omg.. my head hurts sooooo much on fri night! till wanna burst! then in the moning when i woke up, im ok already.. ..but the moment i see that aunie milo, omg.. my head hurts allll the way till night!! can u belive that!? -_- but... ..hm.. amazingly.. thought not that surprisingly.., seeing sammy makes such a huge difference. my head heals instantly. ..:)
theres not a single smile shown on my face at all throughout the morning im working with her. but!!! thats when syah came in, and sort of relived me!! he gib me my First smile and laughter of the day!!!! i cant name all of them. but that day, alot of ppl can tell i look so sad... hm. actually i don feel that sad.. ..just.. feeling down.. ..and.. hm.. .. yeah.. very down.. anyway, thx syah! even for tha mere 1 hour,.. its enough already. .to let my smile come back.. and..
2nd half of the night. was very good. cos im all back to myself.. cos im working with my own ppl.
oh.. this is so scary... that auntie ask me to.. ..hm.. kk.. no complains or whatsoever,., im doing my job.. k, me was tip toeing on the top of the ladder!! it was so scary! becos i couldnt concentrate on looking down, and balancing myself...! for a very good reason... -_- i was tip toeing.. trying to tie this wire thingy.. onto the pipe on top of my shop.. its 2 decor thingy.. and.. hm.. yeah... tip toe all the way just to tie it carefully.. ..gosh... ...thats scary.. c os i can only concentrate on that wire.. if i look down, im so gonna be up there further more. but. .well, i made! it! and im alive!
hm... .... tch.. ..i dunno.. ..sigh.. im wondering man.. ... partime job.. or fulltime job is better.. hm. ..gosh... ..... tch... haiyo!!!! nvm.. need a few months to sort things out. .. ...huu.... .i wonder if its gonna work.. ..
tonight.. will be working withe that auntie again.. ..maybe she's right.. ..just get used to the hardwork for now,.. and everything will settle down to places.. .. sammy is asking me to scold her or fight back and stuff..
hm.. i know. .that might be the right thing.. ..but.. when i think of others,.. ... i cant that man.. ..i duno.. ..would i be so rude then? i hate to be rude..or to be a nasty person. but when im angry..or something disturbs me,.. yeah.. ...then.. ..XD ha. no choice. i'll burst. like a volcano. and its very3 scary.. very3 bad... hm.. come toe think of it.. lucky zuan never kena from me before he go! XD only a few ex staffs saw that.. ..hm.. that other side of me. ...is so different.. ..you cant imagine i'll be a person like that. but i can be. only when my anger is trigger.
...i guess... almost every evil person got a dark and evil side to them.. ..i guess... ... mine is just locked up.. .. unleashed by the circumstances and ppl.... hm.. like for those crystal jade guys who love o disturb ppl.. ..one day.. who knows. maybe
will kena from me eh?.. wonder.. ..how will i gonns scold them.. ..
its really Not in my blood to retaliate..
but.. ..ohw ell.. im learning ok! XD as a goody two shoes person..
not easy k! life gotta suffers sometimes. ..
kk, gotta get ready for work soon.
tonight no bloggy..
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