gosh.. sleepy from morning till now.. -_- need to slp asap..
hm.. i think im feeling better now..
wasnt so hours ago.. ..
hm
perhaps too sleepy i think.. .. =/
tch..
oh. .tmr.. hm. .guess i just gotta act as though i forgot morning i must be in the office then.. argh.. so tired to go there -_-
hm...
.. u know.. things are getting abit .. just a lil bit easier when i try not to think or focus too much on one thing.. but once something trigger me to do so, ahh.. breaking loose again.. =/ haiz.
.. i think its better this way now.. but.. .i dunno. .sometimes i feel like i do not want any regrets..
..tough eh.. .. haiz.. ..
i need my time to think.. probably next year.. .
hm..........
its quiet now.. .. =/
... i still cant feel much love from my family sometimes.. especially my bro.. we used to be so close. :(
even my aunties.. they've always love my bro more i think.. not that i mind but... sometimes i don think my existent matters. kinda sux really when u think about it.. hm..
but o well... i don care about them one bit. if not for my parents, i would've ignore them totally.
i've always wanted.. close relatives to u know.. keep in contact with. .especially like my malay frens.. keeping in contact with other cousins.. hm.. =/ o well.. its alrite.. i don need them i guess..
i have sammy and other frens. and my mum.
sometimes i can get pretty lonely. but..
well.. i always got my lappy here.. and someone important.
sigh..
alot on my mind. i try not to think about it too much.. i dunno.. i wanna see whats the outcome when 2010 arrived..
for now.. just go with the flow..
..whatever happen, happens.. through my holiday.. its more than just that.
its a important trip.
important matters to be.. u know.
so.. yeah...
towards the end of year.. ..hm...
pretty good i hope?
lifestyle's abit upside down sometimes.. but... i will get my way back.. i will.
focus less, worry less.
..hm..
k. .just wanna enjoy my week.. next week aint gonna be that fun.
mata
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