it all comes down to pain

sighs.. feeling sad todya… missing my manager. .the wya she guided us.. going throgh my sg manager hints of how bitchy blah3…

sighs….

this world is so complicated =(

i hated it.

sighs.. =(

what can i say…

i.. sighs. .just need someone to talk to. .i really  hate saying goodbyes.. i really do. = (

i learnt that when i sai dgdbye to sammy.. it was the most painful thign to do besides breakin gup…
yea.. that was so hurtful.. and u went through all thos efor nothign. becos .. in the end u still have to separate..

anyway,.. yea.. sighsssssssssss =(((( i am very very very upset ….. i lost my best manager.. and i m having prob at workplace.
sighss…. o well

just. .u knw.. …trying to do my best ya know….

haiz.. o well.. all the more i wann head to melb and visit my manager. sighs. .so many places i wanna go. but so little money =( what should i do..
haiz……….. i really wish to go melb too.. =/

sighs… tch.. nvm.. for now just save up ba… …. then will shall out the price. .of course if can travcel between 2 palces, i would lvoe to do so

wow. i didnt know. my bra size could went up just like that. uh hu. i llkike that . its good. versatile enough i didnt try it on as htere were too many ppl. diff brands have diff sizers.. despite b or c cups, i fit righ tit. all good.

…mm… sighs  trying to numb myself ..

yea.. i certzinly wish to.. u know…… haiz. nvm ba

at time liek this…. i really wish time could turn itself back.. and let me go back to where i had my happiest time.. .dates.. etcc… u know =(.. .. those happiest moments of my life.. it is never coming back..

sigh… .=(

and i jst wish.. those happiest years of my life.. i could experincec it again… i really do.. now , everythign is nothing at all.
i just wish.. i could return back to those 3 year.s… i rrly do… =(

happiness seems as though a dream.. when its over, u wak e up.. and.. u know.. time moves on still… it never wil lstop for u… it will be saying. .go on.. move away from ur happiness now.. move further away……………..

i thoght i will be fine. but it still end swith a lie..

sighs. .o well… like that ba…

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at least.. im stil lable to blog here while i last…

life .is so meaningless. i don see any meaning to it. jinseiwanani..wakaranaii..

sighs.. o well.. nothing’s gonna change anyway..

mata