my sensitive nose

so tired....
sigh.. im so tired..
oh.. took mc.. =(
my manager best fren is coming over for one week.. just to visit her.. im so envious... ='(
i wish i could be happy like her.................. =(
oh.. sam finally tested out the galaxy phone.. i knew it was good.. so yea.. glad he tested it out finally, and end up liking it. well. .seems like. .he gota decide on plan s eh.. not too sure how the plans there work.. but yea.. .sighes..
i wish i am next to him..
i still rememebr how he llooks.. hoiw he talks .. how he ignored me.. how he was angry at me.. how he love me.. its gonna be a long time before we meet again.. im so scared....  thigns may will change(i hope not)... but faith.. and trust.. are the keywords..
without  it, we're nothing..
not say totally nothing.. but yea. u know wha i mena..
\he's my first love.. one whom i treasured alot....
i dun care how many guys out there is trying to get me. becos all i ever want is to have him by my side.. ='(
today.. me went to see doc.. huuu... all the memories that i had.. was hte only memory that i had with him.. he accompany with me to doc.. thast is.. i couldnt rememebr anythign else=/... today. i waited alone.. i see doc alone.. and thoguht i didnt have a high fever.. but doc say i have,... i was like.. gosh.. i din know that =(  i din know that i have such fever dude =/.... my house's thermometer suckxs.. =/
i din kbnow i had fevers before.. so many times. =(
sigh.....................................
however i survide.. but.. yea.. with a rpice that is.
its tough.. but i gotta do it... ...
tmr. .i  mc. i rarely mc.. only when i couldnt take it anymore, and when theres ppl to cover me, then i will take mc.
but i still don like it.. =/
im so scared....
my future to happiness is so far-away..... no one is gonna know whats gonna happen. .3 yrs? 5 yrs? or even 10 yrs in the future...  FUTURE... that is frightening..indeed...
are u afraid of ur own future??
its what makes us move us.. but at hte same time.. its frightening us to move on...
u gotta knw for sure what u are into.. for there might not be turning backs yea..
i love salim..
and it pains me everyday not being able to stay by his side..
but... some things.. u cant get it for granted...  listen peeps... that is important...
very =/
if ur partner is beside u now, slping or what, look at him  or her... give a kiss.... and wakey them softly.. tell them.. look into their eyes. .say it and mean it.. that u love them dearly..as ur life... some words.. simple as it might seem.. Mushy as it might be...
it can be a very powerful tool. powerful force.. to keep them with you.
let your feelings known.. Be known...............................
do not regret spending not enough time.. nor never say what u got to say when u have the time to..
tell them.. you love them..
oh wow.. by this time. i should be aslp by now..
but.. tonight is a lil' weird.. i couldnt slp.. not really..................................
u know.. my mucus is as sticky as glue now?? =/ haiz.........
i dun feel well.. doc say i have fever =(((( and.. i din expect that seriously ... =( and.. i so wish sam is here with me.. i could only remember him bringing me to doc='( as in my only vivd memory of going to doc is with him.
anyway... ... haiz...
i dunm feel so good right now=(..............
hm.............. ....  oh yea.. bored.. =/ nothign to do much whole day.. sick and tired to do so..
nothign much..
me so full now.. haiz... =/
k.. im tire.d.. i dun wanna talkno more..
mata