Birthday..Reminders

....haha..... sighes................................................................................ =((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

today is eithe rone of the worse birthdya(which i dun think so) or yes. .its my worst birthday ever. =(

dunno hw to begin eh.. ... everythig just doesnt feel right, good, or nice =(
everythig went freaking WRONG. =(
my birthda couldnt've been this worse. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i dunno what to do.....
sigh.. from mrg. .from the ppl i spoke with.. to my birthday cake. . today i;ve been weeping all the way =( yes im freakilngly weeping on my birthdya=(
i feel so invisible.. i dunno.. sigh.. =( its a  total diaster =(
but i keep reminding myself.. i have family.. i have bf who loves me so much.. i should be fine.. yes.. i must be content... i keep reminding myself throughou the day.... non stop.. remind3................. trying to feel betetr.. yea. i did. that is.. to cover up.. yea.. then  i did..

ibut anyway.... yeah. .alrayd better eh.. so.. yea.. i dunno .but yea

..anyway.. there goes my birthdya.. ntohign much to mention about. .i just wanna get it over with.. it just turns out to be a diaster. thats all. it was near alrite.. btu i dunno... i dun.......... o well......

ha.. i cnat believe this.. gosh... .............

so ya.. there  u go.. my birthdya... everything went wrong from A to Z. ha.. yes.. u name it, i got it. almost. so ya.. end o f story. unbelivable story. o well.. suey luck.. tough.. i got them all .wow. best gifts ever. ha. .... .o well...
..anyway.. hmm. =/ yea.. i dun have to tell u my birthdya in details.. oh wait. one of hte  part where nothing went wrong is the dinenr part..  erm. yea. .dinenr. .so full. no appetite as well.. cos dunno. .doidnt feel good.. sicne afte rcoffee.. i duno what swrong.

anyway, as i was saying.. yea.. i dun have to say anything.. whatever u think, yes.. u name it, i almost got it.. everything went wrong from a to z..
anyway this isnt the birthdya i imagine it out to be
o well...... SUEY. haha...
o well.. but beter than the ppeps in africa. o well.
sianz..

k.. i gtg.. no point pointing out all my miseries here.. u guys should know..

.. wiat.. lemme say somehing els.e .tmr.. sigh........ dunno can go zoo anot. .howver... ...... =/ i at first i thoguht of not goin.g.then like.. wait. .i raly inn need of destress righ t now. .otheriwse at home im gona go crayz.. i dunno.. i duno how to explain.. im just.. not happy right now =( sorry.......... sighes.. im just not... =(

the only birthdy a(perhaps) where i got no mood nor smile to sing happy birthdy awith.. diaster... but well. .keep reminding myself of how lucky i am.. and compare myself to the ppl in africa.. u know.. m lucier in that wya.. at least i still have sam, family and cake. so .. ...o well.. suey.. but stull betetr huh?
..even simple pleasure planned before hand.. such as. watching a nice movie with sammy.. .. alos can be destroyed by internet. .... =/

my only pleasure initially is to watch a comedy movie and laugh.. but.. all plans failed thorugh... =/
o well.. yea.. will have betetr dasy i believed.. its alroite.. .. o well.. . not alrite. but yea.. im still lucky enuff eh..
 

i got so excited. i heard his voice so clearly.. i thoiught i could skype with him after all. .but .. stil end up with no movie and stuff...
it sok.. its a day i could be remeebring it all my life.. whoever.. i reminded myself throughout the day.. im stil lthelucky one. .... so yea.. ..o well..

even thought my fren offeres me to drive me out to beaach. .still.. i dun like. i dunwan.. =(
yea.. home is my best place to be.. ..with him desu.\

jaa mata.