Planning Out/ Working On Offs

had 3 days off.

but. all so sulky. none of my off yas... excludes from working.

todya is abit better. but past 2 days, looking for shifts covers. sighs

its tough

anyway,

i missed being tan sometimes.
i got abit tan today as hte sun was so hot and burning. i was under the sun too.
yay
great thing is, i get tan easily. unlike my fren, whos sofair, she always get red burnt.
thank goodness im not like that.

perhaps cos of my dad? i dunno. as my dad is very tan. my mum fair. my bbbro took more of my mum side. me of my dad.

so ya

i had a great night and day planned for him when he's back in sg.
but prob is.. unsure when can he see me. which is my off.
my offs will obvi be weekend. but im pretty sure weekend he won tbe free with me.

..unless he gets to tell me easrlier which date in precise he can meet me .
then i Might be able to apply for day off or al

so yea.. months ahead, but hopefully i can spend a special day with him in sg. cos.. i dunno. last yr he was in sg, i only spent one night with him.

o well....
better than none i guess.

so yea.. i hoep to have this nice plan of mine carried out smoothly hehe.

cos if only one dya then rush... but if 2 dasy.. ebtte.r..

anwya, sanz back to work tmr.

off days also stressed and workiing. sighs

mata

Goals - Hardwork

finalllyyyyyy weekend offfssssss T_T OMG

onne of the store been giving me such a big problem, andi am so glad that this weke is over. but still need to do some work at home though o well.

anyway,
liek  ytd, it was mental. 930Am - 1240AM. cos when i got home i still need to rush for report. after that then i had my dinner /supper. =(

sighs

tough side of rm role nobody will see. only us knows.

rememebr i was talking abt how the slap arm thing? i wonder if its me having the look of wannna smack, or its just the aussies.
my ceo, did the same when he casually talking to me and walked past me. I was like. O.o huh? again ar. i kena smack on the arm by my 2 bosses liao. i dun mind la. just so weird like pppl like to hit meXD lol

then ytd tlking to my cm., i also did the same to her. omg. told u. i have this habit la.
not that hard la. more of like.. touch? or.. flip of hand? if that make senseXD

anyway, hope she wont think why im so rough =.= haha

mm... so yea. been such a tough weke. again, even though my cm is tough, and at times, kinda like heartless..etc.. .but.. i actulayy learnt so much from her. and shes been a rm for 7 years. she's been one since she was 20.
wow. cos she started out aat 15. as pt first. then she dislike school, and dropout from high school, then they asked if she wanna go into management role.

from then.. well.. story unfolds itself.
and so nice. her rm that time. or state manager thinks hihghly of her and htinks she will go far. when store opens in usa, she even ask her to come along. wow. so nice.

then we were tlaking... and she say how if i were to go syd, its like im i dunno what she said ..forgot. 10 days.. 10 montsh or 10 somethign ahead of them.
like imagine primary 1 in sg and primary 1 in au. like... if sg go au, this sg student wouldve alreayd learnt primary 6 stuffs. something liek that ba

she said the same hting thouh. how if i wanna go syd, someone must replace me. so must take under my wing, and yea. .rise them


she said the exact same thing before i became rm.
mm... o well.. i take it as a gd sign bah.
but gotta save up. if not i think wihtout certain amount of money they wont allow u there. =/

but must sayang2 the team there. =.= cannot chop2 do this do that. they will complain. omg its liek baby sitting!!

my main cm (the biggerest in sg) , she mentioned to me that day, saying i have an aussie accent. she heaard me tlaking dunno when or where, and she slike.. yea. im like.. .huh??
rrly ? so weird.
i duno.
my accent alwasy been  u know. can go singlish or the other way kind.
so idunno. i didnt even realized it.
dunno bah.

my other cm very weird . they say shes racistst. i duno
shes always happy and excited when i drink coffee, or when cm say i sounded like aussie accent... she will starting saying .. yay.. becoming liek one of us.. .loookin glike one.. .speak like one.. eat liek one.. (she eats ssalads alot so when im with her, i always eat same) ... etc. i duno bah so weird lol

very entertaining eh

o well.

anyway, i hope to get more stable etc. anad start ouot strong.

i wanna be the first singaporean to make it to syd culture.

i am jus t... very concerned with how to drive ard.

theyy were tlaking inforn tof me while having lunch.
how driving takes long time to travel .but its like one store u cant spend more than 3 hrs cos u wont ge tto fininsh on time for other stores. aka finihs late night .

jam... stupid traffic... near 7am u get out, u rch store at 830...
etc things like that.

got home, still checking emails as no time to do so when u are driving for hourssss

that why my rm always say.. min 2hrs drive to work. 2 hrs drive back home. rch home 8pm, check emails etc...

i dunno bah... see how.

but still i know hwats my goal, and i will still keep working towards it.

and... .if i do reach it, i have my other goals ahead.. but... if i rch it, sure alot more stress.lke duh.... diff culture. must sayang2 team.. .babysitting. .argh

kk jaa mata

wish me luck =)

Worst mothers day ever

i hada rrly rough day today.

 i couldnt control my  tears... for the past couple of dyas i knew  i was sad.. i wanted to cry all out. but somehow i dunno why i couldnt.

today my off. and i dunno what triggers me. i just felt like crying.

thank god id alrdy given mum a given fro msyd as mothers day pressy.


cos today sucks. i didnt wanna communicate with anyoe. li seldom speak. no reaction etc.

i felt bad too. but im so depressed.

ending, asked mum wanna go eat tha express my treat? she declined. cos due to i know she don wan me spend money.

so we eat as per normal.

home. back at work 2nd round.
then realized. couldnt find one of my thing. i looked everywhere. so long. crying. etc. i smashed my delivery empty box in my room. i let my frustrations sadness anger all out. i neded that so badly
i need to vent my anger sadness frustrionas all out but how .

perhaps i toook this excuse... to vent it out. my mu kept knocking on my door. say she'll look for it for me.

in the end i found it. i felt stu.

but yea. end of story.

i felt abit more better now after tears flowing and smashing.

this job landed me in toruble.
im not even myself anymore.
sammy  not ard isnt helping either.

my higher rank cm say.. its always hardest for the first 2 weeks. i know.
so many yrs now. its nvr easy u know. especially for a girl.

i looked terrible. slping late. not eating drinkgin well.. etc.
even whne with my boss.
thank god he's the frenly oen

u know how i'd mentiooned even yearsss before...? im kid aliek a guy if im ard my trusted guy frens. i will be like slapping their shoulders etc. u know


i dunno . maybe im like. the way i talk or the way i handlded myslef/ like very..
i dunno what to say.

then like rob and my gm right.  i dunno, is that a common thign for men. like,

we were talking blah3, then when excited at an idea, their hands like slap my knee and arm.
i think its a guy thing.
thing is im not even close to them . thankfuly i have an brother im closed with so im ok.
if not i'll feel like whattttt. lol.
but im totally cool with it. just a bit surprised cos usually im the one who will slap my best frenarm shoulder...
or isit becos they htink im like a guy>? lol .
i dunno but so weird. especially for my gm to casually hit my arm with his back hand.

rob is... whilst we in car, we were talking abt bikes and he got excited asked me to rate the bike he's getting leter. i was like. ok.. so exicited eh haha.

but yea. im cool with them,. cos i know no weird intentions.
i think maybe i have the presense of being a u know. guy can related to presnense ? brotherlly presense? lol.
cos for my gm, im still like..
are u kidding?
XD
i didnt se ehi do that tomy cm leh.

and omg in train and he treated me lunch, i was like wth.... no topic. nervous etc....

omggggggggg

awkwardness 10000%


if my more serious ceo , its gonna be  1000000000000% awakward.

im feeling it now. omg.

so awkwardc. what if next time they come gaain. i have ot face my ceo . the stern ones =((((

im dead man.
further more im not a good talker. sighs.

anwyay.

yea thaat si tbah.

don get me wrong gat all. 1000% no doubt they are great men. no ill intentions at all.
just wanna make it clear.

how about u? if youre a guy, just met someone, will u be hand slamming them ?

if not,... maybe its me ar.. like.. .byish jokie... i dunno.

so weird.

but gd thing im not the kind of wgilr who iwll get miss ideas. =)

jaa mata

Job Woes

wow i blogging again., gues si mustve been very stressed eh.

anywya, i was still u know.. stressed and all until my main cm (country manager) (not the one without lovelife workaholic) , spoke to me abt whats her plan to get rid of MCs and hvaing us keep looking for ppl etc.

after spoking to her, gave my ideas etc, i felt so much bette.r like a stone lifted off my chest.

my ideas , i just shout it out to her. (and great thing is we actually can talk better than other rm ) anyway.

yea. my concerns and my views in future towards xmas, if we odn fix it now, (whihc i thikn we're alreayd fallen way back behidn) .. xmas, its gonna be 10 time shell for me. and im not even kidding.
it will be worse than hell. i will cry all day and night .working 24 / 7 without a life in xmas. perhaps oct onwards.

sighs. .
anwyay, ,
i hoep all will be resolved soon.

this is out of control.

my worklife is ...disrupted.
sighs

my personal life too.
health too.

i don feel like im myself anymore.
good thign sammy is there to keep me here.
i like his   quote. today is priority, tmr is a plan.

but for rm, we are lookin g forward to months ahead of plans.

that is why i foresee, the future ahead , with ppl quitting and newibes gone etc...
this company gonna lose its money man,

imma be the main speaking person in the meeting next week. im nervous nvr done that before.
imma rant it all out and make sure all sm understanads what it menas,

sighs.


this regiona passed down to me was terrible. i dunno why but  its terrible sighs

haiz.

at least today feels abit better than ytd.

i worked 9am-1030pm ytd

sighs

o well

jaa mata =(

im good with this role. im confident. but now this roster calling ppl all the time to beg them to work, its killing me and wasting my time. my time is precious and expensive. i need to be thinking of hoow to  imrpove a stores sales. not finding ppl to work =(

sighs. .

mata

Detached =(

tough day todya.

i worked from 9am - 1030pm today. its usually rosters that causes me trouble

im so stressed out. its my first day back at work. im still sick.
im just so tired and stressed out. i dunno what to do

i hate rosters i hate finding pppl to work shifts, i hate it.

=(

i love this job. only thing that affected me the most is rosters

rosters and ppl mia.

stupid ppl mia mia mia

wth

so irreponsible

sighs

i miss sammy so much =(
i feel so sad, ,lovesick
.
somethign happeneded to him and i so wish i could be there . i wanna aask hows things now. everyday. but i scared i ask too much. later he stress more.
= ./
i misses him dearly

i dunno owhat to do .. thigns wouldve been much easier and less stressful if he''s here.

my gm asked me (he's in sg) so when am i going to sydney.
my country manager laughed say no he's nt taking me away.
but yea she still needs to train me more.

i feel so detached. from ppl. not sammy. likemy frens family.

when i got my phone back, i was with fren for dinner. she always asked me out but i turend her down cos i was busy tired too much thigns to od.
i paiseh. i finally said yes.
and my mood was so down and stressfuk =(
it was rrly bad. i wasnt myself anymore.

this is what i learnt.

tracey my previous rm she was right. when in sg shes alone she work2. always work till her partner arrved. her partner will be like. close ur laptop now.
like in a nice waay la. .not scold her.

u know how... close it now. come lets watch tv. eat etc.

thats balance. and im missing out on that right now.

i dun wanna turn into the cm .. shes alone her no frens fmaily etc.
all abt work.
sighs.

o well.


 i gtg.

i just wnana let out this rant.

i fee like a zombie now.

mata

First Blog For My Trip

hey guys

itzs been a cool week of gogin to sydney..

meeting his frens and mine. ...etc its been a rrly diff oe his year. and s## been greta this yr too.. ;)

had a couple of weird encouters.. ike a guy randomly said hi. etc and that was hilarious

so amny points im typing as i go sorry  if i skip here and there

met his fren;s gf parents. o nice and sweet... . his wife underatsnds what im going through... as a rm... tough life.

etc.. ayway they .//.. wow such a ince couple.  and i enjoed talking to them =))

sadly he didnt stayed with em overnight alot this yr. but i understand..

he has this wise fren which we talked alot abt  in the car when he drocve. u can tell. he's one of those person who is so socialable

gomen i cant concentrate now im very sick+(((

I understand why they mentiohedn we are so much alike.

not gonna mentioned it here. but i totally get it hahahah.

oh from how we like sephora veggies dislike crowded places etc... yea. we are pretty similiar.  interesting eh. cos our bf are bfs and yea.. interetinsg eh

bfs are hard to come by. i rlry hope their frenships willlast throughout lifetimes


rrly appreciasted whatever happended thsi yr.

his fren, though younger, also wiser, were so good with social. for one, im not the type to open up. unless ppl llike him asked open ended questions.

oeq.
yup.


i will talk abt it next time

i am so sick right now =((( jaa mata

Reality VS Holidays

so busy!!! its sales period and i hate it =((

long horus and all.. but. .. haiz. just get through it i tell myself..

theres a .. problematic team memebr,...
and... blah2... country sm was telling me. or rahter, askin gmme wherer do i see her. to diff ppl, theres diff potencial

for me, { she raises her hand above her head } its that level. and she say she thinks i could even go higher above (liek higher than rm role in future) .
but to so,e team members,
she lowers her hand to her stomach area...  theey just don have the skills.

in anycase,... im flattered for anybody like her to think that way of me. at the same time,... its difficult trying to keep ur team spirits high due to ... u know... the not as gd team...

=/ o well

anyway...

time fleis man. i just cant believe its onlhy less thaan 2 weeks before im off to sydney. like whattttttttttt
are u serious?/


sadly.. .when im back in sg, ....

thoguh still 1 day and half left ofAL,.... my cm(country mamanger) asked me to have my phone back

o well..

life of being a rm.. .

i can see myself already all strerssed by last day of sydnye .or lsat 2 days...

all stressed and crying.. knowing i cant see him anymore.. for long itme i mean.. and having stress back into m life again...

haiz..

o well...

hopefully all goes well.. jaa mata

stressful off day

so stressed out todya. like another working day =(
even though its my off day.
sighs...

i try destress by playing vr game. its so addicitive. but no memory space. not enough =.= cannot move to sd ard sobxxxxxxxxxxxx it sucks

anyway,
there were time when i wonder..if its all worth it. ..haiz...

i rrly dunno ...
im everydya busy. i ditched my life with family. i rather not go out to eat dinenr cos im always tired. and stressed and moodless . just rather spend that hour to do more work

hiaz duno bah.

work work work

its always haard at the beginning. even when i told sammy not to give up. i also know its hard. but the resutls are there. is rrly just thee key is don stop.
its jsut so difficult to take the first steps ya know

and i can totally imagine. that ever boss or experts, they all started off liek a baby. till they become someone successful .or rather, who they wanna be.

haiz,,, o well.. i will ocnctinue do my best...

takign one step at a time see how bah...

jaa mata

Sacrifices

Hi guys,

I hate it when my off's on on a weekday(besides the standard monday) ... becos =/ ..that means im still working at the same time!
long story short.
but yea. ..sighs.

its like home office day for me . i had to rush out run errands. abandon the task to clean my room and organize my new closet all becos of my nemesis. the rostersssssssssssssssss
arrghhh aussies u are driving me crazy!!!! always. always!! last minute changes and we have to re do all freaking rosters cos of u ppl in HO!

arghhhh

haiz.. anyway im only left with couoke of hours before i need to slp and work AGAIN

ppl thinks being a rm is easy. like what??  fit urself in this position and sacrifice alot of things before u think its easy.

like.. now i have not much time for my favourite hobbyand one of the things im good at. beauty products,, .makeups.. likke.. .literally i hate to give up on that. i haven. but im starting to drift away frmo that =(
and social medias...
i used to read through Everythigmn .now, someitme si din even have timem to look through.

=/ thigns to saacrifice. alot.

i cant even imagine what if my bf is in singapore.
like.. will i reject his date cos of work> ? will i keep looking at phone while we're having lunch?
like. .its terribke

one of the country manager aka head of rm, she ssingle.
the another, married.
like. i seriously. wonder what if they have dates with bf. not single not husband.. like. how.. will htey be less about work? and trying to push us to work on off?
cos our previous main rm she has a bf . (theyr enow engaged in australia)
so she wont rrly sned alot of msgs.. .etc. work on ur off etc.. i think .

o well... haizzzzz

alot of ppl wish this main rm can get a bf. so she will understadn us better.

haha

mm,.... o well. like that bah,

waht to do.
u have to giv eup something to gain something (rememebr that anime? my fav ;))

but.. is this all worth giving up for> ? thatas the main question .
or am i working too hard

=/

i cant do my fav thigns anymore... only wish... in future i get to go syd and work. but.. (i heard syd worse) . unlike sg, , the team memebrs there will call u about 30times a day asking stupid questions. lol. like wherer this.. .etc...

hahah. my syd rm told me de.

o well.

see how future unfolds itself. ..

wish me luck.
objective.... is to wanna be happier. not stress.
= /

ohhhh almost forgot. . had my hair trimmed again!! arghhhh as much as i hate it being shorter=((( but.
its sooooooo much better now after treatment and chopping off the dead thickness of hair. its like, im me again!!

haiz... sammy sure wont liek me with shorter length... but. .o well. bad itming bah.
cos of that stuoid perm  in cny... haiz. damaged m=y hair T_T

anyway, so glad its better now.

i went to this korean haircut outlet at pp,

omg. sooo disappointed!! just choped my hair in minutes, and liek that.
say wanna leave my curls in . blah3. somemroe cut sso much!

if i'd went to this supercut hair salon ' earlier, i might've been able to avoid cutting off so much length!!

arghh that korean salon.. .NEVER am i going back again!!!!!


erm.. ty guys... like. waht? my recent blog of 'stressed!' liike... had a massive views... O.o wow. erm.. ok... thanks... weird though. how come.. furthermore, its such a short blog! somethign is worng i guess. o well.

mata

sad day

my parents bought me a closet.
and m room as small enough as it is,.. .. htey shifted my stuffs all ard. now my room isnt like a room anymore. i dont veen feel relax at more either.
it sso messy .
thats why i love hotels. cos it my own private room. i get nice bed. and aircon. with fluffy blankie and proper pillows.
a desk to do my work. tv. i c an do wahtever i want.

sighs .

bad day today =( sad. so sad. so tired. liek all at once.

and my rm.. the aussie one. like so scaary. sometiems very nice. soemtimes very ... abit like. ....mean =/ i dunno

that is what i noticed. id un  even wanna talk much abt them. but seems liek aussies, alot of them are so.. judgemental

=/

anwyay, haiz.

i had a long cut on my finger today =/
this other aussie lady came to sg. blah3... seet up new store. .then she thought she fixed this fiture on wall. but when i staarting putting hooks' on it, it fell right on my hand. the other part of skin teared, but thank god just an inch befor it gets the blood. but my other finger, long cut. =/ o well

so tired. sighs

will i love this job?
i don even feel happy anymore

=(

sobx o well

sighs. so nice. rm get to travel so often like that. still can say rm can apply al only if its big matter. fren come sg they go travel big matter meh?  maybe i shld lie bf coming sg we go travel 14ddays.
she travelling to hk and viet 5 days each. so long.

makes me wonder. what kind of reason can i give.
=/   if only its real. if my bf is here. i could easily say that kind of thing.
o well. cant bah. later they ask to see photos

anwya, hoepfully tmr will be bette.r=/

sighs

mata

i hate rosters and pt who cant waork =(

stressed

you know how   irriating when u tried to call someone and threes no response???? argh 

sighs.. anyway . supposed to have a conference meeting tofya pohone call on my off day

but

it got calcelled last min 

so frustrated

i spent 1 and half hour doing my conference call detailss and didnt dare to step foot out. now, ... its canceled

and.. damm** 

sighs

saw some nice pandora chaarm. so wanna get my hands on them

sammy and i called.. no answers through wats app 

perhaps watsspapp sucks still 

o well 

he is busy whole day if only that is my working day

sucks to have off day and someone else busy

sighs

..watched dr oz show today

if youre super stressed, u will need ppl ard u to  help u 

and im thinkg

 

my family, nope. frens yup.. but all of them too busy iwht work. sg somemore. then how

 sighs

o wllel

siighs.. .gdnight ppl =(

mata

to be my best

hey guys

so stressed uptdoay. big set up coming soon .
cant help but feeling nervous

plsu approving rosters

sometimes i wonder like.. its ust 2 weeks of trainings my rm gave me. triningaper says 4 wks.
but she trained me only 2 weeks. and i dunno. i tink im doing good. but im so stressed out too


days i will work from home. more than 10hrs. perhhaps even more thana 12 or 13.

and .. i kow its not a gd thing. but

i keep telling myself. 'most wont, bu t i will.

event oday out with parents.. i was so .tired n slpy. i didnt have any mood. only sammy kept me up for the day when he msg me.. coupe of oents i almost cry in the day. cos i was so.. bored and fatique i wanna go home i dun wanna stay out ya know. see the unhealthy signs there? =/

sighs

just keep mving forward i guess.

this yutuber been with her bf for yrs right. thehn she recently mentioned how she mentioend to him that pandora charm mmatches her pandora ring .and they went to swazzie store, they were looking ard, by the tmie she got to him, he bought a ring and neclace frmo threre, plus pandora charm the one she wanted.

awwwww

liek even for years right, even before  or after mariage, that is the kind of lil thigns u will do for your partners . for lifetime  its not the gifts or cost that counts. but. the ability to listen, to show, to give, is so worth it.
it takes tme for couple sot learn but yet so... needed. .in a relationship.

it may just be a char. or breakfast. or a ring only.
but.
the thought that counts. is perfect

her partner, truly s a gentleman

my bro mentioned bought a chamr back frmo syf. its only avaialble in syd! oh an.. i hope i will find something like that when im tereh in amonths time

tbh... i dun feel good.
as much as i would love to see him asap.. i dun feel im ready yet.
cos oth pysiically and mentally, im just so messed up.
comepared to how i met him a year ago.
like.. now.... im so tired out. messed up... not feeling gd abt myself. noo time to go for a run, ike. litera.lly, aint the best of mysefl. and since i see him once a year, i so wish i in my tip top condition whne i see him. =/ but now i don feel like it. im so not ready. and not myself. like i feel so ... not me ya know. tired and.. stressed. and.. not happy.
sighs..

one month left.
what else can i do.
still getting usde to my new role as r.. and.. haiz.
i only wish im more psyically and mentally hapier so i can meet him in my best form

afraid. .and adding to stress that im unable to fulfill that.

whne u get to emet ur partner for once a yr, hell youlll wanna look your best. but.. im too streessed and busy to do that. i cant find my time. for myself . between work and all. sighs..

hoepfuly all tur out gd with sammy. =/

i hoep somehow i can be my best or at east 80% when i se ehim.

things so crazy esp druing saes period =((

sighs

jaa mata

wish me luck

no pain no gain

Hey guys,

been so lonog .gosh. tahnsk to sammy , it inspired me to blog this. i totally forgotten about it.

thigns i used to do to unwind, or fav thigns to do. etc, now its all been taken up by my workload. i no longer can enjoy my lil treats of scrolling through snapchats etc.. lil thigns liek that u see.

but i understad the thigns u need to give up . though i hate to say it. it isnt right. but.. the thigns u need to give up for work .
sounds wrong eh.

my syd rm was telling me how she lieks to play (dunno what thing is taht) every sat. ubt when she got promoted, she gave that up. and look. time flies, and shes in sg now.

im good with my job. but. i dont love it. love what u do is so important.but.. i dunno..

sighs. im just working 24/7. im letting the workload get ahead of me. and i understadn starting out in new roles is alsways so difficult. even syd rm also says the same thing.
she cried to her state manager. took her 4 months to get used to rm life

4 months . yup. ,my next coupe of montsh sure is getting prettier each day till 4 months. =.=

anyway jsut a lil rant. gonna get some rest now.

had 4hrs of slp and phone call from owrk woke me up.

and yea..

beenw orking till 430 since then =/

jaa mata

happy belated valentines day

hiiiii seems like i ant blog as often as i want still... =(

anyway.. better than none. happy belatedvalentines day peeps.

whenevevr it comes to this day.. i always envy whenevr i saw pics of my f rens posted... like pressies.. proposals.. flower.s.. bbears. ..fancy restaurant .. dayout.. pressies ofc... like lots... etc. so nice. so envy..

bt o well...

even thou im with my guy for many yrs. yes ofc every day can be valentine. but if u rrly wanna askk abt 14th feb celebrations.. its.. only... the tiem when he was here in sg. well... twice? i think.  at leats last yr after v day he did went out with me and bought me a dress (cos he commented he dislike what i was wearing)XD bt.. lets treat that as a v day pressy yea.

tatas why ive.. nvr rrly.. i duno. like.. .. the strongest memory ..best memory was the one when he gave me a ring i love frmo a masg i showed him (i truly had no intention of hinting him to buy k i was so innocent back then ) ..
he treated em to swensons too..

and also.. he surprises me with doggie softtoy underneath my tent in my room... and a flower( my first rose form him) ..
that was my 2nd surprise from him i think

anyway..

its been soooo long isnce i had any happy surprises.
in many yrs. i only had few.

beside shim suddenly appearing in sg..

few days back i ordered a facemask and they came iwth big nice fancy smaples and packaging etc. iw as blownawya.

well..

im.. rrly looking forwards to the day when 14th feb will be a blast that i get to post a awesome pic to state my memory

one day.... ...

mata

future

hellloooo ... still din get to blog as much as i would like to.. used to do it every other day=/

been so busy.. stressed.. and tiring.. .

my previous company.. her husband side.. be it relatives and such etc.. .they are all with big roles. like rich etc.
whikst she's just a retail sm

she// been through alot.
... her pay shld be pretty gd,,
i fogot.. what did she say abt her husband family..his parents ofc..

lookdown on her? or sumtin> ,,, ?
i dunno.... etcetc...

im glad her lie is better now.

just.. dawn on me thou...

ur partner.. ..being judge by a family due to great 'reputation',... they earn heaps.. etc..doctors..lawyers.. etc...
how woud u protect her / him
..
..why does that matter..

in life.. love who u love.  be with them forever.. it sur life. and it sucks having relatives... or i eman htnking.. oh relatives gonna  judge ur partners..

i don have a huge cert . bt i work my as off. off till... personal problem arises... etc.

i don thave a choice. im not born under golden spoon...
don get me wrong. i love who i am.
i would rather be poor than be a spoilt brat( youll see heaps nowadays) .

but.. yea.

i d not know what futue holds..
i have a bf for 8 yrs. first love..
and. i wan it to work..

future seems dimmer now than ever..

adulthood sucks..
sighs... anwyay.....

i need somoone to pamper me .

my fam cant do that..

and i feel awkward even sitting next to my mum.. i duno what to talk abt..


future is .. so unknown.. i .. wanna find out.. whats in hold fo rme this yr..

mata

hello again =)

omg. cant believe my last blog was in dec

i just wanna drop by say hi. miss bloggin.. tlaking...

still busy as always.. htings slowing down a lil... but yea..

anyway.

in need of holiday soon. cant wait. wish me luck peeps.

so wanan tlak heaps.. but yea.. whne im not so lazy bah haha

will and wann blog soon!! aasapppp
jaa mata