long time no see

been rrly tired and busy out witrh work lately... sorry no time to blog =/ v slpy too

anyway...
dunn owhere ive stopped at.. but i'll just type along yea. .mm. .today not feeling happy. sad. like wanna cry =(
though ytd was a good day at work.

mm...  oh yea. my finger. it was smashed pretty badly. =( i cried. the blood came gushing out. few days back alrdy. forgot to blog.
so yea. it was unberable. so painful.. sighs.
now still numb.. but took off plaster liao .
still healing v slowly.

mm..
sighs

anyway..
mm....... yea. even today now, im slpy n tired too. like not enough rest. next couple of days to come, will be alot more worse=(
... dunno wat to say
but somehow i like my job alot. but.. .dunno ba.. .

sighs.

mm.. s oyea.
sometimes ne. .i cant wait to venture into the future...
to see whats in store for me.. .will i be married by then? any children? or will i be doing something else ? something new?
future is unknown. but u certainly can plan and secured it.

ytd i was v tired.
took take 5 energy drink.
it worked perfectly for hours. it gave me the energy to focus on my customers. on the shop floor, i always need to give my 100% focus and attention to customers. at least i tried. ha.
so yea. it was gd.
but v addivtice i think. i  had that kinda urge to drink a 2 nd bottle. luckily it was busy n not enough manpower. so i didnt do it. somemore not cheap k.
but it wokred better than redbull and coffee
anyway, yea. i needed that 'drug 'drink to keep me up and going.
haiz

bu tyea. i hav probs of my own. everyone have them .
but,. i do my best to focus on customers. to smile. to bring out the best of myself on shopfloor.
ytd maybe cos o the energy drink"? ha. dunno ba. but even thoug i looked tired, i feel tired, i also feel very confident. i smiled and all. but.. fo rthose moments of quietness, u snapped out of it. .adn youre into ur world of prbs. facing it.
then.. u snapped out of that despair moment again. and you focus onto customers again.
its hard. cos one part of me is having to put on a strong front on the shop floor for hourssssssssss.
then when it is over, the darkness sets in.
but i do my best to be as gd as possible i think.
becos. .to much darkness, can kill.

its stepping into nov already....
so fast eh...
... sighs. i rrly have no idea of.. wats in hold fo rme.

i rrly nid to find more joy in my job.
and in my life.
haiz. o well.

mabe im too bore dnow. too slpy . uh huh.
type so long and so much huh. yea.

but yea. that confidence i felt.. so long ..nvr ever felt this way before.. i hope i can continue be that way. confident, but not arrogant. im nvr arrogant before in my life. so yea. nvr will i be.

wish sammy could be by my side at all times.
he;s my one true love.

mata