back in sg day 2

gosh. sooo slpy and tired! very slpy.

anyway... today auto wakey at 900am plus... then head out for breakfast with parents. .din have lunch. cos we went out. dad wanna find his jeans.
spend a good old 2 hours at ntuc after eating. gosh. but i think its great. just chilled... go ntuc.. simple n nice.

of course.. wakey evem in the middle of night still first thought is.. syd.. him... gosh im back home now? haiz.
but yea. o well.. ..
i have his perfume scent of smell here. so yea. its great.
can smell him anytime i wan.

so yup. went to parkway...
din do much there. but just nice day to chill and all before im back to work again. pastimers complained to me they kena scold by wati. hauiz... .
and so many of them aske dme why aint i the manager instead. ha... so honour to have them all ask me that. .really.

i deteste to talk abot work today. kk.. need to stop. one more day of freedom

mm... so yup. oh ytd too tired to blog again. so yea. oops.

gosh i miss the feel of holding his hand.. his surprise kiss.. his smiles and all.. huu.. T_T sad.
really miss everything... =/
even when out to pp, i kept thinking of the places and him at syd..

i recalled another question he asked me in his car that day.. .about me will like to be in korean style,look or somethieng.. . i replied no i htink. ha. not sure why he ask..
i guess its quite limited. like. .they are pretty scary when it comes to u know.. their hair and extreme make up... very .. erm.. extreme.. .weird sometimes..
whilst japanese. .they can be cute, sweet demure and sexy looking all at the same time. i really like that.
but. u know hwat. i'll be me.
=)
thats the best. cos everyone is unique and indiviual.. i'll be myself. not be liek someoen els.e
and yea. nvr would i thought he'll like all these korean songs and all. ha. i like a couple of them. but very limited.
u know my taste. i have erm. .so called high taste? .. lol.
nah .just very difficult for me to like someone or something. unless its love at first sight, or that somethign or someone hav the talent to porve me wrong.
u knwo my first impressions of boa>? its bad. i hated her. LOL. it was till her 2nd album jap) out, then i like her. lol. cos she s so talenbted. voice dance personaility all so good and ike a pro. i hate artists without true talent only based on looks.
thats why i really liek her. and she's not proud. shes down to earth. haiz. redz met her once u know when she came to sg. lol he say she's so nice and frenly. gosh.. how i wish to take pic wit her. lol. jk

but this trip still enables me to know him more and thigns he do.. work thingy.. life thingy. what his thoughts.. not say huge portions of it. .but betetr than nothing=)
worthful trtip ne

mm.. dad's bro passed away just now.
... im not sad. because i know his family ill treated my mum . even when she's pregnant. long storey o well.
anyway, so yup. we dunno them well. nvr keeop in touch. .etc. i don care either. ppl who ill treated my mum, .. ha. pls. don talk to me. i don care. so yea.

but yea. o well.. .hope my dad is fine ba.... =/.
know how his bro died? mum say he keep on smoking and drinking even when he's been to hospital alreayd. he discharged stil ldo the same.
drinking3.. .smoke3.... and soemmroe not drink normal beer or what. he drink the strong type. i guess its whiskey or i dunno. something liek that ba.
hoep thats a wake up call fo rmy dad. =/
he's only 50 plus. and he's dead now. haiz...
thats what happen when u dun listen and keep on doing the bad things=/

...thats its huh. .so thats what they meant whne they say.. when u died, ppl around u get hurt and grieve...
while you'll be away for good.(either to heaven or hell)
yea. nothigns over. ppl stil lgethurt cos of what u did. when u ended ur life. but sometimes....
choices are difficult. one could get so desparate to just u knwo. do a foolish thing and never get to turn back..

haiz. another day is almost over. =/
mm...

oh i noted down a couple of japanaese movie dvd or soemthign whiel at giant uspermarket! just wanna find htem in manga reader.com. hehe. recommeneded by him .=) would love to try that out. but dunno wheere to start. so hoepfully i'll be able to find those i saw.

pspellings sucks i know. forgive me. im so tired to type properly =/

mm.. hope redz iphone is ok. got problem. omg. poor thing. he bought it like... less tha a month ago ?
gosh. somemore batt cant take out.. sim card so special kind. =.= omg.
so ma fan

haiyo. really miss the nasi goreng at syd.. the spicy one. ..haiz. no chance to eat now=/ huu

seriously. instant noodles taste so much better than their 10bucks meal. gosh. why their cooking skill sucks O.o
but really. i dun mind. cos overall the stay there, im just so thankful and glad to be a part of where he is.. =) uh huh.. thats all it matters.
doesnt matter how much he could do fo rme. .just so thankful i even get to see him here and there....
haiz... mis shim...
all is worth is. nothing good comes unless u get through big rocks ahead of ya.
good lasts forever.
uh huh.

slpy. ha.
mm.. k ba.
gonna go liao.
how i wish to club with him and chill out again.

missing sammy dearly...
hope he get well alrayd...
but he still need plenty of slp and proper rest.

ok redz back. he changed for a new phone .same model. ha. so troublesome. but his pics and all all gone. omg.

mm... so yup.
todya now cant really think much.

mm.. hoepfull ytoday year uni wil lbe awesome for him as well.. he always warn me that he's gonna be busier and all .ha. i understand.. so yup... hope he'll be fine and health all good too ne...

i just wanna say. i am me. one and only me.
my style. my own. mutiple styles . yuniquely me.
=)

cheers

mata