Not so happy

recently. .felt  that im kidan. .u know. .ready again. .to look through the pics id taken with him during my 2nd visit to sydney..
pics looks great as always.. ppl.. views.. feelings.. looking all so blissed.. and happy.. full of vibrant that time. ... ha.. ..
i thought i was abit naive looking . ha.. i guess.. sometimes setbacks just changed u as a person somehow. .and ur thinkings.
i wont say it makes me stronger. but.. i dunno what either.

haiz. couple of thigs to settle.. gosh. no time. ... =/
jia you ne i will.. .haiz..

just need to remember. .held my chin up and smile. ahh... oh nvm. forget hwat i just said. haha. thats so difficult.

today had a good long talk with sammy again. always feels so much better.
haiz.. if only we are at the right places huh.
haiz=/ from sydney to melb is 200 plus.. if . mm... o well. i duno man.
anyway.. perhaps should wait till aug. or sept.. arghhh i dunno man... tch.
just hope to find a great deal. co si really need another break real soon. jjune.. i didnt apply for leave.s. =( but yea.. .. haiz..
june is and will be a crazy month. but u know what. i have to do this. i have to.
jia you ba. =/

though saving up is difficult. .sa im stress from work. and i need to destress sometimes. using food and shoppings. ha. bad. .really bad. but yea. thinking of the future trip... u know.. i have to do this man. i think might still need 3 montsh before im ready to purchase tix. gosh.. mum so gonna kill me. lol.
but i deem it as a worthwhile deal. i deserve it.

toda.. =( sadly, i didnt get to go to sg audi fashion show. sighs. fren gib me the tix to go.. get the great goodie bag. .then we share.. but i don feel like going .. not today. =/ so yea. so wasted i know =( sighs.. but yea.. wah tto do.. ..too bad... .
haiz..

sighs. i really miss him alot. especially when times get tough, and night falls, .. tch.. oh man... =/
k ba. .perhasp best thing to do to destress, is to slp.

later in abit i shall

oh yea! theres this lingerie, omg. u can wear them on the outside. wow. must be so daring to do tha teh. but taht is soooo coooollll. omg. i will consider. bt.. o well. shall post up the pic in my facebook soon. haha. too bad i don post pics in my blogs =P too troublesome fo rme. dorry =P

mata