need love

hmm..... haiz. very bored today.. though.. was out for shopping.. yea.. nothig pretty much to do  thats why.. .. today i was awoke early.. and this song was palying in my head... ''i'll be  waiting for u x2..'' korean drama song.. sianz.. duno why
tmr.. since sammy is ot.. thought of having a night out for myself. though tired.. but stilll...
beats better than waiting aside.
hm.. thinking, ,,of who to go with. or, just being alone again. yes alone.. that words. sounds so.. o well..
anyway..
..hm.. duno ba.. so tired and bored..
.. haiz.. ..
sometimes i don understand.. no i mena i cant.
why things are so complicated sometimes..

oh my foot.. that day kena hit by what forgot.. then bleed. just saw the blood then know. ha. took me so long. my finger is on its way to healing provcess.. .
haiz.. o well
today.. like.. i duno. i think its the first time i have such a huge favour to ask of sam.. but its so urgent thats why need his help..
gosh. .saw this item i really like. .but didnt get it on time.. cos was thiking should still have stiocks by the time im there. so as to save on the shipping fare.
but to my dismay, i couldnmtv been more wrong. dots.
item ran out. only left with limited stocks in store. haiz.
i hope still there though.. hopefully hte one sammy is going to will still have it.
yea. .keeping my fingers crossed.. ...
hm.. time to revamp abit of my wardrobe.. so many old clothes im not weating anymore..
and my style has changed too..
ppl elvoved.. i gess i am too.

sorry.. sometimes nowasdyas., when im too tired or even upset, i wouldnt blog.. cos uea.. i duno.
o well...
hm.. in anycase,, ..... yea. .lifes been busy still... kjinda.. bt slpy and tiring.. yea still tiring.. i guess what i need now is a proper rest. i wish i have 3 dasy of straight off.. to just rest it all out.. .... o well
hm..
i was asking sammy the other day..
asking.. does he believe in true love..
he didnt say no nor yes in excat.
i didnt ask again cos kinda was afraid will ge a disappointed answer..
but anywy.. i believe so too.
but then again.. true love. .it could be somethng liek this..
ONCE IT BRUSHED ITS SHOULDERS AGAINST YOU AND IF YOU DIDNT GRAB IT, IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN NOR PASS BY ITSELF AGAIN...
meaning............. once you missed it, it'll never happen again. you'll never have a true love in your life. becos u missed it. dont u ever wish you have a partner to spend the rest of your life with? even in your 70s.. 80s.. someone to hold your hand with to slp.. you know.. walk with u in the park..

..sometimes i wonder.. if i see love a a too important matter.. in face it is.. but somehow.. it could affect my well being. tears and sadness seem to ocurre more often than usuall..
and whta was that for. .

ah.. my nose.. glad to say that its been about a week? i think.. and so far its been fine.. gosh. .yay.. cheers to that.

wow.. look at the date.. .3 weeks to go.. ...suddenly.. nope. .not yet.. i think. the nerve wrecking part aint here yet.. but im sure its gonna be when its near.. ..
3 weeks to go. .. omg.. ..=/ how.. will i feel awkward?
i thinj i'll give him a tight hug.. oh no.. no.. im not gonna cry! when i see him at the airport. .nope. .hm.. i duno.. how woudl i be feeling by then... ..
i have no idea./..
mm....
o well.. shalol see how.. .. 3 weeks.. .then meet for one week... .....
hm.. ...
u know how many times i almsot get knock down if i wasnt lucky enough?
isnt t frightening.. to lose something u really love one day?
im glad im the one and not sammy.
no matter how hard i try.. it sems that i keep on .. u know. haivng frightening frights..
very not good.

 i feel stress lately... am i? i duno. perhaps to tired. but what can i do.. to ease these fatigue-ness.. .omg.. .
i don care.. i wanna go for my language lessons!!!!!!!!!!
so nmany thigns wanna learn.. but that is m passion the msot.. but how.. haiz.................. =/alrayd so tired.. .. ...how ne.. .. =/
argh.. o well
anyway hope tmr will have gd news from sam ba..

he's slping early again..

how i wish... he's not living ins ydney,,

mata