Stop Breathing

hm....... tired day. been so tired. .and slpy abit.. i duno.. perhaps days been a lil too crazy these few dasy. u know i even forgot that i;ve not been having dinners? =.= haiz. baka desu.....

oh, had a nice dream in mrg ytd. hahha.. its always nice when a guy tell, or introduce to everyone he know about his gf. its swt eh.
anyway, yup.. had a dream of me and sammy.. then theres alot of his frens ard. .but he's holding me close.. oh, then when wakey, i thought it was real for a moment there..
its as though yea.. it felt so real when i wakey.. only for a few secs ba=. o well..

anyway.. been so stressful.. hm..
yea. .i dun feel like eating whenever theres any sort of stress or troubles going on =/
geex. totally forgot about that. no wonder i was so hungry just now..

watched a tv show.. real true life story.. erm. .short cut. .well, its about this girl kena misfortune , and ended up with bad health.. then the bf is like. .keeping vigil by her side everyday after work.. wil lvisit her. .waiting for her to wake. lucky enuff, she woke up finally after about 6 weeks.anbout one mothh lther then she can talk abit. however her body is bad now.. cant walk properly. .cant talk properly.. poor thing. she used to be so sporty..
but her bf stil lwanna marry her. alreayd wannted to propose.. but this thing happen.. then yea. they still got married.awwwwwww and he said hte most wonderful touching thing ever. 'if she can even wait one year for him to come back, even if it takes 10, or 20 years to wait for her to wakey, im willing to do so. ''. aw.... yes. .so touching i tell u.........
about the 1 year thing, well ,he went overseas to work for a year. so yea. before misfortune happens, they are like. .just normal bf and gf.. nothign serious til lwanna get marrried type. so yea..  so nice eh.. for a man to u know. .still idnt mind all this even if its painful, and keep by her side. .not willing to leave even when she ask him to(cos she dun wan be a burden to him).. aww....
=;)

so yup.. hm. .day.. been boring and tiring =. / im just tired.. so yea..
hm.. .=/ duno what to do now. .so blog abit. .before i forget..
hm.. done a lil bit of work. .oh, great.. my mamanger fren comingn down to sg .. from melb.. im sure they;re gonna have tons of fun in sg.. aw... so wish i could do that now. .must be so exciting and happy when u have someone close coming over to visit u eh.. aw.. i want it so badly.. haiz.. o well.. my turn will soon.. in monthssssssssssss
o well.. hm.. some work haven done yet.. but. .later ba. .heart abit stress and heavy.. =/
i duno hwy.. im trying to find ways to relax.. hm. .so yea......  tmr back to work. .i duno.. what to expect and stuff... cos.. yea. .somemore opening with that guy =,.= argh.. .o well.
hm.. just read something from facebook... sad... =/ its like... hmmm... i duno... its kinda disturbing... haiz.. ppl's life...
...... i duno what to say.. its horrible o do that to anyone who's been with u all hte way for 10 years.. u know.. spending her life and giving u everything.. ..haiz... its pitiful..
i guess.. life's like that ya know.. u can see some old couples out there.. still holding each others hands carefully.. walking together slowly.. smiling.. kinda blisssful look.. i mean.. those are really lucky couples eh..?
haiz.. so weird. .such a weird feeling its giving me. .touched my heart i guess...

hm. .abit slpy..

i felt something inside is shaking.. i couldnt breathe properly..  =/ its terrible..
this aint another day good...
=/ o well..
oh, i made a mistake. .that chocolate palce. .gosh.. not the one openign soon at my workplace there. .so yup.. nvm ba.. me can save more money that way. ha. ...
things been cutting back and short. it cuts deeply.
very tired... duno wht to do..

waiting and waiting always...
so.. im gonna have a new position.. ..wow.. like.. uh huh. .gotta be even more serious at work now eh.. just keep on doing waht im doing. .so yea.. .. future will be bright huh.. ..

=(

haiz... tch.. o well.. i gtg.. been sitting here.. done all that im supposed to..i think. duno what else to do now.. i duno.. do i?..

o well..

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