they brewed troubles again

its gonna be late soon....

actually, it slate now=.=

and im down with a slight fever plus my nose.. haiz... im terrible now =(
just hope i'll be fine by tmr... totally sick mode now. huu

throat still bit of pain. .haiz. shouldntve gone out. but too late to say no. o well

anywya,
im thinking u know.. mm... his family is the only ppl i know who hates me. only htye themselves can get it. fo rme i don. for him he dont know why either. for ppl who know me also don understand.

but u know what. my conscience is clear.. no matter hwat they think of me, i know its unreal. sometimes, ppl just need some weird excuses pretended to be reasons for them to backup their hate for that person or matter ba.
u knew its untrue. but u need to think it is true, so that u get the result of what u want. perhasp its that way for them?
i thought.. sighs. i thought for a parent, whats most important is for ur child to have their happiness. listen care n be there for them. but.. somehow i dunno... everyone is different ba..
i just wish.. sammy couldve been happier with his family..if only his family isnt that complicated..

its not that right isit.. to stil lwanna control somebody when they're alreayd all grown up, and step into adulthood..

its just hard huh.. when u wanna get along well, but yet.. they aint giving a dang about u. .they don wan to listen to u.. i hate it when anyone takes my explanation for excuses. especially at work. or even in personal life.
why cant they just sit, listen with respect, and take it in as well> ? give n receive mah..
..but liek i sadi. .everyone is different. .i think this way, doeant mean my boss or anyone else would huh.
perhaps they know. but they don wan to admit theiy're in the wrong

just worried for him.. with or without me , if they wont change, he's not gonna be happy with them in future either =/

one of my fren say if his familly make thigns diffifult fo rhim, he'll get outta house. and he did .
yea........... brave huh.

i felt that.. sammy alreayd done his best.. but u cant expect him to do all the work alone right. trying to listen n all. .explain..etc. if they don do the same, nothgins gonna ever work out .. i just don wan him to be so unhappy in that house u know

i hope he'll feel betetr soon....
i understand how he's feeling now...
course aitn a good feeling.

u know.. i think perhaps his family blames me for everythign they dislike him doing.. but even without me in the picture , they'll still find fault with others ba? liek perhaps next target.. his frens? his work> ?

so weird huh... to be hated for the thigns n reasons you've not done n deserved. if u know what those reasons are, i bet you'll go huh'?? thast the reason they hate u??

i don know ba.... no chance for me to say or do anythign anyway.. imagine me wanna speak with them, also no chance.
yea... very strict n .. i dunno..
just diff form other ppl sfamily ba..

u dont need reasosn to hate or dislike somebody. all u need is excuses.
anything can be used against u

but yea.. my main concern is him. i really hope he can smile n be happy.
liek without any worries..

oh man.. my  fren going melb. did i post that last night? i think i did?
her relatives lives there. fren study there too so yea.
man so nice. free tic n accomodation. oh hey wait. yea i did blogged abo thtis! =/.= gomen..
bad memory sometimes

so yea. i'l lalwyas stand by his side n support him.
he done nothing wrong.
as for his family.. i have no palce to judge so yea...
just felt that they are diff from other parents thats all...
only important person is him. and thast all it matters. just him.
no one else.
so yea..
i wont think of hate, angry or what. i try not to think of anything. just only him. and i feel at peace. with only him i think about. just concentrate on him

kk. .gtg.

later fever got worsen =/

don worry about me too..
false thigns set again me.. but yea. i wont argue liao..
cos i only care about sammy now. how he's feeling and all.. if he's ok. .etc.. so yea.
even if his family wanan think of false facts about me.. .then. yea. what can i say. i cant brainwash them or what. they are so adament huh

just dont ever become u know... like.. trying to squeeze a banana.. too tight, they will burst. and get squashed. or sorry2.... take a puppy for example. after u squeeze n suffocate them, u think when they grow bigger, will they run towards u and give u licky on ur face, loving u? no they wont. course they wont.

is that what u called love for your child? i dont understand about that kind of 'lvoe'.

once bitten, twice shy

or somethin gliek that

kk... pray that he'll feel betetr soon. only wanna think of him, not me.

please be ok dear..

mata