lol.. was searching for my pressy in my bro's room just now!! XD! he was hiding here and there.. hahaha... yes.. ever since young, i've always had this habit of searching for my birthday present in ppl's room.. XD especially my bros. lol... now still aint change one bit ne! ^^ hehe.. :P oh.. he was asking me if i wanna celebrate birthday tmr.. my birthday on 22nd.. but he's working.. so.. see how ne. wonder if redz will come too. :) and sammy... ....
...sigh.... today... me not happy at all... was gloomy the whole day... :( becos... sigh.. the days are passing so fast...my last date is coming... dunno have to wait till when then can enjoy with him again... ...its bloody tough.. me realy gotta stay strong and hang on... ...gotta cheer up.. :/ ..
my phone.. sigh.. spoiled again.. -_- sianz!! gotta send for repair!! omg2!! so sianz! why?! how?! XD
woo.... the next solar eclispe after 22nd, will happen on year 2027. so.. yes!! im not gonna miss it this time!! 22nd at 8am.. no, before 8am, me gonna wakey and look at the moon! wohohoho....! falls on my birthday know!! ^^ hehe.. thats why must watch.. haha.. told my bro don lock the door already :P lalala... hee.....~ so.... yup! hopefully can see it bah.. happy that it falls on my birthday. :) so.. ..special bah.. .. ha. oh.. it'll last for about.. 6mins and 43 secs.
....my heart feeling so... ..heavy... pain.. ..sigh... how... the weekend is coming.. ending.. i dun want him to leave... ... :..( oh.. speaking of weekend.. its already been confirmed.. bbq chalet organized by our company.. omg.. so troublesome.. -_- don feel like going.. dunno whos gonna be there.. hope i wont see that bloody backstabber milo!!
ion's ladies... oh gosh... yes.. talking abaout ytd.. the ladies.. got sooo many mirrors!! XD! geez... like a make up room.. =.= omg.. do check it out ppl.. hahaha... so high class like that.. o well...
oh.. saw this woman all wrapped up.. her face.. so can only see her nose and eyes.. sam.. =.= joke about me gotta wear like that if i convert.. bleahx.. not like that me know of course! XD haha... speaking of converting.. yeah.. me dun mind.. cos don even know where i stand.. :( when i do marry,.. geez.. do i need to convert? whats my religion anyway? =.=... haiyo... i dunno where i stand... o well.. guess gotta have my own faith for now bah..
.....hm.... ...im scared... ....... my birthday's coming.. ..dunno whats gonna happen.. i wish i wont cry... ...i...... ... dunno.. ....dunno am i hating my this year birthday or what.. cos... ...yeah... its my last... .... :/ ..sigh........... ..dread it.. ..
mum was telling me.. she dunno what to give me.. she cant give me anything much. .cos she also no money.. i know... and i dun mind.. i dun blame her.. its just pressy only.. ..just that.. of course.. in my heart.. still years for a little tiny something from family.. ..its alrite.. i got bro.. for sammy.. got redz.. ..im lucky enuff already right..?.. just that i wish.. if only my family.. is... ... ....nah.. o well... im already lucky enuff to have sammy... theres nothing else i want..
today.. finally gotten my stuff done.. left with final touches.. finally.. after half a year.. its completed.. hm.. but not that much of a perfect..but.. what to do.. time is limited.. .. so.. yeah.. .later gonna complete it bah.. ..
sigh.......... how i wish sammy is here and and cheer me up.. sammy doest have to do anything u know.. one smile is all i need.. presense is all i need... and i'll be so ever happy...
gosh.. ...tears are pouring!! XD.. geez man!!.. hahaha... ... ....im really so glad... my first love.. that person.. is someone who appreciates me.. who love me so much..but can never beat me to it.. ha.. i did not love a wrong man.. i've made a right choice.. im really so lucky in this part of my life.. despite.. that my life before aint perfect.. there're lots of downs.. pains.. hardships.. alot for me to endure..which my family din know.. cos i never say anything to them.. then one day.. here comes this white light.. appeared before me.. he's tall.. warm.. sweet.. with the most comfy presense you can ever imagine... wait.. isnt he my guardian angel... ...he hold my hand.. walk through the dark times with me.. and every secs.. became such sweet moments..that one could never forget.. ..but.... ... he's gonna be gone for awhile now.. its gonna take alot of hardwork to see him again.. ...what to do... greater things ahead are always meant to wait.. see... didnt the white light appeared jst when i was about to lose all hopes...?... im glad.. i haven lose it.. the greater things lies.. in the future... ..i cant wait... but.. the path.. is gonna be long and difficult i think.. what to do... the best of the best things... always take the longest to reach... but as long as he's there.... i'll never lose the light... abd.. we're gonna reach together..
the sun.. wasnt bright today.. but i decided to wear my sunglasses anyway.. just.. feel the sudden need to shut my face from the world.. as i was cleaning very carefully the sunglasses,.. i realised (perhaps again) that the side.. got bling2 to it... haha.. not diamons, not crystals.. but.. look nice.. i was cleaning the box as well... carefully.. very carefully.. and slowly.. admiring the whole thing.. wipe.. wipe.... wipe... so much things on my mind today... theres much peace and quiet today at work.. but... i wasnt happy. im stress!
by 3 plus today.., i wasnt feeling hungry yet.. but no.. cannot... i tell myself i really gotta force myself to eat something.. its getting so late.. thus me bought food.. eat.. and.. after awhile, bought chocos from candy empire..(stress!) and... yeah.. now feeling hungry again.. dots... -_- dunno... tmr wanna bring instant noodle anot.. everytime spend at candy empire.. is = to one meal.. haiz.... what to do... craving for the candies there.. ..ha
k... me better go do other stuff soon.. ..
jaa.... mata ne.....
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