Black Xmas Tree

i was out today... actually really didnt feel like heading out at all.. =/ but body's like kinda aching.. anyway sam wont be online for the day.. as in be able to chat or anything.. so.. yeah =/ staying at home seens so boring for today. so.. decieded to head out for a walk anyway.
hm... ok.. just walk2.. see... nothing much.. =/ bought some travel essentials.. hm.. yeah. thats about it.

gosh.. gonna sleep in abit. sigh.. i really hate sleeping time nowadays. :(
last night.. was ok... but... well.. stil lhaving some weird feelings =/
i awoke in the middle of the night, LOL!!! thinking to myself, 'shoot!! why! why let me wakey in the middle of the NIGHTime! and its not even morning yet T_T' huu....
yeah.. then the door give out crepting sounds.. then.. i remember the couple of times(yes i wakey more than once-_- )when i wakey, i keep looking at my door. LOL dunno why! XD like blur2 wakey.. sleepy eyes.. loook at it the first thing me wakey. thenn its dark.. then i keep seeing this black xmas tree.
i wanna check out my bro's book about dreams. but i don wanna freak out or anythign .so refrained from doing so. but yeah his book is 80% accurate i gotta say.

hm.. so. yeah.. as i was saying... this black xmas tree.. its more of the feeling.. of. .the line between dream land and reality.
i cant even tell if im in dream, or in my real home. its like.. weird... but the times me wakey in middle of night and said that line, its true. hahaha... cos im so angry to wakey at night:P haha. so i remember. the tree too. i keep waking and seeign it at my door. i wonder if thats dream too. anyway i dont care.
the earlier i sleep, the faster daylight comes for me.
so.. yup. anyway i;ve been feeling sleepy all time round. i wonder why.
oh gosh...
what would i do tonight.. cant wait to get the night time over with. i just hate it when im wakey in the middle of my sleep!!! middle of night somemore. huuuu sianz.

oh, i dreamt that sam actually came to fetch me from singapore, to sydney. LOL. i was like so surprised! hahaah... so nice ar.. :P
well. i guess thats the only nice dream for the night.
i just never get to sleep that comfortably. =/ sigh

so... ok.... hm..
tmr.. i think might be a lil bit more exciting.
only down side is i wont get to chat with him lots again. =/ well.. i gotta get used to it. what to do.

mata