Sick Yet Again

thought of not bloggin again.. cos not feeling well.. and tired.. and weak.. and so much to blog. sorry.. i don think im typing much here=/

haiz... tch..
its so weird.. i get all these looks from guys. i don like that. =/
even at uss. i dont see myself as someone so like..erm.. attractie> ? i don know.. it just bothers me.. i don like all htese uncalled for attention.
luckily during worktime, me still safe . cos they cant do pretty much anything there.
i got my manager to protect me ba.

hm.. tch.. me so weak now.. thought of taking mc. but not nice.. alreayd off 2 days.. somemroe not enough manpower.. so gotta hang on ba. i hope tmr i'll get well.
ate the sg med again.. then ate clarinase about 5hours later. maybe thats why extra tired.
gosh.. don tell me gonna happen again.. the tiredness drowsyness will last till tmr. im pretty sure.

ytd.. omg.. was sooooooooooooo tired. even when mornign wakey, also very3 titred.
while waiting for  sammy, me fell aslp. then rest bit and there.. so tired and weak.. sighs.. =(((
feel so.. haiz. just gib bloster or sofa a hug ba..
sometiems just feel somethign amiss.
o ewll..
oh.. ytd . riding hte coaster,. was good. shoick. i like. but the other 2 guys.. couldnt catch up with me. dots.
i didnt know im the type of person who'll smile instead of screaming when riding those. i am... really different huh?
o well.. life's about discoovering oneself too.. bit by bit.. i'll see what kinda person i am.. to be one of my own..

hm. .s yea. certain places we missed out during first trip there, we made up for it.. oh we get to watch the monster rock house, or whatever thats called, and the steven spielberg show. its awesome. the scene from movie liek that.. i don know.. is it lie.. 3d window.. or what. how ever, i can tell u.. it looks like new york really is right in front of our eyes.. with the sea brewing high.. omg. its REAl looking. very9 real. so see for urself. u'll be truly amazed.
the rock show.. hm. quite ok. well. .it was raiing.. but that show indoor. .so stil lcan see.. rain cost us certain show cant be watch.so yea.
and the monster house. one of hte performer. .dots. o well .let redz laugh at em ba. =.=

hm.. so yea.. i dno.. sometimes i wonde rif hte phone connection is bad outside or what.. tch.. i duno even know if im online. but . i am. so.. yea..
oculdbnt be offlein fo rme right?.. =/ haiz
so yea
waht else to say.. .
sighs.. terrible feeling.. just wasnna hug someone tight. .but i cant. will pull through ne?

oh had a customer.. working in sg airline. .told me indeed.. tickets prices are rising on oct.haiz.
then yea.. i duno.
..haiz.. to me no difference. go tpromo or no promo. its stil lexpensive. how cheap can it get? ha.
i wish i could understand.. like just. get how that feels.. how one could forget to do what one said so.
if its really a very important person, then why stil lforget?i wonder if thast possible. or perhaps.. that person doesnt mean much, just that perhaps one didnt realised.. and thats the reason why one could forget.
forget leads to disappointments.
and then it leads to tears.
to despair.
and starts to question.
whats important?

i just dont get it still.. wondeirng which theory could be right for me. to believe what one's heart is saying, or think the other way round.

i remember tha ttime.. ah.. i just came back from sydney..
i tell myself. yea.. just always remember.. he's the one.
ha.. yea.. it was good.

sighs.. so wanna clear my head.. too tired ba huH?

oh.. so.. about.. hm... 2 weeks or so.. my manager returning to melbourne. yay. so envious. super duper envious. haiz..
wish im the one..
i htink the day i bought my tickets, shall be the day i jump up and down.
and tell the whole world. wait fo rme. i would announce it soon.

hm.. .so yea.. tch...
what a day..
my nose is killing me as always. .oh heard bro too. but he's fine when its dark. then redz.. colndt eat.. and feels liek vomiting.. so yea.
tere u go.. gosh.. i cant imagine if i am working todya. glups. .gonna be so tough.
remind me. .don ever ver go uss if next day im working.
hm.. bt i think that time .. yea. i was worknig the next day.

sometimes feel like asking something.. but then.. like, i duno if i should. cos .. i don get it.. and.. duno shoudl i ask. .or could it make thigns worse?.. so yea.. tch.. .. o well..
upset.. its like. .i din know anything. =/

u know.. it came acrose to me.. it slil things that counts.. sometimes.. never do when we're together. then now, really wanan do lots when se ehim again. cos i don get to do that often. and yea.. ha.. ..
its good.

hm.. i want a holiday. no matter waht.
.tch.. o well..

maybe i shld ask sumtin later..

hm.. oh.. ytd.. had a knocked on my head. cos on eof hte ride.. haiz. then head like.. finally know how ppl feels u know.. liek those movies?
like. .head pain.. then the whole surroundings of brain feels different.. u can feel it.. all pain, and dizzy. .so thats how a head concusison is like.
wow.. pwoer sia.. no wonde rppl could die from a car accident..
cos the head could just hit the back of chair,, u know. .thrust forward, then back.. and head hit chair. that is painful ma. .or imagine someone poushes u hard onto the ground.. head hit the floor.. thats hwo it is man..
but after some moments, im back to my feet. so yea.

hm.. din go to my fren's wedding .. haiz. too bad. but so happpy fo rher. yay..
after much troubles and stuffs, good thign she stil lmanaged to get amrried successfully. =)
so envious of her..
hm.. k.. hope tmr i'll be fine.. as long as my body gets back to fitness once again..
so drowsy=./


hm. .who knows.. perhaps next time me go uss again, would be with sammy eh..

mata ne.. ...