No Regrets

sigh.. wow so full mnow. stomach like gonna explode...

huu:(
got dc... cant watchy sam slping... :( sad...

sigh........

i'll make it a short blog ne,, ,,

was out till late.. just got back only..

reach home.. was surprised he's still waiting for me. .
huu,,,,,,,,,,,,

sigh......

dunno how to describe my feelings bah..

just so wanna cherish him.. sigh.

argh..... so frustrated cant watch him slp now:(............ huu.......................................

:(

my fren's fren.. broken up with gf. she's a b*tch according to my c fren. i dunno but.. well.. .=/.. i belive so. but its a long story..
anyway..
sigh.

then this other so called bloody faithful guy.. argh!! he's supposed to be going over to malaysia to join his gf already!! just months to go onnly or somethgn!! been separated for 2 years!! Lds too. then like..
i heard from my c fren. he like this girl in singapore. but she's attached. he knew they cant be together . yet he confesses to his gf in malaysia he fall for another girl. and say he and the girl cant be together though. but his gf is too upset. .say tehy break up bah. he agree readily. then soon realise after all the one he love most is his gf after all. he ask her back.. but. .:( she's already too heartbroken.. and don want him no more..
..

see.. this kind of regrets... :( its forever...
its been through so much hardwork.. and love. .yet.. this bloody stupid guy.. argh!!... just abit more only!!!! to think my fren alwasy say he's very faithful to his gf in malaysia.. really disappointing.. .:(
one mistake.. one stupid mistake dude... sigh..............
you loses something important forever.. :(

dunno why me heard so many love stories from my frens today..

another..

a couple .broke up after about 2 yrs together. they never contact each other at all.. then 5 years later. they suddenly reunited. met up again.. and few months later ,got married.and have 2 kids now.
wow.. isnt this fate?.. or something..

today... i was drawing something.. then thought of the fact that im missing out on years without being able to feel or witness sam's every actions and moves.. kawaiiness.. swtness... everything........ ... heart felt so hurt.. tears just flow out..
thats gonna be one of my regrets in life.. really... the most important years.. i couldnt go through with him personally.. that really hurts alot.. ..
a year and a half of my life... had been really wonderful and colourful.. realising the fact that im losing himj for a few more years.. really2 sux.. :(

i should be slping now.. but... ... im wishing he's gonna wakey. .cos wanna see him slp... :(

pains me to be away from him.. pains him to miss me too.. .:(
sigh.....
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likewise. he don like me out at night.. me don like him out late too.. but.. what to do.. ..i cant be with him... no matter how much i wishes he's beside me...
then being apart.. hurts so much....

..perhaps when school starts. things should be easier for him huh...

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sigh...

my hand reaches out to the screen... so near yet so far his face seems...
yet still look.. .. aww...

i don knowif i could fall aslp.. ..maybe might try..
but kinda resist...
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i..
don wanan have any regrets or waste time like they did...

k.. time for me to stop...

....mata..