Whatever new goal that is =/

bro say he was knocking so long at my door.. but.. i didnt hear anything at all!! maybe cos my fan is on.. plus im doing alot of thinking... o well..
 bah
u know.. todays topic.. how to destress myself. i truly thought about it, and i cum up with no answer.
my only happiness lies with sammy.. u know. .time always spend with him happily.. that is how i look forward to life.
then suddenly..  work starts again..  tch... reahc home, clos eeyes, back to work.. endure the 9 hours. u know how that feels? then close eyes, wake up, work again.. tiem i spend with my colleguaes, my customers.. i think before long, i would've remember more than 10 regualr custs alreayd.
yea. definitely.

hm... .stress huh.. i never realy look at it and wonder. till jus now.. and.. yea. .theres no solution i guess.
today thought of heading back , then ask sam about the ieda of me going to see him.. in jan. but hten.. yea...
u knwo>
then .. chat3... was like.. .realized.. theres a limit.. and.. by july, i nid to get out.. to some place.. fresh air.. i duno. whatveer. i made a plan.. the most 3 months before july 2011, i should be bookign my tickets. and i will be going to sydney before my birthday. in case sam for whatever reason, couldnt come see me, i dun wanna risk spending myh birthdya all alone in sydney. so yea. im so gonna do that.
but i wont be so stupid. like my manager.. lol. .go walk ard beach at that time. alone somemore. yea.. even if walking ard alone, at least the park, or pubs outside still have ppl ne. .so safer abnit. .
but anyway, yea. .htat shold be my plan for now.
at least i have somehting to hold onto.. i know where im going.  with uncertainties, i find it so hard, so so difficult to move on...
if only i could learn to be like sam.. look far, and hold on..
but im goig crazy alreyad.. just wanna see him. .and u know. .mish him too much.. i guess.. my intake aint that strong compared to him..
sighs.. whatever happen, happens. .i have my target now. duno if i will change it in futture, but for now, at least theres plans to hold on to.. let me know where im going, how im gonna get there..
so yes..
sighs.. .couldnt wait any longer i supposed.. ..
anyway, after his holiday, even if dec or nov i couldnt take anymore leave. might as well on july. just do it. don waste it.
ah shoot.. then so troublesome if wanna bring laptop over. oh dang.. never thoguht of it =.=
ahh.. whatever!! thast liek next year. sooooooooooooooooo long later. sianz.. donw an thi nknow. o well.. just grab a goal and move on.. =/

almost 2am.. guess imma slp late abit huh... o wel..

hm........ o well. whatever it is, will try out his way huh.. try out his ..
try to look forward ..far one.. long3 ahead one. .i duno.. but. .just . .try i guess??

oh. .hope next year will have natas fair again. .at the right timing.
should be alrite..

argh.. sianz. at the thoguht of so long later =(((((((
sighs.........
why one year passed, me still .. like.. sighs... like couldnt find a way to accept yet?to get use to..
sux..
sigsh..

o wel.. work my way off for now. .
u know, i got 8 bloody shifts straight? ha. .i duno.. like. .=/ .. sighs........... what to do... ........
tch. ......
sianz..
sep is gonna be tough, oh btw, yay, finally can change back to white colour tops. woots! been waiting for that!!! haha... so yup.. great.
.so many things.. i thogth all must be share it out. .now i realized.. its actuall ynothign to just keep quiet.........
its weird..
its confuses me.. but welll, just learn along hte way..

was  chatting wiht my colleague. .how to handle ppl.. erm, that sort of thing. sighs.. u knwo, lets not tlak about this. =/ alrayd.. thigns revolving ard me.. its yea.. too much.

haiz.. k.. so.. thats all folks..
...........may i find my way.. somehow.. back to those days....... =/

its not near that time of month.. i think i might know why im so sad right now.. its almost fullmoon. =/ yes.. if u guys been reading since day 1, u might remmeber sumtin about it eh> ? yea.. thx to my horoscope =.= argh.... anyway, yup. i hate it. sighs... thc ar.. fullmoon.. make me suffer so much more by realising more.

ohm colleague also ask me to watch out for coleaguers.. i understans. .but duno isit becos they said sumtin behind my back or what. that, i duno. then the stupid guy, heard from my colleague that he say im more like the manager alreyad.. liek so sarcartisic, sianz.
o well .i dun give a d***n about him. whatever.  all i can do now, is learn, work, learn.. hang on for my dear life.. blah3...
look forward to my ultimate july let off... .thast it. if ned be mwill smuggle my lappy there. though its gonna be one hell of a trip troublesome for my lappy -_-

so sianz..... tch.. k.. just hang on for another day ba..

sighs.. i hate fullmoon when its causes me sad...
i hate it.. .=/

mata