Tired Out

sigh........

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no smile across my face now.. totally dead tired.. =( feeling.. sigh. .terrible i should say?.. ..
im so tired.. tmr another 10 hrs to go before i got my break. sigh... i wonder whats gonna happen when i come back tmr night.
just now, i wanted to change into my shorts. but i couldnt find it. i think mum helped me clean up or something.. i dunno.. i open up the door feeling angry anf frustrated.. blah3 abit.. she kept quiet. not blahing at her. but. .sigh.. i cant help it. i need something to vent my anger on. not her. but the shorts.

tch.......
im so sleepy. so tired.
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sigh.....
life's tiring man...

ytd me joined sammy slp early together. but 9 hours of slp aint enuff for me. freaking frustrated now.
one thing thats great about webcam though.. its no matter how u cry. if u hide well enuff, put on a smile, and altogether u can hide everything.
..but hiding is tough.. pain desu..
but u don want the party to worry. isnt it..

..about one more week plus,.. it'll be sam's 2nd month away.. ah.. ... me still.. haven gotten used to it yet.. sometimes still feel.. yeah..... .. otherwise when walking up the stairs just now wont... .. =/

just one more day to go.. :(
..sigh.. sorry i sigh so much.. i just need my tirednees out abit.. sometimes i chill out, makes me more tired than ever. one off day only mah.
then hours so much.

oh.. heard soul got a better job. ..higher pay.. thats really great huh .. finally..

...hm..

u know.. i just realised.. i wasnt doing that great nowadays.. im happy for sammy there though.. most important is things should be doing alrite now for there.
as for me.. perhaps i need to find what is it that i might need to change. or perhaps not change.. but get back to the old days. hm.. this is kinda confusing huh..
lifestyle kinda changed for abit.. perhaps i don like it.. or not yet used to it.. or perhaps both.
but in anycase....,
i don feel happier than how i used to.

theres nothing pretty much to look forward like i used to..

..wooof... .... =/ well.. perhaps im just too tired out from m long working hrs huh. lasted for ard 4 months ard.. straight like that.. of course i'll break down. im not a strong man ya know.

sammy sounded energetic today. =.= guess must be the oxygen..
geez.. so nice.. huu.. me really needed that lots i bet.
but most of all, theres only one thing i'll need ever most... ...

good thing theres laptop i bring to work with me.

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jaa mata.......... ....