05 April 2012

dark of the night

wow so nice.. so long.. my fren flew off meet his gf at melbourne fo r3 weeks. ha. reminded me of my first trip there for three weeks.. that long huh. but soon time flies, then.. going back liao. haiz. well, hope he'll find a way to her permanently ba. whatever their dreams are

huu slammed my finger with door accidentally .so suey =( nail chipped, nail bed still hurts, and skin teared and bleeding. wound hurts even as i typed.. near knucked there mah the wound

gosh so listless today=/ 
tired as alwasy

wonder how sammy i snow.. must be frustrating huh? whe u got so many weird questions to figure out .school is so.. mm.. yea. but he can do it ba. no ppl will say school is easy right

last night so frightening. after wat my parents told me about my room smell,s then smell disappeared... at first i din think much of it as i was so sick n drowsy n half wakey. . then at night it striked me.. yea. why my aparetns would say that so suddebn. .why couldnt i smell it. but perhaps due to my one sided blocked nose. but tehn again .. i tried to breathe in deep and all, but couldnt smell it. it happened after i opened up the door to go bath... after bath then dad told me about it. mum went it and said yea. but it disappeared (the smell) soon after she went in to comment on it. gosh .freaked me out at night whilst trying to slp. but nice under blankie.. hugging bloster missing someone..
yet stil lafraid.. then guess waht. omg. 
..i had nightmares. multiples. and i even woke up dunno one time or more to se eif i was relaly awake or what. cos my dream, gotta do with ghost la.. .but anyway, in my dream, its exactly when im slping, then get wakey and things happened.. what it does to me.. god.. =/ im scared to slp tonight too. 
i could still remmeber its eerie voice .. =( huuuuuuu
the more i say the more i don like. especially the feeling when u wakey panting and heart  beating , but all alone in the room =( huu

perhaps me think too much and iwas too afraid before i fall aslp. thats why will have so many nightmares hor ?
huuu=( i hate nightmares. and i hate to wakey curl up under blankie shut tight my eyes trying to slp again while the fear lingers on .huu really sucsk

haiz. but anywya, 
...yea... im relaly hoping tonight i'll slp through. .nothign bad will happen.... 
sometiems u just cant control what u think mah.. especially in q``uiet nights

u know.. i think ..mm. .i shouldnt hold on to that thought liao.. 
perhasp i was so sick and couldnt think straight.. telling him i wish he could accompany me.. 
but yea.. he got his thigns to do.. i rrly shouldnt said that. 
i mustnt u know.. 
o well.. 
nothing i sperfect. sickness makes me forget about that huh. 
couldnt think straiht .was so.. .zzz like wanna.. yea. 
terrible days. 
today better. just stil llistles sand really hungry..
plus as always, tired

mm.. i wonder if next time i should still cut bangs? so many ppl say it suits me.. my young teens staffs commented i look like  alittle girl =.= ;;; antoer say like japanese cute cute hairstyle.. ahh.. japanese hairstyle? ^^ haha. i wouldnt mind that. but.... dots.. little girl ar.. mm.... i dunno man.
i'll se ehow ba. .bangs grow fast so yea... 
but since i got so many compliemnts. .mm.. i dunno. 

work  alongside with stresses , and stuffs.. .haiz. sales figures... 
=/ sometiems i wishes for thigns to be simpler.. 
but i want money. so i can destress. so i can travel. 
so yea. no pain no gain. nothing good comes easy. oh. thast what he told me that time ar O.o

anwyay, me trying not to press too hard. my finger still hurts even when i type..

slpy liao... but.. not gonna slp early tonight i guess?

i guess my fren in melborune now must be all teary and happy huh..the two of them. 

ha. this time time, come to think of it, i did not cry when i met sammy. XD
maybe cos he wasnt like waiting there on time. or maybe i cried enough..and yea still crying ove rmy lost money. XD ha.. 
what an experience .. if only i could bring him around sg..
if only he can do what an adult to do - to travel on his own without permissions.. o well..

...k ba. shoulders aching.. back aching. .body aching. .eyes slpy n tired..

gtg

jaa mata

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