Turning Night =/

sighs.. duno whats going gone alreayd.. thought.. tch. .thought tonight could just relax or enjoy abit.. but yea.. =( .. i duno.. i just brought home a bag of questions marks, whys.,. and perhaps 2 lost frens..

o well................. waht to do.. .
i know what to do now.. i shall just make frens with my colleagues, and make frens with fren's frens. fed up p with ppl already. its so damn difficult to trust ppl.. i duno..
its like.. at hwat age alreayd???? ppl still playing backstab words.. wth. ..tch.. this is insane.. .. sighs. .cept that.. this time .. ( i could've lost my childhood fren for good. ..
sighs...
its ok.. life moves on.. i'll be fine even without her. if what my fren said is true, then she's the most stupid idoito chilidha freaking fren i ever had!!!!!!
sighs............ =(
...
feeling down=/ .. coudnlt talk to sam about this now either.. =(..
sigsh................
o well..
just lose 2 frens.. i'll get more frens from other place.s.. who needs them. f them.

so foolish and stupid of some ppl .. to believe some words.. im glad im fren vbelieve in me still. .otherwise.. o well.. both of them wouldve done the same too..
i duno..
its so unexpected..
i felt s wronged by someone i hardly know for long.. ..sighs.. =/ so baka...

its ok. i could always go somewhere and sit down, listen to live band, have a drink, look at my phone, notebook, and chill alone. i don need stupid ppl like them.
speaking of which. , been ecountering ppl who keep truing thir stupid heads to look at me. this is bull*hit. bah... whatever. .they wanna look just look.. shameless men..
whatever.. i just walk away thast all,.
sianz... duno what some guys are thinking.
one angmoh guy even keep looking at me even though he's hugging and kissing another woman!!! this is really3 stupoid. -_-
i duno.. sighs.. u'll never realy know what one is thinking about. .=/ this is frightening. .to be able to get hurt by the one u love =( im scared.. so scard. .=(

o well..
guess tonight's outing kinda left me more with tourbles.. busted.
hopefully sunday night will get beter =( o well... what to do.. sighs

trying hard not to let small thigns get me down..
then there i was.. holding my phone since i step outta the house.. i didnt even let it put into my bag. i was holding on to it.. or on the table next to me even when i eat..
but. .still didn get to msg sammy much.. i udnerstand. .must;ve been so fun there.. partying all night there.. i duno.. o well.

BAH.... tch.. i duno.. sucks..  hate all htese foolish childish thingkings.. by aman.. ..arhg...

today.. again.. since wakey, bene sneezing terribly ,. then good thing.. i finally remember to take my med.. -_- yea.. kept forgetting.. haiz.. hten take.. then remeber theres another med.. then 2 hours later, me took another med. cos hte firts med aint working. .waht to do. .know htats wrong.. but yea.. cant take it.. my nose too.. argh!!! so after that, still snezzing abit. but abit begettr. .then rest for like 15 mins.. then yay.. stop runny abit.. but then still have abit..
but yea.. now better.. stop runnign liao..

mhy fren say i look really so different from the image at my shop. cos my frens will drop by someitmes to say hi mah.. tehn see if im free to head out.
so yea.. i was like. .uh huh.. htats our company image mah.. have to wear simple. .cover shoes.. blah3.. but when i get a chance to doll myself up, thats another stoory. another girl.
i have so many personailities. i wasnt really suprised at all with what he said.
i could one day, dress normal liek a country girllXD.
then another,m sexy theme.,. < then another, sweet... then another, cool...
its like.. versatile ba.. i duno.. yea. i don have one specific style or.. personalility.. i like who i am.. but yea ..used to think like.. why are there so many diff part of me. .but now.. well, just treat it as unique ba..
its nice to always be diff somehow.. u know..
fierce the first day, then sweet the nezt..
o well..

whatever.

erm.. so yea..
haiz...
but even if i  never go out, i'l;l still be bored at hom e.. perhaphsp even snezzing still.. then keep waiting for sam's msg.. which he never realy msg lots..  and i'll go lie. .crazy?,. so yea.>
at least there're something else to keep me busy= ./
but.. somehow. .found out the truth of how ugly frenships or humans really cna be.. they are so crazy.
=( .. sighs... tch...
o well.. hwat more could i say... ....
..haiz.. tell u guys here sffirst ba..
tmr wakey.. should feel beter eh?.. ..
o well..

let me fnd my peace somehow..

and yeah. my memoy.. haiz.. espeically names.. gosh.. and titles.. omg.. so difficult to remebr. .or recalled.. =/
im losing my memories.. till i find a way to find them back.. liek that scary title of a movie.. gosh. .i tell u.. frightening.. i totally 3 forgotten whats the name of it.. omg.........
so scar sia.. like.. allways tlak about it soeitmes. hten suddenly one day forget liao. .dots..

mata