they all say the same thing. the way i talk sounded like from u know. higher education whatever.
i also dunno how i talk. my language.. or the words i used.. .i dnno. i find it amusing that they were all surprised.
O.o
gd thign?

oh dear... getting tired ... zzzzzzzz
just nid to hang on abit longr..

u know my previous sm.. dunno why she always uses the word yaya on me.
=.= adn shes like ..
still saying down side of stuffs abt us. lie. .asking hows sammy. .if he has gf.. oh not yet huh. like. she said that with a straight face. omg. even if close frens, u wouldnt say that to ur close right. wth
so maddeing. sometimes shes ncie. but her words.. like. ..no brainer. i dunno what to say
seriously i dun
v disappointing.. to hear ppl trying to put down on ur rls like that. .=/
sighs
dunno la

mum say she misses him
when i was back. she asked hows him
did he get anythign fo rme. lol
eya. .she wanted me to tell him she misses him too. my family
think sammy cant standmy mum cos she tlaked mcuh. shes just very concern ba. .and care alot. thats why naturally will ask or talk more. i think

ha. i sitll remember one time. .ealry mrg.. he slpy stil lbah. me gotta go work. .mum talk to him or ask him.. thigns. he was like stomping off after wearing his shoes. i was so upset i couldnt talk to him. was liek gonna cry. even in bus. he didnt knot whats wrong. and i was too upset to tell him. think later on i did ba.
anwyay yea. .cos couldnt tel .he also gic eup and din bother. ha. o well. old days.. .
now we both gorwn p even more. .i wonder .. ha. wouldve be.. funy or opeic imagine mum ever see him again .he'll be liek noooooooooooo XD haha.
i think .lol .
imagine

o well..
if he can ever come back that is

wow. to think one more week to my bday. wth. O.o  i din even realised that. liek how my team that day surprised me with cake. shockingn
i wonder whats gonna happen... on my b day . well soemthign alrdy bad happened. ..so eay. .rrly hope nothign more wil lhappen again..
but dunno ba
always liek that

as long as he ownt lie or hide thigns form me again. .i'll be happy bah.. just. .u kwno. alrdy cant wait to se ehim again.. i alwasy try to remember.. recall.. how his hands feel.. his lips face warmth.. height hugs. .and everything. .
ha. makes me wanna cry

k la.
think i better go slp liao

sobx

ha. o well
been hugging dragon everynight to bed. wakey also scratchy him a lil .. lolXD liek he's my real pet hahhaha. ..
ea. his neck thin enough fo rme to hug without being too stuffy and warm . so jsut nice. haha
his head would fit nicely on my shoulder wasit. .uh huh
comfy

kk. .gtg

mata

difft sm

so slpyyyyyyyyyyyy fell aslp on sofa. gd thing i wokey on time.

today was quiet at work. hmm..

u know.. it is rather nice to have ur love one compliment abt u when u feel that say.. it was not a gd photo of u. and u rrly wishes it to be better .
so when he say he like it, i was hapy and surprised =)
but i rrly do wishes i could look better in his phone though haha.
perhaps its jsut me bah.. gd but i think not gd enough. ha. whereas for him is gd. aw...
soyea. its a gd thing he said that. .and that makes my day =)

ha eyes abt half closed.. slpy ..

mm.. throat still hurts..
abit

ok.. so like the typical manager.. dunno la.
was glad she make the effort to buy a surprise bday cake for me.. i was rrly caught off guard when they sang song fo rme ha. but.. to say buy a drink and gone for 25mins is like... =/
and also gondola v empt. .asked if i shld do something abt. .say nvm she wil lhandle. .then today she off. today still nothing is done. what if imagine the c manager is here cos she stays near here. if she ocme in die. if ceo come in see die. luckily todya they nvr. phew
if rgm see even more double die

if compared to my sm from town, she wouldve change everything.
i have to ask 2 times. then shes likes.. ok. she wil ldo somthing later.
wanan help but she wanna do then end up nothing. end up mrg i do abit of sumtin. =.=

and wanted to mentioned this. .so the other day doing vm.
yea.  i did mentieodn eh? i complteted so mcuh
somemore she can tell rgm in mrg that she completed all the frames vm. so wan me help with htat to complete in case she come s in.
=.=
alot haven do still wanna lie.
then say the rest can complete tmr.
hello? ofc not.
if rgm hear so many not done yet. ofc she wil lthink how come mrg completed so much. then whole day didnt complete anything else? then next mrg i die lor
maybe she'll think i do very slow. cos that sm off mah next day.
but luckily rgm also off. if not she wil lquestion why audit submit so late. why took so long to complete.
if i cuold be bad , i wouldve replied cos they lie to u abt completeing the frames
=.=
argh o well... anyway glad i push on and completed most of them at night alone huu

its gd to vent it out a little.

seriously yea.. this sm abit.. .mm.. dunno la. only worked thrree days with her. she's ncie and frenly. but... town sm still consider a better sm.
even thoughstress. but i know she's doing her job

so yea.. gonna be back to the stressful store.. pros and cons. haha.
nonetheless, o well.. .lets do this!

ah.. bro away for holiday.. .o well..

kk. think gonan slp. hair stil ldrying=.=

jaa mata

busy days

so.... i only have one day off for this week..=/ ... was like. .rrly looking forward to having 2 straight offs.. o well..

anyway.
finally i've given a great feedback to this bra store. for htat lady who served me.
seriously.. in syd.. i didnt find hte service v good.. which i thought shld be... then yea..=/ perhaps sammy is right. they are lazy or.. u knwo

anywya. where shld i tart.. ytd adn day before... day before was ncrazy. sm only doine one big one.. vm.. one tiny one..and one simple one. =.= then other team member. .one big one.. the rest... abt... 10 or more.. im the one who did it.
=.=
yea. i was like. .crazy. doing it. thank god alrdy hit the sales. if not stress.
then next day. imagine suddenly country manager drop by and also say ceo coming. luckily its the frenly ceo.
so yea. she was observing me i think.. dunno why she was looking at me when i was talking to my cust. when i look at her, she smiled and look away O.o. .
anyway. lucky me. the cust when making payment... told my country manager( she happened to be at that area) how gd i am. and y c sm say yea im one of the best team memebr they have=)
aw.. soon.. the cust say again.. im rrly v gd. cos i help her. .yet give her the freedom to browse...
if only every cust can appreciate the work weve done for them .
thats why i wanna feedback to that lady at that bra store

mm... wat else.. oh! dunno la. was so shy seeing thatceo again hahaha. he got that magical frenly chamrm bah .this itme he was wearing more formal like blazer. he even shake my hand and wink. lol. old man alrdy still know how to do that eh XD
but when he going off, he say to me that i look fantastic. =) and yea. thats a huge compliment coming from ceo himself! its pretty imp bah to make gd impression for him. cos rgm said before.. no one rrly see him or talk to him much..its rare chance.. and after that meeting she had with him... soon, he wanted her to go sg be rgm.
so yea.

it was nice talking to sammy abt my concerns.. .
aftert the talk.. ive decided that i do wan to switch over to bras store. even if pay is gonna drop. ..i dunno yet. the detaisl might be even moer complicated. the contract etc... but... for now. thast what i want bah. i like accessories.. but... its not rrly my thing.. .to style ppl.
i dunno. its just.. not rrly waht i wanna do.
i think the bras suits me best. and i'll know better of what to say to cust.
i think .

anyway, see how bah.
mm... seems like im missing somthing..
waht i wanna blog

nowadays.. been thining so much in my mind. .like think3... almost head into males toilet or exit door. like.. out of this world. suddenlky then wakey like. waht?? where am i heading . so scary .
lcukily not on the road.
dunno why im thinking till so deep

it was great heairng samms voice again. =) its always a joy to hear him talk. to chat2...
wonder if this is gonna change once his uni start again..... o well.. cant help it ba

gonna slp soon .bro playing movie la.. almost finish bah.
slpy..
jaa mata

im a gem haha XD

wow. so had a long tired day at work ytd. scrubbing hte floor liek cinderella.. =.= 

anyway.... dunno why. once i sat down i don wanna move. jsut wanna chill and relax after a hard day long at work .

then,.. ednded up slpt at 4am. ha. omg. 

but yea. 

cos .. suddenly i wanna relive that moment... in syd . i will also slp in the late middle of night with sammy. 3plus. or usually 4,5am... yea... i love spending eveny secs with him. 

so.. even though hav worktoday. yet.. i still feel like doing it.. jsut enjoy... haiz. all like a dream as though. swt2 dream. stil lcant believe i've been to syd alrdy . but its a gd one. 

just wish i couldve stay longer.. .o wel=/ 

ha. my sm say she rrly like me. 

this new outlet sm i mean

ha. she say so sad im leaving. its like she got a gem , now lost it. 

cos im leaving back to my previous outlet mah. 

my fren say. yea. this gem is from her. hahahaha

tat fren of mine sm. she say her review of me is v good. everythign good. tats why this new sm wan me more 

kk. gtg. late liao. 

mata

2nd blog on same day 7th july

hehe. posted a video quickie for sammy. glad he liek it. i think. he was laughing out loud he said. XD aww wish i could see it!!

glad to hear that i am headin gback to the old store. phew.
more fun over there.

anyway, throat still uncomfy... =/

mm... yea. so far. .slpy liao cos woke early. rememebr i blogged jus tnow? yea now is my 2nd blog of teh day. well now its night. i seldom blog twice a day

mm... mish him..
huu

wow. bro jsut gave me early pressy. O.o ha so early. but okok bah. its lotion perfume thingy... but i have alot of lotions liao. its ok. its the htought that counts

its certainly great to be wearing my lipstick again. my lips back to the baby smooth condition. weee
=)

sooo slpy. gosh. kk gtg slp

mm... today so busy. thought will be quiet desu. but gd bah. hit target

jaa mata

still wishing im there with him

just a quick blog before i head to work

it was rlry nice to skype with him for  awhile last night again. scan picture him driving... and yea. cos my lappy was having prob. as much as i wanted to blog ytd, i couldnt.

slpy abit now. dunno why i wokey at 8plus am =.= haha. still at syd time bah.. my body. anywy. hope wont get too slpy later

dreamt of packign my luggage. and trying to shove dragon in haha.
so nice to hug dragon to slp. reminded me of samy. cos he also hugged it too. and yea. like v comfy .cos his neck is thin. so my hand can wrap ard it nicely.

mm... cant believe this week is over. this long awaited holiday. time flies. and also rrly flies in a yrs time.
cos. .suddenly im like. oh im meeting him again! So surreal. v unreal.

today gonna start work at new location. so yea. wishme luck.
targets v high.

mm... see la. my lips ok alrdy=.= ha. for that whole week not nice. cant put on red lipstick.. then now back and ok alrdy. what timing=.= baka desu

mm.. .kinda excited to go back to work. but also kinda wish im still off.
ha. o well

jaa gtg bah

somehow i still feel like.. this isnt reality.. like.. as though ytd im still in syd.

mata

sydney update. sammy and I. love is in the air =)

so much that i wanna get it out...

so its been a great trip for both of us. even though i was tired and slp. not enough slp, it is all ok. becos i spend every sec with him. i video... yes. him slping and all... took pics.. i tried took mroe pics of us both together.. he shy la i think ha

mm.. i cried alot last night. cos.. found out his dad think he saw me. dunno how sure. but yea. sighs
=/
i rrly hope everything wil lturn out alrgiht. rrly hope they'll treat sammy as a grown up man alrdy to make his own decisions. ..rrly keeping my fingers crossed.. .hope all will be fine. .and the storm be over soon...

jsut when i hav plans. it got all cancelled cos of what happened. sighs. now hav to wait to next yr bah.
and also part of the plan is to make him erm.. 'c munchie omfy' . then no mood cos yea... if only we nvr bump into his dad.. .
rrly regret not being able to comfy him. should've done it earlier when not so tired. maybe first or second day ..sighs... =/
wasted ne.
just when i have plans.. all hings gone wrong =/

my skin.. rrly corse and itchy /painful. cos of the weather. my lips as well. last yr like that. this yr also=. =
so dry. not enough fluid also.
then come back, bought at airport this lipbalm..gdone. now so much better.softness returns. omg why didnt i get that earlier!!??

tried to be perfect for sammy. but plan failed.
too cold. cant wear certain outfit/dresses. haiz... skin breakout on the day im leaving for airport=.= wth right.
arghhhhhh
lips also.
so yea.. .stomach indeed not v good. yakult taste liek diluted.=.= didnt work much. then now i just thought of bananas. next time i must buy bananas. keep my bowel moving.
yakult alone wont work. make me bloated still only

my babydoll lingerie nightie wore once only. think he also nvr rrly notice. perhaps too tired and slpy bah
o well

he asked me why i love him. i heard it as why he love me. i replied dunno. luckily he asked again and the misunderstandsing cleared up .
when u love someone. u love almost everything .its hard to put a finger into it. u cant just say it all out u know.
i love his intellegence , care personaility.. protect me.. swt, cute, fun, he suits me well
and i accept his flaws. thats what part of love is all abt bah .
no one is great at all aspects. and i still love him even though mm.. like he can be pretty firm on me .like.. very manly ar. lol. but he is manly.
but yea. im a lucky girl. and its gd to hear what he liek ab tme too.
fro today onwards, i made it a point not to be upset or angry when he cant msg.
will do my best desyu. he's so busy and tired.. .and yea... as much as i wish he could ,. .but yea. its ok. i understandnow. its great to hear what's he been doing.. his concerns.. uni job etc. makes me understand him more liao. =) we can only change ourselves. not change ppl. once u stop trying to change ppl, you'll realised how great that person is. i read it from a book. rgm lend. we both agreed its true.

he caught me this toy dragon from the movie how to train your dragon 2. i was soooooooo happy. i was over the moon!!!
=) rrly din expect he rrly caught it ^^ hehe . so gonna hug it everyniht. cos he hugged it too.
i love late night suppers with him. walking down the dark night... =) we were near darling harbour. after rushed to  a bar. yea.. .we walk2... then so cold. then he hugged me and spin. =) i was looking up at the sky too.
so nice. so swt. romantic.

gotta slp soon. wil ltype asap. maybe continue tmr or what.

finally we had more pics taken than lsat yr. not huge amount but hey. look on the bright side .itss more than last yr =)
hoepfully next yr even more ha.

wat els.e. mm. .
oh i wasnt feeling so well. my throat. sore throat whole week. huu...

oh we did somethign new. he drove me to wollongon. so beautiful the scenary. i fell aslp along the way here n there.. =/ cos only slpt abt 1hr or so mah. but still. all worth it. =)

love watchign late night football match with him. though i do fell aslp soemtimes. btu yea. cosy up together in one room. watch together. what more could i ask for =)

rrly glad he love the watch. phew. haha. the pressy he like, always took me so lon gand hard to fin dit. its like.. limited edition.. or its selling out everywhereXD but hey. worth it all. cos he liek it after all =)

so yea. first ffew days. .as expected. we still hav some energy.. .ha. then soon... i was like... not much energy to talk liao. haiyo .
oh we went to the bar... 2nd last night before iim supposed to leave. iordered fish n chips. not nice. ha.
but we had a great tiem drinking and tlaking =) thumbs up. hehe. happy

oh .theres this door incident.. .i was sad. =/ cos open up nad bang into this metal bar. i tried to be as careful as possible alrdy. but the door there's this... u know how it will sprint' out? it was too strong. din expected that. cos uses one hand open the door. from then, since then. i always open with two hands to control the weight in case it 'sprint' out again.
but yea. felt so bad and sad that day =/
anyway. lesson learnt. thats most imp

haiyo. wasted. instax camera... got flash.=.= if not hav a pic of us can put in wallet liao.
oh rrly3 like this pics though. i uses this remote control to tak eit. only one T_T huu.... but yea. its so nice. like. .first or 2nd day togerher. we all still look refreshed and good. like not that tired lookin ghaha.

mm... so yea. im back alrdy. that sucks.
i love looking back the pics and vids. its as though i am still there...

he's there fo rme. .and little thigns like lugggage. jsut when i was abt to give up closing it, he say its ok. and he did it effortlessly . he din get frustrated or say why i buy so much etc. but yea.. .he jsut helped me..
sobz. gonna teary liao =/
i mish him alot.
rrly wish to be by his side 24/7

its weird. when im with him, i become a xiao nu ren. like a little woman. like. .i dunno. all gentle and weak liek that. lol. maybe cos hes' too manly bah. its not a bad thing.
i trust him. and i listen to what he say most of the time bah .yea. if not he angry . lol. no la. he knows what he's doing. so yea. clever man mah =)

at one point i was laughing out loudly. he asked if thats how i always laugh.
i hope he dint find it  too ugly or what lolXD
rather he like my laughter and smiles.
so many nice memories i had ...
6 yrs and a half... he's still charming as always =)
alwasy my man .
my love.
my everything. my all .

rrky want to overcome this hurdle with him tmr.. .
anyway. will type soon .hopefully tmr bah. long post eh

jaa mata