05 November 2009

Important Or So

pretty upset today.. perhaps i never say it all.. perhaps i was too naive or foolish..
i think.. yeah.. really foolish. this is the reason why im so upset.. because i let myself 'in' again.

..was feeling sleepy the whole day..
.. couldnt really fall aslp..
the only thing in mind is waiting to call up someone important.
its boring today.. very..
then theres disturbing huggies want anot msgs from his fren. i know its nothing.. but.. u know.. i guess girls sometimes still feel uncomfortable no matter what.
sometimes i really dislike facebook. they're right. .it can lead to bad things to happen cos of websites like this.

i never get to call up straight away.. i think i know why.. but don wanna ask..
so.. ..
o well.
i thought this call was important to me. i didnt know if its ever the same on the other side..
whats there to be afraid i wonder.. but i never ask.. just pondering.. whats so.. ..secretive..

am i so dark..
that i cant be shown to the light..?
im not that worthless right..

but .. truth's out.. i know whats the reason.. but..

now.. here i am.. .. quiet rainey day..
...now.. again.. waiting to call...
feels a lil different now..
hunger is gone too..
but..
yeah..
waiting for a dinner later..
so wanting to cook.. but.. mum cant have meats today.. so..

deostn feel like having anything.. but will force myself to.. ..no worries..

me.. tried out new dish. its raw herrings. kinda yummy. my fren recommended them to me. so.. yup. so difficult to get them though. longgg way.

o well.. what a day huh..

so... here i am.. blogging..
before dinner..
cold..

dead

mata

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